Heartbroken

>>6577477
do you have one with victory?

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Probably not the saddest story you've ever heard, but I'm still gonna share.

I'm a femanon, and for a few months now I had a crush on this girl. At first we didn't talk a lot and I even think she thought I didn't like her because I was staring so much (hoe no im just gay), but then we eventually started talking. I seriously thought she might be at least bi or something and that I would at least have a chance. A few days ago I heard she has a boyfriend and I'm almost sure that it's true and I kind of lost hope (this was the irst girl I thought I could really date)

Like I said, nothing serious or depressing, I just hate getting my hopes up for nothing.

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>>6577696

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I had a crush on this girl for two years. I never told her because I knew she wouldn't feel the same back.
We eventually started talking often and I thought she might like me back, this was my first mistake.
My friend new I liked her, he had just broken up with his girlfriend. He decides to flirt with my crush and say stuff about me to her.
One night I complain to her about the "friend". She gets mad and tells him.
I ask her why she did that
She tells me she's never going to date me
>but I love you
No anon you didn't
>please call me
No I can't I'm busy
>please respond I'm begging you
...
At least me and the "friend" are cool now
She sometimes smiles at me when I walk past
I don't know if that makes it better or worse
I miss her.

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I loved this chick once. She had some feelings for me too. We used to spend hours on the phone and online chatting. And one day she just stopped. I couldn't get in touch with her or anyone else who knew her. But I never lost that feeling for her.
4 years I waited, hoping she'd call or text back. I lurked all the places she used to frequent online. And finally one day she texts me, tells me she had lied about everything , her personal information, even her name. She said she stopped because she was falling in love with me for real and she didn't have the courage to own up.

This was 3 years ago and here I am, still single because I can't seem to trust anyone completely. There's always that fear of being told it was all lie and a game for them.

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This year I lost a friend to cancer, In a pretty short span of time he withered away to and looked so emaciated. I remember though when he was not to sick me and my mother (also very close to him) would go out for meals, we would then just spend time all of us watching the world go by. But I Can't stop seeing how he looked when he got bad, seared into my mind. It's driving me mad. I just want him back so bad, so weird as straight guy not many men I have loved so much and wanted to protect but I couldn't do shit in the end.

>Pic sorta related, as dumb as it sounds I like to think he is somewhere in the 2D waiting for me.

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>>6578530
sorry to keep on rambling, the thing that really hit me was after I time I took him to a Kmart. I remember the day vividly, we had just bought some new sandals and a wallet for him. I noticed him look at a group of youths around our age across the street walk by, he just said to me " I wish I could be healthy and live a normal life like everyone else". I tried to console him , but my words meant nothing what can you say in that situation? Its just unfair, why should someone like my abusive father who mentally and physically abused me and my mum for years live such a long life. He tried to strangle my mum for gods sake, why should he live but a good man in his prime dies?

Sorry to rant just had some stuff to get off my chest.

>>6578546
I'm sorry you lost your friend anon.
makes my story sound like split milk

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Thanks for the thread OP.

I have a crush on a mentally ill girl who escapes her suicidal thoughts by taking drugs and having a shit ton of sex. And there's nothing I can do to help her.

>>6578546
Hugs to you, anon. Had the same feels when my mom died. There were so many shitty people that got to live, and she didn't. It took awhile to get over. All I can say is that you are not alone, and many of us have been there. Keep marching on with us, and you'll get to the days when the sun shines and you smile.

>>6578546
Pick up Blind Willow, Sleeping Woman by Haruki Murakami. It's a collection of short stories. I got heavily into Murakami when I had to deal with deaths close to me, and it helped me cope.

>>6578316
1) That friend shouldn't be a friend.
2) I would advise you move on at first then work hard for success. The best revenge

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her , I'm pregnant .
me , oh that's great honey.
her , its 4 months and not yours.
me , why were you fucking me for theses 4 months then cunt die fire your dead to me .

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When I was in grade 12, I had the biggest crush on this girl. She was quiet, she was extremely shy, but a beautiful blonde but short girl. I could never gather the strength to talk to her, I could never do anything, so I turned to my best mate for help, since he already knew her. He started talking to her about me, started helping me out... Found out that she actually had a big crush on me as well, so then me and my mate decided to make plans for me to ask her to my formal. We planned everything, flowers in hand, fuck I even bought a teddy bear for her. My friends were off in the distance, and her's was around somewhere as well... as soon as she saw me with the flowers... she looked at me and said "no" and walked off, before i even had a chance to speak. I was left there, holding all this shit, by myself with this girl just walking off... Never felt so embarrassed in all my life. My friends really helped me out a lot of though, they came sprinting over to me grabbed the flowers and started proposing to each other, and a mate gave me $20 and said "A woman can leave him heartless, but I wont leave him without a bit of money in his wallet" .

Time went over and we still had feelings for each other, we eventually started talking, as if nothing happened. We actually ended up sitting next to each other at the formal, and we talked and etc... just never worked out i suppose.

I'm extremely happy that it didn't, otherwise I wouldn't be with the woman who helped me go through all of it now.

I guess what you can take from my small and pathetic story is there is always another chapter, don't focus too hard on what has happened, learn to move on and find comfort in the future.

It's funny because when this all happened I started a thread, just like this, here at /wg. It seems so bizarre because I remember someone sharing their experience, and telling em the exact same advice.

funny, isn't it.

>>6578917
That's gotta be one of the best wallpapers I have seen in a long time on /wg. Thnx

This isnt really in line with the thread, and I'm not really sure what I'm expecting from posting this but I feel like I need to put it out somewhere so here goes.
Over the course of my life I've always been considered intolerant, emotionless, ruthless, machine-like etc. when it comes to dealing with people I'm not close to and I've never really understood why I am the way I am but I do agree with most of the descriptions.
A year ago I entered a relationship with a girl I've known since I was three, so naturally she started staying over at my adoptive parents house with me and she has very nearly broke up with me several times because of them.
Her whole family and most of her friends have found out about the way my family treat me, and all of them are horrified. What I would call being pushed, they would call belittlement, and what I would call a normal rant from a parent, they would call pointless hostile insults.
So I guess I just came to see if anyone relates to this in any way and how anyone dealt with it. Over the past few months I've started to feel like my house has broken me, but I can assure you I've never once felt abused, but then again I've always considered myself to be "un-abusable".

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>>6579102
You've built up a shield that keeps you from feeling what normal people feel. It's exceedingly painful to let it down. But you are not broken; you're doing what you have to do to survive. The only way I know to solve this is to leave home. You may not be able to right away, but work towards it. The ugly fact is that you cannot make your family understand that they are narrow-minded and abusive. You need to make your own life.

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>>6579268

>be me
>have to leave the country for school reasons for only 10 motnhs
>Relationship with gf for 3 years before leaving
>7 months into my stay outside see a picture on gf's FB wall, with her ex.
>Instantly fucking loose it.
>Call her, and after a while I find out they've been seeing each other at least as of 2 months ago (according to gf as friends)
>Obviously don't take that and start arguing, hard.
>Break up
Cont.?

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>>6579295
this isnt /b.. just post it all like a normal human being

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i cant belive im writing this..

Well so for the past 4 months, I have been infatuated with this girl that is nothing but the perfect woman to me. she's into motorcycles, likes good music, is a beautiful 10/10.

Lucky me I am the closest to her type in the class, so she spent every break during college with me. Just me and her talking about life, hers and mine and how different they are, the bullshit in her daily life, and just asking questions for fun and getting coffee every once in a while on our breaks. For the last 2 months I thought I had her, I guessed she noticed all the signs i've been giving her, hoping that she actually feels the same way back. Up until the beginning of last week she has shown me signs back and me just having someone like that in my life has made me the happiest man in the world. Well since last week she has been slowing down the talking and spending more time on her phone. Mid last week we went out to the parking lot because she wanted to send a snapchat of her friend's car and I instantly knew something was up. Since then the talking has died down a bit, the golden heart we had beside our snapchat names disappeared and she hasn't replied to a single snap i've sent in the past 2 days.

Earlier today she posted a snap on her story of some guy and her eating dinner at a table in a restaurant. Captioned like "with thiiis goof" and a heart emoji. Fuck my life.

Honestly, right now, i've lost all feeling. I want time to pass by so I can try to meet someone new that can compare to her. I don't know what to do and I don't have anyone to go to to talk about any of this because i've dedicated all my time into the beautiful woman i've felt love for and not enough into my friends that I desperately need right now. So what's the point.

Life is pointless, it's time for me to learn that. I mean nothing to nobody anymore.

Sorry for spamming, try to have a good life everyone, I know i wont.

>>6577596
how old are you? are you looking for something long term or just someone to get to know and see what happens? i hope you find them either way, and until then do as much growing aa you can into your own person. it will make you that much more attractive as a human to someone you like :)

>>6578368
again, how old are you anon? that is really ashit thing for someone to do. did she explain much more after all that time?
i know a lot of shit people who would fuck me over in a heartbeat, but that kind of fuckery sounds like something even she wasnt aware she was doing until it was too late. probably someone young and immature. this might be hard to take in but most people wont be *that* deceitful deliberately in life. try not to hold on to those associated felings for too long friend.

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>>6578939
Thanks anon, I haven't really talked about it to anyone. Sorry to hear about your mum, are you coping ok?
>>6578950
I will make sure to look into it, would be nice to have something to fill the time. Thanks for the recommendation.
>>6578568
Pain is pain don't let my experiences or anyone else's invalidate yours

>sorry for 2D papes its all I really have

Thanks for the thread anon. I really needed this

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>>6579492
Thank you for your words Anon :-) and honestly I don't actually feel any sort of animosity towards her. I didn't have the courage to call her or speak to her after that. I guess I couldn't handle the truth, kek
I'm 27 now, I've dated other girls but never lasted more than a few months. Its a vicious cycle of that fear of being left behind turning into a paranoia and causes discord and then tears it apart.
I'm staying away from relationships now, finding other things to focus on and keep myself occupied the whole day.

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Lets see, (sorry for my english)
i dont replay a lot but i thing i should post my story here,
I have met this girl since she had 15 and i 17, but at that time i had a girlfriend, we bouth enjoy talking about anything, my girlfriend on that time got mad cuz of that and we had a big fight... cuz of my girl i had to stop talking with this girl...
After that i wasted 3 years of my life with that girl, and we broke up (i really dont know why, just everything changed)
>after a year (now i have 19)
i reencountered her this girl 1 month before my birthday, (now she has 17 years old) I invited her to my party, she comes and everything goes perfect, but surprise surprise, she has a boyfriend, so i dont try anything but we talked every single day (all day all night) she didnt told me but she broke up with her boyfriend, we went out a lot of times as friends, and one day i invited her to my halloween party, she comes and everythings goes perfect, actually we almost kissed but I stoped because i thought she still have a boyfriend, one day after that she, from nowhere, invited me to this weeding and it was that day, i went to the weeding not expecting a lot but kind of happy, we dance and one thing goes to another and we kissed, she tells me that she hated me but continue with the kiss.
I was like "wtf did I did?" i still dont know she doesnt have boyfriend anymore, we went out for a week without talking about that day, then one day she tells me "there is a lot i want to tell you but its not the time yet"
a week after that she tells me that i dont have to worry about her boyfriend, that they already have broke up, then her bff tells me that she broke up with him because of me 3 months ago, i didnt expected that.
>we started dating for a month
>we got boyfriends in christmas
>after that everything changed...
>she doesnt give a fuck about anything
>her crush from time ago invited her to some shit... she tells me about that

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>>6579670
>then i got mad because she started going out with one guy she talked about she liked

she start been such a dick, i was trying to understand her but i couldnt take it anymore,

>she tells me to break up, i didnt expected that, but at the end it was te right thing
>she tells me sorry about everything she doesnt know why she is such a dick
>i tell her that there is nothing to worry about, that we could be friends (worst thing ever)
>every shit i said she insulted me, she treat me as a shitty guy, we went out to another city just for fun (because we already had the flight) that was the worst trip ever, i was in nowhere with her family i didnt had anybuddy to speak with, if i tried to speak with her she just try to act like "I dont give a fuck"

>cause of that trip i feel as shit for like 2 weeks,
>I thought she was the one but I regret about thinking that

>the picture is related, her name is Aurora.

i just wanted to take out this things of my mind, at the end everything change now im leaving and going to london

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(on phone so I only have phone papes)

I met this girl Feb 2015. She's awesome, and we talk for hours a few days a week. I eventually find out that she's engaged (she hides it from me). The closer to the wedding the more distant she gets. One day we meet in a hotel room to spend time with each other (we already agreed no sex, just hanging out, I'm not a complete asshole lol). In the hotel room she confesses that "in a different world, it would be you". I tell her I think that she's marrying him because of pressure from her family/life (hard to explain, she has to basically to keep up bs appearences). You can see it in her face I'm right as she says "I have to marry him, I promised, I'm sorry". We stop talking for awhile. A month or 2 after the wedding we reconnect... At this point both of us have tried to pull away, but something always happens that brings us back. We're in love, shes just not married to the one she's truly in love with. *shrug*

>>6579692
Oh... (same anon)... 2 years ago we found my brother dead on his apartment with a fucking can of duster still clinched in his hands, and the straw in his mouth. I made the choice to see him, God I wish I never did. I still remember how his limbs were stuck where he had fallen face first into the couch. His face was all smashed, his legs were black from the blood settling... It took us 2 days to find him. When I get drunk I scream and cry about him. He was like a father to me... I met the girl in the earlier post when I was in college. I would drive to school crying, and sit in the back of class crying over him... I legitimately hate people, but I hope the worst people on the planet don't have to go through that shit. God.

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>>6579492
>>6577596
Thanks for rooting for me, and thank you for the advice :)
I can't really tell you how old I am because mods, and honestly I'm not really sure what I want from life yet. I'm a kissless virgin (not counting those second grade husbands/wives) and I guess I just want to break the 'tfw no gf' cycle? I'd like to see her as a potential life partner, but it may just be the beta virgin in me talking.

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I never really understood the phrase "you never get over your first love." I'd had a couple of girlfriends before my most recent ex and I always thought about it and it never really made sense to me.

It only clicked after my ex ended our four year relationship. It was her who had been my first true love. Not, as I was mistaking the phrase, first girlfriend.

It took two years to get past her and even now I get this weird pangs of regret and fear. I hate that even now she still has this vice like affect.

The phrase truly does mean something to me nowadays.

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I have no ideea what's gotten into me lately.

In October 2014 I met this girl, and long story short I fell in love with her and she fell in love with me, I think. But even after we broke up, I don't think there is a day in which I don't find something that reminds me of her. I can't get her out of my mind, especially now that I she has a bf and I'm doing my best to try and focus to forget her by doing tasks. These tasks take up most of my time and I can't even have time to message my friends. I mean, I don't really have friends, but tasks I give myself take me further from them every day. I'll end up alone with no one to remember..

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Not really an gf story but w/e

My grandfather was always my hero, i grew up accompaning him everywhere, and to me he was everything i wanted to become. He worked his way up in life from a construction worker to an accountant without even completing school, going from extreme poverty to putting his 5 kids through college and building a small fortune in real state by renting houses. He still works at the age of 84, walking up to 10km a day and supervising reforms in his houses. Well, he loves fishing, and i accompany him some times. I'm his oldest grandson, and he always took such pride in me, always took me everywhere to show me his work, help him out, he always told everyone that i was the intelligent one, how i was never reproved or how easily i got in university.

Well, last weekend he called me to go fishing with him, and i refused in order to study for an upcoming test. Saturday my mom called me, saying he had fallen from the river bank and hit his head. He was in a faraway town, and in my country healthcare was never good, so it took an entire day to bring him to the big city. I went to visit him and it killed me, he had 2 40cm cuts in his head, and was completely incapacitaded, the doctor thinks he may have broken his spine and may never walk again. Seeing my grandpa in the hospital bed, that man who was always full of energy killed a part of me. I'm so afraid he may not live to see me through graduation, i just want to make him proud, and i blame myself every single night for not going with him on that trip.

cigarretes and alcohool are what's been keeping myself together these days, i just feel lost really

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For the first time in years I've met someone I seriously want to try for. I didn't notice her for months, but at some point we became closer, and she nudged her way into my thoughts.

The risk is that next year, will be in the same graduate program, which is several years long. So, there's an obvious gamble, but I think I'll take the gamble. She's sweet enough for me to want to go for it, so next chance I get, I will.

These pleasant ducks remind me not to take life too seriously.

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>>6579733
I know the feel man. I have seen my grandpa on his deathbed and it absolutlydestryoed me. He used to be the man who would never say no to anything you'd ask him. I am still glad that I went to see him this one last time. He had become extremly weak in his last 2 weeks. When I stood beside his bed I could see the joy in his eyes and feel the happines radiation off of him. He held out his hand and wanted me to shake it. I refused. I just hugged him and started crying to which he said "It'll be alright one day" He died the day after.

My life had gone from bad to worse after he died (low grades gf of 8 months leaving me) But I remembered his final words to me.

Sorry for becoming so emotional just wanted to say that you aren't the only one going through this pain.

And that one day it'll be alright.

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>>6579371
Oh, jeez. You're like 19 or 20, right?

First, it gets better, wayyy fucking better. You gotta believe that and if you don't, stop reading.

Good, you're still reading. Girls are overwhelmingly shallow in college (around that age), and if she's as hot as you've said, the world's at her feet right now. People treat her special because she's pretty, this is as good as it'll get for her. Everything for this girl is downhill, no matter how much you liked her, bitch has peaked in life and she'll let everything use her up. You're a man, goddamnit, you're gonna age like fucking scotch. Take care of yourself and don't tie your value up in what some girl thinks. I've been down that apocalyptically bad road, and the further you go the worse it gets. Block her snapchat. Girls like her run off attention, don't feed her inflated ego.

You're in college, have fun with it, go explore and experience things.

>Life is pointless, it's time for me to learn that. I mean nothing to nobody anymore.
Nigga, get over that shit. Life is pointless because you haven't made anything if it. You're too young to truly be a nihilist.

>Sorry for spamming, try to have a good life everyone, I know i wont.
If you're gonna talk like that go to >>>/r9k/ and see what being that pathetic truly looks like.

Besides, my last point is that this isn't attractive. Being all doom and glum, my life is over, isn't what girls want. If you want to find a great chick, be confident. Why do yo think she had lunch with that "goof" chad. You gotta man up and assert yourself, not implode.

This isn't this end, bitches are a dime a dozen. Go fuck a chubby one to get the poison out and break your slump or whatever. Chubby chicks will fuck you like they love you.

Goddamn, it got really >>>/adv/ in here.

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>>6579371
Also, listen to this.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KUfzMDryA94

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>>6579371

Ive Been there and done that. There was this girl, she just got me. We spent so much time together and we talked for ages about all sorts of stuff, some really really personal stuff. The fact that we where able to talk so openly to each other, the fact that we could say anything and i could just be myself, caused me to have really deep feelings for her. I really did 'love' her. I was infatuated by her. Anyway one day she asked me to come out to dinner with her, I eagerly obliged, yet she spent the whole night texting someone else. It wouldnt have bothered me if we where with friends but it was just us too. she said that she had to leave early to see this guy she was texting, she appologised profusely but boy did that hurt. They later became a couple and i was pretty crushed.

Im going on a tagent here but my point is, I know what its like to be totally infatuated with a girl who you have great chemistry with. To be in love with a girl that you think is the missing piece to your jigsaw and for that person to be with someone else. It sucked for the first 2 weeks, no matter how many platitiudes i said or how many times i reminded myself that there are plenty fish in the sea it hurt. But you get over it. I got over it, and now i look back and realise that though we will always be good friends, she really just wasnt the one for me and im glad that weve moved on. It seems like the end of the world now but trust me everyone, including yourself, moves on and you will realise she wasnt the lid to your pot man.

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Different type of story to those people are posting.

My most heartbreaking moment occurred only a year ago now. As long as I can remember, my younger cousin has had cancer. I can't remember a time he wasn't in and out of hospital. My family and others always kept positive, and we supported him always. Poor kid was so young he didn't even understand what was happening to him. Eventually he passed away (in his sleep we presume, no-one was present at the moment).
I miss him so much. My heart shattered when i heard the news. But no matter how hard I tried I couldn't bring myself to cry or weep. Not even a tear. I've always had trouble expression my emotions, but it made me feel so horrible that I couldn't shed a tear for a kid I loved so much and whom I miss so dearly.
Everyone says the same thing to you: "I'm so sorry". After a a while I felt like yelling at people who said that. I was angry. I knew their condolences were with me and my family, but my inability to show any feeling manifests into this anger I have inside me. I want to yell at everyone, but I'm supposed to say I'm ok. I'm not ok.
I'm not a religious person but I have that small hope that one day I will see him again. Life never really is the same after losing someone so close.
I know some people have lost family closer than that, but thats my personal experience.

>>6580521
Before 1 year my gf brake me bcouse she find that was cheating on her.guys I tell her it was only sex with feeling and that the truth.now she is with her ex and my nearest friend.it least I'm happy he never fuck her before.I was her first lover,but am sure now he fucked her.Im not so stupid so I blame her that she still love him,and off she ever denied,but now I can see it was real.so am happy that I gape her pussy 5 years.I'm 190% I will kill that lowlife buddy.how you think fags,is she still want me?is she's with him only to make me crazy?

>>6580567
P.s. sex with no feelings.....

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>>6577461

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Read all replies and it put me in a sad mood so I might as well share a story.

I met this girl about a year ago and we became pretty good friends right away. I liked this girl quite a lot but she had a boyfriend so I never said or did anything to show her my feelings. I'd talk to her just about everyday and we became really close friends and talked constantly for about a month. Then one day she tells me she broke up with her bf, and of course this made me a little happy but I didn't talk to her any different at first, I still hid my feelings. We still spoke everyday and about a week after her breakup she started flirting with me, and I began flirting back and eventually told her how I felt. This went on for a week, maybe two, and then she told me "I think I'm in love with you" and I honestly felt the same, I thought she was the one so i told her. We continued talking for maybe a week, and the whole time I was falling for her more and more. Then one day she just stopped talking to me completely and I find out she got back with her ex. This was the first girl I ever liked and the only person who has ever liked me, or at least said they did. Shit fucked me up for a good month or two.

Then after about two or three months, right when I got over her, she started talking to me like nothing happened, as if we were still friend. She's still with her bf and we continue to talk, as friends, every once in a while, and it honestly depresses me everytime we speak because I still have feelings for her and she doesn't, or at least acts, as if she doesn't and never did.

>>6579733
First, sorry about my english.

I think you have to think that "I should went". I mean, you did what your gramp taught you, that was attending your duties before the hobbies, and probably he went fishing with that in mind.

Accidents happen, since forever, and maybe you could fell with him if you were go. Try the best for him and to visit him, is the only thing you can do, so do it.

>>6580957
This feel.

Stop talking to her. Make communication on your terms. Stop giving her your undivided attention. Be too busy for her. Meet other chicks. Do things to improve yourself. And don't do any of it for her. Do it for you, and you will develop yourself into the kind of person other high quality people want to be around. Every man goes through this. I'm assuming you're young. Take advantage of this and lift, eat healthy, make friends, and fuck bitches.

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>>6580221
Not op but thanks anon. That's really uplifting and gives me some hope

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I’m need some advice.
So about two months ago i met this girl. I got her number and started texting her and things were going great. We began hanging out with the same group of people after work, and eventually started just hanging out just the two of us. I asked her out on a date last week, and she said yes instantly. However, that's when things started to turn bad. The date was fantastic, we had a lot of fun and everything seemed great. The next day i texted her and she seemed to take longer to text back then normal, but i thought nothing of it. Then when she did text back, she didn't seem as involved with the conversation as before the date. Now she’s starting to not reply to my snapchats. What did i do wrong?

>>6581191
This is absolutely normal, man. Some people just want to hangout for one day and then go to the next person. They don't hangout with the tought that they want something serious, sometimes just want to get some kisses and say bye bye.
It took me a while to understand that. If you insist, this person may get upset. They need their own space too. If I was you and really like this girl, I would try to talk with her and ask to hangout weeks after this, so she may remember "oh, this guy was nice, I may hang with him again" and so go on. Maybe one day she may feel something for you, but if you press her, it will be anger.
But nothing is lost man. Just give her space.

I'm almost 22, I've had severe chronic depression for the past 9 years. My views of the world is so fucked up that I can't find much joy in anything at all. School and work doesn't feel like an option for me, or at least normal work. I don't care about money really, I'd almost rather starve that work, and I've had a few jobs. I'm in therapy right now, and it is helping a little bit. I have misophonia, other people chewing is like getting stabbed in the ears. I am entirely medically resistant to anti-depressants, I've got through every single one. The only treatment left is ECT, but everyone is doubtful. I spend my days playing dota because it allow something complicated to fill my mind and remove myself from most of the world. I met a girl through playing and she became my best friend in a couple months, I didn't expect to fall in love with her, and I didn't plan on it because she lives half a world away, but I did. And she loves someone else and doesn't talk to me anymore. I don't even feel too bad about that, shit happens, I just hate feeling so tired and sad all day for no particular reason. She was what made me not feel sad or tired, quite the opposite but she just stopped talking to me. I just hate myself because I'm me and I don't think I'll ever stop hating myself even if I were perfect.

I don't even have a pape I feel like illustrates how I feel.
> Good Game. Well Played!

>>6579102
It's hard to be open when you know you're going to be told hurtful things and put down by people who should love and accept you. I've learned that parents like that aren't fit to raise a child. My mom was like that, constantly condescending, insulting, accusatory, hostile, and paranoid, among a long list of other psychotic shit. She threatened to hit me and kick me out when I said I was getting married to my best friend. I tried for years to make her happy but I was never good enough because she can't be happy. Don't let shitty people ruin your life. My life greatly improved when I stopped associating with her and moved out. A lifetime of suicidal depression and self doubt yet 2 years with the right person and I'm a totally different person. A better person. Blood doesn't matter when there's no respect. Their opinions don't mean anything, let them be in their misery. Do what you need to to be happy and find your own way.

>>6578980
Wow, mate, that's really shitty. Do you know who is the father? Did you beat him? Do you want to do that?

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My girlfriend of three years passed last February; some of you may remember the thread I made a few months back where I shared some of her collection.

I saw her for the first time in AP Art, during our senior year. I didn't really interact with her at all our first semester; she was fairly quiet, and tended to paint alone outside/ in the old art classroom.

The first time I talked to her, and saw her art, was about three months before graduation. I was working on a charcoal piece after school in the empty outdoor common area. After about half an hour of being there, she wandered outside with some watercolor supplies and a book. She sat a ways down the hill from me, and began reading and adding watercolors to an ink piece of hers.

After catching eachother's glances a few times, I decided to walk down the hill to talk to her. As she turned around to look at me, I caught a glimpse of what she was painting, belting out 'holy shit' almost immediately. She laughed and smiled, and after exchanging names, I sat down next to her to talk. While we talked about music and art and books, she would paint in her book, and over the ink piece she was working on. To this day, that painting is one of my favorites of hers: it's a mashup of a mountain landscape near her house with some atmospheric/otherworldly effects from the book she was reading/painting in, The Smoke Ring.

After that afternoon, we were together every day. We'd skip most our classes to paint outside together, wander into the trails in the mountains after school, and talk under the stars until 3AM basically every night.

After high school graduation, we spent almost the entire summer adventuring around California/Oregon/Washington/Nevada/East BC. We'd stop in antique shops, small book stores, open farms, etc. and collect random, weird souvenirs.

(cont)

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>>6581370
(cont)

We both went to Uni in the fall, where she studied microbiology, and I studied mechanical engineering. We went to different schools, but were close enough to where we could visit eachother a few times a week. I transferred to her school in the spring semester of freshman year, and we got an apartment together that May.

We were together for about three years. We'd adventure all around the western US in our spare time. During our roadtrips, big or small, she'd pack an old novel to read and paint in (she literally painted in all of our books; either visualising content in the book or drawing our surroundings).

Again, she passed last February. It's difficult to put grief into words, even though I've had a year to settle and process. The hardest part for me, is that I was going to propose to her after her treatment was finished.

If you take anything from this story, let it be this: walk down that goddamn hill and talk to that girl. She's special.

Rest easy natgeo, and fuck cancer

No pictures, new laptop

Around this time last year, I fell into it with a girl I met through mutual friends. It started with us only talking when we all hung out as a group, to messaging each other a few times a day. well eventually we told each other we had an attraction to each other and we hooked up. What started out as just casual hook ups led to actually just hanging out, getting to know each other. We learned what the other loves, hated, feared - all of it. We would go on long, late-night drives, hitting up IHOPs and blasting music down the highway, not getting back until the morning.

One morning, we were at the edge of the lake, watching the sunrise. She was leaning against me and I looked down at her. That's when I knew I was fucked, it was like seeing her for the first time all over again; you all know that feeling, seeing someone and realizing you love them. all their imperfections and flaws become the reasons you love them. And she looked back up at me and kissed me.

Summer ended and she had to return to her college classes, but we still kept in touch, hanging out every week, I'd go out to her dorm and stay the night with her every Thursday. Things were great.

Then around late October, she told me that she was feeling sick that week and wasn't sure if she could hang out. It sucked, but I understood. I said, "hey, it's fine, next week then." then the next week came around and the same thing. then the next week and the next week and the next week. I eventually found out that she had actually been partying with everyone else in our friend group. I confronted her about it but she just turned it back around on me. I'd try to talk to her about it over and over the following two weeks, until eventually she told me that she needed a break or else we couldn't remain friends or have any sort of relations.

I guess it hasn't been a long enough break; 7 months later and she hasn't spoken to me and is with some new guy.

Baely, I miss you.

>>6581384
Sorry to hear that anon, but things get better. The best you can do for her now is to not let her passing weigh you down, she wouldn't want you to be stuck in a pit for all of your life just because of her. Stay strong, man.

>>6578917
Start looking elsewhere immediately. People like that only drag others down as long as they don't want to face their problems.

>>6580221
yeah reading back i made myself sounds like a complete pussy, just in the moment yano. Honestly I dont remember typing half of that shit but whatever i dont care really. I'm just glad she isn't laying into me the fact I had feelings about her because everyone in the class knew that she didn't even think twice the same way back. Also yeah the thing about the 10/10 girls with the world in their ass makes sense so i'm just going to take it easy and fuck some chubby girls. Thanks for the advice man

>>6580224
fuck yeah dr. dre

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>>6579733
I've experienced something similar.

My grand dad passed away last spring. A few hours before his death, we received a phone call from his nursing home letting us know that he was not well, I think he had trouble breathing. My mum came upstairs and woke me up, she said "we're going to see grand dad today, he's having trouble breathing." we weren't leaving for a couple of hours, so I went back to sleep. Two hours later, I heard the phone ring again. I went downstairs to see my mother crying at the phone. She told me what happened. I cried and hugged her for about five minutes.

My family and I all went to his nursing home and met in his room. After seeing my aunt, I noticed his body was still in his bed.

After the guys from the funeral home showed up, I took a moment to sit beside his bed alone before they took him away, for some sort of closure.

I regret not visiting him with my mother in his last few years, I always either had something else planned that day or wasn't feeling great. After my Nana passed away a few years prior, I saw him go from the cheerful man he was into a depression. He didn't talk much after her death.

I never got to tell either of them I loved them before their deaths.

Pic somewhat related, he died on the same day he enlisted for the Canadian military in 1944.

>>6578917
>escapes her suicidal thoughts by taking drugs and having a shit ton of sex
Kek.

Sorry, but you need to get over that stupid bitch.

i used to date the perfect girl.
well she was pretty much only perfect to me but that's more than enough. we used to break up just to make up but with every single break up (lots of em happened) we grew further and further apart. one day, I walked her home and continued to my place when I got jumped by some fuckers and got the shit beaten out of me. the very next morning, she left me.
all the rage i felt towards those fuckers was instantly replaced by emptiness and it's been since ever then. i had a few hookups here and there but ever since she broke with me i didn't have a serious relationship. every day i used to think about her and i used to drink "to forget" but it just made me remember more and more. now, every day, i smoke weed and it makes me feel like everything's alright for a while. when i sober up, though, reality hits me hard and it sucks. i love her /wg/ i think i always will

sorry for no pic, i have no sad wallpapers.

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>>6577696
Used that at work for quite a while. Then i followed it up with this. Talk about uncomfortable looks from folks.

>>6577461
>be me
>finished an international highschool
>all students are from different countries
>decide to do a gap year
>everyone is now in a different country
>completely alone in a foreign country
>wat to do?

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>>6578989
thx

>>6579730
I have something similar going on. This girl drove a black car in which she picked me up all the time. Now every black car reminds me of her. But I don't see her anymore so that helps. And I don't want to either, I kind of hate her now because that's the only emotion that helps me stop myself from missing her. I shut myself in often but I am fortunate for having some good friends. You need to make new memories. Take a day off to get in contact with old friends. Do it.

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Dunno if the wallpaper is fitting, but best I could find.

I've loved this girl since I met her. Loved in a spiritual sense, physical sense, emotional sense; she's someone I never want to lose, even if we're only friends. She feels the same.

But we've both got our problems. We have trouble with emotions, sometimes. We think differently. There are a number of things that could destroy our relationship (the third time, now), but I don't care about those. I ruined things a couple of times, and we're on the path to the third from her side. I can't lose her. Not without a fight.

I have never stopped loving her, even over different relationships (three-year long-term love while she was with someone else). I can't stand the idea of being just friends. I don't want to never smell her again, feel her skin, feel the comfort she gives and feel her relax at the comfort I give. I've been distraught and ragged for two weeks, crying because I feel like it's not working. I've been changing myself for myself, as well as for everyone's benefit, i'm trying to do better by myself, but...

I'm afraid.

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>>6584013
Jesus christ man that doesn't sound too good. To each their own but I think that depending on your current career or job and age, you should move somewhere else and meet new people. Go move to Canada or some shit if you're in America and meet some new people or just go to somewhere in British Columbia if you're already in Canada. Get a job and make friends with coworkers or some shit i dunno man but as hard as it seems it doesn't sound like she's the one.

I've always said marry someone you treat as a best friend, someone you can't really cause a problem with. It's hard I know but it's either you get away or keep dealing with the girl emotionally and that can really mess you up if you don't get the best from the situation for each other.

What i've said probably isn't relevant to your situation but from what I understand is that you need to change something big to have a constant happiness instead of an emotional rollercoaster.

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1. I am passively resistant to all changes in my life, doubtful that I am ever on the right path, or that I am staying true to myself.
2. i am afraid that people look at me as weak because of my psychiatric history - which makes telling them in the first place hard.
3. my sense of identity is tied almost solely on my emotions at the time of assessment. (tl;dr) I am what I feel
4. i defuse my anxiety with depressive thoughts ("why worry, it doesn't matter.")

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some oc

>>6579371
Been through that, dude. This girl I was talking to did the same thing to me. Long story short: she chose someone else over me and then tried to talk to me about it after she 'hurt' herself with him.

Nope.exe

I feel so stupid for saying those first words to her.

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I just want someone to love

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Hmm. Ok. What seems to be already 3 months now, my now ex-gf, broke up with me.

>It was an LDR(long distance relationship)

I walked into the relationship expecting disaster, because I'm a pessimistic person. So, a few months pass by, I start to feel an amazingly deep attachment to this girl. A bit more time goes by, I finally see her. This moment alone has fucked me, because it set my expectations so god damn high. I simply cannot match that moment. We spend a weekend together, that's it. I was a fucking trainwreck when I had to leave, because this is someone I finally feel that I love. We both were immensely happy to see each other, and felt just as ripped apart having to say good bye. As fate has it, I see her again shortly after for a week.

>Fast forward into year 2

Things are still feeling amazing when we see each other, but the online relationship part has clearly degraded. Something I had once feared is happening, my sheer amount of frustration from the online is fucking the relationship.

>Frustrated kind of easy
>Meeting multiple times has fucked my expectations with online
>Have massive trust issues and reflect it onto her
>Never fully give her the trust she deserved
>Just stress her due to this all

Not all things are straight forward as my greentext claims, but it started to clearly get worse. I see this now, because I'm looking back on it. The thing that ended up just messing the whole thing up was due to her terrible communication skills. I did my good share of fucking up.

>Argue
>See if everything is ok
>"I'm ok now"
>'Ok, I love you, sorry'
>Actually still holding in info
>wtf is this? High school?

We tried different things to pass time, but I had to limit things(because of things on her end). It ranged from watching shows, playing games, watching videos, and just talking. Things were nice, for an LDR. So, here's where the grim reaper decided to ring his bell on my relationship. She needs to go off to school.
....I can continue if wanted.

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Partially relationship related.

A couple of weeks ago I organised the funeral arrangements for my grandmother. She took care of me as a teenager when she found out about my abusive parents, so I've always been close to her. I looked up to her so much and now she's gone.
I asked her how she wants her funeral to go when she was in hospital and we ended up joking around about playing "ding dong the witch is dead." Well, I did it. It was crushingly hilarious and I bet she'd be proud if she were still around.
None of my family appreciated it however, save for two. None of them want anything to do with me now, which is fine as my grandma was the only one I was close to really. Still hurts to hear, plus the funeral wasn't cheap yet I had to pay for it all myself.

I'm also recently out of a 4 year relationship. It was all so sudden. She liked going out with her friends a lot, every other weekend or so to clubs and things. Not what I'm into so I stayed home most nights. Well, she makes a quick pit stop home one night to pick up her purse she forgot with her friend and two random guys sitting in the car. When I see them, she tells me she wants to talk when she gets home. I get woken by her, drunk at 3am, saying how she wants to break up. She's sick of being in a relationship and wants to go out partying as a single girl like all her friends. It was already pretty clear what was going on by this point, but her best friend confined with me a while back about how my gf was cheating on me for months. Confirming what I was already pretty sure of.

Then a couple days ago, while trying to cheer myself up at the bottom of a bottle, I had a heart attack. From all the stress of things lately I guess. So today I write this as I wait for the test results but it seems likely that I'm truly heart broken.

>>6579295
cont plz

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>parents die when im 9, brother is 7, sister 4
>fucked up life, live with close family friends and family
>I never got close to any of them, bro and sis did
>get to 14 and im never at the house where were supposed to be staying, will sleep in parks or at friends house
>meet girl
>she is cool, fun, listens to same music, doesnt like her family much (typical teenage shit)
>we get along great
>we end up fucking at 15
>both still virgins so it was special I guess
>she leaves town because her dads work (he travelled a lot, dont know what he did)
>skip to 18
>been with a few girls, none of them any fun, all dull retards
>im still a loser, who skated, drank, didnt try at school. but I was likeable, like I was funny, the class clown type
>cool girl comes back to town to stay for good now (parents want her settled for final year etc)
>we hit it off again
>she hated where she went, because she went to some rich school/ area
>we start dating
>fucking awesome
>I live at hers practically
>don't speak to family much,
>get car after graduation
>me and gf are pretty chill, we both have license, and dot drink drive or drive stoned etc
>one day were chilling in a park with some friends
>she wants to drive to shops (like 5 mins away by car) to get some snacks and shit
>give her my keys
>she drives
>a minute later we hear this loud horn go off and a massive crash noise
>we go to see what it is
>gf was stopped at lights, someone rear ended her and pushed the car into traffic and a truck took out her car
>me and friends run over
>I cant pull her out she is stuck
>twisted metal through her stomach
>just hug her, and try to talk to her
>she doest say anything, just kind of smiles and puts her head on my shoulder as im cuddling her trying to keep her alive or do somthing (don't know what I was doing i was in shock, and nobody else would help)
>ambulance arrives
>she dies on the way to hospital
>friends (new friends) now ask why I'm single and why I dont get a gf
>dont know what to say

>>6586413
damn
feels hit me hard here

>>6586413
dude.
this hits me in the feels
genuinely hope you're ok

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Dated a chick for 11 months. Towards the end of that month however she decided that was that and broke up with me. I hadn't felt that shitty since my uncle had died and honestly the whole thing still fucks with me today. I think the worst part was about a week after she broke up with me she took a bracelet I had gotten her and used it to hold a bag full of ever single gift I had ever given her. Every note everything. But I managed to get over it. So I guess anyone can get over a shitty breakup

>>6586448
yea ill be fine, just gonna take me awhile to get over it
my new friends have no idea what happened to the girl, and they'll never meet my other friends, mainly because my other friends are either bikers, or living in some run down house doing heroin.
I still see my old friends, the drug addict ones.theyre fine, we still get along good, they stay sober when im around, and we just chill and do stupid shit and have fun.
biker friends are good, met them when I was 10, sitting in some park alone all depressed, they were having a bbq, brought me over food and a coke and cheered me up and showed me their bikes and cars. they've always been good to me, and they often come to my house just to pop in and make sure im doing ok.

current friends, are all pretty sensible, and have their lives sorted, they know about the biker friends and I told them how were friends, they understand. haven't told them about my gf though, don't know if I want to, they already treat me like an outsider (only happened after they knew I had biker friends), so not sure how theyd take the news about my gf, or how I still hang out with my old friends even though they are drug addicts. I dont think they'd understand.

just sucks you know, met one girl since, getting along great, had a lot of fun and good nights, she had a bf though, didn't bother me, just wanted a female friend, didn't want to have sex with her, or be in a relationship, liked her because she was fun and reminded me of when i was younger and me and friends just hung out having fun. just annoying because everyone judges you for not having a gf, or not trying to get in a relationship and shit like that, dont know If I should tell them.

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>>6579371

I'm actually in the same kind of place right now. I'm 21 and still have a huge crush on this girl who until recently liked me back.

We talked almost everyday, all day via text and snapchat. She has the same hobby as me but goes to a different school so we see each other 2 times a week. I had the feeling she liked me back because of all the flirting and talking. She even said personal things to me that nobody else knew about.

So the texting was going on for a few months and eventually we started to make out and other stuff but only during parties. She wasn't the type who committed to just one guy.

It was fine with me that she didn't really wanted to commit at first. But after a while it started to eat me up inside, knowing that she was also seeing other guys. So I started to push her to go out with me and you know, be boyfriend and girlfriend.

Her responds to this was "We'll see anon". So I just kind off dropped it, knowing that she wasn't ready yet. The talking and making out continued for a couple of months... Until suddenly it didn't.

I don't know why but suddenly I'm getting no response at all. I have tried reaching out to her, but she just ignores me. So you know, I'm kind of bad right now and I think I know how you feel.

Sorry for the rant. I just had to have this of my chest.

Damn guys, you're all like socially and emotionally retarded on some level. Balance yourselves.

>>6586413
i'm sorry bro. that's sucks.

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>be 18.
>just moved to uni.
>my brother was in the navy, my dad was in the U.S. and my mom was at an art university in portugal.
>one of my flatmates is a nederland total bro who watches anime and listens to all kinds of rock. Another is a half black musician girl who has deaf parents. Another is a ketamine taking retard and the other is a dancer who might as well be a model and works two jobs as well as uni. she' never at the house anyway.
>so it turns that 3 of them have boyfriends, and three friends who practically live at the flat also. Cool, 5 room flat, with about 10 people living there on average.
>House parties most nights.
>don't get along with most dudes in my course.
>move into flats rather than halls.
>virgin, get along with more with rock types than typical english townies, and normies.
>become friends with some fat emo girl from the halls because she's got a kitten.
>she wants to set me up with some girl.
>fuck it whatever.
>End up on date.
>dating. She's 17 at the time btw.
>get laid. lose virginity so that's cool.
>Cut ahead, and it's valentines day, so girl tells me she's on the pill
>awesome.
>awful sex, because 1st girlfriend and don't know what real sex is.
>best flatmate goes to china on exchange student thing.
>constant fucking parties, which now i'd be alright with, but I didn't really get any fucking sleep out of the 10 people.
>A month later, my flatmate attempts to commit suicide. She'd attempt this every two thursdays, at one point I had to kick down the door to bathroom and drag her out so the paramedics could pump her stomach from the pills she took to overdose.
>GF calls me over to fat emo's place in the halls.
>She's fucking pregnant.
>Also her dad kicked her out of the house because she's pregnant.
>Oh okay, I guess you'll come stay with me for now. It's not like a 17 year old girl should be fuckin homeless or something.

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>>6586582
>cont.
>try to get her to patch shit up with her dad. Meet the family. Her mom has MS.
>can't talk to anyone in the family about it because they're all away. Can't talk to close flatmate.
>She really wants this fucking kid and I beg the living shit out of her not to have it.
>fat emo girl keeps coming round my flat to bother me and use my internet. She takes an active interest in making sure my girlfriend has a kid.
>After about 3 months of getting through GF I finally convince her to get a D&C at the hospital.
>fat emo girl doesn't take a liking to this, and comes round more often to bother us, and makes her food that induces vomiting. But gf and her are still friends even though I don't like this bitch very much. So I put up with it.
>by this point, I'm so fucking stressed out my grades are all shit. my finances are shit from looking after girl. And I've gained about 50lb's and I'm drinking frequently. Also I never get any sleep because of constant parties. So I gain insomnia.
>I'm getting counseling because i'm so fucking stressed out all the time.
>second year half my flatmates move out and cool flatmate brings chinese exchange students in, I've kept with my awful lifestyle, and Chinese flatmate is quitting smoking. She hands me four big packs of dutyfree cigarettes, about 4000. Some of my colleagues, and old flatmate friends were smokers, so I start smoking and hand out cigarettes.
>for some stupid reason, because it was my first girlfriend, I stayed in a relationship with this dumb girl. Until she was about halfway through 18.
>Start learning more about her and her logic. Getting to know her motivations.
>We break up.
>I fail uni and have to redo a year, So I drop out.

Then I start putting things together.

She was never kicked out of her house. She lied to me about being on the pill.
She wanted a kid, because her mom has MS and she wanted a kid before her mom died.
So I was practically fucking manipulated from the start.
Fuck women op.

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My best childhood friend up to my teens just died yesterday in a car crash. He was my best friend for 8 years. I always told myself I'd catch up with him one day.

>>6579733
Do you allow me to write a short story based on this?

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I took this photo a couple of days after a break up, months pass by and one day I remember I took photos when I was dealing with a bad break up. After looking at all the photos I took, this one was my favorite because it gave me a reassurance feeling, that I cannot explain.

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>>6577461

I fell in love once. We knew each other since we were kids. we grew up hating each other and always arguing over the most pointless things. Then one year we hardly saw each other for a few months. One day I went to her house, she asks me why I came over, I told her because I was worried. She smiles and invites me inside, one thing leads to another I guess. Soon after that we were dating and in love. That was back in 2008. A year I wish I could forget. I don't want to post everything so I'll just say that I found out she was cheating on me. Well she pretty much cheats on every person she dates. Nobody knows why, not even her best friends. I let it get to me, hard. If she was faithful, life would be so much different right now, but it's not. I've dated a few girls after her, but it never worked out. For the last 3 years, all I do is fuck around without a care in the world. Deep inside, I'm just angry and sad. The only thing keeping me alive is my dream of finishing this story that I thought of since I was a kid.

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I once made a religious girl fall in love with an atheist. If you feel like reading, this is the story of how I was betrayed by my best friend.

A few years ago I worked at a grocery store. One day a new girl started working there. I instantly had a crush on her. There aren't many people who I remember seeing for the first time. She's one of them.

Eventually, when I was 23, I left that job but kept in touch with her. One day I asked her to go ice skating and we had a wonderful time; a "why haven't we been dating the entire time" type of date. My best friend, who I'd known literally almost my entire life (20+ years of friendship) also liked her. He and her go to the same church. I knew she was religious, but my friend had never spoken a word to me about his beliefs. I texted her and told her that we both liked her, and she chose me. I ok'd it with my friend and she and I began dating. It was the best part of my life. We loved each other harder than anything I've ever felt. It was the most beautiful thing I've experienced thus far.

Some time into the relationship, she started telling me stories about my friend telling her that he couldn't stand to see her date anyone else. One day I caught him tagging her in romantic quote pictures on Instagram. Eventually, he started straight up telling her she shouldn't be with me because I'm not religious. I'm not, but I couldn't have been open and accepting of her faith. But he kept drilling it into her head.

And you know what? It worked.

She started seeing him and making up excuses for why she couldn't see me. Homework this, homework that. I once made a bonfire for her and waited outside in the rain for her to call me back, and I would later find out she was late because she was with him.

May 24, 2015, she and I laid on the couch watching TV. My family was gone. At this point, she was sleeping in my arms. I kissed her forehead 100,000 times as she slept. The next day... Cont.

>>6586602
I'm sorry to hear that. I really don't know what advice to give.

>>6586998
"but I couldn't have been *MORE* open and accepting of her faith." My bad.

May 25, 2015, the next day, I kept trying to get her to come over. She was dodging pretty hard, saying things like "go spend time with your family. They just got home." Eventually I got it out of her that she was with him. She said that, because of religious reasons, he "might be a better fit," and that she didn't know who to choose.

I told her that if she didn't know, if it was even a question, if she even had to think about it, then we couldn't go on. I broke up with her that day. That was one year ago, and they've been together officially for, what do you know, one year.

I saw their "Facebook official" post, and it was full of people saying "congratulations" and "I'm so happy for you guys," shit like that. Those people will never know about me, the guy she loved before his best friend preyed on her religion and guilted her away from me.

She and I have talked a couple times, but it was never good. Last one was in October. I told my former best friend off via text last June and haven't talked to him since. He had turned into an insufferable tool in the last few years, so I'm genuinely glad to have him out of my life. But I think about her every day. I've been on a handful of dates since then, but nothing has come of any of them. Im terrified she was the only one. I miss her.

All the advice in the world (and I have received a lot) doesn't help me feel any better. How do you keep going when you've lost that which you care about most? How can you yearn for something when you know that thing betrayed your trust and broke your heart?

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Well, this is mostly a jumble of recent shit that has gotten me down.

Awhile ago i started talking to a girl in my classes and things went well. I'm not all that social so i was happy she enjoyed my company. Ask her out and she says she isn't ready for a relationship. Understandable, she just got out of a bad relationship so i figured a few weeks/months wouldn't hurt. She ends up dating her best friend a few weeks later. I'm heartbroken and completely lost. She always acted like she loved me.
Anyway, her sister start talking to me. Shes younger and seems cool so i start talking to her. Older sister who i loved didn't care much after a little while and just let us talk and text. She starts treating me like an amazing person, but i dont want to get into a relationship with her.
This ties in later.

Different part of my life now, same time though.
My best friend since pre-k gets into a long distance relationship. I warn him that he might change. He understands what i mean (he had a ldr before and it changed him). Long story short, this one changed him even more. He went from playing games and always wanting to hangout to anti social, always staying in his room talking to her type. He basically distances himself from me. I have other friends so im hurt, but can live. I just wait for it to blow over. They recently broke up and he tries to start talking to me again but has obviously changed. Is always on his phone when we go out etc.

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>>6587041
>cont.

He starts talking to the younger sister of the girl i loved. I became really close to her and cared about her alot. This shocked me, because he was obviously using her as a coping method to his recent breakup. I dont want her hurt by him and warn her sister and her. (mind, her older sister already hated the kid). She says she wont talk to him if i dont want her to, but im not the type of person to tell someone what to do without feeling like shit.
So now, all they do is snapchat and text each other. Whenever im hanging out with my friend, he is constantly snapchatting her cringe worthy selfies and stupid shit, like im not even there. Neither of them really care about what i think, even though ive told them both it makes me feel weird and i dont like it.
It just hurts knowing that the one person that i went from talking to everyday and being extremly close with, now only cares about getting into a relationship or having a bunch of girls talking to him to make him feel good.
The worst part is, she basically stopped talking to me a good amount too, just to talk to him more.
It hurts, and i know there is no fix to it. I just have to move on with time.

There are other things i have going on that make me feel like shit too, but this is the main thing.

>>6586588
If I had to put up with all of that just to lose my virginity, I'd rather just keep it.

>>6583995
Anon, as much as I wish to, I don't have close friends. Few weeks I go I went in a trip with some of them and I slept in a room with a couple and another girl I liked some time ago. I used to talk with this girl that I slept with (didn't fucked her) almost everyday, and usually in summer we would talk until 2-3AM. I thought it would help me forget her, but it really didn't. My bestfriend has a gf and we're not talking anymore, almost at all. Everytime I talked to him he would be 'sorry man, gf messaged me, talk to you later' and stuff like that. Gave up on trying to message him and he isn't messaging me either, we even rarely see eachother because we took different paths. Friends either come and go, or they aren't your friends to begin with. I wish I was better at socialising with people. Now this girl that I wrote about in the first post has a bf that can actually be with her. This makes me feel worthless, knowing that I could've tryed harder. At the end of June I'll go with some friends in a trip exactly where she lives and I don't know if I should message her, if I should bring her something I don't fucking know what it's appropriate and innapropriate to do in a situation like this. Fuck why do I care about her and why can't I forget her, I'm fucking pathetic I can't get over a damn girl. I have some important exams at the beginning of July that I need to focus more but I'll go out and make new memories, at least I'll try. I know how you feel, I remember she loved some caramel sweets that sometimes my parents also buy. Every time I see them or eat them they remind me of her, songs that I play remind me of her, many little things remind me of her.

To be honest, before we were together, we were really good friends, we talked everyday 24/7. I even repeated myself and it isn't that late.

I don't have anyone to talk to.

>>6586413
Bro
The feels
My heart goes out to you.

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I'll never be happy
I'll never have a close friend
I want to die
I still don't have what it takes to speedrun my life

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Going to try to keep this short and simple.

Be in high school, start playing CoD due to cousin. We meet a guy. (lets call him K) K is chill and after a while, we get to know him. Turns out he lives in the next town over.

One day, K goes afk and hands off game to daughters. G1 is around my age and G2 is around my cousins age. This happens a few more times, me and G1 end up playing together a lot and start getting close.

Over the next few years, me and G1 spend a lot of time together talking and playing games, we would even talk on the phone in the morning, after school and at night while we fell a sleep.

Eventually we graduate High School, due to some crazy stuff and misunderstandings on my part, we end up going to the same college. We make plans to meet up on the first month of college, but something would always come up or someone would chicken out. (mainly me)

One day we got in somewhat of a fight, things got awkward after that, we started to talk less and eventually, not at all.

Its been a some years now, but a few months ago,I told my cousin to give her my number, just incase she wanted to get in touch, still haven't heard back. I thought she called once, but I was still half a sleep when I answered, the caller got impatient with me and hung up.

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>>6587260
you are software, anon.

For the last 11 years I havent talked about this to anyone. This is the first time I'm letting this out. I am 20 right now. I had a childhood girlfriend, until when we were 9 she moved to other country. Never heard of her again neither can remember her full name. In the end, after 2 years I felt completely alone. Years passed and some girls proposed to me. I rejected them all, didn't think any could fill the hole/understand me. In the end I've transformed into another person. I literally barely talk. My friends can't what type of person am, but I can manage in social situations. I guess I'm not weird, but people feel something is not ok on me by the time. When I am 15, my dad passes away. This made me be 3 years with sleep issues, I would go to sleep in the afternoon and wake up at midnight. My mom knows something is wrong, but feels like she can't do anything to fix it. Anyway, I wasn't going to talk about it. Years passes, I'm completely strange. I don't feel like the rest of people anymore. I don't feel like people my age. Eventually I am 18, and visiting another city, I meet this girl. At first, she finds me extremely bad-mannered and smug. With time she is completely in love with me. She's not very talkative, but we manage. For some time, I would constantly visit her, like every 2 weeks or so. In the end his friends knew, and when that happened, she still wanted to see me, but she was way more distant. She didn't want to be seen with me anymore I guess. I was in complete love again, she was all I cared for, and all I was lifting my life again. After this, I was way more harsh, to the point of just answering "good", "ok", "why". One day I didn't want to answer her. I didn't know of her for 6 months. This was extremely sad for me, I've never felt this loved by anyone, and then forgotten. In the end, after that 6 months I got another message. We started talking again, and for some reason, just simply talking to her made be feel so good and full of life that (1/2)

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I started lifting again, finishing my grades and going out more. I'm still kind of weird, but I guess I'm improving with time. We talk all days and I feel like im still in love. Some days I'm super happy, some days I'm not. I miss being with her so much. I have never felt this close to anyone in this last 11 years, and probably my whole life. Still can't do anything. I guess I'm okay being like this. I've already assumed he will get a boyfriend someday, and from that day is over. But for some reason, I think she is in love too, but prefer to be friends for some reason. I guess someday I'll have to move on. (2/2)
P.S: Sometimes I don't even understand what I say, I may get misunderstood at some points. Sorry for wall of text.

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Sometimes I feel like I am a ghost and I'll never amount to anything in life.

Hardly any of my friends don't even notice I'm there.

I couldn't hold a relationship.....

all I do is fuck things up....

but I gotta push through it....

Just say "Fuck It"

and put all of it behind me.....

>>6587835
life is long, boring, and pointless. Take it slow and easy and you'll be okay anon, that's what i've learned.

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>>6587908
I think I'm in love with a girl and I think she loves me too but we're both incapable of telling each other so we'll inevitably drift apart into unhappiness after a while.

>>6589195
Didn't mean to reply

>>6581238
It's your fault you feel that way, Anon. Seriously, you fucked yourself. You're 22, and you wasted your years with delusions to distract yourself from the truth of it all. Don't say it's your depression, or your 'views' that keep you from being what you want, it is yourself. You are a loser, and it's all your fault. If you want to be like that, then you might as well go here >>>/r9k/. Get a hobby, and be a man.

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My turn I guess,

I had always been depressed as a kid, I have Asperger's so I always found it inherently difficult to talk to people, however I do consider myself lucky as my parents didn't shelter me as a kid so I have a high degree of functionality. This shit came at a cost, that being I got viciously bullied as a kid leading me to try and kill myself when I was ten. I went to drink bleach and my dad walked in and stopped me.

If you know someone with Asperger's then you know what they are like in social situations, I basically had to write down how to talk to people. Skip to early teens, I had a few friends but I was the "odd" guy in the group, the clown, but at the same time whipping boy. I went along with it just wanting people to be happy

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>>6590895

>cont

Skip forward again and I get my first girlfriend, she lived 150 miles away in Limerick, we met in Italy on a school skiing trip. Lasted 19 months, we broke up because I was such a fucking retard when it came to relationships.

When I look back I should have ended it when we went to Oxegen in 09, she didn't talk to me the entire time and said it was because she "Wanted to be free" four months later she broke it off.

To say I took it bad was a fucking understatement, I thought it'd be a fabulous idea to write to all of her friends saying how I thought she was cheating on me(To this day I think she did, doesn't matter I can't blame her)
Ended up going to counselling and started on antidepressants, as at this stage I had been depressed a good 8 years.

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>>6590896
>cont

I ended up in another relationship three months later and it was the worst and best thing that ever happened to me.

She was so suspicious of me all the fucking time, she wanted me to go to collage, talk to nobody and go home. She accused me of cheating every day for three years, made me feel guilty about being depressed and I felt fucking miserable but happy at the same time, because I was "In love"

She thought me how to trust again, how to love again. She was broken and so was I. In a weird way we thought we could fix each other.

At this point of my life I had accepted that I had to whatever it takes to make people around me happy, even at the detriment of myself. I never spoke about myself rather I was the agony aunt. We were a small group, but I'd trust them all with my life.

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>>6590898
>cont

Skip to the end of our relationship and we are doing the twelve pups of Christmas on the 21st, I have no money so I just tagged along.

We get to the last pub, for any Irish anons, it was O’Reillys on Tara street just under the dart station. I’m sitting at a table with GF and my friend they are across from me, we’re talking, having fun, but something isn’t quite right, I “Drop” my hat on the floor to see what’s going on and my GF is giving him a handjob under the table in front of me.

I left the bar and went outside, somehow managing to convince myself that I was seeing things and went back in. She never stopped, even came up to me later asking “whats wrong?”

I never said anything that night, or after to anybody as I had to carry this burden by myself. I couldn’t let his GF find out. I confronted her about it the next day and we broke up two weeks later.
To this day his GF still doesn’t know what happened. In hindsight, I should have smashed a glass over them.

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>>6590901
>cont

Skip forward about a month, and I’ve cut him out of my life and I’m still fucking my EX. I go to a house party in hers, get drunk, end up fucking. I beg her to stay with me for the night, she says no, she has to make sure nothing is broken. I fall asleep, next morning we fuck again and I leave.

I only find out however that the reason she didn’t stay with me that night is because she was having a threesome with another one of my best mates in the room next to me, then came in to fuck me the next morning.

At this stage I was very unstable, I had managed to kick the anti-depressants a year prior, and anybody here who uses them will understand, they don’t fix shit, they make you feel better but you know you’re broken as fuck inside so it’s catch 22. Life however had decided to throw me one more curve ball. My grandfather got diagnosed with colon cancer and he is more than likely going to die.

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>>6590911
>cont

So at this stage, I’m ready to thrown myself in front of a train, I’ve lost so many people and I’m about to lose my grandfather, I can’t trust anybody anymore and I’m drinking heavily.

I decide to go back on anti-depressants so I don’t kill myself. I go into the doctor’s office, sit down, and put my head in my hands when something weird happens. In what felt like five minutes was actually two and a half fucking hours. A woman came over to me, asked was I ok and I responded “I’m good”

I don’t know what happened to me, but when I left that doctors office, all the sadness, anger and confusion left my body, to this day I still can’t accurately describe it, but it was as if my brain rewired itself and just removed all of the negative emotions in my head, I felt nothing but a sense of purpose.

The next day I went out, got a pair of slim fit jeans, white shirt, black sweater, black tie, brown leather shoes and a black blazer and hit the bars.

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>>6590915
>cont

Almost done now.

I decided there and then that I was going to be “That guy”

That guy that you see in the bar that everyone wants to talk to, the confident charismatic guy who had no issues getting the girl. I spent the whole summer reading pick-up books, studying techniques and body language. I was getting to the stage where I no longer viewed women as people but as obstacles.

I returned to collage as some people said, “Unrecognisable” and with an aura of “Self-assurance”.

However I was still horribly broken inside. On the day of my grandfather’s operation, he dropped me to collage and said his goodbye, I went into collage and felt nothing. He’s fine now, but it still pains me that I haven’t processed that emotion yet.

Nevertheless, I continued to run through women at break neck speed, all the while I was starting to talk more with a girl in my class, we got on great, so I decided not to treat her like the other girls.

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>>6590926
Me and her began to get really close, she knew what I was doing and began to earn myself a reputation in collage, I was shitting where I was eating after all. We talked all the time and had really good chemistry.

Weird thing is, I actively avoided any conversations that could end up in us getting together. At the time I didn’t want to get tied down, but now I realise it was that I didn’t want to hurt her. I didn’t know what I was like, I was an entirely new me, I didn’t know if I’d cheat or not.

After a while she found out what I’d been up to, she heard rumours most of which true and people were talking about her behind her back. She said it wouldn’t happen between us.
For the first time in about 10 months, I felt awful. She was the chink in my bullet proof armour. I somehow managed to patch it up and we got together three months later.

I’m still with her today, and I am the happiest I’ve been in my whole life. I still feel numb and don’t register emotions anymore but I’m getting better with her help. I give her that lift, and she gives me that little bit of grounding.

My whole life has changed, my friends treat me with respect and nobody fucks with me anymore if anything, they play up to me. For the first time in 14 years, I feel that I know who I am, what my purpose is and I feel happy.

TL;DR When you hit rock bottom, you’ll either fall through and give up, or bounce back and change your whole life for the better.

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Sorry about the length of this post.

About a girl who I fell in love with. At a completely wrong time...

I was with another girl, a beautiful loving girlfriend. who never did anything wrong to me.

But somehow, I noticed that I was falling for this girl. She always listens to my twisted thoughts that no one else seems to care about.
About life, about the ocean, and stars. She was my confidant, my partner in crime.

I was falling and I knew I had to avoid her. I don't want to hurt my girl, she never did anything wrong. But every time I think about not talking to her, my heart aches so damned bad.

I don't want to cheat on my girlfriend, but I cant contain what I feel. In the end I decided to tell my girlfriend, and we broke up. And wanting to be fair, I met her and told her my feeling on the same day.

Her hands were shaking. The three of use were close friends... Me, her, and my ex.

She got angry, and tried to avoid me. But after a few weeks we got back in touch. we tried to bring everything back together.
There are days when we somehow fall to sweet conversations, but she would always seem depressed the next day.
But she never speaks her heart out anymore, not how we used to.

Until one night, we had another conversation, we talked like how we used to, I felt so damn good yet somehow sad at the same time.
And then, she told me that she feels guilty.

That back then, she would asks her self why I had to be with someone else.
She poured her feelings out for one last time.
Said sorry she have to be selfish, and asked me to leave.
For her sake.

Damn I was gasping for air. Hearing the she felt the same, then why it won't work.

I felt I could keep her beside me, but would cause her pain even more. And I can't take that. I can't take it after she said it that way.

But I still can't just let her go just like that.

So I made a promise.
That one day, after time had healed everything. I'll find her again. And when that time comes, it would be my turn to be selfish.

Sorry for the long story. My life so far has only been me crushing real bad on people and them not feeling the same way towards me.

Basically it starts with me talking to them and ends up with me liking them a little.

Then it proceeds to me and said person getting really close and me not saying anything because I’m too afraid of rejection and it doesn’t seem as though they would feel the same.

Me trying to compress the feeling I have for them.

Then them realising that I feel something for them which causes them to leave.

And finally me going through a stage of suicidal thoughts and just depression in general for a couple of months.

So yeah that’s my life currently. Just an endless grind of shit.

>>6578917
don't turn into a white knight
drop her immediately

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I needed this thread, because I managed to fuck things up with my crush around 4 hours ago.

We both work as RA's at a school in the northwest. I've worked all year and am not working next year, but she's a spring term hire set to work next year too.

Yesterday, we were on duty together (Basically the people on call, have to be in and around the dorm). She wanted to go to a river with her friends, and so I took the staff phone and said I would handle anything that came up. She left, and in the process of going about my day, I forgot about having the phone in my pocket. So I left the building too, and went on a hike with some friends, where I posted some pictures on snapchat. Sure enough, one of my coworkers sees and tells my boss, who then called me angrily asking why the hell I had left. He also asked where she was, to which I said I didn't know but I thought she was in the building.

So I told her. I told her we needed to cover our bases and figure out how we were gonna cover our asses, for my fuck up. And what do you know, she panics. Her entire living situation for next year is jeopardized by me being an idiot. And, like an idiot, I kept trying to get to her, thinking that I could somehow talk her down.

Turns out, when I thought she was just worried, she was having a full-blown panic attack. Like, a shaking and vomiting panic attack. That I made worse by trying to keep talking to her about it.

So now she hates me. I hate me. Finals are next week, and we're both worse off for it having to deal with this. All because of me. All because I'm an idiot.

Never felt worse in my life. I really liked this girl. Thought I had a chance. Lol.

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>>6592609

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>>6580221
Good advice>

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>>6592620

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>>6592590
jesus fuckin christ man.. take a pape and try to enjoy yourself because it sounds like you'll be fine in the end

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>>6587383
>software

no, wetware

>>6586413
straight through the feels. im sorry for your loss, bro.

>>6587004
lol it's a good thing she walked away from an atheist like you

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Before I start I just wanna say this whole thread makes me happy, it's nice that's there's still places we can just like share our pain

So I met this girl on the first day of 5 grade literally been in love with her since the moment I saw her.
It's been 9 years. We dated. When we were like 14. We broke up bc I'm selfish and didn't know how to treat a girl, desu I still don't. Lost contact bc I couldn't stop thinking about how much I missed her. Years later, in another relationship for a while find out she got engaged to the dude that was her best friend while we dated. Fucked me up so bad just knowing she's engaged that I broke up with the girl I was dating bc I realized I wasn't capable of emotionally committing at the time. She texted me last October. Almost had a panic attack at work. She just wanted to check up on me. The whole convo lasted 15 whole minutes. Realistically I know I'll get over her eventually, like the logical part of me says that bc like it doesn't make sense that I wouldn't I mean we only dated for like a few months and so what if I've never met anyone that could make me feel like her or really make me feel much of anything since her I'm still a teenager I should reasonably move on. But really I know I'd give literally anything to spend a moment with her I know I won't ever forget her I know I won't ever really be happy without her because I'll always just think what if I wasn't such trash

We mutually broke up and she dated my best friend

>>6594046

Small one, but I'm sorry bro.

Really, that's absolute shit...

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>>6592590
If you had a serious thing, I doubt it's over because of that. Yeah, you fucked up, but it was a simple mistake, not ill intent. She might trust you less for important things, but if the consequences are not terrible, you'll get your trust back.

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I haven't really talked about this so I gotta vent some old shit.

About two years ago the girl I had a crush on for a while broke up with her boyfriend. It was apparently pretty brutal on both sides. there was a serious rift between our friend group because of it. He was a cool dude and was a good friend to me even though we had met fairly recently. He lived back home about 2 hours from campus so we didn't really see him for a while afterwards.

fast forward about 4 months to early October 2014. me and girl had hung out a lot since her break up. I grew some balls and asked her out and she said yes. the next couple months were great. Everything was going well and it felt right. The only weird thing was her ex started hanging out around our group a lot more. He even stayed at her apartment when he came to visit. It bothered me, but I decided to trust her and not make a fuss about it.

At the beginning of December I lost my virginity to her and obviously I couldn't be happier. Then winter break came and we went back home for the break. we were about 3 hours apart, but I still came to her place to visit a few times. It was all fine and dandy until mid January.

I got a phone call from her at three in the morning. She had obviously been crying and she had a hard time talking. She told me she was still in love with her ex, and he was with her too. She apologized and tried to comfort me, but that hit really hard. I ended the phone call with dignity then cried like a bitch.
I haven't talked to her since then. I talked to guy a few times over steam but it was just really awkward. last chat was about 8 months ago.

So that was it. Sorry for the wall of text, but I needed to vent that. I'm over it all at this point, but It still hurts every so often.

I fell in love at the wrong time and it all fell apart. But that's what happens I guess.

No wallpapers, new computer
I hate talking about this but this story has to be said

about three days ago I was supposed to have a casual hangout with a girl who I thought was the sweetest, cutest and smartest girl I seen but it didn't happen because of my dumbass because I confessed to her the night before and we have been friends for about 5 months or so... a friend of mine already said "its not worth it since you're only gonna get hurt if you keep talking to her and trying to make her happy since you know she will never like you the way you like her" but I didn't listen and confessed to her.... at first it was shocking for her and she said to me "don't you dare bail on me tomorrow" and I said "my answer to if we are still friends will come if I go with you tomorrow" and she texted me 3 hours later saying "we have to move it to another day because I have to go somewhere" but I was drunk already after so I insisted that we do it tomorrow... long story short I waited for her to finish work but she texted me "leave" and I did but I said "I'll be waiting at the food court if you still wanna talk" and she never came.... I waited two hours and I just left since she was never coming... so now she went on another date with my friend the day after... who lied as well because she said "your friend texted you to leave" but I didnt get the text or anything in particular... if only none of this happened and we can still be friends or more but you hate me and my other friends hate you.

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>be me
>never talk to my parents
>work in a fastfood for years
>not respected at work
>have a shitty salary even if i'm employee of the month every month
>don't even have enough money to change clothes
>can't get any move with the woman i love
>failed a hundred times to pass my driver licence
>my neighbour hates me
>only activity i like is doing stupid stuff with the only person dumb enough to be my friend
>once i played with a jellyfish for hours and it was the best thing i have done with my life
>i can't even get a real house i live in a pineapple under the sea

if your life is better than mine you have no right to be sad

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Well, i don't have an interesting story. My life is just boring (and I wont be an hero, i just like this picture (and the movie))

>>6592053
I feel this anon. I've been lonely for so long that whenever I get what I think is close to a girl I get really attached and scare her off, then have an emotional fit over it. Been trying to come to terms with it and had mixed success. My only advice would be to keep trying and try to maintain friendships even if they aren't necessarily into you. The more you interact with girls, even with those you've done this with, the more casually you'll think of relationships. From there you just need to resist the urge to sperg out and you'll make progress.

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>>6584746
I feel ya pal...

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i have a story
i was in love with my high school sweet heart
she ended up eating my emotions for dinner and being very emotionally abusive
she killed me on the inside over and over
it was very sad the end

>>6578316
Dont waste your time on her, move on and try to focus on something new anon

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7 years ago I fell in love with a girl with big brown eyes and long black hair. We met at summer camp and the last day i built up my geek courage to ask her to dance. Ive never done anything like it before but something inside me forced me to do it. We had a relationship for a year and few months and took eachothers virginities on her birthday in april. the next week she broke up with me and cut me off indefiniely. I find out around town that she started to fuck a dude that looks dirty as shit and i quote he told me "i would only fuck her because she has a fat ass". After that while i wasnt in contact with her she got into another relationship and fell in love with a guy named Adonis. I dont care about names cus this is 4chan. it was then 11 grade and One day she texts me "hey". after 2 years of not speaking we hit it off again. I befriend her bf buit i soon come to find im still in love with her and she loves me too. We have an affair, her boyfriends finds out senior year. Around graduation shit goes down with a fist fight in the rain after a school overnight fundraiser. She says she broke up with him and talked to me half the summer but she really didnt. I find out and then she cuts me off again for months. I go to school down south trying to pick myself up and find my path in college. She ends up studying abroad in italy and contact me again. L;ike the dumbass i am i let her back in and we have this long distance thing with promises and all that shit. We all get back to hometown in winter. Im excited to see her in person adn she tells me that week "we cant talk anymore" (again right?) she gets back with adonis, they fuck all winter. She goes back to italy and has a mental breakdown cus adonis is kinda abusive. She goes to a hospital and gets sent home. First year ends and she is on her own we are back for the summer we talk. End of summer comes and suddenly my messages wont go through. Her mother calls and curses at me wanting to file a restraining order

>>6595016
Im forced to just live with pretending i didnt know her. the police show up and see me gaming on my computer and ask me what happened. they brush it off and just give me advice to stay away from the entire family because they seem off. I dont get a restraining order but i was scared as shit to even think about her. Months pass, sophomore year comes and goes i got into another relationship but it ended in flames because i couldnt move on inside. she comes back into my life with that "hey" we talk second semester and she visits my school and we "catch up". Summer comes, hometown again and Adonis becomes involved once again she fucks him all summer and then they break up at the end. I have a relationship with her during the fall. we traveled nyc together, had movie like times. When she visited my school we had the best sex weve ever had, we both agreed to that. I even ran through the academic halls at midnight with her and we made love in the lecture hall. Life felt like adream with her. Then the usual happened. she broke up with me and got with him. Theyve been together since but with issues. He just broke her heart and I made a comment on my social media page/ not hers. saying "karma is a bitch" and then she blocked me on everything and send me a text saying " you dont know me, im tired of you, im tired of your comments on my life, get out of my life and never come back". Here i am today trying to figure out where i go next. Now yes, it seems like i did something to this girl but i swear i didnt. Ive always tried to be the best guy i can be to her, . I was strong and supportive. she would lead me on with dreams of kids and the future But when i hurt i hurt alot and it made her guilty. She seems to take out her anger of Adonis on me. its happened more than once. I wanted this girl to be the girl i marry. Im dumb as shit falling for her over and over again i know. Its my fault for all of this but...it just sucks."never come back again" rings in my head.

>>6594688
Thanks man, its good to know I'm not the only one out there with this problem. Best of luck to you friend.

>>6595016
Dude you are way better than her, dont let her drag you down. Ive had many girls that live for hurting people. Sure im not really mentally stable but you got to ask youself what really matters in this life. Is it the girl that hurts you? Is it your friends? Your family? I know it easier said than done but you cant stick with people who you know that will drag you down. Anyways sorry for my little rant i just needed to blow of a little steam. Hope you get better

>>6595131
thanks day by day you just learn to love yourself and life a little bit more. Im hurt but more excited to see what more experiences I will have in my love life.

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>>6578917

I also have a crush on a mentally ill girl, but my girl loves me back.
The problem is, you see, that her illness consist in not being capable to be with anybody who matters to her.
She has left his parents, brothers and everyone
She only has friends, and she leaves them when she starts to feel loved by them
The only constant in her live is myself, but we cant be together. We can only chat b the internet.
We have been in this situation for 10 years now, and I cant leave her, because Im incapable of loving anybody else
I sucks man

>>6578316
I went through something similar to that
My friend liked my crush and I think she liked him too. I tried hard to get closer to her but never told her about my feelings, maybe she knows though
That made me hate my friend and I think he felt the same too but it's ok now

>>6586413
If this is true then I'm really sorry for you anon
But that's life mate it's filled with tragedy and sadness
Try not to think about it too much wounds like these will get better with time

>>6578546
Man i wish i could drink a cup of tea with you right now. Sad story, makes me think about how fucking hard life can be.

>>6579371
>Getting cucked by Dana White

>>6581238
Hey man. How did your depression start? Do you a good friend to talk to eventually?? I think you need to look yourself in the fucking mirror, and tell yourself that youre better than this shit. When youre feeling down, man up, and tell yourself youre better than this

>>6584610
Fucking sick, how did you make it?

>>6586602
He is up there watching for you mate. It will get better, i promise.

>>6578989
i really needed this. thank you.

>>6583537
go clubbing and fuck whores

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Jesus guys this thread hit me hard. I don't think I can ever complain about what I go through ever again. I'm going to go hug my dog now.

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i asked out this girl last year and she said no, and things got awkward. she's amazing, literally the most amazing girl ive ever met. recently she started texting me a lot, and it hurt to talk to her so i was terse, gave short responses to basically make it clear that i still wasnt ready to talk to her because the rejection really hurt me. she still keeps texting me first, and im put in an awkward position. if this was literally any other girl id ask her out tomorrow because its that obvious, but with her im afraid of messing up, especially a second time.

>>6579706
you seem like a really cool, honest person. im sure youll make it someday.

>>6579371
>"with thiiis goof" and a heart emoji

what is she 16

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Dated the first love of my life for about a year. She was the one who fell in love with me first, she found my snapchat username from a mutual friend and started messaging me, she told me "I love you" first, she initiated almost all of it, only to take it away. Distance, even though under 100 miles, drove us apart. Once school started last year she would want to hang out with her new friends more than me (at first, awesome! she had anxiety issues and had trouble making friends) but that was alright. Until it kept happening, over and over, for three months. She wanted to wait until Winter Break to tell me but I demanded she message me over text. I fought for her to stay with me but it couldn't. We met in person just before Finals and I tried to pretend it would work out. At the end of the night, the dam broke loose and we knew. But all I wanted in those three months of isolation from the one person who is supposed to love me, was some harmless cuddling. Just to feel safe, warm, loved, wholesome, noticed enough by another human being. I've wanted that feeling ever since last year's beginning to school. Every night is the same whine as I shut my eyes. She still holds too much power over my heart and mind and sometimes I accidentally indulge in the ideas of her and what we were/could have been. Oi. If you read this, thank you for reading another iteration of another chest burst, sincerely (and as a reward, take this OC picture of my house. Take care).

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let's post music with our papes
https://soundcloud.com/manners-music/i-brought-you-something-close-to-me

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To summarise my experience with intimacy: Eh.

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>>6579715
>>6579715
English version

>>6578917
Give her some coke or xanax, bitches love coke and xanax. Also is one of the people she is having sex with you?

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>>6586413
Goddamn anon, sorry for your loss.

>>6592716
More like this?

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>>6578954
>>6594963
Thanks for the advice, I have sort of moved on, still miss her from time to time
>>6596660
I know that feel. good thing you two are ok now

>>6579102
just realize that theyd be nice to you if you were as girl

This is gonna be nothing compared to what some of you guys wrote. First some backstory.
I had a non-visible, extremely rare birth defect, thus I have been negative, cynical and sometimes suicidal most of my life (meditation helps though).
I feel like giving up. Nearly suicided 2 years ago, when alone in a rotting room being fat and oding on energy drinks and sugary stuff. It was near year's. Constantly alone because you fear that someone whom you fall in love with will push you away and call you disgusting, a monster or worse, again. I can't love, except one girl, I have loved her all my life, and will probably do till the day I die. Whatever I do, learn or try to accomplish is meager compared to others. I am 25 and just got to a normal human existence now. It took me half my life to be similar to others around me, and still I am less. I will be less because deep down inside I know that I am not like them. Could have died 4-5 times before I was 6, but did not.
The constant feeling of being unloved eats at me, and while I realise the source of my problems, I am unable to find a permanent solution. Feels like I was born broken, to wander like a shadow until my inevitable end hugs me into the earth. Thank you for this thread.

>>6596315
Holy fucking shit are you me?

>>6597859
update if anyone cares

she likes me :) we danced at prom and talked all night (im 18 mods)

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Pape is not related to the feels, but is a pape.

Damn, writing this is hurting me already. There was this girl when I was a senior in high-school. She was supposed to be a lesbian, and she was studying 11th grade. A gay guy in my class introduced us and we started hanging out a lot. She was my best friend, I was her best friend. We spent almost a year like this, and I really liked her, but I was a complete idiot that didn't understand how people work. She ended up telling me that she loved me. I panicked and told her that I didn't want to lose our friendship and that I was scared. Without wanting to, I broke her heart. I moved to to spend a year there studying, and I came back some months ago. She sent me an email while I was there, after months of not talking to each other, and told me that she wanted to meet me once I came back home. We met, she told me that was dating a girl and that she was great, that we should be friends again.

We started talking to each other again, and she broke up with her girlfriend. We hung out a couple of times and she was giving me smiles and being playful with me, and I started to be into it. After that day I started thinking about her a lot, and she invited me to her place and said that we would be alone. I went to her place, but apparently she invited her new girlfriend too. After her new girlfriend left, we made out and spooned in her bed. She told me that she did it not because she wanted to be with me, but because she wanted to know how it could have been to make out with me. She said she wanted to spent more time with her girl, but that we could be friends.

I haven't stopped thinking about her since then, and I feel like shit because I broke her heart and now she is breaking mine. I was an asshole and I guess I deserve it, but it fucking sucks. I love her so much now and I feel like an idiot for letting her go back then.

>>6597859
If she rejected you once, and now she talks to you everyday... You have nothing to lose I think. You guys ain't friends so even if she says "no" again you ain't going to lose anything. Ask her out again and let me know what happened. Sky's the limit mate.

>>6586413
Fuck, I don't even want to imagine how's seeing someone I love dying in front of me.
Stay strong anon.

>>6589195

Tell her. Trust me when I am telling you this. If you really are in love you won't lose anything if she says no.

I didn't tell her, she thought I was an asshole because she had feelings towards me and it fucking hurts now.

Do it anon.

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>>6597859
Holy shit, I was in the thread of this a few months ago.

My advice to you would be to ask her out. Nothing fancy. Make it clear but not in a rude way that you aren't that interested in being just friends as that doesn't make you feel happy.

Here's a pape to get you going. I wish I had seen this thread sooner.

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>>6599497
When you're a youngen, its hard to know what to do. No one ever tells you and it's not like anyone could since things can get really complex.

You goofed but to no fault of your own. If it hurts to see her then it may be better to not spend time with her. You could also talk to her about it as the first thing and if it doesn't help the relationship or you feelings about it then leave.

>>6599665
>>6599798
check my post here
>>6599439

doesn't really fit the thread now, but this is the happiest ive felt in years

>>6586413
nice story, like a fairy tale almost... cept the whole terribleness.

Strange I see a story like this on here like once a week. Stranger still how many girls dont scream or cry or go into shock and pass out. they all have a movie scene death... aint that interesting?

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Already warning you guys about the long story that's coming and I apologise already for my bad English. Also if some of it doesn't make sense because I suck at putting everything in in the right order.


So the story starts like 3-5 years ago, don't remember exactly, but I start talking to this girl and we hit it off quite fast (I am/was a loser who pretty much enjoyed the company of a walnut and took it as company) but we hit it off and we start talking to eachother everyday and it's amazing to have someone to talk with about your fucked up home and childhood. I start doing different kinds of drugs because one of my only ''friends'' who lives near me starts taken them and I do it as well just to feel something when I am not talking with her. She began to notice my lack of happiness and motivation and she really wants me to stop taking them but doesn't know how. Her solution came to threaten me with never talking to me again if I continued, of course it was my worst nightmare so I pulled myself together af 1 1/2 year of different kinds of drugs and alcohol. It works and she starts talking to me again and I am just happy that she is still in my life.

things go on with me and her being the best friends for years, being the only ones we trusted with our deepest fears and thought and we were meant for eachother, atleast as friends. I had kept it a secret for her that I had a huge crush on her from the start, more than a crush, I knew that I loved her to death and I would give up breathing to let her have one more gasp. After three years, almost 4 years of being best friends we get together and that night was the best night of my life because I felt like my heart has finally found it's place in this terrible world.

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>>6600844
Conti:

We have a somewhat relationship goals- relationship together for almost 2 years before she one day text me that we have to talk once I get home. Alright. I get home and write what's up and she writes this long message about how she cannot take it anymore and that wants to break up. I break down and begin crying like a fucking baby.


We kept talking some time after we broke up but it mostly ended up in arguments that pretty much tore my heart open again because I never knew she held so much anger towards me. Shit goes on for some months before she ends up contact with me and I learn to ''live'' with it because all I ever wanted for her was to be happy, and if it was not with me then it sucks to be me right?

Been 4-6 months since I last heard her voice but she called me somewhat after I got home from work and ask me why I still had pictures of me and her on my fb and I just said that I didn't mean anything with it but I just liked looking back on the good memories, actually my only good memories in my life. She ask me to take them down and I accept saying I am sorry if I caused any harm. She starts getting pissed at me and I say I am sorry with tears running down my cheeks and I pull myself to ask her a question that has been burning in my head and throat for months. I ask her if she ever regrets coming into my life or that I came into her life. She said yes without hestitation and says that she wish she could go back time and stop herself from getting to know me.

I have cried everynight since that because imagine knowing that the only person who made you actually feel something in your shell of a heart, regrets having you in her life. I am up to smoking about 3-4 packs a day just to feel how it would be to suffocate on something else than the thought of her. I hate myself and I cannot find a reason to live.

>>6600846
I'm going to ask you two questions - do you feel you are a good person, do you feel you deserved it. I suspect you are a half decent person, that the other person is hurting you cause they can - and only you can make youself walk out of this. I suspect if you cut all ties with her, took the pics down - just go on with hobbies and such - she would probably start following you around like a dumb puppy cause she seems that malicious.

Having been in a number of relationships - two of them unhealthy (one where manipulation was rampant on one part - the other where it was obsessive on both sides) i can tell you it is hard to break free from them if you let them near you or have anything that reminds you of good times.

Cleanse yourself, do a good thing each day for others and one new thing a day. I've personally been able to break free of those old relationships as well as pick myself up from a few friends leaving (they left me due to depression and me figuring out my own way which didnt coincide with theirs.)

It is going to be hard to say this - dont hold grudges or care about them. Care about real things, but turn a cold shoulder to people who care so little they make themselves into shit stains.

>Meet a girl at a convention, really connect with each other
>Started dating, but it just didn't work
>Next year, we meet again, date and again nothing
>Third year, the same happens
>Fourth year, same thing
>Fifth year was this weekend, we've met again and realised we're better off leaving each other alone instead of breaking our hearts for the fight time.
Even though I know better, it still hurts...

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I can tell more about this relationship if you want

Met a girl at work we date for a bit and i find out she's using drugs (meth and coke) and lying to me about it and cheating on me with some meth dealer. After i leave her she says she's pregnant i told her to get an abortion, she eventually did for me but never has shown me proof. As it stands now the threat of that hangs over my head.

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This is a good thread. If anyone wants to save this to read for later, I uploaded a full screenshot of the page here: my.mixtape.moe/duqdtc.jpg (imgur compressed it)

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>>6600896
I have always thought that I am a good person. I don't hurt others or at least not from what I know. I am not the violent kind of guy and I always try to cheer other people up even when I may not have the best day myself. I generally just think that everyone deserves some kind of chance of love.

I have been told that I probably should just let it go or at least try to turn my chin to something else for a time to get my mind back to normal. I could say that I just find it really hard, but you probably know that or could imagine.

She was someone manipulative at times but I am/was too much of a sucker to question it because hey, she may made me happy.

Weird thing is, I am not mad at her, not even for breaking up with me. I just feel empty once more. I feel like that one person who I thought enjoyed the time spend with me actually still had those good times with me, but I was wrong.

My first mate [i hate the term boyfriend, k? k.] Wanted me for sax.
That's bout it....

>>6578546
Smoking a blunt for you and your homie. I don't know what happens when we die. But I got a very good feeling you will see him again.

>>6580221
holy shit i've been on /b ever since the whole candyass phase and i thought that board was pathetic enough (i use it for the porn mostly) but it seems like r9k is the true cancer containment board

thanks dude it cheers me up knowing I'll never be that autistic

I'm 22 and been with a girl online for 3 years and things were so good back in the day, we'd stay up all night talking and neither one of us wanted to sleep, Its the first time in my life that I felt like I loved someone, I'm not attractive and I can be very clingy/overbearing. Yes I know the whole "you're young and you'll find some" that people always say but I can't describe the amount of love I have for her, I still do and she doesn't have the same love for me anymore. Yeah, Im a pathetic r9k loser.

The reason shit is different is because she made me more comfortable with myself and who I am and never judged me once.

I have some family issues with abandonment and anxiety (mostly from an incident when I was younger) , I couldn't handle going through what im currently going through again.

>>6583537
Meet new people. Get some new hobbies ect.

>>6601207
Then you are a good person and do not deserve the mistreatment. You will get lost in years of wonder, worry - thinking about what happened between the two of you - if you continue to care or dwell. Cutting straight to the chase, get the worst in and let it sting for a while but also let it heal.

Describing my own problem in a similar tone - i was used for sex and affection for a number of years by a dude i was head over heels with. He broke up with me after saying i was more like his first bicycle then wife material. It hurt and knocked me off my game for a while - but i will always take it as i was the real person and he wasnt. The experience hurt but i learned from it, and i wont put myself out like that for some one like them again. All the good times will forever be tinged, but they were exactly what they were and cant be changed so i just chalk it up to them wasting their time then me wasting mine.

All this pain and self doubt is going to hurt like a bitch for a while, like a long time. If you talk to them, and they are super uncaring assholes - it's going to hit you hard a few times. But it does start going away, especially every time they open their mouths and spew a lot of shit at you.

Loneliness and emptiness is a part of who you are, most people do not realize that they arent always supposed to feel happy or full. There are those who feel it more keenly then others, or are scared of it. Make goals, keep busy.

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>>6600846
I had a similar situation happen to me where I dated a girl that I really connected with and vice versa then she dropped me mostly because she changed and I didn't. She ended up neglecting my need for space afterwards and tried to act like she did nothing wrong and be chummy with me in public even when it was apparent I was having none of that shit.

I kind of hit a nihilistic streak after that and it still is present today. I don't think that will change. What did change was I was able to get over with some distance (small uni made that hard). I am not over it, it's still really shitty to run into her but I've been able to deal with it better.

Why did she break things off? I am curious.

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Sooooo, transfemanon here. I met this babe at a house show a month or so ago. Instant connection between the both of us. It was like we were in our own little world talking & sharing. At that instance, in that moment we were both souls vibrating in similar frequencies and for once were understood as we were. It was one of the best nights I had in a long time. We held hands several times (which I'm a huge sucker for) and never actually kissed because we were both pretty anxious at the idea. But we were both into the possibility of next time. However, she lives in the next city over. Soooooooo... It's sad, b/c out of all my friends and peeps I've date, she's only the second or third person I've met that I felt that instant comfort with it.

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>>6602160
How old are you? Feels like you're just dealing with being young and inexperienced with strong connections.

It's great that you found someone to connect with but I don't see a real big deal if she is the next city over if what you say is the case.

There's nothing wrong with being sad about it, hell I would be too but it sounds like you have something workable right now. I'd count your blessings.

>>6602187
I see your point. I'm still kinda young (mid twenties), maybe not young for 4chan, but... Normally it'd be workable, but both of us are pretty transient punks who aren't big into social media, or texting, or general phone usage, and both of us have very different goals we're not willing to sacrifice for a relationshit (b/c we've both had piss poor experiences).

So, yeah, if things happen to coincide, I'd think neither of us would mind. But I think there's also something to be said for knowing when to choose to walk away from a "chance".

>>6580221
great post

dated this girl since January. we talked everyday and I would stay at her house atleast 3 times a week. we slept together multiple times. I told her how I felt and she told me she felt the same. 3 weeks go by and phones went silent. She texted me 3 days later saying she couldnt see me anymore, a guy she fell for 3 years ago came into the picture and she wants to try and make things work with him. I liked being single until I met her. I could have seen myself actually wanting to be with her and make her happy. if only she felt the same. Feeling better now tho. Just got a job earning 50k+ a year.

>>6586992
Shit, man, that fucking sucks, I'm sorry to hear. I'll never understand cheating.

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It's been almost three weeks since I last talked to my girlfriend of two years because I am too afraid to say I'm done. I feel like if I say it, all that time would have been wasted on someone who treats me like shit and expects me to treat her like a princess. That's not a relationship. So, I've sat around and done fuck all to answer the door, the phone, or even bothered to get on the internet much. I'm just too afraid of finally letting go. Finally saying I'm done. There's no saving this. She'd be furious to know that I spent all that time thinking. It's too late, and I don't know when it will be, but I wish it could all just go away, or that I could go back and stop myself from ever meeting her.

Not really all that sad, I'm just frustrated and done. Have a great Wednesday, anons.

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I left my fiance because i wasnt happy. sad story.
Life rolls on. keep your head up.

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>>6578989
thanks for this anon, really

First of all, I love you guys.

To start, I really only have 2 really good friends at school. I'd been talking to this girl up there at uni (about 2500 miles from my hometown), and she's really cool and said she was into me, basically life was good, school was easy, partied a lot, you know, good shit. So, I went back home for the summer, and, over the past two weeks, she's only talked to me a few times and ignores a lot of my calls. Before this, we’d talked daily, I’d never been really emotionally intimate with anyone but her. One of the two good friends visited me last tuesday, and, as we were hanging out, he revealed to me that she started dating my other good friend. I’m distraught, guys. I thought I could trust these two guys, both knew that I really liked this girl and felt completely open to her. I have no idea what to do.

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>>6604423
also heres a pape

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>>6586465
You should tell them anon. You will never be able to feel close to them if you never tell them about that one thing that has affected your life the most. And I'm sure they already sense you haven't told them something important

>>6577596
Get the fuck back to tumblr lame ass

I want to share a story of my

since may im everyday at the sea with friends then meet that girl i know her since 2012 but i dont really know her. so thats the backstory now she comes everyday since may with friends to the sea one i fell in love the problem is she dont now if she is a lesbian, bi or hetero
im fucking scared to say but i really love her i dont to get hurt...

sorry if i made any grammatical errors


-Anon

>>6584746
but anon she wont love you as much as you love her... never.

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Know what, maybe talking about it will help. At worst, its 4chan, and it disappears into the ether.

Unlike a lot of the stories in this thread, this one is rather opposite.

I've been seeing this woman for about 5 years now, dating for between 2 and 3. How we met is a horrid little story that I would rather not get into a lot, but to keep it short:
>living with my ex for 3 years
>I want to play dnd, but no friends cause of Ex
>she invites her friends
>Her one friend is this woman
>1 year later I break up with Ex cause she was cheating on me
>6 months later start dating this woman

Now, that first year of dating was pretty bad. I still lived 3 hours drive away, so I only got to see her once a week. In the end she decides to break it off. The reason she gives me is a fair one i guess. I want kids, and she doesn't, and doesn't want me to give up on that. Wants to stay friends so i agree, but honestly thought we'd never speak again. But nope i was wrong. She texted me the very next week, and we never stopped being friends.

Over the next year I ended up seeing another chick, and long story short there it was a very short fling that ended in a scare when she thought she was pregnant. Thats when i found out Im sterile, so hurraw on dodging that bullet.

A few months after that I finally got a new job. I'd been looking for a new job since I had left my Ex, but economy, you know. The new job is in the same city as the woman I'm talking about.

(cont.)

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>>6606150
Now that we live in the same city we start to hang out a lot again. 2-3 times a week kind of deal. We still hit it off really well, and yeah, not much to really say. She asked me if we could go on a week long road trip cause she knows I love roadtrips and she's never really had one (she likes flying places). She wanted me to come with her to New York for a really cool even she got to do (she got to sing in CARNEGIE HALL!) but because of my house and unforseen repairs and bills and such i simply couldn't afford to go. Still really bothers me too. Especially how she still looks sad i didn't come. That gets us to now.

Probably seems all good so far right? Well...

She has never let me touch her. And she never talks about her past. I know from the time i've spent with her that she HATES her family, and for good reason as they treat her like absolute shit. If i offer her my hand to hold she looks like shes going to run away. The few times i've put my hand on her shoulder or arm she acts like i've touched her with a cattle brand. Any time I try to talk about her past, she clams up and gets the hugest frightened eyes. She never stays the night, always saying "Why, my bed is in the city, and i can just sleep there?" That trip we took for a week long road trip? She specifically booked two hotel rooms every night.

I'm the only person she talks to with any regularity. She opens up to me, and she trusts me. She shows all the signs of loving me too. She knows I love her, and I have asked her to marry me, but she declined (this was when i was still 3 hours away though, and it was a month later she broke up with me). I'm really willing to be there for her but...

Well, its starting to be really bad for me. Like, I know how much good i do for her life. But what about me? Like. Its selfish, but I'm not made of stone. And now there are things like her job being absolute fucking assholes to her, or her brothers and father just breaking her every so often. (Cont.)

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>>6606161
eh... i'll just keep this part short.

I was going to type more but, whatever.

I just don't know what to do. I want to be with her, but I still feel like i'm not WITH her. I want her to feel safe for a change. To be happy.

And I want to be happy damnit. But. I dunno. Do I leave her so I can be happy? Essentially leaving her to suffer alone now. Or do I continue to be the rock for her, her stability so she has something to help her? Leaving me to suffer.

Anyway, thanks for listening i guess. Have another Majoras Mask pic. They're the only really heartbreaking-ish wallpapers i have.

>>6597923
all women are children anon, you'll realize this when you're older. You just have to pick the one that feels right and fits your borderline autistic list of requirements in a partner like I did

Here comes my contribution

I was dating my ex girlfriend for two and a half years, started dating when we were 16. She was my closest friend for around a year before that also.
My friends and her friends thanks to us became quite close, and eventually merged into one big friend group. We set up one of my friends with one of hers, and they clicked for about 5 months before her friend left mine for a guy a couple years older than herself. Feeling responsible for everything, myself and my gf helped keep his hopes up by trying to involve him with us and and a few of his friends. Just going out shopping and shit just as a kind of "sorry we matched you with her".
After around 3 months I start noticing the way he looks at her, I confront him about it and ask him what's going on and he claims he's just still feeling down, trying to pass it off as just being in the blues and wanting to bother with people. I warn him about the staring, and not to do it, he says he won't etc.
A month passes by and he's still staring and shit, I go to gf about it. Thinking back on it I should have gone straight to him and forced him off, but she says she still feels really bad about it all.
It's around April of last year now, and she's starting to become a bit distant, she's not texting me as much, she doesn't want to do as much anymore. She just won't do anything with me. I tell her I know exactly what's going on with this boy and I know how he feels about her, and I tell her to keep away from him because he's not looking for sympathy anymore. She promises she'll keep away from him. It's now June, and she tells me she's moving half way across the country, and she doesn't think the relationship will work long distance. It's understandable.

cont.

>>6606442

A week later I get a stream of messages from her best friend, a million apologies for not telling me anything about it. They were dating, and had been sleeping with each other since the end of March. He had been telling her for months that she was the reason he hasn't killed himself, and that she's the only one that makes him happy, and he can't live without her.
I'm obviously not happy, I go apeshit on them both, howling down the phone because they refused to confront me in person. After that conversation all contact cuts. I begin taking antidepressants, and head off for my first year of university.
While in university I become even more depressed, and begin drinking heavily. I have breakdowns. I became a complete recluse, before finally breaking down to one of my housemates, as he sat there and hugged me, comforting me at 3am, telling me it's okay to feel this way. I take a couple weeks timeout, come back to university in November and I end up in a close friendship group with two of my housemates and one of our neighbours. They introduce me to the wonderful world of weed, and we end up spending £20 every single day until our end of year exams on weed,. I didn't feel sad anymore, I felt happy, I felt like myself again.
I return home and begin job hunting. I can't find a job anywhere, except for our local Wetherspoons, where I was told my ex still worked. I couldn't get a consistent answer from her friends, some said she still did, others said she didn't. I went straight to my ex and asked her if she worked there, because neither of us would enjoy it if we ended up working together. She tells me she doesn't, but she seems different, she seems like she used to almost. She seems very warm hearted and as if she genuinely wants the best for me now.

cont.

>>6606443

The first time I've spoken to her in a year was just 3 days ago, and she was telling me how her life has just been on halt for a year really, and all she's done is work. I'm really worried that my feelings for her are starting to come back, because our time together was without a doubt the best time I've ever had, It was the happiest I've ever been in my life. I don't want these feelings for her to come back though because I know it'll just break my heart again.
I can't stop thinking about her since I spoke to her again, despite everything she did to me apart of me keeps saying she's not like that. I can't stop thinking about how she used to be before my mate got involved with everything, she was the innocent type, showed genuine kindness to everyone, just really sweet to everyone she meets.

So yeah, I should just abort now before it's too late

Cheers for anyone that decided to read it

>>6606448
Abort anon she'll probably just go behind your back again

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>>6602201
Yeah that does suck.

>>6606161
I've dated a girl that was treated like shit by her last boyfriend, abuse in every way possible. I had to claw my way to get close to her. Luckily she let me but it took time and she often ran off for no reason.

You need to sit down with her and say that you really care about her that you want to be close but if she doesn't open up then you can't do anything.

It's really apparent that she has been abused and doesn't want to open up about it.

You have make a decision to cut it off though but not in a harsh way. Just say the way you feel about it but don't blame her.

>>6606448
Yeah don't have anything to do with her.

>>6577596
>ing. I seriously thought she might be at least bi or something and that I would at least have a chance. A few days ag
I love my best friends sister, Kiara P.
i cant ever evene try to be with her because my best friend said he wouldnt like it, itd be too weird fr me to come over and want to see his sister instead of hanging out as usual.

I have had deep feelins for her for over 11 years now. she recently broke up with her boyfriend.
I want to say something before someone else steals her away.

I am immensely sad
I feel like my life will be lacking without kiara
it will continue, but lack in the highest degree.

>>6586393
im so sad i wish everyone else was dead.

>>6592578
only in my dreams

>>6584746
goddamn, fucking with you there.

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>>6603166
Thanks, bro.

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Id been having troubles with my gf for a while, then out of the blue she broke up with me, i was still in love with her but she only wanted to be friends.

I found out last night her and one of my closest friends had been talking and im devastated, he knew i was still in love with her too, which added salt into the wound. should i just let it go or cut them both out?

>>6607743
The same happened to me and I cut them both out of my life, and from my post >>6606442 it hit me hard, the best you can do is get out of there. Your friend didn't give two shits about how you felt, and she didn't care enough to not hurt you like that. They're not worth keeping around

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>>6578546
I don't know if you're still lurking anon but I have gone through the identical pain as you.

My brother-in-spirit as I like to think of him died from a double brain tumour, I watched for 2 years as it ate away at the very being he was, reducing him to an immobile but still loving angel of a man. I'll never forget the last time I saw him, what had been such an elegant and inspiring man was now unable to speak. He tried so hard to coax some words out of his body but he just managed a shrug and sagged in his wheelchair.

The thing that hurt the most was finding out just how much I had apparently meant to him. When I went to a gathering to commemorate him I had complete strangers coming to me saying "You're Fred! Charlie ALWAYS talked about you" some of my hope for the World died with Charlie's passing. Until I myself pass, I just want to live as he would have wanted.

When I next drink I'll raise a pint to you and your friend anon.

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> Be me, start relationship with flatmate, on the agreement that we try, if it works it's nice, if not, we break up.
> One month later she says she doesn't want to be with me anymore
> Be cool with that because we were honest on this from the start.
> But she tells me this, "You used to be beautiful, an now I can't even look at you."
> This got me so bad...I changed my look and met other women to try to forget about this.
> Now, even when I'm with another girl I hear her voice...woe is me.

>>6602142
Sorry for answering several days later.

Well I don't know exactly why she broke up. I remember the long message she sent me that day and how it broke me down. She just said that she couldn't take it anymore, not sure what it wasn't that she couldn't take.

-I am really sorry to hear that, sometimes girls or boys leave for the weirdest of reasons and leave you in your own confusion and doubt and you can't do anything to start with to help it.

>>6587363
If your cousin still has her number you should ask him for it. Even Though it didn't work out before you both are older with lots of time to catch up on stuff. Hell you have nothing to lose by calling her and everything to gain

>>6597856
Fuck I need a dog

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So I'm 23 and working at a shitty MCD in town. Of course along comes a peppy nerdy 16 year old who I start talking to as friends and quite honestly just as that. It didn't even occur to me to pursue her, maybe because i had been through a dumb break up a few months prior but none the less I talk to her. We of course grow close and spend a lot of time hanging out, well as much as anyone could with that age gap.

Then I start catching vibes from her that throw me off and put me on the track of thinking about her romantically. Walls dissolve and I give into it and surprisingly its really nice and relatively wholesome.

Eventually her parents know and friends know and work knows and our tiny little town knows. But only when she's 17. Well this relationship lasts past her 18th and with her parents moving it makes sense for her to move in and it happens. AND its fucking nice, I've lived with partners before and this felt natural and easy. Sure petty disagreements came in but no serious arguments. We want the same things. She eventually gets a job at a factory out of town and gets me hired. Im too poor to have a car and my license has long since expired so I take her up on it.

We spend new years in Chicago, plan on moving to bigger cities, a nice valentines day with movie/dinner date..... then one month she gets slightly distant. Then the next she's utterly depressed.

I dont know what to do other than try and help her through it the best I can. I pay more attention to her, baby her a little, help her keep her life on track. Then she tells me she lied about where she was one weekend. Says she went to some guys house named Jason because she met him in high school and didnt want me to think anything of it or get jealous. Im pissed because the lie is what bothers me.

Then she dumps me. And over the course of the next month (me finding out on my own of course) that she had started talking to a guy named Josiah and developed feelings for him

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and had gone to visit him the day after dumping me, then kissing a week later, than dating a month later. She kept trying to insist that she didnt leave me for him and that I shouldnt blame myself for this falling apart. But has proceeded to be an absolute bitch afterwards. Of course I've said shitty things but it still cant register how she would kill 2 years of a solid relationship to go fuck around and more so do it without showing any respect to the previous relationship. Fuck I poured everything into that relationship and now I'll probably lose my job because I cant get ride or a car soon enough and shes running around being happy despite fucking me over.

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so ive had a crush on a freind for 7 years, ive helped them through several breakups. recently i started to grow feelings for them again. i helped her try to get over their breakup which she was dating him for 5 years. if she needed someone to talk to or some place to stay not to be bothered id let her stay at my appartment on the couch just to be able to talk/take a nap. recently she told me a list of reasons why we couldnt date and that what she was doing wasnt leading me on. she would talk to me a lot about problems she had or something that was bothering her, we would play some games together or just sit and talk to each other about whatever was going on that day. she then told me that she wouldnt be ready to date anyone for a long amount of time and ends up dating someone a week after she tells me this and says that "anon, this shouldnt be a timeframe thing". that made me feel pretty hurt considering when someone says they wont date someone for at least six months and then dates someone a week later and then proceeds to stop talking to me altogether except for like a few messages about how she wasnt leading me on. it hurts senpai

>>6590933
Thanks anon, for telling your story

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>>6609492
Could be two things. One she is taking you for granted and using you as a bottom bitch to come to whenever she has boy troubles and keeps you as an emotional base. OR She could actually just want to be friends and doesn't have a romantic attraction to you; maybe you've invested to much in it romantically without it be reciprocated and you feel a little burned by it.

Based how it ended it seems like she may come back to talk to you once it ends with who ever she is dating. You gotta ask yourself whether you want to be a friend to someone who I personally perceive as being indecisive and blaming you for having feelings for her like you had a choice in that. That not leading you on excuse is bullshit not because she did that but rather it doesn't account for the fact that you can just develop them because you like someone.

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>>6609424
Your happiness isn't her job. She left for a reason, maybe because she lost her appreciation for you or found someone she connected with more when your relationship with her was stagnating a little. It's bullshit how it goes and it makes you feel like the world is unfair (it is). Who knows why.

Move on. When you're ready. Be mopey about it for a while. Grow a depression beard. Start working out. Start building personal projects to become a fucking better person.

There aren't plenty of fish in the sea. 90% of everything isn't worth your time including people. A majority of the girls that are worth your time will be unavailable romantically due to forces out of your control. Doing the shit above increases your odds of bumping into someone nice and them taking notice of you. The chance is small but you take that chance every day.

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So a about 5-6 months ago I started dating a very close friend of mine. She was going through a hell of a rough time in her life. She went through a breakup from a long relationship and to deal with it our group would throw small get-together. We drank a lot. She actually hooked up with an old flame and got a pregnancy scare. The dude pretty much told her to fuck off. Friends and I tell him to fuck off and he isn't in the group anymore. During that time she was stressing immensely due to her not knowing if she had a kid or not. (She did not) I was pretty much her shoulder to cry on. I was her rock for those grueling weeks of stress, yeah I know it's white-knightish but fuck you she was one of my close friends. We started to hangout a lot more, and one day I told how I felt about her and she felt the same. Things go fine for a few months but in the back of my mind I knew this wasn't going to last. In my mind I knew I was a rebound, but I tried to push it away. Trying rationalize that I was just being paranoid, but as time went on I she started growing more and more distant. And I knew that I was correct. She came to me and told me I was the nicest guy to ever date her but the timing wasn't right. I told her "hey, it's okay. All I want is for you to be happy" she asked what about me. I bit my tongue and said nothing. Few weeks pass and when I'm at work near closing time I get a call. It's my dad telling me my grandpa had brain cancer. This obviously stressed me plus the work and bills and shit was pushing my limits of keeping all bottled. A few days later he died. I got low. Had two bottles to myself and was contemplating if I made him proud before he passed. I knew the answer wasn't what I wanted it to be. I started to fall apart, and then she texted me. I told her about my situation and that I missed her. I needed someone who could be there like how I was with her...she blew me off thinking I was just making up shit. She later found out it was true. Pt. 1

I tried talking to her, but she pretends she doesn't even know me. I felt betrayed, hurt, and lost. I was there for her hell but when I went through it, I was alone. Present day. I got over it. Life moves on. She has a boyfriend, okay guy. We have the same group of friends but she doesn't acknowledge me. Tell one of my other friends I miss her. He tells me she feels bad but I don't believe it. I don't know if I should or not, but I do wonder if she thinks of me or is she trying her to forget about me. Pt.2 end

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>>6611672
>>6611658
She does genuinely feel bad. That's why she is avoiding you. She's a shitty friend/lover for not being there when you need it most.

The friend situation makes it hard for me to tell you that you should just cut things off but it seems like that kind of already happened,

I am not a forgiving person when it comes to people not returning the favor even in the slightest despite what you may have done for them. Trust me when I say that her avoiding you is better than them acting all chummy with you like they didn't fuck up.

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I've read a couple of the post' now I think I can relate, 5 years ago in grade 12 I too had a crush on this gorgeous girl, she let me down countless times knowing that i'd keep pursuing her, Obviously i did and by the time I finally convinced her to let me come over, I found out that she had rooted all of my close friends and my brother, I gave up looking for anyone after that.
Two years later I fell for another girl, long story short similar thing happened, though this one got me punched in the face and embarrassed me publicly.
While all of this was going on, my work colleagues would be calling me all the bad names known to man, burning the back of my hair and simply being wankers.. And on my birthday when I was supposed to be happy, He punched me in the face and told me that i'd never get anywhere in life, simple things like that are easy to believe when you are already down.
For the entirety of that year every day i made paper cranes, up to 1,000 hoping that the myth of a 1,000 cranes makes a wish come true, my wish was for "everyone to forget me and so I could die", I repeated these lines every minute of my daily hourly walks.
Luckily for me, like something out of a movie.. There was a girl that i knew from school sitting in the woods nearby that i walk through, We spoke and she had the same problems, we helped each other and now we are basically engaged. Funny how things change.

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I had a relationship with my ex boyfriend of 2 years. Violent and was sick with jealousy . 6 months ago I decided to leave . But a few days ago , on my birthday, he told me he was still loving me. I really did not know how to act , I am currently with a boyfriend whom I love and was the love of my life since I was 11 years old. But I broke my heart to read these words of my ex because I had a very long relationship with . And it really made me stop my life and confuse my mind. It's very complicated.

>>6611701
I suppose your right anon, and yes I did cut things off. I just stopped trying with her. Thanks for listening.

>>6608280
damn anon that fucking sucks. even though it doesnt seem like much of an insult, it really feels like someone just stabbed your heart. i know exactly how you feel

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Just broke up with the GF She said that a break would "make me feel happier" because she was concerned that I was wearing myself thin trying to make her happy.

>>6612170
but i dont feel any happier

I wont be dropping heavy shells like some of you guys, but I need to get this off my heart.
I met tjis girl through my friend, she was excellent or so did I thought. After 2 years of being happy ive lost it. I guess my teenage rebelion came up. Ive fucked up school, I was sent off from my grandparents to my mother etc. Lots of unpleasant things. When she saw what is going on she decided to go abroad to Germany with her parents. I didnt objectify, i went literally insane, little part of me was happy that she was going. We broke up because of my behaviour and I take blame here on me.

I healed, i got better and stronger though, ive regained conciousness. We talked through skype until may 2015. She came back to my country on summer holidays, I was happy and so, I think right now, she was too. Somewhere near her departure she said to me that she loves me but she is with someone else in distant relationship. Because it shocked me i said that '' i dont care. I had a blast and that is whats important''. He eventually left her when he learned that she is at her exes place. She cried and we got back. Unfortunately in distant relationship.

During winter season it was all great, but after easter holidays she started to act weirdly. She didnt text me, call me; no sign of life except being online on league, steam etc. I called her and asked if something happened. She told me that everything is allright and she is busy working. Okay i thought.

In may, at the start she wrote to me that she feels bad, i asked her why. She was tired of me being undecisive, childish, that i was her child. Here i made a line. I was like this two years ago, maybe one and a half.
I said to her i need sometime. On a party two weeks after this I met a girl 8/10 who was completely all over me. I did it. I broke my low self-esteem because of this party. The matter of problem wasn't that we were breaking up.

Cont.
The matter was that she was high but in comparision to what i could have it was really low. She was jeallous of me and what i couldve been. I texted her is this what she wants. It wasnt heartbreaking. Not yet. She said yes, that we should be friends. Friends after fucking nearly 4 years of relationship. I said no. I told her that she should delete me from everywhere, because im on my phone. Thus, is how i had to broke up. It wasnt heartbreaking in this matter of word.

Heartbreaking was that she was a good actress. Im not sure when she actually wanted this, im not sure when she was satisfied with me, with love i gave her and memories. She couldn't told me that something is wrong, she had to play. And this wasnt heartbreaking in one snap. It was a constant feeling of misery, throught half of may.
In the end. Im glad, i focused on things i wasnt doing when i was with her and i feel content.
Thank you and sorry for some unreadable parts. Its late, im after work and i english is not my primar language.
Goodnight /wg/

>>6579681
Thanks the sweep wallpaper (the first one)
I see that your story is quite unhappy, but I guess since you know she is not the right person you don't have to be depressed about anything. You don't want to spend your life with someone that treats you like shiet.
I'm sure you'll find someone better

>>6579715
I totally relate to that phrase
I broke up with my girlfriend of 2 years because i was starting to fall for this other girl, and even though I generally don't regret that decision, I cannot stop thinking about my ex and how much she loved me.
I've loved other girls before but this is the person the phrase "first love" will always refer to in my mind

>>6580521
I have no idea how losing someone so close feels, but I did have a similar experience.
When I was like 7 my parents bought a cat for me, and I've grown up with him, he was like a brother to me. I've always liked the way the cat and I passively enjoyed each other's presence, and we developed a relationship over the years without ever orally communicating.
He recently died and I could not shed a tear when my father told me on the phone. I was (and still am) very sad on the inside but felt none of the physical symptoms of sadness. Now whenever my family members talk about the cat I want to yell at them because they never knew him like I did and to them it was only an animal that had been there for a while. I mean even they would probably say that they loved this cat but honestly I doubt that what they are feeling is even remotely close to what I, the one that hardly ever feels anything, feels

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>>6577461
>Met this girl last year, hung out a bunch and ended up going out for a couple months.
>Then she freaked out about us getting serious and bailed.
>Couple months ago we started talking again and hanging out, shes one of my best friends. >We get along perfectly, its amazing.
>Still in love with her, obviously.
>Go to a show a couple weeks ago, she gets drunk, we talk about this stuff.
>Seems good, like maybe something will happen in the future.
>Be a couple days ago, i bring it up again.
>She just wants to be friends, doesnt wanna fuck this up at all.

and thats where im at /b/ros. kinda already figured this would happen so the blow wasnt too bad. Still sucks though.

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>>6611757
Good to hear a happy ending, makes a cynical fuck like me happy.

>>6611905
I'll make it simple for you from second hand experience (>>6606713). DONT FUCKING TALK TO HIM, EVER. He fucked up, do not even let him contact you. Don't feel bad, seriously. He hurt you not because he said something that may have been well intentioned or didn't like your favorite movie. He committed domestic violence and will not change, ever.

>>6612174
She made up a reason. She has her own that she can't bear to tell you.

>>6612214
You did the right thing homie.

>>6612428
If you're happy being friends then that's all good but if you're not then you should end it. If it hurts too much then don't stick around to feel shitty because you wanna be "friends"


I suppose it's my turn to put in where I am at while relationships. After finding out that the girl I most recently fell for was dating someone else despite telling me she wasn't looking to date made me a little miffed but I got over it quickly. A few weeks later I realized that I am at a point where I am pretty happy doing what I am doing now, it's not great but it's working. I felt for the first time in my life that I didn't need a girl to be with which was a major cause of pain for me. I am still lonely but it's manageable. I am too cynical, brash, and outside of my college culture that I don't think I will find anyone here which is hard. I do hope I do find someone but being alone for so long is starting to seed thoughts of being forever alone and other fatalistic stuff. Fingers crossed that I get something going for me before I start to become more apathetic about what's going on around me outside of my circle of influence.

Have you ever seen a girl and thought to yourself "oh please be the one"
At the start of my first year in high school, I walked into this girl while finding my homeroom.
We hit it off immediately
We would talk, hangout, and even shop for lingerie.
And she would always mention my looks
I didn't even realize that she cared so much.
Around early October my acne kicks in
And I turn into a butterball, around this time I horde d alot of money and courage to ask her out to coffee
At this time I look like a pimple pie and I didnt even notice.
When I asked her, she said that next Monday would work.
She never showed up.
As I left, I heard her voice at the drive thru window.
She was with another guy.
I was left with a feeling of hate, emptiness, and disappointment.
I was the mood of my small group of friends and when this happened
They were concerned.
I confronted her on Thursday
And she obviously apologized and said that a friend had offered her coffee on the same day and confused the times.
She offered to buy me 2 cups the next week but never did.
The next time I saw her, she was with the same dude.
The kick is that they were together since the monday I heard her at the drive thru.
Cont?

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So I had a crush on this girl since December 2014. At this time we were going to the same school but are both to shy to talk to each other. So we just write a lot of text messages. End of december she finds out I have a crush on her. But she is also giving me signs that she is interested. As stupid as I am I still don't have the balls to talk to her.

Mid January I found out she has a boyfriend now. We stopped writing and I let her go even though she was never mine. I saw her everyday in school kisssing her boyfriend and thinking: "You could be that you fucking idiot!"
So time passed and my friends tell me her relationship is very bad because they're breaking up every month and coming back together. Because of her boyfriend who is cheating on her all of the time. But she somehow forgives him every time. So I let her be and focus on myself. Eventually getting a new girlfriend in December 2015.

Fast forward to mid march 2016.
I am at a friends party and then she walks in. At first we don't talk because we never did it before so I just try to relax and enjoy this night with my mates. The later it get's the more drunker we get. After some drinking games we end up drunk sitting on the balcony and talking about life and finally end up cuddling in the bed of the host of the party. I know she is still together with her boyfriend so I don't try anything. About 4 am the party finds an end and I bring her to her house because she is way to drunk at this time. Back home I constantly think about her and all the feelings that are coming back....

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This is a story about unrequited love and personal growth. And the tale might be lengthy if I start ranting so if you're not interested you can move on now.

So it starts in my sophomore year of my high school. I meet a girl named E and she becomes one of my best friends. E and I become really close, but I have no feelings for her at all. However, she has a friend A. Now A isn't a drop dead gorgeous bombshell but she's a tall blonde that could honestly be a model if she wanted to be. A beautiful smile to add on top. Now I thought she was just cute at first but I quickly found out she had a razor sharp wit, a good sense of humor, and a love for Doctor Who. I don't think she liked me at the time but I was like I should at least try so I started watching Doctor Who. We became friendly enough with each other after that, but me and her would always have these long winded debates. I liked these moments because we both wanted to be right and we tried forcing our wills on the other, not the most romantic thing but hey I loved her for her wit and charm. She was pretty sheltered and often my street smarts were all that exceeded her intelligence. Anyways this continues into the Senior year. Now I was head over heels for her, but she never returned the feelings(no signals I noticed) and I heard rumors that she liked another guy so I never mustered the courage to tell her how I feel. So everyday, I see her and try what I think is flirting (boy, was I dumb high schooler) in hopes she would return the feelings. At this point A and I are pretty good friends, but E keeps asking me out to events and I go with E to all of them.Now, I thought this was as friends, but everyone now thinks we're dating and E also thinks we're in a relationship. I see no future with A despite my feelings for her and E is my best friend and I treasure our friendship dearly and I realize E probably likes me as much as I like A, And now I can't bring myself to break her heart.

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Story Continued

So I go out with her. I show her affection and I'm glad me and her never had sex and it took me awhile before I could kiss her, I didn't find her that attractive. However, I made her as happy as I could.
Then as graduation is sneaking up on the whole school, E tells me that A once had a thing for me. I remember becoming dizzy and my head swirling with thoughts. I actually had a chance with my first love, the woman of my dreams. But I couldn't muster the courage for three damn years because i was being a little high school fuckboy. I was damn coward. Now I couldn't break up with E and then try for A because E and A were inseperable best friends. And I didn't want to ruin what E and I had. I didn't want to be her bf but I still wanted to be friends. So I decided I would make E as happy as I could for the rest of the year, break up with her, go to a different college and live my life to the fullest. That's what I did. I took E to prom, I told her she was beautiful as often as I could but then summer came and I broke it off. But I did it over the phone! Again I was reverting into my cowardly ways! We eventually met at her dorm months later, I wanted to see how she was doing. She was heart broken at first, and all of her friends and by association my old friends pretty much hated me. But I was on to a new chapter of my life and I was glad to see she had moved on to. I doubt she's with anyone else but A is now with another guy from what I've heard from others. Anyways. life is now great for me. I take risks, I'm pursuing my career, I've made great friends. I've moved out of my parents house and am still attending school. I've been with a lot of women since but no one who stirred my emotions like A. I'm glad to have escaped that love triangle of unrequited love. I know what it means to love and what it means to lose it. Maybe I'm just a naive 20 year old but I can't wait to meet the next love of my life wherever she is.

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All of you guys with relationship problems, I really hope you all end up happy with someone.

>be bi, 21
>been obsessed with the same guy for like 3 years
>all thru high school we were really good friends; not close like we could share anything, but we were both pretty big nerds
>he's still the only guy i've ever found that likes vidya, sports, AND music
>when we go to college we still kinda text each other sometimes, but he had a gf for a long time that was dependent and manipulative
>i addressed it with him and he got mad as fuck at me, didn't talk to me for months
>also at college he's kind of turning into a douche
>getting into dudebro music and car culture
>i'm still in love with the person that he used to be and still believe he can be
>present day
>he's broken up with his gf and was hoeing around for a while
>friendship feels distant as fuck and he often deliberately doesn't invite me to things
>i got 2 tickets to a music festival in July and invited him instead of my best friend
>feel myself getting unattracted to him because he's so different and he's an edgelord sometimes (he goes on reddit)
>still love him most of the time though, think about him way too much, get violently anxious about the idea of his disapproval or rejection
>thinking about just straight up telling him how i feel so i can stop wasting time and just move on since he's probably (???) straight
>every fucking time i think i'm done with him he shows moments where i see that he's still the person i fell in love with
>but he fucking hates me anyway
>i spend hours thinking about him every fucking day and he doesn't give a fuck about me or really anyone else unless they're of service to him, almost in a sociopathic kinda way
>my shitty mental state because of him interferes with my grades
>wanna tell him but I don't wanna lose him as a friend, and I feel like I'd be disrespecting his sexuality and hurting his trust
>been stuck like this for over a year
>this boy is breaking my life

>>6586950
Right on /b/ro *fist bump*

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Used to work at a place full with immigrants. They were all stereotypical dumb fucks. But there was this one kurdish dude i got along with really good. We shared the same humor and were both introverted shut ins. Hes also the dude that brought me on this site. Well as time went on i left the job and he left soon after me. We keept writing to eathother over phone occasionally and spent silvester together. Didnt really met up other than that cause we are both shutins. But yeah than he got drafted in by the military, havent heard from him since. idk he came the closest to a friend in years and it makes me sad everytime im on here. Idk all the other people i meet i cant stand at all and now ive known him i feel even more alone than i did before. He'd call me a totall fag for writing this but i miss him desu

tfw no gf
tfw never gf