/mtfg/ Transgirl General

>>8560405
smol big pump

>>8560405
me on the

>>8560405
stop posting porn

>>8560405
delete this now

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Pls no lewds

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You know, it's funny. All this time, and no one's ever asked me about why my name and "avatar" aren't the same.

>>8560405

I'd do it.

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>>8560432
why aren't your name and avatar the same?

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>>8560432
Those are cute kyoko pictures tho ^_^

>>8560435
hey becksy, would you describe your sexual orientation as tetrasexual?

(it's okay, you can have that one for free, i won't tell tetra you're steal my best lines)

Early today I felt a big drive to be a girl but now I don't. Don't know how to feel about that

>>8560456
Trip on Amy

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>>8560435

In short, because I am a hopeless romantic.

I actually did use to post Homura pics instead because I strongly identified with her. Detached, depressed, desperately seeking my Madoka (...though I'm still alone and craving human interaction), and pretty much had succumbed myself to despair.

Kyouko has come to represent my hope. That I can do this, that I can be a girl, that I can find love. As long as I keep Kyouko close, I'm reminded of my promise to myself to try and never give up. It's hard some days, as you've seen, but I try. There's not really any reason for me to think of Kyouko in this way, honestly, but I'll take any coping mechanism I can get.

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>>8560456
feelings come and go

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>>8560456
Trust me the feeling will come back it likes to hide itself sometimes youll have it hide from you, youll begin to doubt it and then it will come back full swing.

>>8560462
It's been swinging since I was 12. If I could go back in time I'd have actually come out

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>>8560461
>>8560462
>>8560456

I know this feel. I really think I suffer from maniac depression with how widely I swing. Just do your best!

>>8560465

I honestly don't think I could have until this year. I wanted to, but I wasn't ready and my family wasn't ready.

Now, I really want to make a facebook post coming out to my extended family. I think I'd be okay.

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>>8560465
yeah I've been about the same age and then i repressed myself for almost 6 years and just got back into realizing i'm trans after talking to someone who directed me to this board
>>8560470
Yea I suffer from Major depressive disorder and my dysphoria and depression swings alot sometimes they both appear at the same time and its hard to even feel like i'm worth a damn heh

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>>8560475

Depression and anxiety run in my family. Every member of my immediate family has it, and most of my moms side. Don't know much about my dads, but he recently was diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety Disorder. So it's probable I have some form of depression.

Accepting I'm transgender and taking illegal hormones helped, though.

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>>8560461
>mfw

>>8560460
it's nice to have a touchstone like that, just don't lose your soul gem

>>8560451
kek, something like that

thanks for the donation anon

>>8560398
Ijustreallyreallyreallywantobdead

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>>8560488
I have almost no member of my family that suffers my two biggest and most threatening disorders i have Major depressive disorder and Systemic lupus
you could also put dysphoria on this list if you want.
>>8560493
do you want a hug?

>>8560497
bunn in tube

>>8560490
no problem, you can save it and then employ it at a later date in order to trick her into giving up sex when she's being obstinate

>>8560498
shenn in tube

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>>8560493

Honestly, same. But I don't want to die until I can live forever. I want to be remembered as someone who helped someone else.

>>8560496

I suppose you could!
It's just so weird to think that for most people, gender dysphoria never crosses their mind. They just like, are what they are.

alright anons
what are your mental illnesses
>bipolar
>ADHD
>anxiety
>dysphoria

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>>8560508
yeah i just felt weird that I felt sad and almost suicidal sometimes for whawt i felt like was no reason whatsoever and then all of a sudden and I honestly thought being a girl was a far off dream that id only be able to get started on when i'm like 30 and any information i tried to find on it was just hateful rhetoric that made me depressed becuase almost all i found was hateful rhetoric.

>>8560497
toob

I wish i had boobs

>>8560503
ohayo slugo-chan

>>8560505
shenn do not go into tubes

>>8560526
dying

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>>8560521

For me, it was more like...I felt like I was waiting for my life to really begin. Like something was missing from my life, and I was still a child. Nothing really fit, and I often wished people online would just assume I was a girl. It wasn't until I was nearly 20 I even knew that transgender was a thing, and I figured by the point it was too late.

9 years later, it's very too late.

im actually cis and i got my tubes tied
i'm also taking birth control so I don't get my period
i fooled you all

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>>8560537
/hug
I still believe in you that it's not too late i'm 19 so i don't know if am going to do it too late.

Let me shoot ropes on your stomach

>>8560532
helo

does anybody else stop talking to guys instantly just for saying girl(male)

>>8560540
nf periods are hot though please put your blood in a jar and email it to me so i can drink it

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>>8560541

19 is a good age. You're old enough to make balanced decisions if you put your mind to it, your body is still developing so the hormones have something to work with, and you're a legal adult, so getting the help you need is much, much easier. I do believe in you, Lily-chan, and I hope that things go well for you. Even if I can't make it...I think seeing you go for it would bring a smile to my face.

>>8560540
same

>>8560545
hru

>>8560550
i'm very tired bc i have anemia and also its 4AM
hbu

>>8560546
I think it's funny

>>8560546
who are you even

>>8560558
it just seems really gross

>>8560559
how do you not know me
i'm pretty much the queen autist

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>>8560546

Depends on what they're trying to say. It can be funny, and I'm finding myself attracted to traps recently, so I can't...really say anything bad about it.

i

>>8560566
i mean traps as in femboys are cute but
when people use "girl(male)" to describe actual girls it's just disgusting

>>8560558
>i have anemia
:(
take some iron, iron helps us play
>hbu
um idk, I am okayish today I guess...
I want to buy an elliptical machine so I can lose weight

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>>8560567

>>8560567
u

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>>8560568

Yeah, I think that was the problem I was having to begin with, when I was first introduced to traps.

If someone is a girl, regardless of body, that's a girl. It's not nice to pick on someone for that.

But, like, if it's someone comfortable in their maleness who just likes to look like a girl? Then it's fine to call them a trap or girl(male). They'll probably call themselves a trap.

I'm not a girl(male) but I like girl(male)s

>>8560570
>>8560572
i have anemia too

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>>8560549
yeah i hope to god i can get on HRT before the end of summer honestly or at the very least get some makeup. I'm probably gonna brb Gotta shower and do a few other things ^_^

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>>8560575
The other one was me whoops

>>8560574
yeah but using 'trap' or 'girl(male)' for guys is what a lot of guys do
esp ones you meet on 4chan
and that's just disgusting

>>8560575
anna :(
eat morr eggs and take iron pills

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>mfw 500000000 hot men on grindr trying to take me out or hookup

finally, i'll have a homosexual bf like i've always dreamed

>>8560578
lol whoops


>>8560580
r e d m e a t

>>8560587
staek sammiches are good

i identify as a trap. im cute enough so thats ok

>>8560574
>>8560579
>yeah but using 'trap' or 'girl(male)' for guys is what a lot of guys do
*for girls
my bad

>>8560565
we are male girls tho

>>8560569
yess the doc gave me the metal pills to eat

cardio is hecking good
can't you get a cheaper way though?

>>8560575
it suck

>>8560600
>can't you get a cheaper way though?
that would mean leaving the house tho
I calculated a gym membership and its still cheaper to get a machine

>>8560590
my friend cooked prime rib the other night and invited me over. it was vry good.

>>8560600
yeah it makes me do this face a lot -_-

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>>8560579

Well, obviously, don't meet guys on 4chan. I mean, I feel like I shouldn't have to say that.

>>8560600
you can think that if you want
i'm not putting up with guys who feel the need to constantly disrespect my identity

>>8560605
i mean, i don't mean in a romantic context or anything. i'm taken and not really into guys anyway
i would definitely not date a 4chan chaser

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i wish i didn't want to be a trantran. :(
also, i talk like a stupid kid

>>8560609
nah, your voice is nice

also, relateable
anything particularly bad happen lately?

>>8560612
>throws pokeball

>>8560609

As in your voice, or what you say?

>>8560612

jfc not this shit again...

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>>8560612

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>>8560603
yeah fuck going outside
i just like... march on the spot really fsast or do star jumps and stuff
also squat big weights

>>8560608
understandable

>>8560612
spooked me

if the love of your life wanted you to detransition, would you?

>>8560612
ur a gracist

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>>8560612
:P

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hey girls do i pass?
my name is Toddina

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>>8560612

Hey grace. You missed me being suicidal.

...man, why is it every time I think I find a 'big sister' it goes poorly. I just want someone to hold me close without it being weird.

>>8560613
nah, i'm guessing it's just the usual angst that i'm sure we all get sometimes

>>8560618
what i say.
like trantran, or eggiwegs, or milky-wilky.
i'm weird

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>>8560617
NO
>>8560622
she is a cute
too bad my hair isnt that short anymore
>>8560627
Goodness me, I'm so sorry!
>>8560628
:P
>>8560631
uh
>>8560629
Doing just fine hon

>>8560635
>she is a cute
>too bad my hair isnt that short anymore
it u

STAF SANJATI SO PRETTY AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH

>>8560634
hugg
i never really wish i wasn't trans anymore
but i only really see suicide as an alternative so

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>>8560635
thanks for ur kind words, hon!!
do you like video games?

heres a picture of me pre-transition

>>8560634
>i'm weird

Just be charmingly so and it's all gravy.

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>>8560608

Honestly, decent people are few and far between on 4chan. It's good for hanging out, shooting the shit, but it's horrible as a support network. I only come here because it's here that I can be the most honest.

>>8560635

Ha, sorry, I didn't mean to freak you out. Having an interesting day. How are you?

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I'm back
>>8560612
*boops grace*

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>>8560642
okie-doke :3

>>8560637
cute lil ayy lmao

>>8560643
i only come here when my gf is offline / my discord is dead
i should probably not because this place brings out the worst in me lol

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How is your boyfriend search going, /mtfg/?

>microdose to finally get to writing
>end up wasting most of it on arguing on mtfg and playing web games with friends
at least i'll FINALLY finish this fic today probably baka

>>8560625
that stuff doesnt really get my heart pumpeting tho
I bet u have a girly butt from all them squats tho, I bet boys look at your butt all the time

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>>8560641
Born feminine honn! I like videogames, more specifically Fallout 4
Have you played the Game of the year?
>>8560636
yea but
im not an anime
>>8560643
I'm alright, a bit tired
>>8560647
Hi Lilil
>>8560653
It's day 458 and Todd has still not replied to my requests for a dinner date.

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>>8560653
im ugly and nobody wants to look at me

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>>8560649
TAKEI T BACK

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>>8560653
i already have the best daddy (bf) in the wrold!!!!!!!!!

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>>8560653
i've given up on my sex drive.
now it's dead & buried

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>>8560647

That's right, I was going to say: Makeup is easy. You can just go and buy it and really, you don't get weird looks. Learning to use it is a bit harder.

>>8560650

I kind of push my friends away, so this is the perfect place for me.

>>8560653

...I don't even want to think about it. Realistically, what guy would want me?

>>8560653
>dating boys
i've met a few cute femboys i might have considered dating but meh

>>8560653

i dumped the guy i was datin and i have a date wit a qt guy in a week so pretty good i guess idk

>>8560635
>everyone got a (you) except me
bit rude desu

>>8560659
i have never even seen a boy
it is pretty nice though ur right

>>8560669
i push friends away because i have autistic meltdowns frequently but i'm also hypersocial and i try to be nice like 90% of the time
so i do lose friends semi-frequently, but i always have a pretty large friendbase at any given time

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>>8560660
Fallout 4 Game of the Year? Yes I have, I also per-ordered Fallout 4 VR on the Sony Playstation 4! I'm very excited.

Do you like the other fine games developed and published by Bethesda Softworks LLC, a subsidiary of ZeniMax Media? I enjoyed Fallout: New Vegas Game of the Year Edition

here's a pic of me all dressed up for a night out

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>>8560653
I'm not capable of love i have a tendency to act childish and make stupid decisions.
>>8560660
Hai grace how've you been? ^_^ also I like
fallout 4 &knuckles
>>8560669
okay thats when i get a way to make money i'm going to be working on my resume probably and going to walk around applying to the places nearby within walking distance tommorow because nothings open today.

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>>8560676
>never even seen a boy
yeah same
>it is pretty nice though ur right
mine is like... a pair of deflated whoopie cusions

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>>8560681
im childish and wear diaps and do stupid stuff al lthe time but i have a great bf that lvoes me.

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>>8560676
sry
>>8560681
i am very sleepy right now
how are you??
>>8560680
>Fallout New Vegas
Blew it.

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>>8560678

I push my friends away because when I was growing up I basically learned to stay out of peoples way or I'd get hurt, and so I never learned to properly interact with other people. I try and find people to talk to but I always think I'm bothering them

>>8560681

Walkins have a low chance of success. It's all about online applications these days, and having a good resume.

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>>8560690
>Blew it
That was a test! It wasn't one of Bethesda's games, it was done by the far lesser skilled Obsidian Entertainment - YUCK!

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>>8560690
something something mojave nuclear winter

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i can't remember the last time i masturbated.
i wonder how long ago it could have been.
is my peenaleen fucked?
if so how much?

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Also grace you should sleep. Normal people are asleep right now, aren't they?

Anyway, I think I'm going to try and call the local mental wellness center. It's a quick little jaunt from the bus stop, so getting over there will be easy. Even if I don't get to see a gender doctor over it...I need to talk to someone. I can't do this on my own.

>>8560691
i grew up just talking to people online
but i was always this socially dysfunctional asshole that didn't understand how to communicate with people, so i'd get angry and then i'd blow things up
i feel like i'm more mature than i used to be, but hrt also makes my autistic meltdowns more frequent

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>>8560691
yea its just i have a resume on a google doc can i send it on an online resume?
>>8560690
I'm good just planning out what i'm going to do tommorow because nothing is open today

>>8560699
uhhhhhhh
a few girls have said that after not masturbating for several months erections would make them bleed
it's probably a good idea to force yourself to do it at least once every two weeks

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>>8560695
I can't even ironically todd-posting hate it
>>8560697
Something something ringa ding ding baby
>>8560700
Am I a normal people
>>8560705
What's on the plan for tomorrow? I sure am excited for tomorrow, 5 hours of work to grind through!

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>>8560703
>having friends

>>8560699

get a bf to masturbate ur butt

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>>8560710
but i never feel like it.
& i always forget

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>>8560711
>I can't even ironically todd-posting hate it
I died a little inside typing it

>>8560723
:/
idk, maybe make a reminder?
i have a really stupid sex drive so as long as i remember to actually do it i can get off easy

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>go to pride
>get really drunk
>notice there's lots of really hot girls
it wasn't supposed to be this way

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>>8560699

Probably not. Something about HRT seems to kill the sex drive. I, uh, it doesn't go up on it's own, anymore, but I can make it happen as needed, which is perfectly fine to me. I was never a big masturbator.

>>8560703

I'm much the same way.

I'm embarrassed to say this, but as soon as I could go online, I did, and I pretty much instantly hoped I'd be confused for a girl. Being able to post online, that helped me a lot.

I'm diagnosed with autism, but I don't really have meltdowns, I just get really withdrawn. Honestly, I wonder how much of it is autism and how much is unaddressed gender dysphoria. Being a girl, I'm much less withdrawn, much more social. It's like I'm using a lot of emotional energy to present as male.

>>8560705

Most places have a place to put your resume. I just bring mine anyway, because I'm pretty proud of my title.

>>8560711

Normal is variable. You're largely normal.

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>>8560716
sounds difficult.
i don't even know if i want a bf/gf, or if i dhould even bother getting one

>>8560730
well, i also have more important shit to do :/

>>8560735
*should

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>>8560711
Applying to places online within walking distance to my house and then put in my financial aid into my college I'm stuck in a dillema with what to major in college and uni. I'm kinda afraid of failing my college classes because my life would basically be over at that point. and I might be on HRT during my college and my financial aid has me registered as the gender thats not my identity so idk alot of stuff. after that i'm gonna try and relearn some stuff for college
>>8560734
thanks i'm gonna walk in probably and see if they have places to apply online or forms to fill out some businesses around me don't have websites or online applications tho.

>>8560735
idk, it's kinda important
it'll shrink and from what i've heard you realllyyyy don't want to get dick bleeding from erection
like it's supposed to be awful

>>8560734
i wanted to be a girl since i was like 13 but i never really thought it was possible
i'm still presenting male and i probably will for a few months
my plan was to fulltime when i move to the mainland but idk if that's even happening

>>8560731
"She spent the whole time ranting about "kow-werker chyan" and how they need to take hormones before launching into a rants about IPAs"
-Quote from onlooker

>>8560742
damn it, how troublesome.
peen is too high-maintenance >:|

>>8560731
elann

>>8560744
why are you still here????

>>8560749
our bodies are trying to punish us for being women desu

>>8560753
got called a faggot on the street today, I guess this is progress.

>>8560749
you have to maintain your genitals even if you have srs lol

pizza in the oven
real alpha female on the prowl here

>>8560752
I'm anon now, it's better this way

>>8560653
its not and i feel vry alive

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>>8560741

Don't declare a major. Take some general stuff first and think about it. I made the mistake of rushing into a Business Admin major and I hated it so much. Take your time and enjoy college, don't just rush into it because you should. You're on the cusp of your life! I wish I was as open as you were when I was your age.

>>8560742

I think I've felt like a girl for awhile; I certainly have always identified more with females than males, but I lacked the social awareness to make that connection.

>>8560753
oops sorry, didn't mean to link to you

hug anon

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>>8560749
it'll probably need to be rubbed totally raw for me to even feel anything.
the last time i masturbated, i bled.
right, now i'm starting to remember.
it was around late may to early june

>>8560763
it's some bullshit

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>>8560767
okay I won't It's just I have alot of people I don't want to let down.

>>8560753
i dont know

>>8560764
spaghetti pizza?

>>8560765
:(

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right, it's coming time for me to start joggalogging.
later, grills

>>8560767
i went full repression mode and tried to exercise a lot and listened to power metal and shit and tried to identify with traditional male roles
it's really obvious in hindsight - i clearly remember, for example, a time when i outright cried and told myself 'i'll just have to roll with being a boy because that's my only option' when i was 17
i don't know how i never made the connection, i guess i was trying to blot those memories out

i've struggled with my self image since beginning transition. i can at least see myself looking way more feminine now, but i don't really feel like i'm a girl. i guess i kind of feel gender neutral more than anything else?
when i'm depressed i start to think along the lines of 'even if i fully transition i'll just be a man in the body of a woman' and ugh

>tfw you will never be a passing bully dyke bullying femboys into submission

>>8560780
just cheese pizza

>>8560786
worst pizza

>>8560783
it's like I'm reading a bio of my 20's

>>8560780
it's ok it means I don't have any reason to come here apart from when I'm really bored
don't think that's gonna happen much

Cheese is the worst part of pizza.

>>8560795
i'm glad u ok banana

>>8560795
:(
miss u tho

>>8560791
it's blegh
so fucking cringe
why am i always so dedicated to making myself unhappy

>>8560788
i'm an alpha female and ur wrong ok

i keep finding literal balls of my hair on the floor wtf

>>8560800
>i'm an alpha female and ur wrong ok
pepperoni best pizza

>>8560796
u might be interested in focaccia alla genovese

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>>8560783

I externalized a lot. Is that the right word? Like, I never really did anything for myself, and I made my entire personality about other people (>>8560778 don't do that. Worry about letting down your true self, not other people), so I never really thought about who or what I was, and that certainly didn't help. Over time, though, I started to disassociate, HARD.

Now, I'm pretty much in the same place. I don't really look feminine, but I have a hard time imagining myself in a place where people accept me as a woman. It all feels like a laughable dream.

>>8560800
because unhappy is safe, it's what you know, it's what's comfortable.

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>finally find a place
>okay with couples, okay with cats, has good internet
>moving in tomorrow or tuesday
>get celebratory slightly drunk
>meme dota lan on the main screen
>but something is missing

post your favourite song that isn't sad, i need it

>>8560806
i was always super narcissistic
i don't think i ever actually understood myself though
i was really just a stereotypical male attention whore

iktf
at least i have a pretty good starting point but i feel pretty masculine
but i'm getting fucking noticeable boobs now so it's not like i can boymode much longer

>>8560799
miss you too lauren
it's for the best though, i'm actually genuinely in a good place now

>>8560798
u too sass, keep your stick on the ice

>>8560809
ironically
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5xxQs34UMx4

unironically
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QEY_dpM_nD8

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>>8560806
/hug
Ill try to get there.without letting myself down ^_^
>>8560809
Do you really want my favorite happy song? i generally don't post my own personal interests last time i did that i got my hand bit off

>>8560821
>miss you too lauren
I am not lauren tho but I miss u all the same

i used to be literally 100% /pol/
the only thing i didn't do is i felt bad misgendering transgirls so i didn't
it's weird that i managed to block out my dysphoric memories so much that i managed to be at a point where i 100% didn't understand trans people
my memory's shit so maybe it just lapsed but idk

>>8560821
>keep your stick on the ice
So canadian <3
keep your stick on the ice too ; )

>>8560826
yes

>>8560824
love it thank you sheen i unironically love this song

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>>8560814

I was completely the opposite. I enjoyed making people smile, to be sure, but it was all about other people. I enjoy people, I still do, but as I got older, I started feeling more and more out of place. Interacting with others became a chore for me, and I lost what few friends I had. Even my parents occasionally noticed, saying stuff about how I used to smile a lot more. I recently got that smile back, though. It's a strange feeling to really smile. But anyway, I was just really quiet, tried to listen to people and learn from them, to do my best for them.

Yeah, I think if I really am honest with myself, I've basically always been a girl.

genuinely, i just wish i had someone to listen to sufjan stevens with and fall asleep hugging right now.

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>>8560744
nuh-uh! Ex-coworker chan did come up though >.>

>>8560843
i was just an angry repressing man desu
i have a lot of trouble with seeing myself as a real woman
i keep hoping that some day i can be legitimate enough to convince myself, but eh

>>8560849
>Ex-coworker chan did come up though
This concerns me

>>8560847
*puts on come on feel the illinois*

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>>8560853

I'm fortunate not to have that problem anymore. I came out to myself, ha ha! So I know I'm a girl for sure, but where I have the problem is, can I get to a point where other people know.

It's a long road, and one only you can walk, but it's worth the journey, no matter how rocky.

>>8560809
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N4d7Wp9kKjA

>>8560804

I don't like sushi.

>>8560867
cold fish

>>8560841
Well I don't know I'm too shy to share ;~;

>>8560863
>middle of nowhere australia

>>8560867
>>8560868
>:(

>>8560859
*plays the Illinois album at the same time while searching for flights to DC and best routes to beephouse.*

Is it bad that I have a huge fucking weakness for mtf voices ?

Like when I hear / talk to a mtf I litteraly have fucking tingles going up and down my body. It's amazing I never felt something like that from anything else

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alright.
i finished jogging.
5 minutes again, but i'm less tired than the other times i went for 5 minutes.
so not a huge improvement

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>>8560869
just show me, i won't make fun of you

this is mine, at least in this moment
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lvNWkCbCLH0

>>8560863
i still need to listen to an entire bowie album start to finish, it's been years

>>8560891
*in ur dad's voice* you look for a good time honey???

>>8560809
https://youtu.be/cDIzMGh94vo

>tfw your ex still wants to talk to you but that just makes things feel worse
i miss my juni gf

>>8560895

Quick rectification, I love their voices but I'm not into traps, or men.

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>>8560892
i'll sit for a couples, see how long i can plank, then i'm gonna take a nice, lukewarm shower

>>8560905
*couple minutes

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>>8560894
Most of the normies took the band but the band is good (actually they only have one album that i listen to the rest i can't bring myself to listen to) but it's a little bit sad on some songs and other songs are really happy my favorite song from the album Ill mention later

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tfw in gril mode and decide to wear hair down and even get nice comments about hair but still misgendered.

self reminder don't even try

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hello girls

>>8560900
juniper is best girl
I am glad she isnt with you anymore even though I like you too
I think you should both get a cute husband each and become friends who sit and embroider together while your husbands drink brandy and smoke cigars in the billiard room

>>8560916
hello

>>8560916
Hai Puru ^_^

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so i finally agreed to go with my sugar daddy to japan mid-september. is there anywhere u weebs think i should visit while i'm there or stuff i should do?

>>8560923
niagara falls

>>8560923
mt fuji

gloomy made a really cute trouple emote the night before we broke up
it was really sad and i removed it for obvious reasons

>>8560919
:/
that's just harsh

>husband
ew, no
the closest i'd come is if gloomy wanted to poly with a femboy
but eh, right now it's me and her against the world

>>8560923
go to mcdonalds, 7/11 and a ramen place
also buy takoyaki

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I need to ask my mom for fashion, hair, makeup, etc. advice but I feel awkward bringing up trans stuff even though she keeps asking if I need help with anything

>>8560894
The Man Who Sold the World is his best album imo

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>>8560923
Definitely check out some of the old wooden house areas. That architecture is aesthetic af

>>8560921
>>8560922
How are you doing?

>>8560923
Chidorigafuchi Park, looks so cute, I've always wanted to go.

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>>8560923
Aokigahara

>>8560910
looking forward to it desu

>>8560933
any particular reason why?

also dollface i'm kidding

>>8560937
Idk, it just seems to be the one I listen to the most.
It's like that with most music I listen to desu.

>>8560935
i'm doing fine just going to read soon yourself?
>>8560937
:3

>>8560928
>>8560930
>>8560935
>>8560936

*takes notes*
i think i'm only gonna be there like a week so i gotta look into stuff now i'm thinkin

>>8560937

why can't i go to the suicide forest huh bexe ;-;

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good song
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MujrB9TMT4s

>>8560942
should i just like, download the entire discography?

>>8560945
post it faget

>>8560948
go if you want to, just don't tell them i sent you

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>>8560948
remember to sit down and just enjoy the atmosphere, cuddling with partner optional

>>8560945
thinking of lunch but unsure what im going to have, whatchu reading:

>>8560937
>>8560948
>Aokigahara
I just started crying because it would be kind of cool to do it there but I hate that we're like this and it makes me sad about all the normies who killed themselves there.

Also I get scared of ghosts so I would be spooped

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>>8560953
Demon days there ill say the album
;~;
>>8560956
some science books and going to practice my drawing soon. just want to learn some stuff so i don't have to take as many remedial courses in college

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>>8560953
Lol, if you want, pic related is how much there is.

>>8560957
yeah
it'd be kinda sad to wind up a statistic and leave gloomy alone

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>>8560958
demon days is the fucking shit are you kidding lily? half the songs on there are 9/10

>>8560960
good thing i have a 1TB mechanical media drive [spoiler]from 2006[/spoiler]

Had a nightmare i was seduced (more like raped) by a girl

She was a succubus or something and cast a spell on me.. it felt so real that even when I woke up I had to reassure myself it didn't happen

Scared to go back to sleep now

>>8560953

o-o-ok

>>8560956

ye i've always wanted to go but never had the opportunity. i'm prob going to have a lost in translation moment tbqh lol

>>8560957

:c

>>8560967
Wew, idk how old mine is, but it's still going, should probably back it up and replace it desu.

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>>8560970
I hope I can afford to travel there some day too. Enjoy your trip edie <3

>>8560968
succubuses just steal your masculinity
you will be fine

>>8560967
i hope you have backups...
tfw file server runs off 2.5 1tb drive from 2010
>>8560968
perverted subconcious anon

>>8560967
yeah it's one of my favorite albums I tend to listen to it while feeling down too and i tend to listen to it regardless

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>>8560982
>parrothitler
blast from the past
how r u?

>>8560973
affording the built in cost of backing up your data is a meme for the rich

>>8560968

sorry bout that

>>8560978

i'm sure u will go there some day c: and ty puru bb!!!

i think I'm hungry but I got a normy job to wake up early to and do excercises

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>>8560982
Have you ordered hormones yet?

>>8560987
decent i guess
bored and tired, rarely post here except when im really bored... that is now
>a meme for the rich
raid = redudant array of inexpensive disks
4 64$ `tb drivers in zfs one for most important files, one for system and files, 2 for everything else. peace of mind for 300$

>>8560996
yah i started mones last september

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>>8560998
>for 300$
>inexpensive
t. privileged

are you transitioning?

>>8561004
kek if ur serious

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JvdT4wFh0tQ
this makes me want to harden my body and get ready for the coming civil war

>>8561007
>>8561004

>>8560980
I have no masculinity left

She just violated me :/

Why are there no boy succubuses

>>8561007
>not spending all your money on drugs

>>8561017
that is called an Incubus

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god, i feel so good.
(⌒0⌒)/~~
my stamina is improving.
i can feel it in my bones

>>8561021
exercising is good
i need to get back into it, i keep getting too depressed

>>8561019
Give me one of those

Preferably with a beard

>>8561017
>>8561019
also, the plural forms are incubi & succubi

>tfw not attracted to men 90% of the time but sometimes girls will mention guys and it's really hot

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>>8561036
boys smell amazing and feel amazing too especially when they have their big hands on you

>>8561036
next level agp.

>>8561042
how can i earn your approval, anon? ;_;

>>8561039
it might be nice to date a femboy desu
if they're not too masculine they could be cute~
and if they shave / wax

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>>8561039

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zZ9COhQPSls
best pair of songs

>>8561016
nice
what are you on?

>>8561018
the only drug i spend money on is alcohol and it's only periodic because tetra and i try to share as much as we can

>>8561036
>tfw u want to be femdom and maledoms are like a goal to strive for that u also hate

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>tfw you don't know what to do w/ your body for romance.
what if sex doesn't work?
how will i be able to romance?

>>8561039
>tfw hands so tiny that no grill would ever want them
>also, tfw left-hand digit ratio has index longer than ring
>tfw /soc/ says neither of those things is normal anywhere

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I love you all
nohomo

>>8561050
alcohol is a really shit drug though senpai
>not rolling around in bed doing LSD with your gf

>tfw want to be a dom but you're subby af and as soon as someone pushes you you melt into submission
maledoms make me feel kinda weird

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>>8561052
gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay

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>>8561052
Ily too, no homo

>>8561064
She said no homo

>>8561045
that looks so comfy :(

>>8561069
I thought that too
especially when a special someone linked it to me I thought that is the only thing I could ever want and it was

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>>8561064
I'm as gay as madoka kaname
>>8561066
^_^ so what have you been up to?

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>>8561051
>what if sex doesn't work?
>how will i be able to romance?
Cuddles while naked probs work, pleasuring your partner also without your genitals.

>>8561052
>nohomo
What's the point then?

>>8561050
100mg spiro 4mg estrogen

>>8561069
It kinda is but legs being positioned like that doesn't stay comfy for too long

>>8561062
>tfw you're open to trying things but generally don't know anyone ever so getting things is impossible

>>8561082
what is hugging a boy like
I will never know

>>8561083
>>8561062
Also, sidenote
>tfw you want to be a dom but you're super duper incompetent at it

>>8561045
tfw I'll never experience that

>>8561083
you can get "technically legal" analogues online
LSD is fucking amazing though
i've only done it while skyping my gf so having someone irl would probably be incredible

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>>8561085
From the guys that I've hugged, it's very comfy. The one in particular I'm thinking of was very strong, kept me in a really solid hug for as long as I wanted to be in it, and he nuzzled my head and stuff while we did.
It was just like, I dunno, it just fills you with all sorts of good feelings. Just make sure they don't smell bad!

>>8561076
o no.
please, i can't be seen touched while i'm naked.
i'm too shy.
i'm starting to feel scared

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>>8561075
Madoka's pretty gay ngl

I've been recording my stupid voice then deleting them and doing it again, and again. U?

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Someone give me a few thousand dollars so I can get some surgeries and stop having intense bdd pls.

>>8561085
Boys are so warm and you feel like nothing could ever hurt you

>tfw no boy to squeeze the life force out of

>>8561086
yeah i'd be awful at it
a-a-at least service tops are a thing, r-right?????

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>>8561095
*Gives you a small loan of 1 Million Dollars*

>>8561094
I'm reading i did some voice practice but holding my adams apple in place made me exhausted i think thats not normal but its been like the 2nd or 3rd day practicing this
I'm bisexual so i like both girls and boys its just I like dommy girls more
>>8561076
>>8561076
idk
>that image
l-lewd

>>8561100
Fuck you.

>>8561100
>1 Million Dollars
>small

>>8561062
it's also easily accessible and i don't need to have a medical record to access it

i would fucking love if weed was non-ontario-tier regulated market, but it's not, and it affects me in ways i'm uncomfortable with these days

>>8561081
what are your levels like?

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>>8561093
you can keep cute undergarments on, if you dont wanna be touched you can do the touching

communicate with your partner it's important

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>>8561104
Love you

>>8561107
i've permanently associated weed with stoner culture lmao
makes it hard to want to do it
idk though
i drank alcohol a bit to ward off depression when i was still living with my parents, but eh
now that i've used LSD i'm never touching the shit again

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>>8561108
i can't do any of that.
no.
i can't do any touching, i can't be touched

>>8561107
I dunno no way to check

>>8561101
Yeah I get exhausted holding it up for too long, i just do it whenever i think about it during the day, it's a muscle so it should get easier over time I guess.
But idk, I'm definitely no expert.

>>8561091
That might be worth looking into, thanks for the tip
>>8561097
Service top?

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>>8561092
>>8561096
I'm sad now because I am a hon and not at all cute and will never have a boyfriend

>>8561122
/r/1P_LSD is your friend

>Service top?
it's when you top but you're still submissive

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Hopefully I won't won't get corrupted out of my innocence in the future ^_^
>>8561120
yea I tried for like 15 minutes today and about 3 mins later and whenever i felt comfortable and now i can't really do it that much anymore today.

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>>8561116
Take it slow and cuddle then, get comfortable with each other.

When i first met my long-distance partner irl we just sat next to each other without doing much, just nervous and excited but too shy to say a word. I took her home and we sat on my bed next to each other for half an hour, hiding under blankets making weird giggles at each other. Then I asked to hold her hand so we did that for a good while while watching a movie.

Sometimes cudds are enough, especially if you're both submissive

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>>8561123
There's a guy out there for everyone.

>>8561113
Where I'm from (Denver) everyone smokes weed. We have our fair share of stoners that smoke weed but so does that businessman and that construction worker and that grandma at the grocery store

>>8561124
>it's when you top but you're still submissive
>tfw you realize you don't know what anything means
I am so lucky Bexe puts up with me

>>8561128
not for someone who has a frame manlier than most boys

>>8561127
okie

>>8561130
LSD seems useful for both recreation and medicating ADHD
source: the two days i've microdosed are the only two days in the last month that i've written anything

>>8561124
>1P-LSD
less potent and expensive then LSD
>paying 100$ for a 10 strip
shaking my head

>>8561130
you should get a denver meetup going
I think there are like 2-3 anon posters who live there