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>tfw I actually get trigger by this shit
kill me

>existing in real life
>having fun
>see some normies kissing
>experience ruined

>>34698938
>having fun
>suddenly, niggers
>experience ruined

cute

what movie is it

Is this an online gf you have never met?

>>34698887
post her pic you autist bf

Not for me, it was a shit year like most of the ones preceding it

>>34698878
I miss 2007-8. Mainly because i was in middle school then and naive to the world and it's problems.

>>34698878
>decade
thats a 10 year span anon

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is that a fucking buzzfeed thumbnail?

In my 30s and NEET
:(

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>>34698807
i turned 24 in december surely i will have my dick wrapped around another person's flesh by the end of this year

surely

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I feel worthless, and I feel like I need this dream in order to prove to myself that I'm not a piece of shit. Deep down I just feel unlovable -- very poor self esteem throughout my entire life up to this day.

I feel like it's good that I now have something to work towards, and that things are different now in that the problems that held me back now are not so overwhelming. The residual continuance of the way that I've lived my life is my horrible self-esteem which has essentially defined my existence.
This was the most obvious dream I've ever had, or at least I'm at my most capable or lucid at understanding myself. I remember I had a dream with a similar feeling when I was a very young child: my family was on a bus driving away from me, and I was left behind. In fact, it's the exact same sadness.

When I say this thing has defined my existence I mean really defined it: I've been running from it all this time. Into drugs, into whimsical fancies.. I've been "shy", I've needed approval DESPERATELY from others, never good enough on my own, never good enough to stand on my own two feet. I had given up on my life for so long. I was just thinking today how I was different others in the life that I had had. I've spent so many years dealing with differently the deeply ingrained belief that I had, namely that I would eventually "kill myself before I was 30", and for that matter how I likewise compare to others in all aspects of life. So many years ruminating on these things over and over. My life was truly a living hell.

So many challenges that I ran away from because I was scared. I ain't no fuckin' man. I can't talk to people, especially to girls. I needed booze, drugs, failing that, something else to keep me afloat, when really I was missing the one thing that would have made interaction and a good life possible -- the belief in myself and from that the will to live. I spent my years either not only actively being ridiculed and scorned, but constantly fearing it, and hating myself for it. I could go on for day. It's impossible to tell you the pure devastation that my life was. It's impossible to express the deathly momentum that my life had, and how helpless I was. I lived with the inevitability that I would eventually buy a gun and shoot myself in the mouth with it.

But I know things can change now. In fact everything in my life has oriented itself to this end. Who would have thought that I would come to believe in God?

I know that I need to do this thing that I have in mind, but I also don't want this thing to be my psychological or otherwise life-anchor -- the thing that I use to justify my existence. I want to be okay as I am, but have this really cool thing that I want be something that is a choice, and not a NEED that I use to compensate for my lack of wholeness as a person. You know? It's so obvious that I need to do this, or I will regret it for the rest of my life.

Apologies for typos -- I just woke up, and I've only slept for a little bit these past few days.

This is the #1 thing problem I have right now. How do I heal myself?

TLDR
I cry to Gurren Lagann every damn time.

I read what you wrote but have no advice. Sorry.

>>34698764
No. Last time someone approached me when I was alone she turned out to be a hyper religious nut who thought America was gonna be destroyed by 3 meteor strikes within November 2016. She knew this because God had spoken to her and she said she was destined to meet me because I have friends in the US. She said I had to warn them and get them out as soon as possible.

She also said Obama is pure evil.

i discovered that i learned so much more than non-loners in my solitude that it is no longer possible to engage with any non-loner on an equivalent level

unfortunately, if i encountered a similar loner at a similar level to me, we would be repulsed due to lack of any social grooming, and probably a healthy distaste for such an affair anyway

this is now a permanent isolation
oh well

>>34698764

I dont because it gets boring talking to people over time.

t. Jamal al-Muhammadid

>>34698739
I dislike blondes too, but more because I associate them with the typical airheaded Stacy Instagram whore.

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You're all jealous of my superior genes!

T./pol/

> music
I mostly listen to german music. I told you thats where i from, right?
New Wave, Trap and also blackmetal. I can show you some stuff sometime if you want :)
> hobbys
I am into photography. I also have a few film cameras that i shoot black and white film with. Its pretty fun.
> Work
I work as a audio visual media designer. We do music videos and commercials and stuff.
> snapchat
I dont have snapchat but im on facebook

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>>34698730
>>hey, what music do you like?
iono, i listen to a lot of stuff
>>What do you do for fun?
im down for pretty much anything
>>Where do you work?
food service
>>Do you have a Snapchat or something?
yeah, heres my insta too

these are all easy questions to answer, opie

>>34698730
>hey, what music do you like?
I guess alternative but that's a loaded word. I like a lot of music and pandora turned me into a hipster where I love songs with like 1000 plays on spotify. Pretty much every genre has at least a dozen good songs.

>What do you do for fun?
I love hiking, photography, camping, swimming, cooking, traveling, reading, video/ editing, but deression and circumstance has made it to where I can only go for walks in my neighborhood and take pictures of the polluted sky with my phone. Currently just video game shit while I get my life together.

>Where do you work?
Neet & Neet Inc.

>Do you have a Snapchat or something?
Yeah but don't use it much

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>>34698728
women who enjoy barbecuing

it's a derogatory term to promiscuous women, because their vagina lips look like a roast beef sandwich

>>34699105
Do you not like it when you think vaginas look like roast beef? Why is that?

looks comfy bra

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I'm gonna clean it today maybe.

How are you liking college, OP?

>>34698649
>and lately uses a lot of emoticons.
I hate her
>Today she changed her status to some pseudo deep shit "If you don't pay attention you can miss out. Pay attention now!"
Dude I hate her so much

She's retarded, but whatever I guess you can't hold that against her. She'd have to be pretty immature and pretty stupid to change her status to something like that specifically for you, instead of just talking to you. But again, she may just be that stupid. If she is that stupid, then yeah obviously do something about it. But if she's that stupid then also no, don't say shit, she's fucking stupid, you don't want that shit.

>>34698743
what this dude said. she seems attention and drama seekingish, "you can miss out" what is she tryna say??

>>34698743
>>34698779
Thanks for the heads up guys, I'll just play it cool then.

As you would otherwise, just do normie stuff, be funny, be charming.
Whatever

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>>34698636
>stalk him for a week or so
>go to his weekly furfag meetings dressed as furry
>fuck his sweet boipucci
>roll off him then reveal your identity

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You have to become a furry, anon

It will work, trust me

Join us anon

i envy you with every fiber of my being
lucky bastard ....

>>34698596
>One day she asks for a photo
>After a while of me beating around the bush because I really don't want to show myself I finally do it
>She mysteriously disappears after a week

T-Thanks

>>34698596
I got nudes from two girls cuz of that.
They told me they would have had sex with me but they were too far away irl.

I'm gonna be a virgin forever.

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>27 years old
>live in los angeles
>can't drive due to panic attacks

i want to die

>>34698551
>28 years old
>have bad eye sight, near sighted
>never got glasses to fix it
>tried to learn how to drive a decade ago
>have a lead foot and scare myself driving
>unable to get comfortable being on the left side of the car and staying in lane
>scared to merge or even turn at a light
>not comfortable operating several thousand pounds of metal with limited viewspace
>I don't want to crash, hurt or kill myself or others
>still don't drive or have drivers license
Thank god for uber.

I got mine after my 4th time
Anxiety fucked me up many times

>>34698539
>You must be new here
>Leave before its too late

>>34698539
From what I know, a trap. A man that wears a dress

girl with feminine penis