Write whats on your mind

Is it possible to hire someone for an assisted suicide? I don't really have the balls to pull the trigger myself, but I've just realized my life is going no where and will likely never go anywhere, so I need to get out now.

>>8554104
This election sucks I hate being a woman I want to kill myself everything is bad I wish I didn't have to ghost write I wish I didn't ever publish under a male pseudonym I wish I just followed through and slit my wrists in a bathtub I don't ever want to be pregnant I don't want children I just want to be alone and I want to be in the fetal position and I want to just give up on life and become homeless and I hate being afraid

I wish I had the courage to just end it

Knowing this place, as it is today, all i'll ever get is mocking for saying this, for sympathy points I don't care

I just want anyone to hear me through an anonymous voice and I just wish everything turned out good

Nothing is good and I want to drink myself to death

I don't want to be scared anymore.

I don't want to cry anymore.

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>>8554104
Trump will pummel Shillary tonight.

>>8554146
if you like either you suck

>>8554129
Literally no reason you cant publish under a woman's name. Also, why does that even matter?

>>8554104
thank you, OP.
Reading ''write what's on your mind'' made me check what was in my mind and thinking about it I was remained that I have to take my pill just at time tonight. Thanks.

Former Buzz Lightyear here.

The tunnels at Disneyworld are much larger than you think, and the amount of crap underground is borderline staggering.

It's also the place where Mary Poppins tells you to get out of the farking way when you are in a moshpit of cast members and she is trying to get around you but you have been dancing around in fifty pounds of plastic armor in the Florida heat and humidity for the past half hour, now you are dead tired and dripping sweat in a crowded underground space where half the people there are also dead tired and covered in their own body fluids, and the smell is starting to get to you like it always does and your temper is real damn short, so EXCUSE ME if I don't jump out of your goddamn way, Your Highness, and then Poppins gets lippy about making more money than you do, those face characters always make the most money and us in the suits can't stand it, ending it with a go fuck yourself, so then you turn to her and tell her that no, SHE can go fuck HERSELF, and then you realize that even with that wig in her hand and beneath her running makeup she's actually cute, but her face is red and she shoves you hard and she yells at the top of her lungs FUCK THIS GODDAMN PLACE, and no one in the corridor says anything because they are all feeling it too. So you go to the locker room and change into your civilian clothing and you're going to take the bus back to your apartment and you realize that who should be at the bus stop with you for the selfsame bus, you guessed it, Mary Poppins, and she's waiting in line and she knows that you recognize her, so you walk over to apologize, and you have a genuine conversation and offer her a cigarette which she accepts, and you end up finding her name is Lisa and she wants to be an environmental lawyer and while playing dressup for guests is fun sometimes this mad Disney world we find ourselves living in gets to be too much. So you sit on the bus with her and talk, find out she appreciates Black Flag as much as you do, and she's actually pretty funny. So you take Mary Poppins back to your apartment and she fucks your brains out for three days.

And that's how I lost my virginity.

>>8554129
Leave this place. It'll be good for your esteem.

I hate this assignment. I find it shitty having to try and summarize 100 pages of plato in 500 words. Summarizing the events that briefly is easy, but I am supposed to include the importance of the events as well. How!?

>>8554104
Fall is the harvest of the life sown in summer. My favorite station that plays classical music here is working on my radio again. I have a nice comfy reading chair.

>>8554157
Because I'm mentally ill and I fear people connecting the dots and finding anything out about me. I want to be separate from myself as I possibly can when I write. Not during the writing, but just, covering my tracks.

the idea people here, tumblr, twitter, everyone ripping me apart or doxxing me or any shit.

I feel like shit tonight but what else is new

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>>8554166

>>8554172

You can still publish under a female name if you're afraid of people associating the "real" you with the "writer" you.

Talk to your agent. Pen names are no big deal.

I wrote my first two novels under a pen name. No one ever connected any dots.

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>>8554166
you sound fucking spooky

>>8554188
I might. I don't know. I'm sorry for venting. I know nobody wants to hear me.

tired of working.
tired of ennui.
tired of living.
tired.

>>8554129
I wonder if I'm being baited. I'm a cowardly, friendless, ineffectual, mean, suicidal virgin who tries to make happy people on the internet feel bad.

I'm sorry.

mom and dad seem like they want to be miserable for the rest of their lives
oh well

>>8554191
Really?

I am quite normal and we'll adjusted I assure you.

>>8554225
>I'm quite normal

What do you do usually do, Anon? Talk with me, I'm bored.

Senior in high school, and I don't know what to do with my future. I'm definitely going to college, but they all seem to bleed together. I always thought there'd be some standout college that I'd feel immediate affinity to. Instead, I feel varying shades of dislike that overshadow positives. I enjoy writing and reading (although not to the extent I say I do because I'd actually read and write if I did), so part of me wants to study English Lit. The more rational(?) side of me sees the degree as a useless deadend. I could just pursue reading and writing in my free time and study a field with actual career importance like Computer Science. But I'm not really good at anything besides writing, and I feel pursuing anything else would result in a. failure or b. not even arriving to failure because I don't have a very strong academic record to support such a different venture.
College-wise everything either looks like a semi-interesting pile of work to crumble under or a liberal environment full of posturing pseudo-intellectuals. I've got the grades to get into high-tier schools (top-tier is a reach) but not the extra curriculars, so my plan is to make shit up about writing a lot. I don't really know what I want from college besides an intellectual but still amusing environment where academics are a large focus and people aren't pretentious faggots.
"Bourgeois" first-world problems I know and if anyone replies i'll be called a faggot, but I've been brought up to believe my entire future hinges on the choices I'm about to make.

>>8554254
Go to school, read books, listen to jazz and clasicall music, play vidya, watch a few tv shows, talk to my gf. Those are the things I do usually.

What about you?

>>8554254
I like to take walks through the rest of my town. Not many people live here any longer. I have to drive into town for work at the bakery. The family nextdoor just moved out. Their family was here for almost 100 years.

I don't know, it's quite calm around here, but I'm no different from anyone else around here, though I suppose there aren't many...

this is the best my life will ever be, and I keep coming up with different ideas for stories that I want to write and I cant wait for the future.

why the fuck am I majoring in computer science

The ridges scrape me clean, the smoothness numbs me up.
I have the need to experience pain.
Because it delays the cold.

The nonexistent skin on my fingertips. I can't point at anyone.

There's a chord, getting tighter with each struggle. Somehow it feels deserved.

I hear a noise, and I'm suddenly pulled in. I turned and saw the outline. It made up all of my thoughts that never materialized. I crawled towards them with stiff legs. But they never came any closer.

>>8554259

Lots of young people think their choice of college really matters. Unless you want to be an astronaut or an otherwise 0.001% profession, it largely does not.

I changed majors from English to STEM midway through college, not because I loved STEM stuff, but because I realized that your job is just a thing you do for money. It isn't who you are.

It's hard to make a living in the humanities. Having a "real job" was, for me, a very practical choice instead of being a thin schizophrenic in an attic somewhere rambling about how the themes just don't line up properly.

Now I'm an engineer. It's a thing that I do for money, but that's not who I am. My core self is still that book loving nerd who just wants to be left alone with some well-crafted sentences.

Don't overthink it. Follow your heart. You'll make the right choice.

<3, your fellow anon.

>>8554264
Yeah it seems pretty normal.
I do all the things that you do but I don't play video games nor I have a girlfriend.

>>8554266
How old are, Anon? You work in a bakery? Do you mind if I ask where are you from?

Also who is the one that I called spooky

>>8554283
There are, on /lit/, thousands of people trying to write a book. Maybe they've written books. Maybe they're published authors. That fills them with pride, one day they'll be just like David Foster Wallace. The general public will covet their autographs and listen to their interviews.

Only, they barely make any money. Look at how much the average best-selling novelist makes. But the great novelist! You say. If you really go viral! You continue. It will not be. It would be wiser to buy a lottery ticket every week. For their double major in linguistics and philosophy, they will sit at a bus stop, waiting thirty minutes to be ferried to Target, where they work as a cashier. And your car will drive by, and you'll throw them a piece of crust your dog chewed on, because the poor soul was wearing his miserable life on his face and you just had to do something cheer him up.

Be realistic. They'll pay for doing otherwise.

>>8554300
I'm the one who posted >>8554264

>>8554317

A-anon pls

>>8554297
imagine being this morally centred

not throwing shade either, its honestly akin to glimpsing a deer for just a moment in the forest. i know the reality is that his life is plenty stressful and miserable, but in that moment he projects total serenity

how do i get over my wife getting old

>>8554297
thanks for this

woke up tired went to school tired came back home tired fell asleep tired

i want off this ride lads

>>8554626
sorry lad. you're doing great and i believe in you

Cockroaches.

I am an attractive, reasonably intelligent, jealous and sad dust mote of a person.

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>>8554637
thanks lad

>>8554193
I peed btw

Cerebrospinal fluid

>>8554104
i think poetry and interpreting poetry is a whole lot of pretentious bullshit

>>8554713
You can at least get some sort of entry-level office job (even just data entry) since it's still a Bachelor's degree, unless you didn't do any internship/volunteer/co-op at all in your undergraduate years.

>>8554732
don't ever reply to my posts again

>>8554129
good news! you don't have to be a woman. >>>/lgbt/ and look for /ftm/gen.

>>8554288
Just make sure to do a shit ton of quantitative stuff since that's all anyone wants atm.

It's a useful degree if you go on to do something else too.

>>8554860
It's very useful for law, It's less useful for medicine but probably still quite useful, Most of my econ buddies went into shit like actuarial work or accountancy, and to be honest it's a shit degree for going into those fields since you end up years behind people that took degrees that let them skip professional exams and things. But it's better than nothing.

>>8554129
one day, blind girl, you will hear the deaf man's song and we'll all sing along

I woke up with LOUD tinnitus Saturday morning. It is permanent. I got it from computer noise and loud music and video game noise. It was an ordinary Friday night for me with a little more stimulation than normal for my ears. I have a lot of health problems of similar magnitude and a similar root cause. I think the reason I'm so unhealthy is because I live instinctually and I have bad instincts maybe?

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thinking about how i got BTFO by some chick on a dating site earlier


>first response in like a month
>mentions she likes reading in her bio
>ask about her favorite books
>"oh i dunno haha what about you"
>list my four most recent reads and ask what she's read lately
>"your long ass reply"
>no contact since
>MFW

>>8554873
it is a message of hope my friend

>>8554878
I kek'd that is pretty savage

>>8554104
I can't wait to be done with uni, can't wait to finally fucking graduate. it would make my parents, my girlfriend, proud. it's been way too long.

I should have never quit that job, it was okay. I feel as if i will never find another job, I feel like it shouldn't be this difficult.

I don't want to live in the US anymore.

I want to travel the world

I constantly feel as if I am not good enough to do anything, I fear that my likes, hobbies etc doesn't translate into any sort of career.

I don't want to let anyone down.

Life is stressful.

>>8554877
Feel your fingers up the back of your neck, then massage and rub the area at the back base of your skull. This relaxes a muscle that surrounds your central ear. Also, try removing your earwax using a wax softener solution. I get awful tinnitus sometimes and these actually help with it.

my school has a career fair in 8 hours and i don't want to go because i couldn't come up with an "employment objective" to fill the space on my resume
at this point I'd be too tired to interact with recruiters anyway
i dont even want a job
every job i have had was awful
i wish this apartment had somewhere comfortable to sit and read

>>8554905
I'll try this. Thanks.

>>8554123
>>8554129
I recommend you to talk about this with someone whom you trust or that you seek help. My brother and a friend of mine are also going through a rough period. They are both seeking professional help. It won't do you good if you isolate yourself or do the same things every day. I would also leave this board.

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>>8554129

Hi, I am Abe.

That shit was immensely dissapointing. It felt as if it would be magnificent, but in fact it was far too solid, gasseous, and short. Also, fuck cars.

>>8554104
'That's one sweet ass pupper'

>>8554104
Driving along. Coming back from dance. Hot in there, had to work hard, didn't warm up. Was late. Light's up ahead, car's too hot for my taste. Servo next to me, neon vapidity. Anything for sale but fulfillment.

I want to cum

>>8554104

I am distracted in class by mental images of coitus.

Ever since I quit pornography, I've had way more energy. However, a considerable part of that energy is expended on chasing women and thinking of sex.

I think the thing I miss the most of my opioid addiction was that it completely killed my sex drive.

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Just started uni doing English Lit and wishing I'd listened to people here who said it was shit. It's a shill. So totally basic, unsystematic and lacking in any form of rigor that I'm having a mini-crisis about what to do with my courses. This is kind of the only thing I'm good at and it sucks to find out that it's the only course where actually being good is detrimental and means you'll spend a year being told things you already knew (stuff literally everyone on /lit/ knows). This is a good university too; I wish I'd done classics instead.

Uni's just generally disappointing as well. I thought it'd be different from high school; I don't even know what I thought those differences would be but it's just the same. I notice myself doing that a lot: latching onto some vague point in the future and saying "after this point things will be different and perfect and none of my current problems will apply"; I did it with my final year of high school, my uni, and the vague literary ambitions I fantasize about when I need to distract myself from the moment. It's always this vague, grass-is-greener type of thing.

I feel that I'm becoming more distant from my old friends, and have made basically no real connections with people on my course (basically none of whom are actually interested in the subject, or I guess more reasonably that none of them would admit this interest.)

I'm reading the dfw biography just now and the stuff at the start about his developing anxiety and depression is hitting a little too close to home (especially the stuff about nausea). I'm really hoping the mild problems I have now aren't going to escalate into anything like what he had.

This is kind of a blog post but I figured there'd be quite a few people on /lit/ in a similar position and with a similar temperament (since we have all got quite a lot in common here). Anyone relate?

>>8556527
please describe in detail how you "chase women"

What is love?
Why do I deny it by tricking myself into aloofness?
Is temporary bliss worth everlasting heartache?
Can I say goodbye, or will I leave myself behind?

god /lit/ sucks today
i'm gonna go read a book instead

I fucked it up. I thought nothing of it, but it was enough for her to end it at the start.

>>8556612

If you want to be a writer, write and read m8

>>8556672
It's not really about me wanting to be a writer. Everyone who is in any way interested in reading wants to be able to write; anyone who denies this is a liar (Even Bloom tried to write fiction at one point). The point rather is about using this vague desire to become a writer as one of many ways of escaping into a fantasy world, so as to avoid facing up to raw reality.

I'm not really looking for writing advice man, though I appreciate it. I'm looking for some way of getting out of this mindset of constantly setting myself up for disappointment by having ridiculous expectations of the future (i.e what's ridiculous isn't the idea of me becoming a writer, but the idea that when I do so and my writing gets acclaim and controversy and all that good stuff, that'll be all my problems solved. Get what I mean?)

>>8554104
I want to take psychedelics, in order to gain insight in my subconscious, so i have sth to say to my psychologist;)))))

>>8554878
you got fucking rekt, faggot

>>8556612
Man, what you feel is literally completely normal in your situation, don't be one of those guys that confuses clinical depression with vague anxiety.

>>8556825
I don't know if you mean normal normal or /lit/ normal because those are very different things my man.

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I've been really doubling down on my nihilism and it's working much better than trying to get out of it to be honest.

y'all can't be that desperate for a president with a vagina

>>8556893
Vaginas only count when they work, not some fossilised 68yo clam

fuu fuu rattatta rattattatta fuu fuu
rattattarappa ie-i ie-i
rattatta rattattatta fuu fuu ie-i

When I woke up this morning, days like yesterday were long gone.
“Really… what should I do?”
I keep sighing while making snacks and my awakening to love
entered into the recipe!

Chiffon cake, custard, scones, clotted cream…
But this is strange, why me?
You suddenly said that to me…

Ah~ what should I do?
I don’t know if I’ll fall in love with you,
even saying you’re precious to me, ah it’s so embarrassing…
You would tell me you love me in a serious tone,
that only make my heart skip a beat even more!
What an unusual revolution!

rattatta rattattatta fuu fuu ie-i

I wonder if I should keep in mind
what kind of foods you like or dislike.
I keep sighing while making dinner and my confusion
entered into the recipe!

Pudding a la mode, cream, chocolate, mont blanc,
But this is still strange… why do I turn red
just by remembering those words?

Really, what should I do?
Even if you tell me you love me I don’t know what to do.
I told you to keep it a secret but then I got a shock when you denied it…
I tried my best to call out to you “Hey… ummm…”
but you only made my heart skip a beat…
Don’t smile like that so suddenly!

Go Love Win!! Everybody let me GO!!
it’s a Show Time Now!! Everybody let’s GO!!
Go Fight Win!! let me show me make me down.
Go Love Win!! @take my heart
Go Love Win!! Everybody let me GO!!
it’s a Show Time Now!! Everybody let’s GO!!
Go Fight Win!! let me show me make me down.
Go Love Win!!
GO GO GO GO GO

Sometimes, I saw a smile or a frown
in that expressionless face of yours… uh, wait? Was I searching for them?
I tried my best to call out to you “Hey… ummm…”
but you only made my heart skip a beat…
Don’t smile like that so suddenly!

I don’t know if I’ll fall in love with you,
even saying you’re precious to me, ah it’s so embarrassing…
You would tell me you love me in a serious tone,
that only make my heart skip a beat even more!
What an unusual revolution!
Recipe for love!

rattatta rattattatta fuu fuu rattattarappa ie-i ie-i
rattatta rattattatta fuu fuu rattattatta
ie-i ie-i ie-i

>>8556855
>he thinks nihilists have a desire for death

maybe you should try learning what nihilism is first desu

im constantly shocked at the stupidity I see in politics. Trump is a total buffoon who slews bs. And Hillary is a power hungry sociopath. How stupid do the majority of people have to be to send these people this far?

Can't wait to go camping again. It's so nice to get away from campus. I'm sick of the constant noise and crowds of people everywhere I look. Makes me feel like I'm in India or something.

I should have danced with that girl last night. Hopefully when I go back she'll be there again. What a free spirit she was.

I can't tell if I have friends or just a bunch of acquaintances. Better than last year though...

I know how it all ends

>>8554104
If I had a wish right now I would wish to be able to understand and speak every language. I'd like to read Dostoyevsky in russian, Battle Royale in Japanese, Kafka in German, The Witcher in Polish and so on.
I'd like to enjoy Hong Kong wire action movies in Chinese and watch "Sacco e Vanzetti" in Italian. And loads and loads more. It actively bothers me that I can't realistically learn all those languages.

>>8556995
It's better not to think of how absolutely uncritical the average person is. They really do just accept what they're told unquestioningly, whether it's coming from from the Left or the """""""""Alt"""""""""" Right.

Beyond that, even the most intelligent people regress back into their most basic tribal identities when it comes to politics; it's just one of those human facts, I think.

Pretty bleak mang

T A B U L A R A S A
"Who is?"
"It is I, the great desesparición running through the night."
"You go out."
"I can not. There is a disgust that you need. "
"You must find a new vocation."
"This work suits me."
"Good for you. Now salts. I'm writing the most important work in the world. "
"I'm sure, with appreciation, Professor."
"Flattery is not going to help."
"And the threats?"
"It depends."
"Think about this situation. When I am suffering from loneliness out my lamp falls. Soon the fire escapes and has a burning house. "
"Well said, but I guess you can not extinguish it."
"Can?"
"I can kill you."
"And for that reason it is needed."
"I'm not going to invent more. I'm finished with that work. "
"Not even Hovbael?"
"Hovbael is a cockroach that is thought to be a king."
"But he is a king."
"A king of idiots, maybe."
P R O B A T I O D I A B O L I C A

id like to sleep for a very long time and wake up happy and with friends

>>8556982
I was merely ironically posting a shitty facebook meme, anon.

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My grad school classes this semester are such that the only authors I've read, and read about, are Jane Austen and James Joyce. Specifically, I've been reading "Emma" and "Ulysses."

The more I interact with both of them, the more I think Austen is the superior writer. I'm actually gradually getting less and less impressed with Joyce, and more and more impressed with her. I'm not fully convinced yet, but I'm more than halfway there.

Also, Joyce shouldn't have abandoned the thread of development he was working on with Dubliners. He should have just proceeded along those lines instead of zig-zagging into what happened in Ulysses.

>>8556995
To be fair, the majority did not select them as the candidates. What's that statistic thrown around, something to the extent that only 9% of the voting-age public actually selected either Clinton or Trump in the primaries? The figure might be off, but it gets as the truth.

>>8554129
Reading the first sentence I thought your post was a fictional account of the election through Hillary's eyes and I got very interested at such a creative idea.

But then it turned out to be another self-pity /r9k/ cuck post.

Fuck off.

>>8554166
That was beautiful

>>8557331
14% of eligible adults, 9% of the nation, actually, according to this nytimes piece

http://www.nytimes.com/interactive/2016/08/01/us/elections/nine-percent-of-america-selected-trump-and-clinton.html?_r=0

Point still stands though

>>8554878
Worthless chick
Witty but worthless.

>>8554878
top kek

>>8554104
They say time is money.

But what is money really?
A scrip, a piece of paper, a collection of ones and zeros scratched on a bank's computer drive. Money is as ephemeral as the souless, material things it can buy.

If the universe is infinite and eternal, and our lives are nothing more than a blip in it, why do we spend so much of our little precious time chasing material things that we cannot take with us on our final trip?

No, time is not money. Time is worth so much more than money. Every tiny second is a precious gift stolen for eternity.

The best you can do is manage your time well. Fuck money. You are already a billionaire in the currency that really counts - seconds.

Get up and stop wasting them.

>>8554878
all of women's enjoyment of life is somehow derived from men, and this is like Thing #3 of the four or five things the universe has permitted them to enjoy: power-owning people who are by definition in a vulnerable position (earnestness is always vulnerable to HARDCORE OWNAGE) because they are supplicants for access to vagina

men who rip on each other actually cultivate it as a skill and can use it for all kinds of neat tricks like alleviating social tension and breaking down the barriers between friends by showing that you can safely be vulnerable around one another despite all your defense mechanisms to the contrary

women are vultures who circle a desert of thirsty, dying betas and periodically swoop down to peck one's eyes out after he is completely unable to defend himself

literally never feel bad because a woman BTFO you in a situation like this. she's sitting there talking to 500 guys like you and she's still not happy. she will never create anything or truly commune with the creation of another person (i.e., a man). she'll just sit there and talk to another 500 men, another 500, another 500, until she withers up and dies, or until her entire lifeforce is tapped at the root to care for a child who takes her devotion for granted.

as with everything else she does, and everything else she'll ever do, that woman was really just desperately trying to eke and squeeze some kind of enjoyment and fulfillment from her pointless life, flailing to fill the void where her soul should be, by acting on instincts that men transcended hundreds of thousands of years ago. the one, infinitesimal moment of "triumph" she had over you could only exist by virtue of standing out in relief against the backdrop of your earnest striving in the world. your "failure" is that you were trying to be genuine, trying to be a good person, trying to be the best person you could be so that you could EARN the RIGHT (both concepts she'll never understand) to fulfilling companionship, and she lazily, without skill, used that as a platform to poop on your face.

women are angry houseplants trapped in a world they never made.

>>8557353
>But then it turned out to be another self-pity /r9k/ cuck post.

Do not compare my posts to /r9k/ ever again

>>8554165
choose STEM in the next life, brüder

>>8557490
>>all of women's enjoyment of life is somehow derived from men, and this is like Thing #3

Are you sure it's not vice versa because something is causing you to type out autistic paragraphs on what you think other human beings are like and missing the mark by hundreds upon hundreds of miles.

>>8557500
>muh very heaved bait

fuck off pleeeeeaaassshhhh

>>8557517
Why did you add an h. Four h's.

i dont know where to post this because im new to 4chan but i was at a restaurant in LA on vacation and i saw someone using and posting as chuck tingle on twitter. he was a young guy, dark hair. did not look mentally disabled, actually totally normal looking.

>>8557522
the h is very close to the e in a Cyrillic keyboard, sorry

>>8554104
days go by
i dont know where to go
just fuck my shit up

The memory I once had of nature and farming at my nanies place is but a bitter drenched loveless story.

She died alone and I feel powerless

>>8554160
Good story

>>8557490
the test of whether i hit the mark is whether the mark replies angrily to me

>>8557677
Here's another reply.

In my art theory class today both of the guest artists made jabs at Trump. During the awkward chuckle that naturally follows political comments, I said "He's gonna win" just seriously enough to be on the threshold of whimsy and conviction. I meant it, anyway. But who has to know?

God damn I need to keep working on that movie. The deadline's Friday.

This O'Douls tastes fucking fabulous.

>>8557854
>In my art theory class today both of the guest artists made jabs at Trump. During the awkward chuckle that naturally follows political comments, I said "He's gonna win" just seriously enough to be on the threshold of whimsy and conviction. I meant it, anyway. But who has to know?

The leftists are cheerleading the neocons because the neocons have painted anyone who disagrees with them as an evil boogieman who hates niggers

Oh look it's exactly what everyone has been saying is happening / would happen for a century, except now it has reached cartoon levels

They used to stage Bay of Tonkin incidents and do risky gambits of running mentally retarded actors as presidents on thinly disguised "Let the rich fuck you in the ass!" economic platforms. Now they just need to go UHHHH VIETNAM AND MONEY SAID "NIGGER" ONCE. YOU SHOULD GIVE ME ALL YOUR MONEY AND LET ME NUKE VIETNAM BRO, THEYRE RACIST, and the Twittersphere will e-vote us all into doubleplusgood concordance

Why didn't anyone listen to the good Jews

There is a city in New Mexico called 'Truth or Consequences'.

>>8554104
With a few hundred dollars I could buy a plane ticket to Las Vegas and live there in the winter months, but the summer is too hot. The tourists are very generous.

Why do they end up arresting the prostitutes and not the pimps? Why do they end up arresting the users and not the dealers? I don't fucking know. Maybe they just like arresting people.

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>higher ups need manpower
>they begin to convince state institutions that the purpose of schooling is preparing a student for wagecuckery
>they scrap together a new "language" by collecting garbage, disjointed prose from dumpsters across America
>highschools actually begin to teach this form of writing and prioritize it over literature
>they turn actual writing classes into "creative writing" classes, and teach things such as "persuasive writing" in the regular classes
>students are introduced to this awful trash and begin to equate its awkward style with books as a whole
>the students who are so boring as to be intrigued by it end up writing shitty books, don't get published
>those who go to college to learn about it end up with mounting student debt
>everyone ends up unfulfilled, lazy, and struggling to pay rent, working for the same organization that cucked them in the first place

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Ano toki saikou no riaru ga mukou kara ai ni kita no wa
Bokura no sonzai wa konna ni mo tanjun da to warai ni kitan da
Mimi o fusaide mo ryoute o surinukeru shinjitsu ni madou yo
Hosoi karada no doko ni chikara o irete tateba ii?

Uninstall uninstall
Kono hoshi no musuu no chiri no hitotsu da to
Ima no boku ni wa rikai dekinai
Uninstall uninstall
Osore o shiranai senshi no you ni
Furumau shika nai uninstall

>>8557298
Could you expound more? Genuinily interested here.

>>8554104
I wish I could write good horror, not shock-value garbage but an authentic atmospheric piece that didn't end up feeling as a rip-off or a tryhard attempt. I wish I could make a good videogame out of it too.

I wish I could live off my writing or other creative talent but I don't know how.

It's weird this website spawned a hacker collective back in the day. (Anonymous.) 4chan has lost almost all it's computer nerd chops.

The whole idea of a collectivized anonymous decision making entity intrigues me and has occupied a good part of my writings. (I won't say more on this topic so as not to further identify myself.)

Politics, economics, sociology, psychology, it's all about information flow. Blow the top off the pre-digital forerunner of a subject and you can never compare before and after images. The new digital system enables all kinds of new patterns of communication and social processing. Everywhere is everywhere.

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>>8558328
Like I said, it's early days. I have really great professors for both classes, and just tonight I had a great Joyce class that salvaged him a bit.

But I can't shake the feeling that Austen is still better. A lot of it is down to bias. I'm a writer myself, and I believe, ultimately, that the text should contain everything the reader needs. The reader definitely brings their own filter, their own frame of reference, to the work, and that colors what they get out of it. This is one of the things Joyce is working on with Ulysses, and it comes off to good effect. But knowing that Joyce sort of had to tell people about this makes me think less of him. People didn't even pick up on the ways it used the Odyssey until he convinced a newspaper friend of his to put out an article "discovering" it. Joyce was a huge fan of scholarly study of his work, and that grates on me a bit.

Meanwhile, Austen's work is every bit as complex, and paints every bit as intimate and interesting a portrait of the human mind. She actually sort of invented stream of consciousness, and it's on display in "Emma." I read a critical essay about the structure of the novel also, and having looked back through it I think everything the essayist said was true, such as the way it uses a triplet motif, or the way Austen uses Emma's perspective to hide things from the reader.

But all this brilliant artistry isn't so hidden and obscure that you miss it. It's all there in the text. Unlike Joyce, Austen didn't get to go out to scholars and point out her book's devices. They probably would have laughed at her if she did because she was a woman. But you can find them anyway if you study. They're not SO obscure, there's a clarity to them.

And that's another thing. I'm a huge believer in clarity. I believe that the reader should understand everything about a work from reading the work itself. I don't think the author should have to write out something later that explains his own book. I think the reader should only need the book itself. In this regard, Austen succeeds and Joyce fails.

>>8558328
>/lit/
>interested
fuck off /mu/

>>8558387
Yeah, ı've had this impression of Joyce as well. As much as his work is supposed to exhalt the mundane ı can't shake off the feeling that he's writing *about* the common man, and not *for* him, like a misguided lover; to properly read Joyce you need to be someone who's deeply into literature, and not just about anyone. And isn't that kind of exhaltation, the "everyone lives the Odyssey everyday" kind of insulting in its own way? It tries to force the adventure into normal life and vice-versa. And ı'm completely on agreement with clarity being king, ı'm not confortable writing in a way that ı'm sure people will not understand or will have to struggle to understand--it feels frustrating for everyone.

I'm definitely interested in Austen now. Thanks a bunch.

>>8558481
Everybody knows about Pride and Prejudice, but I think Emma and Mansfield Park are actually her best works. They were written when she was older, after she'd taken a break from writing her early novels. You can clearly see that she's grown as a writer.

>>8557854
>This O'Douls tastes fucking fabulous.
isn't that non-alcoholic?

I'm curious!

>>8556614

With a can of mace and some plastic tie strips, wearing a ski mask.

>>8554104
I want to fill all her holes with my cum, I was so close but I fucked up, goddamit

>>8559588
Ok

>>8559596
you leave that pupper alone cunt

>>8554104
Rousseau should be easy, fuck

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I have a date in 6 hours

>>8559915
cool, tell me about it

>>8559926

She is a neet who writes poetry

>>8559945
awesome. Why's the feel abstract?

>>8559915
How did you meet her? Where are you going?

>>8559952
>>8559964

She just cancelled saying she's sick

Ah well.

>>8560013
She's probably not but doesn't want to see you because she realized you're ugly and boring and unlovable.

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>>8560028

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The more ı know, the less ı understand.
The less ı understand, the more ı know?

>ars
>>From Proto-Indo-European *h2r̥tís (“fitting”), from the root *h2er- (“to join”).
>>>to fit, to fix, to put together
>>Cognates include Avestan [script needed] (arəiti-, “reward”) and Ancient Greek ἄρτι (árti, “just, exactly”).
>>Related to arma.
>>>From Proto-Indo-European *h2(e)rmos (“fitting”), from the root *h2er- (“to join”). armentum is an independent derivation from the same root, as if from Proto-Indo-European *h2er-mn̥-tom.
>>>Cognates include Sanskrit ऋत (ṛtá, “order; right; agreement etc.”) and अरम् (áram, “fitting”), Ancient Greek ἀραρίσkω (ararískō, “to fit together”) and Old Armenian արարի (arari, “I made”).
>>>Semantic development was "that what is fitted together" → "tools" → "weapons". Also related to ars, artus, rītus.
"वयधम्मा सङ्खारा अप्पमादेन सम्पादेथा"?

Is then, art what can best show the composite nature of being, the inessential necessity of all things? May this be my aim?

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>>8560099
*grasp

It seems like I can deal with being lonely half of the time. It's been difficult today.

>>8560538
Lonely? I'm here pham.

>>8556996
Tell me senpai

>>8554104
I bought mostly everything I need to commit suicide but I don't have any money left for the oven bags, elastic bands, anti-emetics, or the motel room.

I don't know how I'm going to get any of that; I spent all my money on 2kg of kratom. I also have class in an hour. If I miss it, it'll be the last chance I had to be enrolled for the rest of the semester as I've already skipped 2 of the, so far, 2 sessions offered.

So that could be my life--an embarrassing, disgusting amount of kratom and another year in a shit town finishing up the 'enjoyable' preparation for a dreary existence of wage work in the service industry, envy, failure, emotional distress, isolation, indolence and Oblomovism that will never get sorted, etc.

I'm kind of caught between finally calling this shit quits and trying to survive this semester. I am definitely siding with the former but that damned survival instinct keeps pathetically soothsaying in my ear.

>>8560584
Finish your studies, pack up a bit of money. Travel. Leave a morning without telling anyone and come months or years later. And by the time you are ready to leave you will maybe, I hope for you, have a reason to live whatever would it be.

>>8560615
Thank you kindly, anon. I should add: I'm worried I'm too much of a dolt to live a life I would value much, and I think I may suffer from what is usually diagnosed as either borderline or histrionic personality disorder; it's too difficult for me to maintain friendships without becoming obsessive, envious, and spiteful. I feel disgust with everyone, myself the most. These aren't qualities I believe I will easily grow out of, and I worry they may be more constitutive than currently, passingly characteristic.

Why does she all of a sudden feel more friendly, wants to hangout more ? He is still here, literally beside us and I don't know if I ever could get his shadow out of over my head. I feel like two years went by like a week, the wound still feel fresh. I lost my light. I don't deserve whatever could happen. If she knew what I've done. Thank god no knows but her, did she said anyone, she must have felt ashamed, I feel ashamed. I didn't read her last text entirely but I remember the first words like if they were tattooed on my eye balls. Once I almost told it, I was drunk and I wanted and needed to talk. Can't remember all I said, he heard it, he must have some sort of slight idea couldn't have guessed tho. He doesn't know me that much, but so does everyone. Am I still the same, I lost my light

>>8560745
Musta been a shitty light, if it didn't help you out of whatever happened. Maybe you should get a flæshlight?

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It's like the ferther ı go the more complex everything seems, like ı can only keep coming up with more and more difficult goals. At least ı'm finally strating to see results. I think. Maybe. It's hard to tell because ı don't show anyone my stuff; not like ı have much to show with really (gotta work on those short stories). Well, it is fun. I think ı'm growing. Or very deluded. I'm getting eureka moments like every other day. Who knows how this all will end. Not me.

>>8554104
Maturity is able to reconcile your childhood self and his dreams with the adult reality and his means. If you give the child priority over the adult you'll simply bang yourself against a wall of insurmountable frustration, if you let the adult smother the child within you'll simply lead a grey, passionless, wasted life.

Moderation, as in all things, is key.
Your adult self should give the means to your child self to get as close to his dreams as realistically possible. The child gives you the passion while the adult gives you the means.

One should never smother the other.

I think I may have had an encounter with some evil entity a few years ago when I lived in New York. But I didn't actually see anything, it was more like a feeling. I may just be crazy.

I'm getting older and older and have been in the same rut for the last 4 years since I've failed out of college. I've been working the same job with different highschool and younger college aged people and I'm twenty fucking six. I know that I want to someday fall in love again and be a provider for a family but on this path I feel that I would be a waste of any woman's time in the long run. I don't know where to start on pursuing an actual career, whether to go back to school or to get a blue collar job. I hide my insecurity of all this by drinking and telling jokes.

>>8562023
Tell me more, Howard.

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I'm jealous of my best friend and sometimes I wonder if I'm his best friend. But helping read over his college application for Digipen so he can go to the city he loves, and fine-tuning the way he chooses to identify himself to the faceless judge on the other side, might have killed the last strong bit of envy I had towards him.

I used to have that green notion that a lot of his life was just falling into his lap and it'd bother me because, no matter how much I postured or submerged it in active thoughts, the plain fact of the matter is I wish it was happening to me.

But reading him describe his life, every little ancedote that he felt was important to letting someone know who he is and who he wanted to be, helped me realize that very little of it fell into his lap. There's a little luck in everything and there's no point being bitter about that.

I hope he thinks I'm a good friend, and I hope I'm good enough of a friend to justify it. But today he's his own person, and I'm mine - clumsy insecure antisocial virgin dodo that I am, I can be proud of someone I care about even if I'm not always happy with myself.

Somewhere in there is an example for me, and even when I'm still lagging behind, I can always catch up.

>>8562095
I was living in Brooklyn in a two-bedroom apartment on the fourth floor of a walk-up brownstone. My roommate eventually turned out to be a moocher who didn't pay her rent, so since I was the only one technically on the lease, I kicked her out. Her room was abandoned and I had the place to myself.

One hot summer night, most of the lights were out on her side. I was suddenly struck by the sensation that something awful was there in her room. The dark seemed particularly dark, and I was gripped by a feeling of foreboding so intense it was impossible to ignore. But, again, I didn't see anything. I have no idea where it came from.

Being a practicing Catholic, I began to pray. I prayed to the three archangels--Gabriel, Michael, and Raphael--to protect me. Gradually, the feeling subsided, and I regained a sense of security.

It could have all just been in my head. It likely was. But I'll never forget it.

>>8562111
You are a good person.

Scarcity mindset = His success makes yours pale in comparison... I deserve to be as happy as him = Envy and resentment

Abundance mindset = He must be doing something right to succeed... what can I learn from him to achieve the same? I am grateful to have his example and his friendship = Self-actualization and happiness

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>>8562038
>I know that I want to someday fall in love again and be a provider for a family but on this path I feel that I would be a waste of any woman's time in the long run.
That is a bad thought-frame for relationships and a terrible example for your prospective children. If you want your children to not be emotionally dependent on others then don't act like your relationship is a one way street and you're the almighty provider who only exists to pass on his genes, have some gusto for life of your own, just make sure you include a gusto for them also, and they will learn from you to be their own people; ditto with relationships, women don't want to be pampered princesses, and if they do they are either using you or not the kind of women you should go for, treat them like actual people who have their own lives but you are happy to spend as much time as you can with, because time is precious and you're going to live your life again anyway--it might seem like a lot of tension but that is what makes life worth living; taking things for granted is actually the most dangerous thing could do.

Bottom line: they are *your* needs to begin with, stop looking for something external that will justify them.

>>8554104
The burning desire to kill myself and cause havoc in the lives of those close to me is occurring more frequently then before.
The girl I like has started a job at a library and she seems to like it, even though it'll take time away from us going on a date in the future.
I started a job and the guy seems very nice but I think his daughter detests me.
There you go Anons, my life at the moment.

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>>8562111
>>8562121
Also see pic.

I have this printed out and sticked to my desk's magnetic board.

I look at it every day.

>>8562021
I think my childhood self is a naive little lad and I want nothing that he ever wanted to be honest.

I can't see how people entertain 'dreams' for decades.

>>8562111
The path to uniqueness is different for every person, and there are whole archetypes of great people that are premised entirely on stumbling your way to the finish line, because some people live and learn more by stumbling.

There's nothing wrong with being a little competitive, and you should obviously go after greatness, but don't feel like your core essence needs to be "like" anything, at least not necessarily. You don't have to live in his shadow because he impresses you and you think he's an amazing person.

>>8554160
this story was a rollercoaster ride from beginning to end

I've just finished a number of books that are considered difficult reads, though now I am slightly concerned that everything I read after will never be able to touch the books I have currently read. I understand that this is just my perception on the matter that is fueled by my conditioning-consumption of pop culture, memes, and the many elitist posts on this board. I see that, yet I find no way to put this acknowledgement into action and just enjoy whatever comes next.

Maybe I should spend less time online

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>>8562113
Just because something is "in your head" doesn't mean it isn't real. Does the fact that you felt an evil presence on the place your wayward friend used to live that banal to you? More over the fact that you dispelled it through faith? That it came from the darkness?

You could explain the event in various ways: that your animal instinct had as-it-were a type of bug and felt something predatory in the darkspots of the otherwise well light room, that it was a test from above, that it was the bad taste your friend left giving its last cries, or a mix of the above; but saying it was "just" in your head seems to me more like you don't want to think about it, than an honest explanation.

I myself have had a similar experience. One day ı was about to get down from the train to get to college, as usual, when ı saw that only a few steps ahead on the same wagon, was the women who just the past semester had rejected me so humiliatingly, about to get down on the station; she was the first person ı'd ever felt something so passionate that ı could honestly call love, and we ended up in really bad terms, all because of me. I had even selected the classes that ı thought would give me the least probability of meeting her again for the rest of the year, but there she was.

So ı had to come down. I stayed where ı was as a it would put me before her. When the door opened ı didn't waste time and went on with a steady but fast pace. I left her behind. On my way to college (the same way we had gone so many times side by side, some joyful, some painful) ı was reminded of a particular story, which repeats on many mythologies: in it, a man must rescue his spouse from the underworld, and he can take her, but only on the condition that he doesn't look at her on their way back; of course, he does end up looking back and he sees her rotting form, and escapes without her. That girl surely had a gothic, deathly aesthetic to her too. It then occurred to me that the story meant something particular: that there are times when we must not look back, not inquire or dig around, but simply go on, with our backs to a source of great pleasure and danger.

Before ı got to my destination though, ı met with a female friend who has an on-and-off relationship with my cousin, and who'd had some time before called me "her favorite person she had met thanks to him"; sadly, ı had to cordially cut our meeting short under the excuse that ı was getting late for classes (which ı actually was), so ı couldn't enjoy her company more. Now that ı think about it, that ı hadn't seen her for a year after becoming her acquaintance, despite going to the same building weekly, and just happened to meet her on the same day as the woman ı was trying to avoid, is pretty weird. And it's stranger still to feel as if you were inside a myth.

To see another example of this:
https://youtu.be/MLp7vWB0TeY?t=23m3s
>>8562121

I know you don't mind watching the country your ancestors lived and died for get ransacked, and the values they stood for get tarnished. But, do you really have to dig up the corpses for the oncoming marauders to rape?

>>8562244
Thanks for this. I believe you are probably correct.

It reminds me of that passage from Book of the New Sun about symbols, how they define us rather than us defining them.

I'm behind on my college read, I guess I should get on that. I don't read it because we go over it in class but it's making me paranoid that I don't read it

That this ignorant, bilious fuck who can't string three words together of longer than two syllables has the fucking gall, to criticize my mental faculties is more than I can take some days. At least I'm getting paid.

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I'm afraid of seeming like someone that talks without having read enough, but then... why would ı need that authority for? I'm so prone to righteousness already. Why would ı want to talk knowing it all? I couldn't stand not being open to criticism, and more over, it would be boring to know it all. I feel that ı don't have enough time, but the other things ı do are meaningful to me as well. A "pseud", why does that meme resound around here so much? Oh, and ı'm so prone to quoting as well! Oh how contradictory!

>>8562279
Thank you for giving me the opportunity to say it and listening.

>about symbols, how they define us rather than us defining them.
Carl Jung did say people didn't have, but instead where had by, ideas too. I'd say either can't live without the other.

I feel really shitty. I moved to a new town to start a new job and I don't like the town or the job. I don't know anyone. I feel like a pointless blob of cells just meandering around to play a pointless and mediocre role.

Starting City and the Stars tonight

they have so much power. with one digital phone, they can know your whole life. this shit can even know exactly who you are. all those years of finding yourself, they know it in just one click. all silence, we hear nothing. playing little chimes to feed you lies. stop. they can stop time, time, what a make up number. look at the galaxy? yea right. so advance yet so caged. can you tell who are we up against?

I'm becoming a bitter fuck because I started college again and I see everyone in groups of friends while I'm always alone.
Can anyone recommend me some of their favorite books that contains themes of loneliness?

>>8562318
Kill yourself you faggot nerd. You have no friends because you're a beta cuck white boy. You're philistine in every sense of the word you unathletic, skinny fat faggot. You probably dress like shit and have shitty taste in music too.

i want to drink every night, and this disquiets me. in college drinking often was just a fun way to let loose, especially for someone who hadn't had any experience with the stuff until my third year, but now the debilitating effects of alcoholism seem like more of a potential reality. i don't want to go down that route. even ignoring the health consequences, i'm uncomfortable with the idea that i might grow dependent upon a chemical substance. worried about damaging my mental faculties, too.

but fuck, i'm so bored, and drunkposting is so fun.

>>8562318
if youre not 2 gud 4 anime try watching the first 18 episodes of Kareshi Kanojo no Jijou aka His and Her Circumstances. It cured my misanthropy.

>>8562329
>beta cuck white boy
you seem like you came here with the /pol/ memes but didn't understand them

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I think my relationship with this website might be like pic related's was with his father.

>>8562329
I like Selena Gomez, Nicki Minaj, and Kanye West, and my rich asian dad buys me every designer shirt I want. You're mad faggot.

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It's not even halfway into my first semester in my English master's program in literary studies, and I already contemplate suicide on a daily basis. I accidentally hit a guy on my bicycle on the way to class because I was too absorbed in my own depressive internal monologue to notice him popping out from a blind alley. I wonder if this is indicative that this isn't a field I should be in, and that maybe the ivory tower isn't a good place for me, but I've sunk so much of the family fortune into getting here that I'm not sure I would be forgiven if I left now. I'm not sure if I could forgive myself. I'm not sure if I just have to tough it out, that it'll get better at some point. Maybe it really would just be simpler and less painful to just take my .38 out into the woods one last time and blow my brains out.

>>8562427
Anon, you're just a dude, don't take yourself so seriously. You wouldn't be so ready to kill somebody else for living a life like yours, wouldn't you?

>>8562439
I wouldn't have to live with the consequences of someone else living a life such as mine. :/

>>8562456
What consequences? You're posting on a Sogdian magic picture image board for Pete's sake! With smilies and memes at that!

>>8562470
What am I to do without a career involved with the English language? I've no other skills. I barely even have any friends. I haven't had a girlfriend in eight years. When I got in, it seemed magical and enjoyable; I loved the depths and symbolism of Faulknerian narrative or Miltonic prose, the hilarious simplicity and bizarreness of Spenser, the richness of the English language's history. Now, I get to what's considered the "real work" of my field, and I'm told that the things that brought me here are trite, inherently racist, the lamentable product of an inescapably racist and sexist patriarchal tradition of "old white men", that knowledge is definitionally subjective, that essentialist thought is king and that the worth of any thought must be seen through the lens of the progressive stack. They're considering just not hiring a new Shakespeare expert now that my university's sole expert is reaching retirement age.

I can't stay here, because it would kill me inside; I can't leave, because it would kill me outside - I have no other skills or experience. I think it's a pretty consequential dilemma. I don't know what I could possibly do with my life anymore.

>>8562501
Get other skills. Be humble about it and understand your position.

Fight on. If your position is so much better then it's worth protecting, no?

>>8562503
It feels like a waste. Like fighting the entire world. If I stayed here, I'd have to choose between mutely parroting the rhetoric of my professors in order to pass, or living a constant hell of fighting and justifying academic grievance statements when I'm invariably penalized for having a different opinion than these people who value all opinions until they're the wrong opinion. All that, while being too white and too male to be viewed with anything but skepticism by the majority of the faculty. It just sounds like a good way to either lose my soul or fight the system and get chewed up and spat out.

>>8562514
Quit.

Do what I'm going to do, start a youtube channel. 4chan is eager for somebody to parrot their cynical opinions in the visual medium. Use your writing and analytical skills to create something inspiring or informative for the intelligent viewer. Whatever you end up doing, you'll be a lot happier working on personal projects for a while until you figure out what else to do with you life.

>>8554104
I want to rain sacrilege upon romance. When I write, I want to make romantic ideals the most commonly recurring villain in my works. The problem? Keeping it fresh. I need tropes to satirize. Lots of them. And TV Tropes is NOT HELPING.

>>8562501
I work in publishing and academia. Lots and lots of people around me love Milton, Faulkner, etc. Stop feeling so oppressed by the handful of "SJWs" in your life.

>>8562537
tv tropes is shit. just read the source material.

>>8562536
Maybe you're right, anon.Thanks for letting me talk it out with someone. I needed that. Maybe I'll keep trying to live for a while more.

>>8562550
Thanks for marginalizing my experiences out of hand.

That hurt, by the way.

>>8554160
Why the fuck would you apologize to the cunt? She started it.

I mean, it's great that you lost your virginity that way, but for all you knew, the best you'd have gotten out of it was a kiss on the cheek from Poppins. And you probably would have been grateful for it. Disgusting.

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>>8562591
>Thanks for marginalizing my experiences out of hand.
>That hurt, by the way.

>>8562591
>That hurt, by the way.

how did THAT hurt? He didn't even say anything underhanded, just that you overestimate the SJW-ness of your surroundings and are suffering for that.

>>8562226
which buks

>>8562427
You need Stirner. Not even memeing.

Also sunk cost fallacy.

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about to go on a date and probably have sex for the second time today with a cute 19 year old girl from toronto

wish me luck

how do i behave at dates?

>>8563292

>>8563265

What is love?
Why are not ready to join you kidding me?
Depression is a temporary joy of eternal punishment?
I say: peace, say, or do I go!
Rupture the heart.

>>8559915
>tfw girl stood me up after asking me on a date once

My hair is too long, the static of conversations surrounding me is making my headache worse. The cucumber water is satisfying but only just. I'm alone but that's fine, it's the fact I don't have anything interesting to say to myself makes this all the much more draining. Tai food was a good choice.

Think I'm gonna fatten myself up again. Then maybe in 6 months get in shape. Binge and purge.

>>8564042
I want you to love me Anon

Farts boobies

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>>8555106
This. Don't kill yourself my dudes. I love all of you anonymous bros. /Lit/ is the only board without cancer and everyone is cool with each other. Out there someone loves you and wants to just be with you. Even if you don't know them. Stay strong my dudes!
>>8554123
>>8554129