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I've seen WITTR in concert during the Black Cascade era. They were good! It was at a small venue. I have a crazy story about it. I was right up front and suddenly everything went pitch black mid set. I thought it was a part of the bm gimmick but still really confused. After 5 minutes of WITTR playing live in pitch black and leaning on my friend, I could see again. I asked her if everything went black and she said no. The band manager was on stage watching them playing and was looking at me like WTF when I could see again. I was either possessed or had a stroke. Edgy I know.
I don't know the latter two bands. Thanks, I'll check them out.
Not black metal, but let me know if you like this:
Send me a song too. Always open to suggestions.
nerd, even the great prophet muhummad loves precum soaked penis
I am a transbian shiprewcked in a sea of memes.
>tfw just spent two hours trying to figure out my 2015 tax liability
>can u imagine nothing trying to do something
If you're your own girlfriend does that mean you fuck yourself?
>I've seen WITTR in concert during the Black Cascade era
I cannot begin to tell you how jelly I am. I live in the UK so barely any bm bands come here which sucks, I don't think any of my favourite bands will come here, though Der Weg Einer Freiheit gig in a couple of months! Weird story though, I'd go with possessed by black metal cos that makes for a cooler story.
Krallice (my most favourite song ever)
That song is pretty cool, kinda remind me of this band though i dont know that much sludge really.
We actually don't know that. It's completely possible that there isn't a "before the universe", the big bang might be a singularity for which there isn't a 'before' because spacetime becomes asymptotically light-like.
>San Fran but I know rent is supposed to be very expensive there.
LA is expensive. San Fran is ludicrous. Working class People have to live in 3s just to get by.
There's always the poorer neighborhood just outside the city...
u might be the greatest programmerer but u know nothing about theoretical astromonophysicology
>tfw every area of existence is filled with something from nothing
"Pair production is invoked to predict the existence of hypothetical Hawking radiation. According to quantum mechanics, particle pairs are constantly appearing and disappearing as a quantum foam."
I was right up against stacks of amps so it was really loud. Maybe my body was lashing out at me in the worst way from a sensory overload. Of course, I'm talking out of my ass now.
They both indeed remind me of WITTR. Yellow Eyes more so from the vocals and I like this more than Krallice. Indian reminds me of Khanate in a way, in that slow and dreadful with screechy vocals. I like this the most if I'm being honest.
This is my fav bm song ever probably. It's not kvtl enough for people, being not from an older album of theirs, but I can't lie to myself:
>Look at all the riots
>how people spray paint themselves on the cold weather
This is stupid, but it gets them on the jumbotron
>wear goofy fucking costumes
Some people would say everyone in this thread, or all of /cgl/
>you will never pass
>you will never be able to bf your crush
At least I have amazing taste in music.
>tfw men take off ur clothes, reflexively vomit, and then leave
I actually kind of missed the beginning of the universe thing, you go to the bathroom for five minutes god knows what you miss.
I was there for everything else tho, so I think it counts.
Words can't describe my jealousy
That's how it goes, if you're here you're already dead in the water
Yeah Indian are fucking great, I really don't know many bands like them other than Lord Mantis. Could you recommend a Khanate song.
I'll check that Mayhem song out in a sec, I haven't really listened to that album but I do remember playing the hell out of 'Wall of Water' I think it was called, that's a really good song imo
you listen to some pretty cool stuff. i'd post mine but i'd feel embarrassed because i randomly lurked in here and saw someone with good taste in music.
have you heard the new Panopticon record? Or the new Mgla? Both are really fucking good. From All Purity is one of my most spun records of the last few months.
i use to live in NYC so I saw Krallice a few times. i saw them when they played Ygg Huur for the first time, it was fucking amazing.
JUST CAUSE YOU GOT TRIPS DOESNT GIVE YOU AND EXCUSE TO KILL YOURSELF HERE HAILEY
also u look great dumbass... shit
I never said trips! I'm really good at this pretending to be high thing
This is a good place to start for Khanate:
I want to recommend their Capture & Release album, but it's 2 really long tracks.
Mayhem is still great. As well as Emperor.
In terms of sticking things places, tender.
In terms of being tied up, smacked around and generally degraded, rough.
who wants to be my side gf? accepting bf applications too, lurkers.
I don't have Skype or anything like that. I'm just not into it. I don't usually use this word but I HATE Phoenix. Even the thought of it gag.
I don't plan on staying in LA long. Gonna make some good money until March then I don't know what I'll do.
By the by, what's in Portland?
I've actually heard neither of those records, I'm going to check out Mgla as soon as I get in bed cos I keep hearing good things about them and am curious. Too busy with the new False and Yellow Eyes records desu. From All Purity is crazy, I've not heard something as horrible (in a good way) since I discovered Celeste and Hexis. Feels like I'm being violated with every listen.
>i use to live in NYC so I saw Krallice a few times. i saw them when they played Ygg Huur for the first time, it was fucking amazing
Aw man are you kidding, I'm so jealous! They like never leave NYC, they did play the Netherlands a few months back though but at a festival and it was too expensive. Dysrhythmia and Gorguts are playing near me soon though so at least I'll get to fawn over Colin Marston twice in one night.
>I want to recommend their Capture & Release album, but it's 2 really long tracks
That's good enough for me I'll download that now. I really like super long songs if they're worth it, it's like an experience.
I don't use last.fm but uhm.
I secretly have shit taste
gem, mado, and i are in portland
thats why she wants to move here
Would you ladies recommend it to someone staring their transition?
There was someone that shitposted on susans with the name attillathehon a while back
i have that new False record lined up to listen to soon. i listen to too much stuff anyway. and i just started using last.fm last year so there is a bunch of stuff i don't have scrobbled.
all of Panopticon is legit. Mgla is as well but they can be kind of slow. i still need to check out yellow eyes. have you heard Wiegedood?
Dysrhythmia is always really good live, i saw them a bunch. i haven't seen Gorguts since their officially released their album but i know they put on a hell of a show. i was thinking of going to the london show when that tour comes around, but i dunno. maybe not enough time with school and all.
matryoshka is good stuff. i wish they had more material out.
Bored. Very sick. In bed. Listening to music.
Thinking about certain things more than others.
Right now it's largely about presentation. I want to exude confidence and have a PhD someday. I want a partner who makes me feel good. The trouble with wanting someone as bad as I do is the fact that less energy goes towards my career. Self-care isn't much of an issue. I'm in great shape other than this fever. I just need better clothes and a hairstyle. My voice could be more feminine. I don't want to change that part of me, but it could make a difference. I think women like my voice the way it is. Men though? I doubt they like it nearly as much. Should I do things to make others comfortable? The answer is a half yes and I'll just do my best.
>tfw the author couldn't even pass up drawing herself more attractive in a comment about how someone else is attractive
Yellow Eyes are amazing, i don't think you'll regret listening to them. Probably my biggest insoiration musically. I have never heard Wiegedood, I'll check them out too.
Ever heard of Deluge, they just released an album and i love it, not that melodic or progressive but I love it anyway.
Ywah I've heard Gorguts are legit live, I'm not a huge fan but their last album was awesome. I might go to the London show too, the Manchester one would be closer but i won't be able to get back home from either until the next day so i might as well have a day out in london too. You going to see Der Weg Einer Freiheir and Harakiri for the Sky in London too soon?
melly cmon lets "hang" while ur in portland
u in portland anon?
How come you don't exercise, /mtfg/? Don't you know it'll make the sads go away?
>tfw cis guys have better features than you
jobs are ez to get, p high minimum wage 9.25
i live with gem, mado comes here all the time and a few other friends of mine
idk anyone else, always down to hang tho desu lads
im from detroit so idk what "bad crime" is, this is like a paradise i guess
what people? idk what those
tons of lgbt people, idk if theres a like centre or w/e
theres basically no poor white trash areas here, i mean we make minimum wage and live in a "rich area", everything is pretty nice even in the places where minimum wage people live
not that much MDMA here, but pure acid seems quite common, but obviously since it's Oregon the drug of choice is weed hands down. i'd say acid is a 2nd
Portland is crowded and overrated. Move to Dallas.
I've never heard of Der Weg Einer Freiheir or Harakiri for the Sky but I'll check them out since you seem to be pretty spot on with this stuff. I'd be down to go to any kind of extreme music show at this point. Where I am is just a cesspool of mediocrity.
I'm kind of new to black metal in the grand scheme of things, I've listened to a lot more grindcore and death metal and progressed into black metal because they bring the blasts and crazy good tremolo riffs.
That Deluge song is pretty good. Will check them out.
Do you use last.fm's PM system? It's always nice finding people with good taste in music.
yume stahp I don't want everyone to know what a psycho I am
>tfw feeling disgustingly manly and want to die.
I can't tell if I'm just seeing things negatively or I really look that bad, but I can't stop focusing on my masculine features and it's really killing me rn.
What do I do?
It does help quite a bit. I went from playing different sports to just running 5Ks. It's hard to tell how much I need to eat though when I do it regularly.
I like playing basketball but it makes me feel all butch-like and gay. And if I play with only guys it feels even more-so.
kuppy the more you think about it the worse it's going to get
do something to distract yourself
"Yeah baby you want HRT? Yeah keep sucking ahhh yeah baby yes don't worry, ah less teeth, yeah girl you're gonna get the HRT and SRS that you always wanted baby, trust me, aw yeah keep sucking... ahh yeah.. yes im sure you're going to get HRT baby looks there's some right over there"
then we kick them out and they become one of the people who live in Tent City™
idk i havent figured it out yet
i just moved here a month ago
>Where I am is just a cesspool of mediocrity.
Same really, I love gigs but barely anyone comes around me, I always have to travel to London or Manchester to see anyone unless I get lucky and they play local.
I haven't used last.fm for ages but you can inbox me if you want
I guess it makes sense that there's a tent city, there have always been huge homeless populations in the places I've lived, but they've usually been in cities where the winter isn't very harsh. How do they not freeze to death up in Portland?
>"Yeah baby you want HRT? Yeah keep sucking ahhh yeah baby yes don't worry, ah less teeth, yeah girl you're gonna get the HRT and SRS that you always wanted baby, trust me, aw yeah keep sucking... ahh yeah.. yes im sure you're going to get HRT baby looks there's some right over there"
>tfw no domme to make you suck penis for tittie skittles
T-thanks for the ladyboner though
Blackmail might work, hook up with a chaser for a one night stand and then threaten to out them as a tranny chaser if they leave you.
have you ever seen the capital of modern day mongolia?
you know how its like a big city and then it goes from big city life to just a bunch of yurts everywhere?
thats kinda what portland is like, they amass in areas and keep warm by staying close to eachother
we have if im not mistaken the largest homeless population in a big city in the states, but they aren't fucking psychopaths like they were in Detroit, just kinda all chill and high/tweaked up 24/7
most wont bother you unless its clear you aint from round ere, then they might ask for a buck but even then its not bad
i have to give gem cummies everyday before shes allowed to take her HRT desu
There is such thing as consensual sex watashi. Not like you'd know
cool, I'll shoot you a message. if you have a better way of communicating then just tell me. we'll trade music links.
going to london is alright, but UK transportation prices are seriously fucked up. why are trains so pricey and buses so fucking slow?
Decent. Job is still poop and I want out but being paid is nice too. I'm breaking my 6 month mark in two weeks which will give me an opening to transfer but state health work just seems terrible everywhere I go ;__;
How's the gf?
Can't help but wonder if hip, hetero-seeming men enjoy being negged by a transgirl. I negged a bartender a few nights ago and he laughed. Maybe I should go back when he's in and see if he wants anything to do with me?
do you know from experience? [spoiler]slut[/spoiler]
>UK transportation prices are seriously fucked up
Yeah it's fucking awful, apparently we spend 6 times more on trains than the rest of Europe. Thanks government for privatising the railways and letting them fuck us with crazy prices.
Idk, I thought negging is when you insult someone for having a certain trait? This guy had a bun with longish hair. He was muscular though and had plenty of tatts. I wonder what he thinks...
>making minimum wage
>tfw I can go into any city and make living wages alone and then some
Does being transgender affect your job opportunities? I have a feeling it does.
Says who? I think it threw him for a loop. I guess the takeaway is that I hope he was attracted to me. I feel like being negged by someone you don't find appealing would be kind of shitty, LOL.
I don't think I would neg a girl unless it was really, really, really obvious that they wanted me. I don't want to seem like a BITCH.
We'll be including a modest mandatory 35% gratuity for attempting a walk out... Oh. It looks like your card's been rejected. Did you have another one on you or do we have to call the police on you? I'm afraid we'll have to tell the full story, including you retucking your junk infront of everyone in the ladies' washroom.
It was a joke! Cause, you know, nipples are pointy and the rest of the boob isn't, get it?
Ooh, I heard you were hanging out with our friend just a bit ago. I think you watched hockey together? Was it fun?
I want to get pregnant. We think my sister is preggers right now so I need to step up my bf finding game to hurry and get a family started.
that's because im pure now. purer than you anyways
>Oh. It looks like your card's been rejected
good meme but I dont even know how to continue this conversation anymore because that has literally *never* happened because, as stated, I'm not a poorfag.
I'd certainly never hire a tranny.
Knowing you 'people', you"d probably blow your brains out at work.
That being said, I'd never actually tell you that, I just wouldn't call you back for a follow up.
that jiff is of a girl hopelessly inlove w/ someone who only has eyes for another girl that stole him away ... and the agony gets so much that she loses it and turns into a demon and basically has a breakdown .... right???? >.>;;;
Nah, I'm too poor to get a hockey ticket but we hanged out a bit the night before the game and the morning after. I tried to liberate her from her fear of guns by taking her to a proper gun range and she shot better than me ;__;
Hey I've been staying out of trouble for some time now. My lewdness levels are negligible at this point. I can't even remember my last lewd post or meetup.
Started right after my 20th birthday and 6mg estrogen and 100mg cypro.
Not everyone gets boy mode fail and you shouldn't wait for it to happen, i've never been gendered female unironically and I don't think it's the lack of feedback, not going outside or people not gendering you in my country.
Just put in effort or you'll end up like me
I thought you two already met each other but a while back?
Work at night (like me). I find it easier to be correctly gendered when it's dark and the customer(s) is drunk. Also: Don't talk unless it's a necessity. The voice gives me away.
>, if you live anywhere close to the valley or even on the other side of the hill maybe we can meet up.
I've only been here a week, so I don't know what that means. I'm staying in Commerce City if that helps. By the way, I love how people are complaining about the homeless in Portland like they've seen downtown LA. Picture very related.
Blocks and blocks full of them, people.
>sleep for 5 hours
>wake up just to get water
>sudden dysphoria strikes
>2hours later and still thinking of how my face feels like a huge mask
>how im too big to pass
>how gross my gt is and how the only solution will still leave me unhappy
Do and did
Was just thinking of i will progressively take steps toward it again if this keeps going on.
Last time was 3months ago when got to the point of well.. Attempt (no slitting wrists wrong)
Swedish neet bux and supportive family.
Feels bad to be such a gross hon when I have a supportive family that wants me to pass though, the shame.
I believe in your DVA, love will find a way!
I would mail you a copy of Redefining Realness if I knew your address.That book has seriously helped me through my worst times. NEET means u don't work, right? Maybe you should try working min. wage someplace that doesn't drive you nuts. I worked at a movie theater for awhile during the beginning of my transition and now I'm onto much better things.
I met the most famous anon besides myself desu.
I don't watch hockey, I'm more of a basketball girl ;__;
How are the stars doing tho?
>invest in clone technology
>raise cloned you on hrt
>program computer to transplant brain in cloned you
>same DNA so body's antibodies don't attack brain
>get srs when woken up
>enjoy being 18 yo female you for few years before dementia hits
Ah, okay. Must have been someone else I was thinking of.
I predicted a 8-8 record for this season, but I was slightly off. 7-9. We've got a young and developing talent.
We'll make the playoffs next year.
I'm proud of call myself a Raiders fan again after many many years of getting pissed off.
I was training it up until the point where the people around me said it was passable. They were fucking lying to me.
I used to exchange food and drinks for cigarettes with the homeless in LA before I turned 18.
They're alright, once you scratch their backs often enough they wont mug you either.
I've never had a dysphoria attack, I just feel as though I'm hideous 24/7
Yeah, pretty good actually
I'm better now than earlier today but this anxiety is killing me and I gotta go outside and be an awkward hon thing today as well and there's loads of snow now ;_;
>no im not
I think so, deal with it nerdo.
it doesn't matter if i'm such a failure since I have three siblings.
I'm sure they know why i'm like this too.
I'm too broken to even get my mail, no way I could handle a job atm.
Being this manly and gross is just too much.
I was a CS major when I got my BA but finding a job has been difficult.
I'm brushing up on my skills to become better and hopefully finally nail a better job this year.
And yes I'm still with my bf. We're going to be looking for a house to own this year hopefully.
I don't watch football anemone except for the superbowl desu. Got tired of all the rape, murder, sexual assault, child abuse, and concussions. Basketball is my sportsfu now.
I pass until I open my big stupid hon gob.
I hate this every fucking time I feel like I may be able to be happy with myself I just get reminded that it doesn't fucking matter how hard I try there will be something that will reduce me to tears over nothing. I hate this fucking ride, I want off.
Yeah, a dream job is hard to get. For the most part we have to work out way up. A friend of mine got had a hard time for a while, but he kept pushing it with a good attitude. I said good bye to him a few months ago when he departed to the silicon valley. He's making crazy money right now doing something stupid, like gun skins for a video game. He lives in a luxury apartment with his first job out of college.
How long have you been with him? A house sounds like a marriage soon?
If I wasn't so uncomfortable and manly probably yes, i'm not even that socially retarded just a bit awkward at times and just try to avoid situations where i'm forced to be a manly man because of how I look.
Too bad i'll probably never be able to fix this and will end up killing myself.
>How long have you been on HRT
Three years, I need surgery to pass apparently.
>I pass until I open my big stupid hon gob.
Iktf, and being insecure about ur voice sucks. I get sooooo nervous, words can't even express how I feel when I'm presenting female and there is this anxiety, like I'm inside a precarious disguise that could come apart at any second. But I'm not hugboxing you, I've heard your voice and you sound like a girl.
>I hate this every fucking time I feel like I may be able to be happy with myself I just get reminded that it doesn't fucking matter how hard I try there will be something that will reduce me to tears over nothing. I hate this fucking ride, I want off.
Youve been at this a lot longer than me and I hate that it can still feel this way after so long. I'm sorry
Well my dream job was to be a train engineer but I never got around to becoming one.
I've been with my bf for a little over 2 years.
I don't think he'll propose yet as there are more important matters at hand.
I remember watching his first game. He off the bench and started playing like a pro. He gets a lot of hate which I still don't fully understand. Is it because he dated Jessica Simpson or something? Why do people care? lol
Aww glad its better
Bet you are super cute pls
Why and where are you going?
>tfw its -20 and snowy here rn
>no jacket so go out w 2 xxl hoodies top of normal clothes
>first time hearing CWC's voice outside the sonic incident
jesus christ how horrifying
OH FUCK IT'S CHRIS CHAN
I've been waiting on a new video from this guy (Let's face it, AGP in the flesh) for years.
Do you girls by chance want to take the piss out of Chris chan? We should RSVP, get creative
I'm going to. I'm just so angry at myself for letting the hugboxers in my life delude me into thinking I could stop. This was years ago.
Please, not now kira, I'm not in the mood.
Thanks angie ;_;
How do you cope jormy?
And I seriously need one.
>I've heard your voice and you sound like a girl.
You've heard my voice at its best, my voice is very very inconsistent. It's the worst though, I've had to do public speaking this past term and it's exactly like that. I know people in my classes see a girl, but when I open my mouth..
I hate that it feels like it never ends too. Fuck being trans
Omg i volunteer for a night of sexytiiiimeeee, thenk u very much
I'm not actively a cowboys fan anymore but I still keep up with it here and there.
It's good that we're drafting a new quarterback. Honestly, we should have had a good one cooking on the back burners for a while like Rogers was to Farve for so long.
Why don't you have a jacket?
>and lainanon the qtst
>tfw getting hugboxed by people who know how gross and manly my face is
Yeah, there should be a few decent QBs floating around and having them all compete and work together with a highly ranked rookie should work out well. Now I feel better knowing you're a Dallas fan trying to laugh at Oakland. :^)
I dunno, my sister met her husband when she was 28 at a bar but she lives in a city where millennials wait until 30 before they start settling down. Its also cheating for her because she's cis and gorgeous ;__;
>tfw no winning row team boys to strike up "conversation" with in the back of a pub
Depends if where your starting from. If you can survive for 6 months without a job then you could go in town and find a job. If you're starting from nothing then Beaverton or Vancouver should be the only options you're considering.
Hey, I'm in manmode. That's permanent for me though desu.
God okay, I guess I have to
Look, I'm going to be real with you, that hurt, that one physically made me feel pain.
It's not even as cringeworthy as the old stuff, just personally painful. Although it's still nice to see he can't edit for shit