pokemon edition
consent providers:
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▶ Trans Info Dump: https://docs.google.com/spreadsheets/d/1d9KKqP9IHa5ZxU84a_Jf0vIoAh7e8nj_lCW27KbYBh0/edit?usp=sharing
▶ MtF Info Dump: http://pastebin.com/h1vLPxyV
▶ Beginner makeup resources: http://masterposter.tumblr.com/post/116605714860
▶ Size charts: http://www.americanapparel.net/sizing/default.asp?chart=womens.pantse_conversion_chart.php
▶ Male vs Female measurement data: https://www.bwc.ohio.gov/downloads/blankpdf/ErgoAnthropometricData.pdf
▶ Transition timelines: http://imgur.com/a/qWpxv
▶ Voice Training: http://pastebin.com/dgipdsge
▶ HRT info: https://web.archive.org/web/0000000000000/http://taimapedia.org/index.php?title=Hormones
▶ Cis women of all sizes to make you feel better about yourself: http://www.mybodygallery.com/
▶ Voice Help: http://webjedi.net/projects/lgbtq/speech-therapy/
▶ IRC: https://www.rizon.net/chat#mtfg
▶ Zeemaps: https://www.zeemaps.com/map?group=1843968
Previous gym: >>6558793
first 4 idek
Niggers remove yourselves
i started a new soulsilver save but i leave tomorrow for europe and im debating bringing my 3ds with me
should i do it or should i just like watch anime and try to nap on the plane
>>6560785
why wouldn't you bring it?
>>6560789
cuz ill be too busy and stuff to play a lot?? i can watch anime bc im bringing my laptop either way.
>tfw overwatch comes out with a character your age and gender
>>6560785
SOUL SILVER!
When ever i look in the mirror i dont se a woman all i can see is a guy trying really hard to be a woman
I feel sic
>>6560811
it's a mirror, not a hugbox, what did you expect?
>>6560804
>>6560637
>I agree and my hair always looks stupid. Me rn, hair still p dumb. Been back since '14.
>https://unsee
>.cc/tadozipu/
>>>6560638
>No, it hasn't been useful. I wasted my college minor on it too ;_;
>>6560665
>My cuz just finished the program. The JET program itself was his least favorite part of living there. He did fine socially, or so he came off as, but he said the work place was awful. His short term there made his coworkers dislike him. They straight up treated him like crap. He dreaded going to work every day. The work itself he described as an unfulfilling waste of time, but he has worked in fields that interested him before. Idk if you work in shitty retail or food service or something, so it could be a step up, but generally speaking not much can be gained from assistant teaching there especially since it requires no training and no certificate or expectations unlike ESL teaching in other countries. If you aren't interested in teaching and just want to be in Japan abusing the JET program, I don't see how it could end up that well.
>Also getting prescription drugs there illegally of any sort will get you deported.
I am sad and need hugs. I want to cry so much and I can't for some reason.
>tfw single again
>>6560822
drink more water?
>>6560823
an online relationship where you never met is the same as being single, nothing has changed
(You)
>>6560769
breddy accurate
>>6560830
>tfw have VR/AR setup to cyber
it's pretty great, now if only I didn't have to use a real doll
>>6560824
https://unsee
.cc/bipumode/
accidentally set it to one view
I swear my nose looks bigger in photos than it actually is ;_;
>>6560794
>thinking that being trans is something to celebrate
I guess we can agree to disagree.
>>6560823
i wanna be korra's boyfriend
>>6560842
by the gods, shave that stache
>>6560842
you look better there, but your hair cut is still janky
the color is allright
something like this would be more flattering, your face is kind of round; so a cut thats short on the sides of your head would look better imo
is that stubble or you're growing it out?
a well groomed facial hair will definitely take you to an 8; although the inbetween stage while you're growing it out does suck
didn't get enough replies on my new outfit
>going to see makeup artist ex from 5 years ago
>meet her at her hotel....
>she wants time to get dressed up
>drinks
I feel really bad breaking up with her because I was about to commit suicide from ptsd and being forced closeted by my job while being bullied constantly for being crippled... and never telling her until years later
I wonder if it'll be a shock to her
Too many feelings intermingle at the same time.
>>6560861
Absolutely dreadful
>>6560868
perfect
>>6560861
i wanna fuck the meme queen
you'll never become a real girl senpai
just hang from a noose already
http://www.sexchangeregret.com/
>>6560850
ty anon but im a mess u deserve someone better
>>6560870
If you're trying to look like a supreme autist then mission accomplished
>>6560875
cool, then I wont wear panties with the skirt, easy access
>>6560842
Muh dick
Well not really I'm tucked, but metaphorically
>>6560829
This what i was afraid of when i started my transission and now its my life, people will look at me and be grossed out,
if i ever told anyone id rather be called by female pronouns id be laughted at
Im a failure
>>6560881
Idgi
What do skirts feel like?
>>6560881
wow naughty
The richest men and boys on earth couldn't do it and ended up killing themselves why do you think you stand a chance anon-kun you faggot.
>>6560890
like bags of sand, but without the sand.
>>6560879
dont worry ill make a bigger mess of you with all the head rubs that are gonna go down
>>6560897
Aren't we skype buddies already?
>>6560792
i guess i dont know if i mind that
id like to hang out with japanese folks obviously but socializing mostly with other jet folks doesnt seem like a bad thing? if it's like... in japan?
what was wrong w/ jet :o
>>6560820
i work in garbage retail so yes it would be a step up. i already hate my job to the degree that i would almost rather jump in front of a train than go into work in the morning, so basically anything is better.
i dont know. you're not really making too good a case against doing it i dont think... :s working/living in japan has, yes, been the dream of my little weeb heart since i was a kid watching anime. which i know is silly and a cliche, but all you've really been telling me is that living as a foreigner is going to be annoying, which is true anywhere, and that the culture is different, which i have read up on before. idk.
i mean, tell me if you think i'm wrong, or that i'm missing something seriously.
>>6560900
that's sweet but I just wanna curl up and cry all night
>>6560911
Let's cuddle and cry together
Hi
>>6560924
Hello
WHAT THE FUG IS UP??
>>6560929
Sad tranny full of doubt and dispar. So the usual. What's up with you?
>>6560924
We´re all crying now
>>6560910
i know of this one blogger girl that lives and works in japan, but i think she was there for school originally, not JET
https://youtu.be/hq32KuNYBw4
>>6560935
same and this thread is slow as fuck now
fuck this, nap time
>>6560851
>>6560857
there, shaved it, that was two days stubble
and thanks for the advice, I guess? I'm starting transition soon so I'll be letting my hair grow for a while. It's going to look awful for some time.
https://unsee
.cc/murenago/
>tfw shadow never goes away
>>6560884
ne tiem bb ٩(ε )۶
>>6560867
neither
>>6560910
well I lived there a year and dont fully regret it
i can tell I probably wont change your mind
if you get accepted, all you have to do is a year and you can pull out
just remember living there is much harder than here and situations arise constantly that you cant ignore
being trans is just going to add another level of difficulty
you may have read up on this, but you haven't lived it day by day and don't know how you'll exactly manage it
I just think you are naive. I was too before I went.
>>6560937
Let's all cry together
>>6560779
>mista thug isolation i like mostly for the production i think
>lum's raps REALLY shine on oblivion access
i feel like he's getting away from the internet rapper thing where the beats are the main show with oa, i guess.
>>6560778
>i want incoherent, autistic, worthless, ugly, can't live as a woman; but hates being a man, shitposters who draw ire and disgust from everyone who sees them shit posters to get out
>lol
i guess i'll leave then ;-;
>>6560829
>it's not going to change your skeleton and everything. You just have to accept your body the way it is.
AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
>>6560940
dat bitch ripped my eyeliner game
>>6560944
I am dosed with anxiety mess and still can't sleep
Reminder you're all beautiful and I love you all.
>>6560955
hugboxer >:(
>>6560955
I love you too
>>6560955
would you make love to me though?
>>6560955
Thanks anon
I apriciate the gesture
>>6560968
thanks, that means a lot
>tfw youre always tired and never want to get up but youre forced to
>>6560948
I think she was talking about people like me
>>6560980
dat ribcage
shaky shaky cartoon voice
http://vocaroo.com/i/s0VCeOiVujyj
pls help
>>6560968
>Everyone deserves to feel good.
not me, I am a waste of human life and deserve all the pain the world so pls don't.
>>6560990
Post a video.
>>6560985
More
>>6560910
kek no
I presented myself as such in Japan, but even then I had dysphoria before I was ever there.
Some events recently finally led me to decide to transition.
also
>in mtfg
>going by trish
>>6560995
why would i need to do that
>>6560918
>>6560946
ty both i appreciate it i ty do but i cant really be happy or cheer up rn. i lost something i cant get back and it hurts t
so much rn all I can do is cry
>>6560991
I hate myself and wish I was dead too, but I want everyone here to be happy because I cannot.
>>6561001
For fun
>>6561004
I love you
>when you try on cute shirts and the shoulder seams always fall like an inch before your actual shoulders
:'(
>>6560811
>tfw it doesn't even look like you're trying
>tfw you're not really trying
>tfw you're too incompetent to try
>>6560988
Dis rib age tho
>>6561009
but thats not fun
https://clyp.it/eptb2nvq
how do I make a gaff if I don't have any pantyhose
>>6560990
https://clyp.it/hya2ecjg
>>6561023
you're not very attractive, i'm not sure why you think you are
>>6561021
Hugs, we can be failures togheter <3
>>6561028
sounds like you're not even trying
>>6561031
https://youtu.be/JjZFhnFFItM
sock and underwear for the elastic is fine
>>6561028
guy voice, more like girl voice am i right ladies?
>>6561031
https://clyp.it/mrbltp5a
>>6560956
i mean it does describe me desu lol. hopefully the trying meme fixes that somewhat.
>>6560980
i was partly memeing. honestly i don't think i'll ever be able to leave here.
>>6560760
can i summon you with a stefan meme?
>>6561044
what did you use to train your voice
>>6561044
can you voice train to not sound like a braindead retard or did you just get unlucky
>>6561036
Cold comfort...
But hugs can be pretty warm, so there's that
>>6561007
go read some children's books idiot
>>6560945
here's the thing though: it sounds like you had some bad experiences, but i do wonder how many of them were *actually* that bad? because it seems to me that perhaps you just werent aware of, or simply werent properly equipped to deal with, some of the issues that go along with living there as a foreigner. i dont mean to be disrespectful, since i clearly dont have the experience in this area that you do, but looking at other peoples' accounts of their time/experiences in japan that talk about a lot of the same things but at the end of which they come to wildly different conclusions/takeaways than you -- yeah, idk. im not necessarily afraid to get stared at or snubbed for being a foreigner, and i dont think i will mind being the kouhai in a group of people i work with. ofc, as you said, i may just be naive.
i am curious what your background was from, prior to working in japan? like where did you live, how social were you to begin with, etc.
>being trans is just going to add another level of difficulty
this is mostly where my worries come in tbqh. im frankly not exactly sure how to deal with this.
>>6561050
>honestly i don't think i'll ever be able to leave here.
why would anyone want to tho?
>>6561065
pls dont leave <3
>>6561027
https://www.periscope.tv/w/albZWzFxTFFHSkRQem9yRUp8MURYeHlaZHZ3a1ZLTdrYwpsI-Azqu01m88W_9tFX2PORpYQpqi45QfQfwOod
Super fun attention whoring cause I am sad
Guys please help kayla with this survey real quick
http://www.strawpoll.me/10749349
>>6561058
https://clyp.it/iyf3sziv
>>6561072
wth is this
>>6560910
learn the language. don't be a weirdo. they won't mind and would be shocked if you disclosed you're trans. the people I went to college with were nice. also learn about the respect thing and honourifics, its a big part there
>>6561034
I don't get how I had to defend myself for being allowed to confront people only because I'm pretty and then later have to talk about like me being ugly, could you guys pic one, I think you're reading too much into how I feel about a picture desu
>>6561060
Yea i m-mean i-its not like i t-tried to look l-like a girl a-anyway heh....
>>6561085
Faye you're fuck that anon is a cunt.
>>6561050
your trying is what takes you out of that category, lol
anyone have the link to dollface's chaturbate?
>>6561082
WOW
I THINK I FOUND THE FIRST COHERENT AND HELPFUL ORYX POST
I claim it. its mine now, go away
>>6561069
I tend to drop off regularly for longer periods, but usually I am steal reachable on steam tho
>>6561093
I know. I enjoy talking to you here as well though :3
>>6561081
You don't know what being a needy can whore is?
>>6561093
phie ilu so much bb <3333333 pls dont leave me ok? ;;
>>6561064
I kno ur a weeb but how wapanese are you really? how good is u at the moonspeak?
woah if you live there for a year you'll come back a spooky skellington for sure
>>6561092
>wanting to see a dried up circumcised cock being tugged on mercilessly for hours
>>6561064
>m frankly not exactly sure how to deal with this.
Aren't you stealth already?
>>6561099
I'm taking phie away from you too
>>6561103
what's the link to your chaturbate then
>>6561086
I guess the one upshot of not knowing how to try is that trying and failing hurts more
Then again I have some girl stuff I wear at Bexe's and it's not like I pass in that either
>>6561106
oh um.. I don't do that kinda thing
>>6561109
you should
>>6561106
just lurk /b/ trap threads miss cock shows up there sometimes
#FightForWesternCivilization
>>6561096
<3 :3
>>6561099
I am still here for the time being <3
>>6561105
>too
what did she mean by this
and who are you
>>6561111
Good idea but... can we start by literally nuking the Westboro church. For the lulz.
>>6561115
when are you disappearing for ffs?
>>6561120
yeah theyre annoying..but theyre also not killing people..priorities i guess
>>6561118
well fuck this for the night, id rather get stoned and watch netflix with my room mate
so when is the last straw for europe
cuz im a pretty tolerant person and after like the 50th terrorist attack i was like "okay maybe letting refugees in was a bad idea"
>>6561115
ty bb <3 I need cuddles rn :(
>>6561134
Im sorry they're being cunts Kayla, I hope you feel better after spending time with your roommate.
>>6561123
>how the fuck does anyone get up in the morning??
beats me
but people do it for sure
you have to have something yo live for, you know what i mean? a dream, a goal, etc
>>6561134
>room mate
have you too fuck yet?
>>6561115
<3
So what's up?
>All these fucking kids and manchildren walking around the streets with their nose in the fucking phone looking for gay ass pokemons
Thank pokemon GO for bringing out the autists into the wild.
>>6561148
Circe?
>>6561147
>not playing the most anticipated game ever
eat a dick, clown.
>>6561152
that's it, thanks
>>6561148
oddish?
>>6561148
circé
she posts in gaygen sometimes
>>6561127
see, from my perspective, thats incoherent. whos tanaka, why does she write emails
>>6561135
never, its our own fault for not establishing proper border control.
>>6561129
Idk yet. maybe I wont disappear. I will have internet there. I am just unsure if I should be highposting for a week or not tho, the last few times didnt go to well
surgery is in a month
>>6561136
Ill always cuddle you bbygirl <3
youre going to find someone!
>>6561146
still craving and super stressed
1 more week, then term will finally be over be over
>>6561148
circe?
I wish digimon was as big as pokemon
HELLO MY NAME IS ABDUL AND I AM COLLECTING FOR THE REFUGEE CRISIS FUND
DID YOU KNOW THAT IN GERMANY MOST REFUGEES ONLY GET TO RAPE OR SEXUAL ASSAULT ONE EUROPEAN WOMAN
THAT IS DISGUSTING AND NOT THE KIND OF TREATMENT EUROPE WANTS FOR ITS INCOMING REFUGEES
PLEASE DONATE ONE (YOU) TO CHARITY AND ALL BROWN PEOPLE WILL GET AT LEAST 5 WHITE SLAVES TO DO WITH AS THEY PLEASE
>>6561147
It's fun though. Why don't you like fun?
Granted that I wouldn't want to run into the average person playing it on the street
>>6561148
>do we even have an email field anymore?
>>6561169
he impregnated circe
blink 182's self titled is hands down their best album and i will fight anyone who tries to tell me otherwise
>>6561111
honestly, the moderates are still extremists when it comes to islam. you can't really be down with the quran if yr down with the average western society.
>>6561135
NOW.
>>6561139
i have a goal tho.... that shit is still like ughghghghhghhhhhhhhhhhh
>>6561173
Correct
>>6561172
tsk she went and done got her bp knocked up...
>>6561173
who is your cute friend on the left?
>>6561135
Ya know terrorist attacks were a thing before refugees right? Just look at British train stations lack of bins.
>>6561169
uhh wait
the one i remember wasn't super fat, but i know they broke up because he was gay
>>6561184
who is in the middle?
>>6561186
yeah i know about the 7/7 attacks because i was in england when they happened
but they're happening a lot more frequently now and are beginning to have higher death counts
>>6561173
i wont try
to argue
or hold it
against you
>>6561155
>>6561168
>Playing a walking simulator
>That requires you to battle greasy pimply nerds face to face in fucking shitty as "gyms"
>Half of the time youre looking at the phone just tracking your dumbass on a MSpaint tier googlemaps
>>6561180
>peopl already have their faces in their phones though lmao.. ._. I hate it
People dont even realize everything theyre doing on their fucking phone is being tracked.
>73 dead
fucking muslims
>>6561189
who cares I'm only interested in the one that's on the left
>>6561173
things more disgusting than being a tranny
>>6561064
Look, I didn't tell you the truly awful experiences because I didn't think they applied to you. The bisex thing that literally crushed my soul, two assaults and the most absurd host family experience I've ever come across definitely didn't help my time there, but I recognize that these things were more specific to me.
As for everything I mentioned in those previous posts. No, in a singular sense those things are not bad and not hard to deal with. Added up day by day it can really create stress and pressure unlike anything you could imagine. You're not thinking about it on the larger scale of things. I think you are forgetting about your life.
>but looking at other peoples' accounts of their time/experiences in japan that talk about a lot of the same things but at the end of which they come to wildly different conclusions/takeaways than you
Who are you talking about? What are these conclusions? Do they actively acknowledge the societal problems of Japan or do they brush them under the rug and pretend the place is a fairy tale land? Other anons have already agreed with/acknowledged what I said.
>im not necessarily afraid to get stared at or snubbed for being a foreigner
Being afraid or not means nothing, I wasn't and still am not, but I still actively acknowledge it and it's annoying to think it even happens. You saw my pics? I got stared at. A lot.
>and i dont think i will mind being the kouhai in a group of people i work with
Please, thinking like this will be harmful for you in the long run. I don't think there should be any reason for you to think you wont mind it until you try it. Also, I dont know much about this, but I dont think schools will give you nightlife circles.
>i am curious what your background was from, prior to working in japan? like where did you live, how social were you to begin with, etc.
American, west coast. 20 yrs old. Fairly social uni student. Repressed bisex and trans at the time.
>>6561197
77 bruh
>>6561197
R E L I G I O N
O F
P E A C E
>>6561197
More like fucking every religion
>>6561202
Forgot to mention a certain hospital trip I had to make as well.
>>6561211
call me when a mormon commits a mass shooting bb
>>6561211
>>>/reddit/
>>6561190
>but they're happening a lot more frequently now and are beginning to have higher death counts
>>6561197
>>6561205
>>6561207
>>6561211
>>6561191
heh
>>6561188
the one I remember was fat and hairy, looked like a typical /v/ neckbeard. it was like weird that Circe was dating him but they looked so happy together on their webms, so I wondered what happened
The idea of being in that kind of situation terrifies me.
https://www.facebook com/Slate/videos/10154163768001438/
Sometimes the few trans people on my Facebook post good things but I'm starting to consider hiding links from them.
>>6561197
>>6561207
WOAH THERE WE WILL NOT HAVE THIS KIND OF LANGUAGE IN THIS THREAD
ITS TWENTY-SIXTEEN
NOT ALL MUSLIMS ARE TERRORISTS
CMON GALS
ITS 2016!
>>6561236
CURRENT YEAR
O
M
E
O
N
>>6561236
FUCK YOU FOR WHAT YOU DOD TO MY BROTHER ree.jpg ._.
>>6561196
>Playing a walking simulator
You say that as if walking outside is a bad thing and somehow comparable to the shitty regular vidya. Makes public transport a bit less dull which is fine by me.
>face to face
I've never had to see another player so far, maybe it's worse where you live.
>Half of the time youre looking at the phone just tracking your dumbass on a MSpaint tier googlemaps
Check your cellphone every once in a while to tap on a pogayman that has appeared near you. It's a very casual and passive game with basically no gameplay but it's not like it set out to be anything more than that.
crying helps a whole bunch I feel slightly better now ^^
>>6561248
It's shit.
>>6561250
jus let it out
don't forgett to hydrharate
Yay day 2 of permaban has been awesome for my pokemon go game.
I took out my first gym :3
It was a firegym and I took it out with my vaporeon. Lol
>>6561250
did you and quid breakup yet?
(cause I want you to be my gf)
>>6561250
feel better Korra
>>6561253
>things shitposting loser trans chasers say
no one cares homie
>>6561255
ill drink lots of mountain dew ^^
>>6561258
unfortunately :(
>>6561261
ty anon <3
Anyone wanna talk? I'm bored to hell.
>>6561266
everyone give Korra lots of love and drinks to make her feel better.
>>6561270
hi im nim
ufufu,
If I come off as salty and mad, sorry. I'm not trying be an ass towards you; I'm just like this generally. I see that living in Japan seems nice especially since you have a shit job. Just don't treat it as an escape. JET is a short term thing. If you apply and go I respect your decision and it definitely won't ruin your life. I did it for school, so...
>>6561264
Blow it out your ass.
>>6561253
It's a mobile game honestly what did you expect? For it's credit it actually utilizes the functions of a mobile phone rather than being a ripoff of old browser games.
>spent the last 12 hours trying to turn the screws on this 5.08 connector
>only 2/4 loose
time to die
>>6561266
be my gf now then
>>6561250
lets play OW together
Has anyone seen the chains smokers? Apparently that's like who were going to see tom
>>6561272
Hi nim. What's a nim?
>>6561273
hey anon. You a grilly grill or a manly man?
>>6561280
It still brings out all the autists in the streets and I dont like it. I also hate seeing their stupid fucking faces burrowed in their fucking screens walking about with no awareness like fucking mindless drones so preoccupied with their shitty ass game they just zone the fuck out and dont even realize what they look like.
>>6561290
im not sure im trying to figure that out
what's an abby
who dog fucker here
Hi nerds
>>6561296
Hi Tina.
>>6561197
Has it been confirmed as a muslim attack yet? I mean, I won't be surprised one bit but still.
>>6561296
>nerds
but you're the nerd, baka
>>6561296
hi chara
you doin alright?
>>6561293
>autists
its mostly normies that are hopping on a trend. it will be mostly autists in a few months though.
>>6561293
>I also hate seeing their stupid fucking faces burrowed in their fucking screens walking about with no awareness like fucking mindless drones
Yeah, I want to go back to before Pokemon Go when no-one did that!
>>6561295
trip on raifu
>>6561271
ty it means a lot <3
>>6561273
anon pls. . . :(
>>6561283
im sry i just can't rn ;;
>>6561286
no computer rn :<
>>6561296
hi
>>6561294
A loser ginger girl who is a nerd and looks a little like Laura Prepon..
>>6561296
I started playing Undertale because of your pictures.
>>6561293
It's kinda cute to see people get so riled up about this shit tbhdesu senpai. My normie friends are playing it so I know for a fact they're not autists.
>>6561301
Saw a vid of the truck driver shouting allahu akbar, unless that was edited over the clip it seems to be religion of peace showing it's virtues yet again.
>>6561316
but I think we could be an amazing couple
>>6561325
I gave up roleplaying long ago and I don't even know your Steam name.
>>6561317
oh
ive seen your pictures, you're very pretty
im too nervous to start hrt but if i ever get the nerve to do it i hope i turn out like you :)
>>6561325
thats right
i'm the master bully
SIMPLY THE BEST
>>6561325
im good
i did some voice training today
i still sound like a cartoon character but ill get it eventually
>>6561325
*teleports behind u*
*gives u a bad time*
pssssh. . . nuthin personal kid. . .
>>6561330
im sry, every anon is nameless and faceless :(
>>6561339
post voice. its important to get used to the idea of people hearing it, itll help you a lot desu
>>6561339
>cartoon voice
Links?
>>6561331
I get literally 5-10 invites people trying to undertale roleplay with me i fucking want to die.
>>6561336
Bully me so hard.
>>6561339
Yay! :3 Just keep practicing friendpal.
>>6561340
NO NO NO
>>6561340
I know I can make you happy in my arms <3
>>6561344
>I get literally 5-10 invites people trying to undertale roleplay with me i fucking want to die.
That actually sounds horrible. This being /mtfg/, I'm assuming erp too?
>>6561344
like
with a whip?
or?
can i bully you to death and or suicide?
is that okay?
>>6561348
Of course.
I don't think any of the invites were from here though.
>>6561348
i..is that so wrong fampai?
>>6561344
let's me honest undertale attracts that type of crowd
>>6561354
Bully me to death.
>>6561356
>tfw the only thing that stops me from passing is my voice.
>>6561363
you posted in that voice thread
you just gotta speak up senpai
>when you cum and the feelings of wanting to be a girl dont go away
uh oh.
>>6561333
Your going to have to try a bit harder if that was an attempt at flattering me :^] Starting HRT is a big decision, definitely not something you want to jump into.
Mercury pls leave
>>6561363
great
im ready and excited
>>6561371
I THINK ITS JUST MY MIC
>>6561363
But Nim's right, your voice is cute as heck, just speak up.
>>6561376
why should i?
>>6561344
*calls sans*
hello I think chara broke her funny bone eheheheh!
>>6561346
mb one day when ur not a nameless faceless anon and im not hurting so much =(
>>6561382
uh huh :)
>>6561381
Good!
>>6561383
I honestly don't know why its so quiet, every mic i use is quiet. I think i fucked something up with my computer.
>>6561396
>>6561202
>two assaults and the most absurd host family experience I've ever come across definitely didn't help my time there, but I recognize that these things were more specific to me.
i would be interested in hearing about these! the host family horror story especially.
>Added up day by day it can really create stress and pressure unlike anything you could imagine. You're not thinking about it on the larger scale of things. I think you are forgetting about your life.
look, i believe you that it ended up creating unbelievable stress and pressure on YOU. im just not convinced that that's widely applicable to all foreigners living and working in japan; like i said, other accounts i have read have acknowledged the issues you've talked about and discussed the societal differences between working in japan and america, but they somehow managed to not think that japan is some kind of hellhole like you seem to??
>Being afraid or not means nothing, I wasn't and still am not, but I still actively acknowledge it and it's annoying to think it even happens. You saw my pics? I got stared at. A lot.
lol @ this meaning anything really, ive gotten stared at a lot my entire adult life for myriad reasons; get ready for it to happen to you a lot as a tranny and then just as much but in a far more predatory way as a woman!
>Please, thinking like this will be harmful for you in the long run.
????
also interested in hearing about you getting frisked for being late
>>6561374
im just being honest!
what age did you start? im 20
d-do you have any advice
oh fuck my dog is going to die soon
>>6561339
over the past few months I've practicing singing a lot I think it has really helped. I think it has given me better control over my voice.
just wrote a song lol
>>6561400
scream into your mic and post pls
>>6561408
I literally used my loudest voice, and my mic barely picks me up. There is something wrong here lol.
>>6561385
Niggers are disgusting.
Go chimp out somewhere else
>>6561422
lol
k
>>6561403
I started just before my 19th birthday. I started puberty really late though.
>advice
Get lucky like I did
>>6561202
ps, i appreciate you spending the time to talk to me about this, so thank u. i am sorry if i am beginning to come across as defensive. i just think that you are not giving me enough credit as an adult to deal with this stuff because you either werent prepared for or simply were not able to deal with the culture divide.
>>6561430
Why do you post anime all the time?
>>6561427
;-;
>>6561434
because im a cute girl and thats what cute girls do duh n_______n
no im just a fuckin trash weeb is all.
>>6561436
how was pizza?
>>6561436
so the key to being cute is posting anime
>>6561436
>im just a fuckin trash weeb
don't think so highly of yourself uf
jk ilu pls don't be so hard on urself
you can make it if you try
I belivee in ur weab drem
>>6561436
Why don't you unweeb yourself
>>6561442
what do you look like?
>>6561430
I love the pics you post pls more
(weeb <3)
>>6561445
>imply8ing being we3b is a choice
bishwuh
>>6561445
>Not being a weeb moving to Japan where everyone will love you.
>>6561446
like a man mercury
like a man
>>6561254
He left me because we were exacerbating each other psych illnesses, not because he was gay.
I'm genderqueer, anyways.
>500 calorie deficit every day this week
>going clubbing tomorrow with ex gf
>been wearing my hair up a lot lately because it's cute and I can wear it up without being clocked
Things are bretty good, especially since I've been here a lot less. How r u doing mtfg
>>6561457
>500 calorie deficit every day this week
Butte have you been working out dat booty?
>Things are bretty good, especially since I've been here a lot less
keep it up
>>6561459
but id feel silly doing that without being on hrt
>>6561454
Are you surviving still? There was something about a shit housing situation right?
>>6561463
you'll feel silly even when on hrt for a while if that's how you feel now
>>6561463
ok
popping estrogen pills doesn't make you a girl though
>>6561439
delicious, but i feel incredibly guilty looking back on everything i ate today. i kind of want to go throw up.
>>6561442
no the key to being cute is to work on your appearance, voice, mannerisms, and wardrobe. i just happen to have already done those things and thoroughly enjoy posting anime.
>>6561444
lmfao ty anon
im gonna apply, at the very least. this is the year i give it a shot.
>>6561445
i think it is FAR too late for that. and besides, i like a shit ton of western stuff too. hell most of my favorite stuff is american/european.
>>6561447
well it doesnt take much to convince me to do that!
>>6561475
>this is the year i give it a shot.
yass! that's wut I like to hear!
I will be rootin' for you!!!
OMG OMG I know u ride a biek right, but like have you seen how qt mini velos are? I want to go to japan to ride one around
>>6561157
god oddish is such a babe, tho
>>6561475
>well it doesnt take much to convince me to do that!
you're based ufufu <3
and good luck!
Fuck I'm so high
Fucking OREGON
>>6561465
Oh, i was losing my roomate and couldn't afford to live here anymore.
I was originally going to go move in with one of my friends in pittsburgh, but someone else just offered and we're talking it out.
>>6561475
oh
i dunno it seems like if you fall out of a certain height, or you've got too manly of a face or a bunch of other factors you're fucked
like i know you you gotta work towards it but it seems like you have to have something there in the first place
i might be dumb i dunno
>>6561486
Yeah she is, I just hope she gets a better living situation soon
>>6561402
I think it's a better mindset to go into things expecting problems to arise rather than going in thinking you are so ready and prepared when there's no way to actually be without prior experience.
If the people you are referring to have an online presence, please source them to me. I'm interested in why they are so positive and maybe I could also give insight into why they think so, not that I'd necessarily be able to though.
Japan is not a hellhole. I'd call it a low-rate first world country. Still much better than most countries.
I wasn't frisked for being late. I was frisked "randomly" like police do to gaijin. If you walk by police, don't be surprised if you are stopped. Chances are lessened if you are a cute gaijin female. In one circumstance I was stopped when I was already late to my late train and it was extremely inconvenient. Came late to class super late because of that and obviously punctuality is more cherished over there.
As for the other stories, second assault was an expat australian (go figure). Japanese guys had my back and not his so it ended fine for me, just a bruise on my face. First assault was a racist Japanese that I honestly incited by accident. He was doing ikinomi to me (peer pressure or forced drinking), physically holding the drink up to make me finish. I thought it was done, there were some drips left and to prove to him I finished it I held the glass above his head. The little bit spilled out and he thought I meant to do it. Received two huge punches, somehow didn't knock me down and he got pulled out the bar. He was huge tho lol. What was creepy tho is he somehow got my number and called me the next day.
The host parent story I haven't told anyone. It seems irrelevant to you, but if you want to hear it I'll have to email you. Still probably entertaining/interesting to read though.
I'm sure this is just entertainment for you at this point, so if you indulge I'm glad I can at least provide some fun in your day.
>>6561490
Noice, It's 4:20 over here so time to roll one.
>>6561490
post aids butte
>>6561490
you're a cute boy
I'm so tired, I can't sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep
>>6561490
Yiff me
>>6561511
I'm a girl!!!! Don't make me fight you
>>6561502
Durban poison
>>6561521
nah you look like a boy
>>6561430
I give you credit as an adult to make this decision, but tbqh idk how old you are. I just *didn't* give credit to you as nth person I've seen online with the "let's go to Japan" meme dream. Really you seem more sensible than most people on 4chan I see who fantasize about going to Japan.
I truly believe I was prepared and handled it while I was there, but in retrospect I don't see how I'd ever want to go back. The good times I had there were some of the best of my life and I'll never forget.
>>6561521
>Durban poison
Is this a strain or some wacky shit I havent tried.
>>6561521
anons are being mean, just go enjoy your time elsewhere.
>>6561521
durban poison is the most entry level shit to buy there
nice job
>>6561524
Too bad people treat me like a girl
>>6561535
you're a girl red!
>>6561535
you have a penis so you're a boy. not like i said anything bad, you're cute
>>6561543
Would you go on a date with me
>>6561499
no, frankly, it's not just entertainment (though the stories are interesting). i actually have always wanted to read/experience as many stories of gaijin living and working in japan as possible, either to live vicariously through or, as now, to get as prepared as possible for what life would be like over there for me.
>I think it's a better mindset to go into things expecting problems to arise rather than going in thinking you are so ready and prepared when there's no way to actually be without prior experience.
i think you're misinterpreting what i mean – actually, i agree and would expect problems to come up were i to live and work in japan. that's exactly why i was asking to hear what made you so adamantly recommend that i not try to do it, so that i could be as prepared as possible for the possibility of getting into jet.
>If the people you are referring to have an online presence, please source them to me. I'm interested in why they are so positive and maybe I could also give insight into why they think so, not that I'd necessarily be able to though.
err, i dont have any particular people in mind, just blogs, articles, or books i have read over the years and the odd conversations with people who've done jet (one girl at my work who has encouraged me to do it, for example.)
interesting about the frisking. that was something i had heard about before but had forgotten about. both that and the drinking story are both kinda not applicable to me tho as a lady ; ;
>>6561547
nah i don't date boys
I think I'm going to check myself into a psych ward for 72hrs.
My suicidal ideation/planning has been out of control all day, no matter how much I try to distract myself. I feel stuck and alone no matter how many people love me. I hate this and I want to die.
>>6561547
i would like to go on a date with Red, shes cute and i want her to take my virginity
>>6561554
I love you Rachel
Please hold on
>>6561554
i hope you come out well and happy, rachel
>>6561554
fuck faye for making you feel like this
>>6561562
same
murder-suicide pact when?
>>6561525
mmmmm, that's fair. i understand that the cultural adjustment is incredibly trying. ultimately, to me, the positives of experiencing those good times seem to (theoretically) outweigh the negatives of the anxieties and difficulties i would have.
>Really you seem more sensible than most people on 4chan I see who fantasize about going to Japan.
well frankly that's kind of a relief.
also, im 26, have moved around the US a bunch of times, graduated college two years ago. somehow, every time i have a crisis and i think about my future, japan inevitably seems to factor into it in some form, which is why i have been thinking that it's finally time to try my hand at working towards ~my dream~. my stupid weeby dream.
>tell ex I'm dressed like an embarrassing tranny
>she immediately cancels dinner
>wants me to go straight up to her hotel room and she'll order in
I don't even want to be here anymore, this was a terrible idea, she's ashamed to go out in public with me
;_;
>>6561574
have some self-respect for yourself
im not trying to be mean
It's a perfect time to read one of my favorite books
>>6561562
will hugs help?
>>6561574
maybe she has a tranny fetish and wants to fuck
>>6561579
If i saw you at the park and whistled at you, would you flash me?
I have a fetish for some types of girly clothes. Am I agp? It's not actually being female that gets my rocks off...
>>6561577
I don't know what you mean, the self degrading comment or like still hanging out with her after she cancelled on everything
>>6561571
what kind of pizza did you eat?
>>6561579
You're vegan though
>>6561589
crossdresser
not agp, not trans, femgen might accept you
>>6561590
if this person doesn't even wanna be public with you shouldn't be giving them the time of day!
>>6561589
Congratulations on being a plain Jane(John?) transvestite.
i can't wait to be thin again desu
>>6561549
Well, if you want THE fucking story, you better give me your email. I swear, every shitty youtube girl host family horror story is pale in comparrison.
And yeah, that was the only problem I had with ikinomi there at least. One positive thing about the policing is that I actually befriended a detective through this profiling shit which was interesting.
The other night I shouldn't have told you not to go. I was drunk, high and moody from dysphoria and obviously I don't know you. I thought you were one of the quicktime lets go to Japan memers, but you're not. There are people stupid enough to go there on a whim as if things will be as easy as back home and generally I want people to stop thinking like that.
I've moved around a bunch too. Why does going to Japan factor into your life plan? Thinking about it now, going could only do either a) make you happy and fulfill your dreams or b) make you realize going to Japan really doesn't mean much for you allowing to move on. Both are positive things even if the experience is negative.
Are you applying for next year? I think deadline is late October. Complete the application now and submit it later so you can examine it over time for stupid shit you may write in your essay.
>>6561547
Red there you are. Ok. I hope you don't mind but I showed my sister a picture of you today and she couldn't believe you were on hrt. You are a girl red!
>>6561610
let me see ur butt
>>6561610
don't do it
GET THICC
>>6561619
n-no
>>6561620
i'm already thicc, i wanna be thin like i used to be
>>6561629
>>6561633
Compromise:
Get thinc
>>6561633
my cam shows have been making me feel better about my weight lose.
My face used to be so much cuter. ;<
And my butt was so much cuter.
Gl on keeping your assets and losing your belly~
>>6561637
* .. if you even have a belly.
that sounded catty, i didn't mean it to
x:
>>6561633
wtf that's not thick
also get a better camera lol
>>6558436
>tfw remembering I posted my thighs while drunk last night
>tfw check and find this post
actually made me feel a little better for some reason
I don't understand why it did but I'm not complaining
>>6561647
please dont look for validation in your self harm
hey do you think Dr Shaw in Prometheus was a tranny which is why she was so surprised to be pregnant
>>6561654
not looking for validation
I don't do that any more
I'm just self conscious about how awful it looks
>>6561655
I believe it
>>6561615
i want to help
>>6561635
n-no
>>6561637
i don't want my assets tho ;_;
>>6561641
that pic is from like 2010 when i was thinner lol
>>6561642
i miss being a skelly with an eating disorder idk
>>6561655
no i met dr shaw and she was laughing about the experience
>>6561661
seek therapy
>>6561657
Mado I'm going to get rekt with you!!!
>>6561661
y-yes
>>6561661
even the good ones?
>i miss being a skelly with an eating disorder idk
pls no, bby
you can be thin without an eating disorder.
You can be thin and healthy.
It's ok.
>>6561661
>i miss being a skelly with an eating disorder idk
that feel :(
>>6561668
Rickety rickety rekt! Five tabs are going to destroy you its gonna be a good time.
Am I pretty mtfg
I always get called cute but I want to be beautiful
>>6561678
You're very pretty bb!
>>6561661
You gotta be healthy...I'm thin and don't have an eating disorder...just work out more!
>>6561678
you are beautiful
>>6561678
yep
How's my favorite hons doing?
>>6561691
>dysphoric
>gets off to wearing women's clothes
AGP.
wat r u listen 2 rn
let us discuss
https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=u56dXF1KxGk&feature=share
>>6561691
okay, well what does dysphoric mean to you?
>>6561698
I'm listening to a podcast called Lore
>>6561697
Typically, cute can easily be turned into beauty, it's just how you present yourself
>>6561698
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DKKOqDNs6Yo
>>6561698
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qGSkviwvjD0
i need a list of products for properly shaving my entire body without getting a full-body rash
>>6561697
You're not cute
>>6561715
scratch that, I meant issue problems
i dont get it why do you want to be girls? what's the end game?
>>6561719
to be a girl
>>6561697
idk to me beauty is just a more "matured" and complex cuteness and usually if you're cute you can also be/eventually be beautiful
>>6561719
Less dysphoria
>>6561664
>>6561670
>>6561675
i just wanna not eat anymore idk
>>6561683
i want to be thinner than u
>>6561719
Most of them never will be
hi everyone
>>6561729
nice grace how are you
>>6561729
Hi
Your image was upside down
>>6561726
therapy, dear
>>6561729
oh hey grace what have you been up to
yay substance abuse
>>6561733
oh thanks
hello
>>6561731
hi nim im okay i guess
how are you
>>6561736
hi anon
ive been having a crap day
how bout you?
hey to all the trips here, is this place kind of like your Cheers?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h-mi0r0LpXo
>>6561737
same
1 year after Ffs and I still notice that my brow looks masculine when I'm angry.
Is this normal for a furrowed brow?
>>6561737
Loser
>>6561741
im good
i got a lot of things done today!
>>6561741
No problem, just doing gods work~
>>6561744
Well the gravity was upside down too silly
>>6561746
way masc, I didn't even realize you had FFS until I read your post
I suggest you quit eating bananas
>>6561747
cant help it
>>6561746
Whomever did your Ffs didn't do a good job
>>6561745
oh no elanna i though you were done being a druggie
>>6561751
woah that cat is rightside up
>>6561758
>Whomever
>Whom
>m
>>6561761
A cat always lands on it's feet
They're beyond my control
hey who's this clairbear character?
>>6561702
Being suicidal and depressed cuz I hate my body.
>>6561767
some dumb hon
>>6561611
alright, hit me up on skype -- junkism
>One positive thing about the policing is that I actually befriended a detective through this profiling shit which was interesting.
that sounds super cool; japanese policework is really interesting in how different it is from america. i read 'people who eat darkness' last year and that painted a pretty awful portrait of the TMPD.
>I thought you were one of the quicktime lets go to Japan memers, but you're not.
i appreciate this! and honestly it's fine that you told me that because this has been a pretty valuable discussion i think. im actually glad to hear from someone who feels more negatively about their time there.
>Why does going to Japan factor into your life plan?
probably because it's always been in the back of my mind, meaning that no matter how hard i try, i dont think i'll be able to move past it. and i don't necessarily want to move past it without trying. ive just always imagined going there. idk.
>Thinking about it now, going could only do either a) make you happy and fulfill your dreams or b) make you realize going to Japan really doesn't mean much for you allowing to move on. Both are positive things even if the experience is negative.
EEEEEEEEEEEXACTLY
i am planning on applying for next year, yeah. i was thinking of starting on my app last week but it's not online yet ; ;
>>6561610
EDIE I FEEL SO GUILTY ABOUT EATING SO MUCH TODAY EVEN THOUGH I DECIDED I WOULD STOP DIETING FOR MY TRIP TODAY HELP
>>6561775
neither
get professional halp
>>6561754
It's smooth when I'm not furrowing it, but it still looks lumpy when furrowed
http://www.strawpoll.me/10750235
http://www.strawpoll.me/10750235
http://www.strawpoll.me/10750235
http://www.strawpoll.me/10750235
http://www.strawpoll.me/10750235
http://www.strawpoll.me/10750235
http://www.strawpoll.me/10750235
>>6561781
yes you are right, i'm sorry, i hope you can learn to forgive me in time
>>6561785
frowning release testosterone which temporarily makes your skull grow, giving you your brow
when you stop frowning the estrogen takes over again and the bone recedes
>>6561785
get some botox and get over it
You've been obsessing over your brow for years, get some more therapy, you need it.
>>6561781
hello :)
doing well?
>>6561750
That's good to hear!
>>6561755
thank you
getting some neat stuff in the mail and spending time with kari on overwatch and dkype helps
>>6561775
can i just skip to my eternal punishment? ill take suicide
>>6561751
god bless
>>6561778
>razor
>shaving cream
>loofah (one of those things you scrub yourself with)
>soap
>hot water
>lotion
just fucking use warm water, use the loofah to exfoliate, shave with cream, use the loofah again, then apply moisturizer. once you do it more than once a month youll stop getting any trouble
>>6561794
the only thing id really want done to my face is a chin augmentation since mines so weak and flat. id rather shill out for a nice axe wound and maybe fake tits or fat injections in my ass, i feel okay with my face usually
>>6560823
That image is heartbreaking ;_;
>>6561794
whatchu want done tho?
>>6561791
It's ok, I'm doing drugs tomorrow anyways ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
>>6561796
Yee, I'm at my last d&d sesh and bored cuz combat
>>6561790
already am
>>6561790
looks like most of us got the right answer
so everyone, when's your next appointment?
mine's in ~3 hours
>>6561805
>tfw you've wanted to play d&d for years but dont have any friends
>>6561790
I kinda want to get therapy but I doubt I could talk about anything there.
>>6561799
Looks better than in the online pic you showed earlier, is it the same color?
>>6561809
i dont need therapy i know ill solve all my problems on my own soon enough, just gotta think harder
>>6561809
I ran out of appointments with my school therapist because I dropped out. I got a referral for mones tho.
>>6561810
>tfw you've wanted to play d&d for years but dont have any friends
I know that feel.
>>6561816
gl bb but that ain't gonna work
Who is the most filtered trip?
http://www.strawpoll.me/10750261
http://www.strawpoll.me/10750261
http://www.strawpoll.me/10750261
>>6561815
but i want to play irl
playing online seems to suck some of the energy out of it
>>6561821
wait are we supposed to tick the ones we have filtered or the ones we thing are most filtered?
cause I don't have anyone filtered desu
I'm pretty sure rachel would be close to the most filtered, but I really like her actually
Fucking beard shadow. I can't ever make it go away if I try shaving every day to, you know, not have facial hair like a man. I can only make it go away if I let it grow a little bit then shave, but I don't wanna let my facial hair grow at all.
I hate this shit and I don't have money for laser.
>>6561829
woman up and pluck all that shit out
>>6561826
>I'm pretty sure rachel would be close to the most filtered
why? She's cute and really smart and actually has a normal life with a real job? Just has a lot of mental illness issues
>>6561820
it's worked so far besides my life being terrible
>>6561835
I did once, it was amazing for like a week. Then the next week oh god, it started growing back but just under the skin, not long enough to shave it or pluck it again. And it was even worse than beard shadow, I had like a million black dots that I couldn't do anything about. My facial hair is just dark as fuck.
>>6561814
It's more green in person, idk why my cameras are turning it brown
>>6561815
I'll clean it eventualllyyyyyyy
And when you do tell me your bnet!!
>>6561838
>my brow bossing is a lot more noticeable now that ive lost a bunch of weight
FUG I deliberately stay a fatty so my bone structure doesn't show, my face is like the last thing to get soft when I'm fat. I want to be like... rail thin but it hurts to look at.
I don't ever have downlighting because of it, I totally feel you.
>>6561838
have you talked to Rachel recently? You two are friends, right? She's talking about checking herself into a mental hospital. She's been really unstable this past week and had a manic episode and then crashed. I'm actually worried about her I just wanted to know if you knew if she was okay :(
>>6561822
irl is definitely different, but online does admittedly have its charms. ultimately it is a very social thing, if you have people to have with irl then youll enjoy it more there, if you have good friends online youll have a blast there. the mechanics of the games can be fun to play with but if you cant get along with the other players/gm then youre not going to really enjoy it that much.
>>6561833
:((((((
its a really bad feeling. i still think about some of my old characters i had to leave behind when i moved.
>>6561838
there is always that. everybody can always look a little nicer, no point in settling when you dont have to
>>6561846
ill skype it 2 u soon
pretty cute coat too, the mix of digital and more classic stuff is really effay
>>6561846
You're cute as heck in it <3
I want Rachel to be okay. She's so nice and cool irl
>>6561790
STOP USING MY TRIP
>>6561821
Hah! of course it's Faye. She makes it doubly infuriating by constantly changing her name/trip too because she is obviously aware that a lot of people filter her. My filter list is full of like 5 different names and 5 different trips that she's used.
>>6561777
I can give you a list of files you should just have scanned ready to submit as well any ideas about the essay stuff. I'll add you soon.
I've been reading Natsu Kirino recently. Her novels are almost too standard, but give a deep insight on individuality in a collectivist society by changing narrator frequently.
Something I didn't mention because it isn't exactly relevant to your situation is the university system. I took a jap lit class that was a joke. The teacher actually brainraped me ideas from tower of london by natsumei souseki. Read it, I wanna know what you think about it. Other classes were just free jokes.
>>6561851
is this shelby?
can you stop being a creeper please????
Awwe thanks mtfg for giving me a voice
>>6561857
I'll get another one then bb :P
probably not one that kato used tho
kato a cray cray :P
>>6561821
wow i'm nod on it ;-;
>>6561854
my only friends are 3 online buddies ive had since i was like 11 but they've moved and become normies
they all live in the same area so i've slowly been getting cut out as we get older
i think i realized too late that i was using xbox live as a crutch instead of making irl friends
>>6561838
can you post your face post-weight loss?
>>6561821
>no sheen option
>>6561856
Everyone who has ever known her or met her here says this. She seems really interesting and cool but I'm too shy to ask her to be skype friends...
I want her to be okay too, she's really inspiring to me. She seems to have her life pretty together. Even with the mental illness stuff - She had mentioned that she changed her medication recently and I'm sure most of the recent problems come from that.
Rachel if you're reading this I want you to know that I find you really inspiring and beautiful. I just want you to be happy, so many people here care about you.
>>6561862
I filter you sometimes if you are just constantly talking about sex and getting fucked it just gets too much you know? I like to try to keep people unfiltered mostly though.
>>6561869
gotchu senpai :)
>>6561821
why me
>>6561868
>who would do this though, and why
They only post about how much of a hon they are and how their life is worse than everyone else's.
>>6561879
looks like maddie
>>6561873
Yeah, I'm not going to lewdpost as much anymore!
>>6561879
oh no
>>6561821
Rachel Cabal > Faye Coven
>>6561888
>>6561895
you matter :)
>>6561897
who is in the Rachel Cabal?
who is in the Faye Coven?
>>6561891
i like red lewd posting, its hot and i wish you would write out all your stories
>>6561899
nno I don't XD stoopp lyying please
I've e ddealt wiht otooo muhc pain
>>6561883
You're a commie? Only thing I can think of.
Both Rachel and Faye are great...
So much division
SO i went to the neighbourhood walk-in clinic for something (comparatively) normal and after seeing a doctor, given a taxi chit, escorted outside and the driver was told i need to go to the hospital. i was in the general psychiatric emergency ward overnight and i saw a bunch of doctors and i remember a bunch of conversations, like some general content, but i still can't figure out why i was sent there. (i'm fine, at least compared to EMERGENCY WARD shit.) some CRISIS workers showed up at my apartment today--i did not buzz them in--and i forget what that was about too, if it was about anything at all. (i'm fine)
this shouldn't be my life at age 32.
anyway, here i am i guess affirming to myself i'm home i've been here since uh, morning, and WON'T be having any more visitors. hope everyone is as fine as i am!
i think maybe i'll practice my grammar on here for a bit just in case
or maybe try to figure out if i haven't slept, i know nothing about that either. ok. i know i need that info
>>6561907
A S P D
rachel passed away at the psych ward today
Terribly bored right now
entertain me mtfg
>>6561848
yeah. being a little thicker can help with that, though if it doesnt sit right on your body that's a no-go imho
.
my body looks a lot nicer now but my face... eh...
id post a pic but no makeup rn and i look kinda a mess
>>6561851
im going to text her rn but if she said that then i believe that she will probably do that.
>>6561854
if i can get the money together for ffs, yeah.
>>6561860
ive been wanting to read natsuo kirino for a while now! i should pick up grotesque or out, i think we usually have cheap copies at the bookstore i work at. ive also been meaning to read natsume soseki as well. dang.
as far as modern japanese writers go i like kawabata and mishima; contemporary of course murakami, but also banana yoshimoto and ive quite liked what ive read of miyuki miyabe's.
>I can give you a list of files you should just have scanned ready to submit as well any ideas about the essay stuff. I'll add you soon.
thatd be cool :o
>>6561869
no, not rn
>>6561879
lmao
>>6561907
Has to be it.
>>6561911
SO
>>6561915
Thanks for recommending cool Japanese authors for me to read
>>6561909
Rachel is a nice intelligent, slightly mentally unstable girl who's actually helped a lot of people here with their transition.
Faye is a weird old fetishist who backstabs, preys on young transgirls, and photoshops her photos to appear prettier.
>>6561910
were you asking the doctor to give you a penectomy or something? I really don't understand your story Tbh.
>>6561919
OH. Yeah I could see that.
>>6561923
>tfw faye will never prey on you and then backstab you
>>6561919
ASPD isn't sociopathy. That's more NPD or Psychopathy. ASPD's can still make friends that aren't "allies" and make emotional connections to others.
For example, Chara actually has people she considers her friends. No really, just ask her.
>>6561914
i wouldve sung you a song earlier
making a bong desu
I quite enjoy Chara
>>6561910
That's odd, memory problems like that not remembering what happened that day sounds unusual. You should probably try to figure out what happened for your own sake.
>>6561915
>though if it doesnt sit right on your body that's a no-go imho
it's all in my ass, I've always been like that though my mexican genes are like
>commander butte reporting for booty
or like idk but yeah I've decided to go with something different and losing weight will help me save up for FFS faster anyway.
You really are inspiring when you post about how your body is changing btw, keeps me going. I think out of everyone here, over the years, you've influenced me the most to be a better person. thx uf
>>6561868
a lot of ppl i think. i complain about my appearance A LOT. ppl probs got sick of it.
>>6561870
frick off dweeb.
>>6561884
i only post about how everyone looks better. everyone's life sorta sucks on the same level. if suffer was objective that would suuuckkkk.
>they
nice. can't say i don't sorta deserve that one.
>>6561931
Yeah I know, I'm one of them :3
>>6561867
making friends irl is hard if you arent used to it but still doable. and online friends are only a crutch if you let it be, you can have really great connections with online friends and its serious and real, but you do still need people irl to be around. u can do it
>>6561910
sounds like what id expect from a psych ward desu, if youve been there since morning you havent rested much, try and relax a littel
>>6561915
if you dont mind science fiction and want to weeb it up yoshiki tanaka's books have been translated pretty recently and its hands down the greatest space opera ever written. you could watch the anime and get most of the experience as well but the books are nice too.
kiwi, oddish, rachel and beepbeep passed away last night
faye survived
>ppeopple ingnooring ann oppoiurtnity to makek someone kill thememselves
wtf 4c han you're sliiping
beest way uto kill self? painlels and wyay without mooost faear
>>6561915
I've read Out and Real World. Both are similar. Out is fleshed out more and has broader character types. This brazilian immigrant in it gives the feels.
>tfw out Pokémon hunting with friends 20 miles away in a diff city to cheer me up
my friends really do spoil me <3 there's so many other ppl out here even though it's midnight!
>tfw you think youre the ugliest thing in the world but at the same time think you're cute
>tfw keep switiching between these two mindsets
this is getting kinda annoying
>>6561777
omg lmao
nice digits t b h. i was playing OW. but if you're on vacation then why feel bad?!
>>6561949
Let other people decide for you, that's what I try to do
>>6561943
what happened to oddish
>>6561931
What do you mean by arent allies?
>>6561919
>>6561924
I guess so.
>>6561931
Mostly. Not in the same way you would consider friends.
>>6561935
Thanks mother.
>>6561942
yeah those online friends were basically my actual friends for a long time
we talked like every day for like 4 hours while playing xbox
i even went to visit them last year
but we've grown up and so it's easier to drift apart
im probably just gonna put up a flier at the comic book store and start a d&d group
>>6561926
i do not either. no the penectomy wasn't a topic of convo tho
penectomy was facebook wall material, reflecting on this ????? ????? to try and uh un-????? made me shy a little
>>6561953
lol that never works out for me :p
>>6561955
she passed away
>>6561944
best way to kill yourself is to die in old age from natural causes with the people you love beside you.
>>6561958
>Mostly. Not in the same way you would consider friends.
How do you think they differ?
>>6561918
haha np
>>6561937
hey!!! this is so nice. ; ; thank YOU. it's positive anons and cool people to talk to that keeps me coming back to the mtfg community. i love u. best of luck!!!!!!!
>>6561942
oh, ive seen logh. i didnt LOVE it love it. though it was pretty good. didnt realize the books were starting to get translated :o though honestly i should work on my japanese again and read all this shit in glorious 日本語 anyways
>>6561945
cooooooooool
time to move that up on my to read list !!
>>6561951
JUST BECAUSE!!!! IT MAKES ME FEEL GROSS INSIDE ; ;
>>6561963
I dunno, I figure if I think I'm ugly but everyone else says I'm cute, I gotta be wrong
>>6561931
>Chara has friends
lol like who?
>>6561923
Rachel also works hard and has been through a lot in her life. She's really inspiring to me. She's been raped and beaten, she was outed in college after living stealth, she's had to go off hormones for a few months because of a heart condition, she's overcame heroin addiction and alcoholism, and she still struggles with bipolar. And yet after all this, she still somehow manages to hold down real salaried jobs and be a nice and caring person to the people around her. She's strong as heck.
Faye just plays video games all day and bullies people online.
>>6561953
Only works out for you cause everyone calls you cute constantly.
>>6561971
what happens if you haven't posted a picture but people still call you cute
>>6561971
I find it hard to listen to other people's opinions if they are positive
if negative i take it to heart ;_;
>>6561967
nno o ii meannt suiciide dummmy
Uhhh I met both Rachel and Faye irl and they BOTH seem to be lovely people
>>6561978
I thought you had posted a picture, am I confusing you with someone else?
>>6561942
yeah i like relax-idea. settled.
>>6561958
am and rachel consider you their friend afaik
>>6561987
well ok once but no one noticed it
hhowow baout if fsomemone helps me ekill myseulf ii''ll ppost boobs
>>6561984
who did you like more? pick a side dammit!
>>6561969
What do you think makes someone a friend?
>>6561973
I do have friends surprisingly.
>>6561991
I know.
>>6561973
Rachel does honestly impress me for those reasons, but I think you're selling Faye short, she also eats a lot of sushi and exercises and stuff, and is apparently trying to get back into the military for some crazy reason. I think both of them are decent people with some major difficulties, but still, that describes most of us I think.
>>6561999
is this marissa? don't kill yourself nigga and stop drinking so much too
>>6561996
I'm pretty sure I did, and commented on you honestly not looking bad at all. I'm not sure why you can't accept that.
>>6562003
>What do you think makes someone a friend?
Mutual caring for eachother and enjoying eachother's presence to some degree, I think.
>>6561970
Omg, I love you too!! thanks, I will try my hardest to achieve my goals.
I always try to keep it positive and play it cool
such a pretty spot for Pokémon hunting
>>6561953
What if the only people who call me cute are my friends and I can clearly tell they're hugboxing because it doesn't matter how bad a pic I show they still say I'm cute and some even say I pass. I don't have BDD do I?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y688upqmRXo
can we talk about something that's not dumb and dramatic tho
like something important like makeup and clothes
>>6562003
im chara now
>>6562005
>she also eats a lot of sushi and exercises and stuff
and this makes her strong or good how?
>is apparently trying to get back into the military
yeah, because she's a fetishist and will never actually live full-time as a woman. you realize that she still isn't full-time, right? even after like 5 years on hormones. There's something wrong with someone who isn't living as a girl after 5 years of hormones. She just wants to be a sissy boy with tits, which she is now I suppose
>>6562009
noot marisa
ALSO HOLLY SHITT SECOND TIMME GETTING TRIIOSPPS
>>6561966
did she kill herself
>>6562018
I ate a whole lot of cookies today and barely left my couch.
>>6562010
dunno
everyone called me ugly growing up so its not easy to believe otherwise
>>6562022
Faye lives as a girl!
>>6562011
I can enjoy peoples presence.
I don't care about people, or myself for that matter.
>>6562014
I like the smell of fountains.
>>6562021
What a time to be alive.
>>6562022
It doesn't she is trash.
Rachel and Faye are not comparable.
>>6561978
It's based on personality then.
>>6561996
I did. You're cute.
>>6561979
Yeah, that's how dysphoria works. Instead of hugboxing you want to hatebox yourself.
>>6561992
>how to do this???
i dunno mang
>>6562016
You might have BDD. The way I figure SOMEONE in my friends would have said I'm an ugly fucker by now if it was true.
>>6562024
she got strangled in her sleep by her ramen hair
>>6562022
It's not like there's anything wrong with being a boy with tits, though.
>>6562032
Yeah i hate myself i cant think see myself in a positive light mostly
Sometimes i feel i shouldnt even bother transition
>>6561981
Mix fountain drinks.
>>6562032
p-please dont do this to me
I wish there was a way to reconcile the tear ripping mtfg apart. Rachel and Faye are beautiful people
I don't think chara actually has ASPD I think she just acts edgy as fuck and pretends for attention. Just my internet expert opinion though.
>>6562039
Never let anything stop you!
>>6562022
rachel has done just as much shit as faye has. they're still ppl. stop makin things shitty.
>>6562025
>eating cookies
>eating
woah
>>6562034
STOP LMAO
>>6562050
Except my dysphoria
>>6562027
Even if you were ugly (you're not), why would that be such a big problem?
>>6562029
Is this what she tried to tell and show you? She really doesn't, ask anyone else who knows her.
>Rachel and Faye are not comparable.
there are comparable as in, Faye is disgusting and pathetic when compared with Rachel.
>>6562037
no, but it's weird for a mid-30s boy with tits to spend their time on a board mostly for 16-25yo trans girls.
>>6562030
Wouldn't that mean you implicitly care to some degree? Or, should you lose one, does the caring not go beyond losing a source of enjoyment?
>>6561942
the flier stuff usually works, showing up and being a regular face helps too. maybe even try getting into magic
>>6561970
its probably my favorite anime, but yeah theyre getting translations. i think they might all already be actually. if you can do any japanese might as well go pure then
>>6561989
good. now rest
>>6562045
WOOOOOOWWW kiidd
Well our room service dinner was ok...
She felt my boobs and was like, ooo their so hard and perky, and like said She wouldn't be able to tell if I didn't talk and that it was crazy From who I was before
Idkkkk very cute even if she was basically ashamed of me
>>6562032
>The way I figure SOMEONE in my friends would have said I'm an ugly fucker by now if it was true.
I get a decent amount of people ignoring/skipping my questions about how I look though, that can't be a good sign :s
>>6562069
She gloated about being the last one to fuck me as a guy with no hrt too, which was weird
>>6562010
>I'm not sure why you can't accept that.
it's hard to accept for some of us. some of us don't like hearing it because it fucks with a fundamental part of our outlook. eventually the pillar that rejects compliments will fall, but that is an essential part of some peoples self, that their structural integrity will be fucked, as far as their own view of what they know to be true. i dunno, i could be totes wrong, that's just my deal and i could be an outlier.
>>6562032
i need to know tho ;-; i can't accept anything but the bad vibes and it would be better if i could take some good vibrations, y'know?
>>6562057
i dont wanna be a hon
>>6562058
I'm also a 30 year old boy with tits that spends a lot of my time here, but I guess that doesn't dispel the notion that it's weird I guess.
>>6562046
come on, you cute
sing some music 4 us
>>6562055
I just had another cookie on your behalf.
>>6562083
I was hanging with an ex I dated for three years who hasn't seen me since before transition.
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
who is the biggest cyberbully here?
>>6562083
neither does yours but here we areeeeeee
>>6562090
are they thin mints????
>>6562083
You're trash! Go visit a mental clinic!
>>6562086
Being ugly and being a hon are different things.
>>6562100
i dont wanna be ugly either
>>6562070
>I get a decent amount of people ignoring/skipping my questions about how I look though, that can't be a good sign :s
Get a brutally honest friend and have them be straight up with you I guess
But I can say you're cute so
Don't worry.
>>6562094
Me. I'm pulling all the strings behind the scenes and nobody will believe me admitting it.
>>6562078
Relax then, you have so much potential just waiting to happen. Pre-hrt I felt like I was doomed often, but now apparently people like me.
>>6562073
I mean, I really don't know how to help you there. Stop fighting people when they want to be positive about you. Just accept it. It's not them that's wrong, it's you.
>>6562097
I'm pretty pumped. It was the last card I needed for my pally deck. And I also got the Mei skin I wanted in overwatch. Tonight is the best.
>>6562094
(you) are.
>>6562095
No they're giant ass chocolate chip cookies. I'm afraid to know the calories but I can't gain more than 1.1kg if the whole pack weighs that much right?
>>6562106
Nobody wants to be ugly. And lucky for you, you aren't.
>>6562107
People say that and i try to keep my chin up
but when i start feeling better my mood crashes hard
>>6562089
its late but heres one from the last thread
http://vocaroo.com/i/s0NmSScluBTC
>>6562112
She made fun of me being sexually harassed, so nah.
>>6562115
what do you look like? i've always wondered.
>>6562107
>Get a brutally honest friend and have them be straight up with you I guess
I think I got a pretty good grasp of how I look desu. Some people seem honest and can point out my less desirable features even though they call me cute. Self-awareness is painful but maybe some day I'll make it :p
>>6562115
okay
i guess ill try to believe that
godo fucking damniy
I jusut want to diie
no oone giives mem reall tips on killiing myself andn even iif someone did i don't' have theh balls too jgo througuh tiwiht it
i just have to oliive with thie s shiitty lifie and pain thheh erest of m lfei and thehre's nothing i can doo about it
What's the best anime with transgender themes or a lead trans character?
SRS QUESTION PLS. I don't watch anime and I want to see something cute with trans girls
>>6562127
go to bed
tomorrow is another day :)
>>6562113
oh, my poor, sweet, summer child...........
>>6562128
but ur a literal who
>>6562128
>telling a rape survivor to "not be a little bitch" about the numerous times she was sexually harassed as well
Class act.
>>6562130
exxaclly
aanother dayy of dealingn with mental instabiltiy
another dya of being a failiyuure
another dya of naxietyy and deperesion
another dayy of guillt
>>6562128
^~^
How's your night going?
>>6562128
i was once scared that going on hormones would make me a crybaby but you've helped me get over that fear
thank you :)
(im not referencing anyone!)
>>6562134
did anyone save that photo that Rachel posted with all the scars she has from being raped and beaten in a stairwell?
>>6562135
you seem intoxicated
perhaps you should come back to this when you're sober?
>>6562135
hmm. well, have you tried not being a failure?
>>6562129
tranny no tranny
>>6562141
wait, she posted a photo of this? jesus christ that's sad...
>>6561698
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W-JuOLAXZDs
>>6562086
same desu.
>>6562093
>only one bad card
noice
>>6562107
ahhhhh, it's hard to take them though. like i just keep feeding my hate, it's so much easier to just give into my instincts. how do i even know if anything i see is as it is then, like if i can't see myself for what i look like, where does it stop?
>>6562135
doing something helps a lot. like just something do look forward to or like to do.
>>6562151
wish granted ive seen your pics
>>6562148
pls, only serious answers please.
I'm just a sad transgirl that wants to see other cute transgirls in anime form so i can feel less shitty about my 3D existence :(
WHAT IS THE BEST TRANSGENDER ANIME
WHAT IS THE BEST TRANSGENDER ANIME
WHAT IS THE BEST TRANSGENDER ANIME
>>6562131
>I'm more popular than you.
fuck you, you dick.
>>6562117
You gotta figure out what triggers these mood crashes.
>>6562123
You will, won't be hard for you to.
>>6562121
Joan is the anime mom you imagine her to be.
>>6562151
Use some strength and stop giving in. You have to put your foot down to dysphoria mentally as well as physically. You already did the latter by starting transition, now it's time to make the mental changes.
>>6562141
How awful someone could do that to another person.
>>6562153
oddish is that you
>>6562157
sorry i dont watch anime :(
>>6562121
Tall (6'4"), skinny except for a slight belly, long brown hair, glasses, boobs that look tiny on my wide chest, and facial hair that I'm trying to get rid of but laser takes forever.
>>6562153
i doubt it's impossible
>>6562158
lmao i love how i called her a literal who after she said my opinion was worthless and hers was the only one that matters and that's what u got out of that. never change, mtfg
>>6562128
Because I wanted her to have the comfort that even though I was the "love of her life" that she "never got over" that I'm a tranny and it's cool now.
She talked about me in the third person though like he was someone else, which was weird
>>6562121
Joan is Mercy from Overwatch
>>6562162
noooooope
onne more guuess /mmtfg/ oor tyoou lose o:
>>6562159
Dysphoria
see myself in the mirror and other reflections
mood swings
depresssion
and comparing myself to others constantly
>>6562164
do you have clown feet like me :o
>>6562168
kato/flannel
>>6562165
>fat ppiece eof hsit
>guullt and anxieity problems
>alocoholism
>eatitng discooorgerd
>adhdh
>dadd hates me foor bebnig an trnayy
>ppoor annd constanntly beihnd on all buiils
so yyea impostibel :^)
>>6562172
WRRONNNG yoou looosee
hehre's it's me nowo o:
>>6562165
>chara is a "literally who"
top kek, she posts her more than you. you're the real "literally who" go jack off on camera for $0.05 at a time and fuck strangers for pittance you worthless whore
>>6562174
everything will be okay birdy
>>6562169
>Dysphoria
It'll get better soon.
>see myself in the mirror and other reflections
iktf, again that'll improve over time
>mood swings
>depresssion
For me at least these improved a lot once I started transition
>and comparing myself to others constantly
Stop this, nothing good comes of it.
>>6562178
wtf lol
>>6562179
haha noo it wont' thio
>tfw your mom comes home while you're voice training
http://vocaroo.com/i/s0kMTLk2j6kt
also why didn't you guys tell me to switch to a breathy voice i do it halfway through this and it sounds much better imo
>>6562174
you can still turn it around. why give up on yourself now tf????
>>6562178
you seem upset. is it because ur a who, too? how is whoville this time of year? u will have to tell me
>>6562129
Hourou Musuko (Wandering Son) is pretty much the only attempt at an anime with a trans focus that treats it as something other than a joke or fetish fuel.
>>6562178
The only way Edie will ever be a who is if she somehow became the mayor of whoville
Now I remember why I don't like this place. Good night /mtfg/.
Should I get a pet ferret? I saw a girl walking one on a lease and it looked really cute
>>6562189
but arent you on hormones
big tits rule
>>6562189
Uh excuse you? I was raped at 16, want me to tell you the story? I'm disengaging from this.
>>6562194
Goodnight anon
>>6562196
It doesn't make me cry.
But im not a good example for this.
>>6562200
Oh, yeah.. sure you were. :)
>>6562195
if you have the ability. Theyre high maintenance. Kind of crazy.
>>6562195
I think ferrets stink
>>6562171
Well, they're like size 12 mens, but they don't seem particularly disproportionate to the rest of my body at least.
>>6562198
>big tits rule
strewth
>>6562195
It's a lot of work and you have to clean them often. They also have a special oder cause of their body oils. If you can commit to them they are very fun and loving pets their smart too almost like children
>>6562195
travel to your nearest ferret den with enough food and supplies for two weeks
camp out in front of the den until you see ferret scouts come out to investigate
offer them food from your supply and ask to speak to the king
make sure not to look him directly in the eyes or he will eat you alive
let the scouts tell the king about what you gave them
this will warm his heart and he will allow you to take a ferret home with you