25+ General

>spend all working week waiting for the weekend
>weekend hits and I'm too miserable to do anything but browse 4chan
>download a few games, play for 20minutes max and then uninstall

Life gets more and more miserable the older you get. If you've still got a few years before 30 then make a god damn fucking change now before it's too late. 25 is your final warning to take back your life

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>be26
>mom is always tired
>went to the doctor
>sugar good,heart good
>tfw she has blood in the stool
>dad keeps talking about suicide
>brother doesn't care about his health
>I might lose the only people in my life in a short amount of time


from last thread but what the fuck lads? How the fuck am I supposed to go on? I'm trying to mentally toughen myself up then i start to tear.

>27
>Stable job but shitty pay
>Barely scraping by
>Balding badly
>Manlet
>No friends
>KHV
>Think about suicide daily

But on the bright side... oh wait there is no bright side.

>>35954162
I know what you mean but It was a psychological thing. I just want to get out of this toxic environment and do what's right.

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>>35957362
>But on the bright side... oh wait there is no bright side.

>>35957353
I have been working week upon week as well. I still find time to game. Either I drink monsters and stay awake or take one day to be lazy and sleep while gaming for the rest of yhe week

I'm 27 with no friends, limited social skills and a deranged sexuality. I live on my own and have a job. Can I still make it ?

I just dropped out of community college at 21 any advice oldfags?

>30
>Stressful work
>My salary is just barely ok
>Living alone
>Weekend comes and I'm so exhausted that I can't concentrate anymore: movies, vidya, music -everything is feels like shit
>Repeat

>26 in a month
>made out with a 19 year old last week

That's about the only good thing that happened lately.

I've been on a good binge for a few days now and this is the third one of these.. hi. I'm 28 and high as fuck. And nice and drunk. Don't do this. Addiction sucks.

>>35957555
Go back dummy

Also if you're like me, get on anxiety meds before you do so so you won't be as likely to drop out again

>>35957550
I don't know. What is it that you have to find before you die?

>>35957576
where did you meet them how what when where why? i need to know.

>>35957358
why is your dad talking about suicide m8

>>35957631

My co-worker's house party. She's only 20.

>>35957563
My life is already shit. I want to avoid this sort of additional shit like the plague.

>>35957550
same here. i may be depressed also, seriously considering a "doctor" for the first time.

>>35957353
>Life gets more and more miserable the older you get.

Pretty much, once you internalize that fact, you can then do something about it because, literally, theres nowhere else to go but up, you've got nothing to lose. Just realize, its going to blow, for awhile, before something might change.

29

Suicidal thoughts most weeknights due to stress of wagecucking

Feel okay on the weekend

What devilry is this

PS still live at home

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>>35957267
>turned 29 today
exactly one year till i become a wizard, i can feel the magic in the air

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I want a wife.
I want to have kids.
I want a family.

This is a horrible feel.

>>35957267
>turning 26 in May
>chad burnout
>fucked 41 girls during ages 17-25
>work fullt-time mid-tier retail cuck job
>useless polisci degree
>friends dwindling
>live with dad and nigger step mom and brother in 2 bedroom apartment

I need to get a trade fast. I realize now very acutely that unskilled labor a dogshit existence. I'm thinking of doing accounting or taking the LSAT and ONLY going to lawschool if i can get a full-ride. I think I'm too stupid to do programming but I may give that a shot too.

>hope level: fluctuates daily

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>>35957715
jkl;k

>>35957704
>Suicidal thoughts most weeknights due to stress of wagecucking
>Feel okay on the weekend

Do you also start to become extremely anxious on Sunday afternoon?

I do. I broke down crying last time.

>>35957735
>failed normie
Fuck off >>>/soc/

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>>35957267
25 year old half chink virgin.

Is it too late for me to find a virgin girl to be my loyal wife? Where should I be looking?

>>35957754
Sunday afternoon can be the fucking worst

I am trying to train my self to just not think about Monday on the weekend

Like somehow delude myself into thinking I'm on a 15 day vacation

>>35957735

>fucked 41 girls

You really don't belong here

>>35957563
iktf anon

>tfw too tired to lift after work
>tfw 2hrs leisure time max after work
>sleep in so late Friday I only have half of saturday left over anyway
>tfw mediocre career underachiever relative to my degree and experience

>>35957735
>I'm thinking of doing accounting
literally gonna be almost all automated in the next 3 years

>26
>Dick is starting to fail
The only thing I have is fapping and on rare occasions sex

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>you will never play WoW again
>you will never experience those long crisp high school/Uni summer holiday afternoons

>>35957876
>automated

>don't do this cuz automated
>don't leave your house cuz you'll get laughed at
>don't lift your face isn't asymmetrical or aesthetically gifted
>don't go out the house
>stay home in bed and look at the ceiling

>>35957868
Energy drinks.. Naps
Gaming takes discipline

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>>35957267

>27

work bullshit retail cuck job at a liquor store in which my efforts are taken for granted. Always asked to stay late and cover shifts because everyone else is a useless woman that can't lift shit.
>live with my parents in a small town
>only had sex twice haven't had a relationship since I was in high school so I'm not even sure that counts
>I drive two hours every week to work on my masters degree and it looks like I will have PhD opportunities after that. Trying to hold out hope but I could be fucking 30 before I get out of here

Honestly I'm just pissed off. I feel robbed of a quality life, I feel robbed of my independence, I feel robbed of companionship and intimacy, I feel robbed of my masculinity and I feel old.

>>35957353
I'd say this is good advice. I had everything I wanted at 25. Lost it all a few years later and rebuilding has been impossible.

Don't ever put your eggs all in one basket. Always take care of yourself first.

>>35957267
>34
>hairline a shit
>spend my days shitposting with literal teenagers instead of what i should be actually be doing
Feelsbadman

>>35957898
>sex
>>>/soc/
>>>/b/
Leave. Just leave.

I don't know what I have to find. I would like to be happy and make connections with other people.

>>35958061
>2017
>still having a hairline at all

nigga you don't know shit about anything

>>35957970
Fuck you. I'd love to be working on my masters still but I can't afford it anymore. At least you have something that's legitimate going on. Even if it is a dumb validation shit crap shit poop. It's still very recognized.

>get old
>able to finally get girls
>but only if they're at least 8 years younger than me
How do I date someone who isn't a fucking child intellectually?

>>35957589
I can barely find the motivation to eat let alone study though. I think druqks have fried my reward systems. I need some serious self improvement before I can be a responsible adult.

>>35957914
lol are those the good ole days?

>>35957970
>it looks like I will have PhD opportunities after that
>I could be fucking 30 before I get out of here
So you're an absolutely normal graduate student
Why are you here again?

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>>35957914
>tfw a month goes by in what used to feel like the length of a day
>christmas now comes by right after the last one seemed to have just ended

just make it stop

>>35958125
What's your age? And why the fuck do my comments have yo be original

>>35958120
>nigga you don't know shit about anything
You may indeed be right, bald-anon. Everytime i look in the mirror all i can think of is JUST

>>35957970
>but I could be fucking 30 before I get out of here

nigga i'll probably by like 40 by the time I get a fucking bachelors, fuck you.

>>35957267

I hear you

>35
>also going back to college after having dropped out at least 10 times.

Well at least it's better than me living like a hermit and doing nothing all the time.

>>35958125
>How do I date someone who isn't a fucking child intellectually?

You start dating men. :^)

srs

>>35958125
Iktfb. Last two girls I banged were 17 and all they wanted to do was teenage shit that just didn't interest me anymore

>>35958244
what sort of teenage shit and how did you meet them?

>>35958158

>27
>live with parents
>never had gf

>>35958231
>>35957267
You might as well just quit trying. Not joking. It is too late.

>>35958344
Yeah I know, I don't care though. I just want to get a bachelors before I kill myself.

>>35958379
fuck that guy, he doesn't know what he's talking about. Make sure you chose a non-meme degree though, or else you're really fucked

>late 200s
>be 27
>wasted a literal decade already
>go back to school for meme degree
>get bachelors
>working in field unrelated to degree
i still make a living but i could've not gone to uni at all and it wouldve been the same shit

>>35958344

Why should I quit trying?
What have I got to lose anyway?

College is cheap in my country and with a degree in CS, I can get a job even if I graduate at 40 with no prior work experience.

What else am I supposed to do? Porn doesn't excite me anymore, sex drive is gone, videogames don't interest me... etc

>42, fat, balding
>no friends, khv
>my one day off from my minimum wage job as a cashier at dollar tree
>have a pepproni pizza from walmart in the oven that smells delicious
>have cold root beer in the fridge

these rare moments when i feel content

H-hi guys
> Want to participate
> 24

What do?

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Go lay in my mom's bed while she's gone somewhere with the window open on a warm spring evening to get the cat. I can hear neighborhood kids kicking balls and laughing in the distance.

For a moment I'm transported back to a time when my mom could walk and she would always want to go somewhere. A familiar scent comes through the window carried by a breeze that makes the curtains flutter. It smells like some kind of fruit juice. Remember my old favorite cup that I used to drink out of. Remember how the orange juice they don't sell anymore tasted in that cup.

tfw I totally forget about the cat and get lost into my imagination pretending I'm back in my childhood. I didn't understand shit then and that was good. Back then i wasn't so insecure and lived day by day. I used to think about my future self, how he would be some kind of bad ass who looked like that painter guy from Titanic with his shit together. I sure was fucking stupid, I used to think that something will just happen to you,you know. You become a adult and all of a sudden your shit falls in place when your grow up.


I looking around the room and how my mom doesn't even look like she does in the pictures in her room anymore, she looks aged and tired. I realized there will be a time when i get up in the morning from a cool dream i want to tell her about, but there will be no one there to listen. no more singing in the kitchen, just a empty feeling when you think about her

>>35958476
Age a year

>>35958467
>these rare moments when i feel content
meh, if we can't be happy about the little things we might as well just end it. enjoy your pizza mensch

>>35958467
nice tbqh

>>35958488
holy shit, anon. The feels.

>>35958488
>there will be no one there to listen
STOP! I don't want to think about my mom and dad dying

>>35957754
>>35957790
Hey guys, if it makes you feel any better, I was doing 12 hour shifts under a ton of physical pain in my feet and standing in the sun. We were expected to do lots of overtime so 5 days of 12 hour shifts. The best part was that the people who were supposed to relieve us were unreliable so one of the days I had a shift for 18 hours before being sent off to home and told to come back exactly 8 hours later (not enough time to even go home to sleep due to commute). I had hallucinations from the stress and tiredness, which made me have insomnia. When I was told I would need to do a 12 hour shift on my day off, I had to quit then and there. This was only a fucking week but I lost 10 pounds, had severe foot pain, become incredibly anxious and insecure, and I got into a pretty deep depression even after I quit. I have no idea about the others who were on my team but they were far more vocal in their discontent than I was. I'm hoping that you guys don't have anything as bad as that one week was. Ask me anything if you want to either make yourselves feel better about the shitty jobs you have or to tell me off and call me a pussy.

>>35958709
Almost forgot to mention. I requested a piece of clothing to shield me from the sun on day 1. I didn't get shit until the end of day 5. Did wonders to tell me how valued of an employee I was in spite of being part of what I would presume to be a fairly large contract.

>>35958467

Your post made me feel a little bit happier, thanks.
Life sucks but with a good attitude, it's bearable.

>>35958125
I know this feel

>only people I halfass converse with is when I'm at work
>only single girls they know are 19-21 it seems
>I agree to meet up with a 23 yr old since it's the closest to my age (7 year age difference)
>go out for lunch during work
>literally nothing in common to talk about
>even discussing childhood days was a struggle since we couldn't relate to one another
>she still gossips and feeds on drama like a high school stacy
I want off this ride

if any women are lurking what fucking age do girls (female) mature out of the drama and gossip phase so I know if I can wait it out or just kill myself

>>35958488

we're all fucked and doomed

>>35958709
>>35958752
Honestly just typing it out even if nobody gives a fuck makes me feel so much better and detraumatizes things for me a bit. I'm feeling a little bit optimistic again and less afraid of working.

>>35958752

are you the guy that requested a baseball cap or something?

I read that post somewhere, either here or on wizchan

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>>35958897
I read your post and found it very interesting anon, I just didn't have anything to contribute. It really put things into perspective for me.

>>35958795
>what fucking age do girls (female) mature out of the drama and gossip phase

anon...

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>almost 26
>used to have an autistic emotionless facade
>getting harder to mask the mental turmoil
>random bouts of crying getting more frequent
>any little thing can trigger it
>usually something that reminds me of how life used to be when I was a kid
>nearly lost it when I saw the poster for the Power Rangers movie on the bus
>every fucking thing from my childhood is being remade to remind me how old I am

>>35958925
Yep. Was on here.
>>35958938
Thanks m8.

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>>35959029
fuck

asadsas

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>>35957267
>20 years old
>Wonder if there's anything worth grabbing this world
>Haven't voluntarily gone outside throughout entirety of existence
>When dad forced me to work in the homes of other human beings, I only saw shit I didn't desire
>Thought about just committing suicide everyday when I had a job
>NEET and currently very happy with my life
>Actually had it worse in high-school

Is there anyone here that felt this way when they were my age? Should I panic and try to change all that I am?

I just can't desire anything. It's all just shit, and it feels like the only thing worth anything is human interaction. It seems that the people that make loads of money are the people that have a flame for the material world.

>32 years old
>former heroin Addict

That about sums me up

>>35959029
>>35959279
I'm starting to get this feeling too.

Every time I watch Weird Al music videos on Youtube, I recoil at the sheer amount of time that I've been alive.

>>35959279
didnt you read the sign on the door cunt? 25+

>>35959320
He knows where he is. He seeks sage advice.
>Is there anyone here that felt this way when they were my age?

>>35959301
When's the last time you did heroin breh?

>27
>Only made one new friend in the past decade.

At least I have one friend so I have that going for me right?

>>35959301

ouch.

that's hardcore

>>35959345
Almost 0 friends in past decade. Just 2 more years until I'm 27 and hit the decade mark.

>>35957970
>Honestly I'm just pissed off. I feel robbed of a quality life, I feel robbed of my independence, I feel robbed of companionship and intimacy, I feel robbed of my masculinity and I feel old.
Ayy there's the rub.

Oregno

>>35958795
>if any women are lurking what fucking age do girls (female) mature out of the drama and gossip phase so I know if I can wait it out or just kill myself
Just kill yourself
They never do especially with the new wave of media. Housewives of LA, Orange County, NY and all that just shows that you can be a 50 year old hag and still won't stop bitching.

My mother is almost 50 and all she does is whine and complain all day despite retiring 4 years ago, receiving an undeserved pension and being financially stable. Single mother too. Absolute horrible being around her and her bickering friends, some of which have affairs with married men and then complain about it.

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>>35959664
25 in two weeks. I'm stuck in uni for at least 3 and a half more years and that's assuming my plan goes falwlessly (it's free in my cunt, don't worry). No job experience, my friends are all slowly becoming successful and drifting away. I'm poor, no car, live with my extended family and the situation here is pretty hairy, people are clawing at each other's throat more often than not over trivial shit. I know I can still turn things around and achieve some moderate happiness and success but my real dreams are dead, dead and gone forever and I'm the only one responsible for the way things turned out.

>>35959279
Gonna be 21 in exactly a week
Couldn't care less desu being shamed for not wanting to assimilate doesn't phase me senpai

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>>35957353
>25 is your final warning to take back your life

I'm glad I started lurking these threads during the past year or so. They lit a fire under my ass, and I reevaluated my life and made some major changes

>>35959029

This feel hit me when I was 24 senpai. Before then, I thought everything would fall into place and I was just going through a weird phase.

One day I realized 'wait, I'm 24, still a virgin and have no friends, no gf, nothing, nobody.'

It's a sobering moment when you realize it's not just a phase and the gig is up.

>>35957715
If you never attain those things, remember the way the world, and human beings are built.

Acknowledge that existence is a largely negative experience.

Don't feel bad. You didn't fling someone into hell.

>>35960078
I'm tired. This anon is right. Don't drag another life into this world.

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Since the OP is the same.

Any advice for an oldfag starting at community college? I'm hoping to transfer to a 4 year school after.

Trying to make myself an actual career.

I was linked this from a /vg/ thread, reading through this all when I'll be 29 in a month makes me wonder why I keep living. I'm a NEET with major anxiety and depression, stuck on disability because of that, and barely two semesters of college. Makes suicide a scarily good idea sometimes.

>agoraphobic for 10 years
>panic like this anon >>35960003
>25
>decided to go to uni
>me and the other oldfags hang out
>oldfags have wives and children
>younger people kind of look up to and want to hang out with you but you have nothing in common with them
>tfw you're out of touch
>everyone around you have gfs
>tfw the younger girls don't find you even remotely attractive
>tfw struggling to complete what should be easy coursework
>tfw all the 19 yr olds stink of BO and lazily leave all the work for you to do
At least I got laid this year. Its a shame she's about 34 and not the cute 21 yr old ginger I wanted to plough.

>>35957267
I was alright until I was called a grandpa

>>35960120
Network with absolutely everyone. It'll pay off big time.

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>>35957267
>>35960353
i feel you brogs
>>35960353
tell us more about that 21 yo ginger qt

>>35958061
>what i should be actually be doing
like what?

>>35960003
>24
>It's a sobering moment when you realize it's not just a phase and the gig is up.

Yep, that's exactly what hit me at 23. The most fucking awful feeling in the world. Up until then, I thought it was just a matter of waiting for the right opportunity / right girl / whatever. But then one day when I was 23 I realized that the problem was not a lack of opportunity -- the problem was me.

Didn't lose my v card until my late 30s.

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I wish I wasn't lonely.

I'm rotting away

>>35957735
>>fucked 41 girls during ages 17-25

Don't people normally stop counting after about a dozen girls or so?

Or did you actually write them all down in a diary as you were boning them so that you could do an accurate count later?

You fuckers got nothing on me

26

never had a job

supremely autistic

current life plan is to try and graduate uni by age 35 because there is absolutely no fucking point trying to compete with 18 year olds for entry level jobs i have no experience in

however, very high self-awareness and intelligence so get the benefit of feeling both wasted, under-utilised and extremely environmentally displaced, as well as extremely aware of the rapidly fracturing state of society.

I would feel perfectly at home in a group of phds discussing something of worth, or on a small homestead trying to grow my own food, but can barely function in a supermarket without resorting to caveman-levels testosterone-boosting internal monologues and false-narcissism to distract me from the raging sensory overloard, and am too poor to afford even a tiny patch of land because I'm not fucking canadian so land costs more than a house

At least I've had sex though r-right

>>35961038
Oh and the kicker is I'm so wired and stubborn and addicted to progress (progress that I find so challenging) that I don't get suicidally depressed, so even the void cannot comfort me.

>>35961010
You're not alone in your loneliness.

>>35961066
pssst: no one cares, non virgin normalfag.

>>35959029
>>random bouts of crying getting more frequent

Yep, I used to have that.

I had dysphoria -- a persistent, continual sadness that affected me every moment of time. The sadness was because I was single, and I had no ability to participate in the world as a single person, because it didn't match who I was inside. But I realized the sadness wasn't depression, because it had a very specific cause.

I was khv until age 39, when I finally got married. That's what cured my dysphoria.

>>35961223
So basically you have no business here. Piss off, normie.

>>35958467
Properly rated post.

This is probably original but I still want to underline it.

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>>35961085
>You're not alone in your Ioneliness.

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>tfw you were born too soon to live the rest of your life in VR

>>35960811
Can't describe ginger girl without resorting to faggotry but we had most things in common, liked mostly the same stuff, she was a shy introverted type that looked like if you talked to her she'd hang on every word you'd say - which she did. The problem was that she just got out of a self described "abusive relationship" and wasn't looking for anything. Until a week later when she decided that she was a lesbian and started shagging the class fucking skater chick, who dyed her hair once a week to be a complete zanester, who also thought for some reason that punching a wall out of anger seemed like a reasonable course of action. This was after a couple of months of inviting her to nights out, most of which she accepted. And after giving her an xmas present that she described as "the most thoughtful gift she's ever gotten from anybody in her whole life".

I've had a year or so of watching them flirt and touch each other inappropriately on the other side of the lecture theatre. I've seen her out on dates with other men too. I'm just a little bit bitter about it. I don't talk to her anymore.

There was one girl that showed interest in me the entire year apart from the one I lost my V to, but for some reason she started giving me the cold shoulder out of nowhere.

>>35959947
>those napkins
fucking CUTE

>>35961506
>bothering to write all of this
If I wanted to read about normalfags I'd visit /soc/. You're in the wrong board.

>>35957735
If you spent time working on yourself and your career instead of fucking bitches in your 20s, you'd be smarter by now.

>>35961528
What would you like to read about instead?

>>35961611
Have you considered people enter the robot board to read about robots and not about normalfags? Is that too strange a concept?

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>almost 27
>physical and mental health decline over past several years
>have illness
>obtain gf
>got on disability
>get ~$1500/mo
>now permaNEET

I made it through 75 credits with a 4.0 GPA. I quit because it was boring and tedious.

>>35961728
Kill yourself, bragging normalfag.

>29
>work as labourer for road construction company
>14 hour work days, 21 days in a row

think about laying under the tracks of our excavator every day.

>dad owns small business
>one day it will be yours
>fast forward to today
>has a neurodegenerative brain disease
>mother takes over despite having no qualifications other than being his wife
>you will never be an owner
>make $14000/yr managing it

I'm 28 an just thinking of dropping all this shit and finally putting my bachelors to use and starting my "career."

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>>35961728
>mfw only make at most 1100 a month while living near NYC
ITS NOT FUCKING FAIR HOW THE FUCK DO YOU MAKE THIS HAPPEN TELL ME RIGHT NOW YOU FUCKING CUNT I SLAVE AWAY AS A BUSBOY AND AM AUTISTIC I NEED THIS

>>35959947
I like to believe this is what arcanine is for.

Nice to see barely no normies here.

Still too many have been spotted though.

>>35961898
I'm going to make it short and simple

>obtain lawyer
>see as many doctors as possible
>exaggerate
>take ALL the drugs
>wait 2 years

Shitril stop fucking your girl and return one of my texts

I'll be 27 this month.
Just got my degree 2 weeks ago after 9 years at uni. I'm still an ugly, balding manlet; but at least I have my degree now.

>>35962727
>9 years
Explain

Hey lads. gonna drink all day and hang out here.

31 year old nothing ausfag.

>>35962776
Public uni in a third world shithole. Taxes are sky high, but uni is free.

>>35961506
see, it makes no sense. this girl doesn't appreciate you at all and gives you nothing and you're infatuated with her. maybe she gave off the shy introvert vibe but is that really true if she's flirting with people in public, jumping from relationship to relationship (having bad taste in partners, while she's at it) and showing no signs of introspection at all? sounds like you convinced yourself that she was something she wasn't because she was cute and she liked whatever you liked but i'm sure there are lots of girls just like her. it doesn't make sense to me how a person can get so caught up with someone who doesn't give anything back.

>>35961898
It's like you believe what he wrote lmao

>>35957267
>33 years old
>in community college as well
>no job, no savings
>no friends, no gf ever
>live with my mom and dad

Is this rock bottom? Or can I sink more?

If only I could get a fucking job.

>36
>sacked from over 200 jobs
>no degree
>no friends
>no gf
>CV is so bad I have to pretend i've been ill for the last 15 years
At least my book collection is getting pretty big

>>35962898
Sounds like anon was lonely

>>35963012
Rock bottom from there is quitting/failing community college. Keep it up

>>35963079
>Sounds like anon was lonely
i've done a lot being alone myself but i have not fallen for someone who didn't deserve attention and respect since i was in middle school. i can't understand how it happens to so many people over such long periods of time unless there is some self-delusion going on about what that person is really like.

i guess he did eventually wake up to the reality of her character and i don't judge him at all but i don't understand.

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>Had some friends
>Got super dramatic when I accidentally saw them when drunk after they'd had a party last summer because they never invited me anymore
>Sent one a message after all this time apologizing for sperging out
OH NO OH NO OH NO OH NO
I can feel the anxiety now, it will be terror when I wake up and sober up

>>35963162
That's just how most men are these days. Rose tinted glasses for whatever they consider their ideal or close to it. If character really mattered this world would be much different.

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>I'm 25
>Was in Special education since elementary school
>too stupid and weak to do hard labor
>try it anyway since I thought it would be easy
>its not
>cry multiple times on the job
>too weak to get shit done
>even as a couple months pass I never got stronger
>get sacked
>realization hits that I'll never be able to do anything right
>now live with parents and hope to gather enough courage to jump off anything

I am failure in human form

>>35957362
>>35957550
>>35957563
>25
>this will be me in some years
i dont see the point in any of this anymore. Work just to get time to pass faster then sitting home staring into the wall.
>>35963719
https://youtu.be/i3IkAHAOQIk?t=1m3s

guys, I just don't see the point of existence
fuck normies and their blue pill
virtual reality will give us the happiness we seek
If God exists then he must be the ultimate neet since he had to create us to love him...how fucking pathetic
point being is that even if you were all powerful the existential dilemma makes all life meaningless in the end since time if infinite
thus for the moment just relax and shitpost since everything is equally as irrelevant

>25
>Think I'm capable of doing things
>Try to interview for a call center job a few years ago
>Fuck up and panic
>Never answer when they try contacting me again
>Years pass
>Think I can talk on the phone fine
>Panic every time I try
>Think I can do several things at once, like start practice driving, and start searching for an apartment
>Notice I'm not capable and need to do one thing at a time
I just feel more and more incapable as time goes on, everything I thought I could do completely fine I notice I'm too big of a failure to do

>>35964249
>I just don't see the point of existence
literally, to reproduce

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28. I don't normally "go out" but met up with a younger associate who i used to work with, and his partner who insisted I "go into town with them".

18 year olds look like children now.

Needless to say I regretted it.

>25
>started balding at 23

Is it too late or would have Rogaine even done anything? I will never take propecia tho, desu. im pretty sure im too low test and probably would become permanently impotent if i did. does castor oil work?

>>35957555
Military.

I'm joining the Army at 26 as an E3. Uni was way too liberal for me. I'd rather get paid to workout, be a hired gun, pay off my debts with investments into a TSP then going back to school when I ETS from the Army.

Sometimes you really need to force yourself out of your comfort zone no matter what you tell yourself. I was always against the military as a teen, and was fairly liberal.

I went to college for a bit but changed my major three times (comp sci now...for real this time), got myself into serious debt, and went through multiple shitty relationships woth crazy tumblrina sjw cunts.

I honestly wish I had enlisted at 18. I was a full fledged NEET in high school then one summer i start muay thai and hit the gym and became a normie Chad but was still an autist at heart.

I'll always be an autist but these past four years have been a crazy ride for me both physically and mentally.

>>35957708
Happy birthday, Anon. I wish there was anything that I could do for you but that is impossible.

>OK job/pay
>I just go home and do nothing when I get home and on the weekend

OK. Rinse and repeat. Anime, movies and vidya entertain me enough. Real women? Pssshh, A.I. waifus are just around the corner.

>>35957353
>Weekend hits
>Spent 15 hours playing TheHunter Cotw

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>26
>KHV NEET
>All other people my age are in relationships/marriage, still struggling to get basic contact to other human being
>Still look the same i was 10 years ago
I just feel that i fucked up something basic that everyone else goes through without thinking.

>>35965446
Going to boot it back up again even though I really need to workout since I've done nothing physical in 72 hours other than fap

>>35965198
The point of existence is to improve. You get rewarded with reproduction should you be able to reach that point

(Though the bar is getting increasingly lower as time progresses)

In my opinion worst thing that can happen to neet/shittyjobbers is that spark that it can be changed. I will become functioning responsible adult with wife and kids, etc. Now as 27khv neet im in this phase. Im afraid to go outside, and if i get a remote job it will be a success bcs i will be able to sustain myself through my work. Social outcast life is hard but please try stay positive as you spend all the time with yourself, your thoughts echo through mind. Im well yes guy and its much better than no guy even if the only thing that changed is my attitude.

>>35957655
Nice im 26 now
Never kissed a girl
Never even held a girls hand
Never been in any kind of relationship before
I have few friends most i dont talk to, really if it wasnt for work i don't think id interact socially or even leave the house
So be happy dude you're doing better then me

33 here my mother is dead
I had 40k
divorced my clinton loving "wife"
MAGA
>I have $500 in my pocket now
>I owe 20k still
make 35k a year
WILL NEVA DID NUTHIN WITH THE PUSSAAY AGAIN!!!

>34
>haven't worked in 8 years
>went back to uni a few years ago, graduated but zero job prospects
>Keep looking for a reason to live, reasons are becoming increasingly pathetic
>not much of a social life, get the sense that people are deliberately avoiding me.
>recently started day trading, currently running at a loss

I will probably kill myself if the day trading doesn't work out for me.

>>35958061
>spend my days shitposting with literal teenagers instead of what i should be actually be doing
Anon please don't remind me.

My advice to anyone with even a little bit of money

Move to Alaska
Its a pretty state

A good place to end it with out being to much of a burden to others

>32
>NEET for 3 years
>constant, every day awareness that I just have to start working on myself and I can still achieve something in life
>waste away every single day instead

I want to die but I'm too much of a pussy to actually kill myself. Why aren't there muslim terrorists here? Actually never mind, I'd have to leave my house to meet them.

>be 40 years old
>have wife and kids
>$200k per year job
>fucked a 30y/o Italian chick well above my punch
>fucked a 50 something slag with massive tits in a disabled toilet
>fucked a 34E tits chick who gave me anal in return for fucking my ass with a strap on.

Lost virginity at 21 and didn't have sex again until married 5 years later.

Now have almost 100% hit rate from secret formula.

Stay alive mate, life gets better.

PS, once the kids leave home I'm moving to Thailand to drink and fuck myself to death.

>28 years old
>got within 3 semesters of my EE degree
>haven't passed a class in 2 years
>No financial aid, no motivation to do any school work
>just keep enrolling and failing, can't break the cycle
>about to fail Calc IV for the 6th time because I haven't gone to class in 2 months

Should I just stop?
I think the only reason I keep doing this to myself is because I don't know what else to do.

How to fuck do you even use >>>/soc/
When you live in not a city
R9k im really scared of dying with out ever knowing the touch of a woman

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>>35957267

>26 years old in less than a month

>after I finished high school at 18, I have never considered going to a university, spent about 5 years being a NEET + 2 years working shit jobs and socializing in the most looked-down-upon-by-r9k ways possible

>suddenly, 2016
>I have finally found the right job for me which I enjoy and now I'm really good at it
>the first good year of my life, can't really say "the best" because the 7 years prior weren't even good

>>35965903
I'm a non-american and I've always wanted to go to Alaska so bad. I have this fantasy of hiking into the woods in winter and freezing to death in the snow, but my country isn't cold enough to make it happen.

>>35965381
23yo balding since 21 here

Rogaine does nothing. Finasteride works tho and I haven't lost a hair since i started taking it, even re-grew some.

Impotency is a meme. It hasnt affected my sex drive at all and only does to 4% of people.

>>35966289
>but my country isn't cold enough to make it happen
theres parts of Australia you can do that.

just go to Kosciuszko in winter

>>35958188
Get out, just get the Fuck out normalfaggot

>Life gets more and more miserable the older you get.

It feels more and more to me like humans weren't meant to live past 30. The only 30+ year olds I know who are happy are rich. Everyone else they're just kind of miserably going through the motions because they're scared to die or they're forced to live for their kids.

>>35966289
Worth the trip
Alaska is the most amazing place ive ever lived and i hope one day i can go back
Id really like to go and start a family and live on a cozy homestead but, thats probably never going to happen
Even though i think i might be pretty attractive im dead inside but at least i can fake that im actually a person and not a robot

>>35958709
I've been in similar circumstances, but I was saving up to study abroad working as a picker in a warehouse, very physically demanding.
It was for around 3 months, 5 days a week, and 11 hour nightshifts, but a 5 hour commute there and back, so with the 8 hours I had in my house I tried to get 7.5 hours sleep and then make as big a meal as possible with the spare time. The weekends were awful because it just fucked up my sleeping pattern completely, and I would just try and sit outside because I didn't have the energy to do a thing. Any friends I used to talk to were never online when I was awake. It felt like I was living in some alternate dimension, and my path was fixed between my home and work, and the sun never rose.
Sometimes I'd break, I was sick of just existing, and instead of going to sleep I'd just stay up and cook a nice meal, or I'd go see my friends. But I'd be so tired that I couldn't enjoy the food, or I'd just sit with my friends, too slow to get the jokes.
Before that I was fine with working several jobs, 15 hour shifts, whatever. But at that point I drew the line. Yeah it's good to talk it out.

>>35958795
To be honest I don't think it's a phase or ever grown out of. In my experience gossiping is a quick and easy bonding exercise. It tells the person you're gossiping to that you trust them with that information. Though what kind of person they are, or the bond between the person you're gossiping to dictates the depth/severity of gossip. I mean it's not ALL you do, it's just a small part of the whole.

>>35957876
>implying hacking isn't going to become so automated that we're gonna end up having to break out the notebooks and abaci

any 25 year olds here who dated someone in their late 30s? I asked some girl out without asking her age but I figured she was the same age as me

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>30
>Wake up after today to my mam and dad arguing
>Uncle is in hospital with cancer and barely any time left
>Mam still thinks starting an argument with him over what way round he screwed some garden ornament to the fence in the back garden is a good idea
>Lay in bed staring at my ceiling
>Hear children outside laughing and having fun in the sun
>Legs still ache from yesterdays shift at work
>Work 2 days a week as a security guard
>Off now until next Friday
>Got no plans all week
>Got no friends because they're all married with kids of their own
>Check my phone
>Girls I had gotten the phone numbers off using POF have all stopped replying over the last 2 weeks
>Wonder why I even tried in the first place
>Wish I had more courage to just fucking kill myself.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fPnWLUEWBQc

>>35962201

SHITRIL BTFO, HOW CAN HE EVER HOPE TO RECOVER

>>35957633
Because he is anons father

i can't stand seeing cute girls around outside. is there a way to get rid of feelings of sexual attraction?

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>turn 25 in July
>drummer
>ugly drummer
>this means no groupies for me ever
>all IRL "friends" either got bored of me or just forgot
>spend most of the day on the pc, then when night comes relocate and do the same+weed
>jobs are scarce
>hope is lost
>kv
>no "crew" means no chance to meet girls
>family has given up, just try to make me happy
>I am not
>I try to feign happiness but it isn't enough sometimes
>the future only seems bleaker

>>35969192
also the band is falling apart 'cause they are pretty normie fags that care more about social life than practicing

>>35957267
>>35957267


>25
>well paid bureaucrat
>colleagues are all 40 year old men and women with children
>conversation revolves around 3 things, the weather, how their kids are handling high school and the fucking weekend.
>manlet
>kv in australia of all places, the normie capital of the world.
>best mate is a 32 yo kv who thinks things are going to turn around for him, he'll probably go to japan again or something.

life is suffering amigos

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>>35969297
>kv in australia of all places
at least you aren't KV in greece

47, doing absolutely fuck all and loving every minute of it.

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>>35969192
>>35969216
>drummer
>ugly drummer
>this means no groupies for me ever
hi me! It sure is great talking to myself 8 years ago. Lemme guess, you're probably pretty good, but that doesn't matter because you don't have the look. Also, you focus on practicing and not socializing because it never gets you laid anyways

sound about right?

>>35964685
>Notice I'm not capable and need to do one thing at a time
This.
I fucked up, didn't realise until 28.
Just getting my car license now. Have to drive for 120 hours this year.

>>35957267
Nobody's gonna wanna talk to you in class. Lol

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>>35969396
not even practicing anymore desu, I am not taht good, but I can play well enough.
There is no way I will ever give up though.I didn't begin to play to get laid, anyway.In fact the more secluded I become the more I turn to my drumming.Let's see where this isolation takes us, who knows might make a pretty decent project some day

>>35957267
become pierce OP.maybe you will have fun this way

Posterchilldless9

>>35957550
What is your deranged sexuality?

>>35957633
that is the anon whos mother died

>be 26
>move to UK
>get job
>get promotion
>quit job
>try being a normie
>start working out
>girls start noticing me
>start making out one night for the first to e
>loose v-card
>come in her pussay
>be with her since summer

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>>35969441
>I didn't begin to play to get laid
Indirectly you did. Let's face it, it is fun to have this special skill noticed by others. It pretty much created my social life. Once I realized there is a ceiling for talented ugly people, I turned inward an part of the impetus was gone.

My advice to you is that if by 25 you don't like playing in bands, then work on your own music. Then, if you want, form a band that plays your music, that way you'll have more control. It's easier to write than you think. The drummer is the MOST REPLACEABLE MEMBER if he doesn't have songwriting credit

a la Pete Best, John Rutsey, guy before Travis Barker, guy before Tre Cool... don't be these guys

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>26
>KHHV
>Work is fine but gradually getting busier
>Starting to get paid a bit more
>About to submit Master's Dissertation which wil free up a bit of time and will look good for next stage of work
>Continuing to spend all my free time listening to music and reading manga

I never thought I'd be happier now than when I was a teenager.

Also looks like someone is scanlating Moyashimon and there might be a new Street Fighter EX game coming out, pretty good times desu.

>28
>full-time bartender
>no savings account
>broke because i drink away all my money
>need to get to the gym

i've got a drinking problem

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i'm 28
>no job
>no education
>live with mom
>been taking care of her ever since she had a stroke
>all i do is browse 4chan, exercise, play video games when i'm binge drinking
>meanwhile my brother who is 4 years older than me has his shit together and has his own house and a good job

i feel like shit, now i know why i dont go to this board

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>>35963012
Stay in school pham, you got this.

>>35963079
>>CV is so bad I have to pretend i've been ill for the last 15 years

kek

>>35963253
>Wake up
>Only answer was "It was nice of you to apologize. :)"
Better than expected I guess, no way to salvage the friendship after this, but I'm somewhat alright with it

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Can I join in? I'm about to be 24.

>finally in community college, don't know why or what for, figured it was better than being a NEET
>still look like a teenage boy, so that helps to blend in I guess
>looking for work, nothing so far
>since my comp broke several months ago, haven't had any money to fix it, thus no hobbies
>I spend my free time curled up in a ball under my blankets sleeping the entire day when not in class
>daily thoughts of ending it

>>35957267
Our lifes fucking disasters from the very start
god fucking damn it

>40+ hours a week + commute Monday-Friday
>So exhausted that Saturday is a day I need to relax and recuperate.
>Sunday I need to get things ready for the week ahead.

This sucks

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>turning 30 in September
>have not progressed beyond where I was at 23

lol reminds me of a few years ago

>25
>decide to go back to community college
>teenagers all over the place but also some older dudes
>when I walk into one of my classes all the young honeys were staring at me
>pretty sure I didn't have any shit on my face
>probably just wanted to fuck an older man
>dropped out shortly thereafter because I'm afraid of people

kill me

>>35971190
Are people really able to recognise a 25 year old over a teenager/early 20s?

>>35957358
Bro tell your dad to kill himself. XD

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Any of you guys have memories of childhood, even teenage years, where you knew how you were going to end up, but didn't want to recognize it?

I remember back when I turned 10, it's like a swathe of negativity washed over me, and although it was the beginning of my less than healthy mental stability, I almost didn't want to recognize it.

I was always sympathetic towards those less fortunate when I was younger, almost as if I knew I'd end up there one day.

>>35960934
I'm in the same boat as 23 year old you.

What can I do to change before I get too old? I don't care about love or sex, or any form of that garbage. I just want to find some form of hope, or self made purpose.

Please, any tips would be appreciated.

>>35971217
maybe not, maybe I'm just that hot.

but yeah I think they probably could. I do look a little younger than my age but I'm no fresh faced faggot

>>35971246
>Any of you guys have memories of childhood, even teenage years, where you knew how you were going to end up, but didn't want to recognize it?


I was stupidly optimistic. I genuinely believed that my intelligence would bring me success and happiness. If I had known what was in store for me, I would have killed myself in high school.

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The older I get, the more I feel I was just never meant to succeed. It might be my mental issues, depression, or just apathy speaking, maybe a mix... but I just feel I was always meant to be a wingless bird or a finless fish.

To never be able to leave the ground, to always be dragged along the bottom of a current... a clearly flawed individual, that has only made it this far due to this garbage society that falsely believes "All life is equal".

I wish the cells within my body would finally give up and allow me to consciously throw myself off a cliff. I've had enough of this existential torment...

>>35957735
Sounds like no complaints to me

>>35957267
Sorry to inteference elders but I'm 22 and want to know whether most robots make it out the khhv trap or whether we're fucked. I'm 22, meaning I managed to get through high school and university (living on campus) without so much as a hug.

>25
>Have Crohn's
>Realize that any normie's version of fun is going out and getting drunk as shit and fucking random people at bars
>Drinking gives me a flare-up and could make wind up in the hospital due to pain
>Everyone gets mad at me for not drinking
>Also have Ankylosing Spondylitis, SI Joints are fused now and my back hurts all the time
>Exercise makes it a lot worse, especially with pelvic movement
>Realize that sex would cause horrible pain

I want to die. Nothing can get worse than this.

>>35971186
LITERALLY me
original comment, probably

>>35971246
I always thought it would somehow get better and I'd kill myself it didn't before I turn 30

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>see Latinas with big butts all around
how do i get one?

>>35971910
The trap is the trap of depression and fear, unless you're horrendously ugly.

I'm 28 and still haven't even kissed a girl. I will be moving soon though, to a major city and away from the boondocks. This is my only hope. If I can't get laid up there then I'll be a wizard and probably kill myself.

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>18
>Group of friends and I have been together since elementary
>loving middle class family
>recently got decent job at animal hospital

You guys are one big piss party. I'm not even talkative or social at all and I've managed to get the KH removed from my V card before 18. Buck up and make something of yourselves.

>>35972034
I've been rejected countless times. I'm not fearful. I'm not horrendously ugly but i am 5'1. Do i have a chance?

why are you guys so obsessed with this psuedo-science? is it to make yourself feel special?

>>35972082
Probably bait, but you seem to have had a pretty good foundation, so you probably don't know where a lot of us are coming from.

No disrespect, I hope you never end up like us.

25, haven't had a social life in ten years, never kissed a girl before, but now starting to climb out of it.

Bless you guys, make something of your lives. Everybody has to start somewhere. I truly wish you all the happiness.

>>35972142
What pseudo science? What are you talking about?

>>35957353
I'm 27 and pretty much wasted my entire youth on nothing. My life still hasn't gone anywhere, and I still can't focus on anything long enough to develop myself because of my chaotic mood shifts and fatigue. My entire day is filled with instant gratification like posting on here to cope.

I've struggled many times throughout my 20s to change my life, but it never works out. I'm planning on killing myself soon if things don't change for the better.

I have formed no consistent relationships and have done nothing of value in my entire life. I think it's too late for me now. What a waste, all because of my brain, which I suspect was ruined by too many vaccinations in my youth, leading to the ruination of my body as well. Oh well, we can't all have nice lives even if we were close.

I'm not going to look back on my life when I'm dying in my old age and hate that it went nowhere. Might as well get out now before that build-up to the ultimate disappointment.

>>35972338

Or you can right now decide where you want to go and put your mind to it. And succeed.

>>35972338
Start exercising and eating healthy. 27 is still young as fuck.

>>35972082
Life will fuck you over eventually, my boy.

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jNjQICmRvlc

>>35972142
>>35972301
im assuming that post was meant for one of those cancerous MBTI threads

>>35972394
I feel like I've already wasted too much time. I'm so far behind of where I need to be on anything that my life is already wasted anyway. Everybody else younger than me has already done so much more and are looking forward to so much more while enjoying their lives that have been developed over many years.

I'm never going to end up doing anything I truly enjoy, and even if I do, I'll be too old to develop a life outside of that because of all the catching up I have to do.

I have already wasted what should have been the best years of my life, and it's just going to go downhill further from here.

>>35966443
>meme
>only does to 4% of people
>only

I wouldn't even worry about impotency if I were you, I'm sure you're in no danger of ever using your tiny retard dick anytime soon.

>>35972429
My body is fucked because I got very fat when I was going through puberty. It is very awkward and unattractive.no matter what I do to try to improve it.

Exercise only helps my mood so much. Taking various medications throughout my youth has really fucked it up further. I was burnt out already before puberty, and drug abuse since then has only made it worse.

My entire life has been miserable, and there has been almost no enjoyment from it whatsoever.

Nobody will really notice if I die except for my parents, but they've probably already prepared themselves for that one.

I tried. I just won't end up doing anything fulfilling, and the rest of my life is going to be disappoint and failure it seems. It just isn't working out.

>>35972301
Sorry. This was meant for the MBTI thread.

>>35972721
My mind and body are just going to degrade further now with age. I didn't get them in order fast enough.

Even if I somehow get my mood swings totally sorted and become able to concentrate, I have already wasted too much time to develop a happy life fast enough.

I will be too old to have a family even if I get a career started. I doubt the career will be anything I really want to do anyway. No reason for that misery, then dying alone and unfulfilled, totally gone to the world like nothing ever happened except for a big drain on it during the time I was alive.

>>35972721
Your 27, not 72. Your body will recover easily if you let it. If your a autist NEET, just turn that autism to being as healthy as possible. I'm speaking from experience here.

>>35972856
I'm not autistic. I think I was in my youth, and I spent most of my time alone in various states of dissociation. I think it rewired my brain though, and now I cannot connect with people at all or know how to spend time with them even if I don't experience anxiety around them like I used to. I feel like I'm asking too much of them, and I don't want to put them out. It's just an awkward experience, and I don't want to waste anyone's time.

I would autistically focus on a skill, but I still cannot think straight. I cannot make my mind work when I need it to. When it wants to, it works great, but I can't plan for when it cooperates.

When I try to work, I just become miserable and think about my lack of socialization and maybe that I'm wasting more great experiences with other people. More of my youth down the drain. I'm torn between deciding to do these two things and end up doing neither.

I would love to do cutting-edge research for the government or something, that's fascinating to me. I just feel like I won't get there, never be allowed to do it for whatever reason. So I'll try to develop my skills to do that, find out I can't and realize that I wasted that time I could have spent socializing and developing relationships. Again, being indecisive about this makes me do neither. I don't want to waste anymore of my youth, but I can't decide what that entails. I have no clear goals to work towards.

I very recently got into Magic cards, and it gives me the sort of fun and passion that vidya used to give me.

>>35973130
I can relate quite strongly to what you are writing. I'm still not "fixed", but I'm much better, no longer entertaining the thought of suicide daily. I can tell you you are just overthinking everything. Stop thinking and start doing. Exercise daily for an hour and eat healthy for a month. You will find some of these apparently insurmountable problems disappear. Unhealthy body, unhealthy mind.

>>35973390
Thanks. I'm very neurotic and worry about the future constantly or think about emotionally aggravating things instead of being in the moment. Recently it has drifted towards paranoia, which is somewhat of a unique experience for me.

>>35973479
Compulsive thoughts make it hard to focus. OCD is no joke. If I can get it to work in my favor, it would help me immensely and stop using up my time and energy on useless, uncomfortable feelings.

>>35972151
Not bait but every time I come to this board I find myself worrying. Life's good right now but once I have to move and make new friends, it's hard to say whether I'll be able to. Good wishes anon

26 year old here.

15 k in credit card debt
live with parents and 6 brothers an uncle and a girl that rents a room

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>>35969388
very nice.

hkjhkh

26y KV
trying to convince myself to go to grocery store to buy some bread for dinner, but I dont want to leave a house

>>35973869
I know that feel, anon. I went hungry yesterday because I couldn't dace the grocery store. Fuck that place.

>>35973993
>couldn't dace the grocery store

what does this mean

>>35973756
how the fuck does someone living with their parents rack up that much debt? Are you a normie moron who buys tons of useless shit they see in adverts?

the thing i look forward to most in life is taking a shit.

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>almost 27
>realized last night at my cousins house (a washed up chad who is now married) why I have no friends
>I literally don't talk, wherever I go I am silent as fuck
>I am just that creepy quiet guy wherever I am

anyone know this feel

>>35975398
I would really like to contribute something to society, you know? I can't find pure hedonism fulfilling.

>>35975483
I was like this a lot. I drank a lot to compensate for it and relax m, which eventually developed into exclusively drinking alone. I'm not drinking this year though.

>>35975483
Oh god yes.
>Stand around not saying anything
>Wonder why people don't find me interesting

>>35974183
Not him but I have $9,000 in debt

$3,000 from car
$7,000 from food

I make $1,000 autism bucks a month and I spend $200 on smokes, $100 on car insurance+gas which leaves me with $700.

Sadly fast food is like $20 a day times 30=$600.


Then I have the nights I get super drunk and use cam girls, buy vidya etc

>>35976350
>$20 a day on fast food

Do you live in a European country or something? Are you a fat ass?

Jesus. $40 would last me a week. Buy some food at the grocery store instead of eating out every meal.

>28
>shufu

>>35976799
Wei was here, prepare to be conquered.

>>35977376
>tfw wu master race

Wei is cool too tho

>>35957267
>25
>good pay, working when I want on what I want
>but I don't want to work
>in fact, I don't want to do almost anything
>so I enjoy sleeping, talking to my tulpa and mindlessly browsing the Internet
>buying more stuff has never done anything to my state of mind
>and I don't even have many things left to chase after
>I don't want to spend years trying to find an unconditionally loving significant other only to find out there aren't any, and I've lost interest in sex with people anyway, so it'd mostly be just for the emotional support, with me probably not being able to give anything back in return

Why am I alive? What is there left for me?

>>35957589
What anxiety medication do you take anon? I found diazepam really helped me with leaving the house, but I got cut off after a few months.

>>35972544
I've been in the same place. However I'd hate the thought your life would have been for nothing. I'd hate to think your qualities will go to waste should you decide to do something to yourself. I honestly care. Hope your life will get better, my friend.

>>35978000
Generic Fluoxetine. It's nice because you can take it for the rest of your fucking life if you want. I had hardcore OCD however, and that was probably the driving force behind my anxiety. So I don't know how it would affect you, but it's worth a shot.

>>35961038
I am you und you're me. Thanks for letting me know.

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>>35976350
>food is like $20 a day

>+30, unemployed
>meet a 21yo QT who's into older more mature guys>
>she finds you interesting and all, and then "What's your job anon"

JUST

I never wanted a family due to having atypical / nonexistent family life growing up but after i got old i realize too late that reproduction is probably the only thing that could come close to giving a feeling of purpose in life. Should've put more effort into getting married and reproducing, not doing that was a big mistake. As it is nothing seems to matter much

>>35976350
>cam girls

FULL STOP.

>>35979116
Aah I've had it. Did nothing but kill my boner.

>26 years old
>was searching for a job one year after graduation to finally get what can be considered a great job in today's economy
>worked for an year but small meaningless shit happened and my depression kicked in again
>left job to be NEET again
>at least I am taking the meds and getting progressively better
>at least I have enough money saved to live 1,5-2,5 years in my current lifestyle

>26 years old
>talking to girl whos 24
>get invited to her place, drinking, things seem to be good to go
>ask what my living situation is
>like an idiot I told her cause I want gf so badly and know she'd find out
>loses interest immediately

>>35980837
you told her what?

>>35981541
That I live at home with my parents at the moment

>>35978851
Thank you. My 28th birthday is four months away. I'm getting really nervous because I'm not going to be done with my Master's until I'm 29/30 now. I don't think I can use more of my life doing a PhD, but I don't know if a Master's will be enough for what I want to do.

I've been taking mood stabilizers, and they've been helping with my mood fluctuations and have no side effects. But I still have depression.over this. I'm taking NAC for that which is supposed to help. I was accidentally taking the wrong dose, but now I bumped it up. So we'll see.

>29, wizard status in a few months
>have literally no friends and no social connections
>my only escape from wagecucking, anime and vidya, aren't even entertaining me anymore

I know that I have to do something to get out of my shell. I need to find a meetup group or something, but how? There aren't any interesting groups near me. How do I find people at this stage?