/r9k/ Benzo

>>37223841
I'm anesthesiologist, I have unlimited access to benzos.

AMA

or do you take anything else to help with your anxiety?

this is the first benzo ive tried and i think it may be helping a bit but i think its a low dose

Coffee: 3-5 cups , daily. (This increases heart rate)
Pot: 0-1(sessions) weekly (stress reliever)

>>37223866
what can you tell me about clonazepam or klonopin its also called. Anything would be great my doctor didnt tell me too much about it

>>37223900
Nothing special, it'll relieve your anxiety and make you sleepy.

Don't drink alcohol while talking it, it'll make you even more sleepy. And you could die

>>37223900
also i hear its quite strong but i cant really feel it kick in or anything, my anxiety has been reduced a little bit throughout the day but thats about it, what about weed? i have a bad weed habit>>37223940

>>37223940
are there any benzos that would help more with the social side of anxiety?

i still have that mental block of not wanting to see other people,

>>37223952
Don't take more than you're prescribed, nigga. It'll work in time.

Been on Benzos for two years
-pregabalin -sulperen -Valium -xanax etc.. They're good in the beggining but tolerance builds up to quickly. The withdrawal is extremely difficult

>>37223972
>>37223940
>>37223982


or would a higher dose maybe increase that? and yeah im just going to take them exactly how she said, i see her in three weeks. I dont plan on abusing them as i know they can be really dangerous.

Was just more curious if some benzos made your more social than others i guess

>>37223972
Nah, all benzos work the same way. They just take away the anxiety and make you sleepy. If you wanna improve your social anxiety try alcohol or cocaine. But keep in mind cocaine only works that way the first few times, after that it's the other way around and your social anxiety becomes even worse than before.

was on 3 mg of Klonopin now taking 1 mg per day. weening myself off because I've been on it too long and had a period where I lost access to it and saw how addicted I was.

>>37223994
Pregabaline's not a benzo, it relieves nerve pain. Also one of the best highs I've ever had when mixed with weed

>>37224012
yeah i guess i need to exhaust other options too like therapy again, this is the first thing ive actually taken thats made any kind of difference though.

Shame they arent really meant for long term use

>>37224007
I've tried Diazepam 5 mg on myself intravenous, it felt really good but I fell asleep almost immediately

>>37224051
Benzos don't cure your anxiety, they just relieve the symptoms.

Aren't you on SSRIs for your disorder?

>>37224088
I have been on a few different ones over the years as well as a mood stabilizer, but none of them really had any effect on me except the latter. So i still take that but not an ssri.

need to find one that works i guess as i know these pills arent a long term solution

>>37224119
Yeah you should start SSRIs or some other antidepressant imho.

Also you'll probably get hooked on the benzos, watch out.

I find an internationally prescribed thienodiazepine works better than any benzo. unfortunately it's short half life of 4 hours makes it more of a 'drug'. it has a noticeable dopamine spike of clearheadedness for 1.5-2 hours but there is a noticeable burnout after 4 hours

>>37224149

Yeah im sure she will have something else for me to try when i go back to see her, been visiting her for years on and off but this was the first time she has prescribed something like this.

Just told her i basically havent left my house in years unless necessary and that the anxiety basically ruins my life, which certainly isnt a lie.

And i wasnt even going in there looking for this stuff or anything, was her idea

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>>37224177
>dude selfmedication lmao

>>37224218
klonopin helped a lot with my anxiety. i was pretty much house bound and over time everything became easier. your body will get addicted over time especially if you have to your doses but it's not bad at all to ween yourself off. if you go off cold turkey, it's hell on earth.

>>37224292
what dosage where you at?

i picked up my first prescription 4 days ago

0.25mg in the morning and 0.5mg at night

she wants me to see her in 3 weeks though.

I feel a bit of my baseline anxiety down a bit and my adrenaline spikes arent as painful, but i still feel miserable but im sure thats other issues

>>37224300
Nothing

oreganoli

>>37224339
i started out at .5 mg/day I think, the past year or so i've been on 3 mg/day

>>37223841
>benzo
You fucking pleb
Oxycodone > Barbiturat > weed> benzos
I'm on oxycodone and barbiturats right now

>>37224339
Nigga, benzos aren't supposed to make you happy or cure your anxiety like I already said.

It just relieves you a bit and makes you "indifferent" and drowsy.

No benzo is gonna make you feel "not miserable". You need SSRIs or other antidepressants for that. I'm guessing you're not bipolar so mood stabilizers won't have much effect.

>>37224368
Like i feel a little less anxious, but still have that huge mental block side of things, which prevents me from doing stuff.

Did it help with that at all for you? or was that not an issue to begin with for you

if that makes sense what im trying to say

>>37224388
im more looking for relief for my symptoms and issues rather than trying to get high though, as fun as that is im sure

so what can i expect from withdrawal symptoms? or can that be avoided with a proper taper?

>>37224405
yeah, i guess so. i mean my anxiety was so bad i'd get worked up over going into the supermarket and that doesn't happen on klonopin (clonazepam).

also clonazepam doesn't really make your drowsy like other benzos, imo. it works throughout the day, whereas something like xanax put me to sleep like a baby. i think klonopin is better when you're an anxious person in general, xanax for situational anxiety like taking a flight or whatever.

>>37223841
Same thing as you but 3mg a day

>>37224502
Hell, if you took it longer then 3-4 month daily

>>37224521
Okay thanks, maybe i just need a higher dose eventually or something, ill see what she says.

I just still dont feel like i can really leave my house or see people , but my all day anxiety isnt as bad

>>37224502
You shouldn't stop them completely. Your doctor will tell you how to lower your dose, till you completely stop them. Even then there's gonna be discomfort.

>>37224581
Thanks, good to know.

Ive only just started taking them like i said was more just curious

>>37224502
Would be careful and taper i stopped cold turkey last Monday. Last Thursday i had a seizure or a heatstroke at work and ended up in the hospital all day. I don't remember much from the morning but apparently it was bad and thank god my boy was there when it all happened for catching my head so it didn't hit the concrete. Also good luck sleeping.

>>37224635
>i stopped cold turkey last Monday.
dumbass lol

>>37224635
Ive never had much trouble sleeping, and i smoke a lot of weed so im not super worried about that.

Sorry do you mean sleeping while im tapering, or sleeping while im on the medication?

>tfw xanax prescription
I don't take it every day but it is very tempting because that shit works and it makes me stop panicking and also caring too much about things. How many days could I take it in a row without getting physically dependent?

>>37223841
Alprazolam
Seresta 10mg
Seroplex 10mg

I finally went to see a psychiatrist, I can't into eye contact and speaking to people makes me cry my eyes out.

I feel like I am completely dropping the act I was using for years.
I didn't take the antidepressant yet but I will get it tomorrow. Also the psychiatrist is getting me to get hospitalized into a nutjob clinic soon.

The seresta is blocking me from feeling anwiety and fear, it is like the information of fear is still present but I'm unable to interpret it while on meds.
I feel weaker than ever and I don't want it to stop I want to heal to be me again someday. I'm ashamed that I asked for help but I know I can't take it anymore by myself.
I just hope someday I will be able to be admired for my intellect again, I'm scared to become a brainless turd.

>>37224704
i imagine not very many if youre taking it multiple times a day

>>37224704
i think thats half my problem is i just panic like crazy and overthing absolutely everything, maybe ill ask my doctor about xanax next time

>>37224771
Dude, you don't ask them for meds. You ask them for help. That's their job. You'll feel miserable with xanax as well. Just describe what you're feeling to your psychiatrist and they'll pick the therapy.

>>37224715
i know this feeling, i cant even talk with my family members its so bad without feeling like im about to cry, so forget any other kind relationships (friends, girlfriends)

>>37224804
Yeah i have been going for years and this is the first time shes prescribed me a benzo to deal with my issues, was more just going to ask her if it would maybe help more with the social side of things compared to clonazepam, something i could take once in a while compared to every day

>>37224852
>something i could take once in a while
No, such a drug doesn't exist.

Except vodka.

>>37224877
im thinking more if i have a really stressful situation coming up i can take something to help with that for that day, rather than an every day benzo

>>37224913
Diazepam, bromazepam

>>37224943
thanks maybe ill discuss those with the doctor

ideally id like to keep my tolerance/dependance as low as possible while still dealing with my issues, but maybe you cant have it all

>>37224818
Get professionnal help my man, you can't stay like this forever, and the longer you take the hits and absorb the pain the more it will fuck you up.
You have the inalienable right to feel good and appreciate being alive, I know there os a lot of shame but you know they don't really understand even if they say they do. You have to listen to your feelings for once and prove yourself that you deserve love and attention.

>>37224967
Like I said, don't bring up the specific drugs. Just explain what you're looking for in effects.

Trust me, I'm a doctor.

>>37223841
I take them but I don't like them, they just decrease my reaction time in video games. Good for actual anxiety not meme anxiety, doing 20 mins of cardio is the same fucking thing.

>>37225046
>doing 20 mins of cardio is the same fucking thing.
>t. I don't have anxiety

>>37225064
the dopamine rush of exercise gives me a pretty similar calming effect to taking a regular dose of a benzodiazepine, I didn't say it was practical to do cardio when having an anxiety attack of some sort.

>>37224694
I mean if you follow a doctors taper you should be fine sleeping, and you got weed. But after your completely off you might have trouble getting to sleep and then only sleeping like 5 maybe 6 hours.

I take Zoloft 50mg and I feel like it has helped a little bit.

>>37225100
Benzodiazepines have nothing to do with dopamine, my man. They increase gamma-aminobutyric acid's inhibiting capabilities on your neurons which gives you the sedative and anxiolytic effect

>Dont be a benzocuck, try some oxycodone

>>37223841
I had a huge stash of benzos for awhile that I was going through, that shit made me weirder than I already am.

>>37224715
you may just be experiencing some bad side effects right now, but they will pass

>>37225029

Thanks ill keep that in mind for sure

>>37224977
Yeah i am getting help, its just not really going anywhere.

Trying to make another go of it because youre right i dont want to live the rest of my life like this

I used to have a prescription for 1.5 mg clonazepam in 0.5 doses but like an idiot I didn't keep my prescription active because I thought I could learn to live without them. I was in a better place mentally and also on a lot of adderall so I was outgoing and optimistic and talkative.

>>37225814
damn sounds like it was great while it lasted

I fell for the clonazepam meme when I was younger. it was great while I was on it because it dumbed me down and made me not give a shit about anything, but I started to rely on it in order function at the most basic level. I also started to mix it with alcohol/robitussin/diphenhydramine (which was fun, but it was dangerous sometimes because I would drive to school while fucked up.) I eventually realized that I didn't want to be hooked on pills anymore, I decided to get off of them. I can say that benzo withdrawal is one of the worst things I have ever experienced. They lasted for months too

I just go the pleb route and drink hard liquor. From what I understand it works similarly to benzos except there are a few more negative effects like dehydration/vomiting if you drink too much.

>>37224177
Etizolam? Originalalyyyloo

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I take 75 mg of effexor doesnt work, going to probably try something new or just give up entirely

how do you all so casually take stuff that can dim your cognition significantly and have unknown side effects?

may as well just abuse painkillers if you want to use benzos, easier withdrawal and probably won't make you retarded like benzos are proven to do. ssris almost in the same boat

>>37223866
If I'm paranoid as fuck about getting surgery will they let me black out meds at least? I know surgery is my biggest fear of all time but I think if I could take some Xanax and a shot of booze I'd be like alright let's do this and then I won't even remember going to sleep or talking to the doctors

The withdrawal is awful. Get off ASAP.

I took .5mg in morning and night for about a year tapering to 1 per day in the last month. I'm now 5 months clean and I still have poor language ability and I do still drop things. Just use weed to calm you down instead.

>>37227746
having crippling anxiety all day to the point you cant leave your house or form or maintain relationships with other people sucks.

sometimes it can be the only thing that works for people


>>37227839
ive been using weed for quite some time but it still doesnt do enough for me i find

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>>37223841
How do I convince my doctor to give me benzos?

I'm already perscribed to adderall and I don't want it to seem like I'm just using him for drugs (even though I kind of am)

I might just buy etizolam off of the clearnet if it's easier

>>37227859
Take a t-break finally

In the morning, I take a doctors recommended multivitamin supplement that contains rare Japanese botanicals and Norwegian salmon fish oil extracts, whereafter I apply a 100% non-alcohol, organic face wash followed by a final, organic protective moisturizer. Then a 60 minute workout in a tight well fitted t shirt and some shorts, white sneakers and my Sony X pro auto adjustable earphones, where I listen to the latest business news, finishing off with an intensive chest and shoulder superset where I relenquish my urge to catch 20 minutes of 80 synth pop to get the mood going before I head on out to meet a friend or colleague for early morning chai lattes at a small French cafe. I never take any medicine because I believe in a natural balance between my psyche and nature. On harsh days, I'll drink a tripple espresso with organic skimmed milk to tone down the bitterness of the coffee, followed by a rigorous masturbation session where I usually look for twink pornography to naturally spike my testosterone levels. Then a steaming shower, followed by a nice, big fat dump which I leave unflushed until the evening where I put it in the freezer and send it to the lab for nutritional analysis.

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i have been abusing RC benzos hard for like fucking half a year or somethign now
i know that i really really shouild stop or i will possibly ruin my entire life but i just really dont give a shit loll

>>37223841
Works wonders. Long term effects and dependence are quite scary tho.

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>>37223841
>.5mg clonazepam
HAHAHAHAH!!!!!! The fuck that do? Might as well take a sugar pill and sell them!

I've tapered down from 2mg clonazepam and currently have a .5mg prescription. I'm taking .25 and weening off it. I literally only take it to avoid withdrawals and I think I'm ready to jump off. But I'm worried. I got on them in the first place because I would have panic attacks in the middle of the night during sleep FOR NO FUCKING REASON. I've been saving a stash by weening myself off and taking half a dose and going to trade my clonazepam for xanax since it's faster acting and would work better to help me sleep if I have an attack. Please no. Panic attacks are no fun. :(

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>>37228337
If you aren't lying, make sure you stock up just in case you can't get it anymore. I've fucked with RCs and supplements like Phenibut because I'm a friendless neets and don't know any nigger dealers. The last thing that I would want to happen to you is to suddenly run out without being able to taper, that is if you were too retarded to become dependent because you didn't do any research ... like I did when these shit doctors hooked me on prescription benzos. Fuck them. Withdrawals can kill you, anon. Be safe!

>>37228684
Think of it this way. You trade panic attacks for language impairment and then you're back to being you with less frequent attacks.

>>37228786
I've been diagnosed with schizo. I've taken so many anti psychotics ... I'm permanently fucked. Literally these pills chemically lobotomize you. The price I paid for neetbux 4 lyfe, unless something catastrophic happens that all permanently disabled people are cut off neetbux. Once I get rid of this benzo dependency, I'll be free. Hopefully ... There are other alternatives that I could take, such as Gabapentin. It's not a scheduled drug so that makes it easier to get, like early refills. I've landed in the hospital because my sister's chad bf stole my pills and I beat his ass with a frying pan. I was in jail withdrawing for like 2 weeks. I had to had seizure until these faggots would give me my medications because they probably thought I was a pill seeker druggy faggot nigger.

They are incredible in the short term. I was fucking euphoric the first time I took benzos; I felt like I imagined normal people to feel. No anxiety and could concentrate on life.

But they're no good in the long run. I've been through benzo withdrawal and it is not fun at all. Took almost a year to feel 'normal' again.
They are incredible mixed with an upper like amphetamines. Don't listen to people who say it's bad for your heart, it's actually better as the benzos dampen a lot of the negative effects of the speed.

You will feel like a god, creativity will flow, words will come with ease, you can talk to anyone with confidence. But you've made a pact with the devil, and in return he'll take your soul and personality away eventually.

Also if you drink while taking them on a night out you will get into stupid situations because you have no self-control or social barriers; I've been close to having the shit kicked out of me by actual gangsters because I thought I was invincible on it.

tl;dr: they're a short term solution, but a fucking good one.

I just got put on a starting dose of 37.5mg venlafaxine a day. So far it's done nothing.

But the dude I talked to thinks that I could have ADD, and I'm going to get tested for it.

How do I make sure that they think I have ADD and I get adderall?

>>37229009
This.
I think after about 2 months of daily use, the "euphoric" effect wore off. It was crazy how good they worked though. I was working retail when I first got on them and I literally had a smile on my face 24/7. It was crazy. I made a lot on commission in those 2 months. I was on a roll.

3mg of xanax right now
Very comfy

>>37229009
Good post. Suffered with horrendous anxiety all my life. A doctor started giving me lorazepam which was heaven for a few months. I was eventually put on 3 mg a day and after a year or so that wasn't enough to for me. I was taking my monthly supply within 2-3 weeks and withdrawing once a month for 1-2 weeks. I'm sure it was terrible for me. I would hide pills in strange places so at the end of the month when I was out I would go searching and find them.

I've been clean fir a couple of years now. Still have anxiety. Still find the occasional pill in a random place and flush it, I can't go down that path again.

>>37229147
Good for you. I hope you keep spreading the truth about benzos. It's like these faggot doctors are pushing this shit, similar to pain killers and they wonder why there's a "heroin epidemic". Fucking Jews. I'd say, take benzos for a month, take a 2-3 month break, and use for another month. AT WORST. Seriously, long term benzo use will fuck you up permanently and could take YEARS for you to recover, if you even do. OR, look for similar alternatives. Do your research. With "legal" shit, you can stalk up if shit hits the fan and taper off. For example, you can buy Phenibut online easy. It's considered a supplement. Works similar to benzos, but DO NOT take more than twice a week. Spread our those 2 days as much as possible. Give yourself at least a week or two break after those 2 days before you use again.

>>37228941
Yeah, but there are so many kinds of schizo genes it's not even funny. I'm sorry they don't listen to you...?

>>37227765
If you say you're nervous they will usually give you IV sedation before you go into the surgery room. It won't be bad I promise. It's a very cool experience, you'll be okay. Everyone is super nice too.

>>37229009
poster here.

Thought I'd share some alternatives that helped me get off benzos.

Here are some things you should try:

>L-Theanine
Can feel like low-dosage benzo. Also good for you

>Chelated Magnesium
Magnesium helps relax muscles, and having a relaxed body can often help relax the brain (and visa versa)

>L-Glutamine and L-Taurine
Both of these raise GABA (calming chemical) in the brain. Overuse of benzos rinses the brain of GABA.

>5-HTP
Lots of people swear by this but it's a strange one for me. Sometimes I take it and feel ok, but other times it makes me a bit anxious. But then again I'm sensitive to things that involve serotonin (I can't take MDMA without freaking out for instance).

>Aniracetam
This stuff is quite something. It's has anti-anxiety and anti-depressant properties and can help with creative and abstract thinking. I was quite shocked with how well it worked as I was skeptical about nootropics. Recommended if you can afford it.

>Kava Kava
Never really resonated with me, but some people swear by it.

If you experiment and manage to get the right combination that works for you then you can end up getting very good results that feel like benzos but with out the braideadedness and eventual addiction.

Also be strong and save benzos only for EXTREME situations.

>>37229020

uhh if it's like what i had to do, you get a 5 minute quiz sheet with 1-4 scale and it asks you questions about your childhood. basically you want to answer like you're impulsive. i dont know how you would game it though, i just answered mine honestly

>>37229399
>schizo genes
HAHAHAH!!! Nice one. (((Modern Medicine))) doesn't know SHIT about most mental illnesses. It's a literally a game of whack of mole, trying different meds until something "works". Meds that could severely fuck you up permanently. Meds that you could become dependent on. Meds that can make you want to kill yourself after you've tried so many meds at different dosages. There's no hope. The only thing to do is live with your illness. Accept that your life is going to be shit. Accept that you're going to be "odd". Live with it. There is no magic pill.
If I were going to kill myself, I would maybe look into research trials. Hopefully there is a pill out there. Who knows. We all react differently to meds. I seem to be immune to the dozens of antidepressants I've taken before I became a schizo in my early 20s. Whatever.

>>37229147
I had a bad panic attack mixed it with vodka and learned afterwards it was a recipe for death
luckily i didn't die but got left with swiss cheese memory.

>>37223841

>Clonazepam

Take Clonazolam you pussy

>>37229602
i didnt get to pick, just what was prescribed to me

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>>37229551
Ive already done this and answered honestly, I called my mum to help since I don't remember what I was like. She just says I was depressed ever since I was 3 years old, she doesnt think I have ADD.

May redo this, I really want adderall. Not to abuse, I just can't focus on anything longer than 30 seconds, and it's ruining my life.

>>37229651
>literally took a picture
Age? No bullying here. So weird that youngerfags take pictures of everything. Why? Are you a narcissist too?

>>37229569
please read https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Neurogenic_locus_notch_homolog_protein_4

from one "schizo" to another, educate yourself before you go all hippy on them.

>>37229706
I'm 20, 21 in a few months. I'm not sure, I just feel like any post I do is incomplete without a picture. Honestly I probably do it because I'm probably attention seeking.

And yeah I would say I'm narcissistic.

>>37229741
Translate, please? "schizo". You seem too smart to be a schizo, let alone one that would taking meds which would impair your functions. Fuck off.

>>37229815
NOTCH4 has implications for cell to cell communication. Please do remember well what it means to be a multi-cellular organism.

Also, I'm not on meds anymore because I'm not a burden of the state unlike yourself. Moreover, there are plenty of schizos that are smart. Go watch "A Beautiful Mind."

>>37229836
Heh, I was waiting for that. "Based on a True Story". Right? Seems like you did your research. But why? Why pretend to have a mental illness? Just pretend you're genderqueer faggot or something. That's in right now.

>>37223841
At one point I was taking about 6 2mg xanax a day. There's a very thin, difficult to discern line which, if you cross, will absolutely fuck you up. The worst part is, you won't even realise you're fucked. I went to the opticians barely able to speak or walk and didn't think there was anything wrong. I still love benzos though.

>>37229871
cloudydaze#4276 show me how much all of your cells will actually let you connect with me while simultaneously letting you "get your way"

but really, also remember the saying "talk shit get hit"

and yeah, the movie was a true story about a Mathematics Nobel Prize Winner.

>>37224049

Gapapentin and Adderall here

Would recommend

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>>37229741
>says he's a shizo
>claims do to research
>that's why anti psychotics are there!!! READ!!
>before you go all hippy
>>37229836
>I'm not on meds anymore
>Implying you have to be on neetbux to get medicated
Fuck off you trendy faggot shill. What meds did you take? How long? What dosage? Why did you stop taking them? I'm curious. No permanent damage? Hmm ...
>>37229903
If you actually did your homework, you'd know that movie is an extreme exaggeration. We're talking about the movie with Russel Crow, Right?

>>37227932
buy them from alphabay. very cheap.

>>37229951
http://vocaroo.com/i/s19cp7gjvhXb

>>37229651

well my advice would be not to oversell it, the test is probably designed to catch swindlers. i wanted to be on a stimulant really badly but i just answered honestly and ended up on it anyway

>>37227932
If you have addy already, it's ez. Adderall is known to cause increased anxiety and sleeping problems, tell him you need something to help with those problems. Don't tell him 'GIVE ME SOME BARS' but be cool.

>>37227932

its gonna be far easier to get etizolam but honestly you shouldnt go that route yourself, benzo addiction is the real deal and having fucking 8000 doses for 60$ may be a little too much responsibility for you to handle

also benzos make you retarded, so dont take them

>>37223841
I have alprazolam
I'm only supposed to take it if I feel the motor tension coming on along with the intrusive thoughts. However, since that's nearly everyday and you can build up a tolerence quickly, I avoid taking them at all costs. I also have an addictive personality, so I really avoid them. They're .5mg each, and last anxiety attack I downed 5 and it made me feel like an angel who had gone to heaven. No heart palpitations, no shaking, no worries or hearing things others can't... it was heaven on earth. unfortunately I could barely walk.
I can't do that again, though. But I dream of it everyday. Instead I have developed a binge eating problem and caffeine addiction, to help "cope" with my illnesses..

>>37229526
>L-Theanine

On 500mg right now. Can confirm it's pretty relaxing

i love with god damn Xanax, no emo meme

seriously. my whole life I had been extremely anxious.

took xanax for like, 3-4 months every day, roughly .5mg - 1mg and I made more friends and was more outgoing and confident then I ever had been.

Realized I couldn't take a benzo everyday because of addictive properties, although my tolerance never seemed to raise.

Doctor tried to put me on SSRI's and I looked up the side effects of those and decided fuck it, I'll just quit benzos and use occasionally and remain sober.

Have been off of them for a week today and finally I am feeling like 85-95% in terms of energy.

Hoping I can get to the point where I only do a 2mg pill once a week, its a very slippery slope tho.

>>37230036
after handing in the test, how long did you wait until they gave you stimulants?

>>37231590

next but i did ask him before hand and he said i had to be tested for it, i was also on stims for awhile before that so i was having my balls busted for no reason. you will have to pretend to take straterra or other garbage before it almost certainly with how much bullshit is involved with the psychiatry field. only reason im probably on a stim is because i was prescribed it so long ago by pure luck by a family doctor

>>37231740
thanks for info. I'll probably just be honest with the dude, probably for the best if I actually want to get better.

>>37224804
> You ask them for help
Ok with that
> It's their job
You are an utopist anon