>be me
>tell everyone I'm going to kill myself in highschool
>really, I just wanted to see what a mental hospital was like
>get put in a children's psych ward
>I thought I was just playing crazy but for the next 3 years a lot of feelings and repressed memories surfaced.
>Paedophilia, sexual abuse, schizophrenia, severe major depression, OCD, etc.
>have to take four different pills for all the crap I told them.
Now during this time I was the only person in my class who didn't have consensual sex. Then I realised (and I kid you not) I mentally and emotionally could not have sex what with my past. That's fine with me. All I've ever wanted really was a son.
>spend my senior year looking up adoption services.
>unfortunately for me there is a VERY strict policy on who can adopt.
>my record needs to be pristine
>stop taking my medicine (the depression doesn't hit right away but it still hits hard)
>It's uncommon for single men to adopt children. (Okay. I just need to prove how much I care about kids. I've always been good at pretending to be normal. Easy peasy)
cont.
reading along anonprolly not original
>>37223979
> wants to adopt
> doesn't get married
lol
It's uncommon for single men to adopt children. (Okay. I just need to prove how much I care about kids. I've always been good at pretending to be normal. Easy peasy)
>I still have questionable medical records. I start pretending harder to not be a freak and insisting I'm normal until I only have to take one and a half pills.
>turn 18 three months ago.
>have to go into an intake so I can keep receiving medicine.
>schizoscheme.jpg
>I have to 'be responsible' and set up the appointment myself.
>pretend to call for two months and pretend I couldn't reach them.
>hopefully they forgot about me by now.
>thinking I can finally adopt.
I'm still worried there might be some hidden background check. I'm tired of feeling lonely /r9k/. I need something to keep me going.
Tl;Dr anyone else /JustWantThingsToWorkOut/.
Who Benzo here?
0.5mg clonazepam here
whats r9k prescribed or take?
does it help you at all?
>>37223841
I'm anesthesiologist, I have unlimited access to benzos.
AMA
or do you take anything else to help with your anxiety?
this is the first benzo ive tried and i think it may be helping a bit but i think its a low dose
Coffee: 3-5 cups , daily. (This increases heart rate)
Pot: 0-1(sessions) weekly (stress reliever)
>anon doesn't know what pussy feels like
>lol what a creep
>>37223641
I know what boipucci feels like
never understood what the point of these "respond to a fake and extremely unlikely sceneario" threads was supposed to be
anyway just in case nobody ever told you this in middle school, stick your finger in the wet fleshy pocket under your tongue (opposite from the inside-facing side of your teeth). this is pretty much what vagina feels like.
>>37223703
just got a boner doing that
What boards would your parents & siblings browse if they were to post on 4chan? Details as to why are optional.
>Dad
/sp/ and /ck/
>Mom
/mu/ and /out/
>Brother
/a/, /pol/ and /soc/
>dad
/lgbt/
>mom
/lgbt
>Sister
/lgbt/
>brother
/r/the_donald/
>>37223361
Dad- /o/ /diy/ maybe /his/
Mum- No boards. She doesn't even watch movies. Just go go go.
My brother- /diy/ /trv/ /n/ /his/
>>37223361
>Dad
/o/, /p/ and /mu/
>Mom
/an/, /ck/, /diy, /out/
>Sister
/out/, /co/ and /mu/
How can I purge myself of degeneracy?
I was so close to seeing an escort, but I backed out.
I don't want it to be this way, I still believe there is hope, time to get back on the no-fap.
Stop watching porn, if you have blue balls wank it without porn. Start lifting or just exercising(push ups, sit ups, squats ecc.. ) everytime you take a shower have the last 5 minutes with cold water. Start walking outside to meet qt girls. Eat healthy and quit sugar and alcohol. That should do it. And on top of that have a hobby like drawing or playing an instrument
>>37223157
>>37223387
>Stop watching porn
This this this this this this
humans got off for 1000s of years off of imagination or crude drawings the myth that you need porn to jack off is a joke
>>37223387
>everytime you take a shower have the last 5 minutes with cold water
what is this supposed to accomplish?
>tfw the smartest person I know is a NEET
>literally studies advanced mathematics in his spare time
>could have got into ANY uni with ease (he is a literal genius, not the babby straight A with no effort genius but the true Einstein tier )
>wagecucks will defend this
>>37222976
Smarts are not equivalent to success. It takes social skills, work ethic, maturity, etc to be successful. Smarts is really useless without the rest. If you told me there was a billionaire NEET, I'd be interested but at the end of the day, this smart man is just a poor basement dwelling virgin like the rest of you.
>>37222976
>that guy's name?
>me
Ebin thread frien
>>37223067
t. brainlet wagie
Are you really a beta male? Don't you think there's a chance that you are a oppressed alpha affected by childhood traumas? I think there's a chance that some of you can make it.
>>37222903
No, I'm omega. I'm basically acting like an alpha but I'm hollow inside. Scrape at the surface and you will find nothing underneath where a personality should be.
>>37222903
not to be an edge fag but i think i all more as omega. i just want to be left alone not cause shit and just get along but if anyone tries to take advantage of that i push back
I can put on an alpha persona, but only for girls I don't care about. As soon as I meet a girl I'm actually interest I go full omega.
Have you ever eaten raw meat before?
Yes, I've eaten completely raw steak just to see what it was like. It's better blue if not rare.
>>37222825
Ive had ceviche before if that counts, it was bretty gud
>>37222825
Oh, only since I was like 10? You murricans are missing out
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Steak_tartare
Welcome to the Frog and Feels Tavern !
Grab yourself a seat and order a drink, or if you'd like, take a look at a menu.
Go ahead and empty your bag here, I'll be listening
We've got a jukebox so feel free to change the music. I'll put a song on now:
https://youtu.be/hqR8qtzfKhI
>>37222822
>>37222822
>>37222822
I'll have a beer and a Jack.
Still didn't manage to text her more than a couple casual greetings for special occasions. We have so much in common, I just know we'd get along fine, I wanted to ask her out so bad. But I'm too afraid I'll be clumsy and embarrass myself and she'll talk to our mutual friends about it. Now she's left the city for a couple weeks or months.
I just want to finally stop being an idiot.
One week left before I travel to Mont Ral to study The Bright Path meditation as taught by the Ishaya monks for six months. Can't wait.
>>37222822
Vodka please!
>Go to a strip club
>Talk to a stripper for 3 hours about anime
>Wanted to see her again
>Realize that she is a stripper and probably just used me (even though I didn't pay for her)
>Why do I fall in love with ever girl that shows me attention?
>cumming from blowjobs
how much of a beta faggot do you have to be?
>getting a blowjob
How much of a cancerous normalshit do you have to be?
>>37222786
>Getting a job
NORMIES LEAVE NOW!!!!!
>>37222798
>getting anything other than dubs
ordinaries begone
What was her name, anon?
Your kind of woman, the one who got away, etc etc
>>37222682
Andreea.
>>37222682
Hillary Clinton
next time the bullet won't miss though
>>37223787
underrated, good post anon
Why don't you guys just hire a prostitute, robots?
>>37222606
Because it's not about sex, it's about conquering a women, taking her away from other men, thats what it is about, feeling empowered, I life in Germany and whores are cheap as fuck here and I still won't bother with them.
It's about knowing you can have control about something that others can't
>>37222606
i don't want Sexually Transmitted Diseases
I don't really care about sex anymore. I want someone to cuddle with.
Let's get one of these going. hopefully a qt will respond to me, but i don't think many people on r9k like running or the outdoors
here's the template if anyone needs it
Here's a different chart, this one says more you but less about your ideal qt
and here is the template for the second chart
>tfw gyno titties press up against t-shirt even when I hunch forward
I NEED MONEY TO GET THEM CUT OFF ALL I WANT TO DO IS BE ABLE TO WEAR A NORMAL SHIRT WITHOUT BEING SELF CONSCIOUS REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
>>37222528
Show gyno please, I'd like to see it.
>>37222528
REEEEEEEE ME TOO
>>37222551
I'd rather not be humiliated any more than I already am anon. Taking pictures of it will make me want to kill my self even more
>>37222704
It's not fair brother. I've had it since I was 13, and it has completely fucked up my posture and back; I'm in pain all the time from back issues and even the gyno itself hurts sometimes. I have no idea what I am going to do, as I don't have any money for surgery
Did the victims of the Manchester Attack deserve it?
>>37222508
I'm honestly going to have to say yes on this one. These stupid liberal brain-controlled cunts are burning in hell forever like they deserve. More degeneracy extinguished is great in my book. They directly asked for this.
>>37222508
Tough to say. On the one hand, the concert was pure degeneracy, on the other hand many of the victims were young.
I guess they'd grow up to be feminist Stacy's anyway so maybe.
>>37222649
the edge ouch