• Thread theme: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tp1ZluX4aYs
• Informed consent providers: https://dl.dropboxusercontent.com/u/932389/Trans/Stepping%20Forward%20-%20Informed%20Consent%20Clinics.pdf
• Makeup for beginners: http://masterposter.tumblr.com/post/116605714860
• Male vs Female measurement data: https://www.bwc.ohio.gov/downloads/blankpdf/ErgoAnthropometricData.pdf
• Correct hormone levels: http://www.hemingways.org/GIDinfo/hrt_ref.htm
• Checking your levels: http://www.privatemdlabs.com/lp/Female_Hormone_Testing.php
• Size charts: http://www.americanapparel.net/sizing/default.asp?chart=womens.pantse_conversion_chart.php
• Transition time lines: http://imgur.com/a/qWpxv
• buddi
• Voice Training: https://www.reddit.com/r/asktransgender/comments/1ske7b/mtf_voice_training_regimen/
• Voice Help: http://webjedi.net/projects/lgbtq/speech-therapy/
• IRC: https://www.rizon.net/chat#mtfg
>No bullying
>No hugboxing
>No *actions*
>No drama
Previously on /mtfg/, >>7626002
Let's do our best, girls!
first for thanks edie
>>7626784
Top tier edition desu
??????????????????????????????????????????
>>7626784
whatever
hey hi hello
will switching from cypro to bica in one month to another have any bad effects on me? I already asked the same thing yesterday but I forgot to include the AAs in my question
sorry
also hrtgen is too slow and didn't answer my full question yet ;_;
>>7626784
Mars Argo best Sinclair grill desu
>>7626761 @Mercury
>but then I'm a person who thinks you either "have" artistic ability or you don't.
I actually think 100% the opposite and have sculpted several clueless, nonmusical, non artistic students into serious producers, composers, and performers. I believe some people have innate talent created lucky circumstances where the data and environment fits their learning style properly but persistent hard work will always triumph over innate talent imo.
>How do you like teaching composition?
I love it more than anything. I get an incredible sense of satisfaction out of giving someone the tools to express themselves forever. I intend to open the first conservatory of arts on planet Mars in 15-20 years. It's my life's vision and I have already starting building the network, infrastructure, and funding to do so.
>What do you play in your band?
Well, in my solo music I play everything. In my jazz trio I play piano. In my progressive metal band I play drums/compose it all.
>I've played Debussy for fun, but I've not "learned" any if you know what I mean.
I feel you. I'm currently working through La fille aux cheveux de lin.
Did you study piano at a school or just through lessons and your own independent work?
>>7626798
youre my favorite poster ngl
did you all bully so much that kayla can no longer trip here in peace?
>>7626802
Have you ever heard of Gilles Peterson? Why don't you try getting a spot on his show? You'd get a crazy amount of exposure.
>>7626814
2nd tier at most
Ur the top tier desu
>>7626815
TRIP
ON
ELLIOT
>>7626819
are you a deadname collector
who /realdysphoriadays/ here? it won't go away
>>7626825
melly, probably the only person who has seen kayla irl, called kayla elliot (rodgers)
>>7626830
I can feel it starting to build up. Hopefully it doesn't peak while I'm at work tonight.
>>7626814
>>7626813
>>7626830
Thursday was a super heavy episode. I stayed in my room all day and cried. Since then only with my voice a bit yesterday.
What's everyone listening to /mtfg/?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZJL4UGSbeFg
>>7626830
I kept seeing a man in the mirror but i think im feeling better
>>7626846
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lA0dGYgk22U
>>7626845
:(
Hugg
It sucks, i know
>>7626830
>>7626846
https://youtu.be/YRdktH11rRk
>>7626817
I haven't. :O link
How could I get a spot on there? :O
>>7626845
:( Hopefully you'll start feeling better soon.
>tfw it's a self-loathing, shame and regret episode
>>7626809
I thought I was your fav you smelly slut
>>7626858
I think you should try to make some progress with yourself to make it go away. Practice your voice or something. I made the really bad days better by going to a laser appointment
>>7626846
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HsTACGVoNLw
>playing mario kart with some friends
>everyone picks to be the princesses
>friend points out that everyone playing is guys
>"the day you all come out is gonna be hella awkward"
>everyone sort of half laughs uncomfortably
>>7626873
>not playing as wario everytime
>>7626846
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dvOXuZwOEvM
i have the musical tastes of a teenage girl
sue me
>>7626846
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nf0oXY4nDxE
>>7626876
olive, i expected better of you
WALUIGI is best girl
>>7626871
Soon.
>>7626873
On the bright side, maybe all of your friends are girls too.
>>7626882
Your taste is objectively bad.
>>7626866
ily olive
>>7626846
https://youtu.be/2wSy487hJ-Q
What do I tell my gf
>>7626846
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DQLdZljeA2A
This
I'm pissed right now because it's rare as fuck. No CD, Not even on Amazon, all I can find is a few Japanese dudes on Discogs willing to sell the vinyl from oveseas for £40. I don't own a turntable, I've not bought one because hipsters made them trendy and I don't want to look like a trender but seeing as I'm constantly being cucked by "vinyl only" I may have to reconsider that.
>>7626857
Gilles Peterson is da man! I'm telling you, I like worship this guy, he presents the most eclectic sounds. He's a DJ on the BBC Radio which is a major broadcaster here, in fact the national broadcaster. Idk if he still runs his Brownswood Records label but he did that too. Here's his website
http://www.gillespetersonworldwide.com/
And more about him
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Gilles_Peterson
You gotta check out his podcasts, they're on his site and on iTunes. I think he'd like your sound. As for getting a spot, I dunno sorry, My aunt knows him but I doubt she's still in contact. There must be contact info on his website somewhere
>>7626881
I can't afford that
And it was pretty fun but scary too desu
>>7626873
>not playing shy guy errytime
>>7626883
you shut your whore mouth
>>7626784
more like edietion
>>7626888
Damn faye
Go get that boi
>>7626894
>>7626846
GAMES WITHOUT FRONTIERS
WAR WITHOUT TEARS
>>7626888
What site is this?
I don't wanna go to work.
>>7626892
You know I'm right.
>>7626891
This is what good taste looks like.
>>7626890
Its 50 euro every 2 months.
Its worth it TRUST.
it'll make some of the self-loathing go away
>>7626880
who is that ugly man you posted
>>7626891
Shyguy! I always forget shyguy...
>>7626899
you shut your whore mouth
waluigi was born to be a princess
waluigi isn't even half a year on transition yet
>>7626900
Oh it's once per 2 months? That's doable.
I don't see how it could stop me from hating myself for now though
lately I'm feeling like I just don't want to exist at all anymore
>>7626886
s-so am i cute
>>7626904
Yeah it takes 8 weeks between sessions and like 8 sessions average to get rid of most of it. Thats why i say start now!
>>7626903
Waluigi ain't got shit
>>7626908
I'll look into it
Thanks for the tip
(Although I don't need it cause I'm not trans)
>>7626904
youre my favorite poster not gonna lie
>>7626886
I liked this one a lot actually...
Does Shakira sit in her room all day listening to avant-garde jazz? Sounds pretty chill.
>>7626909
wario is a bitter hon
he doesn't even put on makeup anymore
anybody who likes wario is stinkier than the shits he takes on a hot summer day
>>7626911
Drake ur a slut
>>7626910
An older lady from a fb grp reccomended me helen's beauty center in den haag. Look around you for places with equally cheap prices, otherwise just go there.
If u call them u can get an appointment on the same day.
>>7626846
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=emZrnVamvDU
>>7626921
I will
Not like I'll ever get enough courage to call them though :p
>>7626906
Ur cute but not quite my type.
This is my type
>>7626927
>This is my type
But why
do I really look like Kayla
>>7626920
i am not a slut anna
i just have a hard time expressing my love
you have made it very easy for me to talk about my feelings though
since youre so special
>>7626932
uh, no?
have you seen her pics
our lives aren't worth living
>>7626915
trip on
>>7626925
>kill paris
neat
my favourite song by them is The Walk
>>7626933
Lmao
I don't know how to break it to you drakie but I'm not interested
Talk about your feelings to those other favourites of yours all you want though!
>>7626895
I read it to her and explained it happens
>>7626929
It's a good type
>>7626941
Faye what do you know about the Meatwad method?
>>7626932
no.
>>7626944
>"""woman"""
Fucking disgusting.
>>7626944
Well, I'm traumatized.
>>7626868
I'm genuinely enjoying this a lot
>>7626941
>not using it as an opportunity to leave your abusive lesbian girlfriend who cheats on you with her lesbian friends
why are you such a cuck
>>7626945
I mean I'd rather not
I'm happier being frangi's gf!
But I've always been too scared of phone calls lol. Even my last doctor's appointment I made online.
At least I can still leave the house!
>>7626945
Well you lucked out then. I pay £130 (€150) a session
>>7626944
Good taste
>>7626846
4u <3
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yOv6j_Id9Tc
>>7626955
Yeah thats the ballpark i hear often.
Idk maybe they will fuck me up :/
>>7626846
Pretty tough to find a YouTube link, but it's all Guided by Voices covers
>tfw i hate everything about myself and so does everyone around me
B^]
>>7626929
I'm obviously trolling; you're cute but not quite fem enough for me
This is my ideal femboy
>>7626963
i like everything about yourself except for how you hate everything about yourself
>>7626964
I don't see the appeal but you like what you like
i'm /mtfg/'s sexy beautiful boy
the world begged to nut into my mouth
but i said,
"non"
>>7626963
i like you though
>>7626966
Nope.
>>7626963
Senpai you're nice what do you mean
i wish i'd transitioned a year earlier
Why am I like this
Alright fuck it, it's piracy time, aint nobody got time for importing Japanese vinyl and setting up turntables. I still would like the physical copy one day though ;_;
>>7626952
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ulDYrwJJlWg
Wait for it though, 0:21 :P Fuck russians are bad at media... XD
lay it on me, /mtfg/
am i a sexy boy
i've already conquered the male sex
that only leaves one more
>>7626967
I like men who look gay
You don't look gay enough for me basically
Do you know how cute gays have that twinkle in their eyes? Like zayn? He has that faggot twinkle
I need that
You don't have it
But it's what I need
>>7626950
>>7626949
Oh
I have far worse
>never can sing
>>7626947
It's used to fake a voice that'll sound strange and weird by making you do A semi falseto character rather then a full on falsetto one like Mickey
>>7626977
is this like russian version of country music?
>>7626965
>>7626971
>>7626968
¯\_(シ)_/¯¯\_(シ)_/¯¯\_(シ)_/¯¯\_(シ)_/¯
i meant irl though
but thank you
>>7626982
dw
my sister can't either
and she's cis
>>7626983
Oh okay, RIP Meatwad method.
>>7626966
i don't think they were saying you look like kayla.
T-minus 4 hours and 22 minutes until I get outed to my university
>>7626968
nice neckbeard
>>7626986
I liked singing
>>7626979
I wouldn't be surprised if that was you.
>>7626976
I wanna go here, if only to chill and listen to an actual JBL Paragon...
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aUGc_MG0hzo
I didn't know dysphoria was this bad lol
How do people still function
>tfw you will never pass as well as niggerclit
i was literally born for this job
i came out of the womb with a cardboard box
>>7626997
>he doesn't realize these have all been pictures of me
dude
lmao
>>7626994
why and how is that going to happen?
>>7626988
Nope
just an average day for me
i think some of my irl friends dont really care sometimes (often)
>>7626966
i think you look like sirona desu
i mix up pics of you when i see them
>>7626994
???
They putting a sign in a public space or something
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r80HF68KM8g
>>7627001
Are you okay
>>7627004
i'm fine
anon posted a pic of neckbeard me so i'm sharing vintage niggerclit
>>7627004
how to stop sad
>>7626998
Oh wow fuck that's just a speaker, thought there was a band in the background lol. Why don't they make speakers like this anymore?
Do you know who is playing?
>>7627015
stop thinking about what makes you sad and think about what makes you happy
>>7627001
ur tongue is almost as long as mine lol
>>7627021
holy fuck that's cute
Reee how to stop being trans
Asking for a friend
>>7627001
fuck off
>>7627020
I'm numb to most things that used to make me feel ok, can't get dysphoria to stop
>>7627028
Take 3 dicks up your ass and do your hail Marys
>>7627026
all you are doing is giving anon more ammo....
>tfw you come back to pandora having another breakdown
well at least you're not spamming your cock and talking about fucking femboys and trans girls in the ass this time desu
>>7627038
Pass the popcorn
>>7627028
by dying I guess (don't)
>>7627036
and then what?
>>7627036
If this would actually work I would do this desu
>>7627041
.me
>>7627041
>>7627048
Send invite
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N_GPxe91hWE
>>7627035
You just gotta hang in there then until your HRT gets rolling. Do your best to work on skils like makeup and voice while you can so they're more developed by the time HRT is changing you and you'll be thanking yurself later.
>>7627051
no fuck u
>>7627026
idk maybe
>>7627027
wtf how??
>>7626984
Maybe, its more traditional/folk... Here have more!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yeyDfVjq6sw
>>7627017
IKR ;_; That setup is worth a few hundred thousand dollars though. And the room would have been designed acoustically around the speakers as well... Proper audiophile stuff.
Unfortunately I don't know who is playing. I really love jazz when I hear it, but I haven't the first clue about it as a genre... couldn't even name one artist :P
Got any recommendations?
>>7626996
I like singing too, even though it is the most manly thing I can do... well that and pee standing. Why don't you like singing anymore?
>>7627041
>>7627038
wew
>>7627050
>>7627041
holy guacamole
no words
>>7626962
what bands do the covers?
>>7627061
user limit is reached anyway
>>7627065
Frangi is a pure bottom though
She'd never
Most annoying thing about being a girl: not being able to sleep on stomach. :(
anyone else know this feel??
>>7627050
>>7627065
Sertii, official bed time enforcer
Dog bless, keep up the good work
>>7627070
How about makeup and stuff like that?
>>7627050
Me on the right
>>7627069
Some of us don't have this problem speak 4 urself tyvm lol
>>7627059
eh not my kind of thing
Also i also used to like singing but i knew i was always absolute trash at it but now i'm just too self conscious to try either way and i hate it
>>7627073
no resources to
>>7627069
that's just everyone I guess? as a guy the dick and balls are in the way and as girl the boobs. I don't know any adult who can sleep on their stomach.
>>7627075
my powerful ribcage protects by boobs from pressure
>>7627069
i've never been able to sleep on my stomach, i could never understand how anyone could, male or female
>>7627058
long tongues are maximum cute neppy you'll just have to deal with it
>>7627081
Cant afford anything?
>>7627084
Heckyeah my weird deformed ribs here to keep my flat chest safe
>>7627085\
How much boob are we talkin here cause I'm just getting by on the pretty thing
>>7627059
I could recommend you all sorts, idk what you'd like though. Umm Badbadnotgood is a current favourite of mine, they're a new band from Toronto.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3i7fG7Xw0kA&index=7&list=PLPXeD_XEn2STaTmqL52-OSrBRi7zWGcQb
>>7627089
nope
is there anything in the world more important than money, boys, and being pretty?
>>7627070
>I can't work on voice with people around which is most of the time, I feel locked in place right now
I feel you, tfw your step-dad is retired and at home the whole day.
>>7627082
>>7627086
I slept on my stomach for years. Even with dick and balls. It's the only way I could fall asleep. It's sooo much harder for me now. :\
>>7627079
>what a weekend dis has been
Weekend at Burchies
>i kinda know this feel ya .__.
it's an abstract kinda feel ~
>>7627089
>How much boob are we talkin here cause I'm just getting by on the pretty thing
Lmao, shut up biiitch, you have an abundance.
I'm at a full a cup ~6.5 months in. Give me another year and I should have real full b's. Then I'll give you half a cup size for 15% pretty.
deal?
>>7627099
a hot and filling meal
>>7627094
>BBNG
>new
they been releasing albums since like 2010 though?
>>7627096
Talk to nim about getting one of those websites going
Would you be open to giving me your address?
>>7627101
Sounds like i have bigger tits than you already..
>>7627099
I mean
Some other things are nice but
All three of those make it better
>>7627099
uhm, bby perhaps we could also add self love to that list.
>>7627098
you look like a girl senpai
baka
why's it ironic?
i had a better pic where my tongue looked a bit longer but i lost it :(
>>7627108
maybe
no
>>7627112
Well, if you can't do what nim does I'm open to paypaling you some money for a starter kit or something
If you're open to that at least
>>7627111
i look like a fag
big difference
ironic because like our root cause is similar, but how we express and behave in our episodes is different and that alone causes massive differences in views towards us.
>>7627106
Lmao I'm way behind. Way. I discovered all sorts when still living at home in 2010, life went tits up after that year, now I'm only just rediscovering them. And also don't you know that feel where 2010 feels like last year??
>>7627118
what does nim do?
Jesus loves you and made you all the way you are for a reason. Please don't defile yourselves.
>>7627121
i think you look more like an andro dyke desu
you'll look v female within a year imo
i'm just more obnoxious and outspoken in general, i think?
blame being isolated and socially retarded as a result <:3
>>7627118
that's okay, I don't need to focus on that stuff yet, thanks for offer though. I'll ask nim about it later, got her on discord
>>7627102
I want Steve1989 to be my boyfriend and make feel like a woman by [spoiler]holding my hand and fluffering my hair[/spoiler[
>>7627070
Shower time! Just make sure to turn the fan on too ;3
>>7627079
kmn, there is no escaping this wild ride!
>>7627080
Fair enough, I have slav-shit relatives, so I grew up listening to this sort of stuff :P
I am not good at singing, but singing is a beautiful form of expression :)
How about dis :3
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m6RiQbi4ofE
>>7627069
girl, you need a boobillow!
>>7627094
I like them, they have something I am looking for, they are a little more up-tempo. To give you some idea, I play strings, and play/listen to a lot of psychedelic and progressive rock. Which have a lot of elements that are clearly derived from Jazz, though I didn't know that until listening to Jazz recently at some classy bar a friend took me too... I always just assumed Jazz was only soft and chill.
>>7627128
Jesus made me a tranny?
What a cunt
>>7627123
I only know them because a friend of mine used to listen to them a lot ¯\_(シ)_/¯
I know that feel about "just discovering" something though even if it's been around for awhile.
>And also don't you know that feel where 2010 feels like last year??
not really... 2010 was my freshman year of highschool
ive also had a lot of significant events in the past few years so its all pretty distinct to me
but i know the feeling of the past feeling more recent than it was
>>7627133
In his all knowing wisdom, he created you as a boy. Don't turn your back on him by rejecting who you truly are.
>>7627110
>like cum... i gotcha
I was thinking actual food but now that you mentioned it
I messed up
Okay what do u want me to say
>>7627138
Mom?
How do you know about this place?
>>7627138
Weak bait
You should at least know that Jesus isn't god if you're going to pretend to be a Christian
>>7627119
Same
i'm supposed to see my pilot guy tonight for make out sessions and fooling around with some food here and there but i don't wanna
but i know it'll be fun once i do it and i'll be happy but i still don't wanna. what do?
>>7627128
The Semitic blood god is pretty good I guess... for casuals.
>>7627129
idk i cant see anything other than a man when i see my neck and jaw
the rest of me though i can see what you mean i guess
yeah you definitely are those things lol
>>7627132
idk i just cant ever bring myself to sing anymore because its so trash especially now that i try to speak in a higher voice all the time i just hate it so i dont
that sounds like what i listened to a lot in late highschool lol
its interesting but kinda eh
>>7627132
>girl, you need a boobillow!
omg your a jenius!
>>7627108
>Sounds like i have bigger tits than you already..
reeee, I will catch up! :D
>>7627141
>suicide pact when
uhh, not to be the third wheel here but...
>>7627145
>I was thinking actual food but now that you mentioned it
cum is actual food.
> pilot guy
is that the 45 year old daddy?
>>7627128
fuk off jebus i never asked for this i dont even know you
>>7627153
shit puru arrived right when i posted a pic of hers I saved
>trans friend guiding me through make up
wew this is either gonna be very good or very bad
>>7627150
i think that's most transgirls
but idk
FFS would help you but i don't think it's necessary
harsh ;_;
also it doesn't help that because of drama i'm kinda on my guard around here
which makes me more combative desu
i'm about normal on the discords i go to
>>7627146
idek what is going on I've been busy putting coconut oil in my hair n stuff but I love popcorn!
>>7627147
Jsut go edie
I'd go
I'll go for you
Well I would but I gots a man
So go for me, for you
>>7627148
eldritch abomination pepe
>>7627145
mercury you were dead when I discovered who Edie is
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xoyvwMH3xng
>>7627162
Please do not save it, it is very rare and also a registered trademark of the New Canadian Church of Cthulhu™.
Okay next reply pls
>>7627163
Huh?
>>7627152
well he's 35 not 45 but yes dat him
i mean he's literally the perfect man and a total sweetheart despite the extreme commitment issues. i just idk.
you ever wanna see someone when you're more horny or lonely and then you stop feeling that way and you're like .... i don't wanna go now
>>7627161
;_; I GUESS I'LL DO IT. FOR YOU, GRACE
and when did you get a man?!
>>7627156
I'm spying on you!
>>7627166
Thank you edieeee I can rest easy now
And I started talking to this guy I went on a couple dates with last fall again
And we're a thing now
NOT OFFICIAL YET
but yknow he's calling me kitten and buying me shit and wants to take me out so
Just gonna call him minneeee
>>7627165
>Huh
DAT Edie
she confirmed it
>>7627088
Holy. Look at that face.
>>7627160
There was drama
It is now over
But the popcorn remains who will eat all this popcorn
>>7627163
Mercury is a zombi
>>7627180
pretty meh lad
>talking to one of my regulars
>"I'm at work still actually. Got another 3 1/2 hours to go!"
>dang on a sunday?
>"Yes ma'am haha! 12 housr, like 7 to 7."
>mfw
wow these men are working 12 hour shifts in order to give me all kinds of $$$$ for dancing around on cam for 2-3 hours a few times a week.
really makes ya think...
>>7627177
Okay cool tell me all about it pls
Gotta live vicariously yknow
And it's that one dude I had coffee with and talked for like 3 hours and he posted a little here like a dork
And then things got a little weird and I decided to bail for some anon from here and that lasted like 2 weeks before it crashed and burned lmao
But I reached out to him and things are better than ever cause ive learned a lot about myself since then and I understand him better and vice versa
>>7627129
I am socially isolated since I hit puberty but I am a very nice and social person.
I'm neither obnoxious nor unfriendly in any way.
>>7627158
>but i don't think it's necessary
confirmed hugboxer reeeeeeeeeeeeee get out
and yeah i know what you mean
>>7627185
Why do I work long ass shifts for less money than other people working long ass shifts would give me for showing ass and doing things a virgin like me doesn't know about yet
Rip
>>7627186
IS THIS THE GUY THAT SAID ALL KINDS OF MEANIE THINGS TO YOU ABOUT NOT WANTING TO DATE YOU TILL U LOOK BETTER
>>7627188
nah i mean it would help a lot
but you could probably pass without
>>7627181
>who will eat all this popcorn
Normally I would eat allll the popcorn but Sunday is over and I'm starting my skeleton diet ;_;
>>7627141
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gO_QM9oUcM0
>>7627150
>late highschool
lol when did you graduate? When I was in late high school this was what was going around...
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JCDjP4JnpGU
As for the singing, I get that. I can only sing in bari... I am sure you can understand how that can get quite dysphoric.
>>7627152
I try...
>>7627184
You're crazy! Those eyes, those freckles, those lips and tongue. That face is 9/10. I'd like to slap her around til those cheeks are as red as her hair to be quite desu with you sempai.
>>7627202
can you do that to me even though im not cute like her
>>7627099
Having hobbies and interests and friends that give meaning to your life
>>7627185
Think of all the cats they could have with that money.
Instead they need to fap
Being a guy must suck
>>7627206
Lmao gay
>>7627204
I might if you asked nicely, and at least tried to look your cutest.
>>7627190
because ur purehearted
>>7627194
;_; I'M GONNA DO IT i just feel so lazy and unmotivated lately. HRT is making me tired af. pic related me after i walk 5 steps
>>7627201
i love that movie omg
>>7627206
>>7627208
gayyyyyyy
no jk that is very tru sertii
>>7627207
maybe they work hard so they can fap AND help the cats
>>7627202
>slapping a woman around
>>7627191
Kiiinda it's not really like that
Like we're pseudo dating already
He wants to see im working on improving myself rather than stagnating more than anything
Its not so much a pretty thing, he thinks I already am very pretty
Just not reaching my full potential purely out of laziness
But he's helping me work on stuff I wanted to work on on my own
Helped me figure out a workout (my idea)
Bought me makeup to play with
Helped me figure out what was wrong with my diet and why I was getting stomach pains every day lmao
He helps me with a lot of stuff desu
He wants to see effort from me though and thats okay
I wouldn't wanna date someone thats all talk and no action either desu
>>7627132
I googled this progressive rock and I love it! How did I miss out on this? You're right it is pretty jazzy. Yeah wow this stuff is on fire! Ok first thing that came to mind was jazz fusion
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QNGVoeDXA6M
This is more funk than fusion but w/e
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OV6ZAdUuSlM
But now I'm thinking Frank Zappa, he did two jazz albums, Hot Rats and Waka Jawaka, lots of his rock roots in them of course.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QLWebJlxO0s
>>7627210
What are the negatives to camming? Like how long did it take you before you started getting a big enough audience to support yourself?
Do you ever get creeped out thinking about all the guys watching and filming your show to reupload/save/distribute?
Do you just say fk it? I've always wondered how a cam girl "does" it.
pls enlighten me
>>7627213
>not giving her a few slaps and a long hard choke before you finish inside her
i cant stop thinking about the times my friends insulted me for no reason
>>7627219
vomit
>>7627210
I mean I'm kinda pure hearted but desu showing myself off and doing lewd things for money is hot
I live a weird life where I'm like
WEW FULL SLUT MODE TIME TO POST LEWD PICS AND TAKE NEW ONES
and then I'm like
I wanna be a pure Christian suburban housewife who only holds hands with her husband
>>7627219
>long hard choke before you finish inside her
umpfffff
I really need some to choke me right now. I fucking love being choked.
>>7627221
You should talk to your friend about this.
I wish I could be one of the pretty girls I'm the thread who made it instead of just another hon
>>7627214
well i guess i get that... as long as he's not a meanie to you i support your decision 300%. i want you to be happy and healthy !!!
>>7627218
i started earninga living camming after like the 3rd month. but i wasn't consistent with it until like mid 2015. now i make.......a lot of money lol
and honestly it doesn't ever really cross my mind. like i think of my viewers as my friends and i rarely if ever wear lingerie or get fully naked.
i kind of just talk to them about everything and we discuss all kinds of things and sex stuff is thrown in there from time to time.
it never occurs to me that hundreds of people or tens of thousands are following me on CB or w/e yknow
>>7627222
can't you fap and help da cats?
>>7627226
i think that's most girls so at least you're set with that loool. but i mean i think if you can earn a living without doing sex work you should!!
i had no choice and made the best of it but had i had one i wouldn't have done it
>>7627221
Negativity echoes in our heads the longest. It's human.
>>7627218
Camwhores get stalked a lot.
>>7627231
were you meming when you said you were nonbinary earlier in transition?
>>7627228
theres not much to talk about
it just makes me feel like i'm bad and people hate me even though i try my best
>>7627236
no lol
this was me in like 2010? when i identified as genderqueer.
>>7627222
>>7627227
>>7627241
See, even if I weren't bisexual with a fetish for androgyny, I would end up a chaser because of this trend. Transgirls love the rough stuff and I love to dish it out.
http://www.strawpoll.me/12177641
http://www.strawpoll.me/12177641
http://www.strawpoll.me/12177641
>>7627231
Yeah he's like never mean
Unless he's degrading me but that's not really mean
Because wew I like that shit lol
Thank you tho edieeee
I just misconstrued and negatively portrayed him after we split pretty hard
Cause that's kinda what I do when I lose someone
Coping method
Gotta make them seem evil so it doesn't feel like a loss
Also sheesh im rly curious how you get people to pay you to talk
I mean you're pretty cool and entertaining so I guess it makes sense but you sound p lucky
And yeah I should keep trying "real" work
I just think about it when im stuck scrubbing floor drains and shit
Idk
I need a better job
And then maybe I could do it for fun on the sideee
Why do people work 12 hours a day? I'd never do that shit I'd rather just move to a cheaper place/buy less stuff.
>>7627201
2014
i was always either way ahead or way behind on electronic music throughout highschool though so idk
I want SRS.
>>7627241
>This is my fetish
same, there is basically nothing more hot than a strong man you love choking you and exerting his dominance over you physically.
I love when I cuddle with my boy and I am the little spoon. He always rests his right hand on my neck, like softly but in the posture of a choke. I feel so safe and protected when he does that.
fuck i miss him right now :(
>>7627231
Thanks for the input. I've always considered camming but I'm afraid what it could do to my music career idkkkk
how is laser?
haivng a panic ataack someon ekill me
>>7627255
>I've always considered camming but I'm afraid what it could do to my music career idkkkk
Yeah this is not a good idea for someone of your career path.
>>7627250
Because that's what you got scheduled to do so do it wageslave
I wonder what being slapped around by a girl is like
>>7627259
Don't panic.
Everything is OK.
>>7627244
wow, you're awesome
like i don't know where my identity will be
i find beauty in both masc and femininity
>>7627259
*unsheathes katana*
>>7627266
*grins mischievously*
wanna find out?
god i look like a fucking clown
>>7627266
Is this a subtle hint to your roommate?
after 100 or so attempts to do so? What are the chances of a miracle get out clause of transition?
>>7627260
>Yeah this is not a good idea for someone of your career path.
yeah true. I just feel I could make a lot of money camming cause I could do lewd things but also play music while being sexy. idk it just seems so easy :\\\\
guess i'll stick to the grind
>>7627276
lobotomy
>>7627276
Amy just do it
>>7627185
The fun bit is they actually feel emotionally compelled to provide for the upkeep of a lady.
>>7627255
Hey have you ever had that feel where you listen to an album, don't really like it but listen to it again and love it? I listened to this album like a year ago and I didn't think it was bad but it kinda doodled on you know what I mean? And I'm like "bleh". But now I'm listening to it again "I get it", I'm really feeling it right now.
>>7627277
Don't be tempted by Edie's vapid blogposting, stick to your music and you'll go much further. you have real talent. Camming will definitely ruin your music career.
i wish someone would abuse me like i deserve
>>7627275
No, subtle hints to my partner would be presenting my butt and asking for abuse.
>>7627271
Slap meee
>>7627274
no
you actually look okay for where you are in transition
you ACT like a clown
>>7627285
Fucking called it
Just transition already lol
Hopefully I will get SRS one day.
>>7627289
Yeah, that's really subtle
>>7627285
>Bf just held me and called me girlname
>tfw this will never happen to me
>>7627285
*headpats Amy*
here sweety have a hrt laced brownie
>>7627289
do you actually do stuff like that with your partner? Curious because for some reason i can't imagine them being the type to be into that
>>7627285
take your girly pills amy for the last time
>>7627293
same
>>7627295
why not, did you actually order that helium or smthn?
>>7627293
I mean, you got the money, right? So I don't think you have to hope.
Wandering pol here
What's my deep seated feeling of unease about life? I've told myself I'm not trans for years and that it's wrong and evil to try. And I just have so much anxiety and depression about that idea. And I do actually cry when I see happy transgirls.
>>7627289
desu I would rather you be slapping me
>>7627210
>i love that movie omg
A little different, but what about Oldboy?
>>7627216
Yessssssss. That first one is really what I am looking for, although the Bobby Hutcherson tune was interesting as well. But defs more like Miroslav.
It might seem cliche, but Dark Side of the Moon is a great intro to prog rock, its very accessible, and has a great kind of continuity throughout the album, which is a staple of the genre.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nHGyMu4oXK8&list=PLARyKoS2smo3-HT-HPhHNSW2ckE9C_tyg
Another great album, fucking great, like, it is permanently on every device that can play music that I own... De-Loused in the Comatorium. Another one that you really want to listen start to finish. In fact, fuck Dark Side, listen to this instead x3
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AeMryNU9rPE
>>7627251
Ahhh you're just a baby :3
Yeah EDM is weird like that, back in 2007 I was spinning wax on felt and dropping MDMA like crazy. Breakbeats were the go... things have changed a lot since then.
Not from that exact era, but similar to this song. I used to mix kill paris into my sets as well, good times! Kill paris was a part of the new wave of EDM that evolved from breaks and electro... at least I think... memory from those years is... well, mostly missing :P
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5MtUxC5J36c
>>7627300
Lmao this must be a meme
>>7627300
Is this rhetorical?
>>7627248
that's hella gay but i can imagine if you're hella gay it's hella nice c:
>>7627249
well good!! AS LONG AS HE IS TREATING U RIGHT. and i get it, we all have diff ways of coping when we lose someone :c
and i am honestly extremely blessed lol. i do way less than 95% of trans camgirls and make more than like 95% of them.
i just work the whole girlfriend angle tho so i guess that's mainly why it works out.
are you still working that job you were working before that you hated?
>>7627255
i think if you're concerned about it affecting your life in later years that you def shouldn't do it desu
>>7627268
that's kind of how i am too honestly. i like masculine and feminine traits but the overindulgence of either kinda bugs me.
so i kind of just present myself as both masculine and feminine, leaning more towards feminine tho cause i've just always been that way.
>>7627281
tru
>>7627302
i don't think i've seen that :o
>>7627300
>happy
>trans
>>7627300
ur probably trans cis people don't question their gender for more than a few minutes as a fun thing
>>7627300
Maybe you're trans and maybe you're not. You should probably see a gender therapist to figure it out. Also, there are a lot of /polgbt/ people who know that feel, so don't feel alone.
>>7627306
>i don't think i've seen that :o
Watch it! It's really good
>>7627300
gender dysphoria
its what makes a tranny a tranny
>>7627299
Do not have the money.
>>7627303
>>7627300
this is literally you a few months ago
try to convince her to transition, now you see what we went through
>>7627300
see a therapist
thats all ic an recommend
>>7627313
Maybe you should become a camwhore? Lot of guys out there with paypal accounts and a fetish for pre-op transgirls. You could probably make enough money with your dick to get rid of it.
>>7627303
don't laugh you were in the same situation 3 months ago
>>7627300
just sticky a link to lgbt onto /pol/ to help these poor souls
>>7627318
i havent even been able to get myself hard in like
4 days
no sex drive sicne starting shots
>>7627306
He's treating me very right and I can't wait until I can officially call him my boyfriend cause he deserves the title <3
And Guh i guess you are pretty lucky huh
Maybe I can beeeee
Their mom
With a dick
Idk lmao
But yeah, it's fast food still. I should go be a secretary or something once I change my name lol.
Gonna go to bed nini edie have fun with pilot
>>7627313
I recall you mentioning inheritance some time ago so I assumed, though I am not really keeping up.
>>7627301
Oh
I'm really not good at that, I've tried switch and it ain't for me
>>7627297
She only deals out consentual abuse
What makes you think she wouldn't be into switch tho?
>>7627294
Mhmm I bet I'll need to clarify desu
>>7627315
hrt will work out :3
>>7627324
my dad has to die
then i have to wait a year or two
>>7627319
Yes that's why it's funny
It's so obvious now
>>7627321
Well, there's always large anal insertions... it's a more difficult show but you will probably make even more money.
>>7627315
good girl
hugg
can you please promise that you won't sperg out again with repression
>>7627325
oh i didn't say that although now that you say that the way you describe them doesn't sound like they'd switch. But that's probably because you're giving us the perspective of a pure bottom. I mean more like, they sound like the sort of person who wouldn't want to hurt you.
>>7627326
>I-I wasn't that bad r-right ;_;
kek actually you were worse
>>7627320
Legit like the 4th one this week. What the heck.
>>7627331
it will only get more amusing as time goes on and new repressors come through
>>7627335
Well my bf knows I'm not ok now. So I can cry into him when it's too much
I'm scared to go back to my bestie and tell them I am having the trans feelings again
ok i got break now
how is everyone doing?
>>7627334
This seems like a very open and shut case where it's clear you should just start transitioning immediately, but still, go to a gender therapist. It will help.
>>7627338
makeup takes practice
do it once to your satisfaction, then wipe it off and try again.
repeat until you get sick of trying and try again the next day
>>7627334
literally transition now btw
>All my life I always felt disconnected from normal kids
>I want to be a girl
>I'm so autistic I cry to other polacks about it so they can attack me
>I just realised how empty my life is
>I just have so much anxiety and depression about that idea
> I do actually cry when I see happy transgirls.
VERY SUBTLE SIGNS
:thinking:
>>7627340
you were literally telling us all of the signs and then immediately after denying the only possible diagnosis. At least anon has pretty much accepted it already, you were like this for over 2 months.
autism diagnosis when??
>>7627342
>I'm scared to go back to my bestie and tell them I am having the trans feelings again
no that's understandable. these things come and go. You shouldn't worry about that. Just tell them you made a final decision.
>>7627334
Hey, I just want to let you know you aren't alone in these feelings. They are real and they have a real root cause.
Like Isla said, consider going to a gender therapist or counselor to talk about how you feel. Just know that it really does get better.
>>7627298
I'm a hon duh
>>7627302
In that case browse the "jazz fusion" catalogue and you may find more stuff that you like.
Ahh I've heard a lot about Dark Side Of The Moon, always at the top of any "best album" list I've seen, thanks a bunch I'll check that out once I return from the doctor.
>>7627300
Why do repressers always come from /pol/??
>>7627322
nini gracey
good girl
>>7627336
It's hilariously common for /pol/yps to have this problem. No other board has such a large proportion of repressing trannies among them
>>7627343
!
Hope you enjoy it!
>>7627347
reminds me of myself too
im glad you grills helped me get on the right track
>>7627335
She really doesn't, and at the start she was kind of averse to dealing out pain. But then she saw the look on my face when she tried pulling my hair and slapping me and I think she warmed up to it considerably.
Idk, I like pain a lot
>>7627306
That's how I know a couple exes were most likely transmen.
>>7627347
B-but I didn't display any signs!
Also autism never because I'd be crazy to havw myself get tested and be called an autist by the medical world
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dkC4tdYW5jg
been stuck in my head since the early morning but singing it is hard as they're just whispering mostly
>>7627350
Thanks sweetheart, you have given me a lot to listen too! Very happy :3
>Why do repressers always come from /pol/??
Comeon buddi, you know why... /pol/ is the home of psudo-masculinity.
>>7627346
yeah i think i need to chill it or something
or that's what wikihow said lmao
cause it smudged off in one fat black line
im having a sudden anxiety attack and i dont know why and i feel really lonely and scared
>>7627374
huggu
>>7627357
:)
hugg
>>7627358
>she
not they? Interesting.
>She really doesn't, and at the start she was kind of averse to dealing out pain
yeah, that's the sort of person she sounded like.
>Idk, I like pain a lot
y-yes, I know.. :3
I kinda want to experiment with this as well
>>7627361
yes you did, that's why the whole thread kept pestering you about it lol
>>7627368
understandable, some people hate us for wanting to have a shot at happiness in life.
>>7627374
hugg nepper
>>7627368
Well you are always welcome here. Feel free to ask any questions, etc. Transition is different for everyone.
Just imagine how awesome it will be to grow boobs, have soft skin, not go bald, have an ass, not smell like a gross man, and lose most of your body hair.
:) good feels.
>Chelsea
are you new here or
>>7627378
N-no it was just bullying!
You converted me though
status update: i pass as a hon
>>7627371
>/pol/ is the home of psudo-masculinity.
it's also the frontier for anti-feminism and the like
and obviously when you're repressing and jealous of women it's pretty hard to not hate le ebin feminism madman
>>7627374
Hugg
>>7627371
You're welcome!
>/pol/ is the home of psudo-masculinity.
Well said.
>>7627374
Connect with all 5 senses, touch something odd shaped, listen to the noises around you, smell something really pungent, taste something bitter, and don't forget to look around you and say the things you can see (two senses for the price of one!).
Connecting with the senses pulls us out of the emotional/thinking mind and brings us back into the present. This allows us to center ourselves, if only temporarily. Stop the peak and find tranquility. I am not saying it is easy, but with practice it definitely helps.
You got this!
>>7627387
Great advice. I will do this next time my world feels like its spiraling out of control.
>>7627383
yeah dude the whole fucking thread cared so much about bullying a random trip and not to help a fellow trans girl come out to herself.
>>7627392
Yeah apparently!
I don't get it either desu
I'm gonna read archives
>be reading an excerpt of the DSM-V's description of the feelings you feel when you have gender dysphoria
>feel emotionally unched in my stomach
haha nice try but not now
>>7627378
She doesn't really care about pronouns, and there's really no consistency in which ones I use. Plus idk, I'm starting to get less averse to using female pronouns to talk about my partner, I may have had issues wrapping my head around that.
Do you have a way to experiment with a bit of pain?
>>7627381
I want that so much it hurts
>>7627396
(s)he sitt
>>7627393
LITERALLY
>I really want to be a girl and get sad when i think about not being one and im pretty sad in general but im totally not trans
>>7627397
>I'm starting to get less averse to using female pronouns to talk about my partner
that's good, also helps you come to terms with yourself i suppose.
>Do you have a way to experiment with a bit of pain?
maybe
i'll see how she feels about that though
>>7627399
welcome to the club, you're a tranny..
this means your limbic system within the brain was feminized during the intrauterine period of pregnancy. The limbic system controls facial recognition, emotional response, body recognition, and many other things. You're neural wiring is quite literally incompatible with the male body. Sucks, but it is what it is.
>tfw olaplex 3 mask in hair overnight
who doesn't love wearing a plastic bag on their head for 10-12 hours!!
>>7627402
Yes I'm not trans duh
i remind myself of kayla desu
TIL: kayla is bad at make up?
>>7627222
>Diets suckk
It isn't so bad once you've been at it a few weeks. I lost 100 pounds in like 15 months pre transition. It's been really hard lately though because I don't "need" to, but I want to so it's harder to stay strict. Also I just cheated and ate a cookie :(
>>7627358
>>7627378
>y-yes, I know.. :3
>I kinda want to experiment with this as well
m-me too >.>
>>7627409
lmao this gif kills me every time.
I haven't done a deep condition in awhile. Maybe I'll do one tomorrow.
>>7627381
on the flip side there's:
always being less then cis
get clocked, mocked and mis gendered
not passing as either male nor female,
or worse end up looking like a hon
losing your friends/family/work/career
hrt does increase your chances of cancer and/or heart disease, and say goodbye to your dick
>>7627410
this wasn't even when you first broke, this was when you were still trying to convince yourself that you werent and that you didnt have to start hrt like what Amy is (STILL) doing now
>>7627421
Wew that one is pretty bad I'll admit that
>>7627419
>hrt does increase your chances of cancer
This is actually not true at all. It increases your risk of cancer for estrogen based cancers (breast cancer) but completely removes the risk of testosterone based cancers (prostate and testicular).
> say goodbye to your dick
this is a good thing, not a bad thing.
>heart disease
Citation needed.
>>7627419
dude who cares about that when you get boobs and a girly body and face?
I keep thinking about juniper and all i can feel is the crushing loneliness that i try so hard to escape
im scared of isolation and i never feel safe with anyone and i never feel understood by anyone
im so fucked up
>>7627428
Hahahahahahahaha sertii look at this post
http://archive.loveisover.me/lgbt/thread/6733839/#q6733966
>>7627419
>increase your chances of cancer and/or heart disease
Yeah otherwise I am sure your heart will be fine when you're under constant stress repressing.
>>7627423
theres tonnes more like it
theres pages of it
>>7627437
neptune when are we gonna meet irl and smoke weed and write poetry
>>7627434
I'm working through it
I madrbalmost 2000 bjorg posts though wtf
>>7627439
you were here A LOT
I think that was the biggest clue, you were a little bit too comfortable here
>>7627430
hahahah
looks like the memes worked :^)
seriously this lasted way too long
thank god you're at least half repressing still and are on hrt
>>7627429
>>7627437
It would be nice to get you in my lap and stroke your hair till you calmed down
>>7627421
>tfw used to be emotionally independent and hetero as fug, hated talking about feelings
>now cry and breakdown while being held by my boyfriend like an emotional faggot
How did this happen?
>>7627255
Well I am not specifically into choking. It's more the loss of control in general.
> I love when I cuddle with my boy and I am the little spoon.
One day ill experience that too ;~;
Which is the best dating site to use? Why??
I'm gonna run for my tram when school is out because I'm deathly afraid of my dad finding a box marked with 'Qhi: quality mail order medicines'
help im panicking ;_;
>>7627437
You're a genuinely nice person Neptune. I just thought you should know that
Hugg
>>7627448
>it's more the loss of control in general.
yeah, I can feel that. My biggest kink is sensory deprivation.
>>7627444
you hung out here too much and caught the tranny*
*this is satire, you actually were always a tranny and finally tore down the repression wall which took a load off your shoulders (and onto your face you lewd girl) THAT is why you felt so good getting a boyfriend
>>7627448
>One day ill experience that too ;~;
you certainly will. and he will be a big strong aryan man :))
>>7627445
>Holy shit
dat realisation :p
>>7626979
you look like chibi
>>7627460
That was a realisation of me being more autistic than I thought
Not of me being more of a tranny
>>7627445
Wow, watching your repression slowly crack and your real feelings come to the surface over time is quite amazing. Someone should do a case study on you. Lmao.
>>7627455
My first post on lgbt...
>>7627464
you were concealing not feeling pretty hard there
was that christmas bad for dysphoria?
>>7627467
So long ago now
Yeah extremely bad.
>>7627391
Most welcome :3
I have very intense emotional outbursts. Pre-moans that would sometimes turn to aggression. So I needed to find something that worked to help. The stupid thing is that the aggression was actually depression manifest dysfunctionally. A kind of "sad fury" if you will. Nowadays it helps with the normal depression... Though this might sound crazy, but it is actually nice to be able to cry instead of having the overwhelming compulsion to break everyone and everything around me when I am depressed. So I let myself express the healthy emotion and see it as a stabilizing release, as opposed to a spiraling vortex of self loathing.
Do you therapy? If so, talk to your psych about ACT (acceptance and commitment therapy) frankly it shits on CBT and has helped with my dysphoria more than anything... Thanks for listening... lol :P
>>7627384
Very valid point
>>7627386
<3
>>7627416
Oh yeah, and its always "Jesus will heal you." But speaking from experience being raised in a ultra conservative christian household with ties to DoD throughout both sides of the family. Jesus and real actual Right Wing ideals does not a very happy tranny make.
Drumpfs in, now the shitfights will begin! /pol/ is a shadow of its former self. Like, to be fair it wouldn't surprise me if trump knew that he would need /pol/ to shill for him. Trump posting started very very shortly after the end of GG and the Exodus, which was the end of intelligent and organised /pol/. Everyone knew /pol/ and 4chan's powerlevel after that. Everyone, even dumpf.
>>7627471
female cousins make you jealous or something?
>>7627427
>>>7627419
>>hrt does increase your chances of cancer
>This is actually not true at all. It increases your risk of cancer for estrogen based cancers (breast cancer) but completely removes the risk of testosterone based cancers (prostate and testicular).
It doesn't fully remove the chance of prostate and testicular cancers. It just makes them very unlikely.
have i made it to hon tier yet?
>>7627461
yeah people used to call me that back when
they also called me "pubebeard"
mind you, those pics are over a year old
>>7627473
yeah i'm not sure if it's just mania but i'm starting to go borderline feminist
i think i may be slightly manic
i haven't been able to get proper mania since i outed to myself as trans
>>7627443
no ones ever played with my hair before
i wonder what it is like
i wish i was little so i could sit in peoples laps without being a giant awkward mess
>>7627480
why would you want to visit rural hawaii... it's shit
i'll visit you and we can eat ice cream or something
>>7627484
it's a really nice feeling and it makes you feel warm and comfy inside.
yesterday there was a girl who sat on the lap of one of the ftms and it looked fine
you guys all suck except for a few of you
i wish i had a bf
i wish i had a vagina
lassies
these injections are changing my sexuality and wants in life
>>7627450
discord.
>>7627475
Yeah. It did
The first post I remember posted to this general.
I could have stopped him ;_;
why does plucking your eyebrows have to hurt so much
i crie evry tiem (literally)
NOBODY TOLD ME IT WAS IMPOSSIBLE TO WASH OFF EYELINER
>>7627250
Weekend shift workers typically have 12 hour days.
Its not that terrible, but mostly depends on what you do. I sometimes take two 8 hour shifts in a row if i know the second shift is gonna be laid back. I do it because its really good money and I only shitpost on the internet otherwise.
Even people in ER and military regularly work 18+ hour shifts with what I would call intense work loads and see it through. Its just about mindset lol.
>>7627507
you didn't ask
>>7627491
I am on a hon dosage of 3mg progynova and 200mg spironolacatone
I want a vagina and a boyfriend
>>7627486
idk
where i live is pretty shit too
though there is this cute ice cream parlour downtown designed like its from the 50's and all the employees talk and dress like they are from then and they play old music
its fun
>>7627489
i want to feel this feeling now
and idk im a tall and lanky skeleton so its always gonna be awkward for me
>>7627514
oh god
that sounds pretty nice desu
is the ice cream good
desu though i shouldn't eat too much cause i'm kinda putting on the chub
>>7627513
for me it was
just i didnt cre
but now
its like
i wantthem
>>7627511
I doubt she would have got an answer any way
>>7627514
>tall and lanky skeleton
all of the passing trans girls at the group yesterday were like this.
desu seeng your pictures you'll have 0 issues passing
>>7627520
This is reassuring. I'm still really worried about my shoulders and finding tops with length and long enough sleeves :/
>>7627437
Awwwwww you defs need cuddles! It sucks that you are feeling so shitty darling ;_; Just remember that emotions are temporary, you will eventually get some respite -_-!
I had bashed out some advice based on what had helped me deal with being in that emotional place. Now when I get depressed it is actually a very healthy, almost cleansing, experience. But it is real. It isnt hugboxy, it isnt tough loveish, It's real and I work at it every single day. Not everyone is ready to hear this sort of stuff whilst in a heightened state. So hmu if you wanna talk about it some more.
You got this! Seriously, you are more capable than you think :3
http://archive.loveisover.me/lgbt/thread/7239214/#q7239564
heh
>almost out of the huge box of swiss miss my sister gave me for christmas
:(
my dear sister
>>7627530
oh
well you should eat there sometime
get your gay brothers to treat you
>>7627518
go to places where boys congregate and seduce one of them into being your boyfriend
>>7627529
places for extra tall girls like Long Tall Sally. The start with clothes for 5'10" and taller. Their short inseam is 34".
>>7627529
yeah
being tall and having broad shoulders is kind of a meme if you're skinny
it was kinda cute actually
Personally i'm not insecure about those things anymore at all
>>7627530
i dont think you need them per se, but thats not how dysphoria works so having an expert cut mess with your chin might help you :p
Dragonball Super, universe survival arch... Broly is not only cannon from another universe, but is also a girl.
>>7627541
sertii hi
>>7627548
hey lauren, how are you feeling?
>>7627537
thats the plan
ima get a JOB
>>7627533
>/pol/
>3D waifu is a raging SJW
What did Anna mean by this
>have to wake up in 1.5 hours to get ready for early morning endo appointment
>not even tired
Insomnia is literally the worst
>>7627554
She's top qt!
>>7627549
ok i guess
not really good but not awful
>>7627538
I'm not sure what to think of LTS. I bought shoes there a couple years ago and they were the cheapest of the cheap chinese crap :/ Their basics look okay, but a lot of their styles look questionable and it's a bit on the expensive side.
>>7627541
I don't think mine are terrrrible, but compared to most of my torso they stand out a bit. Lately I've been more worried about muscle and fat near my armpits and just below because with fitted tops they make my upper torso look super goofy compared to my small waist.
Just took my first estrogen pill (estradiol; 3 mg worth) (~4 hrs ago) - is it normal to experience immediate symptoms? Like I feel more able to focus and it feels like there's less disconnect between what I feel and what I express. I feel less 'dead' sort of.
Body-dysphoria is a bit worse, but internal, 'emotional' dysphoria (if that's a thing) is better?
I assume this is all placebo?
>>7627550
>found the moment on /pol/ where I began to slip
;_;
>>7627562
Reading back archives is weird
I also haven't really seen signs of me being a tran except once saying I wanted to be anna but still people memed at me lots
I was just bullied into this
I'm not a tranny
I can go back
>>7627561
>I assume this is all placebo?
Yes, most likely, but hey go with it :)
The first thing I noticed was my libido crashing. By the end of the first week it was pretty obvious that it was going down.
>>7627552
yes, good idea
then use the money from the job to purchase boys
>>7627567
no boys will be attracted to me while im working and ill be sweating and they will want to lick the sweat off of my body
>>7627564
*bullies u into continuing hrt and being a girl*
I guess I'm gonna have to look for a job serving the bourgeois today.
>>7627575
Reee I want the meme to eeeend
>>7627574
hot
>>7627578
nope :3
>>7627564
Why did I make this image. It only solidified dysphoria back then
>>7627585
Amy :(
you can be the girl with the blue top and pink skirt
I believe in u
>>7627576
>tfw job hunting with a 2 year employment gap
might as well just tell them i'm in prison for all it's worth
>>7627580
yes
>>7627590
I believe in you
>>7627575
That gif is super sad
>>7627585
>>7627532
Im starting to realise posts from the past that were from you and its a little spooky
but yeah i definitely need cuddles because any end to this cant come soon enough lol
you are like the most empowering person whos ever talked to me and idk how to like process it because my gut reaction is to push for pity and self hate but then i know that i shouldnt do that so idk how to feel
>>7627534
lol as if
>>7627541
yeah i really wish i had enough money to cut down my chin like really even with just that i would be so much happier and willing to push forward with transition
i just see it as such an obvious stick out that will always hurt my image
>>7627555
stay up through it?
>>7627592
thanks snickleberry
do your best today
>>7627593
How?
>>7627593
tomoko is super sad
>>7627589
My emotions just keep getting more out of control and more intense
>>7627598
I will!
>>7627594
Nice edit
>>7627591
Hey Isla, do you have any tattoos?
http://archive.loveisover.me/lgbt/thread/7268282/#7269149
kek
>>7627590
Tell them you were helping care for a sick family member. It puts you in a positive light and they probably won't dig too much into it or ask many questions.
>>7627610
Oh you meant it makes you sad.
>>7627603
it will be okay
>>7627610
same
same
same
its all sad feels
>>7627606
i plan on getting one
dear thread
i cant sleep
>>7627616
*tucc u in*
>>7627609
aw
your welcome, neppy
that means a lot to me
>>7627611
that's a good idea, and it's what i plan to do, but i'm usually screened out before it gets that far
>>7627617
tell me a story pls
and pet my hair
>>7627615
What of and where? Less that eight hours now till I get mine.
>>7627616
Same, nervous about getting my Mark of Slaanesh tomorrow. Come with me to the parlor and hold my hand- You'd get to see Moap butt in person.
>>7627616
>i cant sleep
Have you tried listening to some music? I find some chill music with the lights out helps a lot if I can't sleep. It un focuses my brain somewhat and helps me to relax.
>>7627620
boo if you could travel back in time would you meet me a year ago and suck the cum from my pubes
>>7627607
REEEEE
>>7627620
only girls get hed pets
but I will tell you a story
there was once a repressed transgirl
who wouldnt go to sleep so anon shot her
the moral is to take your skittles
night night sweety
>>7627622
Tinkerbell - Lower left abdomen
This is really sad wtf
I was such an obvious tran
>>7627625
>tfw you wasted your twenties in repression
>tfw you arent a girl, just a freak man with tits
>>7627605
Oh you like that? Here's another one..
>>7627631
told ya
>>7627618
:3
yr a good person
>>7627633
I like boys tho
>>7627637
I'm sorry we've kind of fallen out of touch
>>7627603
iktf. it got to the point where it's dangerous to me and people around me.
>>7627641
hmmmmmmmm i wonder if hrt is the cause of this :')
>>7627643
you had better try it and find out, for science
>>7627643
I'm not on hrt. it's probably T and manic depression together.
>>7627640
me too
its mostly my fault
i felt guilty talking to you while i was with juniper because of my feelings
and then i blocked you along with everyone else during one of my breakdowns
>>7627643
What if you had mood swings before hrt but they stopped when you started
is my brain broken
>>7627651
classic neptune
>>7627651
>and then i blocked you along with everyone else during one of my breakdowns
I'm not the only one who does this?
>>7627651
it's ok
>>7627644
>>7627650
>>7627652
this is getting too complex for me boys
>>7627613
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=mlCCovblMgg
Only with his help
>>7627660
i laffed
>>7627657
i do that except i leave all my discord servers and remove my discord friends
most of my steam friends are okay but i've purged steam a few times too, just not people i talk toa super lot
i've managed to retain more control during my meltdowns now though so i don't do as much damage
i think that last super bad one on /mtfg/ (you know which one i'm talking about) kinda shocked me into taking the reins more????
>>7627655
i dont know what you mean by this
>>7627657
no ive done it a few times
its sort of fulfilling a self hate desire for me
ill remove everyone because no one would want to talk to me
thats normally how the thinking goes
>>7627658
remember when i found out where you lived and semi-seriously (jokingly) made plans to find you irl and go to your house?
god im a weirdo
>>7627667
it was kind of cute
>>7627663
do you think we'll find aliens soon sertii
i wish i lived in a fantasy world
i'd make a great witcher
>tell bestie I'm feeling down
>can't tell them the trans feelings are back after my long complicated explanation it was just repressed homosexuality
>>7627662
are you forgetting where he died?
Pattaya, Thailand.
he was fucking trannies
he would tell you to stop being a sad cunt and be happy with who you want to be and work hard to achieve that
>>7627677
tell them
also
amy
can i have your discord :3
this is burch btw
except i'm not using that name because i dropped that when i started seeing myself more as a girl
>>7627676
i hope alliens have good srs...
>>7627681
I'm too ashamed to go back and a dot it again.
Ye I'll add u
>>7627630
Hm, a tinkerbell person? My brother loves Peter Pan, that's definitely his favorite Disney movie too.
I've always been more of a Little Mermaid person, Alice in Wonderland is my favorite of the older Disney films.
What made you decide on it?
>>7627635
Dawh, ty, Im really excited to get it but Im nervous about the pain. Ive had cartilage piercings and I know those hurt way more, you don't havee to endure the pain of a piercing though I can pull away and curl up in pain afterwards, a tattoo I gotta sit there.
Like Paul Atriedes and the Gom Jabbar.
Celtic art is really pretty, I have some celtic tapestries of Yggdrasil and the Trinity on my walls. Nordic art is all hard angles, celtic art flows much more.
>>7627689
PANDORA#9929
but yeah you should force yourself to tell him
it's going to be embarrassing, but he has to know
so that he can support you if you do this again and maybe to discourage you from doing it again
>>7627692
He knows. I confessed to him before.
But I changed my mind and decided it was just gay
>>7627698
i know you confessed to him before, you told us about it
but if he knew that you have the tendency to switch when you're having bipolar episodes, maybe he could discourage you from doing anything drastic
i'm just glad you listened and didn't throw away your hrt stuff :3
>>7627690
I love Peter Pan tons
I was also thinking Alice in Wonderland but im hesitant
idk just
i wanted to
>>7627698
Will you remember this next time you repress or will you have the genius revelation that you were just a femboy or something all along?
>>7627690
thats true but
the human body is made to endure that stuff really easily
itll hurt at first but youll get used to it in a few minutes then itll be okay
especially a butt tattoo since you have the THICCCCCCCCCCCC to shelter you
>>7627684
but what if aliens dont have penises or vaginas sertii
what if you can only get one of their freaky sex organs
>>7627709
fuck me dude if they are aliens they can do shit like that no problem
>>7627705
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SZfiaygPYAA
I get possessed and it makes me go right down to the wire to repress by any means possible, even accepting dating boys to allievate the dysphoria. And the scary thing. Is I ALWAY believe it
>>>7627703
I did throw it away though :/
That was last month. When I came out as gay I cancelled my order
>>7627712
oh :(
i asked you to and you said you wouldn't
that's kind of sad
definitely do not this time
can you ask your bf to keep them for you or something? and help you with your bipolar issues?
>>7627712
tell your bf to order them for you and to force feed you them if necessary.
>>7627712
It's literally the same thing every time though, how can you not see it?
You have to stop this cycle of repression.
I wanna die
>>7627704
Alice in Wonderland gets scarier the older you get, Im drifting away from it, maybe one day Ill go back to tripping all the time and get more into it again.
I really like bows, like either Sarina or Bailey has some bows on the inset of their hips- I think thats really cute, I like corset lacework tattoos on the spine, too.
Those are super sexy slutty though, and Im really not a very sexual person. I guess a mark of slaanesh pseudo tramp stamp is pretty sexy/sexual, but only if you know what a mark of slaanesh is.
>>7627709
If it was actually my butt, I bet Id barely feel it- the lovehandle is still gonna be pretty easy. Thats definetly reassuring. Slaanesh would want me to take pleasure from the pain, Ive been trying to keep that in mind too.
Ill get super fucking baked before I go too so Ill be high as a kite when they start.
in a way i'm a bit glad i posted nudes
i was slowly disassociating from slutposting but that was kind of the death bell for it by associating slutposting with violent breakdowns and with the sense of disgust i felt at myself doing it
so idk
also i kind of traumatized myself a bit i think and i haven't had breakdowns as bad since
yay, personal progress
>>7627721
no, you want things to get better
there's a difference
and things will get better, anna
>>7627724
no, I want things to stop being bad
The easiest way is for things to end.
>>7627596
And that is exactly why I trip now... Sorry :'(
A lot of the problems people here are facing are extremely manageable :)
Self worth can only come from the self, right? Its like in the name :P There are things you can do to help this along. Some of your issues may be biochemical, unfortunately I don't know anything about your mental health. However, even the most crazy of us can get some respite with a bit of effort :3
Sorry for the delay... I start bashing out all this advice and thousands of words later realize its not really for here. Its for you, sure, but not for mtfg.
Stay gorgeous sweetheart ;3
>>7627725
but things will get better, too
it'll take a while, but we'll get there
the first few months of transition are the worst of the lot
but then things start getting better
>tfw waiting for bf to come home
>tfw considering coming out tonight but won't do it cause scared
>>7627729
Not quick enough :(
>>7627732
only come out if you think you'll be accepted
every time i get suicidal depression i want to come out because i know my parents won't be acceptant and that it might give me enough of a reason to kms
even if your parents do understand they might make it harder
like i accidentally came out to my grandmother so now i have to deal with her trying (as hard as she can) to not fuck up with how she views my issues, which is hard, and it just makes communicating with her so much harder, and i don't get any financial benefits at all
>>7627723
>Slaanesh would want me to take pleasure from the pain
Ribs? I've heard skull hurts like fuck too, and lips. Basically anywhere that is skin on bone.
>Ill get super fucking baked before I go too so Ill be high as a kite when they start.
Slaanesh would approve of that
>>7627734
I'll be accepted for sure
They might get mad about me self-medding though.
I'm still very scared though.
>>7626311
smiles is 5'9
>>7627739
well, weight the benefits
maybe lie about self-medding, if you had to?
you're only a few weeks in so it shouldn't matter
but if your parents are the wrong kind of accepting it might make things stressful
>>7627742
>smiles is fifteen and taller than me
damn
i used to hate my dad for having manlet genes, but now?
bit happier
>>7627743
>but if your parents are the wrong kind of accepting it might make things stressful
Probably this
They might get pushy about stuff
But I do kinda need to tell them soon or they'll dislike me for not telling them sooner
>>7627745
i don't think they'll care an awful lot
at worst, fall back on the "i'm scared" excuse
transitioning is a huge step an i'm sure they'd understand if you were terrified of coming out
>>7627739
your parents will be super cool abt it
i hadnt expected much but now when im at my moms it's great actually
coming out to people who will be supportive is scary the moment you do it but it pays off almost immediately. In my experience no one has gotten mad abt me self medding because you explain the need and reasoning and how safe it actually is
also i want sushi again really badly now
>>7627744
she's right on the border of being 5'8
>>7627751
She said she was 185/6'1 in the past, how are people so bad at measuring themselves?
>>7627723
i love it
also whose sarina or bailey what
but bows are cute
i would never get slutty things i dont think
>>7627751
oh, might be around my height
i think i'm around 5'8, haven't measured in a while
might have grown a bit, maybe HRT will shrink me a wee bit
Where do I post a pic of my mtf gf to make boast? :P
>>7627691
>>7627691
>>7627691
>>7627064
The four listed on the image
Screaming Females (one of my favorite bands)
Swearin'
Upset
Waxahatchee (planning on seeing them this May)