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>>8000091
hi
they cant kill me
Ty
b..but mine has prettier formatting....
I dont want to live in this world
It's awful
>>8001213
>https://clyp.it/yjhd0imi
my girlvoice is ok, but it sounds and feels forced. I also can't speak up with it, so I can't really talk to people publicly in a loud setting.
It's really uncomfortable, and probably the worst part about my transition thus far, aside from looking like aids.
>>8001230
You fucked it up out of spite.
>>8001226
but they can make you wish you were dead.
>>8001231
Cindy stop don't say terrible things like that
I kissed a penis tonight
>>8001233
I'm gonna go sleep now
>>8001238
gay
>>8001231
things will get batter. I went through much worse when I was young.
>>8001239
Rest well knowing virgin neckbeards will be passionately masturbating to you all night!
Suicides my only hope
>>8001232
>aside from looking like aids
I have CFS. Many docs who treat both AIDS and CFS patients would rather have AIDS. At least when you get debilitated. you die in a few weeks. CFS patients can linger in that state for decades.
>>8001247
give yourself a chance. I bet you will find out you are much tougher than you think.
>>8001250
you mean this?
http://www.mayoclinic.org/diseases-conditions/chronic-fatigue-syndrome/basics/definition/con-20022009
Ur a squid now
>>8001231
Hugg
I'm sad
How many vegan hotdogs does Lauren eat in a day?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pmLpSY5w6u0
>>8001257
You're a squid, Harry.
what do you think of those new things that Gorillaz released that you can listen to
also Beanboy I'm not falling for your tricks
you're just looking to save more pictures of trips for nefarious reasons
I hope the tree you punched didn't give you any trouble, once I got my lip split my a tree because I wasn't looking where I was going
>>8001261
I just want to feel love
I want to feel wanted by someone, I want someone to care about me and think I'm pretty and protect me
And for it to not be about sex
But I don't think that exist
>>8001241
Its not gay if you have boobs while u blow a dude
>>8001265
hugg
I should control my own life
I don't need other people to lock me up and force me to do what they want
I don't need to be told I'm broken and that I should thank my masters
I don't need to be told told that I'm less than other people, patronized and treated worse than a child
I don't need drugs that'll dull my mind
I don't need restraints that take away my control of my own body
I don't need help
I don't need help
I love life, it's so interesting!
>tfw not a cute thicc girl
>>8001255
yes...
>>8001270
you're interesting
life can get real fucking boring
there's no stimulation in anythinggggg
>>8001271
iktf
>>8001265
I like the new gorillaz stuff
probably gonna be getting that album
>>8001271
how much is skeleton and how much is fat?
>>8001174
>>8001171
I never thought some random doujin would hit home so hard.
I guess I'm kind of a trope
>>8001266
>mfw cindy hates you now ;_;
>>8001276
why am i interesting
>>8001284
because you kill cats
and you tricked a lot of people
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S88Wit5bNdY
>>8001281
tiny girl skeleton
proper hips
thicc not fat
>>8001289
but i've seen girls that are big on top w no hips or ass, basically a fat dad bod
>>8001294
cis girls
>>8001283
I don't hate you
I care about you and want better for you
>>8001287
I just want to experience everything.
Knowledge is so interesting huh
people are driven by their passions
but passions for the wrong things
uncommon passions or uncommonly _strong_ passions
aren't respected
they're denounced
and the people driven by those passions
get locked away
its bad
>>8001266
You should be careful with those feelings
I had them once
I was happy at first but then those feeling lead to envy and jealousy
And I became extremely clingy because I never wanted to lose him
And it lead to me being more anxious which lead me more depressed
And it hurt me in so many ways
Needless to say it wasn't worth it and it ended up ruining a part of my life
I hope Chara isn't using her crafty tricks on me.
>>8001298
I wish I had somebody to cry on
Should I even start hrt
Is it a bad idea
I feel like I'm gonna regret now
I don't know
:)
>>8001314
I'm afraid it's just another impulse
I know I'm trans
I feel like hrt will cause problems in my life
I don't know what
>>8001306
I have a really close friend who went through something like that.
After seeing what it did to her, part of me doesn't want a relationship like that anymore
>>8001302
im curious about hurting people
i wanna know what it feels like
to do more than i have
like
what a person feels like when they're betrayed
and what it feels like to betray a person
i wanna know more stuff
but i feel
really threatened
and
i don't really want to hurt people
just
know what it's like to
tl;dr i know that feel?
kinda?
i am not sure im really sleepy
>>8001322
No
Stop it
That's bad
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Holodomor
Communism is peaceful
>>8001321
You should start hormones as soon as you can
You don't want testosterone to ruin your body
It might be rough at first but it'll make your life a lot better in the end
And if you don't start hormones that's something you'll really regret
I'd end up killing myself before I hit 20 if I didn't start hormones
They've definitely made me much happier after 2 and a half months
I already really miss Neptune
Long distance relationships suck
>>8001302
learning is really interesting
idk if old knowledge is as interesting
maybe for awhile while it's fresh
or when it pops up after a long time
but
it's learning that's fun and interesting i think
and things that I don't know about and can't really imagine that much about
they're really interesting
like you!
>>8001324
what's bad
>>8001329
I guess the prostitution is just me venting my confusion
I'm going to order 3 months of hrt tomorrow from qhi
I'm hoping that it'll make me feel sad but also bring my life under control
I'm just afraid something will come up in the future and make me regret it
>>8001337
I'm not too familiar with that. I know there are plenty of IC clinics in the area though. Personally, I'm gonna try DiY for a bit.
>As for the Consular, what can I say, he wants something I've got.
>>8001342
I looked it up, its a King County thing only
http://www.kingcounty.gov/depts/health/locations/teen-clinics.aspx
Gonna cry myself to sleep now
>tfw you run out of tissues
>>8001352
I'm sorry I didn't mean to be mean
I just want you to be healthy and happy
>>8001322
no i don't know that feel.
>>8001333
oh neato.
>>8001353
So much for low sexdrive eh?
computer cat
>>8001357
Nooo it's not you, you're a great friend
I'm just really sad at myself right now
If anything, thanks. I've been feeling really fake recently. I needed it
>>8001360
What?
Delight
Simply delight
>>8001352
Are you actually going to get to it?
>>8001104
Stupid bullies, I dreamed tonight that I killed one of my middle school bullies.
I hope your antidepressants do their job!
>>8001352
Gnite desu
I'm gonna doze off as well
Last night I dreamed I was wearing a VR headset that could predict the near future and it was nice
>>8001382
Tissues are for tears
>>8001382
None as far as i know.
Why is there an ingredient in Monster Hunter 4 Ultimate called Salty Milk, and should you mix it with Thorny Meat?
>>8001374
thanks and damn bullies especially the gay guy, who should know how it feels to get bullied and looked down on, was really shitty to me. they didn't even had a reason other than I was young and was doing good at the job.
the last time I took one it made me feel weird like I didn't care about danger and other stuff anymore.
>>8001381
I had a dream the other night that I won the lottery and I saw the numbers, but when I woke up, they were gone and forgotten ;_;
>>8001410
You klutz.
>>8001422
Try to explain the concept of smell to me.
>>8001409
What antidepressants do you take?
Also, a gay guy bullied you? Maybe he was sad because you want to be a girl :^)
>>8001410
hmmmmmm
that's a huge bummer ;-;
>>8001427
it's a lot like taste but less satisfying
also less violating for gross smells/tastes
STEP DOWN FUCCBOIS
>>8001265
I like the new gorillaz stuff it's ok
>>8001385
please stop crying
you're a wonderful fun person and you deserve smiles not tears
-heart-
>>8001440
hey trash
>>8001428
last time I had Citalopram (20mg) and now I got Mirtazapin Heumann (15mg).
he doesn't know and only 2 of my friends know rn. I still had a repression beard while I worked there but he once made a comment how my long hair probably produces E or whatever. I think he just was jelly that I, unlike him, wasn't bullied during my Ausbildung so he wanted to change that because of course everyone needs to feel that way for 3 years :^)
barely slept
>>8001440
NO TRASHU I REFUSE
i hate drugs so much
drugs fuck up your head
nobody should have to take them
which is worse someone killing themselves or someone murdering somebody?
I think murder is worse because murder kills somebody who probably wanted to live
suicide kills somebody who wanted to die
and nobody's violating another person with suicide
I think suicide is good
>new slowdive album available for preorder RIGHT NOW
i have to be strong ;-;
...m-must not spend money..
>>8001434
interesting
>>8001456
>slowdive
Shouldn't take much willpower.
>>8001462
umu
my brain just keeps getting foggier and foggier
i can't remember things so well
and i don't really understand my own senses and thoughts except at a surface level
and if i try to focus
i get like
dizzy, blurry
and lose myself kinda
and im scared i'm leaving bits of me behind when i pull myself back together
i hate myself
>>8001464
ha ha ! bullied !
>>8001456
but it's just like 12 pounds for the cd or do you want one of the bundles?
>>8001470
sure am!
you're very good at it.
>>8001444
hoi
>>8001451
BITCH u have to or else
>>8001472
Just the cd c:
but i really have to watch my dosh so I'll probs buy it later or something
i really don't know what to think
>>8001477
I really want that silver record it looks so nice >.>
I think I'm gonna order it today.
>>8001466
Disassociation bites...
>>8001484
In order to bully you further, I need more material to work from. Tell me about yourself; do not omit any embarrassing details.
>>8001484
things used to be
a lot more fun
and i was less scared that my mind was broken
and i was less scared of other people THINKING my mind was broken
because i found out that your mind can be fine and you can still be violated and abused by doctors
and
idk
what to think
i used to just like music and some games and stuff
but it's all getting boring again
and the only thing that keeps me stimulated is basically paranoia
talking to people helps but people hate me
and i have no confidence in my social skills
and i have no social skills
so after i got kicked out of my last group
i couldn't find another that well
so i ended up back here
but this place is different, all the people i used to kinda know
are kinda gone
and its lonely here
>>8001478
i dont get it im sorry
>>8001489
is that what that is
i thought it was more when something bad happens
and i let somebody else in my head take over processing reality
but i dont know anything
You all are incredibly boring.
I feel like fucking shit. It's like I'm about to lose my mind or worse. I don't know why this is happening to me, but it's 5:44am and I cannot sleep because of this shitty feeling.
Please, help.
>>8001498
Hmmm
so something happened which gave you all these doubts about yourself and about what others think of you?
Old hobbies getting boring could either be indicative of depression or of you changing as a person, I think.
Are you certain people actually hate you? I too think lots of people converse with me out of pity or boredom without really liking me as a person, but hate is a big word.
Maybe you could ask if anyone knows anyone who left? Your old friend group could've moved on to another site. They might be wondering where you are at this very moment.
>>8001497
You're so WEIRD and AWKWARD you can't even regale me an embarrassing anecdote~
Were you picked on in high school?
>>8001498
The song makes me feel like I'm slipping away.
>>8001498
>that autistic wall of text
hello isla
>>8001507
all very true!
Hella picked on in every school except the last 2 years of high school for either looking gay or being weird.
I was already such a pussy in kindergarten, that the teachers had to explain to me that I had to kick back when other children punched me
>>8001503
Idk. I went to sleep about 3:30am, and after a little while trying to get to sleep this disgusting feeling set in. It's like I'm about to lose my head, like in any moment my mind will disappear and I will no longer be here. It's fucking exasperating. I want to cry but I can't, because if I lose concentration everything will collapse.
I haven't started hormones yet, so I doubt it's some sort of stroke. The only reason I can think for this is this really annoying cavity that it's been annoying me for months, but since I'm jobless and can't afford a treatment with a dentist I let there be. It's hurts, but it's tolerable. I doubt a cavity would make me feel like this though.
>>8001512
And I bet you didn't even kick back!
>>8001503
Smoke a bowl, youll feel better.
>>8001506
pretty sure im bipolar ive had long periods where literally nothing i did could make me happy
and then times after that when i was over the fucking moon because i could watch a show and smile again
I think some people hate me
everybody eventually throws me away so if it's not hate i dunno what
i'm a shitty person based on what people think of me so i guess its ok to hate me i just wish they wouldn't
especially the people who trick me into thinking they like me
they throw me away and it hurts more
but its my fault for not being someone likable
no im pretty sure my old friend would hate who i am now
even when i was just sad they couldn't stand me
i'm all fucky and weird now
depressing beyond belief
>>8001507
it sounds like a neat song then
>>8001510
im not isla
im like a chimera
i have no actual personality of my own
aside from some head voices or something
so i build a facade out of traits from other people
i happened to grab isla's weird typ[ing habits
but not all the time
just sometimes
-shrugs-
>>8001515
This is supposed to be humiliating, not kinky!
>>8001522
O-oh sorry
I thought it was funny uwu
>>8001514
senpai you're okay
stop panicking
take slow breaths
and relax
you're stressed, your mind will benefit from rest
you won't fall apart
you'll put yourself back in order, your brain's stronger than you think it is
you should do what you can to make the cavity better that's important you silly
>>8001518
i don't do drugs i don't like drugs
i wanna try heroin tho
but not other drugs
>>8001520
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JwYX52BP2Sk
Nyaa
>>8001498
It sounds like one of the many forms of disassociation. It's all you. nobody can get into your mind. they can do things to harm it, but they can't get in. You're trying to forget.
I love this website sometimes
>>8001516
Correct!
I actually remember being surrounded my other kids when they kicked me right in the stomach uwu
>>8001515
loves it*
>>8001522
anything else you'd like to know?
>>8001520
I don't really have any experience with bipolar people and I don't quite know what makes them tick D:
Maybe you should try talk to a psychiatrist or a therapist or someone like that? Not sure what can really help you get out of this mindset, I'm sorry.
>>8001514
everything's gonna be ok everything's gonna be ok everything's gonna be ok everything's gonna be ok everything's gonna be ok everything's gonna be ok everything's gonna be ok
>>8001527
leave kid this is a kino zone
>>8001527
wash your hair
wash your face
order hrt
>>8001514
>The only reason I can think for this is this really annoying cavity that it's been annoying me for months, but since I'm jobless and can't afford a treatment with a dentist I let there be. It's hurts, but it's tolerable. I doubt a cavity would make me feel like this though.
get to the hospital NOW!!! It sounds like the infection in your tooth has traveled to your brain.
>>8001532
I don't think she knows what a chair is sometimes she just sits on the ground LMAO what a dummy
>>8001538
That actually sounds awful, and I am beginning to feel bad.
And yes, I would like to know if you want a hug.
>>8001540
>shittalking The Shawshank Redemption
opinion discarded
>>8001527
holy shit its a catboy()
i wanna
hug it
>>8001529
i feel like
idk
it's another me in there
and
when i was a kid
i thought i was a motel
for different souls coming in and out when i slept
and a few years later
i thought there was a demon in me
but that was ok because people are mean to demons
so i thought i'd let him stay in me
and i guess he did
>>8001538
I super duper
had bad experiences with
and now distrust and hate
psychs and therapists
because they can take away my power
over myself
they can make me powerless
and they can hurt me
and that's dangerous and bad
people aren't supposed to be unable to defend themselves
it's scary
>>8001543
don't make people panic you stupid dumb
>>8001540
Shut up WEEB
>>8001547
what did they mean by this
>>8001550
anime is the single most cause of mental illness in the west and must be stopped
>>8001548
<3 <3 <3
>>8001552
Did you infect me when you showed me kaiji
everything's gonna be ok and it's really important that everyone understands this
>>8001545
People like her belong on the floor anyway~
>>8001553
I WANT ONE
>>8001555
Kaiji is acceptable because it is manly men doing manly things like gambling and ther no grilz in the secret club
>>8001559
im not lying please everything is gonna be ok
>>8001557
lil hug
and you're right
i know my place uwu
>>8001559
ok friend
>>8001548
tooth infections can travel along the nerves right to the cranial cavity and cause pressure. That pressure can cause psychosis of various sorts, or even coma.
>>8001566
You are supposed to look up to the Hopeless Man not become the Hamster
>>8001564
/bigger hug
Night, by the way.
>>8001566
WHOA
I feel like I'm treading where I don't belong.
>>8001552
>what did they mean by this
it means that the opinion is wrong and fake news
>>8001572
I AM IN DESPAIR
>>8001580
>>8001577
She's an exhibitionist you can read wherever the hecc you want
>>8001577
nini!
im a crazy and a sad
or maybe im not a crazy
and im just emotionally fucked up
and real sleepy
goodnight im gonna unsleepy by sleepin
i think you are good people and good things will happen to you all
also spanking is really hot
goodnight
>>8001583
God I wish that were me
You should unbloc me on letterboxd by the way I need to follow you for ideas for what to watch cause I'm a babby :^)
>>8001575
The only pain you feel is the pain of the pressure on the nerves from the bacteria also trying to fit into the nerve pathway inside the tooth. outside the tooth, you don't have that pressure so either little or no pain from those parts of the nerve.
>>8001595
sent ;)
>>8001597
Theyre an uninsured poor tranny
Its way more likely that theyre just weird in the head than that their toothache spread to their brain
Either way its not like she can just go get scans so stop scaring her over nothing
>>8001249
Dont suicide you retard thats bad
>>8001602
Boiiii
>tfw not watching obscure jap kino while getting fed munchy box RIGHT NOW
>>8001609
I want a munchbox desu
I've ate chicken and rice for 4 days in a row
L E A N
E
A
N
>>8001615
Get one wif me in september :^)
>generally argumentative and somewhat angry and shouty personality
>actually 100% submissive with no actual way around it in private
what did i mean by this
>>8001589
> unsleepy by sleepin
are you fuckin magic, bro
>>8001618
>6 months for some greasy meat and bread
I'll have my shredded 10% bf physique by then
Do you think my family will hate me if I become pro-life again?
I remember them all lambasting me about it years ago when I was still christian
>>8001623
maybe that you get into arguments on the internet just like other people only get road rage but are not angry in in general? if yes that's p common afaik
>>8001632
can you get munchyboxes in the Netherlands? I never saw them in germany
>google munchy box
>salivate
I could decimate one
>>8001632
don't forget to headpat Amy :D
she will probably eat your salad and a slice of pizza and a water to watch her figure :3
>>8001605
It'll be an unpaid hospital bill. Bankruptcy can zap that.
>>8001639
*blocks your path*
>DUT DUT DUT DUT V
>*vacuum noises*
uwu
>>8001648
*blocks your arteries and intestines*
worth it tho
>>8001660
That pizza better be deep fried kid...
>>8001664
aye
deep fried in irn bru
>>8001667
Most Europeans probably don't want to eat 6000 calories served in a toxic box
>>8001671
incidentally I am not scottish but I watched all of limmys show and braveheart
>>8001671
Fuckin nerds
I wish I was born in Scotland >:(
tfw some Scottish genetics.
>tfw hon
>tfw have to deal with this for the entire rest of my life now
need more drugs
trying to be myself was a mistake
>>8001671
I don't think so people stuff their faces with greasy/fried food alot here. they would probably love these boxes because they love what is in them but nobody knows you can put them together in one box.
>>8001686
u don't look that bad honestly
>>8001686
I know that feel
england is shit
>>8001686
I know cis girls who look lots worse.
>>8001695
Back2cokeland
>>8001700
chile doesn't even produce any drugs worthy of note, all our drugs are imported
we're one of the few south american countries without any jungles also
>>8001704
I forgot which country you were on so I guessed it was one of the druggie ones
Chile doesn't sound too bad desu just a bit chilly ;^)
>>8001686
>be ugly British woman
>look like ugly British woman
And honestly you're not even that ugly, you look like some run of the mill white British lady
>>8001705
dont ever say a pun to me again
also chile has very diverse weather! the central zone around the capital is a lot warmer than this awful fucking island, some kinda mediterranean weather
i just want winter to be over
i dont understand how people can bear with this
>>8001707
Mercury, you tool, stop making it hard to filter you.
>>8001686
>>8001694
you two look fine, you both pass and honestly at this point you are almost fishing for attention
as an aside I dont know why people shit on sheen when everyone complains and sadposts in this manner
>>8001707
this theres an english rose between the eyebrows and chin crease who just needs a little bit of surgery like every other trans woman ever
with some contouring I bet you would look really pretty
>>8001709
Puns are the highest form of literary genius
Also I thought it was still Andes like Peru but I guess not
I've never been interested in Central and South America
>>8001709
do they drink lots of mate in chile too?
>>8001718
not as much as in argentina but we do quite enjoy it
i should probably look into finding some here, in england
>>8001709
>i dont understand how people can bear with this
That's all they know...
>>8001725
shouldn't be too hard it kinda got popular in europe you can even get a calabaza and a bombilla in teashops nowadays.
well droogs im off to do a house viewing, if everything is fine i might be moving to a much cheaper place soon
why can't I watch Netflix without the audio and video becoming unsynced for more then a minute
>step outside
>insects flying in my face and the extremely bright sunlight makes me squint my eyes so I'll probably get wrinkles
I wish I could just be a real hikki and never have to go outside again
GIV MUNCHYBOX NOW
>>8001749
working at home would be nice so you don't have to be a poor hikki. just being at home with no money sucks.
>>8001749
same
it would be so amazing if nobody ever had to see me ever
>>8001760
same
>>8001770
STUPIDF fucking dog keeps lying down outside my house instead of goin IN THE DAMN DOOR
>>8001762
bennies!
stay at home and be rich
>>8001775
creative jobs like webdesign, making music/videos/animation/etc, stock/goods trading or like part time jobs where you do like office work. I should probably look more into that too.
>>8001775
technical writing.
Creative writing.
is suicide giving up?
>>8001794
Suicide is winning the game before it even starts.
It's Sun-Tzu's perfect victory
I wish I worked normal people hours for normal people pay
>>8001809
what do you mean with normal people hours?
>>8001809
i wish i could give you a job ngl tho tbqh
>>8001214
240th for capitalism!
>>8001819
that's like two hours off compared to working early shift also "normal" people sleep less. do you have to work different shifts too?
>>8001825
For the last little bit thankfully not
For a month or two I was being flipped back and forth between the earliest shift and the latest shift (ending at midnight)
I have earrings now!! :3
And we're at a castle and it's such a beautiful day today~
>>8001821
That was 239th. Good to see the accuracy of the invisible hand ;)
>>8001832
don't you get extra pay for stuff like that? like bonus for working shifts in general, working late, on weekends etc. it's crushing how today hard working physical labor jobs are not paid well while "having responsibility" is.
I really hope you can get into that school you applied for (idk if you got a response yet)
>>8001849
Bored and Anna-less
>>8001852
>it's crushing how today hard working physical labor jobs are not paid well while "having responsibility" is.
Blame the feminizing of the workplace. Daddy govt forces female jobs to get all the privileges at the expense of the actual effort workers in male jobs put in.
>>8001855
only for like two more days tho
>>8001854
>limbless animal
>pretends to have a hand other people just can't see
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HadGh0LcXxs
>>8001852
No bonus pay. All I get is stats, and that's because they're legally required to give me stats. I very occasionally get overtime but that doesn't give much when you make minimum wage.
They are legally unable to give me less than 8 hours between shifts but that's been sidestepped before by giving me a buffer day where the shift is less early. Means for a period of about 72 hours all you do is work and sleep and wake up 5 hours earlier each day.
I've heard nothing definitive. The professor I want to work with is unsure that she has funding for a student and I've yet to be accepted/rejected in general.
I'm just bitching at this point and feeling more than a little bit worn down.
Got a haircut just now
>>8001879
Did you pay the girl price or the boy price?
>tfw dick is too big
>>8001884
The haircut-relevant price. Since I have longer hair it's the girl price. Also everyone there knows I'm trans and uses female pronouns and stuff
>>8001859
FOUR ;_;
>>8001886
more skin to make a better vag when srs happens
>>8001897
i want to keep it.
my bf likes it.
I love boys
>>8001899
more meat to please the bf with
>>8001901
prove it
*unzips dick*
>>8001901
me too
>>8001858
you can't blame it all on that maybe a bit. the import of cheaper workers and cheaper products form other countries destroyed whole industries (in germany at least). many jobs that were popular 10-30 years ago are completely done by people who don't even live here which is not only bad for the foreigners but also for us. they take jobs germans could do way cheaper so no jobs for germans and bad pay for foreigners. it kills small and medium sized businesses because nobody wants to do these jobs for low pay and people have to move on and get "better" jobs but the truth is most can't.
also buying goods from some foreign company slowly kills the businesses who produce these goods here.
>>8001876
that sucks do you have any other options or a backup plan? you can't do this minimum wage garbage job forever. of course working your ass of until your body is done is always an option but nobody would want that.
>>8001904
I'll take my boyfriends dick instead
>>8001901
are you agp? that pic is very agp.
Also when getting my haircut I realized that my face is uber masculine and I can't wait enough for the ffs. But it's in like 3 months or something
i cant wait anymore, i wanna cry
>>8001901
Me 2
>>8001909
I mean I could just find a better paying job. I don't have a definitive plan B, but the options that I'm considering are waitressing, clerical work, or baking.
Baking would probably have a lot of the things that I love in chemistry but I don't exactly think it would be much easier on the body. Kinda like feeling ripped tho.
This is how jaws lures people back into the sea
>tfw got fired from another job because of retardation
>>8001914
Dont call yourself max if youre trying to be fem. Even if it stands for maxine.
>>8001930
>>tfw got fired from another job because of retardation
???
>>8001930
It's just a trip tho. My chosen irl name is pretty feminine.
>>8001937
Why are you policing people's names on 4chan? It's not like they're calling themselves Edgar or rapeyface or whatever
>>8001917
baking seems like the best option especially when your body can take it. depending on what kind of bakery you work in that could actually be good for you (even if the working hours aren't much better). storage/carrying stuff around is shit if the pay isn't good. idk how it is in canada but here being a waitress definitly isn't a good long term option. clerical work also depends alot on what kind it is.
what do you like about chemistry that also is in baking?
>>8001915
I used to think that 'cool' boys who wear super long oversized tees did so because they actually wanted to wear skirts/dresses, but couldn't since they were boys.
>>8001939
dont yell at me ;--; im not in the mood
Once again, I feel like dying. Just like yesterday, and the day before that, and every other day in my life. I just hate existing.
>>8001949
lol, when I was a kid I asked my dad why girls could wear skirts and not boys. When he didn't have a concrete answer I told him I wanted to wear dresses and he got really butthurt.
>>8001952
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0Az2BvTcshg
>>8001954
>fuck my son wants to be a girl too
>>8001959
Ugh, tripcode explorer doesnt work
>>8001958
My dad was suspiciously ok with me coming out...
>>8001942
Idk, I loved running syntheses and optimising reaction conditions. I loved the parts of it that felt like they required some amount of artistry to carry out correctly (recrystallizations, manual addition of reagents etc.). Baking isn't really the same, but the reality is you're carrying out a reaction on a large scale and every factor counts in the final product. Then there's developing and tweaking new recipes.
My ex was a baker, I know that it is very physically demanding work, and that the hours are long. Pay isn't stellar either, it's enough to live on though.
The problem is lack of opportunities for advancement, what made him leave was that long term your only option was to start your own business.
>>8001962
you broke the cycle
im legit suicidal.
I don't want to live another moment
>>8001821
ROADS ARE FOR TOADS
>>8001693
>>8001697
>>8001707
>>8001715
>>8001971
there's always ffs
>>8001970
>ywn watch braveheart with trashy while eating a munchybox and drinking irn bru
seriously why even life
>>8001976
>tgfw will get to do this if trashy wants to see Braveheart
>>8001964
seems like the best backup option for you at least for a while.
most cratfy jobs are like that tho (starting your own). would you take the risk to start your own business some day?
>>8001986
wow rude lifting things is not important
we can watch better kinos though
>>8001966
Lmao
>>8001993
you can be trashies girlfriend and feel her giant pecs and biceps
>>8001987
Idk I would actually consider doing something entrepreneurial, I think owning a business would be incredibly rewarding.
On the other hand, if I went down that road I would almost want to do something chemistry related. There's plenty of opportunities to run small chemical related businesses but gaining investment would be difficult without experience and a very solid business plan.
That said, the market here is pretty barren, there would only be a single competitor
>>8001993
I'm making the BRAIN GAINZ fuck you
>>8002003
only pretend tho of course
>horny
>wrap duvet into a torso shape
>wrap legs around the back and make thrusting motions as if I'm being fucked in a girly voice and squeal
Estrogen made me do this...
>>8002016
REMOVE YOURSELF
>>8002006
>There's plenty of opportunities to run small chemical related businesses
Why kind of opportunities? Just curious, I don't know much about the subject.
>>8002016
iktf
>tfw have ambitions but no skill/talent/circumstances to match any of them
>>8002006
I kinda have that pipedream of having my own business too but not really know what kind. probably something related to what I enjoy like a record shop. I have a bit of capital now and learned a business/accountant related job.
you might get lucky and find a great (business) partner some day tho who knows.
>>8002038
>tfw have ambitions but literally retarded and fired from every job/position
>jus b positive xD
>>8002037
Director's cut, of course. I don't understand what they removed to make it 90 minutes desu, all of it seemed just as important
>>8002026
Mostly analytical services. A lot of places need to run analyses on things and don't have the facilities. Rumor has it that there's soon to be a whole new industry of weed growers in Canada too that will need qa testing
>>8002046
>Rumor has it that there's soon to be a whole new industry of weed growers in Canada too that will need qa testing
you had better stock up on snacks
>>8002045
>all of it seemed just as important
REMOVE SCENE
>>8002046
Ooh makes sense. I was trying to think how a small chemical production company would ever stay afloat against the huge ones. Wasn't thinking from that angle
>>8002052
It may not look like it
But this is what peak predatorial performance looks like.
>>8002054
Oh, don't worry, I believe you.
I can see it as well.
>>8002052
>stoat
what a lil cute
today is going to be a good day everyone
you're required to do good things and be happy today
>>8002062
dude on the right acting like his dexterity will win but the dude on the left will smash him
>>8002062
>you're required to do good things and be happy today
>>8002064
heh... looks like someone doesn't undersant... that speed is king *moves so fast she dissapears from your sight* *taps you on the shoulder from behind* guess all your muscle couldn't keep up huh kid???
>>8002071
>>8002074
h-hayai...
>>8001809
i work the night shift for poor people's pay with no overtime, so i feel your pain
so i have to go to the doctor tomorrow morning
i need to get my ankle looked at it's getting worse
gdi
hows all your days/evenings
im gay btw
>>8002089
hi gay
what happened to your ankle
my day is going to be great
>>8002097
i broke it being a ditz
hi daisies bear
what do you have planned
>when you finally get a real life example of how important voice is
Saw a person today at the coffee shop. Pretty muscular, definitely a lifter. A bit shorter than the average male, no beard, and buzzed hair. I didn't really give them a second thought, just assumed "wow this guy is pretty hot." Then I heard their voice. Literally sounded like a 20 year old cis female. And it was confusing as fuck, my perception changed instantly. In the end I couldn't decide whether it was a cis girl lifter on steroids or if it was a ftm who got unlucky on voice. But still, goes to show how strong voice is.
Moral of the story is work on your voice. If hearing a cis girl voice from a muscle man looking body was enough to confuse peoples perception, so a cis girl voice from a tranny looking person will for sure get you gendered female.
www.youtube.com/watch?v=ep98a0mDiIc
>>8002111
WUUAHHHHH
OOOHAHHOOOOOA
the sooner one of you bites the bullet and becomes my gf the sooner i'll quit bugging the rest of you, take one for the team girls
>>8002103
i have an interview
i am doing laundry and packing for a flight
i'd like to exercise, and i should probably eat
i ought to get my prescriptions refilled before i leave
i'm sorry about your ankle, i hope it gets better. once i jumped down a flight of stairs and sprained mine pretty bad, i'm good at being a ditz
>>8002045
it was to make it more digestible for the mass market. Oppenheimer always says the director's cut is the true version, the theatrical cut is just to get the word out.
>>8002117
hello am your new gf anon
>>8002118
good luck surfbear
you will do great
thank you it should after getting looked at
>>8002117
dumb chasers
>>8002128
see that was easy, now all you have to do is hold my hand and sleep on my chest
are white stockings AGP?
>>8002139
you better be cute
I love HRT
>>8002145
YES!!! egp btfo
>>8002141
Girls clothes are AGP automatically
>>8002152
good to know
thanks!
>>8002089
hope you're ok =)
>>8002145
I hope to god this isn't true
>>8002145
MISSION COMPLETE LADS PACK UP LETS GO
>>8002164
Time to wait years on the nhs for 1mg e and 20mg of spiro :DDDD
Hope they force rle
>>8002168
I wont let that happen
plus im moving anyway
>>8002171
You cant move away from gatekeeping
>>8002145
>page not found
hmmm..
>>8002145
Wat
No more pies made of hrt?
>>8002173
eh
doctors like me
Wew look at that hon, these shoulders ew.
>>8002168
>tfw 4mg E and Zoladex that fills up a big bag in my room
>>8002178
that's an actual woman though, isn't it?
>>8002205
Were all actual women <3
>>8002205
>an actual woman
we're all women, shitlord
learn my pronouns
I'm an anime tho
>tfw when an actual bear
anna
do job application forms tailor these sorts of question based on your internet search history or something?
myrthe
>>8002235
This is just the world we live in. cis people REALLY care about trannies
makes me sick
>>8002247
They're terrified
>>8002227
are you the horny bear anon from yesterday?
>>8002242
very nice picc desu
>>8002271
fits you, then
>>8002276
UwU <33
>>8002261
nah i'm the goat anon
>>8002290
goats are cute
>>8002284
I love you
>>8002295
Aww I love you too Anna <3
marriage when
>>8002311
Hopefully in a few years
do we not make pass threads anymore? I haven't seen one in a few days now
E should be here by the end of the week.
\o/ hype!
>>8002325
nice!
uwu
>>8002314
yup uwu
How to stop eyes from burning after crying a lot?
>>8002330
kisse
>>8002331
cuddling a qt gf / bf
>>8002331
eyedrops if you have them
>>8002333
kisse bacc and nice numbers, qt
>>8002340
thanks uwu
>>8002341
I'd give you a hug
>>8002343
UwU
>>8002346
I wish you could
Did anyone have a dream last night they'd care to share?
>>8002349
>>8002357
Ahh your pics are so nice desu >.<
>>8002355
I had a nightmare that I was me from half a year ago
I looked really bad and masculine back then
>>8002359
well I pick the nice ones
>>8002365
Only good dreams allowed
>>8002354
I wish I could too
(forgot my trip woops)
>>8002374
But I don't have those
>>8002375
Oh really :o
I never posted it before!
I'll keep it in the back of my head
>>8002380
Sure you do, you just don't remember them or don't want to remember them.
>>8002355
yes
and no
>>8002379
when the trip fails again
(maybe this time I'll have it right)
>>8002331
use a wet cloth, it'll feel refreshing and wipe the salt out of your eyes
you could also try not crying in the first place, that helps too
>>8002383
Yeah! The colour and the pose are both *very* nice.
The marriage pic is probably one of my favourites desu
>>8002385
All my dreams have been bad lately
>>8002389
I'll try that
But I can't stop crying
>>8002392
Ahh well I'll try and use it more often, then.
I really like that one as well!
>>8002402
Yay! :3
ooh nice
>>8002406
It makes me feel really good inside thinking of marriage desu
>>8002396
it's a damn good feel!
>>8002407
Iktf
Imagining the marriage itself makes me feel all fluttery and nice
A-And imagining you in a wedding dress is just
*ok sign*
Does anyone know what ascii character looks like a square bracket but with something on the middle like the curly bracket / brace has?
>>8002389
>ywn have normal-sized eyes like elanna instead of squinty little peepholes like a cockerel
How do you spot a closeted / repressing mtf?
>>8002412
Heh I know the feel of imagining the wedding dresses.
>>8002414
hugg
>put on dress
>do make up kinda nice
>take picture
>still a boy
What am I doing wrong
>>8002375
If only they could makething like that.
>>8002386
Aw, okay.
>>8002398
Then share a good one?
>>8002396
That's a me.
>>8002423
Trusting your brain when it tells you a girl looks like a boy in the mirror
>>8002423
Not posting the picture so we can see for ourselves.
>>8002419
Hehehe uwu
>not dumping my dumb french last name RIGHT NOW
>>8002417
"dude, everyone wants to be a girl"
>>8002428
the brain is right while opinions are wrong you know
>>8002435
Ahhh I want dis
Okay I'm pretty much out of nice pictures now
>>8002430
Wait is this a trick
>>8002439
SAME
Looking forward to our marriage desu :3
>pic
us when I visit you
uwu
I very much enjoyed it while it lasted.
>>8002441
Well we can hardly judge if you don't post anything.
How does one get over the fact they will never look female?
>>8002460
I'm trying to settle for just looking cute
>>8002441
Text me it
>>8002460
Become dead inside
>>8002467
I can't even do that
Probably going to kill myself
I want a gf
>>8002460
>>8002479
am gf
>>8002485
i love you
>>8002483
Suicide is for me
>>8002479
I want a gf/bf
>>8002496
too young
>>8002489
i love you too bb
>>8002498
I mean you can have a relationship at any age
How many people go through the entirety of middle or high school single?
What is the best suocide method to end my life quickly?
I was thinking of jumping off a high building but I don't want to make such a mess.
>Hooker
>Every client wants to suck my dick
>>8002505
apparently, according to laws, dating a 17 year old when you're 18 is 'pedophilia'
totally makes sense... It's like puberty and ability to consent only begin when the 18th birthday happens.
Post your personal trip tier lists.
>>8002483
Have you had your VFS yet?
Has your gf dumped you yet?
>>8002522
If a 15 year old dates a 15 year old it's legal
>>8002496
Same
>>8002530
but why is it illegal for a 16 / 17yo to date a 18yo? I swear some laws are dumb.
Most 16 year old kids have already had sex anyway...
>>8002505
>How many people go through the entirety of middle or high school single?
most people?
>>8002536
>American laws are dumb
FTFY
>Most 16 year old kids have already had sex anyway
Fuck you normie, I lost my virginity 2 days ago
>>8002536
>but why is it illegal for a 16 / 17yo to date a 18yo? I swear some laws are dumb.
The fact that 18 year olds are considered adults gives me a good laugh
2 days ago you had to ask if you could use the bathroom
Now you're allowed to have sex and drive alone and get life changing surgeries
Also you still have no idea how taxes or interest or banks work and don't know how to keep a house or support yourself and don't understand anything about the world really
Ah, I miss being 18
>Most 16 year old kids have already had sex anyway...
I dunno about that, I thought the statistical average was like 19/22 or something.
How to get over guilt over getting to start?
I'm super happy I'm finally getting to start on e but at the same time I feel bad because a friend I know really wants to start but can't for another year.
what do I do
>>8002547
>what do I do
what do you mean "what do i do"
you start HRT and don't look back - other people's problems shouldn't affect what you do for your own good
>>8002546
In the land of the free you can fry a 16 year old but you can't fuck her.
>>8002539
Yeah, that's what I was trying to say. Some people do have relationships at younger ages, maybe not successful ones, but they do, meaning it's not unnatural to want one regardless of age.
>>8002547
Tell her to man up and just order stuff online like most of us do
So jumping off a building it is then.
Thanks for the help mtfg
>>8002563
Good night, sweet princess.
>>8002568
>implying I ever would be one
>>8002570
You are today.
>>8002550
It's not going to stop me, I've waited too long for this to wait another year, I just feel bad she gets left behind.
>>8002559
She can't afford to do so yet.
Her parents disapprove so she would have to do it all herself, but apparently getting a job where she lives is a nightmare.
>>8002563
(hugg)
I'd hope that you change your mind. Suicide isn't a good thing.
I'm a pretty femboy
>>8002523
Top tier:
Friends
Bottom tier:
Bullies
beepbeep more like cutecute
>>8002578
Pretty femboy.jpg when
>>8002587
The only thing you'll be facing is the concrete if you do this.
>>8002587
(hugg)
godspeed anon :(
>>8002586
uwu
>>8002594
lookin coot
>>8002594
hugg
>>8002588
Pls no
>>8002587
Well falling from a height is gonna literally destroy your mind. So you won't have any chances to change it then...
>>8002594
Nice linebacker shoulders
>>8002605
rood
>>8002588
>tfw Im an abdl and I hate that the media covers us...
how accurate is this in your experience?
mostly just the first two lines of panels
>>8002612
No, bad.
>>8002612
Alright. Goodbye.
>>8002629
Hugg
>>8002629
I am a hon, I made my life's purpose to improve other lives instead. That's the only thing keeping me alive since I know transitioning is a waste of time.
>>8002629
cause, I'm a hon and Im not killing myself, am I?
im transbian
>>8002642
this is a feeling I know very well
>>8002643
>All us hons do is paint a negative image for the trans community.
baka
what a silly view to have
and if you really feel that strongly about it you can just stop presenting as female in public rather than killing yourself
>>8002643
Nah. You're just selfish enough to make life all about you and only you.
>>8002643
nah, you're just depressed. there's a pill for that.
>>8002650
Your life IS all about you, silly
>tfw you post a picture of your rosacea on /r9k/ and they all start calling you a roastie whore
i guess my skin passes?
>>8002655
I'm a public servant. My life isn't about me. It's about improving other peoples' lives.
oh also hi im here now
>>8002661
yes they do, you just have to take them for a longer time than you have.
>>8002668
I have taken them for over a year
>when it'll take at least 9 days before I can hug my gf again instead of the usual 5 or 4
>>8002674
Been though 5 types
It doesn't work
>>8002677
if you both kill yourselves you can be together forever
>>8002680
Yes it does. Patience is important.
>>8002659
thanks for the heads up on the rare nim
>>8002681
hehe
way ahead of you uwu
>>8002685
I had enough patience
I have been on hrt for 5 years, ffs, srs and I still don't pass
>>8002686
FIND IT
and
POST IT
>>8002692
How is that even possible
Post pictures
>>8002686
it's not a face pic ya goof
>>8002697
I have posted in passgen and people tell me I don't pass. I still get misgendered.
>>8002706
Link it
>>8002709
It was a few pass gen's ago. I'm
Not going to link my hideous mug just so I can be teased again.