Frog an Feels Tavern

>>37222822
>>37222822
>>37222822
I'll have a beer and a Jack.
Still didn't manage to text her more than a couple casual greetings for special occasions. We have so much in common, I just know we'd get along fine, I wanted to ask her out so bad. But I'm too afraid I'll be clumsy and embarrass myself and she'll talk to our mutual friends about it. Now she's left the city for a couple weeks or months.

I just want to finally stop being an idiot.

One week left before I travel to Mont Ral to study The Bright Path meditation as taught by the Ishaya monks for six months. Can't wait.

>>37222822
Vodka please!

>Go to a strip club
>Talk to a stripper for 3 hours about anime
>Wanted to see her again
>Realize that she is a stripper and probably just used me (even though I didn't pay for her)
>Why do I fall in love with ever girl that shows me attention?

I'll have a old fashioned. Any whiskey will do

orders are stacking up, I hope the barkeep comes back soon...

Vodka with ice please
some scotch or irish whisky neat please
a tequila please, you can save the salt and the lemon
dry Martini for my friend who's not here right now
one rum neat as well
and I'll have 2 beers as well

> huh, it feels like i need alcohol to socialise but also it makes me tired and go even quieter
> my livers probably fucked as well but who cares, I'm not feeling anything and as long as everything seems alright there's no need for a doctor right?

give me cola/coke and vodka (you americans say coke right?)

>tfw 3.6 gpa
> do nothing but play vidya and shitpost all day.
>only do my shit when I have external motivation
>When the exams come i go for an allnighter. (this is so bad for your cognitive mechanism jesus christ)
>tfw non stop sleep deprivation

I couldve been a prime candidate for a phd position, but im too depressed and procrastinate. Dont really have much besides school. It's the only thing im good at. Besides, I'm too anxious to get a gf.

Why cant i just study on time and do my shit in a relaxed manner? I wouldve had a 4.0 at least. With some side projects. Could've joined a club, made friends, compete at some tourneys or something. There are some legit smart qts here like you wouldn't believe (compsci) although they are very rare.


>tfw chads and staceys now also enter the stem majors.

>>37222822
Thanks for this Anon.
I'll take a nice cold milk.

Thinking about myself lately. I'm trying to be a nicer person despite my actual opinions on people. Least I can do is offer the same hospitality they do me.

Water please.

I've no clue how to spend my free time. Regardless of what I do, I end up bored. Earlier I booted up Civ 5 and exited out in the second turn. This disease has been with me for over a year now, but I still haven't seen a doctor, and I really need to. It's not agonizing, but it's dull. The only thing that feels good is eating, but I can't eat a lot, so I'm perpetually bored.

>>37222822

Someone take over as bartender and get me a gallon of fresh whole milk.

Just a little under 4 months left till I go off to university. Last ditch attempt at becoming a normie. If I fail here it's the end for me, unfortunately.

>>37224071

It could be worse anon. You could be in love with an escort who definitely is using you for money but being with her is the only thing in your life that makes you feel anything so you keep going back and the feelings get stronger but you know it'll all come crashing down eventually and you won't be able to recover.

I should just tell her how I feel so she can tell me it's just business and I don't mean anything to her so it'll be easier for me to let go.

>>37224641
fix yourself b4 it's too late. Im 26 and im basically ancient. Ive tried to fix it for 6 years straight. Heed my call nublet. It'll get harder everyday till the point where youre permanently exhausted (like i am now). Cant even go outside to jog anymore ffs.

You cant comprehend the darkness that awaits you

R U N
U
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could go for a tequila sunrise
I'm the anon that made the thread abt living in a tent the other day.
being able to get out of this situation is riding entirely on the job interview in have tomorrow

>>37222822
Just water. Thanks.

I have been looking for a job for the past few weeks, i even made a cv, but i can find anything close enough to me. Im 23, i really really need this.

>>37224806
good luck my friend
origgio

>>37222822
Hell yeah, I love the Frog and Feels. I'll have a Moscow mule, Barkeep.

Now, last session, I talked about the girl I love, and asked what to do. In response, I was told to not bother confessing, and just make her laugh. Well, I fucked up. I asked to speak my mind to her in the most autistic way possible, puss out, and ask to talk to her a few days later. What's the best thing to do, aside from going an hero?

>>37225001
thanks, anon. I think I really might make it.

>>37225003
If you haven't made your intentions clear to her within the first few weeks of meeting her, I'd say it's too late now. In her mind she'll have firmly put you in the "friends" category.

Move on, try a new girl. Who knows, maybe if you find a different girl, it'll make the first one jealous.

I'll have a Gin Tonic.

I'm just so fucking sick of being a uni student. For the past 5 years all I've done was pressing whatever esoteric bullshit a professor deemed necessary into my head only to forget most of it after the exams. This is the last semester of my Master's degree and I'm not even stressed as I only have lectures two days a week and I like my subjects and generally think it's interesting

I'm just so, so tired of this bullshit rat race every semester to get good grades to someday maybe find a good paying job. Since I've finished my bachelor's my social life also took a nosedive so ofc > tfw no gf on top of it.

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Tavern Owner had a personal emergency come up and asked me to cover for him until he gets back.

>>37223721
Here you go anon. You look like you could use 2 shots. Beer is coming. Making a move on a girl is scary, especially since it can ruin your social group for about 6 months. Hope you find the courage to show her how you feel.

>>37222822
hey anon ill take a boston sour if you will, i have three days off work and i am not sure what to do with my time but i am about to quite my day job and start a small janitor contracting business at 21 so that should go well hopfully

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>>37223721
Here's yer beer.

>>37225056
Time to check out her emo friend she wanted to hook me up with.

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>>37224071
We are running low on vodka but I found a bottle of svedka in the back. Here you go.

>Why do I fall in love with ever girl that shows me attention?
Not sure a strip club is the best place to look, but I kinda understand the feel. Everyone needs attention. What anime did you tell her about?

>>37225207
>>37225217
Thanks mate. I actually don't feel anything, I'm not allowing myself to fall in love with someone I barely know, it never leads to good outcomes. But I know if I ask her out to get to know each other and see where it goes, I'll have to be straight forward and make my intentions clear. What if she's a lesbian and everyone knew except me and my friends all laugh at me like "how could possibly not have notice, are you seriously this dense?", or something similar. I've had very bad experiences with expressing my honest self, even around friends.

>>37222822
Rum and coke please, bartender!

I've made it through my first year at university without failing anything. I've got a lot of work to do this summer, and I'm a little worried about some of it, but overall I'm feeling more positive than I have in a long time.

>>37224171
Here you go anon. It's two gingers

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>>37225343
>>37224171
Forgot your drink. Sorry, still getting trained in.

>>37224071
Can we share the Bottle ? i hate pure Vodka but its necessary.

>>37225296
Its a cold World and i try to find the right friends. its complicated. My life could be better in the moment.

can i have a tequila please
can you play calm music like this one please https://youtu.be/oZjTGFeBXAY
i have been talking with a girl for the first time of my life. she cared about me so much we loved each other. last time she said she will concentrate on her exams. weeks later i told her that i had a depression and i needed to see her i told her that i missed her so much. a month passed still she didnt answer. even if she answer she doesnt have that care lately she says she loves me but i cant believe her anymore.
i am not even sure if she is a girl. didnt send me any pictures i didnt want either. but still i loved her too much. i have always dreamed about meeting with her in real life. god what a stupid beta cuck i am. i have exams too but i never cared about them.

Ginger ale. No drink.

When I was in elementary I was the kid who was gonna go places, who was so smart and loved by all my teachers

Now I want to die every day and I'm going nowhere with my life kill me please
What gives?

>>37225518
Then what happened after elementary school?

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>meet qt grill
>fb msg throughout the day for like a week straight
>getting to know more about her and talking about mutual interests and stuff
>ask her to hang out in person, pretty clear im not trying to be just friends
>she says yes
>set a date and time
>she starts ignoring me
don't care about the rejection at all desu but it's silly and immature she couldn't just say no. guarantee she will message me in a few days pretending as if nothing happened lol. the lengths some women go to try and establish orbiters is insane

>>37225518
this is me. i was the best in elementary school everyone had high hopes on me. 2nd best in elementary school get in the best college in my country. now im neet i didnt enter any college and waiting for my parents to kick me out.
>>37225450
i said i have exams. its college entrance exam. i dont give a shit about it. waiting for the end.

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>>37224518
Here you are anon. Drink these slow.

We're in a bar, so no judgement for drinking in here. Try not to go so hard on yourself. Maybe the socialization will improve with time.

>>37225550
I got depressed real fast and went through middle and high school
My peers are going off and having fun in these great schools and I'm at home.
I wasted a lot of potential. I'm a waste of resources. All I want to do is sleep and die.

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>>37224518
Here's some scotch for you.

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>>37224518
..and the tequilla

>>37225647
Sounds a lot like me desu
I wasted my teen age as well

But there's still hope, you just have to start somewhere

What do you expect from life?
What are you willing to do for it in return?

>>37225335


Where you're fucking up is not establishing interest in her through subtleties, especially in person. So when you work up the courage to ask her out it's just going to be from left field to her and likely to the mutual friends. They'll find it weird because for all intents and purposes you've done nothing but act like a complete platonic friend to her for 100% of your relationship. That *always* makes it unlikely she'll want to... life isn't like a shitty rom-com on TV, you can't just act meek and passive around her 24/7 then one day ask her out rofl. Plus you're building her up in your head too much worrying about dumb scenarios.


Asking her upfront at this point is a terrible idea. Your best route is to show subtle signs of interest which make it clear to her you are likely going to ask her out soon, which enables her to start thinking about what it might be like to date you, if she's interested in you, and what she can say if you do ask her out... which she can't do if you just spring it onto her out of nowhere.


Don't beat yourself up if it doesn't work out. It's all learning experiences bro. Regardless what the outcome is, you basically leveled up from this, and next time you meet a cool girl you'll be less likely to wait around and instead make your intentions clear from the start to avoid all this mess

>>37225647
you are so me. are you going to kill yourself or continue with your failed life like me.

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>>37224518
......And the rest

>>37222822
I can't bring myself to answer my phone when job recruiters call because I'm too anxious to speak. I haven't spoken to anyone in months. When I go shopping I only use self-checkout. Someone just called and my anxiety made me choke up with tears because of how frustrating it is to feel so fucking weak and imprisoned. I can't even sit on my porch because I can see my neighbors and occasionally hear them talk about me (they're old and their voices carry, it's not paranoia.) I don't know what to do. I feel like I need to practice being a normal person with someone. Is there any sort of service that connects people like me together where we can talk on mics and get acclimatized to interacting with the public?

>>37225689
I don't know what I expect anymore
I just want to carve my brain out and throw it in the trash
I don't want anything
I can't feel happy

>>37225701
I do not know

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>>37224547
>you americans say coke right?)
That's the lingo

>tfw 3.6 gpa
Hey man, that's pretty good. Good enough to get into a decent phd program. Keep up your work in your major and don't forget to take a break every now and again.

>>37225828
thx f am. Appreciate it

>>37224577
Nice dubs. Here's your milk.

>I'm trying to be a nicer person despite my actual opinions on people
Nicer how?

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>>37224636
>The only thing that feels good is eating
Maybe you could begin a search for the best restaurants in your city?

I'll take a Mack and Jack from the tap, thanks.

So, I just finished my first year of uni with a 3.8. I made lots of friends. Things are looking up. But I didn't get a girlfriend... I'm relatively attractive, you know? I'm just sorta short. Idk, man. I'm just sitting here, waiting for a growth spurt.

>>37225695
I didn't wait around or acted meek and passive. We've met a couple of times in larger gatherings through mutual friends, but didn't interact much, especially not one on one.

My plan was to text her, telling her "[mutual friend] just told me you like [token interest], is that true? I don't know anyone else that likes [token interest]." I already know enough rare things we have in common, and she probably knows as well, at least some of them, so I figured I could easily be like "given that we like the same things, have you ever tried [token restaurant], I love it, wanna go there sometime?". I'm not completely socially inept, I guess I could wing it from there. But, as I said, I think I'd have to make it clear pretty quickly that I want to see if we could be more than friends. If not, I swear to God, a female friend with the same interests as me would already be a godsend, I'm not the guy who falls in love with his friends, or just any girl that pays any sort of attention to him.

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>>37224641
>Last ditch attempt at becoming a normie
In what ways to you feel different from the normies? Maybe you can turn things around in college. Not everyone can, but a lot of people do.

>>37222822
Rum please.
Pretty sure the gf is about to dump me. It's been a long time coming and I've been preparing myself for it, but idk what to do. I really don't wanna lose her and I've been doing whatever I can to prevent it but I feel like she's stopped trying so it's inevitable.

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>>37224806
Here you go anon, I put it on your tab. Pay it back in 2 weeks when you get your first paycheck.

>>37225984
>I'm not the guy who falls in love with his friends,


You already said you want to date and fuck this girl. Being "friends" is you just orbiting her. If she turns you down and then a month later wants to fuck you, you wouldn't turn it down. Because you weren't "friends" for that month, you were never "friends", your increase in interaction with her is solely motivated by lustful pursual. That doesn't lead to a healthy positive friendship forming.


Orbit her all you want but stop deluding yourself and fix up your boundaries on what you consider "friendship" is

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>>37224991
One water.

I'm applying for jobs too. It's really hard to keep applying when the response rate is so low. What kind of jobs are you looking for?

sailors and coke please. where should i go for a long vacation anons, amsterdam or japan? I have been to both, it would be in summer. i am fat too so that should factor into the decision.

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Scotch and a suicide note

>get into uni from community
>feels fucking good man
>uni science class checking is shit
>can only take 3 4hour classes a semester
>1-2 during summer if possible
>bad at math
>campus REQUIRES calc for any degree
>will be in college for 3-5 more years
>already done 3

Fuck this. I dont want to graduate at 25

>>37226111
much obliged anon, and nice digits you got there

Coke Zero

I'm talking to this brazilian chick, strange circumstances as of why we talk about, I'll simplify it by saying she discovered I was stalking her and chatted with me a bit out of pity telling me she was dating and we could be "friends"
Now, it's been 2 days since that day, I didn't contact her after that
Should I? Do you just say hi in these occasions?

Before you judge me, I'm mostly doing this to learn how to speak to women, especially those I really find cute

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My dad has probably cirrhosis of the liver. It's still not confirmed, but he surely is not alright because his skin has this mild yellowish glow and his eyes are also yellow. I live in first world country so it's not game over yet, he could still survive. He has already gone to blood tests and we're now waiting for the results. He said that the doctor did some physical poking around and didn't feel anything strange with the liver, but still, it was just a physical coping and can't really confirm anything that way.

If it's "just" his kidneys shutting off, I will definitely volunteer to give one of mine if we're compatible. But if it's something more serious like a cirrhosis... god fucking dammit... I mean, his liver can be replaced, but there's probably a long waiting list and everything, and some people wait for years. Some people wait for their donor for years, and they will die before they get their turn.
I'm so fucking worried and depressed. I've been doing some reading about cirrhosis lately and my dad only has the symptoms of yellow skin and eyes, and I haven't seen him vomit or in pain, so hopefully it's just some infection type of deal that can be healed.

This sucks more than anything that has sucked before. I had just turned my own life around and about to leave NEETdom, life was finally starting to look good for me, and now this shit happens. My dad is also going to retire next year, I hope he doesn't need to retire earlier over health reasons.

Nothing is confirmed yet, could be just some treatable infection or something, but knowing his alcohol and smoking habits it's not looking good. I don't want my dad to die, not now, not like this. I keep waking up in the night thinking it's just a bad dream, but it's not. He's only about 60 years old, so he would have good 20 years of life ahead of him if he was all healthy. Even his dad -my grandpa- is still alive and well, and he's over 80 years old!

This fucking sucks.

>>37226056

KHV, basically no friends, bitter for being rejected by women etc

>>37226139
I don't think you understand the situation I'm in.

I met her a couple times through mutual friends and only recently found out we have so much in common after some friends of mine have casually dropped random pieces of information. Now I want to get closer to her than just passing acquaintances and see if a relationship is on the table or just friendship. Either is fine by me, I don't know what would be wrong with that mindset.

Hey barkeep, I just got back from work and have an exam at 9 am tomorrow, gimme something stiff to put me to sleep

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>>37225003
Here's your drink L.

I didn't see your other thread but generally if I girl wants to set you up with her friend she isn't interested in you. You can save yourself a bit of embarrassment and try to move on. But that's just my two cents. Take it or leave it.

>>37226185
Meant 4credit

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>>37222822
I'll take a fat tire thanks

>work at jjs
>see a girl but dont talk
>subtlety add her on twitter after finding her name on the computer personnel files
>she starts talking to me
>correctly and strategically used open ended questions to reel her in
>go out with her but dont fuck or anything
fast forward 2 weeks
>make out with her and drop her off at home at 7
>she calls me at 10 asking me to pick her up from her ex's house
>pick her up
>we still dont fuck
>she hints at it multiple times but nothing ever happens
>go to friends house on last day before she has to leave town
>late night
>finger her pussy but she doesnt let me fuck
>mfw
>drop her off at the bus station
>gone forever

I haven't accepted that having a girl friend is possible for me so im not hurt at all thankfully. I got pretty close to losing my virginity tho which was nice.

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>>37225171
One gin and tonic right here.

>This is the last semester of my Master's degree
Well that's good news right? After two weeks you can move on to a new stage in your life with more freetime. If you find a nice job maybe it will take the ennui away. You aren't going for phd after the ms, right?

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Give me something that'll make me forget. I made a mistake I've got to wipe out. I was trying to do a Don Rickles on Arabs, but did it turned into a Mel Gibson about Mexicans.

>>37226377
Do I know you from somewhere, your clownish ways seem familiar

>>37226414
Maybe you've seen me on TV...
Maybe...

>>37222822
I'll take an irrational Latvian

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>>37225342
Good work on the first year anon. Try to share your positive emotions with some of us down in the dumps if you can manage it.

Rum and coke make it a double

Im trying to break out my shell but I feel like it's useless. Im terrible at talking. I'd rather just listen to people but they all want me to talk about myself and I just cant do it. Good news though is my best friend is coming back from work tomorrow and I haven't seen him in 2 months so things will be better.

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>>37225450
Its BOGO on tequila shots for the happy hour.

>if she answer she doesnt have that care lately she says she loves me but i cant believe her anymore.
That sounds painful anon. If I were you I would trust her actions more than her words. Let the pain into your heart but don't beat yourself up about it. Things will improve in time.

>>37226514
I worried lad, Mummy May put the UK on critical, there could be a attack in progress as we speak, just some Nuka-Cola Victory please

>>37222822
I think I'm more depressed than I've ever been before. I'm so tired of being alone but I just can't summon the energy to try the way I used to be able to. It was so easy back in college to meet people and begin relationships with girls I was interested in, but now on the rare off chance I do meet someone I could see myself with, they're never into me. I don't know what's changed by I'm so deep in this rut now that I don't see myself ever getting out. I can't even fathom introducing myself to a random cute stranger anymore. My self esteem is just so shot at this point. I haven't felt this way since high school, and when I finally came out of that I thought I'd never be that way again. Now I'm afraid it's how I'm going to be forever.

Bumping, will write in few minutes, gotta get the steam off somewhere

>>37226649
thank you anon. i've been crying for so much. but thanks to you that it made me feel better talking in here.
she was my misaki (my savior) at the beginning but i guess it was a delusion. i can't understand why she doesnt say anything.
hey i know why she is ignoring me now. at first she thought she wanted to help this loser guy. then she got bored of me.
i wrote a full page message to her. she probably couldnt read a message that long and said "wew what a loser. i shouldnt be roleplaying as an angel to him. it will only make him addicted to me. fuck this guy and his miserable life."
i can understand if you tell me the truth like this.

>>37226673

Im in a rut like that too, my self-esteem is low in such an overall way. Like I'm not self-conscious so much about how I look, my personality, my interests, my career... None of that. I'm actually kind of happy about all of it. But I feel my life is just so stale and boring, and I have little friends I interact with IRL.


I moved to a new city where I knew no one and the first couple years I was self-absorbed trying to get over the deep depression I was in, which made me neglect making true connections with people. I'd meet people and get stuck in that "drinking buddy" stage of friendship. My social interaction comes 50% from forums like this, and 50% from my longtime friends that I chat to online.


I don't bother pursuing girls anymore because I don't have any real friends... who wants to date a dude with no friends? Even though chicks are interested in me I turn them down or cut it off because it makes me feel like shit lying about what I'm doing to avoid saying I'm just sitting at home shitposting all day
I yearn for a group of 3-4 dudes to chill and do stuff with, like I used to have before moving away. It sucks man. Being out of school only makes it so much harder to build that group or become apart of one.

>>37222822
I'll have a jack on the rocks, barkeep.

For at least the last year I feel like the only time I'm genuinely happy is when I'm drunk or high. To the point where it's becoming a problem. Even though things have started turning around in other aspects of my life. For the first time in 3 years at uni I've finally made some friends on my course which has led me to actually put effort into my studying and stuff.i feel that stuff like that should make me at least a little happier but I still feel just as depressed inside when I'm sober. I should really talk to someone about this but I don't want to trouble anyone. I force myself to act happy around people for the same reason.

I'll just take a water. It's been a long day, anon. Nice establishment you've got here, by the way.

I'll take a water like the gentleman above.

I'm moving soon, and my girlfriend and I don't really know how are relationship will work once I move, as she's not going to be able to follow; it's been rough, and I just hope everything works out.

White Russian please

I want to stop working and make my living via hacks and bitcoins. Found an exploit in Yugioh duel links for infinite money (the kind you have to pay for). Wanna start selling hacked gold but idk how I'm gonna keep living. All I know is that I want it to be shady, paid in bitcoins, and have cash mailed to me. I'm not a great hacker though.

>>37227332
I would do a shit ton of research first before you stop working

There are more effective, shadier practices out there obviously, but first you have to see if you could life off it

>>37227395
Yeah I'm not gonna stop. The price spikes in Bitcoin got me enough money to live for several months but that's no guarantee.

I'm not moving all in on it. Just a desire of mine to one day become the darknet denizen.

Thanks for the (You) buddy

>>37227036
similar boat, meet girl, chat for weeks getting along great, go on date and have a great time, tells me she wants to meet again and then just nothing.
left wondering where I went wrong

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>>37222822
I never worked a day in my life because I'm afraid of people shitless (and I wasn't even diagnosed with social anxiety). I have no money of my own and I'd have to use a my mother's money using my credit card to drink at the bar.
Therefore, I'm walking past the bar. Sweet dreams, everyone.

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>>37227459
>tfw I keep telling myself to invest in BTC since 2013 and never do it

>>37222822
Overcame my limits and Lost my virginity at 26 with a girl i thought was the one... 2 years later got STDs (not life threatening) and a broken heart. I think thats it for me for this life... loneliness, books, food, and video games are the future

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Fuck up my world, bar tender. I need something that'll knock me out fast.

>See qt red hair girl again today.
>Literally, the hottest girl I've ever seen.
>mfw she probably got railed by some people sometime in her life.
>mfw she follows all my friends on social media but me.

I might sound like a faggot but please bare with me. This girl has been on my mind and I can't fucking stop thinking about her. I haven't even talked to her, what should I do?

I don't need anything.

One month until I attain wizard powers. I've been taking long walks everyday and ordering three pizzas everyday for the past week while trading cryptos. Alternating between fantasies of how I will use my newfound wizard powers to enjoy life and making money with cryptos. I spent all day yesterday playing Lord of the Rings Online in between reading about cryptos on /biz/ and walking.
Just a month ago I swore off video games for the nth time, I get disgusted at the repetition. I spent all day watching anime and on 4chan, now I've switched to more 4chan less anime and more video games.
When I get my powers, life will be awesome then. Or if it doesn't happen-

No. It will happen. I will attain absolute power. Immortality! Good looks! I will build a kingdom out of North Korea after I banish the population to another dimension and replace the countryside with a jungle landscape and an underground civilization of catgirls and dwarves!
Watch me. If in a few month North Korea suddenly disappears, you'll know it was me.

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>>37222822
Expresso please, yeah i know its late

>>37228118
Not the bartender but I couldn't help but overhear. I'd assume what you have to do now is talk to her. I'm not the best at it myself but even when I'm bound to spill my spaghetti, if I come across a girl that I can't get out of my head I try to talk to her or ask her out at least once. I haven't succeeded once yet, but I firmly believe that closure for someone like that is important, or else you'll get stuck obsessing over them. You'll probably get rejected but you'll learn one more thing not to do when the next one comes along

>>37227827
Don't think of it as an investment. I buy it because I genuinely like it but it keeps paying me back. I don't really sell it.

Just put away $10 or whatever you can afford every week. You might catch a knife but if you like bitcoins it's okay.

I like online casinos and darknet markets

>have body issues since I was a little kid
>try to improve my hygiene and lose weight
>feel ok about myself for the first time in years
>mom has the audacity to tell me I'm not trying hard enough

Gee, mom. Maybe if you didn't molest me as a kid I wouldn't have a shit ton of issues.

I know she thinks I don't remember, but I do. Fuck you, mom. You are the source of all the shit in my life.

Give me a jack and coke, bartender.

>>37228574
Lost 5k sat in an online casino last week. Bitkong. I thought I would have 66% win chance on easy mode if I just did step 1 only, but I forgot that you lose far more on losses then you win on winnings so even if it's a true 66% win rate it doesn't matter because you don't win enough.
That was .14 eth, back before it mooned to 200. I still regret it.

>>37222822
just found out I landed a seat in the only pro orchestra in my state. want something to celebrate with. sorry to ask, but can I get a ramos gin fizz? beefeater if you've got it.

>banging my head against the wall
>scraped the skin off my hands until they bled
>i just wanna die
Wat du?
Oh, btw, something strong. I wanna be gone a while.

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Can't stop being bitter to people whether they've been mean to me or not. It's ruining my relationships slowly.

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>>37222822
Let me get some rum and coke bartender.

Finally got a Facebook to message my qt female coworker and we seem to have some good chemistry (at least it appears so to my friends). I've been getting mixed signals from her though. One time I asked her if she had any plans for summer and she replied "yes, lots of plans :$" which threw me off and I didn't respond until next morning. After I responded, she immediately replied back with two paragraphs of what she was gonna do during summer before she asked me what I was doing and then asking me out for coffee (I brought that up weeks ago first but she flaked on me and I never brought it up again). But now that she's done with classes, she hasn't responded to my messages. I sent her an Ira Glass quote I liked (she's a musician and I'm into writing) and haven't heard from her since. Man barkeep, I wish was handsome.

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>>37222822
Your best IPA bartender, the antimage on my team just threw away a 20k networth lead with his retarded buybacks.
FeelsBadMan, RIP 25 mmr.

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>>37222822

Ginger and crown, please. Need something bitter and sweet.
Putting this on
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fi-S9lrnLZ8

>>37224071

At least you had fun friend
Got dragged to a club once after a concert with some folks I talk to.

Was cool for about 15 minutes, then it just rang more and more hollow until I was just sipping while watching over my guys, in case they got a little too tipsy. Was throwing singles at crotches just so to get them leave me alone at some point.

I know I'm 20 something, but damn I feel too old for this shit

An irish coffee for this anon please.

Its almost 4:30 am now so i probably won't bother trying to fall asleep. My sleep schedule has been fucked for months if not years anyways. In a few hours ill be saying goodbye to someone who might be the closest thing to a friend i have.

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>>37222822
heineken please

I've been feeling more depressed than usual lately

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>>37231169

Maybe you would be less depressed if you drank something better than that piss called heineken. Let me get you a proper beer.

>>37231405
Stole it from the cellar now the bartenders are gone btw. Dont tell

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>>37231405
i'll see if they have this at the local packy

i am pretty sad and can't sleep, i was mugged today, so i can't really pay for a drink, i'll just sit here and chill
>be minding my own business waiting for my uber
>guy comes up to me
>pulls and cocks a fucking little ass gun
>"your phone you fucking faggot"
>pull it out
>"put in the code you stupid retard"
>try to explain to him the screen touch only works if the case is tilted a little
>"don't act like a retard or i'll kill you"
>my uber arrives
>guy points his gun at the uber
>tells me to shut the fuck up
>get in uber
>go to house
>cry

it's been 6 hours, can't sleep because i keep hearing his voice and can't think of anything else
i'm terrified

>about to chill and waste my night in r9k and video games
>check university website just in case
>have a test for tomorrow and haven't studied shit
Fuuuck. I want a drink now.
I actually have two tests but for the other one I know so little I might as well give up and focus on the one I've got a chance at. This is fucked.

Hey barkeep, I'll have a dark and stormy plx.

My life is objectively very very good but i still feel like an anxious freak. Mental illness is not a meme. This week has been the first full week in a while with little to no suicidal thoughts. Does therapy work or am i eventually going to kill myself

>>37222822
Crown Royal please
I just need bullets to die but I'm not 21 :(

>>37222822
I'm 33 and nust discovered beyblades problem is I'm sonfar behind all the anime and toys idk what to do, I would have fun playing it but no nothing about the series and what toneven start with? I mean do I go on ebay and buy old collections or start new? Yes I know its a kids game and show but fuck it any robots have advice INB4 old faggot autistic dont play etc

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Today was actually a pretty great day. I came back from a "date" I guess just now, and I feel weird. It was with a girl who I've known for a while and had feelings for, but never really did anything about it. I really wish I made a move, but nothing happen. I feel very strange, I don't know what to do.

We had fun though, she laughed and smiled a lot. I'll have a glass of wine please.

>>37231809
>i was mugged today

That's really fucking shitty. My phone got stolen from a gym locker a few years ago and I still get angry and upset about it. Did you file a police report?
>>37232052
>Does therapy work

It feels nice afterwards, just talking to someone is nice when you are lonely. But long term, it's expensive and doesn't really help with any problems. Also finding an available and decent therapist is a bitch.

>>37223721
I'm with you anon. At least we can share the experience. Hey bartender let me get a shot of Jack a shot of Beam and a beer.

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Vodka with ice, please.
It's 5 am here, I'm awake since 3 am. I've slept through the entire afternoon again.
I made some new friends lately and instantly became depressed thinking about the fact I will lose all contact with them one day.

>>37232290
>Did you file a police report?
yes, online though

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Milk please
Had to go walk around outside my house after hearing my parents shout and yell at each other over something small yet again.
This time i just couldnt help it. I had to leave and walk around outside. I just started crying after thinking about how much I hate myself. My mom got home and after hearing her and my dad shout at each other, I heard my mom say "I fucking hate coming here." If you know my mom, you know how much she hates to swear like that. She's normally a really nice person. Ive only ever heard her do it a few times in my life.
After going to walk around, I started crying because i just couldnt think about anything but jow much my parents hate me. But thinking about that I couldn't help but think about how no one hates me more than i hate myself.

>>37224071
>Why do I fall in love with every girl that shows me attention?

Charlie Kaufman really is a genius

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Water. Not supposed to drink on this medication.
Ive come to realize how deep my mental illness is. I have no support. I have no self. "I look inside myself and see my heart is black". Im getting crazier by the day. I have nothing to live for. Everyone I love leaves in the end. Im too normal for freaks and too freakish to be normal. I have no place in this world. I want nothing from it, and it wants nothing from me.

>>37222822
I'll have a White Russia, friend.

I got turned down for an internship I wanted; it would've been a good stepping stone in starting a career in a field I rather like. Now I have 3 months of doing nothing and trying to find a job for the summer and another internship for when uni starts. Had to explain multiple times to my family that I'm actually doing things and not just spending all my time shitposting, and I've only been back for two weeks. How are things going for you, bartender?

Just trying to finish this paper I've been working on, I hope you guys are doing well

I should know this week whether I'm moving out of town for a decent summer job. In the meantime, I wish you dudes good luck in your future endeavors

t. Leaf

>>37234749
Here you go
I actually still lives with my parents, they found my weed now I can't go out for a few month.
I don't have many friends and I can't even see them now.
Before all that happened they sent me to the looney bin two times, it really fucked me up and made me fail a year of college.
Everyday my parents tell me how they're disappointed, I don't get why my family hate me so much

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>>37234487
No OP, but we sound fairly similar. What all mental illnesses do you have?