Professional friendly cooking advice edition
•Makeup for beginners: http://masterposter.tumblr.com/post/116605714860
•Male vs Female measurement data: https://www.bwc.ohio.gov/downloads/blankpdf/ErgoAnthropometricData.pdf
•Correct hormone levels: http://www.hemingways.org/GIDinfo/hrt_ref.htm
•Checking your levels: http://www.privatemdlabs.com/lp/Female_Hormone_Testing.php
•Reducing Muscle http://www.trans-health.com/2001/lose-muscle-gain-fat-dieting-for-mtfs/
•Size charts: http://www.americanapparel.net/sizing/default.asp?chart=womens.pantse_conversion_chart.php
•Transition time lines: http://imgur.com/a/qWpxv
•Voice Training: https://www.reddit.com/r/asktransgender/comments/1ske7b/mtf_voice_training_regimen/
•Voice Help: http://webjedi.net/projects/lgbtq/speech-therapy/
•IRC: https://www.rizon.net/chat#mtfg
previously >>8139734
Boop
I want to kiss girls..
>it turns out my "boyfriend" was actually Basic pretending to be a femboy
>>8141275
Do it :o
wish they liked me back
>>8141275
I thought we were going to go kiss boys
>>8141281
Who?
>>8141283
We are going to kiss girls who used to be boys
>>8141275
where do you want to kiss them?
>>8141203
i really do just want to hang out with you cause i like you
im sorry for bringing things to the point to where you think things like that
>>8141286
the person I like
duh
>want to be smol
>6'0" tall
well cant win everything ;_;
Every person here that forced my partner into suicide will pay
>>8141291
That's not specific but OK :P I'll give you that
>>8141254
>If you don't live your life my way you're lazy!
This is why you're a cunt. I have nothing more to say to you.
>>8141291
Describe the color of underwear this person wears.
>>8141287
do I have to
the gross ass nigga hon is posting images again
>>8141297
I really hope it was Angie. or bjorg I guess.
>>8141294
The two foot tall weave doesn't help.
>>8141304
Just hide post and move on. Its what everyone else does.
>>8141294
Amazons need love too.
>>8141288
On the lips
Softly
>>8141283
Idk I'm open to anything I just want kissu
so I have an awful hairline, do you think a hair graft like the one shown here will help at all? (this is where they take the donor hair)
>>8141306
Wishing suicide on anyone is fucked up
>>8141314
Do they know that you like them?
>>8141315
IS THAT A REAL PICTURE????
>>8141315
OH GOD
>>8141265
literally me
>>8141315
does it grow back
>>8141315
cannot unsee
>>8141317
yes and they don't like me like that
>>8141315
>>8141218
Post discord instead
>>8141327
Ouch :(
>>8141275
YOU JUST SAID
>>8141329
If you end up deserving it, maybe~
https://youtu.be/HwiUhC3PGXg
Has a unique sound to it :)
>>8141318
yes its real
>>8141323
idk, i was hoping for some elucidation lol
>>8141315
http://www.thehairtransplantlosangeles.com/wp-content/uploads/2014/06/fue-hair-transplant-los-angeles1.jpg
>>8141343
so it does grow back?
Walk into the gay club like what up i got my gun cocked, im just pumped about some fags about to get shot. Round in the chamber is so damn hot see, people like damn thats a cold ass nazi. Roll up in hella deep, headed to the murder scene, dressed in all black except my army boots those are green. Girl standing next to me, prolly has a fucking D, paint the walls with her blood, now the world's a little clean. You wear your grandma's clothes, im trumps expendable, I'll put you in a hole before you get one of your own. I'm gonna pop some fags, got a .22 in my pocket, i-i'm a loner, looking like Chris Dorner, this is fucking awesome.
why is life so awful
>>8141349
I wish I knew :(
>>8141289
I wanted to be your friend
but you didnt want that
>>8141338
That's some good shit right there, right there.
ok, i kinda disagree w/ blaire white on the notion of having a cure.
i think she's being a little naïve tbperfectlydesu.
contra's, there is a capacity for such a cure to be abused by bigoted or reigious physicians who should honestly recuse themselves in cases dealing w/ trans people, lest they do anything that could cause their patients harm,
b/c i'm not convinced there is a legitimate "cure" for dysphoria that wouldn't involve operating on your patients' brains, which, w/o a concrete illness physically affecting the patients' brains to point where they could actually, even if they aren't suicidal, in itself would bring in a brave new world of ethical problems that would FUCKING DWARF the ethical implications of allowing late-teens to go on hormones, even if the patients are willing participants
>>8141353
It reminds me of the unique sound Nujabes has so I thought I'd post it :o
>>8141338
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dNPx2xutPw8
>>8141347
>>8141351
>Serious cinnamon roll for serious Grace.
>>8141338
Try this, super chill cuddle music my bf turned me on to https://youtu.be/vGQDQ_ZqgdQ
>>8141349
hugg
There isn't always a reason. Sometimes it just is :/
warheads super sour double drops liquid candy is hella good what the heck
>>8141370
u got dandruff lol
>>8141374
wait really where
ROFL
>>8141337
How do I earn it dammit
Im really bad at making food
>>8141382
its ok i burnt cookies and microwaved ramen
>>8141382
eat some fucking vegetables
Where is a good place to buy wigs that fit MtF's?
>>8141365
Just bored and listening to a shitty pop station
Anyway im more concerned with why my bf wants me to have a visible bulge on our date tomorrow
>>8141381
Just be a good girl and lets chat through email a bit ^^ There isnt any harm in that now, is there?
>>8141386
werent you two gonna make fresh ramen
>>8141388
dude im gonna get some carrots
>>8141366
t-thanks :3
>>8141395
w-wait can i email you too
you seem nice owo
>>8141382
It looks fine thoughhhhh.
>>8141346
https://youtu.be/pY9CgzSxZKY
At one 1:20 oh fuck. Dont thin k ot does
>>8141401
we're waiting for you to come over so we can all cook together and pet the cats and giggle :3
>>8141405
the first egg i wanted to do sunny side up
but i messed it up
so i tried to scramble it
i dont think i cooked the sausage right either
>>8141408
you mean bully me like last time?
>>8141351
i always wanted it
im just not good at being one
>>8141403
whore.
im bad at being a pertson
>>8141414
i relate to this post
>>8141347
not bad
>>8141402
>What type of music is that?
Superchillfuntimerealizingursomeonesgf type music
Wish more people here would try it and tell me if they like it, my bf supposedly knows the bassist https://youtu.be/OmybOUP_tLY
>>8141413
i dont see why you'd say such bad things about me to your friends if you wanted it
>say I wish I knew how to cook out loud
>get odd looks from most people
Why do people think its odd for a guy to want to know how to cook?
>>8141413
tub
>>8141403
Now, who as ever needed permission to send an email? Send as you please girl, unless you'd want to ask for permission, to speak, more nicely~
I wanna be friends with chunk and special k but emma seems kind of mean I'm scared of her
>>8141420
It isn't too much of music I am interested in but it's a different story for hubby. He likes it
>>8141427
At school during homeroom.
>>8141423
Pic related
>>8141411
>the first egg i wanted to do sunny side up
>but i messed it up
>so i tried to scramble it
thats fine tho, scrambled eggs is good
if you arent feeling confident with sunny side egg skillz then add a teaspoon of water and cover and it will be perfect every time
>i dont think i cooked the sausage right either
if it was cooked all the way through then its fine
even if it wasnt the meat is usually cured which is fine too
>>8141421
What would give you hope? Would something have to happen for this to take place?
>leave house for the first time in a week to get groceries
>get catcalled by a car full of ethiopian guys
I don't know whether to feel angry or pretty
self esteem is really weird rn
>>8141424
>tfw step dad taught me to cook in high school so I could try to cook for girls or something when I got to college
>tfw just want to cook for boys now
wew
>>8141441
congratualtions u are a girl now
>>8141441
both!
>>8141419
Someone sees my creative genius at least. Should make a vid with every mass shooter making cameos yet played by transwomen, now thats a funny music video.
>>8141389
>>8141389
>>8141389
Please halp
>>8141443
I want to cook a lasagna for a boy :)
>>8141443
nice
>>8141447
I don't know anything about wigs but maybe like crossdresser websites (sorry idk it is what it is..) or custom made?
>>8141423
oftentimes those "friends" you're referring to that were so happy to sell me down the river to you were right there with me saying those things too
it was a mean girls sort of situation
bad on everyones part
not that it makes it right, just minor surface gossip/insults doesnt reflect the fact that i do actually like you a lot
im sure theres a bunch of flaws about me you could point out too >>8141426 some of them even become memes
>>8141389
Why would you want wigs?
It won't help you pass, wigs are different from real hair
Just let you hair grows
>>8141441
>ywn be catcalled
>>8141439
I don't know, I'm just tired of feeling awful every single day with no way to realistically fix it, anything I thought that would possible help change things turned out to be useless
>>8141456
I swear white people are on a different planet. Human hair wigs are a thing you know.
>>8141459
>I've been saving my crawfish bisque recipe for whenever I get a bf
you are going to get laiiiiiiiidddd
>>8141465
And I tought spending lots of money on totally useless things was a white people thing...
THAT
//
FEEL
//
WHEN
//
NO
//
BF
>>8141458
>Am I a creative genius too?
Naw, ur black. People expect u to burst into song and dance at any second. (Saying a compliment btw, most blacks are more musically inclined then whites)
>>8141463
Is someone making you feel awful?
look at how nice /pol/ was to me <3
idk why they have such a bad reputation
many times I've had great conversations about hormones and transitioning and not that many people are bigots filled with hate!
>>8141455
I'm not gonna point that stuff out cause I don't want that
I don't wanna be mean to you or embroiled in all this stuff
im just hurt
thats when i say mean things
>were right there with me saying those things too
id be willing to believe you on that, i only trust one not to sell me out
>just minor surface gossip/insults doesnt reflect the fact that i do actually like you a lot
i dont want people in my life that are gonna treat me like that
id never shit talk a friend of mine like that, even if someone else already is
>>8141475
You dont have one because you dont want oneee~
>>8141474
>I tought spending lots of money on totally useless things was a white people thing...
it is more of a wigger or nigger thing really
>>8141484
fuck you fag you don't know me
>>8141480
when pol is autistic its not cool
but its been neat
theres just a lot of them that dont like transitioning
theyll say they wanna fix you or something and i think they do genuinely care about getting you a better cure
its just, they gotta learn that this is the best way to deal with it right now lol
but when its autistic its REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
/robert
hey dont forget to wear sunscreen FUCK
>>8141480
they called me disgusting and told me to kill myself
>>8141446
it really was pretty creative
those music videos would be progressive too
>>8141480
I am glad you found some people that can treat you with dignity and respect :) We all deserve that
>>8141494
I don't go outside though
>>8141494
fuck
>>8141500
...
>>8141478
mostly me, I tend to throw up when I take showers...
>>8141463
Obviously I have no clue about your particular situation but this checklist thing helps me a lot whenever I start feeling awful.
Clearly it doesn't fix any serious issues but even if it only helps a little it may be worth it.
I really hope you feel better soon
>>8141505
SHIT
Fucking a guy was literally screaming at traffic in front of him to move as he was in the intersection. Then he Stopped and asked me how I was doing today
Fuck I fucking hate being trans
>>8141500
:)
>>8141495
yeah you get some of that too sadly but its not too hard to ignore
>>8141492
>theyll say they wanna fix you or something and i think they do genuinely care about getting you a better cure
yeah that was a lot of it
which is still very sweet
just because of how different I'm becoming, physically and mentally, it is hard not to wonder what hormones are all doing to me
I did want to kill myself before and I do much much less now and feel much happier, but I think there is value in not just coming to pure trans-only spaces but also ones that offer a solution to improving your life maybe without hrt
...that being said idk why the fuck i'd stop lol, I seriously love it
Dont pretend to be me you psycho fuck.
>>8141489
Exactly what I meant ;)
>>8141480
I've had great talks on /pol/ about trans stuff. They seem to be fine with it if you pass and post boobs.
>>8141511
PISS on it
hey lets get a goddamn drink sometime eh?
>>8141508
das not guuud at all :(
>>8141516
I agree that getting input from outside of trans-spaces is a good thing, but alternatives to transitioning really don't exist.
I used to hear and think that joining the military was gonna be the thing that fixed me
But I never even managed to make it that far
Just wasted a lot of time
>>8141505
I have no reason too most of the time
I hate that I can't tell anyone I'm going to kill myself in a few weeks
Being trans is like dating an abusive partner, it fucking just takes from you every day, leaves you stressed out and in pain, and destroys your whole life
>>8141521
i've not posted pics and still had good thoughtful conversation
also you're being a better kayla than kayla, can you just replace her pls?
>>8141508
When will you see your doc about it?
>Vinyl only
Why do they do this shit? it's 2017.
>>8141527
yeahhh ""manning up"" will never work
today I read to just accept being a feminine gay man, which like whatever I guess it might work for some
>>8141498
Deep down... ive always wanted to direct music videos but everyone told me it was a stupid dream. If say I won the lotto id go to film school and direct music vids that are controversial and match word for word with the song itself. Most if not all music vids never capture the song at all and is like some completely random shit.
>>8141532
I've mentioned it before, last time I saw a psych they just wanted to do more anti depressants which have never worked
>>8141528
oh well you should do it just to do it. outside can be fun.
just dont forget the mother flippin sunscreen
>>8141524
dude it's so on
>>8141541
I thought I could do the feminine fag thing but dysphoria always crippled me
It was easier to repress when you're not giving your femininity an inch
>>8141530
I am kayla, im just on pain meds again and xanax so im super happy and focused
>>8141547
was this pre hrt. u look so gay lol
>>8141543
Oh, I thought you meant the problem you were having in which you wanted that test done. IDK your body might be very resistant to treatment
/aus/pol hates me for existing
>>8141546
lets do some goshdarn shots!
>>8141542
>Most if not all music vids never capture the song at all and is like some completely random shit.
true
it seems like older ones were better when they were on MTV but now they're just asses and nonsensical bs
>>8141545
idk lurk more and absorb the board culture better
embrace richard spencer and his ilk
>>8141545
Don't post when eastern euros are on.
>>8141552
NAH DUDE IM A MAN
A REAL ALPHA MAN
>>8141556
thansk for the food advice btw
>>8141539
>not having a record player
>>8141550
idk why is your trip different?
otherwise I guess I'd believe it but this genuinely seems like a different, more thoughtful person
grace is best and nicest girl
>>8141539
usually if the music isn't good tbdesu
>>8141553
I just think anti depressants don't work, they have been trying them on me since I was in middle school
>>8141565
Shit... forgot another #
>>8141567
no, the girl I like is best and nicest girl
grace can be second
>>8141567
lmao amazing image anon
>>8141561
>thansk for the food advice btw
yw
>>8141539
>2017
>Not listening to everything on vinyl anyway
>check thread about meme trans names
>my name is on there
Fuck
End it all
>>8141567
not sure those are true but thanks
dog fucking dammit I forgot to take my faggot pills again
>>8141570
well I'll be damned...
maybe those pills really do help certain people
>>8141578
what is it?
>>8141580
thats why you cook em up with a lighter and a spoon and shoot em
only need to do it once a week that way
>>8141583
Amber
>>8141577
Vinyl is gr8
I've got some king crimson albums back home on vinyl I like to listen to
>>8141586
comment suicide sir
>>8141585
idk if that works
>>8141558
You have a point, Every time I make a thread on a board I rarely go to I barely get any replies but I can get 300 replies on /sci/ every time just like that. I know what makes them tick.
>>8141564
>>8141577
I have considered it for a long time, I just don't want to look like a fedora/hipster. I mean if some young kid walks into a store to buy Charlie Parker vinyl they're just gonna think I'm some weird ass scenester.
>>8141568
I'm talking about older albums, sometimes they just never bothered releasing it on CD
>tfw you read mtfg for the drama
>tfw the 2017 season sucks
>tfw all your favorite trip ships broke up or stopped posting
It's a bad feel, man
>>8141581
Well duh. Vicodin is made for pain management. I've said a million times I used to be a professional motocross rider and I've broken so many bones and tore so many ligaments I'm in constant pain but when I have hydrocodone twice a day and a xanny for anxiety then I can fully function.
>>8141569
I bet that has been quite some time :(
>>8141578
I am curious now :o
>>8141595
I'm 21, spent whole birthday crying
>>8141567
I'm sad that she got bullied by her friend :( hope they can make up
>>8141592
>favorite trip ships
is it me
>>8141592
Who were your favorite ships, anon?
>>8141281
Who is it?
>she stops posting
I was getting dangerously close to almost forgiving her anyway,this is good
>>8141592
It's ok, there are new trips on the market
>>8141600
hugg
>>8141567
Yes
>>8141600
Happy anniversary of life :)
>>8141600
go to a bar, sit in the corner and have a few beers!
conversation with strangers at a bar can be very enjoyable and uplifting
>>8141567
That's not how you spell Tanya
so i got a raincoat that i was hoping would be ok as a windbreaker
except it's vented so it doesnt work for breaking the wind
gotta find a new jacket for da windeh citay
>>8141615
hey kei
did ur mones arrive yet
>>8141612
chunk.....
>>8141586
>hips tries to get legal precedence to serve someone via 4chan
Good luck getting your dick kicked in
>>8141612
31 Get rid of all bitterness, rage and anger, brawling and slander, along with every form of malice.
32 Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you.
Ephesians 4:31-32
>hit head REALLY hard on dryer door this morning
>headache all day
>feel more retarded than usual
keep me in ur prayers
>>8141520
hey sorry I thought you were insulting me or something but I thought about it more and i don't think you were. sorry.
>>8141631
Happy belated then :)
>>8141629
please stay safe beep
>tfw getting too good at the succ and bf wants it all the time now
>>8141612
She was being genuine. Doesn't mean you have to forgive her but you shouldn't be rude in return
>>8141631
drinking makes all your problems go away though
>>8141632
All good fren <3 Spread love and kindship, where ever you go ^^
>>8141619
Alcohol makes me really sad and emotional
I also start crying uncontrollably
>>8141623
No :c
I emailed qhi today asking about my fem'n'ems
>>8141629
I hope you get better!
How did you hit your head really hard?
Just curious
>>8141635
get better at the fugg
>>8141609
can't say
secret
>>8141612
d-do you need any other cookery tips?
I felt useful
>>8141643
I'm too used to people being shitty on here. I just automatically assume the worst.
>>8141642
What is a trip ship?
>>8141627
But what if, despite past forgivenesses, they still hurt me?
>>8141638
I don't know
It's hard for me to trust her
She has motivation to make up with me right now
Pookie wants to hang out with me
And ofc she'd wanna make pookie happy
I just dont wanna get used and hurt again, i dont mean to be rude
>>8141639
But it brings new problems when you wakeup in the morning and feel like crap
>>8141656
A relationship.
Where y'all from
>>8141586
Okay here's the legal logic chain
Are these allowed to be served via fax or overnight mail
No?
You can't serve electronically
Your case ends there
------
If it could then the rules your citing could be brought up
>>8141612
basically this >>8141638
i got discouraged from posting more cause i didnt think you would believe me
the only ulterior motive i have is maybe getting another back rub
>>8141625
Just ignore hips and her autistic ace attorney role play
>>8141598
I had a few names I thought of, but Amber was the one that fit and that I enjoyed the most, plus it's a relatively popular name (or at least was the year I was born)
I'll probably go with Claire as a middle name since it was my second choice
>>8141640
I didn't know either
/lgbt/ could just be memeing me though lol
>>8141610
There's a couple I wanna get but they might not be discounted for RSD
>>8141658
Genesis 19:34
And it came to pass on the morrow, that the firstborn said unto the younger, Behold, I lay yesternight with my father: let us make him drink wine this night also; and go thou in, and lie with him, that we may preserve seed of our father.
._.
>>8141670
pinch emma honestly
>>8141664
you're moms house lol
>>8141658
>i don't mean to be rude
Yeah, that's all. Like I said forgiveness isn't necessary, but there's no reason to be petty, even if you don't believe her or trust her.
>>8141642
No one likes you because you're an autistic ass. I was shipping you and Juniper for a while though.
>>8141649
Spit it out. You're anonymous.
>>8141656
Shipping two trip friends together. Some ships become irl relationships. Some don't. Bexe and Tetra is probably the most pure of all the ships I know.
>>8141672
I just spent the day eating cake and crying :(
>>8141642
I want to be shipped too
>>8141676
*furious digging*
>>8141645
alcohol will also make it 10000x easier to cry for especially since I started hrt
it also makes me act like a feminine turbofag
but isn't it fun when you're with friends tho?? or just tears
>>8141654
>it won't give me another x chomosome
valid point there, I can't argue with that
>>8141660
true, I wish I could still drink like I was 16 :(
although this easter weekend I got blackout drunk on burnette's raspberry vodka (cheap shit) 2 nights in a row and I didn't get a hangover...i'm going to have to try it again and see if it was a coincidence or if it was the vodka
>>8141658
My policy on relationships like that is not to let your hangups with a specific person interfere with your relationships with other people, but try to avoid them when possible. I've been kinda happier since getting cut off with my kinda shitty friends group though, so idk.
>>8141677
whats up gay faye
>trimyimg to sleep
>heart beating funny
help
>>8141674
>>8141692
ARRHYTHMIA BITCHES YEEEEEEEEEEE HAW
>>8141683
That really sucks big time :( Someone should have called.
>>8141664
illinois
>>8141664
>tfw hardly any mtfs in Ohio to be friends with
fuck my shit up senpai.
>>8141685
I haven't started hrt yet. oh boy
I make an effort not to start crying when I'm with other people but I just end up super depressed v_v
>>8141692
Low-T from hrt?
>>8141664
chicago
>>8141670
im sorry
i know im hard sometimes
but i really want to trust you
and im hard cause i want you to show me i can
thats all
>>8141681
you're right, i wont be rude, im sorry
>>8141674
im sorry anon, im not sure i quite understand
>>8141695
wait
WAIT
WAS THAT JUST AN INCEST PASSAGE
>>8141688
>not to let your hangups with a specific person interfere with your relationships with other people
>>8141698
ARRHYTHMIA BUDDIES
>>8141692
if it persists see a doctor pl;s
>>8141664
Montana. It's lonely.
>>8141698
as long as I stay awake its fine
if I close my eyes and try to relax it goes crazy
>>8141700
I got like one text message, I tried to tell them how I was doing badly then got no response
do you like me
>>8141682
Well last time we spoke she said she wanted to marry me but maybe she was just messing around, I don't see why anyone would want to marry me.
>>8141705
>Low-T from hrt?
Update on that, my heart's still being fucky, gonna go in and talk to my doc asap
>>8141713
yes
>>8141640
Friend is dragging me along so he can pick up two copies of The Distiller's LP and I'll probably get the Against Me! single while I'm there.
I doubt I'll have the cash for both but the live performance of Post Pop Depression is also calling my name.
Am I really the only European ITT right now?
>>8141688
I'm sorry I'm stupid
I meant to say something
Maybe I could hang out with the two even if I don't necessarily forgive pookie
er
emma
emma
wtf is with me tonight
>>8141705
eat lots of tasty food until you are happy
I just wish I had someone to talk to so the lead up to putting a gun in my mouth wasn't as painful
>>8141712
That's not right >_< I am so sorry for your pain.
>>8141698
hell yeah
>>8141664
Delaware
>>8141728
pls don't anon
>>8141728
Post pic of gun in your mouth.
>>8141732
it's what always happens
>>8141689
gaye
>>8141684
THIS IS MY DOMAIN
>>8141703
im in ohio but wouldnt be a good friend because i dont like hanging out with people
>>8141713
yea
>>8141719
oh i kinda dig against me!, but haven't really listened to much of them
>>8141664
Rural Maine.
>>8141724
hopefully
>>8141743
>im in ohio but wouldnt be a good friend because i dont like hanging out with people
mrmgrrmrrmgrmrrrmrg >:(((
>>8141740
Well, if I know I am not perfect but if you want me to keep checking in on you I can :) That's if you are comfortable with it. I can give you my discord
>>8141751
im too awkward ok
>>8141755
i am super lonely OK i'll come fight u
>>8141664
Victoria, BC
>>8141683
Lol nobody calls me on my birthday ever either, I don't cry like a bitch about it. That's life.
feel really ugly. im tired of people at work being offended by the way i look.
>>8141767
when's your bday
which of these 2 do i look the most like?
>inb4 yumi
>>8141769
tomorrow
>>8141743
I listened to them a bit when I was younger but after Trans Dypshoria Blues came out I unabashedly got really into them then went back and listened to all the older (admittedly better) stuff.
>have AGP
>take hormones
>enjoy mental effects
>begin to experience dysphoria
>begin to notice what a man I am
>hate body
>hate face
>just want to be even a little cute, feels impossible
>want to die
>can't stop hormones
>never want to be a man again
who here /memed/
>>8141713
I don't know you very well
You seem really nice tho c:
>>8141717
Gracie gooooo
>>8141726
I don't eat much :/
I kinda wanna watch my diet cause I'm starting hrt soon too
>>8141664
Seattle
>>8141768
Why are they """offended"""
>>8141776
hows that going? arent you miserable all the time?
>>8141776
just tell me your bday so I can tell oryx so you two can celebrate next year
>>8141790
>I kinda wanna watch my diet cause I'm starting hrt soon too
well once you start hrt eat up lots or your bobs wont grow
>>8141790
whyd you put the scare quotes
>>8141767
that's life
that's what all the people say
you're ridin high in april
shot down in may
but I know I'm gonna change that tune
when I'm back on top
back on top in june
>>8141790
im a boy with long hair, tits, and a girly voice and its too much weird stimuli to take in
who here cool
>>8141801
hi nim
>>8141801
You is. =3
>>8141801
not me
>>8141801
not me
>>8141811
take a beep
spin her around
put a lil bow on her
and take her out on the town
How many points of SAN damage do I take for the local insane manipulative crazy bitch loudly declaring her burning and breathless love for me?
>>8141812
I am doing good :) Thank you for asking. Hru?
Home early today...
No shopping done...
>>8141801
LOL nope.
>>8141810
good luck with that
I want to be part of the Chicago drama.
>tfw dysphoria getting stronger each day I'm not full time
w-wew
>>8141801
Ur cool
A-am I cool
>>8141816
nim please take me away from here. and get me a bf
>>8141819
Welcome home :)
>>8141817
A third.
>>8141822
we want you up here too, please
>>8141793
Well boobs are mostly genetic right?
I just don't want to be hit by a wall of slowed metabolism and get fat
>>8141794
Because it's kinda silly to be offended by something like that
>>8141800
At least you have a girly voice
>>8141801
nim
>>8141822
Come to WA
We have overcast and rain here
it's comfy
>>8141822
i just want to be part of anything tb h
>>8141822
>tfw watching it on the sidelines from the south side
I hope they work it out okay
>>8141832
u seem to be forgetting most people are fucking retarded. look at the amount of christians in usa still.
>>8141818
im better than i was a few hours ago
im glad you're doing well spicy
>>8141834
>south side
gurl im gonna have to move you up here to nice rich people ville
i tried saying hi to her tho
so we'll see
Deliver pics of Emma
Lets see what this little weebshit autist looks like
t. important person
>>8141825
ya is that okay
>>8141842
This is me cuddling emma
>>8141841
Oh but its plenty nice down here too! Maybe not rich people neighborhood but a good middle class town
Immense mental pain
Can't do drugs, it'll show up on a test
Can't do alcohol, too many calories
Can't tell anyone, it'll ruin my future
Just get to sit and cry and hold the gun
>>8141842
w-well,
this- this
is me.
>>8141846
Cute :P
>tfw your mom could be making six-figures but she'd rather make half that to live in florida
>>8141847
oh my gosh what a pretty pic
i love those treeessssss
aaaaaaaaa
>>8141846
Gonna hump that homu.
>>8141856
>tfw I actually have :^)
>>8141855
Wow that is very pretty. Is that something you get during the spring time only or spring and summer?
>>8141832
I wish I could go to WA
tfw tons of mtfgers in the chicago area but you live in peoria
>>8141859
Generally we only have flowers on trees for the spring
And they're gone pretty quick thanks to the wind
>>8141848
*HUGS*
I spent my first couple hours awake today crying about my future. it's looking more and more like I'll be spending much time in bed because that's all my body is capable of. my CFS is getting worse.
>>8141866
Aww, that's too bad :(
>>8141839
wew, I'd imagine religion isn't too big of a role in transphobia stuff
>>8141850
stop this
>>8141846
grace why do you own that
How long did it take you guys to start mones?
I have been going up there since 2/22 .
>First appointment was a psychiatric evaluation
>Second appointment they drew blood and asked me about medical history and gave me packets to fill out with a consent form
At this point everything has been going okay, brought the consent form they gave me from my last appointment to my third and what i thought would be final appointment a few days ago on 4/13....
Well i have sickle cell trait...although it's a common blood thing my doctor wants to "make sure" i'll be okay and is referring me to somebody else, they draw my blood again to send to this new person and well what do you know??....JULY SIXTH IS MY NEXT appointment LOL...aka 7/6/2017
at this point i'm just angry...it'll be a half year till my next appointment and i will have no mones to show for it (keep in mind this is a hospital that does things through the informed consent model)
Is this fucking normal...I WAS TOLD THIS WAS A QUICK PROCESS....DEAR GOD I'D RATHER SELF MED AND DIE AT THIS POINT
also on this referral to this blood specialist doctor...he's going to get my blood sample why does he need to SEE me again? Every time i go up there i get charged around 100-150 dollars for practically nothing even with insurance. Can't he just call my doctor and tell her over the phone? why do i physically need to BE THERE? please fucking help
>>8141869
boop boop this is the me train
>>8141874
Yeah, some of the petals were wilting already
>>8141878
emma does
>>8141875
Doesn't Onyx live close by?
>>8141875
But I thought she lives up near Portland now
I guess I could lump myself in with the LA trips
>>8141879
i started going down that path
i went to see a gender therapist, it was during a hurricane and there was no transportation so i had to bike through it
i was soaking wet when i got to the office and everyone was looking at me
then when i went into the therapist's office one of the first things she asked me was "do you really think you could pass?"
the answer is no, but i decided to self-med after that anyway
>>8141883
maybe I should get one to cry in
>>8141879
sounds really shitty anon I'm sorry :(
i really wanna travel
been looking at old vacation pics
punta cana would be nice to go to again
im heading out to Massachusetts in 2 months
kinda scared about the beach but w/e ill make it
>>8141887
Well then :(
>>8141895
im going to england for my birthday next month but i don't really feel anything
i should be excited but i guess i don't really feel anything anymore
>>8141889
>do you really think you could pass?
Surprised a medical professional used terminology like "pass"
>ate some salt
>heart okay now
:)
good night thread
>>8141903
i didn't really know if that was a term used outside of here a lot or not back then so i wasn't super surprised
she talked about like non-binary stuff too so i figured it was just part of the vocabulary
>>8141907
Night anon
>>8141871
I don't know what I have, probably nothing, I'm probably making up the tiredness and pain, it feels real, I'm not in bed though, I work all day, I concentrate, I practice, I ask for help, I won't turn away anything,
But I'm worthless, I'm just not good enough any more,and I fucking did it to myself .
>tfw nobody to listen to music with
How is everyone going to celebrate the high holiday?
should i go listen to music with emma and pook this weekend
>>8141887
complete order on QHI? please explain?
>>8141889
how does one survive self medding? Passing does nothing if i'm dead...but i'm ready to fucking gamble at this point
>>8141924
No.
>>8141921
I should take a xanny
>>8141921
with weed of course :)
>>8141928
But why
>>8141921
Nothing because I don't do drugs tbqh
>>8141947
I used to be straight edge too.
>>8141914
Sounds like depression to me. You're not worthless, you've already done a lot with your life. You needed to change to survive. You made attempts back in the service. Just like me. a little over 3 years ago I was sitting at the top of a boat ramp contemplating if the ice was thick enough that I could get the truck out onto ice far enough from shore so when it fell through I'd drown. I even had a block of sodium to heat the water in the cab so cold water rescue would fail.
Lol I just realized this album I'm listening to has the trans flag colours on it.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ORLHqGh6WLo
Also what are you listening to /mtfg/?
>>8141921
420 blaze a jew
>>8141954
I mean I get drunk sometimes but drugs just aren't for me
I'm sure if I tried something I probably would feel differently but idk
Is transitioning a mistake
>>8141957
I remember caring about insurance and it stopping me from doing it because it wouldn't pay if they figured it out.
>brushing my hair
>knock over a big glass of OJ
Well, at least my hair's fluffy.
>>8141966
trying to stay alive when our brains are permanently fucked with no real solution is a mistake
>>8141934
its hitlers 128th birthday
are you going to use some of the really good hand lotion when you do some handrubbing 2nite?
>>8141968
Stye life.
>>8141968
now your room is going to be messy AND sticky
maybe you should hire an illegal immigrant to clean your room
>>8141959
Just more vaporwave xD
https://youtu.be/M691cY1WwoQ
>>8141926
it depends where you're from
i got mine off inhouse pharmacy:
https://www.inhousepharmacy.vu/c-88-transgender.aspx
there is also alldaychemist but i've heard that it's a little less reliable:
https://www.alldaychemist.com/
and then there's QHI like shakira said:
https://www.qhi.co.uk/
you'll probably want to get a baseline of your hormone levels before you start, you can order a test here and print it out:
http://www.privatemdlabs.com/lp/Female_Hormone_Testing.php
you won't have to wait when you go to labcorp either which is pretty nice
then after you start hormones it'd be good to check your levels again every three months
here are the levels you should be shooting for:
http://www.hemingways.org/GIDinfo/hrt_ref.htm
keep in mind that you're gonna be going sterile once you start using these hormones, you might want to look into banking your sperm:
https://www.cryochoice.com/
now for the hormones you'll want an anti-androgen and an estrogen, there are several types
spiro is the one that most people in the united states use as it's the one approved by the FDA
spiro is a weaker anti-androgen though because it's anti-androgenic effects are only a side effect
spiro will lower your blood pressure so you might get dizzy when standing up or randomly pass out like i did, oh and it makes you pee a lot, oh and you can't eat potassium because you get an overdose or something
cypro is the stronger one but it's not FDA approved, you can still import it off of one of those online pharmacies though
since cypro is anti-androgenic at it's core you're not gonna be going back with cypro, it's gonna shut down everything down there
it'll be a little harder on your liver though so drinking on cypro isn't really encouraged
it can also cause depression and a B12 deficiency, i just ordered these bioavailable B12 vitamins off amazon since ive had pretty bad depressive epsiodes lately:
http://amzn.to
/2pi12N6
cont.
>>8141980
B12 is metabolism and energy support. It aint gonna stop depression.
>>8141968
Fluff.
>>8141979
https://youtu.be/_BVSgNd-w5A
>>8141968
>>8141959
listening to the wind noise outside because my brain is getting anxious and overloaded any time I now listen to music.
>>8141967
What kept me from doing it was I didn't want mom to feel pain like I did when three new friends suicided back in hs. memories of that was one of the first things that I remembered from before I was 21.
>>8141965
I went from not even touching coffee (serious) to being on codeine, valium, diphenhydramine and cocaine in the space of a year. Hiding in the closet feeling like a freak so long finally snapped my mind. I need drugs to cope, lots of them. I'd probably be an alcoholic too but years of teetotalism has caused me to dislike the taste of alcohol.
>Brother randomly bought me a thing
>I jokingly called it a gift
>Later on I start thinking its kinda nice to get gifts from boys
Hmmm.
>>8141991
What is this!? Has it gone mainstream yet!? :O
>>8141999
you know what good girls do for boys who give them gifts right?
you know what you have to do for you brother
>>8141926
bica is the next one and was one i didn't really hear about until already a few months on hormones
femboys seem to like bica because it doesn't mess with erections and reduces body hair
the only problem is that it's hard to track it's efficacy through bloodtests because bica doesn't stop your testes from producing T, it just stops your brain from using it, at least i think that's what it does
so you get feminizing stuff but your dick still works, with the trade-off of not being able to track T levels
okay now E
progynova is the one most people take in the usa, apparently it has more stable levels but it's lower levels? something like that
estrofem you can sublingually so you just put it under your tongue and let it dissolve, that way it bypasses your liver and more gets absorbed
also if you're on cypro too this is good cuz it means your liver is doing less work
estrofem leads to peaks and valleys though so you'll have to spread your doses out throughout the day for better results
and then there's injections which a lot of trannies seem to say give the best results
im switching to them personally since a lot of people say that their results seemed to improve once they started them but it's just anecdotal
then there's stuff like finasteride and dutasteride for stopping DHT which can lead to male pattern baldness if you're experiencing any hair loss
there's also progesterone which can help boob growth but most people don't start it until like a year on mones
idk im not an expert but ive been here a little while now and you just pick this up
good luck
>>8142002
Give him a gift back! :)
>>8141781
yup
>>8141789
PUFFY
although in the states they're called PUFFY AMIYUMI
>>8141991
Looks like the 80s are back... Fighting commies, celebrity republican president, good electronic dance music. Just might be a bright future afterall.
>>8141995
To be fair I feel like it's a mistake sometimes too.
But then I remember I was way more unhappy just living as a guy.
And if I'm gonna be unhappy either way might as well go the route where I can see being happy at the end.
If that makes any sense.
>>8141984
ive also been really lethargic lately so if it helps with that at least ill be happy
>>8142013
80s best year evar!
>>8141969
They aren't permanently fucked. Get on the right hormones and they feel better. The rest is standard psychology.
>>8141999
They are nice to receive.
>>8142002
Good sisters don't give that type of gift back. Brothers get to give their sisters gifts to appease them so they won't make their lives hell.
>>8142023
>They aren't permanently fucked.
i will always have dysphoria.
>>8141968
Pulp or no pulp
>>8142005
>the only problem is that it's hard to track it's efficacy through bloodtests because bica doesn't stop your testes from producing T, it just stops your brain from using it, at least i think that's what it does
Actually it blocks all AR receptors, which are those that testosterone and DHT switch on.
Speaking of hair I kinda want to get mine cut into a bob sort of thing like i've been talking about
Its like REALLY hard to demonstrate what I'm imagining tho
>>8142000
Not yet.
http://music.georgeclanton.com/
Look into this guy's stuff, it's great.
>>8142013
It'll at least sound good.
>>8141993
>>8141985
flufffffff
>>8142027
pulp i think
I like her because she makes me cry sometimes.
Is this an abusive relationship?
>>8142018
Get ur shouldepads ready... oh wait, we come with them built in ;_;
5:49 AM. /mtfg/ destroying my sleep pattern yet again. And there's no escape because my plans to go full time and finally get a life were dashed by Spicy telling me I need FFS. So you all better get used to this angry sarcastic asshole for the next 2 years.
>>8141968
why do you always have that box there are those crackers
>>8142038
Heck yeah >:) That was top fashion!
>>8142038
You're funny Kayla.
>>8142036
I dunno. Maybe I just like crying.
>>8142041
She hurts me.
>>8142050
yeah, so you understand how it feels futile to keep going
>>8142050
If you had Skype or Discord I'd show you what I look like.
>>8142049
the worst scare i had was the passing out on spiro and switching to cypro
ive had to adjust my dosages, yeah
cypro brought my T down to a good level just on the default 50mg dosage but on 4mg my E was still too low
so i went from 4mg to 6mg and now i just take a 2mg every 8 hours
>>8141967
it must be so painful for you right now. and I don't know what's going on in your mind.
but know this
I <3 u
I believe in you
>>8142039
lol
>>8142052
Uhhhhh. In what context does she hit you? Like just at random? Because if so, that's abuse, yeah.
>>8142052
why do you like crying?
>>8142031
pulp master race
>>8142050
At least you aren't smol af with huge shoulders
>>8142038
kayla actually remembers the 80"s becuse she wqs born in 1978
>>8142031
why were you saying you were jealous of me again?
you look really cute here
>>8142062
>At least you aren't smol af
ah yes, what an awful fate it would be to be small..
>>8142061
zna please come hit make me cry don't worry I won't tell grace
>>8142041
You think so?
>>8142042
cause I forget it's there and dont throw it out
>>8142066
It's a different story from head on
>>8142049
Bica blocks the AR receptors with a higher affinity than T has, but is less than DHT has. By blocking the receptors, you body can no loger use or detect T levels so the body starts outputting more. Excess T can be converted to E by aromatase. Eventually your body is converting enough that the E sensing apparatus says we have enough hormones, and T production is moderated that way. The only area where Bica has issues blocking T in in the testicles. This is because the concentration of T is extremely high there. So generally testicle function stays, but the prostrate is outside that influence. One will likely see a decrease in cum volume. I know there is more but my brain is forgetting...
>>8142076
pls share crackers ^o^
>>8142070
I'm 5'5" but it doesn't matter when my shoulders are >16"
>>8142075
I agree
but not when someone else is making you cry
Because Grace is a piggy! Oink oink!
>>8142074
I remember the 88 olympics in seoul because they had a cute tiger mascot.
>>8142076
you still look very nice
i like your hair, i was using that shampoo you recommended for a while but i switched to an argan oil shampoo and now my hair is really soft
it's still a bird's nest tho lol
>>8142082
id rather be 5'5" with 16 inch shoulders than 6'1 with 18 inch shoulders
>>8142076
Nah, Still Adorbs.
>>8142066
But nim is also hella cute
>>8142088
please donut be rude
should i do sweatshirt or a tshirt
sometimes its cold so sleeves are nice
but the summer is gonna be here soon and tees are gonna be good
>>8142074
well you said you have nice hips right
that's something
>>8142096
t shirt!
>>8142093
i'd like this too
>>8142094
im really not but thanks for the kind words
>>8142013
80's night at the clubs is always the best!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m0AKJMGxwpE
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p3j2NYZ8FKs
nim is an extreme meme
>>8142096
Do you think it's warm more often than it's cold or vice versa? Alternatively, get whatever you'd think looks best on you.
>>8142097
My body passes but my face doesn't
>>8142109
i guess that's better than nothing
can't really change the bones of your body but you can change your face
>>8142106
how
>>8142094
>>8142091
idk why im even worrying about my appearance i felt like a cute girl 5 minutes ago
>argan oil shampoo and now my hair is really soft
That's great ^^
>>8142081
have as many as you'd like!
>>8142105
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sLm3Khusq_8
SOMEONE SAID 80S?
>tfw bringing back memories of being a kid listening to music with my parents
I WANT TO GO BACK
>>8142107
eh its starting to get warm
part of why i couldnt sleep last night is it was warm for a while
>>8142098
Probs the best idea
White or black?
>>8142110
True.
>>8142114
That's a tough choice :S How thicc in the white t shirt because if it's thin + a small about a sweat = see-through shirt.
>>8142054
I'd rather live...My friends still accept me.
>>8142062
Think lumberjack...
>>8142065
overall the 80s were bad to me. I wish I'd stayed in NYC in the fall of '80.
Instead I moved back in with my parents for the school year. Mainly to detox from heroin, but I could have done that in NYC too.
>>8142089
I didn't watch it. No TV/cable.
>tfw see through shirt grace
>>8142114
Shut up Grace you weren't even alive til 97.
yeah shut up grace
yeah grace let's cuddle
>>8142122
theres not much to see~
Should I hang myself? Codeine is useless for suicide, coke dealer has disappeared, valium prescription ran out, everyone guilt tripping me over wanting to jump in front of a train and the helium tank I bought is diluted. The old skool method seems to be the only option left.
>>8142137
donut be rude!
>>8142119
i should probably do black
common wisdom is to never wear white, i'm too clumsy for it lol
>>8142123
96.
And that doesn't mean I didn't grow up with my parents playing 80s music in the house and car all the time!
>>8142122
I'm tempted to show my tiddies bulging against the shirt im in rn
but Zna wouldn't be too happy with that
>>8142131
fuck you kiddo
>>8142134
alright im down
>>8142137
SHUT UP THEY'RE GROWING
YOU HELD THEM HO
Also respond to me on discord wtf i thought you wanted to be frands
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LvoV2Lfk7Qg
>>8142137
no bully pls.
I think I might be a bad person
>>8142143
>but Zna wouldn't be too happy with that
Good girl.
>>8142139
c'mon you have better things to be doing
Also,
What are guns
>>8142143
mfw I'll never be able to yell at other trips about my boobs because I live millions of miles away from all other trips
>>8142139
Suicide is not the answer
>>8142151
idk if i actually am, but i do feel like one and deserve to be hurt
>>8142152
you need to stop smothering her. let grace (and her boobies) fly free.
>>8142152
i-im trying to curb my slutty ways
>>8142120
thank u for the yous Syndie :)i thi k my sleeping pill hit and i think iM not making sense
sleep tightx
I
>>8142153
>What are guns
She lives in Britstain.
>>8142146
A classic 80s song:O
>>8142159
but you're gonna be over soon
>>8142158
>implying I'd let my girl be a slut
>>8142159
I'm proud of you.
>>8142159
I think I just heard uproarious laughter echo throughout the galaxy.
>so she'll stroke me more
>>8142169
l-lewd
why does everyone here post anime girls
>>8142172
Anime is the best :D
>>8142163
>>8142165
>>8142167
ALL TH ESE DIFFERENT REACTIONS REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE I CANT HANDLE IT
>over soon
YEAH TO BEAT YOU IN 1V1 NUKETOWN BITCH
FUCK LET'S DO IRL NUKETOWN
A LOCAL FIELD LEGIT HAS ONE
>im proud of you/wont let my girl be a slut
ITS HARD HELP
>>8142167
i-i can do it
>>8142172
CAUSE I WANT TO BE ONE
you know, i think i'd hate being cis more than being trans.
b/c, as a man, my family expects me to get a gf, but i've ony ever had sex appeal to other men.
how am i supposed to get a gf & see myself as adequately masculine when other men want me to be their gf?
when even small children will call bullshit on my "manhood"
either way, my life is fucked by my androgyny. ;_;
it is decidedly very fortunate that i'm a tranny
>>8142172
>>8142172
I live vicariously through anime pics.
>>8142172
Anime reaction images are easy to find, they're cute, and finding a bunch of pics of real girls doing the same shit would be weird.
>>8142175
Discord~.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ma4TOv2f_WY
>>8142189
>tfw mommy gracey is gonna beat you
>>8142189
Leave.
>>8142194
jelly
>>8142189
lol
>>8142164
you should get a bloodtest before you start mones to have a baseline to compare to:
http://www.privatemdlabs.com/lp/Female_Hormone_Testing.php
i was dumb and didn't do this but luckily my levels turned out okay, you might not find your right dosage right away and if you didn't have a baseline it'll be hard to see what the anti-androgens are doing based on where your T was originally
just get your levels tested every 3 months, you want your T like >=20 ng/dL and your E like 120-200 pg/mL
those aren't exact tho don't quote me on it
also if you're doing a sublingual type of E make sure not to take it before your test or you'll end up with really high E because of the spike
it's probably not best to take your test right after taking any type of E i think
my reason for self-medding is here --> >>8141889
if you live in a state with an informed consent clinic, which is just clinic that has you sign a paper and you get mones without the gatekeeping, it might be better to go down that route
>>8142195
im sorry
it came up next on youtube and it was one of my mom's fave songs
she'd always turn it up really loud in the car
that she took out a fire hydrant in while drunk one day but that's another story
>>8142194
GONNA BEAT YOU INTO A PULP KID
>>8142194
>>8142202
i might have taken that even farther now that shes here
its pretty funny how degenerate pookie is
>>8142201
pls do
I see no objections so hanging it is.
If I use Grace as a shield against Emma and Pookie what should I use for a weapon?
>>8142207
>>8142213
ur mom
>>8142207
>tfw three transgirls enter
>only one leaves
The thread sure is nice tonight.
>>8142227
y-yeah...
>tfw no qt asian bf
this is how shirts work when they're too big for you right
>>8142239
>tfw asian dude is chasing me
gotta make him qt like that
Sup, desu?
>>8142242
Slllllllut!
>>8142239
cuteee
tfw not being pet rn
>>8142239
awwww~~~~
they're so cute together X3
>>8142200
i'm going to a hospital that does things quote en quote "through the informed consent model"
lol, whatever the fuck that means. Apparently not since i can't start hormones yet
>>8142242
bwahahahahahahaha
>>8142249
I gave her permission, she's showing exactly no more skin tonight to you guys. But a little is fine, I mean, I gotta show off my cute girl a *little*, right?
new
>>8142217
>>8142259
That's very gracious of you :)
>>8142267
>gracious
Made me giggle.
Quick fill the rest with yuri!
>>8142283
>>8142247
Spicy is nice enough to say hi... How are you on this fine evening?
>>8142285
>>8142283
okay goodnight
>>8142324
goodnight
>>8142324
Sleep well...
>>8142242
Stop making me gay