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Weighed in at 138 this morning! Crossing my fingers I will be at 135 by my birthday next Saturday!
>>6671440
good <3
tfw ur not kate bush
I feel vaguely like I'm missing something
I had lunch with Chara today ask me anything =)
>>6671471
When are you two getting married?
>>6671471
why are you so qt
>>6671466
Thats a good feel considering shes like old as sin now
That being said, i fucking love kate bush
>>6671471
why are you stealing my wife.
>>6671430
That's the general conversion, Group 1 is HSTS and Group 3 is AGP. But the grouping is defined less on sexuality. There's certainly a continium going on in real life. I think the hard grouping is mostly to distinguish people who are more open about their desire to transition than others.
Also these models really need to separate out sexual attractions from gender but they're still hung up on it. This shit is from birth, right? I didn't have an attraction to a gender as a child. I thought girls were more pretty and boys were more fun. That's about it.
>>6671471
Is jesus really as nice as people made him out to be?
Is the floor really made of clouds and stuff?
>>6671471
Does she stash food in her cheeks like any hamster worth its salt?
>>6671466
LONDON
O
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D
O
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>>6671471
How do you pronounce your name?
>>6671485
Pretty much. I was one of the girls long before I had anything sexual on my mind...
SURVERY TIME
>height
>weight
>shoe size
>bra size
>>6671489
Jesus is a pretty nice barman. He serves even demons without complaining.
>>6671504
too tall
too round
too big
too small
>>6671504
173 cm
Currently 70 kg and dropping fast
41EU
95B French size
>>6671475
We are not getting married
>>6671478
Practice
>>6671479
The pizza was good i think chara liked it too
>>6671484
I am not =)
>>6671489
I am not christian
>>6671490
No but her cheeks are very adorable
>>6671497
Rain uh
>>6671504
>5 foot 7
>120
>womens 9
>A cup
>>6671504
>5'6"
>140
>Unsure
>32b
>>6671520
iktf
>>6671522
yeah she did say she enjoyed it.
Also why does everyone say you're so cute
are you?
>>6671504
>5'5"
>138 lbs
>Women's size 8
>32DD
>>6671533
How do you not know your own shoe size do you literally never leave the house or do you like live in a hut
>>6671504
5'8
54kg
Whatever an 8 in men's translates to
Phlat
haha i'm such a winona ryder you guys like seriously
>>6671504
>height
5'11"
>weight
165lbs
>shoe size
UK 10 is what I'm wearing rn
I know they're enormous
>bra size
underbust is 34", bust is 38"
if you know what size that is, please fucking tell me
those calculator sites give me everything from a 38A to a 34DD
currently I'm wearing a 36A but the band is a bit too loose
>>6671504
5'3
110
womens 8
36b
>>6671540
you trigger me so hard
>>6671543
I haven't figured out my women's size yet. I thought I had it but when I was shoe shopping the other day it was kinda off. I need to check out some shoes irl in women's sizes.
>>6671551
>5'3
i want to carry beep around in my pocket!
>>6671549
>tfw UK 10
t-thanks :/
>>6671522
i plan on it :)
>>6671560
No I shouldn't ;_; I am 13 lbs overweight so there is nothing to be triggered by!
>>6671504
5'4
120
8.5
no bra/32a (hrt is a meme)
>>6671560
Just add like 1.5 or 2. womens 8 is like a mens 6. I dont remember exactly but really? Cmon now. Also google is a thing for those who dont present and are wondering these things
>>6671578
im just an inch taller than you how are you overweight but im not
do i need to lose weight
oh god
>>6671504
>6'2
>160
>13 US Men's
>N/A
im doomed desu
>>6671586
Noooo, you are fine! I just put on extra stress weight from binge eating is all so I am trying ot get it back off! Dx
>>6671504
5'10"
133
12
c cup
>>6671579
Your moms a meme
>tfw your moms not a meme and you exist in space time and are aware of it
I wanna die
>>6671560
Maybe that's because the width was off.
Men's shoes are in D width by default, while women's are in B width.
>>6671586
Boobs.
>>6671504
>height
5'9
>weight
143
>shoe size
Women's 9
>bra size
Between 34 a/b
>>6671585
Jeez so mean
I think I'm an 11 but it depends on the shoe
my feet are the worst i dont like remembering they exist
>>6671565
im so wittle
>>6671595
>c cup
Like a charm
>>6671608
it's works to your advantage as a woomun :)
>>6671578
do you pass?
>>6671604
That wasnt supposed to be mean but im not sorry
>>6671617
how old are you may i ask? :o
>>6671595
How the fuck do way so little but you're so huge and blocky? Like you're smaller then aushwitz fufu
>>6671618
it's okay i know im a stupid hon
>>6671579
why is hrt a meme
>>6671621
No ur a cute hon :)))
tfw youll never be mtfgs little toy for everyone to play with. they get you too drunk to fight back and pass you around. and wont let you self harm when you get unstable from it all.
>>6671620
Korra is a jacked dude hes built like a nigger
Also
>c cup hahaha are you serious bruh pecks dont count as boobs
>>6671614
If I can use women's locker rooms and restrooms does that mean yes?
>>6671617
i wish i did honestly
>>6671633
post pic and we'll be the judge
>>6671630
This happened to me irl recently and it was no picnic
>>6671620
i still have alot of muscle to lose from when i lifted weights so it adds to how bulky i look i think
>>6671469
Probably a conscience maybe a life.
>>6671637
pls share story and let me live through you
>>6671631
But she said she was 133 at 5'10, that makes her one of the skinniest people to ever post here, she wouldn't lie to use would she? I want to know how she keeps that bicep and her pudgy dad belly at 133 though, that's amazing
I love when I'm running on a trail and I pass one of the many fat people in my neighborhood. I breathe extra hard, run extra hard, and still look like I'm enjoying it. Like I'm out here in the heat running at 7.5 minutes a mile and you're walking your dumpy gross fat ass here.
Don't give me shit for fat shaming,
>>6671647
>cheating
>>6671640
Hey Korra! Long time no see.
Also, hello everyone else. I have a new bicycle and I'm feeling accomplished despite the estrogen low.
>>6671645
I got too drunk and got carried onto a roof by a group of men. It was 3 guys at first but one just like left in the middle of it idr the details really i was shitfaced but i remember getting spitroasted and staring at some dude standing like 10 feet away.
Pretty much got gang date raped and its 99 percent my fault for being a ho
>>6671648
Just a reminder that korra used to do serious lifting and in her 20s and never been intimate with anyone
>>6671648
Truth hurts bud you cant always excuse things away with that cliche
>>6671655
im sorry that happened to you
>>6671656
Kill yourself.
>>6671647
You're such a waste of space. The only thing you can take pride in is hurling your breakfast and dinner every day.
i has a kitty :3
>>6671669
>You're such a waste of space.
Straight out of my sister's insult book from when she was 14.
>>6671659
This is why he needs to leave. I wouldnt mind him if he didnt speak of things he knows nothing of but its a constant deluge of sheltered nonsense from that one
>>6671647
I'm sad you'd think something cruel about someone who's at least trying to maintain their body for the temerity of occupying the same trail as you.
>>6671669
Nah I overcame my bulemia years ago
Now I just work it out
I love working out!
>>6671667
I would if I woke up and found out I was you Grace.
>>6671622
I have what are barely even a cups after 2.5 years of hrt. my mom and sister are both d
>>6671647
Haha but at least they don't have aids fucking gross no amount of running is going to wash out your diseases. :^)
>>6671680
:( that's shitty
i hope youre not thinking about implants those are gross
>>6671671
if you are about to become homeless, then why would you get a kitten?
also, clean your room
>>6671671
That's a fluffy kitty you have there. Much respect. Cute mismatched socks.
>>6671671
I like your cat
>>6671696
>>6671671
Precious babies!
>>6671691
Nobody has ever told me to do that over 9999 times on 4chan how dare you
>>6671691
You sound very mad hon better get your T levels checked.
>>6671671
i has a pussy. Not posting pics because blue board.
Pizza on my mind, niggass
>>6671687
Fucking gross I hate this thread.
>>6671703
And while I'm madly jealous, I won't bother asking for pics.
>>6671654
heya kaka! what's up? ^_^
>>6671706
same honestly
>>6671699
These two look like they're plotting to remove all the Jewish cats in the whole neighborhood.
>>6671706
>>6671714
>>6671709
Yeah please dont tempt grandpa to post his pussy
>>6671715
sieg meow
>>6671706
chara im trying to lose weight but this craving for sweet cheesy goodness is tearing me apart
WAKE ME UP
>>6671719
that doesn't actually look good
>>6671706
We had pizza today Chara you want more already? =P
>>6671676
>trying to maintain their body
You mean by walking slowly for 10 minutes a day while downing 4000 calories? Sorry, I like being fit and active
>>6671692
Yeah you certainly confirmed that I had a problem and overcame it with hard work, sweet and effort. How embarrassing.
>>6671687
I don't have AIDS??? You're shilling for a serial sexual harasser who stinks.
>>6671694
Hey moomin poster
>>6671735
was talking to her on skype. she said she kinda wants more of you. ya know like sex and stuff.
Also sorry I'm cruel to fat people, it's kinda hard when you're slightly obsessed with body image and love working out
I promise not to post fat hate in here again
>>6671710
Mostly what I posted.
Building up my OK Cupid profile and collecting appropriate photos, assembling a "how Ontario handles trans healthcare" pamphlet for local clinics to get them up to speed on the basics and aware of what they can do without risking legal repercussions, and starting to work out the details of performing in burlesque with a friend.
>>6671750
>I promise not to post fat hate in here again
good girl. I know it comes from your own pain. Id head pat you but actions are against the rules
>>6671750
I hate legitimately fat people.
Like super super fat.
As in obese.
they are disgusting and fucking annoying.
>>6671750
Thank you Red. Externalizing those issues and imposing them on others is probably going to be hard to stop, but it's pretty bad for you to practice hate habitually.
>>6671750
Fat fucks need to go
>>6671745
Hello!
Snorkmaiden is cute, but she is a bit dramatic at times
mostly in a cute way though
>>6671752
how's the profile building going? im actually headed to a date with a potential bf this weekend and we met on okcupid, do i hope it works for you.
i wish the states had more ppl like you bc its so ass backwards in places :/
>>6671757
I 100 percent agree with 100 percent of this post
>>6671757
Chubby is like one of my favorite looks and I think it's adorable
But obese....
My favorite autistic meme is the wut pear.
The weed tasted like a pine tree. I started hormones today. I wish I could pump myself full of female fluid like a cyborg and just had C cups already. :l
Once a millenia, GOHD molts and her entire body falls to the deep ocean. She swims to the shallows and attaches to what will soon grow into a coral reef. Soon, a sea garden begins to grow from the growing carcass. It doesn't decay, but it's life cycle dies and renews in new form. Twice the size of a redwood, the core dragon skeleton grows vertical like a redwood tree. Most of GOHD's rainbow tendrils swim away into other dimensions, but those that remains harden into translucent branches, like a willow tree beneath the waves.
And then GREAT HUMMINGBIRD OCTOPUS DRAGON re-emerges from the time rift that GREAT OCTOPUS HUMMINGBIRD DRAGON left when it went back in time to get a sex change and impregnate itself :l.
She demands blood sacrifice....
I'm not starting a cult, I'm founding a religion of warriors 1,000 years into the future.
>>6671769
Chara's chubby cheeks =P
>>6671757
i agree but this still hurts to read when im trying to lose weight
not even fat, just trying to lose some pudge
>>6671776
I want to poke and pull her cheeks.
>>6671761
>cute but dramatic
That's me lmao
Snufkin is philosophical
>>6671764
It's going pretty well. It turns out I'm a physically active nerd - hopefully guys are cool with that. The pictures are suffering from my hatred of cameras. I hardly have any pictures of me, so I need to take them. I should get one tomorrow, and then only be a few short of a good profile.
Congrats on the boy! I hope you two have a bunch of fun, and I'm sad you can't be here. The people in my city seem so morose - your energy would be a great improvement.
>>6671775
Okay.
Does anyone think Eyedea the rapper might have been trans?
Maybe Johnny Hobo though I don't know his story or what broke him, but he sounds very woman trapped in a man body type of angry.
>>6671795
Rap is for niggers tho
>tfw Kaylee wants to get chubby for you
Fuck I love cute chubby girls
I'm already the same weight as her and I'm 5 inches taller than her. Cardio bunny and chubby is cute!
>>6671782
I'm only philosophical when I can be
But I do like his calm, something you can identify yourself with
>>6671800
but will she be a big guy for you
>>6671779
She let me poke them
>>6671784
She sat across from me when we ate =)
>>6671800
YASS
chubby a best
>>6671785
I'm 24 Pre transition "lesbian" "girl". What do I do ;(
God kill me now... I have no idea why I'm bothering to transition I'll never pass it'll probably turn the envy from real to postal :(
>>6671817
she has really nice eyes
mine are so lame
>interview for design position at work tomorrow
>tfw nervous
i updated my resume and put a folder of my design work on my tablet and am gonna look cute/professional/cool
but still nervous
>>6671795
I'd be surprised.
>>6671828
Design position?
>>6671785
well i put that I was a nerd on my profile and ended up getting tons on messages so I don't think it'll be much of a obstacle for you guys seem to like that.
ty ty! I'm a bit nervous though z.z never been on a date before. I hope the pictures come out well! I used ones where I was all dolled up
What should I make for food? I don't wanna do more pizza
>>6671827
>tfw you have nice eyes but no one knows it because they're not light enough to be immediately noticeable
if i knew how to do makeup to draw attention to the green in my eyes that'd be cool
>>6671837
BBQ pizza!
>>6671837
A creamy risotto
>>6671828
have you told them you're a skeleton yet
>>6671837
Dick.
>>6671822
I'm not exactly an expert on your experiences, but in mine transition has been a huge help to my mental and emotional state.
It's going on 8 months HRT now, and I feel less exhausted and grim about just living. Life is a lot less muted, and it's so much easier for me to motivate myself to get out of my rut and do things. More, I'm relieved and pleased to feel and see my body become gradually closer to right. I get that it won't ever be perfect, but I'm not hung up on that.
Socially transitioning two months ago is a bit more of a mixed bag. It's taking getting used to for some people I already knew, and they keep holding fast to the expectations they had of me as a guy. But the world at large is just... accepting it? And being seen and treated as a woman isn't all joy, but it's much less awkward and full of ugliness than trying to fit in with men as a man was.
It may not be the answer for you, but I'd seriously advise if nothing else trying HRT to see if that improves your mental/emotional state. It does for many.
>watching star wars with mom after she asks to watch a movie with me
>she's constantly falling asleep and doesn't even luke skywalkers name by the end of the movie
why does she always do this
she'd be wide awake if this was "miracles from heaven"
>tfw you'll be a good housewife for Kaylee and bake cake for her, then tie her up and force feed it to her
>>6671828
Good luck! I'm sure you'll kill it!
>>6671837
Kimchi fried rice
>>6671850
Uuhhh skellie discrimination in the workplace is a serious issue
>>6671820
Hopefully Kaylee will have a nice little chubby belly
>>6671856
Unfortunately I don't have any of that right now!
>>6671849
That sounds kinda yummy
>>6671846
No!
>>6671868
YASS
chubby bellies a best
>>6671837
Pork chop with cream of mushroom soup over a bed of white rice
>>6671863
And we care, why?
I'm starting to get out of this depression and I can even see myself as a woman in the mirror now in boymode! I'm happy to finally be moving on with my fucking life!!!! Just ran in the woods and gardened (long overdue) and then I'm gonna nightride me bike and then tomorrow I'm hiking :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
FUCK YES!
>>6671865
i just get irritable when i think of my family :|
>>6671877
proud of you! go juniper go juniper! you're a cute girl!
>>6671869
Come get some.
>>6671888
I mean
Just how much dick are we talking about here
and how far do I gotta travel
>>6671884
I'm doing it Red! Imma catch up with you and then we can do satanic porn!
>>6671877
im jealous :)
it'll only get better!
>>6671835
Aww, thanks Korra! I'm going for "slightly augmented honesty" in mine. So I'll be wearing a little makeup for tomorrow's bike ride, and dressing in my better exercise stuff (gotta show off the butte), but skip doing anything too awesome.
Probably won't include any studio shots in this batch.
And as for the date? Just relax and get to know each-other around whatever activities you had planned. Take an active interest. It'll be great.
>>6671892
yes!
I'll make sure to wear a goat skull and feel you up~
>>6671877
That's really great :)
>>6671905
hey there <3
>>6671906
And we're gonna be showered in blood :P
>>6671879
Oh ;~;
Consider yourself adopted. You'll have a grown-up job/body builder mom, a self-employed cosplay artist mom, and a performance art/writing/shitty day job mom.
I wish I had a reason to get out more
I wanna go places and do things
I have literally nothing to do and nobody to do stuff with tho
i still can't seee myself as a girllll
>>6671926
come to cali
i have nobody to do anything with
i wanna go outside but like
well nobody to do it with...
eck
>>6671924
its like a dream come true <3
>>6671912
Hey again Red! I see that you and Kaylee have chosen to be sexy together in very different ways.
>>6671926
Sell everything you own, buy a camper, RV or conversion van and become a lot-lizard. Boom. Things to do.
>>6671897
>>6671911
Life is good my buddies :D
you know that protruding tummy thing thic girls have? i mean, all girls have it but it's more apparent on thicc girls.
I think i have that now
>>6671931
Makeup is your friend
I say this because you have easy potential. If you were fat or korra id just tell you to give up.
>>6671947
even with makeup i can't see myself as a girl
>>6671913
fuck im so hot for this
and when we're finished, you can hurt me!
>>6671935
>sexy together in very different ways
whattdya mean?
>>6671955
it's what happens when you become a real woman *blush*
>>6671859
I suppose Pre transition isn't true as of today that jist occurred to me. I've swallowed one 2mg estrogen pill I found on the sidewalk. I wish it was that easy, but I've been waiting for 6 months jumping hoops waiting for the socialist system to pay for me :l
>implying it costs them as much as the drug company wants implying I should need a therapist and endocrinologist
Idk why I fell for the "don't self med" meme. It's cuz I live with my awful parents...
Lamentful boy hell lasted too long. Ugh I just smoke weed and live like a house cat. Will start book never.
Who has the biggest boobs and who has the girliest voice?
>>6671957
You're going for different sexy looks.
How is hers coming along, anyway?
>>6671962
ash for both
>>6671943
oh my goodness lemme see bby <3
>>6671962
Faye and Ash?
>>6671955
that isn't with any makeup
at all
>>6671965
her sexy look?
uhhh...i suppose she's really cute when she doms me and calls me "diseased fagboy sissy slut"
>>6671970
My pt exactly. Spend 3 cents and a few bucks in shipping on a cosmetology textbook on amazon. Youre doing yourself a huge disservice imho by not gittin gud with the face paint
>>6671969
faye has mega milks can confirm
>>6671968
red thats inappropriate
>>6671960
Where are you jumping through those hoops?
As for self med, I'd advise it in any system that commonly employs excessive gatekeeping (or just wait lists - it's preposterous). Is there no way to get your drugs delivered to you safely?
>>6671980
She also has a voice like barry white so whats even the point
>tfw feeling super gross because gained 10 pounds...
>tfw not feeling like doing anything...
>tfw turning into a NEET piece of shit...
>tfw skipped docs appointments and electrolysis appointments...
Yay~~~
>>6671959
Idk what this thing is yr talking about?
>>6671931
I'd love to hang out with you desu
>>6671979
i try but it looks bad
>>6671969
I wanna see their chests and hear their voices
>>6671988
I wish I could afford electrolysis. That's why I'm boymode for another half a year most likely
Yall are all being weird tonight.
>tfw I'll never hang out with Isla and Grace
>>6672000
ur weird and also gay
>>6671975
How'd you wind up with such a sweet-talking lady, Red?
And I meant: "how far along is she toward her weight goal".
>>6671998
>boymode because of no electro
I mean we have the same color hair....
and I go girlmode in public all the time when not living with grandparents...
am I scaring people with my facial hair?
>>6671999
>you should hear her moaning ;^)
woof
>>6672003
Just a little gay desu
>>6671998
My chin hairs got super thinned out since I started electrolysis... but my appointments are so inconsistent. I've only had like 6 or 7 hours of it but my chin and neck are super thinned out now.
I'm going to work on my side burns next so I can get a good hairline going.
>>6672001
Lizzlizz let's hang outttt
>>6672004
oh, well, I'm going to start cooking for the both of us maybe and making her fatty things and maybe taking videos of me force feeding her lmao
1-10 voice rate time!
1 for male up to 10 for cis tier
Just record something short and make sure to rate other people's voices!
>>6671962
Faye has the biggest boobs AFAIK
>>6672015
https://clyp.it/oj3pfhfk
>>6672013
>wanting to be fat
baka
>>6672015
https://clyp.it/s50ugaoz
>>6672019
Good luck tomorrow!!
>>6671655
holy shit im sorry
>mom notices cuts on your arm where your shirt usually hides
>friend picks me up to drive around and talk for a little
>end up getting really personal and i end up telling him i feel like theres something between us being comfortable and i feel like i dont have any friends
>come home
>take pictures of myself
>remove everything feminine
>dress as boy like i should be doing
>cry silently in a ball on the floor for 10 minutes
i dont think i can get my hair changed. if people on the streets can't tell im a tranny yet i want to keep it that way. i hate my body so much. theres no hope at all.
>>6672019
WHAT ARE YOU SURGERYING
>>6672023
Not fat no
just chubby
i think chubby is cute
chubby with glasses.....
Ahhhhh its such a cute look
>>6672005
Did you ever have a beard as thick as mine though? Mine hasn't been fading much but nair and hrt helps more than I expected. Idk I just remember the transgirl in my hick town hs getting bullied for stubble even though she was beautiful.
>>6672009
How many hours at a time?
>>6671943
this sort of thing?
you can kind of vaguely see it
>>6672015
http://vocaroo.com/i/s05ZvmrsqXHb
s-sorry if I forgot anyone, just getting tired~
>>6672039
n-n-no.
I was a babyfaced twink
>>6672026
8 you have a really good voice!
>>6672023
There's a whole range of body fat %s between "skeleton" and "obese". Most girls will look their best at some point in that range, rather than the extremes.
>>6672035
I wish I or someone could help you Beep. You're one of the most passing girls here yet all you ever do is shit on yourself to the point of self harm.
>>6672045
And hi to you too!
>>6672015
butch voice
https://clyp.it/bn2e2tpl
attempt at raising pitch cut short by mom coming home
https://clyp.it/rj3vvsra
tfw eeesla
>>6672047
i feel more like its okay
goooooooodnight!!
>>6672035
Im sorry son but you are going to need to start sucking dick for money.
>>6672063
nighty night nimmi!
well now I'm sad. everyone please do your best and don't give up hope.
>>6671655
don't blame yourself, you didn't ask to be raped. blame those scumbag rapists who are garbage enough people to take advantage of someone in a vulnerable state.
>>6672055
yeah, so
you wanna try stuff with me?
>>6672061
Hi bestie~
>>6672035
That sounds like a hellish day.
But you should be aware that almost no one you encounter in your day to day life will even consider the possibility that the person they're dealing with is trans. Cis people outnumber us by a lot.
>>6672060
http://vocaroo.com/i/s0T2lUDHsg6A
>>6672069
>>6672077
Qt voice <3
>>6672050
i am a lost cause and an island that no one wants to go to. everyone around me knows how weak i am and there are so many other reminders all the time of how disgusting and hopeless my situation is.
>>6671655
it's not your fault. You should talk to a mental health professional. Rape is...something you need help to overcome
>>6672070
i like ya red, but i'm not really a physical person.
>>6672073
http://vocaroo.com/i/s1AEHhregrWZ <3
This is a terrifying life. I cannot tell the difference between reality and fiction sometimes. I can't tell if I'm just having panic attacks or if I'm actually allergic to estrogen.
I thought I'd feel calm but I feel like I just made it to the first false summit of the never ending mountain.
>>6672090
Just hanging out with my cats and watching anime, nerd stuff haha! How about you?:3
>>6672075
i walked across the street to deliver a pizza today and a mom had he child waiting next to her on the sidewalk while she was going through the car. he was staring at me the whole time. i felt so terrible that i was confusing this child and fucking up his perception so much. i almost vomited on the elevator up to my delivery.
>>6672082
You're not alone Beep.
>>6672096
Singing lessons when I was 10! Taught me all about pitch control~
>>6672065
>>6672035
You know one of the worst parts is that during it all my favorite watch fell off. Ive had it forever, it goes with everything, was very attached, despite it only costing 10 dollars. One of the guys picked it up and basically black mailed me into blowing him for it a few days later on some dark side street stoop late at night
Yes I sucked a fucking black dick for this watch. Thats how important it was to me.
>>6672093
Playing Starbound and freaking out about tomorrow. What anime are you watching?
>>6672077
no its okay
i was just joking.
sure though
isla is pronounced more like
eye luh
>>6672092
You're okay anon. Did you just begin HRT?
>tfw ur voice sounds completely awful
I need to practise and stuff ;~;
>>6672096
hey dw about it. i'm an asexual monogamist, it just doesn't really match up with what you're up to.
>>6672103
Aww don't stress out! Everything will be good if you have that positive mind set! :D
And it's called "7 deadly sins" on netflix, it's actually really good!
>>6672109
no it does not at all lmao
i think you're cute
>>6672101
i was a tenor!
I eat ass
>>6672107
11 hours ago. I haven't slept. It's daunting since I didn't even start transition other than strange autistic behavior like speaking in a girls voice walking a park in the woods :l. Featuring sessions of smoking so much weed I forget I'm high and think I'm having psychosis. I'm not suicidal, I just have a hard time in "reality". I escape a lot like right now. I'm hiding in 4chan.
>>6672097
How are you dear?
>>6672102
find him and beat the shit out of him. he'd be too afraid to tell anyone.
>>6672115
oh you do?
its pretty great!
>>6672092
Sounds like someones taking the plunge
Dont worry it becomes a complete non-issue in your life shortly after, given you arent a hulking beast. Then youre just fucked eternally.
>>6672102
You need to stop being focused on that moment. Things are different now and you need to build trust with yourself.
>>6672111
I'm just scared. I've never had surgery before.
I haven't heard of that. What's it about?
can you all tell me about your daily/extreme experiences? do people really treat us like garbage everywhere?
>>6672122
My face is gross now and got even more gross during the self loathing meme months of listening to parents tell me how much they're ashamed of my ideas to self medicate. Theyre abusive with their support and love. I need out and away from such ignorance. Aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh
>tfw literally can't stop thinking about unwashed uncut dick
>>6672129
I had surgery, and while yes it was scary the night before, once you wake up you will realize everything is all right. And the meds are pretty bomb too~ :P
>Plot
The Seven Deadly Sins were once an active group of knights in the region of Britannia (ブリタニア Buritania), who disbanded after they supposedly plotted to overthrow the Liones Kingdom (リオネス王国 Rionesu Ōkoku). Their supposed defeat came at the hands of the Holy Knights, but rumors continued to persist that they were still alive. Ten years later, the Holy Knights staged a coup d'état and captured the king, becoming the new, tyrannical rulers of the kingdom. The third princess, Elizabeth, then starts out on a journey to find the Seven Deadly Sins and enlist their help in taking back the kingdom.
The men are called horsemen and I'm no horsemen. If I were a horse I would throw up the reigns If I were you.
>>6672116
You are not having an allergic reaction to estrogen or HRT. You are just anxious I think. Do you experience any of the symptoms of an allergic reaction? If so, get medical help instead of posting about it here. But it just sounds like you're anxious and scared anon.
>>6672131
That's great! I am good, just sleepy since I h ave to be up at 6 for work x_x
>>6672130
Move to seattle! The sjw culture here is more chill than what I hear of other places but I don't go out much... It's less concentrated and more widespread I guess
>>6672137
Goshhhh that is so early >.<
>>6672130
i've never had anyone intentionally be mean to me
i've also never been clocked in public to my knowledge
the worst thing is usually getting stares though.
>got out of a mental hospital yesterday
>they wouldn't let me shave so i had facial and leg hair
>took a bus home
>people staring at me because i look like a girl but i have a fucking gay beard
>>6672136
theyre trolling and making fun of me.
>>6672145
Oh, I didn't realize, I'm sorry
>>6672142
>i've also never been clocked in public to my knowledge
>she actually believes this
Some of you are just so humble and in touch with your surroundings.
>>6672055
yeeee I got it too
>>6672118
>my 5 foot 7 hormone-addled body beating up a 6 foot+ tall jacked ghetto dude
In my fantasies yes there are aluminum bats and stuff but my realities are far lamer
>>6672125
I mean i dont walk around with a chip on my shoulder or incessant shame. It happened and it sucked but im alive and dont have an std. I just needed to vocalize it to strangers dehsu. I get feely about it in the wee hours, thats all.
>>6672132
Sux. Let them go. Its hard but in the grand scheme of things youll be met with greater rewards
>>6672134
I'm already on some great meds. So maybe I'll get more.
That sounds pretty cool. I'll have to watch that while I'm in the hospital.
>>6672147
>to my knowledge
READ
>>6672147
>humble and in touch
Those are traits reserved for those who devote at least 1/3 their lives to posting here of course
>>6672141
Well I am interning as a personal trainer and most people like to workout early haha, but tomorrow is leg day so hurray for building my booty!
>>6672149
hire bigger guys. pay well.
>>6672155
That is so cool :0
I hope you enjoy it :3
>>6672136
My public hair is itchy as fuck so is my ass but I solved the mystery already. It was actually a combination of 3 factors.
1) new weed strain (forgot about that)
2) borderline psychosis these days it's like static in my brain with quantum marbles slapping together and razorblades swarming around a pool of oil slick anxiety and self loathing boiling water.
3) lmao I biked all day and it chaffed and due to those other reasons I spiraled
It's weird I haven't had a panic attack in 3 months. And I never grew up having them, not that I recognized at least (I used to cut myself so I'll let the world decide how stable I am) I've always thought or lied to myself telling myself I was a rock.
I was before transition started and I recognized why my false ego never bothered me.
But I also never built a life. I'm terrified.
ADHD. I'll turn 19 when my body turns 30. Ugh now this is a tldr
>>6672151
Good! It will be over before you know it, and they give you medicine to relax before hand so you might feel goofy and loopy haha!
>>6672157
I want to be a personal trainer so maybe someday I can help all us girls out in the future!:D
Making kimchi fried rice with wild rice, tofu and corn lmao
>>6672156
I actually have a few guy friends i told in confidence who got really mad about it. They literally instantly called this scrappy degenerate first-class chiller dude who rides a bmx everywhere and apparently has his ear to ground to seek this dude out. This guy lives in basically the shitty part of town no one in my circle really knows what he looks like or anything just name and street. Truthfully i have no idea if anything panned out cause i moved kinda far from there like a day or two later *shrug* hes gotta live with himself not me. My friends are dumb and will gladly jump at any opportunity to fight someone but its nice they cared
>>6672163
You can do it Ash <3
reminder: real friends are better than mtfg
>>6672174
>>6672174
good luck with that lol
>>6672182
I would if I had any friends to go in it!
>>6672167
;_;
rip little fella
im sorry. i need to quit this site. if i come back please make me leave.
>>6672163
oh hey, i want to be a personal trainer too!
What does one look for to know if they would be passable?
I'm curious as to whether or not I could pass with flying colors.
>>6672167
I'm sad now
;__;
>>6672202
Ok, good luck on life and stuff Beep <3
>>6672204
More shit than i care to type. Google helps
>>6672202
add me on something so we can talk some time
>>6672230
Are we friends? :3
makeup is such a good confidence booster :3
>>6672233
umm Idk yet. Yr ok :)
Time will tell
>>6672244
ok :3
<3<3<3
>>6672252
Yes :)
gogurts4ever
:D
>>6672255
Nice! :) sent
>>6672243
you can put lipstick on a chimp....
>>6672255
c-can I add you? :3
>>6672264
I don't even particularly like Korra but fuck off and go kill yourself dude
is it worth plucking my whole face or is it just going to take hours and then come back in a couple days
>>6672277
Thats gonna suck. I remember plucking one once and it hurt
>>6672265
yes'm
;P
what's your favorite childhood movie?
Mine was the original Willy Wonka
>>6672297
a-added :3
>>6672318
scared the shit out of me when i was a kid
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QZ9JT1WOGjk
i miss beepbeep but i hope she can stay strong and stay away from this place if that's what she needs to do
>>6672318
either beetlejuice or big daddy
D E A D
same time EVERY night
>>6672343
it really is tho this time
>>6672338
They drag him, drag him, drag into black night
Dropped from the great height
It was strange
Constant blue
And the same ghost every night
>>6672383
would u?
>>6672370
i thought you didnt like blood stuff
and if you say you only like that pic because its cute thats a red flag
>>6672389
Is this more what you expected from me?
And I need some cute creepy killer pictures for posts like that.
>>6672399
huh? i love blood stuff
i guess i dont mean red flag in that sense i mean more as a warning sign or hmm.. gateway? stepping stone?
wheres ur trip
>>6672404
hmm yeah
I'm gonna come out to my parents today. Wish me luck!!
I've never opened up to them about anything/shown weakness before so as far as they are concerned I'm a normal cis boy who has never struggled in his life. I'm gonna come out with the depression, cutting and trans all at once. I practised in the shower last night and I had a mental breakdown so hopefully it's not too bad!
>>6672415
Trust me, I'm a degenerate but I'm too scared of pain and too much of a hypochondriac to have a blood fetish.
>>6672418
ah well
pain is nice
the other part i can perfectly understand, one reason why im less likely to actually do that kind of stuff irl
>>6672426
Bleeding pain isn't the kind of pain I'm interested in.
>>6672417
So they have no clue about any of that stuff.
Good luck it's probably going to be a really tough conversation even if they accept you
>>6672429
but other kinds...?
>tfw all these girls meeting up and being friends
>tfw no one to meet up with
;~~;
>>6672437
iktf
>>6672437
i would meet up with you kit
but then again i suck
>>6672438
tf did you do to only get a 1 day ban
id assume posting guro, but isnt that a 3 day ban?
>>6672442
i would like to meet up with most girls here but its like, more of a distance/logistics thing desu.
i have a blood fetish :333
How does it feel to know you guys are going to kill yourself in a couple years?
>>6672453
red can i make you wear diapers
>>6672453
you have an everything fetish
there is literally not a single fetish ive ever seen talked about that you havent immediately piped up about and been incredibly enthusiastic
>>6672455
kek
>>6672457
I've done a lot of serious thinking about my own mortality and have kinda decided that even if I were to only have a short time left on this Earth I should make the most of it
So it feels okay I guess.
>>6672435
Spanking for a start, interested in uhm, other stuff too
>>6672457
feelsgoodtbh
>>6672463
is it a problem that I'm enthusiastic about stuff?
>>6672437
where you at'
>>6672450
>implying i hate you
i dont hate you at all chijo i like you a lot !!!!! :3
>>6672473
p e r t h
e
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t
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>>6672464
its the worst honestly i would have to drive for over a day to leave my state
>>6672457
feels indifferent rn
>>6672477
wanna make me bleed?
>>6672457
i've been thinking that if I can't be completely stealth/kaylee leaves me by 30, I'll just kill myself
i might just get AIDS
>>6672484
if i ever go to straya i'll meet you
blogpost
>my mom yelled at me and I have sensory processing disorder so it physically hurts me and when I asked her if she could lower her voice she screamed at me and gave me a panic attack. I ran back to my room and slammed and locked the door because I didn't want to see her at all for the rest of the night
>I was sitting on my bed crying my eyes out and my girlfriend wouldn't even lift a finger to comfort me, she was literally just in the corner reading a book
>I ask her why she isn't doing anything and she says she "has emotional issues too and and it's really hard for me to show affection" but she can't even sit next to me and fucking console her fucking girlfriend just saying "you need to cry it out, get the emotions out"
>it's hard as hell with borderline personality disorder to believe my girlfriend actually loves me when she won't show me ANY affection, even in private. I'm sitting there crying my eyes out and she's just reading a book.
>it's fucking stressful because borderline personality disorder makes me need constant affection to believe someone actually likes me, but with her the most I can do is give her a pat on the should or maybe lay down on her lap when she's sitting on the couch, so sex, no hugging, no holding hands, no cuddling.
>it's like she treats me like I'm a stranger . is she even my fucking girlfriend anymore? what the fuck happened . when we were in the psych unit I'd sneak over to her room and we'd kiss and grope each other but now it's absolutely fucking nothing. what the fuck happened?
>>6672492
If you get AIDS, I'm jumping ship.
>>6672499
it won't matter if I can't be stealth by 30, if I can't get to grad school or (even worse) kaylee leaves me
i'll just let some guy poz me....
>>6672508
how about you go fucking kill yourself, literally all you do is bounce from place to place and steal everyone's drugs
>>6672484
I live in texas and i only have to drive 12 hours to escape. Where do you live, alaska?
Listen up qts.
I want a trap girlfriend.
But I didn't even have a normal girlfriend till now. So are you out of my league?
Is money helpful? I will make a lot once I finish my education. But most of you don't whore themselves so what's the best way to get one of you?
Do you like assertive guys or silent guys or ripped guys? Is long hair ok?
>>6672508
!!
>>6672515
perth in australia, one of the most isolated cities IIRC
>>6672496
yusss that would be rly nice i think you would like it here a lot red !!
>>6672513
irony?
>>6672526
Money helps as long as you have it now
>>6672526
wanna have me? I love assertive guys who can hurt me
>>6672534
you literally punched a hole in a wall because yume was friends with your internet crushes firlfriend and threated to kill her. you need to be put down like the rabid dog you are
>tfw people constantly look at me at the bar, but not a single person will say anything to me
I LOOK COMPLETELY NORMAL PRESENTING AS A MALE WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME
WHY ARE PEOPLE SO COLD
LITERALLY NOBODY HAS SAID A WORD TO ME
I WISH aww fuck lol somebody just talked to me
he was all right
>>6672497
maybe you should have stayed with red, she's easy and probably would have let you fuck her anytime
>>6672457
>hey anon how are you? what did you do last night?
>why, i was on the male to female tranny thread on 4chan posting
Look, if youre not considering transitioning (which you should) thats just gonna seem wierd dont you think?
>>6672550
thats because you arent a normie
this is what life is like
noticed, tolerate, but never desired
>>6672564
lol I'm pretty normie, at least in the general hipster crowd
>walk into bathroom
>sister's used tampons all over the floor ripped up by the dogs
>Just what I needed
>>6672497
>dating girls
that sucks lol
>>6672572
my dog used to do that with my moms tampons
whats worse is that she made me clean it up....
>>6672579
Bleh, it's nasty having to clean up stuff that involves other people
s bodily fluids
>>6672579
My mum's ex used to make me clean up rabbit shit without gloves or anything :(
>>6671504
5'11"
like 200 lbs last I checked
8.5 mens
lol
also why are so many transgirls short? are americans just shorties or what?
>>6672597
I'd rather be short than tall
>>6672597
>short
your reminder that female average height is 5'4
>>6671504
5'3.4"
39.7KG
like shoe size 4
no breasts yet so no bra size ;-;
>>6672604
well ok, much shorter than me
so many are like 5'5"~ and it's so weird
>>6672596
Ewww why weren't you allowed to use gloves or anything
>>6672608
He was a very fucked up person. We have a restraining order on him now after he attacked my mum.
If I seen him again I'd probably murder him.
>>6672610
idk, just like every American transgirl I've met say they are like 5'4" or something really small
>>6672602
always want what we cant have
youre at a good height though
okay I see everyone wants me to kill myself her. see you later
>come to /lgbt/
>see we're getting raided with gore
Ugh. So how's the thread going so far? I miss my girlfriend a whole lot. She's on the other side of the country on business and I don't like sleeping alone.
>pic unrelated
>>6672621
Yeah, I'm happy with my height
>>6672622
i don't want you to kill yourself...
>>6672622
IDEK who you are
>>6672625
i want my gf here too
just 17 days!
>>6672628
good
*pets*
>>6672628
*reeeeeees internally*
>>6672638
aaaaaaaa
>>6672639
what's the issue?
>>6672597
Woah, you are pretty heavy, is that like girl fat or boy fat??
>>6672641
yea I guess
>>6672642
>I'm happy with my height
I want this ;~~;
>>6672635
If I was high, this might not bother me as much as it is right now.
>>6672648
I'm just fat
I'm trying to lose weight ;~;
>>6671504
5'10"
155lb
10 US women's
36C
Being tall is gr8, haters gonna hate
>>6672641
Mado what do you look like irl?
>>6672642
good girl
>>6672658
teach more your secrets
Chara is cute
>>6671504
5'6"
150lbs, I'm a fat ass...
8 mens, 10 womens
36A
>>6672649
ah, im sorry
i hope you can embrace your height
>>6672661
Pet me moooooooooore
>>6672667
It's hard and I'm fairly certain I'm delusional because of it too
>>6672635
I know... I know my girlfriend has to do it because it's for her job and she makes the bulk of the cash in our household, but I really wish she could come home and hold me. Also, I know you probably don't remember me on account of I don't have the guts or confidence to trip (I probably couldn't handle the drama aspect of it anyways), but you're pretty cool and it was nice talking to you the other night. I was having a really hard time and my girlfriend was asleep and far away and just chit-chatting with someone pleasant really helped me out. Thanks! Please excuse the /k/, it's all I have on my new computer.
goodmorning lgbt
wow, so many of you are so short. i'm 5'11"
>>6672641
No, the board as a whole is getting raided.
>>6672667
all the headpats you could ever want and more
>>6672683
NAPPA, Kakarot's power level is...
IT'S OVER 9000
>>6672664
Has anyone talked to chara outside of the board?
>>6672686
I ask because your attitude is making me horny.
Can you post one of the cute pictures?
For research
>>6672702
Yeah, I get you. Sorry for the confusion.
>>6672662
Don't aim for petite and waifish, aim for something that works with your frame. Tall girls can be really attractive if they shoot for a look that compliments their height. I have really long legs and generally pick clothes that emphasize that.
>>6671504
5'10"
130
13.5 (Womens) :(
34 A :/
>>6672706
I think my legs are like 1m + is that long?
i find it really strange that i can down 8 or 9 drinks and not even feel that drunk
>>6672675
Aww I bet you're cute, at the very least a lot of potential :)
>>6672717
I really don't.
>>6672723
Aww what makes you say that?
>>6672725
So cuteeeee <3
>>6672725
Pretty cute <3
>if I wasn't banned I'd post from my PC
Clear cookies and reset your router I guess.
>>6672716
I've finished entire bottles of vodka in a night without getting drunk desu
but now that I'm on my new medication I have 3 drinks and feel like I've been tranquillised ;_;
only time I've ever been drunk was when I drank 2/3 of a bottle of vodka in about 5 minutes
although there was another time but I only felt drunk after I had a joint so idk if it really counts
>>6672726
I look like a freak : )
>>6672715
Longer than your torso, proportionally they're big. Idk I don't use a tape measure on my body, and desu you'd save yourself a lot of sanity if you didn't either, unless you're sizing clothes.
You have the body you were given, no sense obsessing over shit you can't change, or raw numbers that don't mean anything in the absence of the rest of a body. It's not like every cis girl is petite either, just gotta live with what you were given.
>>6672741
Prove it?
>>6672743
> and desu you'd save yourself a lot of sanity if you didn't either
yeah, I don't measure myself anymore because of it 3:
>>6672725
Thanks.
Would bang
>>6672736
i wish i could be with you :3 and get high with you....i get super affectionate when high
>>6672745
Nope : )
>>6672745
the people who know they dont actually look good dont post pictures
then theres the people who post tons of pics saying they dont look good when its obvious they do (isla, rawr, etc)
>>6672750
It doesn't?
Oh, well still, you look pretty cute : )
got back from visiting family and learned some shit, here is a pic of my grandpa, if he was alive still I would have been disowned
https://unsee.
cc/ripezaso/
>>6672768
1488
>>6672760
I really do feel ugly as sin most days tho people say very nice things a lot i always feel like im being hugboxed
>>6672768
okay I wasn't expecting that lol
>>6672768
lol
>>6672768
>>6672768
>tfw you're on the brink of going wild and destoying shit but you have to remind yourself that you're in public
People fucking suck
>>6672781
hey, i love you
let's kiss, baby <3
>>6672779
pretty ironic huh?
>>6672747
It's a good start, but you're still playing the numbers game. It's a game where the only winning move is not to play, especially when someone taller is simply going to be proportionally larger anyways, regardless of their body shape.
>>6672774
we all think were ugly because thats how we are on the inside
remember, your body and your mind dont always match up~
>>6672784
be a good girl
>>6672788
Yes they do lol they are both ugly
>>6672789
No hrt yet. I don't look good.
I want to be knotted.
>>6672799
we need kayla's grandpa to come back to life and take care of you degenerate dog fuckers
>>6672797
Ahh, I bet hrt will still be good to you and there's ffs if it isn't your size is so small though you'll probably end up passing relatively quickly on hrt :)
>>6672804
his spirit lives in me, maybe its why I hate myself so much for being trans, I was reincarnated to suffer being a degenerate
>>6672809
interesting theory
>all this teenage edgelord angst
>>6672811
yeah, i'm hexed by the jews
>>6672812
Craaaaawling iiiiiiin my skiiiiiin
>>6672799
i want to be knotted too
>>6672816
>tfw you were just playing that
It was ironic I swear
>>6672816
>these wounds they will not heal
sounds like srs
>>6672816
what is that guys name again?
>>6672796
You're a sub?
I always figured you for a dom...
>>6672824
pepe le pew
>>6672819
You crazy kids these days and your rock music
>>6672820
>srs
>not healing
It sure as fuck tries though until you ram those dilators in there
>>6672825
>doms in mtfg
>>6672828
>It sure as fuck tries though until you ram those dilators in there
so can you like explain the feeling of it all when it comes to dilating? Do you have to do it from like the first week on forever? Is it daily? Pain level at first???
>>6672828
you crazy old people and your doof doof musik
well
I fucked up a relationship and i feel like a retard
i can't do anything right
I'm sorry Cordy....
>>6672842
>tfw 25
Sucks being old, I seen some shit ya know?
>>6672837
Forever, 4 times daily to start, eventually back to once a week. Painful to start and when going up in dilator sizes, now it's pretty pain free, just kind of a nuisance.
>>6672858
>I seen some shit ya know?
yea, like 9/11
>>6672858
>Forever, 4 times daily to start, eventually back to once a week
yikes
>going up in dilator sizes
like whats the difference in size? nothing drastic right? like you don't start off with a pencil and end up with red bull can diameter? Is the pain sharp or tolerable?
>>6672855
i'm a huge masochist too.
im a financial masochist
i keep throwing quaters in the pinball machine
probably over 20 bux today
if kayla gets srs im killing myself
If anyone wants to add me on skype or anything my skype is: carol-the-great
:3
>>6672875
why?
>>6672883
envy, she thinks she is nothing to be jealous of but thats wrong
anyone else consider gettin pozed up by some random guy as something to do before offing themselves?
>>6672864
Sharp pain. The difference in size is considerable, like going up in diameter from a baby dill to a full size kosher pickle eventually.
Honestly, not the most painful part of srs, I found the pain from surgery pretty intense.
>>6672861
Yup, I remember that. Didn't know it at the time but it's pretty directly led to a good chunk of the sociopolitical climate worldwide for the past decade and a half, and likely will continue to have an impact for the rest of our lives. Shits fucked.
>being envious of me in any degree
LOL I am no one to be envious of, though tomorrow I am calling my insurance about seeing if Bowers will do my srs, i figure I could get srs then if its monstrously shitty labiaplasty would cost me my truck if I sold it and all would be right.
>>6672888
couldn't you get it too?
>>6672895
yeah I can't remember that
I was 3 ok
Good morning ^_^
>tfw birthday
how's everyone doing today?
any plans for the weekend ?
pleasant dreams ?
breakfast ideas ?
>>6672895
>Sharp pain. The difference in size is considerable, like going up in diameter from a baby dill to a full size kosher pickle eventually.
>Honestly, not the most painful part of srs, I found the pain from surgery pretty intense.
... I mean its not like the kind of pain you can't stand right? when did the pain go away more or less?
>>6672903
Happy birthday!
>how's everyone doing today?
Really bad before but I'm ok now I guess
>any plans for the weekend ?
try not to get sad
pleasant dreams ?
can't recall
breakfast ideas ?
eggs and bacon is always gud
>>6672903
I hate my life right now and the weed is no longer a good enough distraction.
I plan to sit in my room, alone, this weekend.
I haven't slept much the past few days... so... no dreams.
I'm not going to eat breakfast tomorrow... I don't like breakfast foods.
>>6672894
trip on red
>>6672903
Happy birthday! Are you planning on doing anything fun?
>>6672903
Happy birthday lily!
>any plans for the weekend ?
quit drinking soda
eat pizza
enjoy having the house all by myself ;^)
you?
>>6672903
happy birthday
i'm sad and tired and dysphoric, but i'll get by
>>6672858
What happens if you go in a coma or unconsious for a while?
Or when you become old and not physically able to do it?
I just swallowed my own cum
I got a work function party thing on tonight idk if i wanna go tho ;~~;
>>6672907
>... I mean its not like the kind of pain you can't stand right?
I was literally screaming when my painkillers wore off 24 hours post op, take that as you will.
>>6672919
Aww :(
*hugs*
Poor Red :C
>>6672924
Hi Kit, why don't you wanna go?
>>6672923
howd it taste
Welp, in 6 hours I start work again and come out as trans to my manager
Wew
I should be getting more sleep for this but bluh, it's just one meeting before I leave for Portland
>>6672903
Happy birthday!
>>6672909
thanks ^_^
>Really bad before but I'm ok now I guess
that's good, why bad before tho :/
>try not to get sad
I hope you succeed <3
>can't recall
shame
>eggs and bacon is always gud
good idea :3
>>6672910
>I hate my life right now and the weed is no longer a good enough distraction.
maybe therapy or a change in your daily life ?
maybe hiking for a week to clear your head and see a bit of the world ?
>I plan to sit in my room, alone, this weekend.
get out yoo
>I haven't slept much the past few days... so... no dreams.
but sleep is important
>I'm not going to eat breakfast tomorrow... I don't like breakfast foods.
I feel ya
most days I am not hungry in the morning but when I am I have no clue what could be breakfast ^^
>>6672912
thanks ^_^
gf's coming over
real fun stuff on weekend
>>6672914
ty :3
>weekend plans
sounds solid
>you?
grilling down at the danube
heading to my fav rock club
watching stuff
>>6672919
thank you :3
aww I hope that goes away soon <3
>>6672927
hi em !!!
umm idk, im nervous about it and stuff, also i would go in boy mode which i hate, even tho its kinda my life rn, also idk if ppl at my work like me so much anymore??
>>6672929
like cum
>>6672903
Have a happy birthday
>>>/gif/9020754
>tfw no gf
>>6672945
you wish
>>6672934
I was like really dysphoric and suicidal before was genuinely thinking of tossing out my HRT becauses I thought it was pointless to try
>>6672936
yeah boy mode sucks I wish I could go girlier but my present situation won't let that ;__;
>idk if ppl at my work like me so much anymore
Why would you think that?
>>6672921
Idk I assume you're fucked if you end up in a coma. As for being a geriatric, I don't think most would care about having a vagina when you're frail and asexual af, I know I wouldn't
>>6672939
A few hours later after they pumped me full of enough dilaudid and ativan to need a blood oxygen monitor. The worst pain was over in about 72 hours, and it was way better managed after they wrote me a script for dilaudid.
>>6672947
Because not everyone is lucky. I was also being switched from IM oxy to oral, and it didn't take, wound up with no pain management for a few hours.
>>6672948
>tfw gfs thought it'd be funny to leave me behind to die in cuckfornia...
They literally mention it every day.
>>6672963
nah it's all good
I just need to learn to not go insane at the sight of myself
>>6672958
>A few hours later after they pumped me full of enough dilaudid and ativan to need a blood oxygen monitor. The worst pain was over in about 72 hours, and it was way better managed after they wrote me a script for dilaudid.
this is sounding like a horror story, is this the usual for srs???
>>6672959
That sucks desu.
>>9020754
me and kaylee
>tfw I'll only ever be able to have sex in the dark because of my horrendous ugly body
>>6672972
just use low light, worked well for my first time
>>6672959
NOT EVERY DAY
and you know what, it's natural for people to be happy to be with each other
We want you involved too
And I really miss you
It's breaking both of our hearts
but who cares what I think, I'm just a retard
>>6672956
>there's just some bad stuff going on rn
Aww :(
Do you wanna talk about it?
>>6672967
Hit or miss. Some people get lucky for pain, in general I had pretty severe pain, others were worse off though. One girl I went through with had an issue with their epidural and woke up after surgery with absolutely no anaesthesia and no painkillers. That's more horror story material, mine was just bad luck.
odds sleep evens no
>>6672959
:0
*hugs*
Aww :(
>>6672983
Good night anon
>>6672983
rollin'
Odds get... please... I need sleep... but I can't sleep...
>>6672983
but i just woke up...
>>6672982
jesus.... well is your new organ worth it, be honest
I'm sick of tucking, sick of peeing, sick of showing, I haven't bathed in the light in 4 fucking years.
>>6672987
Goodnight /k/ordelia <3
Sleep well <3
If you feel down and wanna talk or anything you have my skype <3
>>6672987
get some rest....
think this over
>>6672991
>sick of peeing
girls still take a piss m8
>>6672999
pee with a pinched dick between your legs and get back to me on how painful it feels
>>6672991
Yes. My experience of SRS was that it was gruesome, exceptionally painful and in some ways kind of mentally scarring. I'm still glad I did it.
>>6673001
>pee with a pinched dick between your legs and get back to me on how painful it feels
kek why would you piss while tucked
>>6673003
>I'm still glad I did it.
and how is sex? its not like totally impossible with it right? Would it fuck up my dating pool or make it better?
>>6672999
Now THIS is autism
Made me laugh tho
>>6673006
>kek why would you piss while tucked
because I don't want to see or touch the fucking thing anymore, I literally wash it with bath gloves
did anyone on here have electrolyisis epilation? how is the pain level? my therapist said i should be sure i can take it because some break it off and get laser instead because of the pain. is it really that bad?
>>6673003
ouch, I'm pretty damned sensitive to pain so idk if I would want srs
>>6673013
Its pretty much like a searing pain and you can smell your skin burning, on the other hand it kills beard hair dead.
>>6673018
or does it depend on the fancy pants surgeon you got to go to? I mean you went to the Da Vinci of transginas, not many get that privilege.
>>6673017
how long are your sessions? is it hard to endure till the end?
>>6673007
Sex is more than possible, and in general I like sex a lot more than I used to. There was only a few things I could really do with my penis before, and some things could trigger pretty strong dysphoria. Now, no such worries are there, I can just have fun with my partner, it feels a lot more relaxed and the biggest thing is that it just feels natural now.
In general, your dating pool is likely to get bigger, guys generally don't like penises as much as vag.
>>6673016
Again, worth it, pain is temporary.
>>6673022
2 hours, its pure hell, I had to bite down on a roll of twine half way through, plus side is 9 more sessions to go, only if I could afford it rn.
>>6671504
xbox hueg
>insert too fat meme here
Ronald McDonald tier
404 Not found
>>6673021
>or does it depend on the fancy pants surgeon you got to go to?
partially
but also on what you provide
harder to build a proper vulva without scrotal tissue seeing how they are identical
>I mean you went to the Da Vinci of transginas, not many get that privilege.
you are privileged as fuck m8 so don't even go there
not to mention that US insurance covers suporn
>tfw no tall ftm bf
>>6673026
i'm so jealous ;_;
I don't want anyone near my tumor and that's all chasers want
ugh
How did the first time with a guy the right way feel?
>>6673026
perhaps but it's also a lot of money too, that's also a reason I might just decide to not get it
>>6673034
kayla check this out
>>6673029
oh god, that sounds awful. have you tried taking ibuprofen or something a couple hours before?
>>6673031
which us insurance covers him? Mines use some doctor in arizona
>>6673031
>not to mention that US insurance covers suporn
we will see tomorrow and if I get a print out saying they don't then you can go f yourself
>>6673031
>not to mention that US insurance covers suporn
What insurance covers him?
Kayla its too late for your insane bullshit.
>>6673039
>>6673041
not sure a few threads back some trip shut down kayla's "muh unobtainable surgery" rant with her srs covered by insurance
>>6673040
>we will see tomorrow
good luck
>and if I get a print out saying they don't
why would they print it out ?
>you can go fuck yourself
nah dilation isn't due till sunday
>>6673038
>ibuprofen
ahahahaha
you are talking to someone who took Vicodin for years, nothing gives me relief unless its an opiate and I can't get that prescribed from a electrolysis tech
Though each burn means another hair that will never be on my face so I just sit there and deal with it looking at the bigger picture. Will power nigga.
>>6673047
hmm ill look into it on google, thanks tho, i didnt even know it was a possibility
i'm a diseased gutter whore lmao
>>6673034
Painful. When I said srs was scarring, this is mostly what I'm referring too. Because I had such a bad run with the pain I ended up associating that area with it, and during sex I would clench and tense up, I just couldn't relax. It took some time to be able to actually relax during sex and fully enjoy it, before then it just hurt.
>>6673047
State insurance covers it, but state insurance now makes you go though a separate company and its the companies decision where you can go even if they approve it.
>>6673052
Whyd Kaylee choose you over Kordelia anyway
>>6673053
your making it sound worse and worse
does it at least feel better now? how long ago have you had it done?
thanks for talking to me btw, i'm not a good person
>>6673059
i met kaylee months before she met Kordelia
>>6673056
well if you had a therapis you could have him send a letter saying something like "I recommend X surgeon due to the special needs of my client which is the reasony why other surgeons might be insufficient as treatment "
>>6673059
and she didn't "choose over" anyone
>>6673061
well alright then
>>6673065
I mean it sounds like she did
>>6673062
I stopped going to therapy, I guess i need to make that appointment tomorrow. Then go in full girl mode and basically lay my fucking heart on the line, will that do? Last time I mentioned self surgery I got an orchi but that was with a urologist.
>>6673075
literally just be hones for once
be honest what you want and why
>>6673071
I mean, I'm paying for a roof over her head, a place for kaylee to have a home after technically being homeless for a year
i just want to care for her, and HERE'S THE IMPORTANT PART: me and kaylee are planning on somehow getting cordy her own place too
>>6673078
Can you get me my own place too?
>>6673082
ummm i don't really know you
im sure you're nice and all, but I have a limited amount of money
Who /nightterrors/ here?
Same time every night
>>6673077
but I feel like being honest makes me creep them out, I keep feeling like a worthless freak for wanting to be a girl and I am sick of trying to explain it to everyone
>>6673084
Are you some what rich or something?
>>6673049
Get the prescription from your doc. You can also use topical pain killers.
>>6673086
jolting out of bed in a cold sweat? I have those
>>6673090
I have inherited a substantial amount of money from my grandmothers death and got a lot from my dad's life insurance due to his death
>>6673091
No one wants to give out anything like Vicodin or Norco anymore.
>>6673093
Not trying to sound mean but this explains so much.
>>6673088
well if you are truly what you claim to be there shouldn't be a problem with honesty
How is everyone tonight? =)
>>6673060
Idk, I'm just trying to give a fair appraisal for the process. Srs can be a pretty smooth process for some people, for others it can be pretty testing. In the end, difficulties aside it was well worthwhile, and I wouldn't have a second thought if I had to go back and do it again.
I had my surgery in June 2013, it took me about a year to be able to enjoy sex, and this will probably sound depressing but I don't think I actually had sex that I would consider amazing until within the past year. Nowadays I don't have that problem at all, pretty much back to baseline on my sex drive too. There were a lot of other life factors that contributed to the lack of quality sex during that time, I'm not actually sure how much of it was the srs.
>>6673092
>On the same level of mental health as kayla
>>6673093
can we have a rule to not talk about out finances here? no wonder you jet set across the country parting, makes me want to dry heave
>>6673106
Well we all know why you wouldnt want to discuss finances, richie rich.
>>6673106
anon asked about it
also, it's not all fun and games when the money reminds you that you lost your father when you were just a toddler
most of it is saved up in a bank account and I don't spend it, except for gifts/caring for others
>>6673097
Well I mean,
it's not like I don't work too
Last summer I worked a shitty IT job and earned my own money
>>6673112
well it can be hard
but if you wanna lose it grow a pair
>>6673118
And then have that pair surgically removed.
>>6673119
Meh It's not like I already didn't know it
>>6673118
I guess, I need to swallow my silly pride and do it, i'm my biggest enemy of progress.
>>6673114
>it's not all fun and games when the money reminds you that you lost your father when you were just a toddler
I saw my dad get arrested as a toddler and he wasn't in my life for 17 years so yeah I know pain, my mom didn't even get child support so you know what I am over talking about finances with a trust fund playgirl like you. Jesus how do you live with yourself, maybe you should have invested that money into a fund so other dying fathers can get help.
Hi everyone~
Are there some things i should avoid eating because of spiro or E?
Also did you gain weight during the hrt? And how much, if i may ask?
I went to /d/ because someone in another thread here told me I could find pictures relevant to a kink of mine there. The first things I saw were a thread about girls with detachable heads (not decapitation, like they can take them off and put them back on), a thread about something called "fannypacking" where a girl rides around on a dude's dick while he walks around and does his thing, and a thread full of cyclops porn. Do they actually get off to that stuff? And I thought my interest in puppy play was weird...
>pic unrelated
>>6673122
Lily didn't say you had to grow a pair of testicles. Obviously she was implying that you should grow a pair of ovaries.
>>6673130
i get off to bouncing on dicks so to each their own
>>6673126
>Jesus how do you live with yourself
speaking from experience
probably quite well and enlightened by seeing different parts of the world and their culture
>>6673135
Not like bouncing on dicks, but like sitting with the dick in you and just sitting quietly on there while the dude walks around and does his normal thing. It was weird. There seemed to be a lot of overlap between them and amputee fetishists.
>>6673136
Yeah, meanwhile people like me and a whole lot of others are killing themselves because we don't have a dime to rub together. I mean bringing up wealth online is a dick move and does nothing but makes the person doing it look like a spoiled tool shitting on everyone.
>>6673139
Werent you just talking earlier today about hwo you went out and bought a bunch of expensive shit? Yeah you were so dont bother answering. Crazy cunt.
>>6673141
I thought everyone had a new Galaxy 6? I never had a decent smartphone so I mean its not like that makes me a bad person.
>>6673139
you are able to afford a roof over your head, orchy, expensive sound equipment, a new keyboard, university in murrica (with constantly changing from engineering to physics to history), piercings,constant delivery food, a car, and a new galaxy 6
so don't even try and act like money is an issue or as big of an issue as you claim
I didn't say you didn't know the pain, I'm sorry if I came off that way. Please forgive me.
> trust fund playgirl
that really isn't me
>how do you live with yourself
pretty well and frugal, I figured out a budget. I indulged in some travelling after getting my BA
> invested that money into a fund so other dying fathers can get help.
I mean, I'd prefer to do charity with my own income or gifts, which I have to the SPCA and heifer international
I think I'll disengage from this conversation due to sensing aggression.
>>6673144
At least Red acknowledges she has money as even says some of it is in savings. All you ever do is pretend your homeless or some shit while living in a gated community in California while posting pics of you sitting outside by your fucking pool all on your rich Moms dime.
>>6673144
>>6673141
>>6673139
This argument is pointless and none of you will get anything positive out of it. Yall are just going to hurt each others' feelings, and then say your feelings aren't hurt, and then cry in bed tonight. At least that's what I did the last time I got into a dumb argument on here. But what I mean is this is dumb.
>>6673153
Sounds like you're just a pansy.
>>6673154
I like to think of myself as more of a violet, but yeah, I am.
>>6673153
true, and with that I will call it a night, I don't want anamosity between anyone and all finances do is upset everyone, but to be clear a hell of a lot of people need cash to transition so yeah mentioning inheritances is a dick move on anyone's part because its just like a lotto win, totally undeserved
>>6673157
Real Kayla translation:
"None of you deserve anything and I deserve everything."
i mean, the thing is that I really don't try to spend much on myself. my only wealthy luxuries is the occasional visit to hoity toity vegan restaurants, a nice phone, and skin care products. I enjoy spending the money that I have both inherited and earned from my own work on others like Kaylee, Cordy, Dana, Kari and other people I enjoy my time with. I'm providing a roof over the head of the love of my life, and I think that's the best way I could spend this money. That's my favorite way to spend my money.
The only reason i mentioned finances at all is because someone asked me about it, and I like to be honest with people. I'm sorry if I offended you in anyway, I have my own problems that we share, I just came here to make friends and spread posi vibes
I promise to never mention that stuff again, as now I know it is a sensitive topic
couldn't resist
sry
>>6673164
Its just Kayla. She does this to everyone.
>>6673164
Don't listen to the bullies Red :(
You are a very sweet, kind girl <3
Ignore haters <3
>dreaming
>someone calls me sir and then corrects to Ma'am
>wake up, sad because I got clocked
>realize it was a dream
>>6673164
>>6673164
I'm relatively poor and you in no way offended me
>>6672696
huh?
>>6673177
subs conforms
>>6673168
i think we all can be sensitive
sometimes i can be a jerk, but in my heart, I post here to spread love
>>6673173
thanks babe
>>6673177
i mean, hopefully if I get a good job or if I save up enough for SRS, which besides rent, is the only major purchase I plan on making so far in the next 10 years besides travel
>>6673175
i could REALLY use some headpats rn
I'm scared and sad for kaylee....
man i hate my personality disorder
i shouldn't let a dude suck my girltinkler if he gives me a bunch of free drugs (i did not know he wanted to suck my girltinkler when he gave me the free drugs :( )
i just need to remember that if he tries to give me free drugs again
cum
>>6673191
I wish I could be a positive person like you Red. I dont like you a lot of times but you genuinely seem to be a nice person and wear your heart on your sleeve.
In fact you scare me some because you're just the polar opposite of my personality. I feel like if we ever hung out it would be one of the better nights of my life though.
i'm borrred somebody talk to me
>>6673198
sex for drugs is bad
I did it before and I really fucked up
He was my dealer and we did it with consent but I still felt bad for taking the free drugs "as a
>>6673202
i'm hurt and have lots of problems, but i would like to be happy with you
thats the best I can do
find happiness with others, spread the love.
>>6673202
that position looks so uncomfortable, hardwoods floors are not comfy
how do i make my gf not hurt herself and self harm
im supposed to be the one that hurts.
>>6673210
ehh its ok though im in control
i was videogaming with chara while he was doing it so i was able to just space out and ignore it pretty well ^^
how much estrogen do you guys get in your injections, my doctors upping me to 7.5mg every 2 weeks and idk if thats a lot
>>6673210
The funny part is that you and I live about an hour apart. If I wasnt a depressed loser and ever got out of the house and did anything we'd probably end up running into each other at a vegan restaurant or some shit.
>>6673229
sure! ^^
i don't have overwatch yet though
what would you like to play?
Now I know why people do this.
>>6673191
<3
You are so nice Red <3
I wanna meet you IRL one day <3
>>6673233
aw :(
<3
>>6673233
spill red wine on a paper tissue?
>>6673229
oh :( well shit i guess ill talk to my endo on the 17th
>>6673224
Mom?
what is the best asmr?
>>6673233
Nice chicken scratch lmao
Srsly tho cutting is da bes
>>6673233
Why?
I got a bunch of likes on a selfie this morning and tonight I wanted to cut for the first time in my life
>>6673252
>That
>Cutting
Lmao
>>6673252
trip on amy
>need to brush out my hair cuz it tangles easily
>cant do it with headphones on cuz they get caught up in all the hair
>cant listen to music now andd have to do it in silence
This isnt fun :(
>>6673242
>>6673257
What about cutting/getting cut in a sexual sense?
Either way, don't knock it till ya try it.
>>6673254
: ) <3
Who here /needffstobehappy/?
>>6673264
i like that a lot, but doing it out of self hate and unsupervised is not a good idea
>>6673263
Go get some sleep. Everything is gonna be okay. <3
>>6673268
Not red, she is beautiful and should stop making silly faces when taking pictures.
>>6673268
me, surgery is in 4 weeks with spiegal
>>6673270
Yeah but if that really was Amy who gives a fuck?
>tfwywn makeout with your punk goth gf crush who is 15 years older than you at the bar in front of everyone
>>6673277
Thank you <3
cuddles for chara
>>6673246
help please make me sleep easy
>>6673284
>I still want to be friends with her
Didn't she do something horrible to you? Either way, she's disgusting, inside and out.
>>6673288
i forgave her....
i just want to be nice
>>6673291
You don't have to be friends with everyone out of obligation. That's how you end up with shitty friends.
>>6673284
Thanks babe. We should smile more in pics
>>6673291
whatd she do to you?
>>6673292
well...
I guess maybe I forgave out of being nice AND wanting her to still want me and think im attractive
i was going to visit her in october, but now she has a gf and doesn't want to be friends....
>>6673294
i told her something personal, and asked her to keep it secret but she dropped me and posted that personal info here
>>6673296
yea tell her to fuck off, clearly betrayed your trust, you gotta learn to say no sometimes.
>>6673296
So she throws you aside as soon as she finds someone else?
Really good friend material
>>6673308
Shoot...
Calm Red, calm...
Do you wanna talk about how you feel?
mfw eating oreos to feel better
>>6673317
You're not. You're honestly not only one of the cutest, but also the nicest poster on this whole board. I already hated Amy, but damn.
>>6673317
i mean, i wouldn't cuddle much less fuck anyone with herpes AND chlamydia
double stds, good job!
>>6673323
Fuck is wrong with you?
Kill yourself. Not even kidding.
>>6673321
at least its helping.
>>6673331
still, it sucks you feel low :c
>>6673323
Idk if this is amy
But you should REALLY get yourself tested
Someone you fucked may have HIV
>>6673335
Yeah, I do.
I don't mean to criticize you by that, just be careful who you get close to <3
You are a very nice and kind girl and your posts kinda make me smile and be less depressed when I feel down. Don't listen to haters or bullies <3
AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH