/mtfg/: male to flagrant system error general

first for eternal torture

XNd. for no one likes Sass

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first for eternally jealous

i am always sad

there doesn't seem much point in trying to improve things

even if i try my hardest, i'll only ever be able to make things satisfactory

i have nothing to live for

sometimes i can't think of the words and i just want to bash my head on something

the only feeling i know is regret

i did this to myself
i deserve to sit in my mess

i wish i could blame my environment for making me so bad

i'm burnt out before i've even tried

i read about how good things have been for others and it makes me really really upset

i am my own harshest critic

all i can do now is hope that my mistakes aren't repeated by other people

sometimes it seems easier to make other people fail than to try and make myself succeed

i wasted the most valuable time of my life, and i didn't even have fun doing it

>tfw half your friends are gay or bi

the happiest that i feel is when i know that i'm going to die

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>>7558058
I try to push myself to help others avoid the misery of attempting suicide and having to live with it. I just want people to transition as soon as they see the signs.

although the grass isn't always greener on the other side, i feels like it is

i am stuck in a cycle that i can't get out of

my ability to pretend that things are okay is my biggest weakness and the cause of many of my problems

if people don't have enough of me, i push them away

Date day with bf! So excited. Got a super pretty dress and its gonna be the first time going out in one so im kinda nervous.

even nothing feels like a chore

one of the worst feelings is looking back and not having anything to show for almost two decades

all i want to do is talk to someone, but i have nothing to say

i'm not smart, kind, pretty or helpful
i am a person without identity

i keep putting things off until after transition, but i don't think i'm ever going to be able to

i wish i was more adventurous, so i could die without having to kill myself

>>7558049
you got one senpai look down

it's starting to get to the point where most people younger than me have achieved more than i have
this upsets me

>>7558087
You have your beautiful self to show for it anon

>>7558036
I identify with this. Afte she left, there's really no point in living.

i'm gonna go now
i'd delete the posts but there are probably too many now

have a nice day
i won't

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>>7558103

STFU
Get a trip so I can filter you

>>7558102
I want someone else's

>>7558053
You are a whiny self pitying faggot.

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Posting again in the vain hope I can get a London date

It would be Korean food and we could catch a film or something, I might try and hold hands in the last part though so be warned

I haven't started any hrt stuff yet, mostly because I haven't come out to anyone yet. However I still want to be qt when on my own, so I want to grow out my hair and paint my nails, but these might be too obvious to people. Is there a good way to explain them without coming out yet?

>>7558186
if you are trans, it's probably already obvious that you are some kind of fag
i just never explained it, and people just accepted it

Is my penis feminine? I used to be 6 inches erect and this is how it looks like now!I think it's like 2.5 inches!
uwu
2 years hrt 200mg spiro, 8mg estrogen daily

https://unsee
.cc/gubesina/

>>7558246
looks disgusting and you look fat
put lotion on it and lose weight

Speaking of dick, why is it that every time I hook up with one of you degenerates the first thing they reach for is mine
Why are all my tranny friends agp-tier whores and fetishists

How the hell do you shave the backs of your legs? Do I have to use a mirror or something?

>>7558261
I should moisturize it?

>>7558307
I have a flexible spine and I just twist around to look
Mirrors disorient me

>>7558307
I do it by feel.

>warm area with hot moist towel. Should be as hot as you can stand.
>Emu oil the area, just a few drops is needed.
>Shave, and use hot water to rinse the shaver often.

>>7558332
>Emu oil
Is that something I'm gonna have to order online or would it be kept at a place like Rite Aid or Safeway?

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>>7558065
That's nice Owen

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hi im here now

>>7558419
post instagram hooooonnnneeeyyy

>>7558436
Don't post your instagram. This is obviously elanna's 30+ year old "non-binary" "partner" who whiteknights every time she is bullied.

>>7558426
I don't know, I'm hating my body and my clothes don't fit right and I'm cold and bloated ;~;

>>7558420
Thanks

>>7558436
>>7558444
lol thanks for the heads up

>>7558444
im actually really curious to see how lanner's roommate looks desu
they sound so cool

>>7558446
oh
i know every single one of these feels :(

help! how do I buy the right shade of foundation from amazon?
I need to buy the same colour as my skin right? how do I find out what my skin colour is though?

>>7558414
ikr?
after trying hrt for 3 months and having all my depression and anxiety disappear, i'm fairly sure that i have actually been trans and dysphoric my whole life
it explains so much i had no idea about before
i would transition but i have loads of reasons why i'll likely kill myself soon
it just feels really good to have closure in a way and to know that i could have improved my life somehow, if i decided to try to live without having a reason to

>>7558455
You simply dont buy it on Amazon.

>>7558444
He's 32. I think it's about time he got a life

>>7558379
You could try any shaving oil. I just emu oil because I already use it for moisturizing my hands and face. Emu oil is a bit expensive compared to most.

>>7558456
Why don't you stick with HRT?
It had the same effect on me and I feel a lot better most of the time.

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>>7558455
you should do that in person or you'll end up gambling

>>7558458
where do I buy it from if I'm 100% boymode then?

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>>7558448
Lmao
ALL THESE INSECURE HONS PUTTING BLAME

>>7558456
it felt kinda scary when the thoughts of death and nothingness to follow started to comfort me more than anything I could expect from the future

>>7558464
I'm fairly sure someone will notice and out me *eventually*, maybe years from now but still
at which point my life is as good as over
i have 0 chance of passing at 24
and I need to keep the job i have to live
which i could never do as a hon
or work anywhere else for that matter

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=__4EmRRYbO8

>>7558470
In the store

>>7558474
yeah
everything just begins to lack any real meaning and you get really curious about whats on the other side

>>7558471
Didn't you say you were 5 months pregnant? And who is the insecure delusional one?

>>7558477
> That timing
24 isn't too late. Really depends on your genes. And if you have a job you can save up for FFS and other surgeries.
There is no reason not to try. If you fail you can still sudoku,

>>7558490
Still am honey
I just find it hilarious how all of you tear each other down instead of building each other up.

It's a therapist's wet dream watching all the mental illness that goes on here.

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today was a good day
uwu

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is Angie ok?

http://www.strawpoll.me/12084417
http://www.strawpoll.me/12084417
http://www.strawpoll.me/12084417
http://www.strawpoll.me/12084417
http://www.strawpoll.me/12084417

>>7558498
post the story

I really like what's happening to my hips but my boobs are growing too fast
I'm not really out to anyone and it's going to be weird seeing my family

>>7558490
>Be cis
>Uses "hon" to belittle trans girls
I believe this

>>7558499
So how did you decide?

>>7558489
I'm absolutely convinced there is nothing and thats the best part about, total relief
I'd be scared of death if I believed in afterlife of any sort

>>7558502
what does it mean to be "grasping"

>>7558503
the habbening greentext?

>>7558511
idk u wanted to post that right?

>>7558491
that just depends on how long it will take for someone to notice what hrt is doing to me lel
i guess i really ought to give it a shot before i die tho
still, im just afraid i'll be a trans suicide statistic anyway
it'll just look like the last straw
and everyone i know will be even more traumatized than if i just faked an accident tomorrow or something
i'll think about it i guess

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>>7558495
>I just find it hilarious how all of you tear each other down instead of building each other up.

As an outsider I see this.
Why can't you people just be nice to one another?

>>7558502
I'm also a leftist, shitlord!

>>7558515
>>7558511
Post story! I want to know.

>>7558524
its not very interesting but anna and frangi thought it was funny :p

>>7558502
Hons and hugboxing are staples of most trans communities, even the better ones
I say it's the undercurrent of braindead leftism thats making mtfg trash, rn

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So yesterday some random guy payed me $100 to watch him jerk off for 15 minutes. He hit me back up a minute ago and wants to do the same thing again today. How do I find other guys that don't want me to do anything other than watch?

L M A O

uwu

>be at cafe place with eirini and anna
>having a nice and cool time
>after paying, the lady says "thanks boys" or "have a good day, boys" or something along those lines
>be all ironically triggered but deep inside we all felt a small pain

a h h h


>>7558515
ye i did!
Also, I didn't say it earlier as I didn't want to disturb you and anna's discussion(s), but I think your piercing is very pretty <3

>>7558517
>that just depends on how long it will take for someone to notice what hrt is doing to me lel
It will most likely only make you look younger
> im just afraid i'll be a trans suicide statistic anyway
Does it matter in which suice statistic you are after you did it?
> and everyone i know will be even more traumatized
nah. why would they be?

>>7558502
> Leftists winning
theres hope

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Why does everyone keep asking me if I'm gay at my 2nd job

>>7558517
>faked an accident tomorrow or something
thats the plan, would hurt my parents less

but lets not talk about it now. there is still hope of becoming happy hons, right?

>>7558539
youre too cute to be straight
dead serious, ive heard straight guys talk about this before

>>7558538
do you want me to stop posting here forever?

>>7558507
i had just turned 40 and i couldnt stop staring at myself in the mirror. one day my bell went off. fantasized a lot. must be my destiny.

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>>7558500
Dont worry about me anon.
I'm fine.
In pain from surgery but fine.
Just trying to stick to my new year resolutions and stay far from this place and fixing my life.

>>7558527
Lol was it this--->>7558537

>>7558539
A gay boy or a gay girl?

>>7558538
ily uwu
>>7558539
ily uwu
>>7558545
ily uwu

What's your favourite sweet ("candy"), mtfg?!

>>7558550
ye

>>7558517
>im just afraid i'll be a trans suicide statistic anyway
Doing nothing only leads to greater dysphoria. Doing something will almost certainly lead to less, and may lead to a better life than you have now.

Also once you get the W on your birth certificate, you became a woman for hiring, etc. If you have any technical skills, then that is a boost in chances.

>>7558545
>Letting the fascists win
Wtf? No

>>7558520
ready to get thrown under the bus in favor of mudslimes?

>>7558535
g e t t i n ' m o n e y
s a y w a s s u p

>>7558550
Girl
A lessbean
>>7558551
Omgilu
OmO
>>7558544
ante, stahp.
The boys who know I'm a tranny refer to me as he sometimes... Only after they know, tho.
>>7558552
Sass

>>7558545
just try and ease off all the commie proselytising and leftist claptrap, no one's buying it

>>7558553
>>7558537

It is a fun story :), a couple of years from now meet up in the café when you've all fully transitioned and I bet it will be better.

>>7558555
ily uwu

>>7558555
idk if most people want me gone there's not really a point to staying around is there? ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

just wondering if people want to say it to me with their trips on.

>>7558564
i barely ever post about that stuff though?

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>>7558552
Why, estradiol of course. I wish I could nom them as freely as candy. More estrogen pls.

>>7558560
Damn that post was a e s t h e t i c af.

Are your co-workers still being jerks to you, beautiful? Didn't say this last time but that one chick just sounds jelly as fuck.

>>7558545
You can be saved.
A smart person once told me:
If you aren't left when you are 18 you have no heart.
If you are still left when in your mid 20s you have no brain.

>>7558538
Its the breasts i'm more worried about
Also even looking younger will get really weird eventually

>>7558570
yes but as i am now, do you want me to leave or stay

if you tell me to leave i won't post anymore, no hard feelings

>>7558573
don't leave ;_;

>>7558560
W A S S U P

>>7558564
Shut up dork. The struggles that brought communism and socialism to be part of the world have yet not been resolved and for all the "good" things capitalism brought, we are a more unequal and divided world than we were 80 years ago.

>>7558562
Lol shut up!
Ummmm I'm glad you're a lesb.

>>7558556
You are talking about social progressives, you forget that communist is atheistic and culture is irrelevant, also religion is the opium of the masses

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>>7558549
Is that really you?
if it is I hope you make a speedy recovery from your surgery.
You seemed nice so best of luck to you with fixing your life

try not to fuck up your new years resolution too much

Is there any reason to not get my ID changed if I'm already fulltime?

>>7558549
they dont give you analgesics to go thu recovery weeks?

I see a lot of lonely ladies here. Maybe you should try and get a bf on r9k? plenty of lonely guys there

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>>7558570
>2010 + 7
>not being a radical centrist

kek

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>>7558568
>tfw my projects aren't even half the size of this

>>7558566
I <3 U 2

>>7558567
Wouldn't you stay for me, tho?

>>7558570
I don't like this meme

>>7558552
is that a security question
>>7558568
yeee theyre a little malicious sometimes. she was being sentimental with me about how she thinks about manager is mad at her for calling out the other day. I dont know if he is, but I certainly am. No showed at work and tried to make me cover for her because there was an inch of snow on the ground. She only has to turn 3 times and lives 5 miles from work. It takes me 30 minutes to get there.
>>7558583
youre gonna be outed against ur will a lot.

>>7558554
I dont really though
And i do a lot of customer service so working or getting hired as a hon is really not an option
Maybe if I started a new career or something
are there any honfriendly trades that can be learned in your midtwenties with a good chance of employment?

>>7558568

Wew, that's a lot of modulation.

>>7558579
hugg

>tfw huggboxer

>>7558568
o wow i didnt open that pic. lets hear it. i know it took a while to make.

You're all faggots

>>7558579
>culture is irrelevant
how can you defend this? should I just flush the wisdom of my ancestors down the toilet?

>>7558591

I can probably handle that. What do you mean exactly?

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>>7558589
:P It's the project session for this piece: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u3AxDHGthEk

This tune took me about 7 months from start to finish with small breaks between. Maybe about ~110 real hours? The animation is 22,000 frames and took me 3 months to produce, render, and process.

>>7558591
yeah she sounds like a bitch.

>>7558593
I posted the link to the animation up above ^^^

Yeah, I am a bit of a control freak. I meticulously control all axis of my work.

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>>7558577
thanks for the sentiment

>>7558590
ilu sass but there are way too many trolls here these past months. Quality honestly has deteriorated and i dont feel like this place is my "home" anymore

>>7558602
uwu

>>7558602
I'm a baguette shitlord!

>>7558539
the same reason everyone thinks kayla is a faggot

oink oink piggu

>>7558612
piggu

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>>7558579
>religion is the opium of the masses

>>7558573

Did you used to post at "Erin" and enjoy Skyrim and particularly its Dark Elves?

>>7558608
;_____;
>>7558612
yummy piggu
*eats*

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>>7558599
>o wow i didnt open that pic. lets hear it. i know it took a while to make.

see: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u3AxDHGthEk

It's a tune about gender dysphoria. Njo is an igbo word that roughly translates to incorrect. You can actually see in the session the working title at that point was, "wrong body."

The video version doesn't have lyrics but the album versions are:

>Fragile little spheres of
>Genetic operational code,
>Assemble me flaw free, flawlessly.

>Buzzing, swirling, atomizing,
>Variant neurological micro-structures
>And dissonantly constructed body versus my own internal identity.

>>7558606
you have to give your id to a lot of places to work. the boss could be like 'oh ok thats fine' and still hire you, but then he's gonna tell everyone he knows for certain you were born a boy. or you go to a restaurant and your get a transphobic waiter and he ruins your day by calling you sir on purpose. or you lose ur id and someone finds it and peeps at ur card before giving it back

>>7558618
no, Eirini is a greek name
i never managed to get into skyrim for some reason even tho i tried

>>7558619
wtf

>>7558616
shh dont tell them that commie ideology is the same as any religion

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merry christmas!!

>>7558625
piggus are tasty
yum yum
>>7558626
>>7558616
my religion is paganism

>>7558520
of course you are, you're a hon who transitioned after 30. you have no choice

>>7558608
oowoo

>>7558609
Super gay

>>7558629
what kind?

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>>7558629
>my religion is paganism

>>7558633
Hellenic polytheism uwu

Hail Zeus

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>>7558607
we usually just take like two 6 hour sessions for a song but we do way less complex stuff right now. this is our first one https://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=youtu.be&v=TQCkKyjasNs

you are really passionate about your videos. I hope I can go full time artist/content creator some day.

>>7558629
Are you an anarchist too?

>>7558634
kek

>>7558623

Not really seeing how this is worse than presenting female and handing them an ID with my old name and gender on it.

>>7558632
do they have internet on your plane? :^)

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>>7558616

>>7558620
this is crazy. youre a good producer. you..do make all this right? the visual too? did you teach yourself fl studio? i make stuff but its nowhere close the production of this.

>>7558648
I'm waiting for a connecting flight in kelowna

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>>7558638
>We
>we
>We

now you are starting to sound a little like skull autist. Nah, jk.

I can dig this, pretty minimal and a e s t h e t i c. Pretty okay production too. Best of luck with your content creation endeavors.

I've been a working composer for ~6 years now. Pretty sick job desu.

>>7558643
well are you even trying to trick others into thinking youre a girl? if not thats fine but i thought thats what you were going for

>>7558651
jesus it felt like 10 minutes ago that you said your plane was taking off but its actually more than hour

wtf

alone

>>7558537
>deep inside we all felt a small pain
N-not me I am a man!

>>7558663
Nim close

I'm not gonna lie, after a couple weeks lurking and seldomly posting in this general I don't think it's that bad compared to most 4chan communities I've been a part of. Either the people here are extremely dramatic, or every community I join is just the bottom of the barrel.

>>7558656

...?

>>7558565
<3

>>7558567
The leftism is shit but you're cool otherwise

>>7558663
hugg
time for gentle reflection and forgiving yourself bc ur human

>>7558605
>wanting to believe in false gods and half truths.
I can't even with you.

>>7558608
;~;
Leave If you must. But remember you'll always have a home in my heart

>>7558669
im saying do it???? change ur id if you want?

>>7558673
nah, i'm only leaving if a trip that i like asks me to leave.

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>>7558650
>this is crazy. youre a good producer.

Thanks! I've been producing for about 9 years now. I also privately teach music production/music theory/music composition full time.

>do make all this right? the visual too?
Yes. I make absolutely everything in all of my output: music, visuals, promotion, etc. Although I slack a lot more on promo now-a-days cause I already have fulfilling work in the musical sphere. This stuff is just for funsies.

>did you teach yourself fl studio?
Yes. I self taught myself everything (animation, composition, theory, production, engineering) until I was 19 and started a degree in Music Composition. Hopefully I will start my PhD in composition this fall. *fingers crossed*

>i make stuff but its nowhere close the production of this.
No worries! If I couldn't do this I wouldn't have food in my fridge so it's a trade off I suppose lol. My escape from dysphoria in my teen years was to shut myself in my mind and work on art.

I dance, paint, sculpt, write, play, animate, etc. I love all fine arts.

>>7558678
this is actually pretty cool desu

>>7558658
Your sanity must be faltering
It's only downhill from here

>>7558620
not a fan of exaggerated stereo separation and fl sound, but the music is really good

>>7558667
h-how did you know i was closeanon

lani close

>>7558672
i can't forgive myself for never striving towards anything

>>7558655
thanks :) actually I only make music with my friend. we will put more stuff out soon and might even make some tapes to sell. maybe somebody will buy it. also I don't think I will ever like any other job I even got somebody who will teach me how to play guitar for free.

>>7558676

Ok, thanks.

>>7558682
it must be the estrogen imo
it's messing with my head

>>7558678
yeah im gonna crush on you a lil bit i hope you don't mind.

>>7558608
>ilu sass but there are way too many trolls here these past months. Quality honestly has deteriorated and i dont feel like this place is my "home" anymore
it's less the trolls and more the constant sadposting and ERPing that makes me wrinkle my nose

>>7558626
>Thinks The Communist Manifeso is an ideologic work of fiction like "mein Kampf"
Alt-retard plz

>>7558631
>Thinks hon is an insult
Alt-retard plz

>>7558632
Ultra super gay! And that should have been "faguette".

>>7558671
>Being Dutch nationalist.
You haven't even been a country for more than 100 years goddamnit.

>>7558690
that's been a staple of mtg since forever though.

Sadness, loneliness and horniness are common sentiments among trannies

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>>7558684
:3
I had a feel

>>7558687
Just wait, soon you'll be bad at driving ;_;

>>7558694
lmao we were a country before Italy was

>>7558673
>wanting to believe in false gods and half truths.
never said that. I don't care about religion I care about my culture. the food, the way we live, the beliefs (not religious). that's not something bad to have.

>>7558620
also reminded me ASD's Lifeforce

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how do i get a gf like one of you ladies?

>>7558705
fetlife

>>7558694
>>7558700
This was me obviously

>>7558706
ilu anna

>>7558699
fuckkk
i already was pretty inexperienced at it :(
im scared now...

>>7558705
the best way is to start hrt and transition

>>7558706
very unflattering pic imo

do i erp

>>7558710
>tfw look disgusting without beard
ilu2 though uwu

>>7558711
Well duh that is the point :^)
It's to show how shit I look without my beard

>>7558712
erp derp

>>7558713
I think it's cute, ur cute with or without but without is just that extra bit cute

expect mails soon bb
<3

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>>7558707
>fetlife

isnt that degenerate though?

>>7558711
>the best way is to start hrt and transition

no i like my dick

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>>7558681
Hey!! Thanks. :3

>>7558683
Fair enough. I like massive stereo spread so that something sounds like it's a sound stage happening around and infront of you. I don't use any post or synthetic stereo widening though, that shit just creates polarity issues and phasing.

Also idk what you mean by
>and fl sound
Nothing I use is stock in FL and I either sample or synthesize all my own sounds and sources.

>but the music is really good
Thanks :)

>>7558685
Well, with all goals, if you set your mind to it, you can achieve it if you want it bad enough. I feel that way everything.

>>7558688
<3_<3 beepbeep, I'm mostly straight but you are literally 2 cute.

>>7558702
Never heard. I'll spin it.

>>7558713
no retard i mean ur camera makes your somewhat bigger chin look like a hon-tier monster

>>7558719
you can take viagra

>>7558719
I don't think I'm getting SRS but I'm still gonna be a girl :3

>>7558718
Aww thanks <3
Glad you like it
I guess I am the only one who sees the light

Hey wazzup?

(you) me good music.


https://youtu.be/JSzb-WRoBBo

>>7558711
It's ok at least you don't have to worry about hard stuff like math anymore :)

>>7558722
No that is the lack of beard that is exactly what I have been saying

>>7558694
>oblivious to how any of commie regimes functioned
why am I not surprised, you are yet another brainwashed dummy who never studied history

>anyone who doent eat up my political bullshit is "alt-right"
nice clinton propaganda meme

>>7558725
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=moSFlvxnbgk

>>7558721
>Nothing I use is stock in FL and I either sample or synthesize all my own sounds and sources.
>tfw all you do is sample and tweak Reason's default synths

>>7558726
please
i dropped most of my courses to have a very light roster and am moving to norway for 6 months in may to get away from the stress of uni
when my transition is well underway and im close to full time it'll go a lot better r-right??
please say yes

>>7558728
ur chin looked fine irl
it doesnt in that picture

>>7558699
hey lani

how do I stop feeling sad

>>7558725
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7uG2gYE5KOs

>>7558738
I thought she had an eating disorder

>>7558734
Yeah
Definitely
Memes aside I'm better at shit like math and coursework now than before because no longer depressed

>>7558735
I would suggest closing 4chan and doing something else for a while this is the worst place to be when you're sad

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>>7558734
I don't know if you'll get better at math, but you'll probably get better at programming.

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>>7558732
:P

I also program and build my own VSTs in C+. I've started getting into modular programming in Max/MSP too. Used to play around in Collider too.

Njo actually uses a lot of samples I took in Thailand while touring there.

Also check out this pic related Blackhole I made.

>>7558739
no it was alcoholism and heroin.

>try to take a smiling picture
>see how shit my smile is without beard
Haha this is why people always used to say I had an ugly smile before I grew a beard

>>7558734
It doesn't look fine in a mirror either.
That said the camera does make it slightly worse.

do men have feelings?

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>>7558740
okay, that's good to hear
thanks uwu

>>7558741
that's pretty neat because i'll have a few programming courses next year

>>7558749
relax ull get it fixed dont worry

>>7558721
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VacQErWAuMU

>>7558754
years from now
I don't think I can wait for that.

>>7558749
I don't understand
Did you plan to transition with a beard?

Because if you did, someone already beat you to it.

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>>7558756
hrt will change your face

ive seen way worse chins on cissies

>>7558758
No I planned to realise I am male and stop transitioning.

>>7558762
>tfw gonna look like that

>>7558740
but i don't have anyone else to talk to

>>7558764
m80 that's a cis girl
pretty=/=passing

>>7558765
hugg

>>7558765
Idk not necessarily talking
Something to keep occupied and productive

>>7558749
>tfw people have told me I have a nice smile, but my smile can also really emphasize my chin sometimes
ffs can't come soon enough.

>>7558709
>>7558700
That really hurt
That's what I would have said if I was a nationalist zero but since I'm not :p

>>7558719
You can still like your dick and transition. Being a non op trans woman is not that extraordinary.

>>7558721
You're like extra cool! <3 <3 I'm going to follow your YouTube account.

>>7558701
>I care about my culture...
You hace a valid point though. I also like the food from my various regions.

>>7558738
>>7558731
Damn i wish i could sing.

>>7558755
Demoscene stuffs r kool.
https://youtu.be/4DjBq2O0XXk

>>7558764
Oh.
Has it happened yet?

>>7558768
like what

>>7558767
Sure but if you're a tranny every male attribute will contribute to you passing
Also I'd clock her irl desu

>>7558770
You could also just say that your argument was wrong, sassie. That'd look better.

>>7558772
Yes totally
I am a man

>>7558774
Idk
Learn a skill

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>>7558730
>mfw historical defense of capitalism

>>7558775
>Also I'd clock her irl desu

exactly my point.
your standards are skewed.

>>7558765
be open with us. we're listening

>>7558779
>wanting to look like a manly girl
No.

>>7558775
also i posted that picture on passgen a few months back and like 70% of people said she didn't pass

just

>>7558777
i can't find the motivation to do anything

im pathetic

>>7558783
But she doesn't lmao
The thing is that cis girls have nothing to pass as since they actually ARE girls

>>7558786
i dont think you understand what passing means and what the point of this concept is

>>7558781
but everyone is complaining about people sadposting

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>>7558762
"some women are this tall too"

"some women have wide shoulders too!"

"some women have big ribcages too!"

"not every woman has prominent hips!'"

"some women have deep voices too!"

"some women have 5 o'clock shadow too!"

>>7558786
>But she doesn't lmao
She's literally cis. If you look at cis girls and "clock" them you're being delusional.

>>7558788
Passing means being a man and looking convincingly like a cis woman.
If she was a man she would not convince me that she is a cis woman
However, she is not a man so she cannot pass by definition. There is nothing to pass as since she is.

>>7558764
how long have you been on mones?

>>7558791
Some women have bepises

I'm worried

>>7558627
You too and a happy new 2016!

>guy from my team messages me
>"hey will you be at the drink tomorrow night?"
>"if you're not I'll be there with just women..."
Hmm that one actually kinda hurt

>>7558794
2 weeks lol

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>>7558796

>>7558750
Men have 4 feelings:

I want to fuck
I want to eat
I want to sleep
I want to rage

>>7558775
But my argument wasn't wrong. I mean there's people alive today who didn't even know that the Netherlands was a real country. It's been like wanting to be a Plutonian planetist

>>7558786
Protip: erini posted a cis girl

>>7558793
but you clocked her
you understand what the point is of passing right
no one irl would actually believe this woman isn't cis, because she's cis.
"Passing" doesn't apply to her. Therefore, if you look like her, you will pass too.

Fact: if you aren't less than 5 feet tall, have an hourglass figure figure or look like a Kardashian you are a honn

>>7558784
Start small

>>7558800
Well he's in for a surprise.

>>7558788
Protip: Quit arguing with autistic people. They only see and hear what they want.

>>7558770
people should just be rational about their culture. there are always good and bad parts but you need to remember both to not make the same mistakes people did in the past.

>>7558796
Some women like their bepises :3

>>7558793
>refers to passing trannies as men

>>7558800
>gets upset when someone refers to her as not a woman

You're a strange person.

>>7558810
If your hips are less than 40" in diameter you're a hon!!!

>>7558778
>being adept of totalitarian ideology that killed millions of people
>while living a comfy life and enjoying all the benefits provided by capitalism

I wish all your hypocritical lieftist professors could get a trip to Stalin's Soviet Russia

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>>7558810
You forgot the obscene amount of money spent on plastic surgery.

>>7558812
Anna legitimately is on the spectrum though
i want to try explain things to her rationally

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How are my boobs looking at 5.5 months?
unsee.cc
razenigu

>>7558791
what she said: >>7558796

Also I actually know a cis girl who constantly complains about her rib cage and says it makes her look fat.

>"some women have 5 o'clock shadow too!"

also thats true AF too. If you don't believe it, it just shows you have zero female friends. My cousin is a cosmetologist and she constantly waxes lips and chins of cis females.

>>7558814
im gonna punch you so hard because i lie awake thinking how bad it is that i'll never look like you.

>>7558804
So because people are stupid I cannot be proud of the accomplishments of my country? That doesn't make any sense

>>7558805
Passing doesn't apply to her, exactly. It does, however, apply to me. If I look like her exactly, I may not get clocked, but the chin together with other male attributes makes me look like a man.
That is a man's chin on a woman's face and I would recognise it as such irl

>>7558817
I want to be a woman so not being one makes me sad.
I just realise I am not. I am a man and I will always be. So are all XY trannies.

>>7558821
You're legitimately wasting your time arguing with nothing more intelligent than than a brick wall.

>>7558822
Give it 5.5 months more.

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>>7558823
beepbeep, but you are literally one of the cutest girls here desu.

>>7558802
I don't think she has a bepis

>>7558810
>Fact: if you aren't less than 5 feet tall, have an hourglass figure figure or look like a Kardashian you are a honn
Awh heck

>>7558815
Some women like others

>>7558822
Kind of how mine looked at that amount of time

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>tfw no headpats

>>7558821
Woah woah easy there
I am not diagnosed and a requirement for autism is that there were clear indications as a kid. The fact that I was not tested as a kid basically proves I am not a real autist.
Just close to it.

>>7558825
>implying I am not very intelligent
Wew
I'm no genius but I'm definitely smart.

>>7558820
Everyone who spends less than 150k is a hon :^^^)

>>7558831
Sorry iktf tho

>>7558818
Oh phew that was close

What are some things I should know about epilators?

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>>7558804
You forgot about that small group that has the fifth feeling:
I want to be the little girl.

>>7558831
You never know with those dirty hippies.

>>7558819
>Rants about totalitarian ideology
>Happy that Putin's totalitarian Russia installed a president in their country

LMAO

>>7558824
yes but you understand that these are your internalized ideas about how women look that are affected by the extreme amounts of attention we pay here to the details of the human anatomy and not actually what society sees right?

>>7558825
idk im kinda curious, like what will she possibly say that goes against what im saying

>>7558833
>smart
also, you're just too scared to go get an official diagnosis

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>24
>realise im trans

I had a doll when i was a kid. why did my parents ignore the signs

>>7558837
they are extremely loud and extremely painful

>>7558818
thanks for reminder to do my ass workout and eat more cake!

>>7558840
Fact remains that her chin is much bigger than average for a female, and while she can compensate for it by actually being female I cannot, and thus it will be a pointer to the fact that I am a man. For her it cannot be a pointer, since there is nothing to point to.

>also, you're just too scared to go get an official diagnosis
True but I can still say I am a healthy young man now :)

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>>7558835
I thought hons were more likely to spend a ton of money on surgeries, not less.

>>7558810
id just end up stareing at the ceiling or going to sleep either way

i slept through my therapy appointment a few days ago

im starting to feel worse

>>7558841
I started my transition at 24. Things are working out pretty excellent. Unless you are a masculine dude bro, you can probably pull it off. Don't believe the memes.

>>7558848
we weren't talking about your other features though?
you don't have any significant masculine features other than your nose, although idk what your other proportions are

thats what im saying, just wait a bit on hrt and you'll see!

>>7558849
Shhhhhh I'm meming

>>7558851
Maybe you should rebook

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>>7558835
>Everyone who spends less than 150k is a hon :^^^)
How can you look like a blow-up sex doll otherwise?

>>7558841
I was the same age anon. Didn't start hrt til just before 26
It'll be ok. It's tough thinking back to all the obliviousness

>>7558838
Tricksy hippieses

>>7558835
I'm ok being an agp hon though
Turns out it affects my life surprisingly little outside of /mtfg/

in communism we'd all be qt cis girls

>>7558860
I thought we were talking about my chance of passing and it is clear that my chin greatly diminishes this chance.

>>7558862
Literally disgusting. She ACTUALLY looks like a plastic doll. WTF

>>7558839
Russia hacked a private organization, not our elections.

>>7558848
I don't think it's like that.
I think if you play to your strengths then you can compensate for your weaknesses.
Looks isn't all of it, there's movement and voice to.
If you can master those then you'll have a much better time passing.

And if you can't master any.. sorry :/

>>7558862
god i wish that were me

>>7558864
Revolution when?

>>7558865
i mean yeah it doesn't help you but it doesn't make it impossible like you seem to think

>>7558871
now, comrade

>>7558831
>Some women like others
Other's bepis? That's like a Basic (fact)
:3

>>7558835
>Tfw Caitlin Jenner is no longer a hon.
:3

>>7558838
Those aren't men tho.

>>7558852
>Tfw masculine olive skinned mediterranean sex god.
;~;

>>7558874
In that case, how much longer before I become a qt cis girl?

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>>7558852
>>7558863
I'm 5ft 11 and my shoulders are over 20 inches wide. I've also been told I'm "masculine" by people. I'm too far gone.

Thanks for the support though

Are there any drugs that help with repression?

>>7558879
you get slightly more cis every time you shoot a cop

>>7558861
maybe

id probably miss it again though

i didn't do anything the therapist told me to do last time either

>>7558839
>changing topic
there might still be some hope for you

>more failed clintons propaganda memes
please dont go this low

>>7558882
Fairly certain Black Pigeon Speaks mentioned a drug that's said to help in his video on trannies, but do keep in mind that it's Black Pigeon Speaks.

>>7558882
5'11 is fucking nothing

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>>7558866
I think you're just jealous she has boobs bigger than your head.

>>7558870
No you don't.

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>>7558878
>>Tfw masculine olive skinned mediterranean sex god.

Lmao. I was always tiny and feminine. But fucking being white cause the Germanic chin and jaw totally fuck me.

This is my timeline so far. I'm very confident I will be able to stealth pass eventually though! Hopefully in 6-7 months before I start my PhD, I'll blend in a lot more.

Honestly I don't get misgendered when I am in public but I personally believe its harder to pass in photos than in person. I've got a pretty solid female voice. I actually give trans vocal lessons.

>>7558889
blue board

>>7558843
Do they get better results than shaving?