/mtfg/ - Male to female general

Smiles edition

>>8122707
natalie is also a good girl

what if im not a good girl and need to be bullied

>>8122717
tfw bf is too kind to fulfill my abuse fetish
tfw he apologized for it

>>8122700
if you're happy with your face you'll be fine

>>8122701
yeah but finasteride isn't really that dangerous from what ive seen

like regular guys take it to combat hair growth, the dose is pretty standard too

>>8122705
that's me sharing my measurements

>>8122706
yeah, ill probably order it soon

my doctor told me that she's seeing regrowth without finasteride though which puzzled me

maybe the hair loss i thought i was getting was hair growth

i still want to make sure i reduce my DHT as much as possible though

The existential dread isn't leaving

>>8122719
are you not out to parents? if you can you should be looking for a therapist that lists 'lgbt issues' as one of their specialties. its okay if you can't tho I went to the psych who worked for the school I was enrolled in at the time and she was really good about everything and got me to an endo even tho she never treated trans before.

>>8122723
what if he's doing advanced bullying by not bullying you

>>8122728
thats some high lvl bullying

>>8122716
Aw. Thanks.

>>8122723

>not having a bf who looks you in the eyes as he fucks you hard, spanks you, chokes you and tells you that you're beautiful

is it rly worth it sis

>>8122724
Given my height I've already been granted too much to really complain.

>tfw no bf

im really glad i thought of the idea of starting singing lessons

it makes perfect sense really, id me using my vocal instrument more and helping me stabilize my voice more so i can more easily raise my pitch

and that means it won't be weird for me to do my girlvoice exercises at home(apart from actually speaking like a girl) because i can just say they're voice lesson homework :D

im really excited

>>8122735
mhm..

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okay goodnight!

>>8122743
good night princess nim

I hope I won't look horrible after all the weight is gone
I hope I haven't misplaced my hope

>>8122727
I don't think it will go well. My mom refused to acknowledge my depression for a long time, and my dad is pretty mean and anti-gay.

I want to get more comfortable and also independent before I potentially drop a bomb in my family relations.

>>8122728
wtf that asshole

>>8122743
nini

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I have my first day off in ages tomorrow. All I need to go is go to the bank and that's it. Should we sleep or play vidya.

>>8122743
goodnight!!!!

>>8122751
thats fair. good luck I hope things go well for you.

>>8122753
sleep you silly

>>8122737
then you should get acting lessons and say that your makeup and dresses are costumes
And then you can get dancing lessons and say your kissing boys as part of that

>>8122764
Thanks, I hope so too. For myself and you :)

>>8122769
Th- Thanks, I hope so too. For myself and you :?

>>8122769
Do I have to?

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thoughts?

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I'm never gonna get a job

>have lewd dream in my sleep
>wake up because my dick got very slightly hard and this hurtva lot

:(

>>8122772
sorry I made typo

>>8122774
well no but I like sleeping it makes me feel good

>>8122786
I always get nightmares so I try not to sleep.

>>8122777
apply at grocery store

>>8122790
:( I'm sorry that is terrible

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>>8122793
I have

Does anyone here need a friend?
I'll do it.

>>8122794
Such is life.

>>8122796
How much do I have to pay you?

>>8122775
Could be worse.
>Could be shitting herself live online for cash.

>>8122800
It's free. Actually, you'd be paying me by trading time for precious memories!

>>8122806
I don't understand. Don't people pay each other money to spend time together and that's called friendship?

>>8122736
damn no (you)s this place must be filled with tranbians.

>>8122813
no natalie

>>8122813
I don't actually require a payment. Just call on me when you need to talk to someone and I'll be there quick.

>>8122815
I'm straight!

It feels like this place pressures you into being a transbian sometimes.

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>>8122815
THAT FEELING WHEN NO BF

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>>8122780
Tell us about the dream.

>>8122816
Yes that is my name. Hello.

>>8122818
That doesn't sound like the friendships I know about.

>>8122815
I think we should all just date cute cis male chasers who hang around /mtfg/. I know a few girls who have done that, and they're leaps and bounds happier than the transbians who go from abusive relationship to abusive relationship.

>>8122825
It's an old kind of friendship, like some kind of ancient lost art.
Anyway I meant what I said so don't be lonely anymore.

>>8122829
I ask a lot but chasers want a passable qt.

>>8122830
I don't do black magic, sorry, just business transactions.

>>8122836
I guess you don't wanna be pals then.

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cutting usually wakes me up and makes me feel better
but it's not working anymore

>>8122839
Hee hee, I'm just kidding. You can have my Discord if you want. I had to reinstall the stupid thing. Natalie#3905

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>eating a burrito at 2:30 AM while on the verge of tears
LIVING.
THE.
LIFE.

>>8122850
What's got the water works going? Can't be that feel when no bf, since you're a gayfag and all.

Serious question: How desirable is a man who's life doesn't revolve around lgbt bullshit and thinks it's a mental illness but likes you enough to make you his girl and is okay with you in public or around his family?

>>8122815
i can relate but if i give you a (you) it's not gonna make a bf appear in bed next to me
>>8122843
there are healthier things that do the same thing
>>8122850
what's wrong? how come you're on the verge of tears?

>>8122843
Not sure if bait or not

>>8122858
idk my famalam depends what you mean by mentally ill but as long as I think he is a good guy I would consider

>>8122854
An issue that'll hopefully be resolved shortly. Sorry for the vague post and vague explanation, I'll post a more detailed explanation later.
>>8122861
Was. I'm feeling slightly 'better' now. In that I'm a bit more numb.

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>>8122858
So long as he genders you correctly and treats you like a girl and considers you female, who cares?

being alive kinda sucks

>tfw getting lost in research articles.

>>8122871
I feel like trans people have to be handled with kiddy gloves at all times or else they cry uncontrollably or kill themselves. I'm open to the idea of having a trans gf, I just would like to meet one who isn't insane.

T. Haver of experiences

>>8122869
hugg
well it's good that it'll hopefully be resolved shortly

>>8122894
>trans gf
>not insane
Pick one

>>8122894
yeah, i'd love to have a non-crazy trans gf too

and a glass of water that isn't wet

i hope Zna is ok
>inb4 Grace broke up again
>>8122901
wtf rude

>>8122907
We're all insane, just, to some degrees less or more insane, but still insane.

>>8122871
I'd rather be called a boy by someone who thinks I'm not mentally ill.

>>8122894
I'm pretty normal and functional, although not that feminine and unattractive(but not ugly)

>>8122894
You're asking for a heavily damaged girl who takes drugs that throw her emotions out of whack, that isn't a little crazy.

>dating cis people
why?

>>8122907
Ehh, I'm actually crying now but it's gotten resolved, I think.
>>8122934
Love?

>>8122934
Because they're mentally stable and attractive and fulfill the heteronormative societal standards I find appealing in a mate.

>>8122926
I'd rather be seen as a girl by someone who thinks I'm absolutely insane because that feels more true
>>8122934
Larger dating pool I guess. I'm sort of done with cis dating though, two years of my life was enough even if she did end up being my best friend.

>>8122934
Honestly, as a transgender girl, I have to say that cis males make the best dating partners, and are far more sexually compatible with transgender girls than another one of their own kin.

You just haven't had an emotionally, sexually, romantically and spiritually fulfilling relationship unless you've dated a cis guy/anon.

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>>8122934
Because I love him to bits, and he says the sweetest things to me.

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THAT FEEL WHEN NO JENS LEKMAN BF

im my own trans gf and im also very strong and good at things

I'm not like completely against dating a cis person but so many of them are such idiots but I feel like if they are not shit and are willing to learn they could be okay. I feel like the t4t thing from infect your friends and loved ones is pretty true.

they can't understand dysphoria though, big issue

>>8122954
Ruining friendships is not widely recognized as a skill.

I have image smug enough for this post.

>>8122963
gumball, please donut be rude.

>>8122947
Aww, I kinda love him too now

>>8122961
Someone doesn't need to share your struggle to understand you and be there with you for it.

>>8122964
I forgot a word. My put has been utterly nullified.

>>8122961
There's apathy and sympathy dummy. Even though they can't understand your type of pain they can sympathize your feeling of pain

>>8122969
yeah I agree like if they will listen to you and not be shitty they are probably a good person

Need to sleep. Yawning so hard jaw is cracking. Good night.

>>8122991
goodnight Natalie I hope you have a good rest.

>>8122991
Nighty night Nat.

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>>8122894
Ive had people express this kiddie glove mentality to me before and I really disliked it, I didnt want people to feel they had to cater to me. But I do want to be treated like a girl and considered one...

As far as your ideas on trans identity and what not I don't care, I have a very practical mindset on that kind of stuff and so long as you arent working against transfolk I could care less what your ideas on transfolk are.

Im a little cray though, paranoia combined with megalomania and narcissism.

>>8122910
Everyone is a little crazy, but it doesnt matter until it impedes your ability to live a normal life.

>>8122926
Id rather be called a girl by some one who thinks I am. I guess Im shallow.

>>8122961
What if I told you that Ive never had sex with or been in a relationship with another transperson?

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>>8122991
Me too actually. Even though it's like 8:30am here, I've just finished on the night shift, so I'm going to sleep alongside vampires, alcoholics and Americans.

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Well, Could I have some advice anons?
I've got a gf who said she would probably leave me if I was ever more feminine than her in anyway
about half the time I feel shitty because no tits and boxed shape short haired shit bag(me).
She makes me relatively happy I don't really have disphoria but im not too happy with myself. wat do. Take hormones and see how I feel? If I have end up taking hormones I would have to leave gf because I dont wanna hold things behind her back

>>8123007
good night Anonymous

>>8123004
hey moap when you had sex with that girl to prove you mom wrong or whatever did you just hire a prostitute or something

https://healingfromcomplextraumaandptsd.wordpress.com/2017/04/17/dr-marsha-m-linehan-expert-on-mental-illness-reveals-her-own-fight/
For all those people who cut, burn, hate themselves, suicidal, etc. Read the linked article.

>>8123011
you say you don't really have dysphoria but you also say you feel bad about stuff sounds like dysphoria idk. taking hormones and seeing how you feel is probably good yeah.

>>8122965
He's too nice to me :)

Going in Style is a really nice movie but it annoys me to hell that Zach Braff always focuses everything on how Jewish he is, showing orthodox jews randomly walk around NYC and having like half the supporting cast be jewish. It's getting annoying.

>>8122733
I haven't been on in awhile but didn't you decide to leave Edie

>>8123042
>showing orthodox jews randomly walk around NYC
New York is a *very* jewy city, you'll genuinely just find kikes while walking around it.

>>8123011
hrt doesnt do that much

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>>8123017
That wouldn't have worked.
No, I got romantic with the next girl who showed interest and seduced her, made her my gf, and introduced her to my mom. I had to go through that elaborate bit so that everyone could meet her and no one could dispute her existence.
Then I fucked her.
Then we broke up.

Thankfully she was kind of a slut so I didnt give a fuck about using her like that, on the contrary her being kind of a slut is why I picked her.

>>8123052
I didn't notice them specifically when I was there, but that was touristy areas in summer.
I didn't know there were so many there, though.
Still, he obviously mostly shows them because he is jewish too and it irks me. Every single movie he makes he does this and it's a shame cause I like his films otherwise

>>8123052
do you actually hate Jews

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>>8123053
>>8123025
I can rule out agp or whatever it is, I dont really think about it as a fetish It's always in the back of my mind. If hormones wont help wat do.

Good night, everyone

>>8123064
only other thing would be try to learn to live with it but that is not ideal

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>>8123004
>Everyone is a little crazy, but it doesnt matter until it impedes your ability to live a normal life.
[chuckles in self-harm]

>>8123011
You sound like you want to be the feminine one. My ex said similar shit to me and tried to ban me from wearing girly clothes once she realized it wasn't going away. I think you should cut your losses and improve yourself. I would say find someone better, but that will happen naturally as your self-image improves.

>>8123019
Maybe in a bit. I am sorta trying to overcome trauma.

>>8123064
>I can rule out agp or whatever it is,
>I dont really think about it as a fetish
>It's always in the back of my mind.
It's fucking AGP already.

>>8123072
what's ur issue my man

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>>8123058
Lots of 'em, but not all of them are the Orthodox sort. But yeah, ingroup bias is strong with them.
>>8123061
Eh, not really. So long as if they consider themselves Americans they're loyal to my country first and foremost.

>>8123064
Just take the hormones. If you don't like it just stop.

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>>8123072
There is no such thing as AGP

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>>8123071
Thanks anon-kun. I'll try my best.
>>8123072
>It's fucking AGP already.
explain

>>8123082
>me
>anon-kun
>anon
>kun
I will drown you and your weak bloodline.

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>>8123085
I'm actually the only one that's weak in my bloodline

why do girls get to be girls but not me

>>8123076
>my man

>>8123079
>>8054069

>>8123082
AGP isn't a fetish. It's more like an orientation. It can come with or without dysphoria. But if it has dysphoria transition isn't necessarily the best way to deal with it, and if it doesn't have dysphoria it can become dysphoric over time. Most trans girls are dysphoria because of being AGP.

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>>8123092
AGP does not exist, you're making up disorders and self labeling yourself. This is my psychologists have discredited AGP and Blanchard is considered a kook.

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>>8123090
Then it will be easy...

>>8123091
You are a girl!

>>8123092
>It's more like an orientation.
Stop while you're ahead, senpai.

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>>8123105
Drowning me will be easy but the other not so much

>>8123105
>You are a girl!
no not really

how come whenever im happy it feels pointless and empty
i have nothing to be happy about but it happens for a bit then i get sad again

>>8123065
Gn

>>8123105
>>8123100
I literally just explained why AGP isn't a disorder. lrn2read

>>8123135
It isn't anything, and that's the problem. AGP is a label Blanchard used to attach yet another disorder to trans people. /lgbt/ has tried to revamp it and pass it without really adjusting the Blanchardian model much, apart from removing the disordered label and saying it can happen to any old person. (Technically, the latter was part of the Blanchard model, but he asserted that all AGP are trans.)
Blanchard has been discredited quite roundly, however, and to adhere to his model almost to the letter is laughably misguided, if we're being generous. It is not functional and attempts to pathologize simple fantasy.

>>8123135
Also, you didn't explain shit. You aren't a medical professional. Fuck outta here with that armchair shit.

>>8122843
when did snickerdoodle get emo?

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>tfw invisible
https://www.dailymotion.com/video/x4v6lrr

>>8123165
But you're right here! Look at you, all visible ad stuff.

>>8122843
you have to actually cut yourself
those are barely scratches

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Who here /tootallforlove/?

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>mfw tranny says theyd want to be me because at least theyd be a girl

Samsa is ugly af and sounds like a dude, why do people give her money?

>>8123175
Whoru?

Gib boyfriend plz im so desperate tonight im gonna die ;_;

>>8123177
im myself who else would i be

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>>8122843
Not to be dismissive, senpai, but I do more damage than that when I'm masturbating.

>>8123171
5'5" :^)

>>8123175
>mfw customers talk shout about all the beautiful ladies working up front and I'm one of the bitches they're talking about

>>8123181
Would give you mine for a bit, but he went to sleep already.

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>>8123166
then why does everyone ignore me

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>>8123210
C'mere you!
hugg
I won't ignore you! What's the matter tonight, senpai?

>>8123183
I love it when guys are understanding!

>inb4 he's just a chaser pretending he didn't notice

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>>8123181
What kind do you want?

does anybody want to have sex with me

>>8123224
sure

>>8123194
>mfw customers talk shout about all the beautiful ladies working up front and I'm one of the bitches they're talking about
its a good feeling

>>8123228
ok should i come to your house

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>>8123219
repression burnt me out, there was nothing left to transition with at 29 and I was 30 by the time I got on HRT
I don't have any fight in me, I keep wanting to roll over and suicide but I am afraid of death, yet not of dying... I have no money and no job so I cannot afford surgeries, nothing is covered in Australia.
Finding a job with male on your birth certificate is near impossible, changing your birth certificate in QLD requires getting SRS, which requires a job to pay for.

Trying to talk about that on /mtfg/ and everyone acts like my weight is my only problem, I concede the only thing in my control is my weight but I am an emotional eater so overcoming that while trying to lose weight is difficult... and its all anyone ever suggests as though it will fix everything.
I have bad skin, need ffs and a hair transplant, I am unskilled and stupid and nothing will ever get better, even once I have finally lost weight

There is more, I've said it all before and it gets ignored

>>8123236
where are you from?

>>8123270
That sounds like an awful situation, senpai, and I'm sorry to hear you're having so much trouble out there. Why is it hard to find a job with male on your bc? Have you considered a low-skill, low standard of entry type of job? I don't mean to insult you or anything, but something like factory line work is a good way to get your foot in the door in a shitty job market.

The physical stuff all sounds pretty solvable, frankly, but the first step is to get yourself into the working sphere and stack some basic income so you can work on things like adjusting your diet and routine.

>>8123280
ohio

>>8123155
>>8123149
>Blanchard has been discredited quite roundly,
Liar.

>>8123285
yo have to pay for the flight to yurop tho a prostitute would be chaeper

>>8123287
prostitutes wont love you and i will

>>8123288
ok then do you have the money to come here?

>>8123289
no nevermind im gonna go die instead

>>8123286
>actual religious adherence to a fucking modern day phrenologist
your entire life is a meme
>>8122963
don't be a cunt.

you're just making it so that I don't trust you with my personal life again.

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i have to study
who wants to DIE

>>8123297
>LeninMarx
You're one to talk about memes and religious adherence.

Hello mtfg

Care to explain why I signed up for the "transgender class for boys who want to be girls" in my dream last night >:(

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>>8123300
Me I do

>>8123303
>genuinely thinking Blanchard is remotely comparable to two of the most important political thinkers in human history
absolutely ebin :DDD

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>dream that ur making out with a girl
This needs to stop

wonderful wonderful

>>8123310
>Lenin or Marx
>Important
die commie

>>8123322
>things aren't important if I don't like them
t. 4chan-educated teenager

>>8123318
This may sound farfetched, but I am beginning to think you might be a little gay.

>>8123004
Person you replied to first here, I would love to date somebody like you

>>8123323
>I am uneducated in politics
t. tumblr-educated teenager

>>8123318
you should date a boy who isnt a repressed tranny for once

>>8123318
I never have fun dreams like that, girls or boys :(

>>8123326
>literally "I'm rubber and you're glue"
is this the power of people who think everything to the left of mussolini is tumblr?

>>8123334
communism is tumblr

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>>8123318
lani
that's a lil bit gay

almost 1/4th gay as me

This takes a lot to admit
Even on 4chan

I want to be a woman

>>8123337
everything is gonna be ok everything is gonna be ok everything is gonna be ok everything is gonna be ok everything is gonna be ok

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>>8123335
My god.

>>8123337
A G P
G
P

>>8123338
I told my mom
I'm actually going to do it

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>>8123324
No that is incorrect

>>8123328
I have though it was pretty great and he broke my heart sooo yeah

>>8123336
Lies, that's super gay

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>>8123337
Oh no! Not you too!

>>8123333
Idk I don't get them like super often or anything I don't think most people do

>>8123342
good girl

>>8123339
ew problematic opinion

>>8123352
P U R E I D E O L O G Y

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Sorry.

>>8123346
They are super, super rare for me; I've had maybe 4 or 5 in my entire life. Now that I think about it, I always woke up sad and depressed because they were so wonderful and I then was suddenly alone.
Okay, maybe I don't want that dream again :/

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Who here /badboythatwillneverbeagoodgirl/?

>>8123364
I am actually an active poster on /assholewhoalienateshisfriends/.

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>>8123364
>tfw bad boy but probably not in the way you mean it

>>8123362
There's an annoying tendency for dreams like that to happen when you're not with someone so yeaaah they're not the greatest

>>8123364
hi i'm a bad girl
wanna hang out

>>8123370
Hi elanna, how are you?

>>8123372
No. I want die

>vent about my moodswing / bipolar (???) issues last night because i was hoping it'd help me ward them off / maybe relieve stress
>girl says she's proud of me
>end up having a full on breakdown due to extreme irritability the next day
>girl comes on to call me a cunt

>>8123364
I said that last year...

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>>8123376
My whole body hurts and I need about 4 hours more sleep but hey at least I need to be on my toes today for training.

Hbu

>>8123381
Were u rite?

>>8123387
Am on estrogen now so mtfg wins

>>8123385
Poor girl :(
I'm very tired too, but only some parts of my body hurt and I feel cold and ill and lonely.

>>8123389
Do you still live with wizard?

>>8123395
I'm a different Amy
I don't know any wisards

i kind of want to cut everybody off again but i know i'll come back at some point and i'd just be making more trouble for everyone in the long run
: (

>>8123398
O. I mistook you for angie

>>8123390
;-;
Are you ill?

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>>8123401
*Hugg*
Please don't go away :(

i actually finished my study
what
the fuck
i guess that's what well defined drafts will do fer ya

So I've been on Cypro for just over 2 months and I noticed in the shower that my balls are smaller and squidgier.

That's normal right?

>>8123406
i won't
mainly because i know i'll come back eventually and i'm tired of making people deal with that bullshit
dw

>>8123409
No, rip them off before its too late.

>>8123401
iktf i kinda want to isolate myself even more and stop talking to people
but then i'll get lonely and die

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>>8123409
>take medication that kill ur balls
>confus when balls are kill

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>>8123404
I sneezed just now and my throat feels a bit sore :(

>>8123410
I'm glad you're here.

rest

>>8123416
i wouldn't mind dying rn desu

i don't want to shun all responsibility for how i act i mean
i always know it's horrible and i hate it and i hate annoying other people, especially ones that care about me, and when i'm moody i hate that people even care about me at all
but i just don't know how to control it

>>8123413
I mean, I want them gone but if I did that I'd end up with no SRS.

>>8123420
I just want to know it's normal idk like I said they were squishy when beforehand they were firm idk if this is how it's meant to go down.

>>8123420
Ur a gay guy

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>eat too much chocolate
>4am still can't sleep
fook

>>8123426
the actual testicles are useless for SRS
scrotal tissue is the main thing

I just wanted to be happy
For once in my life

>>8123434
you faked suicide
fuck off

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>>8123426
Yes, it's normal, expect them to turn into wee little overripe grapes

>>8123429
I agree but what makes you say that

>>8123421
I'm with you there unfortunately ;-;
I have chronic allergies so I've felt like I have a low key cold for the past few weeks

>>8123434
killing yourself doesn't make you happy it makes you dead.

>>8123434
You broke the law m8

>>8123441
I wasn't going to kill myself

>>8123437
stop

this drama is over

>>8123437
Don't be rude, we should be happy that they are still alive.

>>8123445
maybe
but anna's no less a godawful person
who refuses to seek help because of (((the jews)))

i think i'm in a good position to judge other people, being absolutely godawful myslf

>>8123444
what else did you want to do?

>>8123448
pandora stop please

lets just get over this

give anna some rest and let her say what she wants to say

>>8123432
yeah but apparently the scrotum can shrink if there isn't stuff inside it and I don't want to take that risk.

>>8123434
and you thought the way to do that was to manipulate everyone in to thinking you'd killed yourself?
You hurt people here.
Get help. The fact that you think Psychs are a ((((((((((Jooish)))))))))) conspiracy alone suggests you need help, let alone everything you did.
If you care about Frangi then you will.

>>8123440
sounds like the dream :)

>>8123452
i'd rather not
she's probably going to talk about (((the jews))) putting estrogen into our bagels

>>8123440
>what makes you say that
U u stinky gay, go love a man or something

>>8123339
>My god.
Your God is rotting in a graveyard in London, the heart of banking and commerce, that visitors need to pay to see.

>>8123456
bicalutamide won't shrink your testes, so if you're that worried you can take the agp pill i guess
though i think spiro doesn't affect them either, couldn't say for sure though

I need to revise for this exam I have coming up but all I want to do is die asap
literally spent all of yesterday in bed fantasising intensely about death
>mfw the mental health services discharged me saying I'm managing okay for the time being

>>8123461
I went on Cypro in the first place because I want the shrinkage.
Plus I heard bica means you can still get erections and that's a no no.

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I'm still doubting if I'm trans, is that normal?

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>>8123458
I would never do something so gay as to sleep with a man, what kind of faggot do you take me for

>>8123470
A gay one tbqh

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Every close relative is a millionaire and there's even a billionaire but I make about 1000$ a month and this is a family that is all over independence so I won't inherit

>>8123480
my dad is a millionaire but he was abusive
i could easily make a ton of money off erotica commissions
but i'm so fucking depressed
i just need time to find meds that work and transition and maybe i can not be this way but
idk i wish i had some alcohol rn

This is the end
Beautiful friend
This is the end
My only friend, the end

Of our elaborate plans, the end
Of everything that stands, the end
No safety or surprise, the end
I'll never look into your eyes...again

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Daily reminder that you need to stop sinning ^-^

>>8123485
How do you monetize erotica? Only commission?

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>tfw your facial features look relatively fem and okay but they're set on a thick heavy-set male skull so you look like someone faceswapped you and put the size slider all the way to the left

>>8123486
Get.
Help.

>>8123488
yeah
i'm a good writer
i was able to make like ~15$ an hour off the bat with only 6 stories in my portfolio
BUT I CAN'T FUCKING WRITE BECAUSE I'M SO FUCKING DEPRESSED ALL THE FUCKING TIME

>>8123486
Are you going to kill yourself?

>>8123488
oh yeah sorry you were asking a question
um
yeah i did commission work
had a thread and found some work off /d/
i wish i wasn't broken

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>>8123477
I personally think I make a very convincing straight boy

>>8123426
>>8123440
Mine def shrunk but idk about getting squishy. I'm on spiro though.

>>8123456
Some srs surgeons will advise against an orchi because the scrotum can shrink but there are supposedly stretching exercises you can do to prevent it, whether it's from an orchi or otherwise.

>>8123461
Isn't estradiol partly responsible for shrinking balls too?

>>8123480
Depending where you live there may be inheritance laws, though usually for parents to offspring and if you are treated unfairly or even left out entirely you may be able to contest it in court.

>>8123493
I'd be into it if I could just smack it on a site and add revenue it.
But commissions.. faking passion about other peoples chosen subjects seems awful

>>8123486
I love this song

>>8123487
Isn't our verry exisitance a sin?

i'm so fucking toxic
if i could cut all my ties right now i would
but i know i'll come back and all i'll be doing is causing unnecessary hurt for people i care about
i wish people wouldn't care about me
if i was on the streets again i'd spend all my food stamps on like
coffee and shit and just stay awake for a week
i could just wlak around
it was awful
but at least i was free
i have people who worry about me
i don't want to just kill myself in this guy's house
i don't want to just walk out
why do i have to keep making people care

It's just the end of an elaborate plan
Of everything that stands, the end

>>8123501
estrogen will mess with your genitals / balls either way afaik
but bica minimizes the effects and i -think- spiro won't shrink balls

>>8123510
>>8123496
Oops forgot to link

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NyvCLImSAT8
i don't want to be like this
i wish i cou

I miss Zheanna, fuck you assholes for doxxing her, she would have liked this album I found yesterday ;_;
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vx089RcUT5c

i wish i could just stop causing all this drama
but i feel so awful and i don't know what to do about it
i should probably go to sleep
i don't want to be like this

>>8123510
The best part of all this is that this is /pol/'s finest.

sleepy sleeps and cheeky cheeks

>>8123521
anna's fucked up enough that i think she's a lost cause at this point
i just wish she wouldn't drag myrthe to the grave with her, assuming they seriously attempt suicide

>>8123526
I didn't say anything of the sort
These kinds of assuptions are the problem

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Gooooooooooooood morning everyone!

>>8123526
It's just funny to see all these /pol/tards claim to be "masterrace" when they are so mentally deranged.
>>8123531
Hello fellow European.

>>8123529
So you aren't going to kill yourself anytime soon?

>>8123537
No it scary and I'm a coward

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It should be legal for women to kill men that are shorter than them

>>8123548
Faggot.

>>8123553
Did you see what happened last time I announced a suicide lol
I'm giving up, I'll just be depressed forever

>>8123557
please get help...

>>8123550
Women already get away with killing men.

>>8123550
i wish it was legal to kill me tbdesu

This is the first tine in my entire mtfg lurking shitposting life that i unironically hate most of the trips...


Seiryu andrea pandora beanboy anna myrthe lauren off the top of my head.


Legit these are the worst batch of trips ever at once... Maybe im getting old but wow this is legit shit...

>>8123557
What are you going to do now?

>>8123568
Be depressed forever didn't you read what I just said

>>8123567
you missed a lot

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>>8123567
<3

>>8123572
quid :^)
naw you're fine. Shit in the summer but you post on topic and weve had good anon conversations even if you'd hate me lol

>>8123575
aww ty I try

Why is anal orgasm so hard?

>>8123567
Lauren is pretty quality. The rest are dogshit though, yeah

>>8123578
cause the g-spot is way up in there

>>8123587
How far up?
The plug I used is like 4" long and about two or three inches thick

>>8123567
What about me?
>>8123578
I never get a sudden burst of pleasure from that just a constant pleasurable tingling.

i am in a dead end situation with no idea what to do

>>8123601
what's up anon

>>8123601
Kill yourself.

>>8123570
Yes but what are your concrete plans now

>>8123598
I dont hate you shakira.

>>8123583
Shes really not also hi lauren

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>>8123533
how's london?

>>8123567
Also I'd literally said two things, do you just not like bunnies?
I have other animals too.

>>8123601
(hugg)
what's up buttercup?

>>8123608
I don't have any

Is it normal that I can scrape off skin of my dick?

>>8123609
:)
>>8123610
It's ok
Why do you have a beard?

>>8123613
you could try to express your depression in art that helps a bit

>>8123609
I'm
Not Lauren lol
>>8123606
I wish you'd do that

>>8123622
Gib knife I'll draw on my skinn

>>8123604
>>8123610
Long story short
super depressed because i now realize that i have to go into girlmode in public, to find out if i pass, and risk getting beat.

Apparently pictures don't do jack crap for forming a proper opinion, so people on the net cant do jack for me opinion wise.

i stayed up for 35 hours tho, man was it good, happy, cheerful, not depressed at all, fan tas tic, sadly i passed out tho.

so my life sucks
wanna stop taking hrt but i got lil boob tissues
and so on

wanna kill myself
chicken tho
>>8123606
I would love to but read up.

and yeah, life in general just sucks and im doomed and i give up and im too far into being trans to repress

>>8123626
Why not use omegle?

>>8123625
I don't think I would give someone one of my knifes. try drawing on a piece of paper instead.

>>8123631
i guess but even then, that's just a motion picture.

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>>8123619
That's not me, I just collect cute pics and I really like chinchillas.

>>8123626
:(
(hugg)

>>8123633
I don't have a pencil

>>8123640
It's quite hard to pass on film compared to pictures. Why do you think tranny actresses never get cis roles?
>>8123642
So what do you look like?

>>8123646
wtf?

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>ywn get a cute guy who likes animals as a bf
why live

>>8123647
ugly and unpassable

>>8123655
get a cute girl instead

>>8123657
that's gay tho

>>8123646
well then wait until you're home or buy one.

>tfw you'll never get married

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>>8123658

>>8123647
i guess
but like, how do i tell if they think im female besides hitting on me?
what if they just skip me, ask asl and say (woah you're female? Sure dont look like it), or go with it, but know im not female.

>>8123655
How old are you?

>>8123668
why not?

>>8123671
22 in july.

>>8123670
If they hit on you they think you're female durr.

>>8123674
reeeeeeeeeeeeee
im 25 how the fuck do you think i feel?

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>>8123679
Probably had a way better starting point.
Not that that's hard tho desu

>>8123679
25 here also, yep it sucks but so long as you don't look old its okay. A good skincare routine and being on hrt should go a long way.

>>8123688
>black
>better starting point
Nice joke. Also is that you?
>>8123689
I actually get regularly told that I look 16 or 17 when in boymode. It's just that I am a) now ineligble for a lot of youth things b) I keep seeing people my age on TV that have achieved shit with their lives.

>>8123679
>tfw 19 but look like 25 anyways

>>8123693
From about two months ago pre everything yeah

>>8123697
Your jaw and brow look fine.

>>8123693
I feel like my longer hair really hurt looking youthful, I look alot younger boymode with shorter or medium hair and going past shoulders ruined that.

>keep seeing people my age on TV that have achieved shit with their lives.
God I know the feeling. I have a friend even who is a year younger than me with a very successful job, lives on her own, in a relationship, and it hits me that I'm stuck living at home with dead end low paying job with no prospects. Life is hard.

>>8123701
then you realise that I'm a 6'3 giant

passing is a pipe dream

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>>8123693
y'know, social issues aside (which i think are a bit different on your side of the atlantic) black girls always seem to pass a lot better

to me at least. i realize that it may just be due to my familiarity with white people given my background tho

>>8123707
a pretty giant

>>8123693
Holy crap, a guy hit on me.
Told him I was a guy and he said I looked like a girl.