>6'5" chad bullies me all the time and hits me for fun.
>plays with my hair and stuff to annoy me
>I get rock hard when he bullies me and I want him so bad.
Why do I have this homolust
>implying everyone here wouldn't bend over if Chad asked
Plenty normal op
>>35850636
Next time he gets in your face, kiss him and see what happens. :3
>>35850636
It's because you wish to be him. Go lift weights so you can jerk off to yourself in the mirror.
nobody else is awake and I would feel guilty talking about it in the chat server where I knew him from since there were other people who were closer to him than me but im really shaken up by it
He overdosed on DXM last night
I can't help but feel guilty that I didn't make more of an effort to get under his shell and talk through his issues and show him that I really cared about him and now I wont ever get that chance
He was isolated from everyone, didnt have many friends irl, nobody knew what was going on with him other than that he was depressed
I just keep thinking that that couldve been me or could be me had I made a few wrong choices or if I have a bad trip and lose all my progress or fail in school and spiral into depression again
I've been doing really really well i got a job i havent been as depressed or anxious and ive been able to actually function a little and I never want to go back to the way I was again and im afraid that if anything goes wrong I will
I don't want to hurt anyone I just want to live a happy life and im really scared of what I might do if I start slipping again
I'm very isolated and withdrawn from family, I have a couple distant friends that I dont really talk to and my mothers neurotic so its really hard to try and be close with her and ive been getting more derealized and im taking worse care of myself and im less motivated to do things, I never want to back down that road again but I can feel it creeping up
I don't know why I came back here I just need to talk about it with someone that would understand
You have my condolences, OP
You gotta do well for yourself, he wouldnt want you to crash and burn over him
I dont know what to say, just dont fall into a bottle or nothin, dude
Id suggest taking to a real person, like a counselor, 4chan can only go so far
>>35850494
I don't think you could've really saved him, only delayed. Of course I could be wrong.
As for you, pick up a hobby. Something simple even like drawing, reading, fishing, whatever. Get involved in it and research the best tools, techniques, etc and buy the stuff for it. Maybe if you really like it go to a local club meet for it, you'll make friends fast since you all have the same interest. I think it's important to have hobbies. Don't worry about being alone because even with good friends, most don't care about your very deep problems and so on. Yes, the good ones will be around during bad times but very very few are genuine.
Good luck anon. I feel a little similar to you and hobbies have worked for me.
>>35850494
I've lost an internet friend too. she committed suicide. There's really nothing we can do bro.
what we need to do is process what's happened without letting it haunt us. get busy in the meanwhile. then, we can move on
What do you smell like /r9k/?
>>35850470
Piss and urine
>>35850470
I smell like aventus, tuscan leather, l'air du desert marocain, sensei, tobacco oud or my secret personal favourite scent that I tell nobody about.
(it's cum)
>>35850470
Girly deodorant, sweat and sadness.
Hi r9k I've listening to this song like more than 100 times:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0-hshf6iBIQ
I feel like shit lately, I feel lonely af, I feel like I want to die
Also Feels Thread I guess.
>>35850464
What's wrong, OP?
originalio
>>35850500
I think I have BPD or some shit like that. I also I think I'm doing something wrong, really wrong, what about you anon?
>>35850529
Listening to music and psyching myself up for therapy tomorrow desu. What are you doing really really wrong? Also BPD (Borderline) is really obvious to notice i've been told, like trying to kill yourself if someone snubs you
Why are you afraid to talk to her like this Anon? You need to test her, she's waiting for you to make the first move.
>>35850439
She's deflecting you, it seems.
>>35850439
>I've done a lot under the sheet
fucking dropped.
because it also requires following through with your gloating
why the fuck would i set expectations so high
HAHAHAHAHAH HOLY FUCKIN JESUS CHRIST
LOOK AT THIS >>>/soc/25073564
do you think he gets welfare sex?
He seems cool
you're really pathetic though.
>>35850457
>He seems cool
what do you find cool about him
>>35850480
his iron wheel chair
Would you date this girl, /r9k/?
No, I'd rather stay FA than date....that
>>35850351
i wonder what she would look like without all that fat.
>>35850371
>....that
what a needlessly cruel thing to say
I don't even want sex anymore, the idea of it is terrifying
I just want a woman to hold me and run her fingers through my hair and tell me it's going to be ok. I'm so lonely and sad
>>35850332
ive thought about this too, closest you can get is a body massage
Sex usually follows the "running fingers though hair" phase.
Iktf anon
Virginity is not even a factor i just want someone to care for me and be there
Which board do you think is the most normie-like? For me it's /pol/
>>35850310
yeah pol is full of redditors who pretend to be epic old fag 4channel posters xD
also its full of underaged faggots who know nothing about politics and just go along with the memes
close second would be /v/
>>35850310
/b/ is full of normal fags with gfs n shit
/fit/ has the normiest memes and lingo.
Post yours, robots and rate. Also find a friend here.
>>35850296
ok
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Why the fuck did they bring back this original shit? FUcking stupid
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>>35850296
Tell me one reason to not end my fucking existence. I'm tired, tired of everything around me
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EpsbK9XNhCE
>>35850296
Glad to see you love mango, anon
-3 dub cheeseburgers
-20 tendies
-1 mctendy
-1 potato soft taco
-3 beefy fritos burritos
-1 supreme taco
-1 nachos bel grande
-1 large diet coke
>tfw still hungry but not hungry enough to drive
>pizza places are closed
tonight will be a challenge friends.
>>35850271
Ate 2 frozen pizzas back to back after getting drunk
And a laaarge souda
Oh wow, what do you weigh?
Is that your entire intake today or just your recent meal?
The creation of this thread destroys another I AM GOD
>>35850234
I mean, I know it's just /r9k/, but this had me thinking for a good minute. Not bad, OP.
>>35850234
good job there OP
Fool, You haven't even BEGUN to see what power looks like.
>unsheaths katana
http://imgur.com/gallery/uZpkA
>>35850165
I'm... excited too
>>35850241
MODS
filler
>>35850274
sgdf zsdf
bros I need to confess. I cheated on my beautiful, loving, and sweet girlfriend with a fat cow ill green text a story or something but i just need to be chewed out
you'd be more respectable if it was a literal cow
hey, OP my ex-boyfriend cheated on me too
I gave him everything and he decided to meet up with some slut he found on the internet
tell the story so I can re-live the anger and hurt
>>35850138
You should tell her about it. You clearly don't deserve someone like that if you value her so little that you'd rather fuck some fat shit you won't care about in the morning.
My twitch got banned:( come watch me stream on YouTube guys! http://www.youtube.com/c/smurph/live
>>35850026
bumped because we watchin roasties out here
stop roasties with him
>>35850222
Nice trips!!!!!! Rolling for dubs