i am such a fucking trainwreck
>20
>art student
>borderline personality disorder
>disgusting body
i just want a nice bf who will b kind to me and listen to my problems
is it too much to ask to be famous on r9k and have loads of orbiters? ;____;
>>37016884
I'm no orbiter, but I'll listen to you if you wish to talk.
>>37016884
>borderline personality disorder
Oh God run for the hills
>>37016884
heh I guess it's your lucky day m'lady
>tfw spending another birthday alone on /r9k/
Happy birthday anon. I did 2-CB on mine, yesterday.
>>37016872
Happy birthday, bud. My last 6 or so have been spent alone in my room as well, I'm used to it.
>>37016872
Merry Birthmas, OP
I hope you find peace in this world or the next
what's the closest you've ever been to a romantic relationship, robots?
i'll start:
>studying mechanical engineering at uni, so only 6 girls in my classes, most of them sluts/turbonormies
>one of them is a tomboy, really into music
>i find her cute, even though she's somewhat outgoing and popular
>one day she overhears me talking to a guy while we were exiting class, joins in, we take the same bus and talk until she drops off
>this keeps on until the end of the semester
>fast forward to next semester
>only see her twice a week, can barely talk to her, stop regular conversations
>this thursday i tried to approach her again after nightclass
>start talking about music, it's going great, i pretend i have to go to the ATM so i could keep walking alongside her for a little while
>she jokes about me protecting her from robbers, we have a nice conversation
>eventually we have to go our separate ways
>"oh ok anon, have a nice night"
>she kisses me on the cheek and we go our separate ways
even though she didn't mean it in a romantic way this is the closest i've ever been to a relationship. it felt great.
>>37016995
>unless you live in Brazil or italy
>i unironically live in Brazil
fug. well, she probably has a boyfriend or something like that, she plays in a band and stuff. still, it felt nice being kissed by my crush.
>>37016860
One time, a girl yelled at me for staring at her chest when we were both on the train
I still fap to this memory
>Pokemon diamond/crystal comes out during sophomore year in hs
>a lot of students have a copy, one day a senior asks if I can do a trade to evolve his Magmar
>turns out he is friends with a relative so I wind up running into him a while later at their house
>eventually the three of us hang out more in the summer, turns out he's also into anime and manga
>senior year, debate asking him out to prom but decide not to because he had graduated, stay at home instead
>wind up at the same college he's attending so we hang out there and occasionally go to the movies together
Someone commented at one point that he would never invite anyone over to hang out at his house and I was there a couple times. I feel stupid for drifting apart from but I had a lot of family drama and felt like a dead weight because I didn't drive or have any income until I got a job. I wish I had said something about it instead of keeping it to myself for so long.
Me and my gf
jealous neet faggots?
>>37016703
Nope. Her head is too small.
kys globalist scum
>>37016703
Go away kushner you fucking snake.
When did you graduate highschool?
I'm graduating this year
2005
Redid 4th year, would've been 2004 if I didn't slack off.
2002. I was class of 2004 and graduated early though.
>>37016678
>>37016723
Are you guys gonna make out?
I bet it feels weird to attend Columbine High School.
Holy fuck, I just realized that current Columbine seniors weren't even born yet when the shooting happened.
Fuck I'm old.
My grandmother worked at Columbine High School the day of the massacre. She had been an English teacher as well as a counselor. She told me Harris and Klebold were losers :^)
>>37016626
Yeah, attending a school with its name typed out in fucking coming sans must be the worst...
The most expensive mistake you can make in life is having a kid.
The second most expensive mistake you can make is getting involved with a woman.
The most expensive mistake you can make in life is getting into expensive drugs you retard
Yep. And be poor and the kid grows up poor and fucked out of a good childhood.
>>37016644
23 yo weed user father here
I spend about $20 a week on weed and about $60-120 a week on misc baby stuff including diapers and whatever else he needs
How do I stop looking like a gamer and look like a badass instead?
I thought it'd be over after my teens but I still look dumb.
>>37016150
Well, it won't just happen, OP. If you want to look somewhat like the pic, it would take a long time of lifting and building muscle. Dedication. I actually recommend going to the gym. It's not as scary as it seems unless you go to a shitty place (avoid the big chains). After a while it either starts being fun or you just keep going because you feel guilty if you don't. Home gyms are good, but it's preferably to pay for a membership at first because that at least will give you a reason to go.
>>37016150
By gamer do you mean STICC or do you mean fatass? If you're a stick you need to eat big and lift a lot, if you're fat you just need to watch what you eat and lift a lot. If you want to get ripped really fast, roids with lifting is a shortcut, but with roids you need to keep using them or keep lifting like crazy.
>>37016150
If it's related to your face / frame, forget it, it's genetics
Why are you not having sex with your straight friends right now?
cause that's gay
>>37015753
I used to suck my friends' dicks when I was younger though
We all drifted apart and they have (((girlfriends))) now :/
>>37015753
Why even engage in this self deception if you live in a country where being gay isn't a big deal?
Why don't you smoke weed robots?
>>37015721
I smoke dick instead
>>37015721
How do l acquire this?
>>37015721
>tfw you will never be this alpha
why live
Will good morals and respect ever come back?
I hope so. Like my grandfather used to say: "Slap a Jap, buy war bonds".
>>37015718
>old people
>moral
>respectful
The closer you get to dying the less of a fuck your give.
It doesn't seem like that will be the case, sadly...
What's wrong with me
Never been gay or had homo urges, but recently I've been crushing HARD for my best friend I've never felt like this towards him before but now he's all I think about, I just want to love him forever, but I tried looking at gay shit, Gay porn, gay hentai, even traps and I don't like it. It's just him and idk what to do. What's wrong with me?
>>37015300
Have the same feeling OP. Always been straight but one day I had a complete mental breakdown and developed psychosis and also fell madly in love with my best friend.
It's more healthy for you to embrace you feelings than try to smother them. If your friend is straight that would be really tough to deal with.
>>37015300
Post a pic of his face. nice dubs btw
>>37015416
It's a bad pic but it's the only one I have (He's not photogenic)
Why do men play female characters in video games? Is it really just "nice ass lol"?
No traps please. We all know why you play girls.
because why the fuck not it's a fucking game
>>37015101
Brother plays girls because runescape era catfishing, never got over it
>>37015101
Males understand female aesthetic more than females do. Also when you're playing a video game I'm sure most people subconsciously try to self insert as the male main character. Most male main characters are not the kind of guy that plays video games, so it's much easier to just play as eyecandy.
LXII
1. Use a name in the namefield.
2. Busy edition: I have to work and won't be able to be there full time, though I'll do my best; others abound, have no fear.
3. Be listened to and cared for.
how do you stop derealizing?
earlier i was surprised when i saw myself in the mirror
>>37015185
I have similar issues. Seeing yourself as if you were someone else is disgusting, in my experience. Do you find it disgusting too?
You'll derealise less when you stress less. What worries you?
Have you been depressed for a while?
>>37015031
Hey Nick. How have you been doing? It's good that you're busy at least.
how was she
did it fucked up you badly
how did she ended up alone
Post stories, experiences, opinions all that stuff related to the subject
>>37014984
>how was she
she's lovely, always tried to make me happy, and tried to make use of what we had when we didnt have enough
>did it fucked up you badly
i'd like to think it didn't but that depends on the person
>how did she ended up alone
she fell for a chad who didnt want to settle down
My dad died when I was around 14 or so. The damage was already done by him, and he was damaged himself
Mom is not the type to get another man and I wouldn't like it anyway
>how was she
Nicest, kindest person imaginable. It tears me up that I'm a loser 26 year old KV who will never get to repay her by giving her the grandkids she wants so badly.
>did it fucked up you badly
I definitely became more sensitive and less masculine than my friends who had fathers around full time.
>how did she ended up alone
My dad is an alcoholic with a ton of mental problems. It was inevitable.