mtfg: girl general

>>6643413

>tfw wake up next to my bf
>tfw i turn over trying to go back to sleep
>tfw he snuggles and cuddles me

Omg i finally decided to try crossdressing for the first fucking time, im literally shaking so much and i can barely stand straight. I looked in the mirror and I can really see a girl. Im so fucking happy somebody hold me

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>>6643420
>tfw wake up next to my bf
>rub the sleep out of my eyes
>realize I don't have a bf
>cry

>>6643421

Post pictures, make a trip, celebrate. Pretty much the thing around here.

i want to be friends with everyone

>>6643420
I'm so jealous that it hurts

>>6643421
Better get on HRT right away then.

>>6643348
Read a bit of stuff and apparently i need to go to a doctor which will send some paper to other place where i can talk to some people and see if i'm really a trans or not.
Also this shit takes fucking forever.
and if i'm unsure about my identity (which i am, because of apathy) the thing can go to pause so identity might get clearer.

Along with a lot of other shit, ugh. I wish that my apathy wouldn't be here and stop be from feeling like a girl, even now i start feeling like nothing and thus i don't know for sure if i'm a trans even when i had dysphoria and still have.
Right now i don't know if i'm a trans or not, what if i just want to look and sound like a girl and i'm not really a girl, but something between or having no gender, but feeling that i need to look like a girl?
Or what if i'm doing this just so i can wear girly clothes that make me feel free and who i really am?
What do i do ;-;

>>6643421
Yeah it feel good until you compare your pics with a cis woman
>>6643423
This is how you end up on the tier list.

>>6643426
I mean, so what if you want to look and sound like a girl but you're not 'really' a girl, would that change whether you wanted to transition or not?

About the clothing, I mean, you can wear whatever you want right now without hormones; does doing that make you feel free and like who you really are?

>>6643430

Last tier list made was in April I think? I think someone needs to update it.

what are some mangas about hugging boys and being protected and happy?

>>6643434
>would that change whether you wanted to transition or not?
No, i still want to transition.
>does doing that make you feel free and like who you really are?
yes it does.

>>6643443
agreed. kayla needs to be in top tier now.

>>6643450

I hope that's a joke. From what I've seen, she's no different than a drag queen since most of her pictures are super angled, fucked up lightning and make up caked on almost as bad as edie.

My AAs shipped today, I am sooo fucking excited!!! They say they guarantee shipping to take no longer than 15 days but I'm form America so it probably won't take that long. I'm hoping they get here by next week

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>>6643443
There was one made recently. I remember reeeeeeing about my placement recently.
>>6643454
Sass and merc have had pics on here at some point iirc.

>>6643454
nim?

ok, so I took my dog to the vet and he's doing a lot better.
god I'm so relieved...

>>6643454
no, you posted a pic at one point. So did Sass.

>>6643447
So what does this mean?

Do you >>6643469 have any thoughts ;-;

I really hope that your doggo is ok.

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I look cute in glasses

>>6643454
Me, I haven't posted any pictures at all aside from one showing a bit of my hair.

>>6643463
Hope they work out well for you! Did you decide to go with spiro or cypro?

>>6643454
I really wish I'd know how Syndie looks but I'm fine waiting until she's comfortable enough for that.

>>6643487
Even you don't know? Wow. She must look really good because she was a model right?

>>6643474
Every day you look more like a man. You should have stayed 17.

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Do I pass familia?

>>6643493
yes

>>6643493
fuck off cis scum

I don't post here often but I kind of need help. I'm about a half hour from seeing a walk in that I've heard can get me a hormone prescription and act as a temporary GP while I navigate the bullshit of my local trans health system. (usually an 18mo wait just to see someone who can prescribe mones.) umm, I'm scared. I've been too scared to do something like this for the last three years. I don't know how to manage the anxiety I'm feeling but I need to be able to breath when I walk into this meeting. How do I do it?

>>6643502

Tape your asshole just incase you get the shits. Other than that, just relax. Practice breathing and try to clear your thoughts.

>>6643502
Just go and do it. You're only sabotaging yourself the longer you wait.

>>6643502
>tfw you see all the hons in the waiting room and nope the fuck out of there

>>6643509
I've never had a problem with sitting myself...?

>>6643502
Try focusing on how the anxiety is affecting you

>>6643502
Write down anything you think you might freeze up too much to be able to say.

>>6643490
Absolutely no idea, and it doesn't really matter when it comes to my feelings for her. All I know is that all she went through caused a lot of damage and that she has a hard time with how masculine her body became...

>>6643473
I don't think I would want to transition if all I could do is change what I wore.

To be honest, I think I would just kill myself.

Because (I'm not sure if you know this already or not, but) my condition for existing is taking hormones that make me feel comfortable both immediately and in the long run.

I spent a week in a mental hospital because, after going under anesthesia to get my wisdom teeth taken out, I called 7 different endocrinologists only to get turned down by all of them and cried my fucking eyes out. I posted depressing shit on facebook for about 3 hours, and by the time the high wore off, I ended up posting what a lot of people thought was a suicide note.
It didn't feel like that at the time, but hell, I was pretty tempted by that bottle of meds on my desk every day for the next 3 or 4 days. My mom ended up confronting me about it, I smashed a leg off a fucking chair out of frustration, anxiety, depression and dysphoria, and my mom called a suicide hotline.
That was a long night of waiting. I think I got to the place at 3 AM, after showing up at the ER at 8 PM.
>I was just so tired of feeling dead inside. I knew there was something alive, but I was tired of pushing it down.
When I got out, I was on antidepressants and basically on suicide watch. I dropped my most intense class in college and just tried to push until April 1st, when I could call Mazzoni for a new-patient appointment.
After that, I tried to push through April, when I started tripping here, and May, when I had more than a few mental breakdowns and ended up crying to a few people here. They're still my friends today.
Started spiro june 3rd, got a job a week later, started estrogen june 29th, and now I'm here a month later, being called a worthless faggot by some prick.
Being a girl is a state of acceptance. You can't just force it. You learn to embrace it.
Estrogen helps, and I'd recommend it to anyone who was ever happier feeling like a girl than feeling like a boy.

>>6643481
spiro because it's the american standard and it's the only thing i've ever heard my trans friends/trans people i follow on youtube using. I never even heard of cypro until I started browsing here

>>6643528
Honestly, I've used both and the quality of life I had on cypro was vastly superior in spite of the scary, unfounded reputation that drug has.

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What's the deal with face piercings?
Are the 90's back or what?

>>6643473
I'm not sure if I answered your question or not.

My dog's doing a little better, but he's still limping around. He ate a bunch of grass earlier, so I'm expecting him to puke too.

>>6643528

Cypro is banned FDA for USA. Also it's not used for some people because it destroys their liver, when they already have pre existing conditions.

>>6643510
That's why I'm doing it right now, I'm going to be late for work but I need to get this done.

>>6643513
Jokes on them I guess because I have an OK face and an ounce of common sense.

>>6643510
Yeah I guess I see where you're coming from. I just need to maintain control of my biology. I'm not in any real danger after all.

>>6643469
What! You know who I am?

>>6643531
I'm curious to hear what you mean by quality of life. How did each make you feel and such?

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>>6643532
Tbqh I kinda like them

I thought 90's revival was more like 2011

>>6643541
who the fuck are you? :^)

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>tfw your voice is sore from practicing your voice so much
I WILL POWER THROUGH IT

I MUST SOUND LIKE A WOMAN

>>6643536
liver disorders run in my family, so that makes me think i should steer clear of it.

I do remember seeing it posted on here that to choose your AA, you should decide which you want more: liver damage or kidney damage

>>6643546
take it easy
you have months to get this right
that's like 58 days minimum
if not more

>>6643546
don't damage your vocal chords! rest or you could have perma-manvoice

>>6643546
like a woman?

>>6643542
I had no significant side-effects on cypro and my blood checks showed both liver and kidney function were near optimal.
Spiro, on the other hand... Having to hydrate constantly, with the bathroom time that implies, plus nearly ending up at the ER because of severe dehydration after drinking too much alcohol... That was nasty.

>>6643555
Do you still take it now that you've had SRS?

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>>6643413
i'm getting the lewds lately and have to masturbate a lot. After not doing that for almost a year i'm having erections again, even though my levels should be fine ._.

should i just withstand that and hope that they will stop again? I wouldn't mind having some kind of libido, 'IT' getting hard is the problem :(

any advice? prease

>>6643527
>I'd recommend it to anyone who was ever happier feeling like a girl than feeling like a boy.

Well i do feel like i'm more of a girl than a boy and i really even when my apathy wants to deny my feelings and thoughts, want to look, sound, dress and act like a girl.
My problem with it is my apathy and that i'm kinda scared what others might think.

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>tfw cops getting slaughtered everywhere
revolution soon!

>>6643549

Spiro is probably the safest all around. It takes way too much potassium for you to feel any negative hyperkalemic symptoms. Kidney damage is hard to get if you stay hydrated.

Honestly I think spiro sux is more of a meme at this point, I don't remember that shit years ago on boards.

>>6643562
lol

>>6643535
kinda and kinda not.
Can you pet him, because i can't.

68in tall and pretty overweight due to years of mental sickness and stress eating

What would it be like if I started transitioning while on a strict diet/exercise regimen? Would it have any effects (positive or negative) or would it just be the same as all other trans girls?

I was thinking that some brosciency stuff could happen. I have moobs right now for example; would that really matter at all when I start HRT, or would it all disappear before any real breast growth? Same with the other parts of my body.

>>6643545
OMG! I literally can't even with you !

I mean I basically -b u i l t- this site from the ground up with Moot!

I give you guys daily fresh OC, funny cringe greentext, I dazzle you with dank memes and I always know when to use stale copypasta and somehow this is not enough for you.

The worst thing is like everybody is literally saying, who the fuck is Sass!

Porfavor su vote is muy importante
http://www.strawpoll.me/10446676

>>6643552
but im so close ;-;

>tfw going to college
>tfw too dumb for college

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>tfw people referenced Sass when she wasn't present

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>>6643582

>tfw too dumb for college
>tfw nigger

>>6643561
Where this time?

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>>6643483
I mean the tier lists I've seen have always been the worst pic.
>>6643493
Reee you make the jaw work
>>6643582
Me in a month desu

>>6643578
If your voice is starting to hurt you should take a break. You'll get there though, don't worry!

>>6643572
It's better to start thin but it won't really be too much of a problem provided you lose the weight in a year because fat redistribution takes a while anyway.
>>6643587
What are you studying?

>>6643557
My T level is as low now without as it was with it so no need at all.

>>6643587

>I mean the tier lists I've seen have always been the worst pic.

You can't be that bad, though I don't know what you look like.

http://www.strawpoll.me/10866943

http://www.strawpoll.me/10866943

http://www.strawpoll.me/10866943

http://www.strawpoll.me/10866943

>>6643582
I thought you invented stuff?

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>tfw sass doesn't understand becaise the post was deleted. >>6643454

Disappointment can't even begin to explain my feels.

Can anyone clue me in as to what the belwted reference post said?

>>6643582
>tfw getting rejected from princeton hurt
>after a semester of college realize i wouldn't have been cut out for it anyway

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hey guys, so i fucked a tranny yesterday:

>extremely nervous all day
>drive to the train station to pick her up
>after a few minutes we spot each other
>drive to my house
>go inside and sit on the couch
>drink a beer
>tranny is drunk after 1 beer because asian
>she sits on my lap and we cuddle
>she says its more comfy to cuddle without my pants on
>take off pants and continue cuddling
>boner pressing into her back
>she jacks off my dick
>we make out
>she sucks my dick
>take off clothes and go upstairs
>she sits on her knees to suck my dick
>lay down on bed and cuddle
>she wants me to suckle on her nipples
>suckle them like a baby
>want to fuck her
>she says no because my dick is too thick for her ass
>insist, she gives in
>put on condom and lube her ass
>she rides me
>change position and i fuck her from behind
>cum
>rest and kiss for a bit
>dress up
>go downstairs and sit on the couch and cuddle some more
>drive her to the train station
>in the car she says she doesnt believe that this is only my 2nd time
>say goodbye, hug and kiss
>we say we will stay in touch

>>6643559
the biggest point is that you'll be happier. People generally either don't give a shit or start to notice you more positively if you slowly become an overall less gloomy person. If you know who your friends are and who's going to be honest with you, nobody else's opinions matter.

>>6643578
then rest and go at it again tomorrow. It'll be easier then than it is now.

>>6643599
>tfw no young, hot Medivh boyfriend

>>6643518
Like in the appointment or just as a way to control it?

I AM VERY HAPPY RN
VERRRRRY HAPPY
V E R Y H A P P Y

:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

>>6643599

Wow I'm only one with a bf here?

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Why are all songs sang by girls about love and glitter and tight jeans and men? Jesus christ its too much. Where are the women singing about war, death, corruption, or flat out brutality?

....or i guess repression could have ruined my tastes in music

>>6643609
was she cute

what kind of Asian

>>6643600
Filing patents doesn't make you a genius. Perhaps there was no need for the device previously, not that it was hard to conceive of.
>>6643607
>applying to Princeton
How do you even afford that?

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>tfw cute

>>6643592
I have no idea desu. I'm leaning towards English.
>>6643597
I am that bad.

>>6643609
can I be next? my asshole is willing

>>6643622
>dem shoulders
>dem brows

still cute

>>6643600
Also I said I was going to file it, I might not even be successful.

>>6643622
eyebrows clock u

nose needs work

but you are p cute still.

>>6643625

Sorry no dirt bike drag queens allowed.

>>6643623
I was awful at that at school, I got a D the first time then I studied hard for a year, retook and got a C. I'm very proud of my achievement. Still hate the subject though. Can't imagine doing a degree in it, you must be some supergenius.

>>6643474
yes you do :)

Extreme hugboxing

>>6643610
Mm true I do think that I really would be happier and more free if I would look and sound like a girl and be seen as such or at least called one.
I want to be more comfortable with my body and I need hrt for that, but it pains that im not sure about my gender.

Any vietnamese mtf pictures/timelines? Kind of curious how I would turn out

>>6643618
Out of the people who voted at least.
I know Phienchen has a bf, but idk who else does, if anyone.

>>6643632
I'm just as trans as anyone else here, just because I don't look like a teen doesn't mean my life is worth any less then yours. Ease up off my back about it.

>>6643620
yea pretty qt. thai. the creme de la creme of trannies

>>6643625
sure, come to me bb

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>>6643623
>English
You might as well go and double in woman's studies

>>6643641
azn ezy mde
>>6643642
>>6643618
>Cycling through the City
>See all these tall well dressed bankers
>Imagine being his mistress
>He orders his chauffeur to take me to his penthouse
>Fucks me passionately
>Takes me shopping the next day
>Lose myself in the fantasy
>Nearly crash into the Bank of England
I should be more careful, someone actually died there recently.

>>6643621
The application itself was $60. If you mean paying tuition and stuff, I'm middle class, so while my income bracket isn't low enough to get a full ride, top colleges still offered to pay 1/2-3/4 of my tuition. Which isn't a lot when they cost 50,000 a year but it's not nothing either. I'll deal with being saddled with the debt when i get to it :/

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>>6643642
>tfw no bf
;~;

>>6643662

>azn ezy mde

Why are you so whiney about asians? Like, I've had lots of black friends who really hated asians and latino people. Is that sterotype of black people hating those two groups true?

>>6643645
Didn't you detransition?
>>6643647
My mum's co-worker is a Thai transwoman, I've been meaning to meet her, learn from the masters.

>>6643667
Hi <3
How are you?

>>6643639
>it pains that im not sure about my gender.
why do you think there are so many "nonbinary" fucks around?

a lot of them just dick around for a while and never figure out what they want
take Ruby Rose for example.
She started saving up for a prosthetic dick when she was 5 and then just never followed through with it. Now she calls herself genderfluid because she can be who she is without dysphoria, because she looks between boy and girl.
so yeah, I'll be quite honest, that's why I'm not against the concept
but when you get down to it, she's wired mentally like a male with the genetics of a female
she's just not comfortable with giving up who she was. And that's fine, because she could get what she wanted in life without giving anything up.
so
idk
I don't take her as much of an influence, I just happened to be curious about who she was the other day.

>>6643667
Well, at least now you can use your roommate as a stand-in bf to get your fix of cuddles from, right?

>>6643667
be my grill desu
do you play csgo?

>>6643676
But I am not comfortable with my body I hate dysphoria.
Why can't there be a magical button that would change me into a girl.

requesting assistance

how to stop hating my shoulders

literally everything else is pretty fine or okay but I want to cut out my shoulder muscles and/or die

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>>6643668
>Saying Asians pass well means I hate Asians

tl;dr
According to everyone on this site I am just a fucking ugly piece of shit and no one even responds to me like a person. I don't even know why I post here anymore, my life is so empty and lonely and the only people I talk to shun me or mock me. Meanwhile if someone posts a pic of their new million dollar body and perfect outfit then they get treated like royalty and get positive attention regardless of how they act here. I mean on one hand I wanted to make friends here, but I guess that will never happen. Shit, I guess I should have stayed irl friends with melly because at least she and I could see a movie or go grab a bite and talk about trans shit in person. Here though everyone fucking tears me down and I am sick of it. Too bad I will keep posting here because its a part of my life.

I'm probably already filtered by everyone so this entire post will fall of deaf ears and yeah I know I deserve it but I was in such a deep dark pit of repression its not who I wanted to be and I hate myself for lashing out but I'm depressed 24/7 because my trans bullshit and it was nice talking to other people I could connect with after spending a LIFETIME alone thinking I was the ONLY one who wanted to be a girl. Finding out that wasn't the case first scared me and I acted a damn fool because conflicting thoughts of how I was raised by bigots and didn't want to even be a degenerate tranny.

>>6643688
>that post

Damn Kayla :/
I'm sorry.

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>>6643684

>>6643688
Shut your mouth

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>>6643619
There's always opera.

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>>6643688
hi kayla

>>6643688
Whatever happens, whatever you say, I'm not going to filter you. And I'll keep doing what I can to encourage you, like it or not.

>>6643688

I just hate you because I've had to put up with your ugly annoying shitty ass for years. You were on every board I was on but you always brought drama and your ugly face with it. I usually don't block trips but jesus christ you piss me off more than someone like edie.

>>6643688
I reached out a few times trying to talk and help out but you always never wanted to cause I was beneath talking to or w/e =\

>>6643698
Well that's very nice thank you.

>>6643697
hi, where have you been?

>>6643691
you never said mean shit to me so were cool

>>6643695
see, this is what im talking about

>>6643688
I think yr cute in most recent pics kayla. Sorry for calling you names yesterday I was just teasing and upset :( I watched a good 30 minutes of that movie though

>>6643688
This site has some pretty ridiculous passing standards sometimes, like from what I've seen you look like an average girl, yet most average looking people don't pass, unless you're super qt or basically look like a porn star it seems you don't pass on here.

>>6643688
IKTF
>When I first came here I was pretty depressed and lashed out at people
>Been mostly pleasant since
>Some trips just won't let it go
This place is pretty cold and uncaring, I'd advise you to stop seeking validation here.

>>6643699
And I deserve it, I am as cringey as fucking chris chan and if you feel that way then I guess going would make everyone's life better. I was blinded by my own bullshit to see the cringe I caused. I treated mtfg like /b/ and that was out of hand and im sorry.

>>6643688
Your pretty cool Kayla
I hope your life gets better

>>6643688
yeah, this isn't really a good place for support. more like a good place to shit on people you hate to distract yourself from your own life. where do you live that you were thinking you were the only one who wanted to be a girl? i know people say you can't run from your problems or whatever, but to me, finding an irl community you feel a part of is the best first step towards living life. have you traveled at all?

>>6643712
show pic. i forgot what you look like

>>6643699
I don't understand how people can keep responding seriously to her.

>>6643688
hey kayla. i saw you at the endo and wanted to say hi, but i was scared that you'd post about me on here, and i dont want attention im trying to disappear...

but i would hang out with you.

>>6643704
I know but still, you shouldn't get quite so much hate.

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>>6643704
I got a full time job not long ago

>>6643704
And again you continue to ignore me, coolio.

>>6643712
>And I deserve it, I am as cringey as fucking chris chan
Whoa now, lets not get carried away with hyperbole.

>>6643683
idk
I wish, but it's not gonna happen.
And if it does, I feel like I'm not gonna be able to accept it, or I'm going to instantly regret it because it's too much change all at once.

>>6643619
probably some metal

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Someone stop me from buying Legion.

>>6643719
What is your job? (If the answer isn't vulture tamer I'm disappointed.)

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>>6643672
I'm good, how are you doing carol?

>>6643679
Seems like an arrangement that could lead to awkwardness ngl

>>6643682
Nope, I don't play PC games, you should probably find a girl less casual :(

>>6643717
at St Johns? you saw me?

>>6643715
picture an ugly michael fassbender with a mullet

>>6643714
this is the worst place for support but I don't like other trans spaces online, its either here with full hate or somewhere else with MASSIVE hugboxing. Like shit, I tried trolling Susans and Transpassing with my pics and they all said I passed and I obviously don't.

>>6643712

Nigger jesus christ. Look at all this attention whoring you do all the time. You go in cycles like a god damn clock. First you bring your pity party, then people try to help or talk to you. You ignore them and then say you're going to kill yourself because there is no hope or no one wants to help you. Then people again flock to you like the retards they are. Then you leave and come back to bother everyone again.

Most people here apparently like giving you attention, just be lucky that there are no actual mods here that will ban you for being a piece of shit.

>>6643733
dont worry, im adaptive. got kik?

>>6643735
yeah, the wellchild is home.
i was like "oh fuck thats kayla!" then i got nervous.

...so i just talked to liz.

>>6643736
I think she might be legit bipolar, honestly. It would explain a lot.

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Yaaaaawwwwnnn

>>6643722
I'm not ignoring you but who are you?

>>6643723
You think im not that bad? I feel worse desu

>>6643713
you think so? I let what people say here get to me to the point I feel like the most worthless piece of trash in existence

>>6643733
I'm doing good, though today has kinda been an emotional rollercoaster desu.

>>6643741
дoбpoe yтpo

This is me (>>6643502)

I got in and talked to the front desk and did the stuff. 90 minute wait time. I work in 90 minutes. It has to wait another full 7 days. I can't feel my fingers. I feel like my life is melting away. I'm already 20, I should just kill myself.

>>6643739
when was this??? that's crazy, how did I look?

>>6643736
Yes I realize that and duh I regret ever fucking post. Fresh start?

>>6643747
where you at? i'll inject you if you're close by.

>>6643747
call work and say that something came up and you're gonna be late.

>>6643747
Calm down.

>>6643742
Woman you pass fine, ignore all the shit thrown at you here and live your life IRL. I think people saw that you were insecure from your heavily angled and shadowed pics so took advantage and bullied you. They are the problem, they are the ones taking out their insecurities on you.

>>6643751
idk like a month or two ago? you looked pretty cute... not hugboxing but i think you're cuter than you say you are.

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>>6643746
я ycтaл.
:(

>>6643747
Just be late, stop being a little bitch.

>>6643747
Starting hrt is always nerve wracking. Calm down and realize you are finally chasing your dreams.

>>6643754
definitely do this. fuck a minimum wage hour job that you have at age 18, this is HRT we're talking about.

im 24 and all the jobs i had at age 18 were just a waste of fucking time

>>6643753
Ha. Alberta.

>>6643754
They'd just fire me and I can't afford to lose this job.

>>6643755
Yeah. I'm trying.

>>6643758
Was it the one on 58th st??? Were you the blonde?

>>6643765
alberta's reaaaaalllllyyy far from los angeles. :S

....being poor isn't that bad. being a man is worse.

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>>6643761
>я ycтaл
Thank you Google Translate! I think I understand given the universal language of :( though. What's wrong?

>>6643770
either that one or the one on 23rd

>blonde?
no, redhead

>>6643775
did I walk by you or was it in the lobby?

Ummmmmm. What's going on?

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>>6643732
just an unloader at a grocery store in my town, I make a decent amount over minimum wage in this state just to lift stuff so I'm pretty happy with it

>>6643771
If I lose my job I'm both.

>>6643778
lobbeh. i went in and out to smoke cigarettes like a hundred times

>>6643757
true

>>6643784
was I in boy mode? What color was my shirt?

>>6643633
I dunno, I'm not rly good much desu. I can do good in English, so I just went with it desu.
>>6643648
It's the only thing that I can get a decent gpa in....... I'm not good at other things okay... I'm good at English p much. Also reading and writing is fun!

>>6643783
...okay i have an idea
>go to an urgent care
>tell them you left your hormones at your mom's house in california
>you cant get an appointment with your endo until 2 weeks from now
>you need just enough meds to hold you over

if (above) scored me narcotics, it should work for hrt?

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TFW you measure your shoulder width versus height and are directly at the average for females at that height.

fuck yes genetics.

>>6643763
That's such a weird way to describe it. I always look at it more like I'm trying to feel human

>>6643790
lol it was 2 months ago i dont remember what color your shirt was. i dont even remember what color my shirt was.

you looked girly to me...maybe your boy mode just sucked, the ftms can give tips

>>6643799
What is the ratio?

>>6643738
No, sorry ;-;

>>6643745
Awe, what's wrong?

>>6643799

Welcome to the club, it's very lonely here, glad to meet your acquaintance.

>>6643791
Samee
all im good at is science

>>6643799
how do I find this?

>>6643796
Do you live in Angola? You realize first world hospitals with first world health care systems can pull your medical records from the cloud, right?

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>>6643807
how do you expect to find a boyfriend without kik or playing games

>>6643765
wtf? even if you have some major meeting, they'll normally give you like 15 minutes of leeway for emergencies.

besides, people mind less when you call an hour and a half ahead saying you're gonna be 15 minutes late than if you just don't show up for 15 minutes.

>>6643803
Well then cool, I don't feel so bad about myself rn then, heck I do remember that day I got called sweetie by some random dude.

>>6643801
>I always look at it more like I'm trying to feel human
well tha'ts exactly what it is but people tell me im too blunt sometimes so I tried to sugar coat it as "dreams." I'm transitioning so I can feel like an actual person

>>6643816
.....no i live in california. i guess they dont bother clouding me, cuz wow i have a lot of narcotics

>>6643819
the same way cis girls do?... duh.

Did i get filtered? Why is no one paying attention to me?

>>6643807
My brain's just been retarded today.
Like early morning I was fine and reaalllly happy and managed to actually clean my entire mood, then i went to sleep and after i got up I felt crappy. A while after I felt like a horrible person so ended up filling a discord chat full of me being depressed and crap then went back to normal mood. Then i showered and felt kinda sad and now im pretty okay.

TL;DR: My brain is weird today

>>6643807
oh hi elanna

move go well?

>>6643827
hey sass whats good.

>>6643827
whats up?

>>6643828
*entire room not mood

>>6643822
glad you're feeling better!

>>6643827
wus poppin'?

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>>6643824

>clouding me

>>6643827

>>6643799
Link that fammmmm!!!
>>6643811
I wish I had that. The stem meme is making me feel knees weak arms spaghetti.

>>6643831
You're good :3!

>>6643816
>USA
>First-world healthcare
Pick one.

>>6643827
Hello
>>6643841
I hate it, I've struggled with the dork label

>>6643834
>>6643838
>>6643840

I came out to my therapist yesterday!

Yay and um I guess I'm not going to be a boy in a dress anymore. :3.

How are you girls and bird?

>>6643837
Better is not a good word, more like neutral on all accounts. I just tire of waiting on transition, its such a slow agonizing process that needs money I don't have. All I need is electrolysis, a new nose, boob job, and srs, and I would be the most fucking happy person on the planet but I can't make the money.

>>6643849
no, usa has first-world healthcare
the "X-world" system was developed in america's image
so obviously the best healthcare is unnecessarily expensive at all turns.

>>6643842
-legit smiled first time today-

ayyyyyyyyy

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>>6643856
hungry

>>6643857
welcome to my life senpai. got baaaaarely enough money for 1 hour of electrolysis every friday.

still waiting for insurance to call me back about SRS, last time i called they said they switched to windows 10 and fucked their whole system

>>6643860
what it feel like? I never have had a real smile.

>>6643863
so how do you beg insurance for srs? Like who the hell do I call??? I would take fucking bowers at this point because she does medi cal.

>>6643854
:3 hey Shakira! How's that London summer going?

>>6643856
congrats!

how did it go?

>>6643856
how did your therapist react?
what kind of questions were asked?

>>6643799
link plz

i already know mine won't measure (ha) up because the chart in the OP post says i'm nearly in the 95th percentile for men :^)

WHY ISN'T THERE A TAPE MEASURE IN MY HOUSEHOLD

>>6643859
Your life expectancy is the lowest in the West.
>>6643866
Slowly fading. It's been good so far though.

>>6643875
go buy a garment tape, its like a tape measure tailors use

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>>6643860
Awwwwwww :3!

>>6643861
>Tfw always hungry

>>6643864
What? I bet you smiled that time you got sexy timed.

>>6643865
lawl, ask the doc at st johns. he'll fill out the forms for you...
then there's an endless game of phonetag where you have to call medical, wait 30 days, call medical again, repeat until god only knows.

>>6643878
Don't act so great about your healthcare, you're number 20

>tfw no amount of makeup or surgery will hide shoulders, feet, hands, barrel chest

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>>6643599
>>6643618
>>6643642
upboated

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>>6643829
Yeah I'm still getting stuff unpacked and organised but I'm starting to get comfy :3

>>6643819
Idk, probably not on 4chan

>>6643828
That sucks, sounds like a crazy day ;-;

>>6643898
I upvoted this <3

>>6643822
You shouldn't sugar coat this stuff. The vast majority of CIS people don't understand how serious it is and trans people have a terrible habit of sugar coating what they're going through.

>tfw I started browsing 4chan in '07
>tfw I've been on and off 4chan but always eventually returning consistently for nine years now

I can't be saved time to kms

>tfw low tier girl with brown eyes
>tfw i wake up i get to see my bf's blue eyes with gold flakes
>tfw he wakes up he sees brown shit colored eyes

>>6643905
Pretty much, idek why ._. like normally im pretty neutral feeling leaning towards happy

>>6643910
>have blue eyes
>sister throws brick in fireplace, burns eyes with ashes
>now there's lots of gold flakes

blue/gold masterrace

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>>6643905
>comfy
thats what its all about

>>6643908
iktf, except I didn't start browsing 4chan until '09.
It still feels like I've been here for fucking forever tho.

>>6643908
2004 for me, but otherwise the same. All that time, why didn't I transition sooner? Oh well...

>>6643907
true

>>6643884
no shit??? I guess I will do that when I can, i'm going tomorrow just to get my 3 month estrogen supply but I don't think the trans center is open on Saturday.

>>6643869
>>6643868
It was fine. She was very supportive. she actually has experience with transgendered women and I didn't know this.

Well she just asked me about my life and how I came to this conclusion. if I had used hormones and stuff.

I was really nervous since I'm not out to anyone irl. Well my best friends (guy and girl) know.

In the end she said that no matter if I was trams or not, I had to get my shit together, become financially solvent and stop freakingn out and making excuses.

¯\_(ツ)_/¯

>>6643895
Trips on, Sass


>>6643898
<3

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>>6643895
Delete this

>tfw at the san fransisco razor store being the trannies playing over watch while boys look over our shoulder with kaylee

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a fucking straight guy passes better than me

>>6643742
Lol I'm Kari/Nycteri.

>>6643934
>razor
Absolutely disgusting

>>6643931
my therapist didnt say a lot when i told her :(

i could barely get it out and clammed up when she tried to go into more detail so its not her fault

>>6643947
the same nycteri who regularly falsely accused people of rape and acted like it never happened

>>6643951
But that's not what happened desu?

>>6643947
oh why not just keep the old name?

>>6643929
Well I didn't realize I was trans until relatively recently, so yeah I obviously would've liked to start earlier but it's not like I've been thinking about transitioning for 9 years straight and am just now getting to it

>>6643955
Nycteri was just a screenname I hadn't figured out what name I was gonna use, now that I have one I figured switch it.

>>6643950
I guess therapy only woeks if you open up. Don't waste this opportunity Nim! Ot works.

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God fucking damn it I can't get the thought of this trip out of my head.

I think of fucking the everloving shit out of her and making her wail in ecstasy before I finally shoot my load inside of her.

I've been jacking off to this thought every night for the past few weeks and I've had the biggest orgasms I've ever had in my fucking life. Christ I want her.

>>6643966
which trip?

>>6643961
i hope she brings it up in the next session :(

>>6643966
who

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I-I'm gonna m-make it!

>>6643981
you're gonna make it!

>>6643931
>In the end she said that no matter if I was trams or not, I had to get my shit together, become financially solvent and stop freakingn out and making excuses.
Hopefully she means that in parallel with transitioning, not needing to do those things as a pre-requisite.

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>>6643966
that's hot

>>6643981
>be me
>do stupid test
>get at least 80+ feminine in pics
>still unpassable hon
>sir'd 100% of time

this website is a MEME

>>6643956
I was thinking of transitioning before 4chan was a thing and didn't get around to starting HRT until last year. ;_;

>>6643974
>>6643977
I'm not gonna say.

>>6643981

What's the picture you used? I always kinda get weird results.

>>6643966
Have you told her?
>>6643975
You have to be prepared that she might not if you don't prompt her. Practice saying what you need to say, and have something pre-written in case you can't.

>>6643997
what does it matter dumbass you're anon

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>>6643991
Nah, it's quite reliable...

>>6643966
can it be me?

>>6643966
uhhhhhhh is this moshi moshi agp though?

>>6643966

Wow now you have all the trips going crazy and wondering. Tease them more.

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>tfw you figured out that yoghurt is easier to eat than anything else

I am genuinely suprised, I didnt think it was this easy. maybe I can make the whole eating twice a day work

>>6644010
YES!!!!!!!!
YES!!!!!
YOU CAN DO IT!!!!
GO SOPHIE!!!!!!
<3<3<3<3<3

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>>6644005
I'm mildly curious what approach they're using for face matching in this program.

>>6644010
you can put some granola in too if you want

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>>6643975
No, you bring it up. Tell her about it. It feels awesome better.

>>6643987
Well, I'm on hormones, so I guess she can't do anything to stahp me.

>>6643991
>Tfw looking like a woman isn't anything without voice and mannerisms.

>>6643975
you have to take charge of your therapy, people can't read your mind so unless you tell them what's wrong they can only guess

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>>6644005
good feels all around

>>6644018
>be me
>didn't speak
>get called sir'd from far away and up close
>how can they tell when I haven't talked

meme magic

>>6643991
>tfw this website gave my top lookalike as gwendoline christie
>she's a 6'3'' amazonian with a large frame so I'd even look small next to her, but she's still very clearly a cis woman

m-maybe there's hope?

>>6644020
>people can't read your mind
Fuck, I could have transitioned so much earlier if they could. (Or if I had gotten over my intense shut-it-down-shut-everything-down anxiety about speaking about the topic.)

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>>6644013
idk, I guess its a good first step. I only got something though cause when I tried standing up before I went blind for a few seconds, and I didnt even get up fast.

>>6644016
sadly I am really autistic about consistency, I cant just mix stuff that isnt similar or the same, makes me feel sick

>>6644027

How's the shoulder comparison along with hips, waist and the size of the head?

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>>6644001
No I haven't. If I tell her before we get closer it'll drive us apart.

I'm dreaming of eventually meeting her and showing her that I know how to please her in bed.

I'm even reading up on erogenous zones. I just want to please her.

>>6644033
It is a VERY good first step. I am so proud of you rn <3 <3 <3 <3

>>6644006
Ew, no. I just threw up in my mouth a little imagining that.

>>6644033
Are you hydrating enough? Low blood sugar shouldn't be doing that and it's probably not orthostatic hypotension if you didn't get up fast...

>>6644001
i might cry

>>6644018
i dunno if i can do it again

>>6644020
but im not good at taking charge

>>6644038
That's adorably discomforting. Seriously though, are you at least working towards meeting up with her or something, or just obsessively practicing for it?

>>6643998
A girlmode pic. My boymode pics get 18% feminine
>>6644015
The "fuck your shit up" program

>>6644046
write a letter with everything you want to say and give it to her to read, that way you don't have to talk about it yet

>>6643944
looks like andrew vanwyngarden.

>>6644047
I already talk to her but only occasionally flirt.

I'm looking to try and change that.

>>6644049
that kinda scares me toooo ;-;

but not as much as doing it in person, i suppose

>>6644046
I totally get struggling with this, given my own history with it. But, the more you talk about it the less anxious talking about it will make you feel.

Maybe practice talking about it with someone online? If it's with someone who already knows you're trans and lives far away maybe it'll be easier to focus on getting used to saying the words.

>>6644051
where from?

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>>6644041
my body's not that bad you jerk

sure my face is shit but otherwise my body passes

>>6644052
NIGHTMARE FUEL

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>>6644042
probably not, I often dont drink anything between getting up and like 6-8 pm when its warm. if it isnt too warm I drink a cappuccino, I guess like a liter per day in total, maybe a little more

>>6644060
;_; now i'll delete my pic.

>>6644056
Sorry, not interested. You just look like an obvious trap.
Did hormones even do anything for you?

>>6644066
Please don't bully the Kayla.

>>6644056
wanna pnp?

I was actually happy with how I looked there.

Live and learn.

>>6644061
You should drink more, really. Usually, water would be the best option, but since you eat so little, juice or at the very least sports drinks would be a good idea...

>>6644072
how? you are quite clearly a man with makeup

>>6644072
I missed the image, but somebody here is obviously just being a jerk for the fun of it, so I wouldn't let it ruin your night that much.

>>6644072
You don't look bad. And definitely feminine.

>>6644079
Yuck, please stop posting any time. Like, forever.
You're the most disgusting trip here. No one else comes close. Time to go bleach my eyes Jesus Christ.

>>6644084
azn ezy mde reeee

you're fucking hot pls b my gf

>>6644079
I think you should stop responding to that guy he's obviously trying to get a rise out of you.
Nice boobs btw

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>>6644087
so hows it feel being flat chested?

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>>6644074
yeah ;-; I often just forget that

>>6644098
I'm a guy so I'm quite happy with it thank you.
If anything your existence reaffirms me of repressing as hard as I can, so thanks I guess.

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>>6644098

>>6644099
>forgetting to drink liquids
D:

>>6644104
Sorry friend, if you're repressing you aren't a guy, you're a girl pretending to be a guy.

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>>6644098

>>6644108
I have no desire to physically transition if there's a possibility I will end up as masculine as Kayla after fucking up my body with hormones, so I'll embrace what I got and just live vicariously through one of the pretty transgirls.

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>>6644114
Sometimes I wonder if I should have done that as well

Why is everyone bullying Kayla?

>>6644120
Cuz she reacted to it

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>>6644098
?

>>6644104
>repressing
too bad you will never know what its like to lounge around in your panties on a cool summer night drinking red wine and watching romantic comedies

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why y'all always fighting

women I swear

>>6644131
You don't need to transition to do that. :^)

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Good moorning /mtfg/
im spending this morning talking with a qt
how are uu
pr much just woke up

I make cash at work. I'm diagnosed but don't have health insurance, I found an informed consent provider but damn it's so expensive for an appointment.

What's the best way to convert my cash so I can order some hormones? Don't most of these sites need a bank account routing number? It's no problem for me to get a bank acct but I'd rather not if possible.

Should I just bite the bullet and save for the doctor visit?