how was she
did it fucked up you badly
how did she ended up alone
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>>37014984
>how was she
she's lovely, always tried to make me happy, and tried to make use of what we had when we didnt have enough
>did it fucked up you badly
i'd like to think it didn't but that depends on the person
>how did she ended up alone
she fell for a chad who didnt want to settle down
My dad died when I was around 14 or so. The damage was already done by him, and he was damaged himself
Mom is not the type to get another man and I wouldn't like it anyway
>how was she
Nicest, kindest person imaginable. It tears me up that I'm a loser 26 year old KV who will never get to repay her by giving her the grandkids she wants so badly.
>did it fucked up you badly
I definitely became more sensitive and less masculine than my friends who had fathers around full time.
>how did she ended up alone
My dad is an alcoholic with a ton of mental problems. It was inevitable.
>>37015375
>Nicest, kindest person imaginable. It tears me up that I'm a loser 26 year old KV who will never get to repay her by giving her the grandkids she wants so badly.
Nigga get a grip of yourself. You owe her.
>>37014984
Alcoholic who kept custody of me after she cheated on my father.
My father's successful whereas my mother lives in a council house. I'd probably be successful and not an absolute fucking failure if I lived with my father.
>>37014984
>how was she
bipolar, literal i can be ur angle/devil meme, sadly most of the time she was a schizoid egoistic sociopath, but deep down she loves me i guess? still remember when she threw a knife at me when i was a kid because i didnt want to repeat a joke
>did it fucked you up badly
the reasons why im so fucked up are various, this isnt one of the major ones
>how did she ended up alone
she cheated on my dad (total bro still now) with an ahmed, dad didnt like it
Let me drop out of fifth grade but made no attempt to home school me
She was just very protective. Now she has a daughter with terrible separation anxiety that wants to sleep with her every night at nine years old, so I guess she's doing something wrong again.
>>37015375
you re 26. you have time. leave this board and go live. at least do it for your mom.
>>37014984
>how was she
I think she tried her best, but she undeniably did a shitty job. It was very obvious looking back now I was everely depressed when I was younger and she didn't do anhything.
>did it fucked up you badly
I'm in both the top 1 percent of wealth and academic achievement for people my age. ALMOST wagecucked min wage full time when I was 16 when she said I wasn't smart enough for high school after dropping out due to depression, never really forgave her for this. (went back and graduated valedictorian)
My brother is a poor HS dropout and thats how I should have turned out.
>how did she ended up alone
By being fucking retarded. She is a literal 9/10 6' oxford grad, and my dad clearly wasn't right for her. Don't know what she was thinking
>>37014984
learn some proper english you subhuman nigger
>>37016974
>I'm in both the top 1 percent of wealth and academic achievement for people my age.
Leave.
>>37017116
You wanna know something sweeetie?
It doesn't stop you feeling dead inside at all.
The only time I've been happy in years was when I had a dream I was sitting at a lake with my 2/10 female friend as my gf.
>>37014984
>how was she?
Divorce happened when I was 12 and messed her up pretty bad. She was a great parent mostly, but highly pressurizing in some respects
>Did it fucked you up badly
Difficult to tell really. I'm successful and self sufficient, but have trouble making real friendships
>how did she end up alone
my dad had an affair with and then married his secretary
>>37017226
I don't care. You have a better life than almost everyone, and you still feel dead inside? Fuck you, you're an ungrateful piece of shit.
>>37014984
I post texts that she sends me sometimes. This one in particular gets a fair deal of keks/sympathy, especially the first time I posted it.
>how was she
She's trying her damndest and I love her for it, but sometimes...
>did it fucked up you badly
Undoubtedly. I understand she's coming from a place of love, but she snoops around a lot and I wouldn't have to hide so damn much if she were just a little more accepting of different lifestyles. Also there's her saying me and my brother are failures, she hates us, she gives her soul for us and we treat her like shit (literally the worst things that me and my brother have done are smoke hwheed and watch porn)
>how did she ended up alone
Dad left when I was like 3. He comes back as often as he can, but he travels a lot for paintless dent work and apparently he was shitty to my mom? He doesn't want me to be a little bitch though which I respect (the idea, not really the choice of words).
>>37017364
You can be wealthy and smart, but if you're chronically unattractive you're still going to have a shit life
>>37017364
and I'm sure there's someone out there who has a worse life than you. just kill yourself already you simple minded piece of shit
>>37017364
Yes, and I also had a shittier life then a lot of pampered neckbeards on this board.
I would trade being smart and rich (the money is NOT from family btw) for a normal childhood everyday.
i still remember crying myself to sleep all the time (whcih none knows about), and I remember putting scars on my legs every day I wanted to die to remind me NEVER ever trust normalshits, they are a fucking cancer.
>>37014984
>how was she
Has mood swings but she has a heart and that's what matters in the end.
>did it fuck you up badly
Not at all, she taught me to not fall for the "be nice 2 grills" meme and thinks I shouldn't settle for someone beneath me, even if I'm a disappointing autistic neet of a son.
>how did she end up alone
My father is a married manwhore. He probably has 3-6 STI's.
>>37017439
what kind of porn was it desu?
>>37017456
Wealthy and smart > attractive and charismatic
>>37014984
she is fine.
she decided the 2D husbandos and weed was the way to go. you got cucked by the worst fire emblem.
>>37017668
This is the best part: I have NO fucking idea what she saw. I had an /r9k/ tab open on my computer, it was on the catalog.
Whatever she saw, it's on y'all.
>>37017716
I'm also 6'6" and (slightly) above average looking
>>37017768
If that's your life and you still feel dead inside everyday, I would love to see how you would handle my life. You would've killed yourself years ago
>>37014984
>giving me shit about ignoring her new partner, just needed space after my busive father left,
>trying to manipulate me by crying loudly as fuck, almost as soon as I started ignoring it she stopped
>also comparing me always to my father, who cucked her, stole her shit and did many other things to her
>normie bullshit 'go outside' 'put yourself out there' 'you're not even trying' 'you always sit at home' - not true, I go out most days 'It's gonna change someday if you work hard enough'
>everything wrong with my life is only my own fault, always
overall she's glad bc I got into uni for a major she an many others deem great, but is dissapointed with everything else and has little
empathy for me
she could be decent if she liked me more, she can fairly nice and sympathetic towards my cousin, but since i'm a fuckup she's only making it worse
>>37017806
Well I'm sorry to hear that anon, but it honestly doesn't change much (as long as you aren't homeless, deformed or dropped out of HS).
A lot of normies are actually clearly jealous/intimidated IRl, but I'd trade anything to be like them.
>>37017456
If you're rich and smart and yet you're crippling depressed chances are it's your fault and not the worlds. People are quick to blame someone for their own faults. Instead of working on them (if it can be worked on) they wallow in self pity, this is especially true if they're wealthy.
>>37017847
> (as long as you aren't homeless, deformed or dropped out of HS).
I graduated late with a 1.3 gpa, and I dropped out of cc. Also I have gyno and extremely bad posture
>>37017885
Ahhh ok, s-s-sorry.
>>37017881
I worked on being poor by getting rich, being a HS dropout by graduating valedictorian, being a turbo lanklet by lifting, but it doesn't get rid of the feeling of deadness inside.
>>37017938
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>grass widow, dad works on-board a ship, he's out for at least 50% of the year, when he's back, he just wants to ride his bike to get away from us
>she's a terrible mother, punishes me for trying to be independant, wants to horde me and my brothers even though I'm the middle child and she clearly prefers the others
>I'm pretty much fucked in the head, I've only begun to realize how much when I was in my mid 20's. I hope for a bittersweet ending for me - living alone in a camper/van and being constantly on the move so I can escape myself. I don't trust women, I hate kids, I hate myself, the only times I'm happy is when I lose my identity, but I will never be satisfied with my life or myself. I just want to get away from all the hate and depressing life in home
>>37017938
>lifting
>getting rich
Then you haven't worked on anything at all. Getting /fit/ is the first thing people do to distract themselves from their problems. It's why so many /fit/ fags are insecure as fuck and look desperately for support groups via lifting. At least you fixed your educational problem though.
>>37018018
just didn;'t like being a lanklet. I actually appear very confident in real life (aswell as autistic)
>>37018018
How would you cure depression, normie?
>>37018210
>cure
>depression
bullet to the head. It's like trying to cure hunger or sleepiness.
>>37018210
>normie
I never said I was a normalfag. Wallowing in self pity is one of the biggest normalfag things you can do, literally roastie tier. If you attempt to stop doing that, you might see a light at the end of the tunnel. Knowing most normalfags here, chances are you'll just go back to crying instead.
>>37018254
Well, >>37017881
how would he work on those 'faults' , does he even know what is depression
>>37014984
mom's a schizo, she tried to an hero when I was 3yo. I never knew my father nor have I seen any picture of him. at 8 I went to a social services care where I was hurt and humiliated in any possible way. It's been a few years since I'm back and now mom has totally lost her mind, she spend her days talking (or screaming) to multiple people who don't exist in the first place.
I still love her but it's hard to tell her cause I also hate her much.
A complete roastie with a dindu nuffin complex and would probably have been a coalburner if we were Americans. Spent most of my childhood alone because she would basically come home, bring me food or leave money, then go out and try to pretend she was still a teenager with her friends/boyfriend/god knows what else she was doing. She feels like a complete stranger to me and i dont think we've ever had a real conversation in our lives. I sense an aura from her that suggests she detests me for having somehow ruined her life and stolen her youth, but i didnt ask her to fuck a random army dude and get pregnant when she was 17 and i didnt make her keep me. I've never met my father and i probably never will and she hasnt seen him since i was an baby. I feel absolutely no connection to this world and im just waiting for death to find me.
This woman will become a single mother soon.
God damn.
Most people shouldn't have kids.
>how was she
Fucking great
>did it fucked up you badly
Nah, still saw dad
>how did she ended up alone
Dad cheated on her a lot with women a decade younger than him
>>37014984
>how was she
I don't know, I don't know what makes a mother bad or good, She seems to have love for me but I remember she called me a dicklet and a fag or when she and her mother laughed at me because I was bullied
>dit it fucked up badly
How can I know if i'm fucked up ? Should I compare myself to normies ?
>how did she ended up alone
She divorced after my father beated up her (he was always drunk)
>>37014984
>how was she
Almost certainly a narcissist. Fine in short bursts, but really knows how to wear you down over time. Admits she took it out on me when she was having a bad day. As I got older, she was convinced I was trying to take advantage of her because she was to nice, she decided to get meaner with me. Went through several boyfriends who ranged from alright to actively trying to turn her against me.
>did it fuck you up badly
I let it get to me. If I wasn't such a disappointing loser I probably would have had an easier time. She wasn't exactly inspiring though. We were constantly moving around and she was always changing boyfriends, so home life was pretty unstable. Sometimes I feel like I was set up to fail.
>how did she end up alone
She wasn't willing to be a housewife. Apparently, my dad was a lot worse back then, not sure if I believe her. I went to visit my dad every few months, so I guess I was lucky in that respect. I think he knew that living with my mom was not good for me, he made sure I knew I could come live with him whenever I wanted. It might have been better that way. He had the structure and stability that I probably needed. I always felt like I needed to protect my mom, though, so I never took him up on his offer.
>>37014984
Get a cute boyfriend. He will fix you Anon. He will heal your wounds with his pure love.
shhhhhhhhhhh
No more talking until after I've finished my coffee.
>how was she
She worked really hard, didn't always have time for everything, still loved me and my sister
>did it fuck you up badly
yeah kinda never really had a father figure
>How did it happen
Dad died of cancer
>how did she ended up alone
My dad choked my sister in rage out over her refusing to do the dishes. She was a skinny 14-year-old, he was a huge Taekwondo instructor. He also physically abused my mom, and refused to get a better-paying job even though he easily could have, so she had to work overtime constantly and barely saw us. So she divorced him.
He refused to leave the house until they were already divorced, and when she insisted, he beat her and raped her. She called the cops but the officer refused to do anything because he was a student of my dad's, and my dad left in embarrassment. Then he got a condo with one bedroom and didn't invite us over more than maybe once a year, even though he'd claimed they'd be evenly splitting custody so he paid pennies in child support. So my mom was doing it with pretty much no help.
>how was she
She did make sure we were fed and clothed. Other than that, it was awful. She told us constantly we were just like him, that we were obviously waiting for her to die because we hated her. She was constantly inviting me in to her room so she could cry on my shoulder about adult problems like her sex life and her financial worries. She tried to get me to sleep in bed with her a few times (even after I was 18+) and was always saying inappropriate shit about how she thought about her children during sex, etc. She would guilt-trip us over amounts like $5 and kept from us that we were actually financially stable, making it always seem like we were on the verge of homelessness.
She read my private documents and dug through my drawers. Eventually I started locking stuff and carrying the key, because if it was hidden in my room, she'd inevitably find it. She'd tell family members I was crazy and nearly delinquent, even though I was basically an honors student. She didn't protect me from obvious dangers like dating a 23-year-old at age 12.
>did it fucked up you badly
Yes. Both my parents fucked me up badly. And I hate Mother's Day.
>>37020464
Shit meme and you should feel bad
>>37021003
>dating a 23-year-old at age 12
how did you do that?
>>37021168
My older brother was going away to grad school and thought I needed a surrogate big brother who wasn't as busy/in another state, so he set me up to IM one of his game forum friends who lived in town. The guy was very nice but he was definitely an ephebophile and I was a kid developing BPD who missed her dad. Things went pretty much as expected given that demographic combo.
>>37021742
he's a piece of shit for diddling a 12yo.
>>37021003
Are you saying yout mom wanted to fuck you?
>>37021828
Yeah. At this time, though, I was just happy there was an adult who wasn't screaming at me or threatening me, who seemed genuinely interested in what I felt and thought.
And that how you get groomed~
>>37017439
krk. Do you have any more examples?
>>37014984
>be me
>fucked some dozens dicks before settling for a beta orbiter
>have a baby
>divorce and get child support
>child support is not sufficient to go partying in bars
>need a plan B to fuck and to get money benefits without seemingly starting a whore career
>find yet another bunch of betas
>wtf, my wrecked vagoo is still my most precious asset
>>37022188
Well I have this one, from around election time. I voted for Hillary (she would have been shit but at least she had experience) and when Trump won my mom got furious with me for being liberal.
>>37022442
I can't tell if she hates or loved you anon.
>>37022108
Not really? My mom wants someone who is obligated to love her, so she had kids for that reason. Her behavior is creepy and intrusive but it's not so much about Sex as eroticized emotional closeness.
>>37014984
>how was she
Decent. usually gave me what I wanted, but spent alot of time with her friend who she ended up remarrying (although they still live in different homes). She managed to get my anxiety in check before high school so i didnt fail.
>did it fucked up you badly
I dont think so. Almost everything odd about me has more to do with the fact im an autist
>how did she ended up alone
Cheating cunt husband
>>37022495
I don't know either man
It's a little of both I guess.
>>37022502
I feel like my mom is the same way but I never really understood.
>>37022607
for mine it's because she always dated/married such shitbags she probably figured the only consistent control and love she could have is over children she made herself
>>37015375
>will never get to repay her by giving her the grandkids she wants so badly
No, you're your children a favour by not forcing them I exist for so shallow a reason. In fact, there is no reason to do it.
>how was she
My mom is the best, she tried her hardest to give me everything I needed. Even at the risk of her own happiness
>did it fuck you up you badly
Technically she didn't, but she was working all the time which meant I had to spend a lot of time with my mentally abusive aunt because she couldn't afford a babysitter. I have a hard time making friends because my aunt spent a lot of my childhood telling me I was useless, but I never told her any of that so I can't blame her. I know she would of put a stop to it, but she couldn't afford it, so I didn't want to add to her stress.
>how did she ended up alone
She has a shitty childhood and ended getting into drugs as a teen. She ended up dating a drug dealer. When she got pregnant at 19 she quit the drugs, dumped the guy and went back to school.
>>37014984
>how was she
Always out of the house working. Dad's mother came with us when mom left him and she did most of the raising.
>how did she ended up alone
Dad cheated on a 'business trip' to Miami. She divorced him as soon as there was no doubt. I was eight.
>did it fucked up you badly
I actually turned out ok. I used to fucking hate mom for the few times she brought home strange men etc, but she got rid of the shitty ones quickly to her credit. There weren't many.
I still always hated her and blamed her for the divorce, then one day years later she sat me down and got a shoebox and showed me what was inside. It was all the evidence and the story to go with it. And I suddenly saw she did what she had to, I stopped hating her.
Eventually she met a decent guy, they've been together for ten years now and just got married last year.
Nice dude. I can't object at all.
>>37014984
>all these faggots complaining about their single mother
I bet 99% of you faggots still live at home. I used to hate my mother. I blamed her for everything, from my own retardness, to my family breaking up.
I moved out, and realised the sacrifice that my mam did for my siblings and I. The woman sacrificied her life so that we could have a decent one.
At this point if you are an adult, and blame your mam for your current position, you need to have a genuine think about how retarded that sounds. Hindsight is one hell of a drug.
>>37017439
>blames mam for doing drugs, and leaving porn tabs over when not at the computer.
You fucking moron.
>>37017439
>>37022442
These are the texts of a woman with life experience trying to tell her downbeaten son that he needs to have a good look at his current life choices.
I know because my mother used to say the same thing. What you don't realise is that your choices do negativity impact on her life.
You think that because you're in a hugbox (4chan) that your opinion is worthwhile. She is right in saying that no-one gives a bollocks about you. Actually listen to her advice.