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>>24036158
no more?

>>24036790
Sure. I've been drinking enough to share. I act like I don't really care about having a significant other. But in reality, I'm scared that I will die alone. All I want is a girl I can emotionally connect to so that I can maybe hate myself a little less.

>>24036158
I'm fucking tired, just got out of my drawing classes because i can't get out of my house, not because ~totally social anxiety~ but because it's too dangerous to go by metro, too expensive to go in a cab and I'm afraid of driving because of the fucking faggots driving motorcycles. But wait, there's more, it's always the same, my family shelters me and will do so until i get old and wrinkly, so they wonder why i stopped going to the classes, well, it's also because they never have time to take me anywhere, my brother is supposed to drive me there, but his balls are too heavy and he won't drive me there, and I'm sick of this, i won't got in any other bullshit course and i will shut myself in a room until i can get driving classes, then i will do whatever i want.

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I have the entire world at my feet. My life dream within grasp and the capability to achieve it.

But I'm failing miserably. Horrified, I'm loosing any motivation. I'm stalling, feeling my legs give way.

I am the biggest looser, because I can have it all but fail to reach. I feel like Tantalus.

Why the fuck do I "love" her more than when I actually saw her daily?

I really want to message her, in hopes that something happens. But I know nothing will come of it beyond a decent conversation. Just like every time before.

It is kinda annoying hearing her name alot, or music with her name. For some reason I almost think it's a sign to do something.

I was at work yesterday, and Maggie May by Rod Stewart began playing on the radio, followed by Your my Best Friend by Queen.

For some reason I think I saw the girl I am interested in while driving. Looked kinda like her from the top of her head.

Fuck. Why does everything remind me of her?

>>24032176

Sure, if you're still in this thread and want to hear some, I'll share.

>>24036158
Okay here we go, I never told this to anybody.
>be me
>be married for the past year
>extremely happy she is the one, we get along perfectly, have a very sane and healthy relationship, make projects together and we still have sex like horny teens more than6 years after we started dating.
>pretty much perfect relationship everybody envy us
>yet when I travel I immediately create some fake profile on tinder and other meeting apps and start contacting chicks
>I never ever meet them, just messaging. Most of the time I tell them I am married and just looking for friends to discover the city or recomendations to go by myself.
>goal is to seduce them
>and then get sexy pics
>after they succumb to my pressing seduction and send me a snap of their crotch or voice message of them masturbating for me I lose interest immediately
>I know this is some bullshit about being desired and the love for the hunt and insecurities about how I can remain faithful to my wife but still I feel like crap and yet cannot seem to stop doing that.
>it started before we got married, I was able to stop for like 10 month the year we got married but I'm back at it again
>wtf is wrong with me?
>she would be devastated and I would lose the most precious thing in my life and hurts the most important person to me.

I'm tired of being a 26yo khv.

I just got my hair cut today and i'm feeling like i need to try and go out and meet girls.

I want to atleast try before i go and get a hooker. I was going to get a hooker but after the haircut today im feeling a bit more positive and that as i said, i should give it a go before giving up and paying for sex.

What do you normies think?

I've recorded my aunt shower when I was younger, and my cousin and I jacked off to it together.

>>24037536
If the question wasn't rhetorical, I'd say that you "love" the idea of her, since maybe you've left behind the bad memories or traits. You've idealized her and there's no real or present reference for you to... keep your feet on the ground when it comes to her (I couldn't come up with a better expression, sorreh)

My stepbrother has been fucking me since we were young and now I have a gf and I'm 19 I still go to his place every week and let him do whatever he wants. My gf has no idea and sex with him is so much better. But my gf is submissive and lets me do what I want which is hot too...

>>24038399
Eh. Probably it is the Idea of her, as I never got close enough to actually love her.

But with the negative traits, I haven't picked up on them.

I know she's shy, used to smoke, and that's about all the negative I've seen with her, and the shy bit can be either or.

>>24038463
How do you know nothing will come out of it? 100% sure?

>>24038507
Greentext

>Meet M. at end of January
>She sits infront in Pub Speaking
>She's cute enough,
>Start to like her
>Ask her out in Early April
>Say's yes, Friend R seems to force his way to tag along
>I ask her out to get coffee a week later
>"I'm Busy" with now counter offer.
>I stop for a month, other than occasionally speaking in class, and an odd text here or there.
>Most day's we don't acknowledge each other, sometimes talking around each other
>Mid-May rolls around. Invite her to hang out with friends in the City
>Busy (Her Bro's Graduation from College)
>We agree to hang out soon. No dates set, as we both have finals
>Text her randomly a week later asking about the graduation. We end up talking for 5 hours, with another short thing the following morning
>Invite her to a thing in the City that Saturday. (Again with my friends)
>This time she's doing stuff with friends. No date offered again.
>I asked her out a week or so ago, (Via Text as thats the only comms I have with her)
>Looks like her phone is kinda broken due to the text sending as an SMS and not iMessage like usual
>So, No reply
>Try to get my mind off her
> Randomly a friend texts me about her.
>Because of him reminding me of her, I check to see if shes back on iMessage.
>She is, so phone is back and working
>But still no reply.
>Spoke to her a week and half after I asked her
>She made no reference to when I asked her out.
>She either is avoiding it, or never saw it (Though she did accidently send ;) but quickly corrected it to :) )
>I sure as hell am not going to bring it up again.
>Text to see if shes free to hangout with a friend and I
>Busy, graduation party
>Did not buy it
>Sent this "I don't mean to sound like an asshole, but if you don't want to hang out at all just say so."
>She does not respond
>I check, and see that her sisters HS did graduate the following day.
>Now I regret it.

>>24038308
honestly, I'm not going to give you the usual "be yourself" speech but it's pretty spot on.
seduction is like any other human relation, it takes trial and error and some of us have a better emotional intelligence and empathy and get good at it faster.
self confidence is important, if you do not feel worthy of the girl you are pursuing she'll feel it at some point or you won't go all in when necessary.
Also don't put them on a piedestal like a fedora tipper, or hate them like some ultimate gentleman. Women are neither mystical naiades or gold digger vapid sluts, they are just normal human beings, so treat them like any other of your buddies (assuming you have any).

First practice your social skills, find a club or an association of people practicing a hobby you like and go regularly. Force yourself to make small talk to the people. Doesn't matter if it's archery, potery, helping at the local shelter etc. Just find some people sharing an interest of yours or something you want to do or learn. Old people are easy as they are desperate for people to talk to too. So muster some courage and small talk them. If you really suck at it look some movies and series and mark down some chitchat lines that normal people use (it seems sad but I know an assburger friend who did it and it worked in the end) you will sound like an awkward robot at first but keep trying. Nothing to lose, it doesn't matter if Miss Michum and her ugly
When you feel more confident try talking to younger girls at that club, there will ALWAYS be a member of the feminine gender.
Also, starting to get interested in mainstream things like popular tvshows and music does help quite a bit to have convo starter.
Not sayan you need to watch all of hannah montana and listen to justin bieber, but having seen true detective, orange is the new black or breaking bad does help. nothing like discussing the last chapter of games of thrones.
learn what they like about the male characters for example.

>>24038558
cont

after that it's just a matter of time until one of them start to like you and make more and more obvious moves on you.
Dont be a dumbass, pick up the signs, invite her to a date,
panick
spill spaghetti
it will go better next time son

>>24038556
Don't regret it, I don't think you said anything wrong. But someone doesn't talk for 5h with someone if they don't enjoy it. From my personal experience, if she's shy, have you considered that maybe she doesn't know what to say? I mean, some women, while they like you, or are considering how much they do, simply don't know how to act on those feelings, regardless of them being returned or not

>>24038617
Maybe that is the case. But even then I don't know what to do now. I am afraid to seem desperate

And I don't know just how shy she is.

>>24038677
Look, tell her things as they are and see what happens. Act as confident as you can, and you won't seem desperate, I mean, it's not like you're begging for a date.
If the alternative is giving up on her, you have nothing to lose, do you?

I'm stressed, I'm having to move, I just got a new fuck buddy and talking to another chick. There's no way to stay here and the people I live with are like family and we want to stick together, but the secondary friends suck.

>>24038699
I guess, but I already made it abundantly clear in the past that I am interested. I honestly think it would be easiest to get closure if I spoke in person, but I can't do that at this point in time. I think I may give it till about the 21st or so, then ask if she wants to just grab lunch as friends. (It would be a month after my last text with her

>>24038715
Not only your interest, but asking if there's something she has to say or something, that you feel her distant and you want to know why.
Why can't you talk in person right now?

>>24038784
No classes until end of August, and I don't leave close enough that I could reasonably run into her.


But, if I do this whole thing, it would be best in person

>>24038795
Absolutely, and body language can tell you a lot, that's a plus.

I hope I could help somehow, I wish you the best of luck anon

>>24038813
Yea, thanks. I think I'll wait a couple more weeks before doing anything, but when I do I'll try to get us to meet up for something as small as coffee. Just as a reason to see her in person and just end this whole thing, either with us becoming a thing, or just remaining friends.
Prior to actually asking her out their were some subtle signs of interest.

She would randomly sit next to me, and other times we would lock eyes from a distance.

>>24038839
I think it may be that uncertainty I mentioned, and if I'm right, talking might help and hopefully you'll become a thing.
Some women get scared when they see someone showing interest in them.

>>24038876
Maybe thats the case. She seems like that type, but that view could just be due to being hopeful.
But How could I really talk to her and get her to actually meet up?

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>>24036158
After a break up or when i lose someone i really enjoy being friends with i get really depressed. But i deal with it by sleep black guys for cheap thrills and to feel wanted. Idk why but it has to be a black guy. Thing is i rarely dont feel like total garbage afterword. Yet i always find myself going back specifically for build up. Most times i do it because the build up is so intense. Its risky because i dont know how he's going to react when i say some slutty line like "i can really use some black dick" and its kinda empowering to egg the guy and saying racial stuff openly during the drive because i know he's going take it because he wants it. But the build up is usually better then the end result where the guy came several times and now i'm awkwardly cuddling with some guy with caution hoping he put his arms around me and doesn't suddenly have to do. Not to mention the guy's tends to be a jerk or somebody i have nothing in common with and i'd never befriend or date in my entire. I dont know why i'm like this, i'm not racist or white trash and i usually get 7s and 8s on soc.

Idk wtf is wrong with.

>>24038894
I don't know, ask for a coffee, tell her that you should talk, I mean, I can't really say, since I don't know her

>>24038990
I guess that would be the best plan. I'll just wait until I get paid and see.

I guess I could say "Hey Maggie, want to grab coffee in a day or two?" but leave out the we need to talk bit?

Still will be a bit of a pain, as I live a little bit a ways from her.

>>24039013
The need to talk was to make obvious that it's kinda urgent or necessary, but it's up to you to mention it.
I'd start with that, sounds good. Or maybe if she'll be free and then try to suggest a more specific date?

>>24039048
I guess. I suppose I could add the need to talk, but that could potentially dissuade her.

But how could I bring up the issue when I actually see her? I am stupidly awkward....

>>24039076
Would you like to try or practice (so to speak)?
I don't really know what to tell you right now

>>24039141
I guess this is as far as you can help me, I will probably try and do something either during the work week (If our lunches line up) or next friday, to arrange something.

I suppose I will probably be able to feel out the situation and move as I see fit

>>24039149
Great then, I'm sure you'll manage
Good luck :)

>>24039183
Hopefully. I usually can talk fine with her in person. But who knows if I still can. I havent seen her in two months.

God damn I'm lonely.

>>24039224
Who isn't?

Eleanor Rigby: "Where do all the lonely people come from?"

>>24038295
right there with you bud... except i am getting a divorce..

>>24038295
Its not just you anon.
No reason for it.
The compulsion is ridiculous.
Time wasted and being sneaky adds up.
I have been caught and the wife nearly left. I try to explain that it isn't cheating but she disagrees entirely as she should. Stupid self destructive behavior.

i fell for a girl on the other side of the world 3 weeks ago. met her on /soc/ skype thread. this has never happened to me before, i never ldr. but i want her you guys. ive never wanted anyone more in my life. i stuck a pen in my ass for her you guys. i stuck a pen in my ass at work, and videotaped it. is this not love? is it?

The other day when I slept with the guy I've been seeing, he was actually taking my virginity. I lied about my romantic past to avoid embarrassment, but now I feel guilty about not letting him know.

>>24039601
How old are you?

I'm so fucking clingy now it hurts. I literally can't make it several hours without trying to talk to this person. I always needed my space and now I feel the need to be in theirs constantly. Why am I like this?

>>24039666
I'm the same way right now but she won't respond

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I stepped completely out of my confort zone. I quit a job I have held for 4 years after leavng the armed forces.
I'm slightly ashamed to admit it, but i just cried a bit in fear and utter lonelyness. But fuck it, time to say it and move on.
I have been working behind the scenses to make shit happen for 4 years, now made a move to make shit happen for myself and I have never been more scared in my life, alos admitting that I matter is horrifying... god damn I am a pussy...
fuck it, life goes on

>>24038407
what do you look like anon?

I just want someone to love me. There's a latina qt I've been talking to for a few weeks and I've heard from a few of her friends that she's really into me but every time we talk she always goes on about how depressed she is and how she thinks she's gonna die alone and I keep trying to get her to stay positive until our date on Wednesday but it's looking like she's gonna cancel. On top of that I'm fat and I have a really weird fetish (didn't tell her about it, probably won't ever, but still. I want to be sexually fulfilled too but I don't want to be judged) and it just feels like I look promising at a distance but as soon as I try to kindle any emotional flame people turn and run. I just want to smoke all my problems away.

>>24039405
yup nearly got caught at the beggining of our relation, she suspected some things, saw some pics but forgave me as, indeed it wasn't actualy cheating , more akin to porn. But still considered it as being ufaithful.
which is totally normal.

do you still do it?
Some time I can go a whole while without doing it but then it starts again as suddenly as it disapeared. Nothing to do with our sex our love life. At the begining I even did it whithout traveling, would be fucking her minds out and text random sluts right after I dropped her at her place.
Should I seek professional help? I don't wat this stupid lust for the hunt to destroy my otherwise perfect marriage

>>24038342
lol

>>24039666
>>24039683
Know that feeling, happened to me the first time I had a big crush.
It's unhealthy and made me rather sad / depressed.
looking back I cannot see how it could have ended well as there was such a discrepancy between the "need of the other" we each had.
Constantly having to fake not wanting to see her or being uninterested, timing my messages instead of answering her right on the spot because I had been checking my phone compulsively for her reply for the past two hours etc made me rather miserable.

Hope you are smarter/better than me but be prepared to suffer a bit and accept to make compromises.

I found a perfect relationship later, one where I could be myself, one where we can be constantly together without minding, or be apart from a while and enjoy our time. Don't lose hope, it exists!

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>>24036158
I get really bad dandruff around this time of year. I collect that large skin flakes from my scalp and keep a pile of them, adding to it every day a few flakes at a time.
It's gotten so big that one of my friends even asked "what's all that under your bed"? I just said it was pieces of cardboard, not seborrheic dermatitis :^)

Last year I let the pile reach a large enough size to fill a coffee mug, and threw it all off the balcony like confetti. I plan on doing it again once this pile reaches that size too.

Time to vent.
I don't understand sexuality. Don't think I have or ever will. I know when certain people would be considered beautiful but sometimes I'm not attracted to anyone and other times I could fall in love with literally everyone I look at if I go on a walk. Or maybe I just feel like that's the case? I don't know and I don't understand it. I can't get off to porn thoughts don't do it either.

I'm so disappointed in myself because I ruined my chances in highschool to have a good education because I procrastinate so much. I told myself the work was easy and I could just do it later. It gets to later and I just don't feel like doing it. So when I eventually left school, I hated myself for it and promised to never do that again. I've changed so much since then and I felt like I could definitely fix that behavior but now I'm back to studying and I'm doing the same thing all over again, even though I tell my dad that I'm doing better now. I hate that I'm lying to him but I can't work up the courage to tell him the truth.

I want to get out more to meet more people but I'm quite shy. I can deal with people in a professional environment without going quite or whatever but any other time I either have trouble talking or literally can't stay near without a friend of mine being present. I don't go out to bars or the library or whatever as I prefer to have what I need with me at home so I buy whatever books I want and I rarely drink anyway.

My philosophy is to never regret things that I've done (and therefore don't do anything I think I would regret) but there's so much stupid shit that I've done in the past that haunts me to this day. I still don't regret them because I needed to have done them to learn that they're wrong/stupid but I don't know how to deal with it. I've considered contacting the parties involved and apologizing but I get caught on thinking maybe they don't remember, maybe they hate me so much they wouldn't want to hear what they have to say.

>>24041475
Some of them I just can't find so I can't apologize to them but the ones I can find, I just can't bring myself to start a conversation.

And finally, the fact that I have to get this stuff off my chest but only feel comfortable doing so on an anonymous forum with people I don't know and can't confide in the one friend that stayed with me from highschool. All of this is constantly on my mind and it's tearing me apart Lisa. I just don't know what to do.

Didn't sleep last night, still all in my feelings. Might as well keep going. I'm not an ugly guy, at least I certainly don't think so. I'm fat but I have a decent face and I'm really good at talking to people so maybe I'm a 5 all things considered. That being said, I am so tired of feeling like people are settling for me. Maybe it's just because I end up with people who are out of my league anyway or something but I hate feeling like I have to constantly overcompensate for my body and go above and beyond trying to make people happy. I do so much but nobody ever goes out of their way to make me feel special. Don't I deserve at least a "hey, how are you doing?" or someone to actually console me when I'm all in my feelings? I want to be sought after for once in my fucking life. I'm tired of chasing relationships only for me to have to do all the work. I dunno, i'm probably just obsessed with fixing people but when someone tells me their problems I actually try to talk through them and make that person feel better. I don't feel accomplished unless I do. Is it too much to ask that someone do the same for me? I understand that mine aren't as severe as yours but I get my feelings hurt too. I'm not as stoic as I present myself to be in casual conversation and if I share that side of myself with you it's because I really really trust you. Fuck me I'm rambling. I just want to feel like someone is actually trying to impress me for once instead of feeling like I'm the only person on this planet who considers me attractive.

>>24038558
>>24038570
Forgot to mention i am hard of hearing so this is the biggest obstacle i face. It's a 65-45% loss in each ear, throw in background noise, even the wind blowing, and that % increases.

Might be getting http://esteemhearing.com/ one of these but there have only been five surgeries performed in the UK for this stuff...

>>24041534
>>24041534
urk sorry to read that.
I have had bad ear infection when I lived in Japan and losing even 30-40% of hearing in one ear made conversation very hard if there was more than one person.

Still there are thousands of chicks learning sign language. Dont know if you speak it? going to a class to learn it, just in case your hearing doesn't deteriorate any more, will help you meet a bunch of girls. Not sayan you have to stick with white knights who will pity fuck you but you need the practice to get the right girl, so you need to start somewhere.
Meeting chicks that aren't put off by your slight handicap or even like it is starting in easy mode for you.
sorry if this seems cynical

I have been dating my current gf for 3 1/2 years. She recently became really clingy and emotionally abusive . Finally decided that i dont want to be with her anymore so shes visiting her family, we live together, and doesnt know that all her stuff is packed and ready to go when she gets back. I feel like this is a really cowardly way to go about it but i honestly havn't felt like a man in a long time and this was the only way i could separate my self from her. I'm going to ensure i have other people here when she gets back because last time i tried to break up with her she tried to kill me. Like i had to get her into a leg lock just to get her to stop. Hopefully things will start looking up from now on, heres hoping.

>>24041617
good luck, at least you mustered the courage to end it.
be wary of not falling back in it again later, the ugly disapears fast while the nice moment linger in your memory and you npstalgia about your past relation

>>24041620
Yea im gonna drop all contact with her once she leaves. Where i live and where her parents live is a 2-3 hour drive so i wont have to worry about her trying to come over to my house as much. The only problem is she is close to one of my friends gfs so shes most likely gonna try to get back in that way.

>>24040958

well if she's talking about being afraid of dying alone to you, merhaps that's an invitation, myeah?

>>24041591
I don't use sign language no, my hearing is good sometimes so i don't bother to learn it.. I really should. I don't lip read either. The classes they do here are full of old people. I know because i have been there several times in the last few years. I don't think there are any young people because i never see anyone my age at their club or anything.

>>24038295
>goal is to seduce them
>and then get sexy pics
>after they succumb to my pressing seduction and send me a snap of their crotch or voice message of them masturbating for me I lose interest immediately

Why do you do this? How old are you anyway and why do you travel, it's part of your job?
>>24041208
Seems like you need help, you must have the looks and social capability to carry it off though, maybe i envy you. I dunno, maybe you're young? If you dwell on it, it wont help. You know you need to stop!

I hid a camera in our bathroom while my cousin was visiting. It filmed her undressing for a shower and then, after the shower, cleaning her teeth in the nude and before putting on her pyjamas and leaving the bathroom.

She cleaned her teeth for almost two minutes and, while she was doing it, her pussy filled the entire screen and, because the camera was fairly low, I could clearly see her labia. This is the part of the film that I masturbate to most often.

Another part I especially like is when she drops her towel and bends down to pick it up. Her lovely tits swing in a way that really turns me on, although it only lasts for a few seconds.

So I've seen my cousin naked. That's my secret.

I'm pretty sure I've got pregnant from a 34 year old man who's my swimming coach while I'm just 19.

>>24041655
It probably is, that's the thing. She's just extremely difficult to read, even for me. I don't know if I should be laying it on thicker or easing off a little or what. Mixed signals out the ass

It's been over two years and I just realized I'm still am not over my ex. I have gotten with a handful of guys since then but have yet to find anyone who interests me, or makes me feel anything. It's like I've become emotionally numb. I'm not consciously comparing them to him, but I can't find any type of spark with people even the ones that I find attractive. When I start dating people I always have to tell them I'm not into it, or find some excuse as to why I'm leaving. It causes me a lot of guilt for some reason I can't place. Maybe it's because I act like I feel close to them but I just don't.

Living between paychecks has kicked up a whole lot of other troubles I've been trying to keep under control.

I feel lonely and absolutely worthless. I can't afford to see my friends in Canada and I feel like I'm nothing but an annoyance to them the way things are right now. I can't afford to see the only girl I'm interested in right now either and she shows no interest in working something out either. After thinking about how my friends act around me I realize that my shitty or obscure taste in everything makes me boring and nothing but a pest to deal with. I wish they would all just tell me so I can just give up.

I've been trying hard to change my outlook on life and I was doing well until these money issues came along. Now it's worse than ever. I don't feel happy and I don't feel I have the capacity too either. It feels like every positive thought I had before was nothing but a stream of lies to push myself forward. The only way I can cope is by treating myself as less than a person and trying to come to terms with the fact that its not possible for me to change it.

I don't like it, but I can't say "help me" to my friends, even though it's only or support. They would just be troubled more than they are by me and even if they weren't there's nothing they can do. There's nothing I can tell them that wouldn't bring then down, so I guess an anonymous Vietnamese slideshow website is all I have.

tl;dr I'm just complaining about things I could probably fix easily.

I miss my "internet crush".
We never had a relationship and never had to means to meet. We talked daily for two years, spent nights on webcam, been next to each other through all sorts of shit.
We decided to part after a while because we were holding each other back. It has been a year. I miss him and it still fucking kills me. I constantly think of him. I still search for his social profiles to see his face. It gives me a huge pain in my chest, every time.

> stolen naked pics of my "in-laws" and posted them online
> coerced women in to taking pics.
> have viewed illegal porn
> constantly cheat on my significant other
> constantly humiliate and degrade her either passively or actively by anonymously sharing pics of her to her male friends and coworkers.
> slept with various members of her family
> hidden cam whenever female friends or family are over
> have had incestuous relations
> little to no remorse when I'm caught doing something that hurts the people I love or love me
> almost didn't stop someone I know from drowning when she passed out from being drunk and slipped into a pool


Reposting from the last thread.
I don't know where to start, because as much as I think I'm a pretty good person, I have a very very dark side that manifests itself whenever the opportunity arises.
Part of me hates that side of me, but some part enjoys it.I constantly battle internally to keep from doing some of those awful things, but they always creep back in to my mind.

My sorrow has turned to anger, so I am now angry pretty much 24/7. It takes every bit of my being not to go off on people constantly.

>>24041705
Is he married?

I have never let on how difficult i still find dealing with my previous assault

I've been with my current boyfriend for a year now, but I can honestly say that I don't have any deep feelings for him. It's funny also, because I've developed pretty serious abandonment issues also. I always need somebody to date, I think I use it as a distraction because without a boyfriend I'd be really lonely and unable to find the motivation to cope by myself. Everytime I've left someone, it will take me a maximum of two weeks to find somebody else.
I kind of feel like a professional girlfriend, kind of like a chameleon, because of how well I am able to change my personality and hobbies to make a man like me.
I know that I left my current boyfriend I probably wouldn't be very upset, and would quite quickly find somebody else. So far he has proved to be an excellent partner, and encouraged me to take up hobbies that I may continue if he does leave. He also doesn't seem to have any major personality flaws, I don't think he can see through me.

I want to badly to talk to somebody about my assault, and maybe counselling would help me be a less shitty insecure person. But I wouldn't want anything like this recorded on a computer for a doctor to see during a general checkup.

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honestly i just feel super alone and i'm sorta... confused because no one really wants to be around me except a few close friends? but like.... i need constant attention sometimes so like.... what do? where do i find friends, how do i develop these connections? where do i even begin to look?

I really hate child abuse

I browse 4chan, I play Pokemon Go

>>24041913
I think you guys can make it work. Are you male? Where do you guys live, same country?

When women wear nail polish, it turns me on.

Dude I like is 28, I'm 20 and I find the age gap hot.
My mother would kill me if I brought home a 28 y.o and I have a bf who isnt him.
I wont break up with my boyfriend to be with him because I'm a selfish cunt who has her cake and is eating it too.
Always thought you cant like 2 people at once, yet here I am.
28 y.o said he would wait for me, I want him to move on and find another girl so he can be happy because waiting for me is so fucking awful.
We are such good friends, neither of us intended to catch the bus for a feeltrip.
If it wasnt for 28, I'd be happy with my boyfriend.
If it wasnt for my boyfriend, I'd be happy with 28.
I wont break up with him unless he gets cunty again.
Hi A, please move on :/

The hardest part about leaving my boyfriend of years and ending what gas become an unhealthy relationship is the fact that we have a dog together

>>24038295
I do the same.

If you feel guilty about it, try talking to your girlfriend about it.

My girlfriend knows I do it, and has no issue with it.

It's just the thrill of the hunt.

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I never realized I am such a terrible person
But I just was thinking about the future and I realized something about myself and I am ashamed
I realized I'm not afraid of poverty because of poverty, IE I've lived in those conditions as a child and as an adult working for myself, I know how to survive, meet my needs and still have a laff once in a while

so it's not the idea of living in poverty, it's that if I was poor my wife would be fat
because no reasonably looking woman would settle down for a factory worker or forklift driver or something
and I just never realized that I am such a shallow person, and I feel so bad about it

I'm about to get a divorce from a woman I loved for 7 years and the reason why is because she has mentally abused me. The thing is, I still love her but it has become difficult to even see a future with her. We practically seperated in the last year because she though i was watching porn in the same room my son sleeps in. This was not the case, but she believed she is right no matter what. I have constanly tried to help her to take care of herself and sleep in a normal time, but all she does is stay up till 2 AM in the morning.

After our seperation, I keep on asking her when we can get back together. She never gave a concrete answer amd continued to give me false hope. And when I start pestering about, all she does is blame me for everything that went wrong.

I knew our marriage was going to end in divorce the last year but I kept denying it constanly. I think the one thing that finally helped me make the decision is when I told her we keep in hitting on savings but all she does is blame me or using all the money.

>>24042297
You're definitely a bad person, and the fact that you try to convince others or yourself that you're "a pretty good person" is laughable. Quit being a fucking asshole, no one is a good person, we all do bad shit. God damn embrace it and just be an actual bad person. You're a closeted piece of shit, just go for the gold already and accept your reality, sugar coating is just that.

>>24044250
I am a girl.
We live in different continents. Almost at the exact opposite side of earth.
It can't work. But this doesn't mean that I don't love him, or miss him, or think of him as my soulmate and wish we will have a life together.

>>24044693
Bullshit it can't. I live in the US, and have a sweetheart in europe. It is very easy to make things work, if you are willing to take the plunge.

We chose the marriage route. Why can't you do the same? Don't throw this chance away. You won't get another.

>>24045183
Because we don't have enough money to make it work. Plane tickets cost 5000$ themselves, even ignoring all the other costs. We tried saving for 2 years and didn't manage to save enough. We're both still in school, working part time.

We were very happy and we tried our best to be together, but it didn't work out. It is still painful. He was the most amazing person I've ever met and I know I won't met someone else like him.

>>24045522
5k? From what country? To fly my SO over, is only going to cost 1k, provided we order the tickets in a healthy advance.

I am sorry to hear about your loss. Do keep in mind however; that in all this time you are giving up, you could have saved. If it was true love, there are also other avenues of making money, depending on your personal circumstances, and living situations.

I don't mean to come off as harsh. It's just a little disheartening to hear your story, is all. Perhaps if circumstances were different, I may have (and may still) suffer the same fate.

>>24045606
Oceania/Europe.Quite expensive flight.
He lives in a very expensive area, I have health problems. It's not really easy to save, we tried really hard.

We are trying to move on, we agreed that it was the best thing for both of us at this point.
I haven't heard from him since October, but I think of him every day.
I thought that at some point I would be able to find someone else and move on, but it's not easy when you met someone so good for you. Everyone else seems mediocre.
I hope he's doing better than me, lol.

>>24041514
I know how you feel. I don't know how to fix this, but you're not alone in feeling like this.

>>24045645
I am very sorry for your loss, you have my genuine condolences, for whatever they are worth to you. It really saddens my heart to hear the circumstances you both were in.

The days since october must have been excruciatingly slow. I wish I could say something more to you, truly. But words are as worthless as the air they occupy.

I hope someday your heart can find what it needs.

I'm transgender and I want to die

>>24046148
why?

I just realized why.

It's because I don't deserve it.

If I didn't have that first relationship, I probably would've lost hope and suicided. But she introduced me to how wonderful love could be, possibly saving my life, and in turn what did I do? I got mad with power and purposefully drove her to near-suicide.

I don't deserve it. I deserve to die.

Fuck.

I have a regular case of depression. Most people I know are depressed to a certain degree.

It still sucks, though. I'm doing okay in life. I just struggle with keeping friends. I can make friends easily, I'm not a very shy person. My issue is that I lose interest in keeping in touch or trying to do anything with them beyond a blue moon visit.

I start thinking how disconnected I can be and it deters me from wanting to maintain a consistent appearance. They love it when I'm around because I can keep a conversation going and be pretty entertaining, but beyond one or two weekends I just become emotionally drained.

Like other anons posted here, I'll just kik random girls/trans or create profiles to meet and talk with people til I get a picture/video of them whacking it and lose interest.

I'd rather have that 15 minutes of fun chase rather than trying to be anything beyond that.

I feel like I can never talk about my emotions or show any emotions or else I'll look like a pussy. So I just end up being a dick every second and bottle everything up, and when I do tell somebody what I'm feeling I don't want their sympathy and I don't want them telling me things I should do. I'm a wreck.

Im 18 and I fucked a 37 year old last week and it was the best sex of my life.

Only thing is... it was a sugarbaby/ sugardaddy relationship thing so he paid me for it and I technically have a boyfriend.

I feel so love starved its driving me insane... Was in a relationship a few years ago with this bi-polar chick that have some massive daddy issues and manipulative tendencies, and now that i met someone i feel the "conditioning" from this crazy bitch haunting the back of my mind.

Now i feel vulnerable and alone if i dont hear from this new girl for less than a day, and i know just a mere "hi" would make my day...

*sigh* I feel so goddamn broken, and paranoid of doing something wrong all the time. My EX was one of those that used the silent treatment on me, and now if i am met with silence i kinda shut down completely.

I wish i didnt have to feel these feels anymore.

>>24037015
Are you me?
>went to college right out of high school
>hs was ez, hadn't studied a day in my life
>know what I want to do in college, learning is simple for me
>don't get out of bed
>don't go to class
>don't do my homework
>just play vidya and smoke weed
>for two semesters
>come out of it with 12 credit hours
Nobody understands, and neither do I. People try and get a why out of me and I have no answer. Do you?

>kissless virgin at 21
>good looking so no one would really expect it
>have my first gf now
>told her at our first few dates that I had multiple sexual partners to not seem like a weirdo
>been together for about 5 months now
>she was also a virgin when we had sex
>she's the best thing to ever happen to me
>cant get over the fact that Im living this lie I get reminded of almost every week through conversation
>no idea how I can ever come clean without destroying her trust

fuck i feel shitty.

>>24048141
Just tell her, man. Odds are she'll think it's cute that you were too shy to say.

There's actually a song about that. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FDirZLIHoWM

I hate you people (not you anons). I cry because I want to be like you but don't know how to do it. Be selfish, a bitch, cruel, mean, heartless, inhumane. Only these kinds of people get love and respect in this world. That way I won't be taken for granted anymore, people will actually love me, and they'll fear to make a bad move with me. I want to be a black hole of a person, who sucks all the energy and niceness and it still won't be filled. Just like you people are. I want others to chase me, be at my heels, do whatever I please. Treat them like shit and they'll still adore me.
I'm so angry and frustrated because I don't know how to be like that.

i hate myself so goddamn much i've pretty much given up on ever experiencing sex and romance. my therapist wants me to think about where i'll be in five years and the only realistic answer i can think of dead by suicide. the only thing that keeps me going is the fact that i have so much more music to make. and much more thc, lsd, and nicotine to put in my body

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18/m

I'm in my first relationship ever right now, and I've already decided that this is love. We've been dating for 3 months and I've told her everything about me, all my secrets, all my troubles, everything. She, on the other hand, hasn't told me much. She has had at least 9 boyfriends in the past, but according to her, I'm the first one she's "loved". Sex is pretty much non-existant with her. Her uncle touched her in her youth and now she says that's what keeps her from having sex, although when we sext and talk dirty and what not she gets into it. Like really REALLY into it. She claims to not have any kinky fetishes like I do (I'm a pretty sexual person) though when we sext, she tells me she wants me to get aggressive with her, let her know that she's mine. I'm a pretty gentle person and I don't know how to be aggressive in bed, But I gave it my best go one night. It was going pretty well with me talking about how I was going to fuck her with no emotion and her talking about how she was going to kick and punch and that I was just going to have to take her. Then I said, well yeah I'm just going to have to take you, because I need to have you. To which she replied: "What are you going to do, rape me?"

I replied Jesus Fucking Christ. She said "No, take what's yours. Keep going"

But I couldn't

Even though I did like the idea of holding her down and forcing myself inside of her.

It's just a weird situation because she says that she will never be able to have sex because of what happened, though she talks about it as if she wants it now, at that moment. She even says "Baby I want you! So fucking bad"

Am I sick for wanting to rape her? Have I tied myself to a sexless relationship, or is there still a chance?

>>24041208
My fiance does similar shut to me. He just picks his actual friends to cross the line with. He has been given his final warning - it ends or I walk

Know that if she is indeed not okay with it, and she finds out, she will be fucking shattered.

Get help or leave her be. You pick your priorities.

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i'm a 32 year old virgin.

wow. so surprising.

i haven't even gone on a date in 7 years, or asked a girl out in 6. because it's hopeless.

I'm 26, married to my high school sweetheart (4 years, been together almost 10) and have a 2 year old. A few months before I met my wife when I was 16n I got drunk as hell and had a gay experience.

Not only does she not know I've had dick in my mouth but I'd like to relive that experience someday.

That's my secret

>>24048439
It's only hopeless because you've lost hope. When you're single, getting pussy is just like losing weight. Without dedication and determination you aren't going to go anywhere.

"But I'm a fat slob"

No excuse. One of my best friends as a teenager was close to 300 pounds and got all kinds of ass. Even dated a solid 7 by average standards (pretty damn good for a 300 pound dude)

No more excuses. You might have to man the harpoons and raw dog some fatties here and there, but hey, everyone starts somewhere

I fell in love with my boyfriend a couple summers ago. Didn't want a relationship but he did. He woo'd me pretty hard, was such the perfect guy I couldn't say no. Affectionate, caring, considerate, helpful, felt like equals. 6 months into the best relationship of my life he starts doing drugs. Bad. Hard drugs. Been through withdrawals and relapses since then. So hard, emotionally crippling experiences. Stick with him because I love him. Now he's sober and been so for like 7 months so things are looking pretty good but things aren't the same. I'm not sure if the last couple years changed him, or if we were just still in the 'Honeymoon phase' before but he's not the same loving person he was. Not abusive just not sweet and caring. I need someone who shows as much effort as I do. I don't consider myself clingy but we live together and I like cooking and cleaning and doing things for him but now it all feels so one sided, like I'm putting all the effort in. I wonder if I'm just being a bitch because maybe he needs time to heal, he might still be numb. But I feel so empty and alone, even in a relationship with him. I don't know if I should leave him. I'm scared I stay because I'm comfortable- not that I don't love him but I'm just not sure if it's really the 'him' I fell in love with anymore. I wish I could have him back, the real him. The worst part is I don't think he'd really care or fight for me if I asked him to leave. I know I'm a catch. Good career, cute face and body, great cook and sweet heart. But sometimes I feel so worthless. I just don't see a future with him anymore but I love him so much. I just can't love him enough for the both of us :(

>>24048704
At some point, you continuing to support him despite his abject failure to care for himself makes you an enabler.

You need to let him know it's time to sink or swim. And let him make the decision he needs to make.

>>24048704
Wow girl I'm in the same situation it's almost eerie.
It's fucking hard. I'm trying to leave, but I don't actually want it so that makes it so much harder to not just give in when he gives me bs that things will be different, they never are.
If you want to talk, let me know.

>>24048364
There's still a chance. Did you talk to her about your dilemma?

I am in a LDR and I let my dick do the thinking. I am worthless because I didn't protect the one girl that I love.

I tried rushing a coed frat, before you give me shit on greek life they just did community service and majority of the brothers were nice. Most added me on facebook and we still talk and grab lunch. I rushed twice because the first time I didn't get in I lasted long enough to meet the person I wanted to be my big. Second time I made it all the way to finals and got cut. one brother had a personal issue with me and prevented me from joining. This time I made it long enough to actually choose my big and the person I wanted , wanted me too. He left me presents and hints on who he was and it was great. And it sucks that he was only my big for a week. He's still my best friend and we took a road trip together but man it hurts. Wasted two semesters of my life rushing, and my grades suffered for it but I have nothing to show for it. sometimes you can do everything right and still fail and man that's a hard lesson to swallow.

On top of this my dads side of the family finally decided to give a fuck about me after 20 years. Now they all message me on facebook and beg me to visit them. I work two jobs and during school I work too. Why should I miss out on work and study hours for people who didn't care enough to even send a damn card on holidays? and they get so disappointed and they push and beg me to visit them, by why should I? I want to eventually sure but on my own time. You can't ignore me for 20 years then get upset when I don't drop my whole life to visit strangers.

>>24048522
tell her, she might be more accepting than you think. It's better to tell her now instead of thinking what if and eventually cheating.

>>24036158
>Fall in love with friend
>He moves in with me
>We're both undateable
>Enjoy having him to myself, even if it's just intimidate and not romantic or sexual
>He decides to lose the weight he gained years ago
>He starts getting more attention and goes on a date
>Run a course teaching science to kids
>The older girls and a mother flirt with him
>Realise I'm now jealous of 12 year olds
>Can't admit my feelings
>He's still intimate with me
>Feel so ill thinking about him having sex with someone else, but don't want to risk losing the relationship we have

>>24041680
Post pics

>>24049611
or making it better

>>24039346
All the lonely people, where do they all come from?

Idiot.

Heres some shit
>Loves this grill
>Grill is bi-sexual but whatever
>Known her for awhile now about 2 yearS
>She gets a girlfriend
>Feels hurt realized that I actually did have feelings for her
>They break up feel as if now is as good as ever to try and get with her
>3-4 weeks pass of talking/hanging out
>actually thinks maybe she likes me the way i do, friends are supportive and I think i have chance
>Invite her to a party around my house with close friends
>gets really drunk and the night goes on till the point were all playing spin the bottle
>lands on me three times with her
>friends decide to change it to making out
>lands on me and her
>lands on one of my friends she used to like years ago
>makes out with him
>drunk me can't handle shit goes into other room crying
>friend tells me shes crying in the other room too
>talk to her
>ask her i'm fine so she needs to stop crying *something like that still don't remember shit was really drunk that night
>we go back down
>she starts cuddling/holding hands with my friend she made out with *my friend is at this point gone
>gets pissed so heads outside for a run in the middle of the night
>bump into my friends that were walking my other friends home
>tell them about it
>head back to mine and goes into another room
>talks to friend who has been cuddling her *hes sorry and can barely walk at this point so goes back in
> friends come in for support/talk
> At this point drunk me doesn't get it and is confused as fuck and sad
>She comes in *just us two now
>I say you don't like me do you
>she says how she likes me and hanging around me as platonic way
>me is even more pissed but honestly couldn't give a fuck at this point just wants to sleep
> we go to bed 3 of us in mine 3 on floor
>she's literally fucking cuddling myfriend in my own bed
> gets fucking more angry, just goes to sleep
> its been 3 weeks and we haven't talked about what happened just kept on acting like friends.
>I still have feelings for her.
tldr; kms

I fap while sniffing my niece's knickers and school tights.
I feel terrible about it as soon as i cum, but just can't stop myself.

>>24046876
what did big d do to you that you dont get out of your bf?

>>24051458
>I fap while sniffing my niece's knickers and school tights.
>I feel terrible about it as soon as i cum, but just can't stop myself.
Just remember that it's never to late to better yourself.
I mean, even Jesus forgave those who betrayed him. At least you didn't crucify your niece. Or Jesus.
Maybe try connecting with some women, in your age range, outside of your family. You might be able to find a girl who would be willing to lend you some panties, once you both have established a safe and consensual sexual relationship.
If I was with someone I loved, I would trust her with my underwear.

I'm feeling like pure shit. I just feel weak. Or, not strong enough to go further in life. I'm really tired.

But I'm keep going, I don't know why. I'm just trying to keep going as best as I can.

>>24037000
Fuck where u live in Johannesburg or so

I don't like how my life turned out and I have no one to blame but myself.

31/m. Currently working two shitty jobs in the service industry after dropping out of graduate school. Not close to my family. Have a few friends but most of them are normal adults in their late 20s/early 30s and as I have less and less common with them, our relationships are waning. Virgin, never had a girlfriend, entire romantic history can be summed up as 30 seconds of awkward kissing.

Trying to get out of the service industry into a better job. Don't know how well that's going. I think I'm getting better at interviewing but it seems like there's always a more viable choice than me. Someone's always going to be better. Smarter. Wittier. Why go with a 5 when you could have a 10?

Don't really do much with the free time I do have. Usually end up watching cult movies or old Simpsons episodes or playing old video games. Trying to get better at Chess and the keyboard but I don't think I'm making much progress with either.

I could have done things differently when I was younger and I could have a completely different life. I admit it. I wasted my youth and I fucked up. I don't really see the point in living if I am beyond redemption. If no one wants anything to do with me and all I do is cause others misery and conflict, then isn't the right option for me to just leave?

>>24051458
how old is she?

>>24052530
Bollocs m8 u just need to get too the ppl and start belive in ur self I had same problems like u but later thanks to my friend start belive in my self

>>24052665

...what?

I have feelings for this chick friend of mine. We started really hanging out one on one in January, and I didn't have feelings for her then. Plus, she had a pretty serious relationship up until about a week ago. The thing is, I've never told her how I feel, and she is starting to be more and more distant towards me. She does have BPD, so I don't know if that's playing into this or not. I just don't know what to do, and I think about her a lot, and it kills me. I'm 22, kisless virgin, and I've never felt wanted by anyone in my life

Fucking hate my small dick, even if I get to have sex it'll be disappointing as hell for the girl.

The incessant bitter shitposting isn't really cutting it anymore. I'm still angry all the time

I have a girlfriend but I don't know if I can tell her that I'm pansexual.

my secret involves a teen boy

>>24053941
That was pointless.

>>24053935
you not telling her you're gay,so it will be ok

I duck out to ride my bike, but I really stop over a dudes house to get sucked off

I hate people, all my life I've lived harboring feelings of hate towards others and distrust.

All my life I've lived with the belief that I can understand people well, their hidden motives behind their actions, the body language etc. Which reaffirmed my hate for them whenever I saw people acting dishonestly, friends attempting to steal thei friends gf/bf, people with ulterior motives in approaching you, people that would lie to your face with the most blatant smile.

And then graduation came, and I met the parents of the people I thought were faking it the whole time, "oh you're anon! My daughter talks all the time about you! how you're a genius and super funny!" my world shattered.

My hate has caused my loneliness at 25, it wasn't until last month I've begun to feel lonely, I'm ugly, but I've had many pretty girls interested in me and I simply blew them off in the most obnoxious and hateful ways possible..

Last time I was out late night I was 22, I hit it off with a girl I knew from school, she was pretty, smart and had a reputation for being a saint while her twin sister was in the UK catching dicks, same old shit I've done all my life, pretend I'm interested and force myself to vomit words and questions.

All the signals were there, facing me we're alone she's playing with her air smiling and looking at ugly me in the eyes, and then it hits me, "what the fuck am I doing, why am I pretending why am I listening to this dumb cunt talking about her stupid pet rabbit and slut twin sister", I pretended I needed some air called a friend and had him keep me company outside, when I went back inside it was already time for our group to move out, ignored her completely for the rest of the night, that group of friends has not contacted me since because I guess they knew what was up.

What the fuck is wrong with me, now I'm here thinking about if jumping out the window would result in immediate death multiple times.

God help this ugly me.

I like to stimulate my prostate

I just fucked a hooker and I'm married.

>>24055195
you reap what you sow

I'm cheating on my GF cause we haven't had sex in ages as she wants to be a man, I don't know how to deal with it so I'm just fucking a girl from work.

>>24036158
KHHHV male who has been told by a lot of women for well over 20 years that he has nice hair, eyes, etc, and never realized those were clues. I wish i didn't live in a civilized country so i could have access to guns so i could off myself.

>>24052951
She probably realizes you have feelings for her and still isn't over her last relationship.

I feel 100% confident in my sexuality/gender. I know I'm female in every aspect. But I wish I had a dick. Vaginas suck so goddamn much, they're all work and no reward. They're filthy, disgusting black holes that do nothing but cause their owner's grief. I'd trade anything in the world to actually have one good orgasm the way men do than multiple boring little mini orgasms. Or just plain have sex that's not extremely uncomfortable for once.
Not to mention clean up is so easy with dicks. Vag you just gotta wait for everything to slowly leak out all over your filthy ass self or force it out.
Shit sucks ass and I'm sick of it. Even jerking off with dicks is fun. With vag it's just work with little reward.

>>24056219

You have no idea what it feels like to have a dick.

Unless you have a small one it's a bitch to deal with, you WILL get random boners, you WILL get morning wood, you WILL always be uncomfortable down there, one way or another, be it your balls getting in a weird position or your dick hurting because it's pressing against your pants, you are constantly reminded of your sexuality and that yes, you have this huge weak spot between your legs and you want to fuck with it, all the time.

>>24056219
>>24056268
grass is always greener on the other side

The hottest thing I've ever seen is the clip of a girl trying an exercise machine, and her knees buckling under the weight and bending the wrong way. The look of sheer pain and agony as she screams is so wildly arousing. I want to hurt cute girls, I want to bruise them and choke them and cut them and hit them over and over and then snuggle and kiss and cuddle them and then bite them hard enough to draw blood. I want to humiliate cute girls, I want them to wear ballgags and nose hooks and collars and frilly skimpy clothes and tiptoe high heels to walk about bound up and slobbering.

Guys talk all the time about wanting a girl to sit on their face, but I want to sit on a girl's face. There's not even any sexual gratification, just to feel her gasp and breathe on my ass, locked up in the hairy musky mess. And I want to tickle her belly, and feel her jerk and twist under me, unable to escape. Maybe punch it too, give a big welt right in the center. I want to rub my feet on her sweaty face after we're done, watch her mascara run all over, all messy and cute. Stick a toe in her mouth, or flick her nose.

I want to tie her to the ceiling and whip her. Watch streaks of red turns to rivers as I whip her skin raw and bloody, trails trickling down soft curves, and accompanied by quiet little sobs. I want to hear her cry as much as possible, girls when they cry is so cute. I don't want to make them feel better though, I want to make it worse. I want to make them hurt more and more, and then when I'm ready to stop get all warm and cuddly again.

I want to be mean, and sweet, and mean all over again... and yet I wouldn't know how to start to ask all this, or find a girl into that. Part of me also wonders if IRL I would really be down with all that I have fantasy-wise, or it's just my libido out of control when I'm alone. I still would at least like to try it all, at least once.

Falling in love with my ex's best friend. Didn't even mean for it to happen but I feel lower than low :(

>>24036158
I still miss her.
It's been months, and thinking on it retrospectively, she wasn't good to me. I'm even with someone else. But I can't shake her out of my mind. Every minute I have when I'm not preoccupied with something, I find my mind wondering back to me and her, and I don't know what to do.
Part of me wants to get back together with her, or at least try, I don't think she'd have me back. But another part of me wants to explode, yell at her for all of the bad ways that she treated me. And I just don't know what to do anymore.

25 male here, have had a few girlfriends bunch of straight sex but something about a hard uncut cock really turns me on

i love watching bj videos and have fantasized about trying to suck and even tasting cum but always lose the courage to taste my own after i jerk it

would be open to trying if anyones in the 905, also interested in watching somebody cum and have them talk dirty to me on skype

skype- immike9292

will try to suck and taste first load in 905

>>24056268
I suppose, didn't mean to imply its always sunshine and rainbows on the other side of the fence, but idk. I feel like I'd take those hardships over my current ones.
Some of those struggles are actually still relatable. Like I may not have balls to get pinched in pants, but if you're an outie like me and many other women, your lips get pinched in panties/pants. Like fuck ain't nothing worse than getting a lip caught outside the panties while walking. It's so hard to correct without just actually digging your hand down the front of your pants. But I know its difficult to rearrange your dick/balls without looking like your jacking off too.

I just want all the benfits of being female without the bullshit of having a vagina. I'm a brat I know. We can dream though.

I get on soc and Craigslist and kik looking for someone to pay attention to me. Like sexual attention. Usually it's guys or traps but I like the attention so much that I go with it (I'm straight) and end up exchanging pics and then jerking off and cumming hard. Afterwards I feel bad and weird so I delete my kik and stay off those sites. But eve tally the urge comes back and I look for female attention but the guys and traps come again and it happens all over again. :(

>>24048364
that's the worst hey, as a guy. i mean if everything goes smoothly then it's just aggressive sex that u both enjoy......but if u have a fight or something then suddenly she could potentially say u raped her and your life is over

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>be me
>eurofag
>33
>hard job but pays good like 36.000 after taxes income
>420 every day cause ...
>have this sectret i like to still use the cam after i fuck this stripper girls!!
>72 hours of blow and sex...
>Regular weekends
>also weekdays...
Pic related

>>24059512
are you watching porn too?

Going on vacation tomorrow with two frieds. Don;t know that I am bisexuel.. pfff. Should tell?

>go through school trying to be as outgoing as possible
>try my best to be a funny, happy, generally good to be around guy
>make a lot of good friends, most people I know like me
>Can talk to girls ok but none open up to me
>Make it out of school spend my time with my friends when I can
>Slowly become less and less frequent
>Days start being less hanging out with friends and more just sitting with my phone waiting for someone to join conversation
>Only spoken to two girls in at least a year, both about 6/10 and don't even really talk to me anymore
>Been having a lot more time to think about myself
>Back in highschool I did music and track
>Left music because I didn't enjoy it, kept in track but I knew I wasn't that good
>Decided if I were to pursue either I'd be locked doing something I don't enjoy, or doing something I love and everyday being reminded I'm mediocre at best
>Try to be fit but I just look scrawny
>Alternate between watching TV and masturbating out of boredom
>average sized dick
>below-average height

I thought I was a good person...

>>24060112
if you trying to fuck them,yeah

I once cheated on a guy I was dating with my ex. It's now 2 years later (ex and I broke up yet again). I've been seeing a guy for about 3 months now. He seems really into it, and I've realized I'm kind of just keeping him about for company. I'm trying to like him but have difficulty liking anyone. I wish my ex would reappear so I could cheat on this new guy. Not because I want to hurt him, but I want him to get rid of me.

18 M
Been dating this girl i love to death for about 8-9 months now as far as personality and interests we are like the same damn person. The longer we have been dating the more i feel like she controls every single thing i do from what video games i play to when i go sleep, she had dated people in the past that did the same thing to her and she would always say how horrible it is but now i feel like she is pulling that same shit on me. I've had a friend who usually treats me like shit tell me straight up that she is making me unhappy and that he wants to see me be happy for once but i really don't want to give up. don't think i would ever have the chance to meet someone as funny as her the rest of my life. I hate to use the word manipulative but she literally bends me to do whatever she wants when things don't go her way by crying or making me feel like garbo anyone got tips?

Recently got married. Been together 3ish years. We're psychotic. Absolutely insane. I knew he was the one when we were drunkenly talking about fantasies our first night together. Rape, torture, bruises, blood all of it. We play rough, my ass and belly don't even bruise anymore which really saddens me. The thing is, he's cheated on me. A lot. It's been about 6 months since the last time that I know of. I don't know that I love him anymore, I do know I need him. I'm afraid I'll never have a fulfilling sex life with anyone else. I can't have "normal sex" and get off. He knows me, and he's not disgusted by what I want and he enjoys doing those things to me too. I've remained his while he went through phases of fuck buddies, random women from kik, and even prostitutes. How do you get over that kind of betrayal?
he swears things have changed and he's not that guy anymore but my insecurities are killing us. I'm always on edge, is he where he says is? Who else could be there? He travels for work constantly and the distance thing just makes my anxiety that much worse. I wanted a threesome so bad but now I'm afraid it will make him want others again. I miss the screams of a woman, but I would never cheat
tldr : partner cheated and I'm too pussy to leave for fear of being forever alone

>>24036158
I wanna fuck my gf's best friend again.

She was the one who took my virginity and we were FWB for a few months after that. Earlier this year we had a drunk threesome with her and I'm eager to repeat it in some way or another. Gf has hinted at being interested in watching me fuck her best friend.

Problem is, atm she has some major personal issues and isn't on good terms with my gf because of them. As far as my gf's concernred, I would be free to go and fuck random women, but she's off the table of course.

Mind you, the attraction is purely physical, I never had and don't have any feelings for her besides friendship (and lust obviously).

>>24061306
you're me but you actually fucked this girl but
she's got some issues too.
>Fuck random woman
>She's off the table
Of course you can't choose her, that'd be too easy.
Good to see some people are in a similar situation like me

>>24061319
Yeah. I'm keeping my fingers crossed for the situation to lighten up again.

Had a pretty good chance to repeat the experience a month or so back, but royally fucked up because drunk. Didn't fuck up future possibilities though.

>>24061258
>You want a threesome
>Afraid it'll make him want others
That's when after the threesome you fuck him good. Just go for the threesome. As you are now, you're just suffering while your lover is fucking some other bitch, why not also have fun?
Also if he knows that you know, just go cheat at this point. That's what I'd do. He gets all the fun while you get none? Fuuuck that. Go have fun!

>>24061332
Lucky fuck
Everyday I pray for my chance somehow someway and of course threesome is a no go for me, she does however say she'd wanna have a girl fuck me then she'd fuck me better. But shit aint eay to bring up.
I'm jealous anon. If you fuck her, fuck her for me man

I'm not sure why I follow these threads. They just remind me what disgusting fucking degenerates so many of you are.

23M
8 months later after braking up and I still love her. I'm awkward with other girls, can't flirt but I try being nice to everyone while feeling dead inside. I just want this to end

>>24061348
Will do. And godspeed to your effort!

>>24061166
call her on it
communicate with your girl, if you're afraid to do that then you'll never mature as a couple and it wont work

>>24061341
I would love to. I've had MFF and FFF in previous relationships,but it's not easy to find someone else into rape play. Aside from that I don't think it's good idea to play with someone else while I'm still so hurt by his cheating. Nothing like a jealous wife to ruin a good night. It sound stupid but I'm not a cheater, never have been. I had opportunities when things were bad for us, an old fuck buddy of mine moved back into town and I thought about it. But decided to block him before I called him for a sympathy fuck.

I have a boyfriend who I love more than anyone in the world, but we're long distance and barely talk when we're not hanging out in person. It's so lonely, I end up chatting with other guys online. I never send nudes or anything and it's not even that I actually want to date these other guys, I'm just so lonely, but I still hate myself every time I do it.

I want to experience being a patient in a mental hospital but not sure how to go about doing it.

>>24061397
It sounds like then the only choice you have is to talk him about how you feel. I totally get why you're anxious, but that feeling wont go away unless you talk to him. And waht's worse is that you'll know what he's gonna say but its up to you to believe.

Here's whatcha do

Don't be jealous and stop being so damn insecure
Talk to him about the threesome/your worries

I feel like its hard to find a threesome partner already (I wouldnt know though) so odds of you finding one into rape play is even harder. Why not just baby steps a 3rd partner into rape play?
Maybe if another chance arrives with a fuck buddy you should take it though.
I know I keep pushing cheating but maybe you just need a fuck buddy for the rough sex.

I just want you happy, anon

my cousin (11 then) molested me (9 then) all over the place and i think that gave my sexuality a twisted side. ive co-masterbated with her before and have fapped to multiple aunts and cousins naked voyuer style. when they would come over to stay the night i would grope them as they slept. i just feel i got too sexually charged a bit too young...and since my only source of female anatomy were my family members...and i feel i crossed a line too young? maybe? thoughts? similar experiences?

>>24061465
Hopefully he coming back soon
Every knows LTR dont work
You wanted partner and he's not here. Don't suffer, unless he coming back. Then thats ok, you just want company. Maybe go and hang with friends more

>>24061495
>groped as they slept
Sounds fucking hot, lucky
It's definitely crossing the line but I'm jealous

>>24041245
I want to thank you: I laughed hardily

>>24061496
We are seeing each other again in a month, the in between part is just so hard. I want him to move in with me next year when I finish school but I'm worried he won't be ready.

I feel like my head is split in two: the most instinctive part of me give me the impulse to try and get a meaningful relationship...

...while the pragmatic part have long forsaken this idea and does what it can to prevent any actions toward this goal.

It's like seeing fire in winter and having your whole body screaming at you to put your hands in the heat while knowing it's one of the worst ideas in the world.

I want to do so many hard drugs but struggle to find a dealer.
I want to melt my brain and expose myself to everything.
I am surrounded by great people, but feel so alone.
I don't know where the drugs will take me, but I feel like psychedelics will broaden my mind and bring me out of this hole I'm in.

>>24061904
Check the drug thread, read my two LSD posts. They will encourage you. Find chem students at a nearby university who can synthesize LSD or knows somebody who can for you. It's pretty cheap, ten bucks a tab.

I'm going to kill myself after my parents that I have been taking care of and my dog dies. Every moment that I live is pain and the only reason I can endure it right now is because I love my parents and my dog.

I have no friends and for some reason I can't hold onto a girlfriend for very long. Anyways thats a bit away but some days the pain and sadness I have is too much for my coping systems. I have to vent my frustaration and sometimes yell outside into a pillow so nobody can hear me.

>>24057354
creep

>>24060949
just tell him you don't love him

>>24036158
I've been stuck in a rut since fucking February because college dropout, I feel like a massive failure to both parents of mine and most real life friends I know if theyare ones that actually know I am still around/even exist and the few online friends I have, I just feel either so worthless to or just like I don't mean much to any of em.
Worse yet, I am stuck with crippling social skills, shyness and fear from getting backstabbed again after it happened atleast twice in a row.

all in all in the end, I've just gotten to the point where I either just wanna bash my head broken or just drink to escape it all the loneliness and the times I keep seeing people better off than me.

>>24061964
kek

>>24057461
What happened?

My boyfriend hasn't given me a orgasm in 2years he doesn't even try he jet hounds me to get hat he ants lasts a minute most then my orgasm doesn't matter, used to have great sex. Just never with him, I don't know what to do I'm thinking of cheating only to get off, because I love him. Don't say try talking to him cause I hav many times he just doesn't care he's happy so that is all that matters

>>24052007

>At least don't crucify your niece

Boi, don't tell me what to do

>>24063879
Leave him.

>>24061909
Your trips sound fantastic.
I hear conflicting advice on where to do it your first time.
I would love to be in nature, but have no idea how I will react.

>>24062598
We're not even at the saying I love you stage though, I think he knows that I don't love him. I guess I'm trying to get along with him so that maybe I can feel anything for him. I'm still operating under the idea that if I feel something for him, I can finally stop waiting around for my ex.

just need to rant here. was just at a family dinner.
i'm pursuing my bachelor's in social work. i'm the only 1/3 children who went to college. my dad just berated me for getting a shit degree that will make me no money. what kind of parent doesn't support their child pursuing education? i, personally, would be ecstatic if my child pursued a window washing degree.
the fuckery. it's amazing how he continues to be so ashamed of me when every other normal parent would be so proud. just want my father to be proud of me, it's sick.
also, thought he was smarter than thinking social workers make 20g/yr. it's more so 50g/yr, at least here.
i would even be glad to make 20g a year helping people....
anyways.

One time, I stole a balloon.

>>24037000
dude i'm the same. but my parents revolve around revulsion towards my reluctance to drive and quiet acceptance that i'm just "weird." but really i'm just so fucking anxious and nervous all the time. I uber and walk everywhere that i can. If i'm not working a play wow all day and just contemplate suicide.

>>24063860
Basically, just dated this chick for a long time. Things got pretty serious between us, plans to talking about getting married and all of that.
Things seem pretty on the rocks towards the end of the relationship (duh) and I'm trying my hardest to just make things better for us so that things will work out, but it was always really difficult because she would never tell me what was wrong, or even talk to me or anything. Eventually the relationship ended and I was destroyed. Spent a lot of time thinking of ways to get her back but then something just kind of snapped in me and I hated her, which is something that I'm really conflicted about because she seems to sweet.
But like, she would tell me all of the times that dudes were hitting on her, despite her knowing that I can get jealous pretty easily (never acted on those emotions though), and despite me telling her one day that I didn't like hearing about that, the next morning she would tell me again. And there wasn't much that I could do because of a distance barrier we had. In the like, two years that we were dating we talked most of the days, and never once did she ask me how I was doing, and it's something that I never even really noticed until after everything was done with.
Meanwhile, despite those and other things, I can't stop thinking about her, I had a dream about her last night where we were just hanging out, having lunch and things of the sort.
I just can't make up my mind on how I'm supposed to feel about her, or if I did, something seems very obviously conflicted for some reason.

>>24037015
don't be afraid of success and sabotage yourself. I ruined an ivy league education that way.

>>24064195
You'll drive yourself crazy trying to build any aspect of your life around anyones approval but your own. Do it for you, not to make anyone else proud. Your dad has his own shit going on that makes him resentful or hypercritical and that's his deal. You take care of yourself and do what you need to to have the life you want. He can't give you that, you have to make it for yourself and not having his beaming approval won't stop you.

>>24063879
If you're contemplating cheating then you need to have a serious talk about why you feel the way you do and why it matters to you. If nothing comes of it it's time to cut your losses and make an adult decision to move on. Don't let familiarity or the fear of being alone prevent you from pursuing something better if you're not happy anymore.

>>24063879
Don't cheat on him, cheating is terrible.
Tell him you're about to break it off with him, and if he doesn't do anything, then just leave. But legit, don't cheat on him.

>>24064749
Are you me from the past?

It's hard to move forward from someone that was a big part of your life and who you thought was going to be part of your future. When I think back I find now it was mostly the sex and the passionate moments between her irrational and emotioanlly abusive/manipulative bahavior that I missed, not who she was as a person. Knowing that allows me the closure I need to accept that she was toxic for me and was holding me back from...well sluttin it up I guess until I met my current gf.

>>24064955
Thank you for the help, dude. I really do appreciate it.

>>24042297yup, definitley a piece of shit

I both want to gain weight and become a big, 250 pound fat dude (it's my fetish), and I also think I want to be a sexy, Victoria's Secret model-looking woman

It's really fucking confusing and I have no one to possibly talk to about such a fucked-up thing and it really fucking sucks

>>24063968
I recommend either doing it in nature, or in a room with lots of introverted activities (reading, journals, art, lots of music, and fun trinkets).

If you do a tab you should have the inhibitions to not go being a retard somewhere, which is the only real danger. Public intoxication is illegal, even if they don't find drugs on you.

I hope you figure it out, because as an academic, it is the best possible experience.

>>24061350
This.
>tfw you want to be proud of your own kind, but there's nothing left to be proud of

I fall in love with every person who even shows me the littlest bit of kindness. To the point of even obsession.

>>24064938
>>24064937
I won't cheat, I love him and care. But he makes no effort to even try and get me off, he lasts for seconds, and turns me down when I come on to him, it's humiliating to be rejected. I am not ugly and he literally hasn't gave me an orgasm once in the last 2 years and he doesn't even try after I told him it bothers me, but when he wants it and I don't he pouts and demands till he gets it. It's fucked

>>24036158
I'm dead inside

23f
im going to kill myself today.

i cry on a regular basis and the fact that im a man crying makes me cry more

I think I'm in love with a girl who plays on the same sports team as me. I originally thought she might have a thing for me as well due to our flirty banter but now I just think I was seeing something that was never there. We always talk and she seems interested in what I'm saying, she shares things with me that she doesn't do with other guys on the team. She laughs at my jokes, even when they're bad. However, I'm just not in her league looks wise. I'm really unattractive and she's beautiful. I think I'm just looking into her body language way too much because I want it to be true, not because it actually the case that she likes me. Doesn't make it hurt any less when I'm not around her though.

It's so sobering knowing that you'll never have the kind of relationship that other people have, no matter what you do.

>>24065535
Please don't. Read something on existentialism at least before you do. Nietzsche will do.

I like going on cam websites and getting off to old men watching me masturbate. I'm female, i'm not overweight and get a decent amount of male attention, I don't need to do this but I'm addicted.

>6 year ago
>upload acquired nudes of girl to internet anonymously
>years go by, forget about it
>2 months ago my friend is telling me this story about how 3 years ago he was at a gas station with this dude and the girls boyfriend came up and kicked his ass thinking he uploaded nudes to the same site
>it was actually the nudes i uploaded
>realize that somebody else got their ass kicked cuz i spread nudes and i didnt say anything
>still a secret to this day

>>24065535
Wtf why?!?
Kik:gameover169

I have cheated on my girlfriend with my ex three different times. I feel guilty as fuck, so to clear my conscious i let her hook up with two of my friends.

>>24065535
Post a voice sample before you do. I haven't read a legitimately suicidal person's voice in a long time. If you need things to say, talk about why you want to kill yourself.

>>24046631
How? Did you manipulate her into depression or something?

>>24052065
I feel almost the same. I keep hoping maybe some day I'll feel better.

>>24065757

I love showing women kinky porn to help them masturbate. Kinkier the better.

I find women or girls and get them into kinky pron.... often younger. Sometimes a LOT younger.

I get them curious and then they often REALLY want to see. And then we watch online together and enjoy. Now done this a bunch of times and it's really good fun.

Hello humans, I like to tell you a story about a monster that looked exactly like a human, intelligent and charming, instantly likable, very easy to fall for. But this being was nothing like you, he was empty, utterly empty, a monster into a flesh suit. The only 2 emotions in him was hunger and lust. And he spent all his days trying to fill that void. What he lusted for was good girls, the kind that that went to church, prayed, the pure of heart. This sounds like a horror story, i know. and it is, sort of. But a true one. He met a girl online. Starting as friends, the perfect target, a muslim girl, he spent a massive amount of time manipulating her, pushing her, using the friendship/love she felt for him eventually to betray her faith, to fall into the filth, to commit crimes against her religion, to act in sexual ways with him and to send him all sorts of sexual videos and images. Keep in mind this was a deeply religious girl, from an arabic country with hijab and a strikt family. For 2 years the monster patiently drove her from her religion, made whats pure into something she would consider filthy. Eventually he let her see, what she had spent 2 years of her life with, the terrible void inside of him, naturally she left very shortly after, leaving the monster deprived and starving, I am curious what it feels like to be sated and satisfied, to feel... fulfilled. to feel at all.

>>24066790
>How? Did you manipulate her into depression or something?

Basically, yeah. I broke up with her and took advantage of her obsession by getting her to do a bunch of shit, each time saying I'd get back with her if she did.

Eventually I guess she realized I was unattainable and so she tried to kill herself. My rationale, I suppose, was that so many people had hurt me in the past, and so this was my "revenge". Looking back, of course, this was really fucked up because the person I did hurt was one person who loved me.

I mean now I'm dying of loneliness, but I think I might deserve it. Idk.

I've fallen out of love with my current girlfriend and I've kissed another woman behind her back.

I want out, but I don't actually know if I do.

Never had a girlfriend or any real friend (i.e. one that will talk to me). All I want in life is some long term female friend who can give me advice and cheer me up when I'm feeling down... i don't have any sexual expectations from you and don't even care if I never know what you look like.. I think I would be a good friend but I've never had the opportunity to prove it

I keep telling myself Im not gonna do it anymore, but I keep sleeping with married men.

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I'm in a rut... I broke up with my girlfriend on 4th of July, and I've been doing a lot of re evaluation on myself. She was the only girl that seemed to like me / want to be around me. I've been trying to get another, but I have no game, and don't really know where to go to meet girls. There's a few other things on my mind as well.

Currently in my evaluations, I'm really thinking about leaving my dead end job and enlisting In the marine corps. The main reasons being
>going nowhere in life
>want to prove to myself I can do it
>I want to be able to say I did something worth admiring
I've been working out a bit more, and even though I'm making some progress, I still have my doubts and sometimes don't feel like I could pass basic and earn the title "Marine".

Anyone got any words of advice for either issue?

>>24036158
I'm in a constant state of work and study to make my family proud. People begin to secretly resent me because they think I'm perfect, but in reality, I'm prone to very human mistakes. Now I become extremely anxious at every little mistake. I take on more work than I can handle. I've never had a boyfriend before and worry that I could never put that kind of love before upholding the ideal. By some definitions of "best friend," I've never had one. I have a crush on an older cook in the restaurant I work at.

>>24066938
Hey, I'm in the same exact boat!

my husband doesn't love me anymore. I try to lie to myself and pretend it's OK but I know it's not. he barely even talks to me anymore. I think about getting a divorce but I don't have anywhere to go to and we have kids. I'm so lonely and sad all the time tho. I'm like completely isolated from everyone but our two kids. no friends no family. secretly I wish I could just leave

Im diagnosed with depression and my girlfriend of 2 years just makes me hate myself even more and give me anxiety. I could be so much better of without her

I love her too much to leave her

>>24067499
I'm so sorry to hear that.Have you considered a marriage counselor? Perhaps suggesting that you both should get out together more?

>>24067535
he'd be mad if I suggested counseling. he just wants to game on the computer 24/7 when I do get him to go out with me and the kids he's just pissed off the whole time and hurry us along so he can get back home. he puts his headphones on all the time so we can't talk to him. idk he just doesn't want anything to do with me or the kids. I feel so alone and like I have to walk on eggshells around him.

i was always the loner, had that "select" few friends, but ive always lost them due to parents were divorced since i was 6-7. id move so often, id make friends, then lose them, switched schools too many times to count, never built up my communication skills since i figured id just lose people regardless of what i did. so i was never able to talk to people, speed through the small talk, then have nothing to say after, cause of me being antisocial, or people i talk to have waaaay different things of interest. 1st gf i had at 18, lasted 4 months with her cheating on me in middle of it, happened in june 2011, broken for the rest of the year. come 21, working at meijers(grocery store in midwest, mostly illinois, michigan, ohio) see a new chick in gm department, instantly felt a zing. start talking to here, so many common interests including music, anime, cosplay, nerdy geeky shit etc... very slim, into gothic lolita, and we hit it off instanly. we start dating october 5th of 2014, nothing but happiness with her. went to cons together, punk/metal concerts, moshing in the pits, just pure utter bliss. broke up end of january 2016, 2nd relationship ever that lasted over a year, i literally pictured my life with her, marriage, kids, the whole 9 yards, couldnt even try to fix anything, well i mean i tried all by myself, now its just been 6 months of nothing but in a drunken depressed state, plenty of times where i was literally drunk for 12 hrs straight. have unconditional love for this woman, still try and hang out with her for the hopes of maybe getting something going again, only to get more broken when all she talks about is this one guy she is fucking, its always about that 1 guy, we hang out, shes fb messaging him, she changes subject to "this one time i was with the guy", or best one that happened tonight was, "wanna know why i have been really stressed out the past couple of weeks? its cause me and the guy started sleeping together again, and he thought i was pregnant"

>>24038407
this is hot

post more details especially how it got started

>>24067544
This sounds like a very bad situation for you. Do you have family you could stay with for awhile?

>>24067548
thanks, thats really what i want to talk about, is the guy you are fucking... so now im on here, with my best friend jose cuervo,shitfaced off my ass wondering what im doing with my life, so yaaay

>>24067553
no I don't idk there's not really anything I can think to do to fix it. just kind of stuck

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I worked in the drug trade for quite some time narrowly avoided going to prison and stopped, but here I am, providing services for that trade again (nothing that will get me convicted but I still can't talk about it with anyone)

I met someone on soc who dated the same person as me. I hide my personal details from them so they don't know, but they're such a good conversational partner that I can't break it off.

I carry a handgun with me every day, unlicensed, even though I could easily (and should) get one.

I believe the 9/11 attacks were a final warning to America, which God is going to destroy because we refuse to repent.

I often get suicidal urges, but I don't act upon them.

the cashier at IKEA forgot to ring up that weird lamp that I bought, and I didn't say anything or return it.

I plotted to kill someone about six years ago or so because I thought I was protecting someone, based on false information. I nearly went through with it.

the vice president of the United States of America is a friend of my family's.

that's just stuff that's been on my mind lately.

I like threads like these. reminds us that we're all flawed and fallen, to let go of our pride and forgive one another.

>>24067488
What are you doing about it? I'm kinda just going along, seeing a therapist, we agreed to see a couples therapist. But I don't think it'll help. And I feel like I'm very close to just fucking a girl I know likes me.

>>24067408
Ayyyyy, marinefag right here. I can sympthaze how you feel. I came out of hs and just worked the sane job for a while and sort of wanted to feel worth something. So I enlisted and there's a lot of bullshit that comes with the military, but if you want it you can do it. Plus it's a huge confidence booster once you finish basic. Sound advice do it just make sure you choose a job that you can transition to the real world, I've done the whole "run it and gun it" and it fucks with your head, even more so if your young. Been in for like 8 years

>>24067779
Currently I'm 23, so I'm a bit older than the people id likely be in with. I kinda wanna go 0311 just because it's the only thing I "understand"

>>24067799
It's a brutal life style man, I was in afganstain for like a year and we did shit that I thought would be fine but it's messy in the head later on. Plus you might feel different after your first contract so take what you can from the Corps.

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Be kid, childhood: bright head, good genes. this kid is going places. life seems fair enough. 3 different stepdads and constantly moving throughout entire childhood. kek. probably no big deal. possibly overlooking some crusual blindspots here..... unsupressed thoughts and unfortunate episodes starts manifesting in to anons subconscious mind. these he is not aware of yet. got minor ocd tix from time to time (shaking head, clearing throuth, closing eyes while riding bike down hill ect) manage to hide/kontroll it when really should, so no one really knew. he s-s-stutteres from time to time. parents seems total alien to anon. Still feel superior though. tough kid. at age 6 suddenly starts getting half siblings ending at a total of 6.


Fast forward. be old, 28 outta nowhere!: this anon really fucked up guys. Used to be everything, now only a job remains. dont really recognize him anymore. Starting to think he suffers from depression and Pure O OCD or something self destructive shit like that. he doesnt know, might not even be a real problem in the first place.
secret/problem nr.1 is that he have to hide his constantly ongoing battles with his thoughts wich he self medicate with speed and weed, hiding it from family and daughter, with every near friend slipping away somehow. lonely.jpg still noone suspects anon has issues being a somewhat responsible part time junkie as he is. dont judge. when anon has good periods he dont do drugs at all, works out, does not smoke sigarettes, makes dinner and cleans apartment, have a steady sleep pattern ect. he know drugs are bad, but they are the only things that makes him feel Adequate when the darkness comes. so here he is, trapped in darknes, high on speed and weed, lost 10 kg of muscle and started smoking sigarettes like mad. Anon may have some issues and feel confused at times, but anon is alive.

have no idea if this makes sense to you, weed was danker than estimated

anyone else here just want to kill themselves?

>>24067929
I wish death on most everyone I meet, but not myself. So, no, I don't know that feel.

>>24067929
Sometimes, when shit just isn't going as planned and there doesnt seem to be a way to fix any of it or get out without hurting too many people. I definitely feel like killing myself during those times.

>>24068062
>>24067929
your main problem is that you are kinda being sorry for being alive, yet what on earth could you have done to prevented your own birth? you deserve a healthy life when someone else gave it to you. i e didnt ask for any of this.

>>24067364
so tell thier partner,when your done with them

>>24067929
>>>/r9k/ do

I'm feeling super nervous because of a metamour. The moment he's in the same room as us, I completely retract back into my shell which is utterly out of character for me. I know she notices it.

I'm often critical of my own self-worth, even though I KNOW I'm a bad motherfucker and seen as this sexy ironic denim playa.

I've been with nearly 100 people, but when we had sex, it felt like I lost my virginity or something.

>>24068433
>>24068433
do not do this unprompted ever because the partner will only ever blame you. You look like a homewrecker who knew they were married and did it anyway - if you want them to find out, leave hints and admit it when pressed but don't ever appoint yourself honeytrap because you'll 100% come off worse.

>>24068853
yeah i mean leave a few clue,without showing yourself

>>24064992
meh.. ok. Believe it or not I went to counseling to try and fix that side of me. Unfortunately its extremely expensive. If I had my way, I'd have my childhood molestations wiped completely from my memory to see if it would change my views on sex and maybe make me more normal. I definitely hate that side of myself sometimes, like usually the second after I orgasm.

I let an older guy suck me off just a couple of months after I got married. I was 22, and he was almost 40. That was almost 20 years ago and I've never told anyone, and my wife will never know.

I've tried killing myself seriously 3 times. Once, I scaled over the outside of the tallest intersection bridge in Detroit, causing a huge traffic jam. I was going to jump. I have no idea how I did not fall 100 feet to my death.

Twice, I tried to cut my neck open. Hesitation marks left me scared for life, and even though I'm handsome, women don't find me attractive anymore because of it, or employers.

Then, I went down in my basement about a month and a half ago and grabbed a pistol. Put it to my head and almost pulled the trigger.

Then I tried to rush out in traffic to try to get hit on the freeway back in 2009.
More stuff!

When I was 6 to 7 years old, 2 people got shot on my block over the summer. When you're that young, you don't know what to do. My mom was also robbed by gangster kids, some of who were in my 2nd grade class, in Pontiac. They start young! And she had her purse and car snatched in front of me before when I was coming out of counseling one time.

The world sucks, man. I feel more suicidal all the time, and I think, at 30 years old, once day, I will eventually just say fuck it and end it all.

>>24047439

same thing happened to me mate.

>top student elementary and high school
>never studied much, played games, no social life tho
>something breaks in me during the first semester in college
>start to do drugs, go to parties etc
>quit that college after 3 years of failure
>start a diff one with diff major
>going solid at that for 2 years now

some psychiatrist told me it could be late puberty. other possible explanations i've managed to come up during the years (among some others which i can't remember right now):
>didn't like the subject i was studying (economics, then transferred 3 years later to psychology)
>never learned to study for long periods of time during elementary and high school
>chaotic period during third year of highschool (dad died, traveled a lot) broke something in me
>and a kek worthy one i came up with during a molly trip: notice my legs aren't moving at the same pace, also leaning on one leg more than the other > realize i had a serious knee surgery during third year high school after which the change in behavior occurred > they had to cut up some nerves during the surgery > extra space in the right hemisphere as the nerves in the brain dedicated to processing info from that part of the body weren't getting any stimulation anymore > right/left hemisphere 'balance' got shifted to the right side (emotions, unconscious etc)

but you have to figure it out yourself, and it will stay a dark/unexplained period of your life that you will over the years as you get your shit back on track try to decipher

>>24067920

does speed make you supercalm instead of making you hyperactive?

I never hung out with her ever, we had 1 class together and I barely talked to her. We Snapchatted heavily for about 3 months yet nothing dirty or sexual. Became like a Snapchat friend to her or something. She even invited me to a party of hers.
i didn't go because I am a shut in nerd who plays vidya and has no friends. Last Valentine's Day I sent her the word "meme" she sent a humorous gif of a black woman scowling. In my autism i unfriend her on everything. I can't get her out of my head. Yet i know that in reality I could never like her if I got to know her more yet she constantly invades my mind.

>>24069921
so will it go full circle,and you suck off a younger guy

>>24068224
Less sorry, more angry. Nothing is going my way and when things do, its not for long.

I've been dreaming of a girl since I was young. I dream her pretty often. I never tell anyone because they'll think I'm insane for falling in love with a dream. I could be Chad but I'm chasing after this girl. I just don't know anymore.

>>24070785
take some dmt.
been dreaming of an entity my whole life which later appeared in the trip as a being of higher dimension assigned by some process to me.
could be bs, but i like believing it's true.
contemplating on that being during rough times helped me out a lot, and the trip helped me put in a perspective, gave it some meaning i guess.

>>24070797
I'm thinking of trying psychedelics. I know I could get some acid or DMT if I wanted. People say it would help my depression and anxiety too.

>>24070826
Those people are fucking retards. Try acid, though, it's fun.

>>24070826
>>24070834
it could help, look up the Stanislav Grof research back in the days when LSD was used for psycholythic psychotherapy.

My best guy friend and I were talking about becoming fwb. I liked the idea but I'd never done anything before. One day he was driving me around and he stopped on a dirt road in the middle of fields (Oklahoma), and he pulled down his pants and kept telling me how fun it would be if I gave him a handjob. He grabbed my hand and kind of made me do it but it just wasn't working out and he told me to spit on it. I spit but then he tried to grab my head and put it down there even though I kept telling him I was freaking out. I ended up sucking him off and I think I liked it but I don't know. I didn't tell any of my friends that it was semi forced but I did tell my BFF it was fun.

>>24070870
sounds like you were forced to do something you didn't want to do, even though you liked part of it later on. Are you keen on becoming fwb with this person still? Or does this creates some kind of regret or doubts in you?

I really don't know what I'm doing with this...

Been a sort of a member of a community (on the periphery really) for a long, long time. Moving to become a more integrated member... And the truth is that i really don't know what I'm doing. It's not just a question of not knowing the dynamics, it's more that I seem to have forgotten the methods of both reading those dynamics and fitting in that I learned so hard back in school.

So OK, lets just be myself, right? Well then I think 'that comment could be taken in a suggestive fashion, should I run with that double meaning or the face value?' 'Should I be going full-bore in answering that point/question, or would that mark me out as a total weirdo?' 'Should I be engaging with the conversation or not, and if so, how to I do so without seeming like a creep?' I have literally no idea what the right answer is to any of these examples or any of the other issues, and I have no metric to determine that right answer.

I'm scared and stressed, but I equally know it's good for me. In the long run.

Just wish that run was shorter.

>>24070843
I'll check it out, thanks dude

I just can't love fat girls, doesn't matter the heart on them, just can't.

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>>24071090
You're not supposed to.

>>24064195
I pity the man trying to direct you in a productive direction but being so disrespected for his efforts.

>>24064749
She didn't respect you because you didn't demand it.

>>24065571
A man doesn't have to match a girl's looks to get her. Confidence, man. If you act like you are great women will treat you like you are great. Women prefer an asshole who beats them to a wimp who has no balls or back bone. I don't condone violence, but always keep that in mind and you will do better with women.

>>24064195
You're dad is fucking right. It's tearing him to see you fuck your own life up in a futile attempt to make the world a better place.

>>24070870
sound like sexual coercive

>>24071090
nobody forcing you to

>>24070870
Careful, you could end up in a worrysome situation

Someone I've met whom is my friend has come into my life and knocked me on my ass.
I was happy with my boyfriend before I met this person.
Now I'm not so sure. I wont leave my boyfriend to be with the other person, even though a large part of me wants to.
Its not fair to either of these people and I know this. I'm just a shitty person.

>>24071467
I don't act like a massive sperg around her and I certainly don't act like a doormat either. Confidence will only get you so far. If there's no physical attraction, you can't do shit to change things. Honestly, at best I'm a 4/10 and she is a 7.5/10 at worst. It's just not going to happen.

>>24041850
Don't let the paranoid thoughts get to you anon.
>After thinking about how my friends act around me I realize that my shitty or obscure taste in everything makes me boring and nothing but a pest to deal with.
What sort of stuff are you into? And if you feel like you're interests aren't that common or interesting, you could always expand and explore new ones.

How the fuck do you just lose feelings for someone after a whole of dating them? This hurts a lot. Feel like I did something wrong.

>>24072226
Bullshit. Look at the ugly, fat, and poor fucks of the world that get 8s and 9s. You are just making excuses because you are afraid. If you really hate yourself so much, either improve or off yourself.

>>24073532
lol, i used to be fat with bad skin and I had fucked up teeth. I lost all the weight, got braces as a 23 year old and cleared up my skin. You want to know what that got me? Nothing. I went through all that shit only to start losing my hair. Some people just lose the genetic lottery and I'm one of them.

Regardless, you can't force attraction and I can accept that. A winning personality and sense of humour isn't going to get an 8/10 to fall for a 3/10 unless the guy has money/power/social capital.

>>24044395
Send her back to her family the same way you return a faulty appliance.

Find someone who worships you for who you are.

Prove her she is the faulty one in your relationship and forget all about her.

She is enjoying your attention and your submissive character. Stop giving it to her she is so not worth it.

>>24053915
Trust me you can make her scream in many ways than your dick.

Make her cum twice/thrice with other ways, she won't even care about your dick after that.

I really want a woman to fuck my ass in one way or another and havent got the guts to bring it up and as a result my sex drive and happiness are diminishing

>>24073791
I really want to fuck a guys ass with a strapon

>>24073567
If youre a 3, try for a 5 or 6 not an 8....
Beggars cant be choosers, set some realistic expectations

>>24073832
Why howdy hey we should chat, friend

>>24073518
Man you just gotta go full nihilist here. We're animals. Just because you want something doesnt mean you get it. Peolle move on, and people don't, but at the end of the day if you can tell yourself that brains and chemicals are stupid, and that a relationship without that other person reciprocating that love, there's no reason not to move on.

Live and let live i guess?

last weekend i fucked one of my GF's best friends...KIcker is she is her ex sister in law who is married.

Okay let's write some stuf of my chest

I really need new friends. The friends I have are fcking bitches who don't dare to do stuff. It's always no I'm staying inside or I want to game or whatever. Nobody wants to really do stuff like go on a holiday or talk to that hot girl who walked by

Today for example I was chilling with a friend at a park. There were three girls sitting in front of us with bikinis on and they were looking and giggling all the time. So I told my friend like hey let's start a chat with them.

So I walk to them and talk a bit. They wanted to play ball, so I call my friend. He was so shy that he didn't even want to play with us. So I played for a bit and the girls kept asking why he wasn't coming and I couldn't do shit because they were with the three of them and I was alone.

After a while there came 2 other dudes and they left with them. LIKE WTF. If my friend would have come over and sit with us or talk, we would have got there digits and even left with them

fcking pssy ass nigger that he is
all of my friends are like that
I really need new friends

>>24073855
My kik is hazelnutbuttah

I fantasize about my GF sucking some other guys big cock, while i fuck her.

It makes me cum buckets

Whenever my parents arnt home, i like to crossdress I'm my moms underwear and jack off. I don't know why but it gets me off so fucking good.

>>24042344
See a therapist bae.

>Been accepted in medical school but choosed not to go cause when me and my then girlfriend broke up just one week before the beginning of classes.

>She managed to destroy all of my self-confidence and made me believe that I was a worthless piece of shit.

>I couldn't handle the thought of seeing that cunt everyday while she was also doing her med school.

>I've said that I was refused to the people that knew that I had applied.

Now I'm your average liberal art phd schmuck...
>And I still believe that I am a worthless shit.

Cass was probably the girl I was supposed to marry. I realize this now, I was stil in an immature mindset towards relationships then. I thought being alone made me happy, so after our first fling I told her I couldn't do it. Now, 5 months later, I can't recall a single other person in my life that I connected better with. But since I didnt like her friends and i thought being alone was good for me, I chased her off. It's too late to salvage anything now, but fuck, sometimes I wonder what could have been.

I legitimately think that was my chance. I'm happy, but I don't think I'll ever get married or be in another relationship. I'm 26, I have a steady job, I travel a lot. I guess this is it.

Got into an argument with my girlfriend. Is it bad that I want to find someone on here to sext or something? Not to get back at her or anything, but to just do stuff. Its not like we do.

>>24075247
pic of underwear

>>24055195
I mean I'm not much of a people person either. I tried hanging around in groups but the amount of drama these people went through was ridiculous. So I just stepped back and stopped seeing people altogether.

I would like to try again but to only have one friend and not worry about lot's and what they say behind your back and stuff. But I have no connections anymore I'm socially anxious I work from home as it is and my towns pretty small I wouldn't know how to meet new people who aren't jerks as a possible friend or gf. Living in the middle of country outside north london can suck sometimes. And being 18 and expected to know what to do with my life when all I can do is write creatively and I read lots of books.

I knew I'd be cut when she's be back. You said no but I knew it was true. Still sucks

i masturbate while wearing my sisters panties and thinking about my ex's mom

It's not a secret anymore. But I was really really shy and socially awkward for almost 26 years. Was a kissless virgin until 18 and met a shitty girlfriend (who was very hot and beautiful, but stupid as fuck) with whom I've spent 4 years. At the beginning, it was great, going out by myself or friends, and later at night, after I couldn't get any more action around the city, I would come back and fuck my girlfriend. Time passes and I begin to take our relationship for granted (but in my head I was like: "dude! I love this girl!"), and began to grow needy of her attention, to which she responded by slowly loosing her interest in me, only to dump me for another dude she met in college. It crushed me. Fast forward a bunch of years, I'm 26, and never had the courage to talk to other girls because too beta and getting chubby, too much anime porn, too much zombie shit like binging on tv shows and cartoons, or playing videogames all day, every day. 27, and I begin to slowly accept that I'll die like the shit person I've become, and that it's not my fault things are this way, until I began to sparkle an interest in Social Dynamics, PUA stuff, also lot's of self improvement books and Eastern Literature and philosophy. Holy shit. I'm happy now. I finally feel like a complete and fulfilled person now. I finally love myself, and am finally able to get the girls I wan't, give them a good time and live great life enriching experiences. I traveled a lot to exotic places in my country and now I allow myself to express my feelings and be who I am around other people without giving a fuck. It's great.

>>24071050
I can help, bro.
Been there.

Dear A,

I'm really mad I didn't ask you out before it was too late. I hate that I'm so afraid of rejection that I just wait and let other people get to others before me. I hope it doesn't work out, I want to hear that yes.

J

I'm 28 years old. I've had my life implode three times since I turned 25. I have so much fucking apathy that ever since my life got wrecked the first time I find it nearly impossible to give a fuck about anything. Hell I barely even feel emotions anymore. The positive part of this is I can endure through just about anything no matter what it is because I feel so blank all the time. 15 hour shift at work with no break? Eh whatever. Girl I was seeing breaks up with me? "Oh, okay, sorry." I literally apologized to her for her breaking up with me.

I just feel empty constantly. Honestly all i want is a cute trap dude or lady tp come home to, and a good job as a cook, and honestly those arent even unrealistic goals but my apathy makes it so hard to do ANYTHING that I keep my shit cook.job and can't hold up a relationship because I just act like i feel things. And it's not like some "I don't afraid of anything" sort of don't feel things. Like I don't want to die, but I also have this feeling that my apathy would prevent me from doing anything to actually stop it.

I have an ex.
I buy him food, clothes, gifts. I suck him off when he wants and he will call me up for three ways. I am indifferent to it now, I think. At first I thought I did it because I love him and I was hoping he would come back but now it's become apparent I do these things because I'm selfish. I fucking like sex and it's good with him. If I have to pay him for it like he's a whore then so be it, as long as I get my rocks off I suppose. Right?

That's called rape

>>24075501
Men don't have a time limit the way women do. Men become more attractive as they age and make something of themselves. You'll find someone.

>>24076700
Bahahahaha just kidding. You are a lying piece of shit. Something never change.

Went to a club, my girlfriend (now wife) danced on stage, made me hard as diamonds! Now my wife, two years later I fanatasize about going on vacation with her to the same club, she gets drunk and strips on stage..... Turns me on so much. Havent told her.

Never came during sex with my girlfriend and has to fake it everytime

>>24078428
how do you fake it?

I liked a girl for almost 2 years before we started dating, she had two different boyfriends before me. Spent the whole time convincing myself she didn't like me. Even dated someone else. Turns out she did. Ruined the relationship because I had gotten so good at convincing myself she didn't like me that it carried into the relationship and I started to get clingy and made her feel guilty for not spending time with me even if she couldn't control it, which drove her away

i want my best friend to fuck me because the only way i feel worthy and loved is to be seen as a sexual partner; i keep daydreaming about the different ways i can change myself (some ive already started) in order to make myself more appealing to her but i know a lot of these arent healthy (like 'fast tracking' weight loss through major calorie cuts) and that ill utterly be crushed if i make a move on her and she refuses

my boyfriend doesnt know this and im scared to tell him

>>24079903
damn

Me and My best friend constantly flirted with each other, and not very subtly. best friend (F) was also really into food and her boyfriend was jealous of me. Like super jealous. We always joked about fucking each other and making out and all that stuff. One day boyfriend, who is Beta as fuck, gets me alone and starts trying to give me the tough guy routine. Im 5'11 and I'm lean and this kid is 5'9 and scrawny. I didn't have a problem so i told him to leave me be and enjoy the party. He sucker punches me in the back of the head and everybody at the party starts to look
>Be me
>Don't want to beat this kid up
Kid starts to fucking try to punch and kick me.
Sock him in the face, He's out cold.
Drive home, super pissed off.
Call best friend, tell her about her boyfriend and what he did and that i was sorry.
Best friend asks me if i want some company.
Say yeah.
Best friend drives over to my house, we talk and play video games. Best friends asks me if she thinks we should be together. Want to say yes so bad, but i dodge the question and ask her if she wants something to eat. She says Yeah and i go into the kitchen. She follows and we just snack on some stuff for awhile
>It's already like 1 am
(I always make jokes about her being fat as a joke, and she laughs because she knows im into bigger girls, and she'll make sexual innuendos about her weight) I tell her to stop eating or she'll blow up like a balloon. All the sudden get really quiet. She gives me this crazy intense look and she says "Feed me anon"
I get nervous and i ask her yo repeat and she does.
"Feed me anon, I want you to be happy."
I say alright and I start to feed her. This goes on for a while until she's really full. I ask her if she wants to stop and she says yes. I help her up because her belly is swollen at this point. She looks at me and she looks really sad. I lead her to the bedroom so she can lay down on my bed. She sits up, looks over at me on the edge of the bed, and starts to kiss me. We kiss until

>>24080307
Things escalate and we strip and we make love. After the fact we lay in bed together and I tell her that i love her. She says she knows and that she loves me to.
Next morning she wakes up and she leaves in her car. I ask her whats gonna happen and she says "We'll find out later"
2 weeks pass by, we meet up a couple of times in between then. She still hasn't broken up with her boyfriend.
One day she comes over and she says she just wants to hang out today.
>Actually felt the same. we walk around town, buy something to eat, stuff like that. While we walk she asks me a question:
>"Anon, I think I'm in love with you"
I Tell her that I am too and go to kiss her but she pushes me away. she tells me that she's in love with her boyfriend too. Stuff happens and we get into this huge fight. She ends up crying and i go home and tell her i need to think.
1 week goes by, haven't spoken to her since fight.
Get a knock on the door, It's her.
She has a black eye.

>>24080345
I freak out and ask her how she got it.
>She says she told her boyfriend that she loved both of us and that he flipped out and hit her.
start to have a freak out, get really angry and start to yell. She tells me to calm down and that shes ok and not to worry. I get in my car and drive t her boyfriends house. We get into a fight and i knock him out again. Best friend is crying, my head is spinning. I drive her home and tell her that its ok and she doesn't have to see him again. She agrees and she walks back to her house. I go back home and decide to sleep it off.
3 months pass
Me and best friend have been dating for 3 months. Her ex kept harassing her when i wasn't around but other than that it was ok. One day i kiss her goodnight after a nice date we have. Next morning i wake up and i text her good morning. She doesn't answer. She's chubby and kinda lazy so i assume she's sleeping. I go about my day and text her throughout. She never answers. I have a voicemail from her last night but didn't listen because i don't like voicemail and I was gonna go see her. I drive to her and there are cops everywhere.
>She killed herself
There was no note so i never knew why she killed herself, but i loved her and i was depressed for a long while after that. Ex and me ended up becoming great friends after settling out differences.

I'm hung up on something artificial. Something I literally cannot even touch. Not even a thing, an idea. A wisp in my imagination is all it could be called at this point. It drives me insane, all day and all night, every shift I work, everywhere I go - My mind backtracks to this person.

Fuck. You. Man.

This is something not even a year ago I would have thought of pursuing but this guy literally hit me like a train. I overstepped though and fucked it up and now I'm stuck in limbo between let it go or keep destroying myself internally for slipping up. In the back of my mind, for my whole life, I knew I was waiting on somebody like this.. Maybe not this person, but definitely this gender and it's taken this person to make me want to actually be happy with my life, to be real with myself and accept me for who I am.

I was told when I was 13/15 or so by a fortune teller (Something I was skeptical about going to) that she sees me spending the rest of my life with a man, not a woman - I shrugged it off but I've known since then she wasn't lying..

I knew when I started down a path where being gay gets you a shallow grave.
I knew when my own flesh and blood tried so hard to beat it out of me.
I knew when they left me alone, I knew when they used me, I knew when they eventually discarded me like the dirt they made me believe I was.

I knew and I kept on down that path but I found him, or maybe he found me.. I don't know because I never gave him the chance to tell me; I was too ecstatic but either way it makes no difference now because it'll never be. It just can't.

This pain is gonna last a while.

>>24036158
I'm dating a girl who's perfect for me, and we work so well together.

I've been bisexual since age 14. Every once in a while, I find myself in a trance where all I want to do is be the little girl, please a man, and cum hands free from getting fucked like a wild animal. As the days go by, I'm starting to realize that I physically need to experience it (I've only been with two guys, before I met her)

I'm scared to ask her if I can do it without hurting her or ruining our relationship. She has said she's kissed a few girls and I've given her permission to fool around with girls only if she tells me when she's doing it (and gives me details afterwards.) I'm very conflicted, because I love this relationship but I can't deny this need any longer.

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>>24036158

>>24041617
I'm in a similar situation, only mine has some undiagnosed mental issues. I break up with her and ask her to leave and she gets mad and starts packing, yells at me, maybe throws something. I'll stay away from her or go outside and smoke. After about an hour she calms down and pretends I didn't break up with, apologizes to me for being mean or whatever she did. Then she just talks to me as it all is good and normal, sometimes she tries to make plans with me to go out for dinner and drinks or something else.

It leaves me absolutely flabbergasted, how do you break up with and kick someone out unless you involve police and have them forcefully removed because they are in denial? Kek.

My life is so fucked.

I wish I could date taller girls than me (6'0+)

I'm trying to find and date a sugardaddy, so he can pay for my "mommy makeover" surgery. That's my only motive. I hate my body after the baby, and I need it fixed. But if I hate my body, why would anyone else like it enough to upgrade it?

I found the password of a friends Facebook and she stupidly had her phone photos synced to it, so I found a whole bunch of nudes of her. I masturbate to her pics almost daily. I know she has more as well as videos on her phone and I really want to get them.

I've tried to get into most of my female friends facebook accounts and one even called the cops because they were hacked, they never found out it was me though.

I have a fake Facebook account of some guy I found on Tumblr. I use his face and my body to sext girls I meet on dating apps.

I have a girlfriend and I love her a lot but I love the of hot girls getting turned on by my body and words.

I find the worst part about dating, since my girlfriend and I share the same circle of friends, is that I'm slowly losing me sense of self. I'm not me, we're now we. We do things independently like day to day stuff but I feel bad watching movies that she won't like or leaving her out of things.

I'm annoyed that my guy friends have started actively leaving me out of things but I also find myself not wanting to do what they're doing. I find it mostly juvenile, like I've grown past it. It's something I don't understand myself.

I'm sorry I didn't go to the funeral today.
I don't see why they would expect me to, I never had a relationship with any of you. But I feel guilty, blood is blood.

>>24037000

looks like you're 18

>>24081774
how rekt is it?

>>24079039
Push hard and moan, then pull out and take condom off.

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I've basically got a complex for very short/extremely petite (4'8"-5'0") girls. Couldn't care less about large breasts, women who have that typical "sexy" aura about them, long legs, or anything like that at all. There's just something about having that small stature, cute looks, small chest, somewhat frail appearance, that grabs my attention easily even if no one else would normally look twice at a girl like that.

I fantasize about lifting her up to reach the high shelves and cabinets, going out together in public and being proud to say that she's mine even if others find it strange, helping dress her up in the cutest clothes imaginable, how adorable she looks when she's angry, and lots of other dumb things like that. I just like the idea of being able to protect her and make her feel like she's the most precious thing in the world.

>inb4 take a seat over there
No interest in underage at all or anything of the sort. Wouldn't ever consider crossing that line.

I'm poly but I'm absolutely terrified to actually go out and find partners because of mental illness. All my partners I've had to far have understood after my explaining to them about the PTSD but I feel like a damn nuisance.

It makes it hard for me to make a real connection when that's what I crave because I want to protect people from myself. I don't want them to catch(?) my depression or my anxiety when I have those bad days. I don't want them to see the PTSD fight or flight mode that doesn't think and just reacts; I don't feel like that's me and that's the side of me I'm terrified to let out. The internet feels safer because I can control my reactions and feelings better but it isolates me when I want to do fun things like play Pokemon Go and meet new people or go to one of those arcade bars.

If someone goes through something similar, I'd love to hear the steps you took to get out. Not looking for big jump steps, baby steps really. I moved 2 years back but haven't really established friends so 'go out with friends' isn't an easy option.

>>24082661
Bone structure is great, pear shape. Enormous hips, love them. But my tits are saggy due to the weight changes, and I have horrible stretchmarks and some sagging skin on my stomach. Went from hot body to grandma body. Like an 8/10 to a 4/10.

I like sharing naked pics I secretly take of my wife, she has no idea

>>24080489
Yolo fool, jus do it

>>24081109
Been there before. Try doing something she will absolutely have to break up with you for. Tell her you're involved with a transgender. She won't like that.

>>24082960
post some anon

>>24036158
Im way hotter than my wife, Im addicted to going onto chat alternative and meeting women/masterbating with them.

Over all I never really meant it when I used to say I want to die; but overtime its starting to scare me how much I want to now. Just to much of a pussy to do it, and to much of an apathetic to do anything with my life. So I wallow in my own pile of shit.

>>24037015
God fucking dammit, I... I feel the same fucking way man.

i want to be a girl
im terrified
>ive tried purging
fuck being chubby urgh

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>>24036158
I have anxiety and depression and need a buzz to function, I may be a robot 22y kv

>>24085971
Inb4 fishing for sympathy -.-

I love my ex's dick and it's so incredibly hard to find someone who I trust that lives nearby to fuck without them taking advantage of me (which my ex even did once)

i gave my girlfriend and her friend that I fucked chlamydia