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previous thred >>6489896
post ur timeline~
>>6490984
So, I wore (pic) a few times with just my thong gaff under it. I loved hitting the used clothing stores in NYC.
>tfw male with improperly differentiated brain
>>6491197
Hi. I'm in Austin. It's pretty nice out. Tons of cute people come here to be cute.
>>6491203
;~~~;
Threadly reminder that you're all beautiful and I love you all.
>>6491203
pls, not now
I want to suck ufufu's baby estrogen filled nuts
https://unsee.
cc/tozarume/
Any hope of ever passing or should I just repress until the end of days like I have planed?
>>6491205
also 2 year 5 months right here
>tfw no qt bf
>>6491205
dang~
how to get date on okcupid
>get messages from older "straight" or "bicurious" guys whose first or second message is "want to hook up"
>gay guys not interested in a tranny (apparently)
>cis lesbians converse and send a ton of messages, but no intention in dating
>other people tell me I'm fairly attractive and are surprised how I do not get dates
i don't think its my profile. is it just that I'm not "girl" enough, or not "guy" enough? it feels as if ambiguity confuses and i get treated like either a fetish or that "gay/queer friend" girls want
>>6491221
>>6491228
>cis lesbians converse and send a ton of messages, but no intention in dating
What's up with this?
>>6491213
>not now
But this is forever
>>6491232
Women love bonding, silly.
I do this too.
>>6491234
I think you need electroshock hypnosis... So you forget about it forever.
>>6491234
shut up shut up shut up ;~;
I don't want to feel these feels I don't want to feel like a freak again
fucking makeup how dose it work?
>>6491248
1: Be beautiful and Polish
2: ????
>>6491240
TECHNICALLY
super high test males make the best girls
>>6491254
how high was your test?
New clothes :3
>>6491254
masculine isn't necessarily high test
>>6491245
You're not a freak. Nobody here is a freak. We're all just natural results of the imperfections of the human reproductive system. At least you were born with all your limbs and aren't mentally retarded.
>>6491244
If only
>>6491197
December 2015: weak male
July 2016: femboy
>>6491255
Mummy, hi <3
>>6491248
DO you really not pass irl or are you fishing for compliments?
>>6491257
what is high test/low test?
>>6491260
i mean, same af
>>6491244
Hey! You're alive!
How about that electrocshock hypnosis that turns you into a cock hungry slut like in my japanese animated documentaries?
morning ladies
tell me if I should turn down the guy who wants to bang me, for some reason I feel as though I made a mistake even making a dating profile
>>6491255
Self medded at first b/c nobody actually qualified in the state :/
??
>>6491257
It is when youre trying to be fem and look like this
>>6491259
>At least you were born with all your limbs and aren't mentally retarded.
this actually gets me because there are people born in far worse situations starving or limbless or whatever and I'm just depressed because I'm not a girl, I feel selfish in a way
>>6491265
High or low testosterone levels
>>6491268
are you going to use enema or are you going to be shitty?
>>6491259
>and aren't mentally retarded.
I am pretty sure I am on some level
actually had a conversation about that yesterday
in other news: I still want to eat pizza with you ._.
>>6491261
hey bby <3
>>6491269
PAIS tend to have incredibly high test and pass really easily
>>6491228
okcupid dating tips:
1) download the okcupid app. it'll show you as logged in at all times which gets you more traffic.
2) if a guy mentions anything weird or you get any kind of funny feeling, stop responding immediately
3) make sure your profile is interesting enough to draw people in and has things that the guy can start a convo with
4) only talk to guys you have 75%+ match with, ignore anyone lower than that
5) don't reply if the message is only a few words
6) answer every question he asks you, and always ask your own (but don't be the only one pursuing the convo or asking questions)
7) have at least 5 pics, two of which are with friends, one that's you outside, and two selfies
8) make sure to answer 250~300 questions on okcupid as well, this will def help
9) if you get bored either answer more questions or change up your profile a bit. you'll show up in everyone's feed when you do that.
10) make sure to use quickmatch when you're bored as well. matching with a cute guy gives an opportunity for a conversation.
11) the most important is just be yourself, don't be desperate, and keep in mind that if they're not interested you don't need them. there's nothing less appealing than a girl who sexts a guy on okcupid the first night they're talking, or who just keeps talking even if he's being creepy or an asshole. unless you're making fun of him. in which case troll away.
12 (optional) put that you're trans on your profile. it helps filter out the cute guys who will drop you as soon as they find out.
>>6491263
joke aside, I struggle with passing.
>>6491269
hey kayla
>>6491197
>>6491228
My OkC profile is geared towards not getting messages. And it works. It's a leftover from when the site was still mostly a tests and quizzes thing and not the impersonal online dating mess it's now.
Javs have the best porn titles ever
>[ELO341] I'm creepy and live alone. When I called up a cleaning service that only has young wives working for it, I showed her my hard cock and porn collection, and she must've been frustrated, cause she started playing with my cock and she was loving it!
>
[HUNT913] Classmate Molester Play – I Pretended To Feel Up My Female Classmate On A Crowded Train Just For Kicks. I Was Only Messing Around, But I Got Hard! When I Couldn't Take It Anymore And Tried To Force Her To Fuck Me. However, She Was Wet And Ready To Ride!
>
[SNIS450] The Female President Of A Company That Handles Complaints. She'll Settle Any Dispute By Kneeling On The Ground And Offering Her Body Saki Okuda
>[HNTV001] Does crampie Seme Freeze in Extreme Minus 40 Degree Weather?
>>6491275
Obv, b/c their body is over producing.
Free T is irrelevant in their stupid shitty bodies
>>6491259
>Nobody here is a freak.
I am. Nothing to do with my being trans, though...
>>6491276
>methods of hunting random cock
>>6491275
You aren't retarded <3
They are checking me for autism so I probs am .____.
>>6491269
You have very small ribcage and shoulders I hope you know that.
>>6491283
STOP INSULTING KAYLA LIKE THAT. SHE DID NOTHING TO YOU.
>>6491280
Just do what I did. Make a lot of money and have a professional cut your face up and make you cute.
>>6491270
It doesn't make you selfish, but hopefully it gives some perspective. On the list of birth defects that you could have wound up with, a female brain is honestly one of the more fixable ones, and matters less and less after you "fix" it.
>>6491275
I'm p sure if you were actually retarded you wouldn't have ever made it to a master's degree. Also: pizza party when ?
>>6491296
That makes sense
I was struggling to put on some tights just now and it made me remember something
>in a dressing room with a girl friend
>I'm trying a skirt on, it's a lot tighter than I realized
>she turns around to get a look at the skirt
>we both notice my bulge at the same time
>awkward laughs and she quickly turns around as I take it off
man that was embarassing
>>6491300
I suppose so, still doesn't make this life any less depressing
>>6491297
Forced perspective
I had a 43" under bust starting out, now I'm a 38". Buying bras is a bitch
I should wear a 40b but 38c's, while cute AF, are painful.
>>6491290
Youre def good enough. I'd hook up w/you as a guy (nohomo)
Truth is, youre gonna be awkward and hate it b/c hookups with boys who haven't melted your heart yet suck.
Just get it over with and move on, never see him again.
>>6491299
I want to go back to VanDeVen but someone died recently on his table. So I'm kind of scared. He also didn't do a great job with my forehead the first time.
>>6491297
>38"
>small
Are you for real, nigga?
>>6491297
She's also 6'3
>>6491293
i wouldn't say that. random dick is more tinder.
i've met like........ 3 of my serious, long-term boyfriends through okcupid. with online dating you just want to cast a big net because 90% of the guys you're going to talk to aren't going to be worth your time because they're either just looking for sex, or they're going to fetishize you, or many even have girlfriends already who don't know they're on the site. it's just how it is.
plus like i've said before, i've only ever had sex with like 10 people in my life and i've dated a LOT of men and i've been having sex for almost half my life. dating is fun even if you don't get the dick or end up with them forever.
>>6491304
it only works if the girl in question isn't genuinely desperate tho so idk
>>6491311
Nice barrel chest
>>6491312
Then..... Dont?
All those are bad indicators of where to go
>>6491276
i appreciate the tips you gave me.
the biggest problem i have is that i live in a fairly remote part of my country, where there aren't all that many people to begin with. I'd have to travel at least 50 miles to even see a person I'm remotely interested in. And i've had my fair share of long distance relationships, and boy, those do NOT work. i do not have the funds to travel either. it's just a dead end every time and I end up deleting my profile as a result
>>6491249
>You'll make it
oh ok thanks, sure doesn't feel like it but ok.
>>6491300
>I'm p sure if you were actually retarded
I feel a lot more dumb and foggy lately tho, also black spots in my memory, even before I went back to drugs. its awkward sometimes.
>>6491314
She could even be 6'5. As long as she's thin it's ok.
>>6491314
I'm 5' 10.5" :(
>>6491316
Edie... Dont make me say it
>"Ltr bf"
4 years is long, a year or less is just a bf... Anything else is a fuckbuddy.
>>6491317
My tots are getting huge & my muscle from work is disappearing... I'm still shrinking & proportions are coming together..
My hips are still aching & growing at night
>>6491311
>Truth is, youre gonna be awkward and hate it b/c hookups with boys who haven't melted your heart yet suck.
>Just get it over with and move on, never see him again.
I guess I should give it a shot. I don't know how to force myself to go through with it. I'm so anti social.
>>6491318
But where else I should go? Facialteam sucks at chin, Americans surgeons are stupid expensive. Thailand?
>>6491329
Get high/drunk... And just Dont think.. Get out the door and on your way before you think.
>>6491319
do you have any local dating sites or anything? cause if not, then ya...unless tinder works where you are...even tho tinder blows...
i'm sorry. outside of america it can be really hard to use those methods of dating. :/
>>6491328
two LTR's then ;_;
i've met sooo many awesome guys on okcupid, idk. the site has seemed to go downhill lately tho because of the advent of tinder. like all the other sites tried following how the app was made with the swiping and all that other stuff so now a lot of guys use every dating site like they would tinder and it's a mess of "wanna hangout?" and "do you suck dick?" lmao
>>6491333
what if he just wants to hurt me, like preys on trannies online?
>hrt is working on everyone but me
Cyanide pills when?
>>6491332
A good, non FFS plastic surgeon? Plenty of those who work on chins have serious reconstructive surgery backgrounds...
>>6491337
This image is the embodiment of my existence
>>6491337
I met my fiance on okc
We talked for 3 months before meeting tho.
Heart got melted.
However.
I've had tooons of hookups from okc&pof.
Those were my primary sources of dick
>>6491324
>tfw been feelin this too
and I've never done drugs
>>6491324
It might just be bad memory. You remember stuff better than me and are a lot smarter
I want to go to facialteam, is everyone here saying they suck?
>>6491340
Conceal carry.
>>6491346
Why do you always complain about being lonely?
>>6491354
B/c my fiance works 13 hour shifts and I Dont have any IRL friends.
I get to see her for less than an hour a day and she's not very talkative after working a long shift.
>tfw down to 119
20 lbs to go :33
jesus fuck thats a lot of people
>>6491361
Helps when youre cute...
>>6491337
there are some national dating websites, but they cost absurd amounts of money. I've tried one of them, and half were fakes and most of them were men who could've been my dad. The dating websites tend to also be strictly "heterosexual".
tinder is an option, and i've tried it a few times. But again, i get people who live too far away to go by bike, aside from the fact that there is no profile or personality I can view, and people here are quite conservative and homophobic, most likely transphobic too. and then theres the fact that tinder doesnt have the option to select "transgender". just male or female, although i did read that they were working on integrating that in the app.
at least with okcupid i'd have some sort of certainty viewing their profile.
>>6491343
Went there once. He literately told me he wont operate on transgender people.
Also I'm afraid that they don't know how to make male skull - female like.
>>6491361
If I put my profile as visible to straight people I'd probably have that many too
>>6491276
>have at least 5 pics, two of which are with friends
>two of which are with friends
>friends
>>6491364
I'm probably just going to delete it. My mom fucked me up so bad by always telling me I'm worthless and should be alone.
>>6491351
Susna and reddit love facial team.
Is that you on the photo? See this /mtfg/? This is passing person. She looks like cis woman.
if elanna comes on, someone wish her a happy canada day for me
>>6491344
kind of same since overwatch._. i'm goin on a trip tomorrow tho so that's somethin. how are you feelin today amy?
>>6491346
seeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee thoooo you met someone you loveeee
i just think there was more of a possibility of meeting the most qt guy ever before. maybe i just need to move already and use it there.
despite everyone thinking i'm the biggest slut in the world i don't like random hookups and i really prefer dating and getting to know guys/spending time with them and the whole tinder thing gets boring so fast.
>>6491351
they're not bad with everything, no
>>6491361
>tfw
>>6491365
what about meeting guys organically? is that an option at all or are you more of a homebody? cause i kind of am and ye
>>6491370
IT DOESN'T HAVE TO BE WITH CLOSE FRIENDS OR ANYTHING, JUST OTHER PPL LOL
>>6491361
>if only
is kayla a 10/10 or smth aaa
though i hear that most cis girls and passing transgirls (focus is on "girls" here) get a ton of attention
>>6491357
Dump her then? She's clearly not fulfilling you emotionally. Really what is the point in dating someone you only see for an hour a day?
>>6491197
this asian whats me to be in a 3 way with her lesbian gf and her
wew lad
>>6491372
Enough with your bdd
>>6491374
Canada sucks
>>6491371
God fuckingdamnit
Look, even if youre that nervous;
Talking to the 1 in 100 guy who actually holds a conversation without being lewd can be really nice... Esp if it goes on for over a week.
Online dating apps are originally meany for garnering emotional connections.
Retarded men just see it as a fuckbook
But there are chivalrous ones, I promise.
>>6491311
>38c's, while cute AF, are painful.
How about using a bra strap extender? Or do you have my problem, to much space between the boobs?
>>6491369
Only 17 people dared to message me in 9 years. Can you beat that? And there's always been (normal, not intentionally repulsive) pictures on that profile...
>>6491276
so is it just confirmed that it's impossible to get girls on OKC?
>>6491377
Productive. I got an email back from the psychologist I was looking at, and sent my insurance information to her billing coordinator, and I've got all my information together for food stamps, and I'm about to do my interview as soon as my phone finishes updating.
>>6491372
yeah that's me. okay so no to facial team? shit
Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
>>6491385
So you are saying I'm not right? She looks stunning.
>>6491380
Its called, she's supporting me, I'm unemployed as of a few weeks ago and she's my fiance.
What the fuck is wrong with you.
I'm not in middle school.
>>6491361
kil lme
>>6491395
Told you. ;)
>>6491382
>I'm going to hazard a guess that the drugs have made it worse.
yep
>Poor memory doesn't make you any less smart
true but I dont forget like little things, I sometimes seem to not remember whole conversations, Ive no idea if thats normal.
someone I talked to yesterday said it was probably reduced brain function cause of starving, I dunno. its not too bad though, I just hope it doesnt get worse
>>6491389
the dude was lewd the entire conversation and is totally a chaser but at least that means he just wants to fuck so I might do it, I dunno. I feel yucky though. Maybe a nice dress for the date and some lingerie might boost my confidence
>>6491397
I'm saying that you look a CIS girl too
>>6491377
I haven't been in a group photo since 1999
>>6491394
NO! What I'm trying to say is I don't want to go to facial team because they are do very subtle changes. My chin/jaw needs aggresive reduction.
You on the other hand look amazing so facial team for you is great choice.
>>6491391
I do have that problem... But they're getting huge as well.
Thing is, without a bra, they look perfectly proportional.
With a bra, they look like weird knobs.
I'm hoping they fill out closer as my pecs from working shrink
I've thought about an extender before... Just lazy I guess.
>>6491377
as of 4 months ago, I quit my current study in a bigger city (where I actually found someone to play around with for a time) and moved back in with my parents, in a small, backwards town.
as a result of that, i do not have any friends here and no job/study to meet new people. i went to a gay bar (kind of desperately) to find something to do, but most of them were just old and creepy
im more of a home bird, and im looking for events and such nearby where i /might/ meet new people and make friends, but still no luck. kind of in a depressing situation really
oh and i forgot to mention that the 3 people I /did/ date via okcupid (i've been using it for like, 5 years or something) were completely mental borderline narcissistic people who actually scarred me physically and mentally. which is why I'm cautious to begin with.
>tfw bad exam results incoming
>like future ending bad
What should i do
>>6491409
>I haven't been in a group photo since 1999
same
for the sickos out there.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5QCxyns1lrg
>>6491413
im actually venting and showing parts of my personality here
isn't that dangerous to do here fuck
>>6491422
That's why mtfg was invented.
You being trans isn't a thing.
Youre just a lunatic here.
>>6491403
Simply not eating enough seems like a good idea explanation, the brain is extremely energy hungry and if you're constantly starving then it's not going to work properly. ;~;
Either way, gotta run, Canada Day plans.
>>6491387
>>6491382
What happened on Canada Day? Maple syrup first discovered?
>>6491399
It's even worse than I thought, not only is the relationship lacking in contact it's being kept alive by money. Look don't get mad at me, I'm just giving my opinion and advice. You are free to do what you want, I don't care of course.
Eaten more than 300g of ham. Lost weight. 74,2 almost 73! (lowest in my entire adult life!).
>>6491422
This is the only place where I really feel comfortable being an open wound, er... book...
Good night /mtfg/
enjoy your day
>>6491430
Most diets fail paradoxically because the patient attempts to eat too little.
>>6491393
you can meet women on okcupid, but i don't really know much about it so i didn't speak on it.
and woah that is really productive :3 how long do you think it will take to see the psych? it seems like things are on the upswing??
>>6491409
o-oh. well, it's not mandatory, it just helps!
>>6491413
well fuck. what exactly makes you want to date anyone right now? like it almost seems like this is more of a time to work on yourself and not on other people?
>dad texts asking ke to do something that honestly isn't that hard, but I was still in the middle big being actively sick
>say I'll get to it if I have a chance
>he really needs it done
>tell him I'm really sick and might not have a chance
>"it will only take 10 minutes"
Gotta love that care and concern
>>6491441
..
If she was my wife by now would it make a difference?
Jfc youre an idiot.
I used to work 12's and she was jobless for 3 months. We're co-dependant & very much in love.
I'm going to marry her this year & hopefully start a family in the future.
This is a 6figure, living, emotionally co-dependant family.
You've literally no fucking clue what youre talking about or the back story to any of it.
>>6491430
have fun bby <3
>>6491447
I am anorexic, not dieting.
>>6491403
Oooh be careful mummy ;~;
>>6491451
Middle of
So excited. 5 days till HRT!
>>6491403
Not enough ATP will cause reduced brain function. Thing is you should be converting fat to make up for the lack of food intake.
>>6491411
nah im pretty ugly, i think i need just about everything possible.
>>6491351
how old are you? not bad
>>6491467
Tbqfh, it only looks like you could do for an upper lift lip
From what I can see in your photo
if youre really close to passing and look really andro in real life at one year hormones is there still hope? i dont have anything definitively masculine about me and my body is good its just that my face looks like a completely andro femboy or maybe girl. i can look 100% like a girl in photos. people call me mam in real life but i still get some stares because people are trying to figure out what i am
i guess im nervous about it all... do you think another year or two will do me good?
>>6491467
Well I understand. You probably end up even more stunning after that.
But you are in my top tier list along with sophie and rawr.
>>6491430
don't forget to wear your axe body spray for the big day brolanna
>>6491483
makeup + more time on hormones, basically. bam done.
>>6491485
Post tier list?
>>6491457
I wont die or anything
d/w bby
>>6491462
I dont understand this post anon...
>>6491488
Girls wearing light cologne mixed with a fruity body mist is hottttt
>>6491454
>"You are free to do what you want, I don't care"
>>6491449
No idea, she says she has limited availability so I hope it's within the next two weeks. I hope to be all ready to go and able to apply for disability by the end of July. but that's already a pretty tight time frame, I'd have to get diagnosed and talking to a lawyer in less than a month, and it might take me a few sessions to get a diagnosis.
lawyer should be quick though, applying couldn't take that long, and I have all my medical records in place. all I need the lawyer to get for me is the proof that I dropped out of high school. also might talk to the lawyer about getting public records for my dad's unpaid child support so I can make progress on that.
yeah, things are looking up, I just hope I don't die of boredom by then.
>>6491492
>more time on hormones
Great meme
>>6491477
old
>>6491478
yeah that's pretty high on my priority list, septum ring/overdrawing my upper lip does a little. I'm just worried about having a permanent rabbit mouthed look or something (pic related)
>>6491500
......
Literally an AutismoIdioso
>>6491494
It's a mental list. I just wanted to let her know how pretty I think she is.
>>6491504
She had injections, tho...
>>6491510
Just make one up
>>6491505
Why is me telling you to do what you want because I don't care autistic? Would you rather I demanded that you dump your gf immediately and stalk you over it?
>>6491457
>tfw when Carol does not call you daddy
>>6491504
Oh I want that too. My lips are so flat.
>>6491504
how old is old?
>>6491454
Cuck being milked for his money.
>>6491504
Got a lip lift along with SRS, makes a significant difference, but it doesn't look unnatural or weird.
>>6491462
oh shit son takin it back to AP Bio
>>6491521
You're a big girl
>>6491521
play a brass instrument
>>6491517
>"Its worse than I thought"
Is what pissed me off.
Following it up with a nonchelant phrase like that tends to add a tone of snarky, I know better attitude to any paragraph.
>Would you rather I demanded that you dump your gf immediately and stalk you over it?
This has literally happened twice already, I wouldn't put it past any anon.
For fucks sake. You asked why I was lonely, I told you, & you got judgey over it.
Shits done and over.
Let's drop this now, pls.
>>6491521
As an ex cis boy;
I'd not think anything of it & would make you my gf.
Nohomo
ok now this is fun
>>6491538
If you like Latinos... How bout just talk to him normally, non lewdly, like the sweet timid girl you are?
>>6491372
tf are you taking about. maybe its because of le shit camera in a dark room meme but she doesn't look cis at all
>>6491537
I never were a cis boy unless you are dirty AGP pervert.
Female brain and all...
>>6491538
Now this is pod racing XP
>>6491545
Well I can't look this good with shit camera dark room and angels... Just look at her eyes - pure fem.
>>6491546
OK
"If I was still entombed in my adonis-esque cis boy body, tricking cis girls with my lesbianesque tactics and cuddly emotional wiles, I'd totally manipulate your emotions as well and make you my sweet gf, tricked into dating a dyke with a nice boys body"
I have to go into the VA and officially tell them I want to be allowed back off the retired list today.
It's fucking scary, they don't have any rules about being trans yet, there's a story about them trying to fit a 6ft Conan the barbarian size ftm into a dress to meet a general recently, which didn't go well... But what about an mtf? We'd almost look better in the suit... And the hair... It's completely up to your boss right now... They could technically tell me a bra is out of uniform...
I feel like this could go really well or I could be completely crucified for this
Buttttttt, my girlfriend is getting off early to hug me and be there for meeee so it shouldn't be too bad >.>
Ok, video surfing. This one got me laughing hard.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ImxFjjACOjY
>>6491412
>With a bra, they look like weird knobs.
Try other types and brands of bras.
forgot to trip >>6491462
>>6491495
ATP is the simple sugar your brain and muscles run on. The body is geared to keep enough of it on hand at all times. It will even convert muscle tissue into sugars so they can be turned into ATP to keep you going. If it isn't being produced in enough quantity, something is wrong. For me, it is because I have ME/CFS. The chemicals used to break down fat aren't being produced in enough quantity or properly. Yeah, this is cellular biochemistry.
>>6491521
i'm sorry you are cute and pretty but you also have a really big head?..
Hi everyone
>>6491540
>>6491559
these is my lips pre hrt back when I used to practice trombone like 5 hours a day
>>6491538
One more day until Kayla is a woman desu
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=JAHA4Jh5jkw
>>6491558
I don't date trans. Only buff boys. :3 Or sharps buch girls
>>6491564
Extremely big yeah. Twice as big as typical cis woman.
>>6491559
Literally nothing.
Back on topic;
The previous text; That's why I'm lonely;
an unfortunate series of events and my inability to have IRL friends.
>>6491561
Dont go back until the active duty ppl hash it out.
Also, youre ACE as fuck, m8.
And, out of everyone, probably the #1 person here to need a nice cis femmy boy to dick you.
>>6491568
These are still flat and manly. What I meant is this bumps on your upper and lower lips.
>>6491570
Like I said.....
When I was masquerading as a boy. Lol
>tfw I aspire to be a sharp Butch girl & cut my hair short after ffs & srs
Never say never
Not every tranny was a flaming narcissistic boy ;)
Also, nohomo
>>6491578
whelp i tried, brb while i go hang myself
>>6491587
Can I watch
>tfw bdd
>tfw you mercy kill your male self
>>6491575
I'm not going to say I'm bi until someone throws me down and literally proves to me otherwise.
>>6491197
>>6491240
sry
>>6491596
>tfw post-transition
>tfw it'd be a service to you
Boys who nibble necks, kiss really well, lick your breasts just right, and hold your wrists above your head is where the melting point is.
>>6491599
Idk what it is about 6 months of hormones that's like the magic turning point
It's always like ew ew ew ew hmmm... oh hey qt
>>6491599
i want to be pretty like grace
>>6491608
>tfw mones dont work on u
I'm going to delete my profile and wait until i'm done with electrolysis to date. I can't wake up next to a man in bed with stubble on my face.
>>6491608
That's what it takes for skin to look less thick and gross...
>>6491616
wake up before him and go shave
>>6491603
Literally my girlfriend does all of that, and she's quiet good at it being a cis girl.
I need someone who can throw me around and fuck me unconscious if it's going to be any different.
>>6491495
I know, we just want you to be healthy ;~; I wanna be able to meet mummy soon <3
Goodnight mummy <3
>>6491574
why is it so big?
>>6491616
Go get your face threaded (or waxed), it'll be a little expensive but like, you'll be ok for a little bit
tfw rewatching steins;gate
tfw the episode where Rukka has to change back makes you cry for 4 hours straight
>>6491599
fucking nerd
>fucked up the difference between medicaid and medicare
>therapist I wanted to go to is no longer an option
>look up therapists that take medicaid
>literally 0 in my county that work with the issues I have
welp, looks like I'm probably gonna have to go to an inpatient facility again.
>>6491628
genetics more likely. Would mask it with tranny bangs but I don't have enough hairs.
>>6491251
is high test best a meme? cause my test was super high.
>>6491629
naw, it will also give me time to finish my name and id change so that when I would order drinks at a bar I wouldn't have my old id pic with a shaved head and a beard.
>>6491608
Well the first 3 months are basically nothing and the other changes take time so I guess 6 months is when things have had enough time to finally be noticeable? Idk, 6 months is in a week for me so we'll see!
>>6491609
I'm sure you're a cutiepie
>>6491625
>reeee
>>6491635
no u dork
>>6491530
Methylation cycle and it's products. They are so involved in basic cellular chemistry that keeps us going.
>>6491561
Good luck!
>>6491640
What goes up must come down
>>6491640
are you on finasteride?
>>6491646
>no u dork
dont fake it. we'd all have made fun of you in hs.
>>6491626
We worry about you too, please listen to what we tell you on skype.
>>6491599
I think you made really good progress.
>>6491640
how do you get them to stay in place while hanging upside down like that?
>what if I am cute and its just mtfg and self hate sabotaging me
>>6491659
post your cutest pic kayla.
>>6491649
I'm on cypro 50mg. It wont grow back because I started loosing hairs at 15-16.
>>6491654
I don't have much experience being bulled in school. A little bit in elementary but that was offset by having friends. When I got to highschool I moved after my first year and basically spent 2 years as a ghost. Worst that happened in my senior year when I finally hung around people was I had a guy that liked to punch me sometimes.
>>6491659
>literally everybody has been screaming this at you
>>6491661
>Kayla
>Cute
>>6491658
non rotated
>>6491667
this. kayla has had really good progress. not sure why she listens to trolls. she should post a timeline so we can validate her.
>>6491664
>youll be a qt. full dose?
100 mg spiro, 8 mg E, 100 mg prog
>dang wtf 251??
Yea, I got pretty lucky I guess. I'm curious what the highest my test ever got was but I won't complain about 251. I wish my doc would upload my last lab results already tho.
>>6491655
Thank you <3
>>6491671
Much cuter right side up!
>>6491671
how can you say you dont pass?
can you post a zoomed out pic for reference?
>>6491671
You look like gay boi with dyed hairs.
>>6491673
Hr/PR... Communication studies.
Essentially people management. I have 1 year of electives left & then I'm done.
Imma use my oilfields experience + degree after I finish transition to get a cushy higher up oil job.
>>6491671
pass
>>6491673
>Does finasteride help hair grow longer?
no, try time and biotin
>tfw your bfs dad gives u a half pound of a weed for free
Passing priveledge gents
>>6491689
Looks like shake...
>>6491599
can i kiss u...
>>6491671
Would bang
>>6491689
nice legs sissy
>>6491689
looks like lawn trimmings
>>6491689
that looks like literal grass
>>6491638
I fuck her pretty regularly now, it's just not penetrative sex
I just taught her how to give a blow job like three weeks ago, and it was literally the mos adorable thing, little 5'2 Asian girl with anime tier voice on her knees clapping and saying "I did swirlies with my tongue!" ...and then sticking her tongue out and showing me... Nearly died from the cuteness
>>6491702
Lol kinda like your beard
kayla is kute
tfw your dad takes you to double dab friday at the dispensary
>>6491704
Jfc...
Get her cosplay outfits.
She's more than tiny enough!
And I'm not even 'in' to animu but that's adorable.
>>6491681
>>6491705
Extra e suppresses t, this is kind of like the old style way of prescribing hormones, but with prog for shape
>>6491711
>Tfw no dad ever
>>6491714
Definitely pass
>>6491705
The E is a bit high but I'm doing this through informed consent and get labwork done every couple months so my liver should be safe. The progesterone is what worries me because taking it this early is kinda unusual but I remember someone else did the same thing as me and has gotten good results.
And yes only 100 spiro is needed to bring my T down to 14 ng/dL, thankfully.
>>6491692
Yes please <3
>>6491714
side shot
http://imgur.com/Em2fd4k
so much cum. you can tell that dick def doesnt belong to a tranny.
>>6491714
Fff..
I wanna stick you in a forest green romper & put you in the corner of my shop as an accessory!
Omg cute.
>>6491714
i'll be honest, there is something slightly "off" about the way you look, but to say that everyone clocks you must be a lie.
>>6491705
>i guess idk much about dosages but that looks very odd to me.
youre right, that IS an odd dosage
she isnt selfmedding though so I hope her doc knows what hes doing, its odd, but assuming her bloodtest result fit, this could possibly an appropriate dosage
>>6491715
do you know how fast prog gets dangerous if you overmed it? Ive been taking >2g pretty regularly, and Ive trouble quitting.
>>6491721
work on posture and you will pass better from side
>>6491681
bdd and her country has unrealistic views of women
>>6491721
Would smash
>>6491721
Horrible posture though
>>6491722
why are you mean to red ;_;
>>6491721
are you pregnant?
where's your ass?
>>6491711
>double dab friday
damn that sounds fun
which I had a weed smoking mom
>>6491734
so she will pay attention to me.
>>6491739
>I'll lose weight first - I mean my neck is huge!
do both at once. yoga bb
>>6491735
I'm a boy I have no ass.
>>6491711
>tfw got high with bio dad two nights ago and talked about fighter planes (he was an engineer at Lockheed)
>gf decides to come out to be as ftm
>immediately dump her
Disgusting ftms
>>6491721
nobody looks good from the side desu
>>6491744
boys can have an ass though, but you gotta work on it
As it would turn out, getting a fuck in the ass is not like pooping in reverse
>>6491540
What? I did not plan to ruin your mood i was just baneposting. :(
You're cute actually.
>>6491747
When did your dad get out of jail?
>>6491726
T is 14 ng/dL, E is 155 pg/mL, I THINK it's an appropriate dosage. :s
>>6491749
i do
>>6491757
Show us
>>6491748
Wow you sound like a shitty partner
I found out today i either have to go through a surgery to fix my hip, or i have arthritis.
One of the two is whats happening according to Kaiser.
Oh also I start FUCKING TESTOSTERONE SHOTS TO HELP MY HIP
I FUCKING HATE THIS SO MUCH
IN A WEEK I HAVE TO START INJECTING TESTOSTERONE INTO MY THIGHS TO MAKE IT SO MY HIP DOESNT DIE OR SOMETHING
I think I would rather die that have to do this shit desu
Anyways mtfg, whats up?
>>6491733
Some woman have it...
>>6491755
4 years ago, though he is a dick, wouldn't call me kayla because I guess he picked my boy name and then when we went for shrimp tacos at 10 at night at the beach we walked up to the taco stand and he ordered and said and I quote "My shim uh she-he would like a quesadilla."
fucking jerk
>>6491757
Where is the proofs
>>6491186
sup nerds
>>6491759
Sorry but I'm not going to date some disgusting ftm
>>6491765
oh shit waddup
>>6491735
This is pregnant, am I speaking with ass?
>>6491765
I am very stressed because I thought I'd be applied for disability by now, but I haven't even gotten a diagnosis since america's medical system is a clusterfuck.
at this point I'd be lucky to apply in the next month.
>>6491763
A rich dick.
>>6491759
Ftms are gross tho
>T-ravaged hulk pussy that smells like sweaty dude crotch
Not even 1nce
Bleh
>>6491774
Disability for what?
>>6491762
They do, it's still horrible, not even trying to be mean, it just doesn't look pretty
>>6491773
Hmm this is a very autistic post
Oh, also my FAVORITE holiday is coming up soon : ^)
post patriotic country music pls
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5PXSK3iDeAI
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sO6W9vZl5pM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2hLBUkcFJoY
>>6491778
I'm fucked in the head and neet neetbucks to survive on my own so I can start making real progress to becoming a better human
>>6491777
Pretty much this ..
I did it once & smoked 5 cigarettes after b/c being hammered wasn't enough to get me through it psychologically
>>6491780
This is a very autistic general
>>6491780
>autistic
>tranny
no correlation
>>6491763
Sounds like a good guy. Cut him some slack for christ sake. The concept of identifying as another gender is even weird today. Trannies are a tiny minority and he was taught to view them as faggot males from the early age.
estrogen is good i like it
>>6491779
Well it was never my goal too look pretty. I just want to look like my internal self (not destroyed my hormones).
My posture don't cause dysphoria for me.
>went andro mode once
>ate a lot of bbq for lunch at Lucille's till my stomach was full
>had tall jack Daniels and lemonade to wash it down
>walked around mall for buzz to wear off
>opened door to macy's
>some woman runs over to me and says "can I get the door for you miss"
>she looks at my belly and then back at me and smiles
>rest of time in the mall people acted super nice for some reason
I guess having a full tummy makes trannys look preggers.
>not wanting a qt3.14 ftm bf
If you can get past the no dick issue it's okay
>>6491789
AGP
C O M M U N I S M
>>6491790
a good posture will accentuate your chest and ass, bringing more attention to your breasts is going to make you pass better most likely
>>6491789
this, hrt alone feels so good I almost don't mind I'll probably never pass
>>6491790
I meant
>not destroyed by testosterone
>>6491782
I feel like their is a problem when we equate war with patriotism
for all those who have died and suffered:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j6gZefW4yEA
>>6491792
I'm too old to look pregnant...
>>6491788
I know, he calls all mtfs he and it pisses me off though. I basically said if they are making the effort to look like a woman then call them that.
>>6491186
being banned is fun
>>6491796
This is good advice and all but I don't really feel to change it. I was just born this way.
>inb4 you were born a boy and you are changing it!
Because it causing great internal pain. Without dysphoria I would stay a boy.
>>6491761
>Oh also I start FUCKING TESTOSTERONE SHOTS TO HELP MY HIP
Edgar is that you?
That fucking SUX tho lol got damn
>>6491809
alright then fair enough
>>6491761
Huh??? What's the actual diagnosis for your hip?
If if is osteoporosis, you should be treated using the female methods for treating it. T is only used for males with low testosterone. Calcitonin is the injection given to females.
>>6491806
I wish I got banned from living desu
nothingness is looking better and better
life sucks
>>6491808
a disability is described as a mental or physical ailment that severely limits the number of jobs you can work and directly impacts your ability to work negatively.
>>6491806
POST YOUR ______
>>6491820
No cry zone
>>6491820
omg Amy are you crying? Don't cry!
>>6491824
Some people have it. No one bites and eye because of it
>>6491197
here is a shit one, waiting for a better webcam off amazon and for mom to give me her flash drive with pic when I was at my manliest
>>6491824
>How do you fix this posture???
Exercise, strengthen your core/leg muscles, mostly. Chest/back muscles for the upper body as well.
It also helps if you consciously try to stand correctly.
its barely noon here....
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=roKCUFeWFmQ
>>6491800
I feel its more like fighting for the cause of civil liberty like our founding fathers did is something that is patriotic.
Patriotism =/= War
Fighting for constitutional rights = Patriotism
thats how my mind works
I just love my country though.
>>6491811
Nope.
Just me Isla.
Also, yeah it really does...
I am finally almost a year on HRT and I might have to start T shots.
I kinda sat there crying in the doctors office hearing the news.
I might just be a little bit of a baby :/
>>6491816
Im a male with low testosterone because I am on E and an AA.
But my sex is male so I would have to be treated as such.
The diagnosis has been narrowed down to two options, and I am going to have to sit in an advanced scanner thingy at Kaiser to figure out which of the two it is.
So I either get injections years of physical therapy as one option for the first diagnosis. Second option for that diagnosis is a really expensive surgery.
Second diagnosis is arthritis and idk what ill do if its that.
>>6491827
Its not anti inflammation.
The doctor said specifically Testosterone injections.
>>6491808
Men are great c:
>>6491820
You pass when you cry
>>6491822
Even mods think im underage fucking kill me lmao
>>6491782
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IhnUgAaea4M
>>6491826
I'm stressed as hell, and I just want this to all be over already. I just want to have my fucking shit in place and not need to deal with the bullshit that is trying to find a psychologist that accepts medicaid. also a friend that I was in love with hasn't talked to me in 2 weeks and refuses to respond to me, AT ALL. I just want to not have to deal with my shit life anymore. I think I'll check myself into an inpatient facility sometime in the next week. I'm tired and done with life.
I saw a trans woman (middle-aged hon) in the waiting room at my counselor's place. And I thought there were none where I lived... My area is so conservative that the counseling group is one block down from a catholic-themed coffee shop. I was in hella boymode so she probably had no idea.
>>6491839
oh so it actually happened, that's pretty funny, did you not kind of expect that though?
>>6491820
what happened bab
>>6491820
Except you aren't mentally disabled. You're a lazy piece of shit who doesn't want to actually work for money.
If you actually cared about getting money, you'd stop shit posting here and find a job.
>>6491835
>CRT
>GC controller
MAYLAY?
>>6491845
life is shit, that's what.
>>6491847
>Except you aren't mentally disabled.
>strangers online attempt to assert knowlege of someone's real life struggles
yeah okay you seem super legit, nice bait anon.
>>6491848
lol, yeah
>>6491839
Sup nerd
>>6491844
Its lame.
if my T is 4 and my E is 250 does that out me at risk for bone problems?
>>6491854
You had jobs before. What stopped you from doing them?
>>6491843
There are trannies where I live.
Also conservative.
Trannies may be more predisposed to be liberal as opposed to cis folk because higher rates of depression and low self esteem will lead to left wing ideology.
So yeah, I know quite a few conservative trannies and they tend to be fucking awesome.
So do some liberal, and even libertarians.
Idk what this is about.
>>6491847
Depression in the modern world somehow counts as mentally disabled.
Like full on disabled.
>>6491841
HELL YEAH
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_AX81vQj1q4
>>6491859
Taking any form of HRT makes you more likely to develop breast cancer as well as bone problems.
So not particulary, just HRT itself does that.
>>6491861
She got fired / couldn't attend because of borderline as well as depression.
Mental illness.
ah mtfg, where passing girls complain together
>>6491861
my mental illness and sanity in general have deteriorated severely. I only managed to work 9 months, and I worked 8 different jobs in that time because I couldn't stay at one place too long, the longest being 3 months, and that was right at the beginning.
I would miss work frequently, and when I didn't I'd have so much anxiety that I'd miss things or fuck things up.
>>6491863
I was thinking about talking to her but I'm really awkward and I don't know how rude it is to bring it up, I mean she was presenting female but wasn't even attempting a voice idk
>>6491866
Boo fucking hoo
I and many others have depression yet we do our jobs because we have to.
Suck it the fuck up. It's pieces of shit like you that need to be wiped from the human race
>>6491871
>implying most of them pass
Lol
J/k
This isn't shopped.
Just got out of the shower & needed somewhere for it to dry.
New profile pic
>>6491871
>passing
>girls
I think youre lost
>>6491880
done with the rv life?
>>6491836
certainly fighting for a noble cause is good
but neocons play on peoples nationalistic tendencies and claim any war is "fighting for american freedom" even when it isn't.
patriotism should derive from those ideals in and of themselves, not just the fighting for them
the troops deserve our respect for that they go through, but there are already two holidays dedicated for them.
It is somewhat evident a lot of people hear 4th of july and patriotism and think "the military! the troops! hoorah!" etc.
I find it troubling
there is more to patriotism then that
>>6491859
If my t is 35 and my estrogen is 2500 does that explain why my breasts shoot milk out sometimes?
>>6491871
will more beer make me pass?
>>6491881
Rude anon.
do I pass at work yet?
>>6491894
If I drink it
>>6491880
>Same color.
>>6491881
truth
>>6491897
if you delivered my pizza id have a hard time not being awkward.
>>6491897
7/10
>>6491901
every anti-depressent I've been on has put me into full on suicide mode in less than a week
tfw cant wear half of my boymode clothes because sports bra shows through.
>>6491909
There's literally thousands.
Try more
>>6491903
I honestly think you're pretty haught
>>6491836
>Im a male with low testosterone because I am on E and an AA.
Kaiser is fucking up, and should know better. If you are on AAs and E you should be medically treated as a female for most treatments. This is due to the body shifting over to female for most of it's functions. Estrogen therapy is one of the possibly methods used in natal women for treating osteoporosis. What is your estrogen and testosterone levels running at? Estrogen dose may be to low for bone maintenance.
http://www.endocrineweb.com/conditions/osteoporosis/estrogen-replacement-therapy-osteoporosis
>>6491909
I got paranoia from them. E, when kept above 180pg/mL helps me the best depression wise.
>>6491889
And living with your mother
Are all of the mtfs here losers?
>>6491897
Yes
>>6491879
I could list every study showing the compounding extreme bias society has towards labeling things masculine, or I could just point out how many times angry people have said I'm a big large man who doesn't pass in the last couple days.
>>6491876
I never said I can''t work because of mental illness.
I am just saying what I have picked up as knowledge because of how much I have been through mental health systems. I've been bitching about how my hip is really messed up and I might have to go on testosterone injections or get surgery depending on my luck.
>>6491875
ouch
thats harsh.
I mean like the not even attempting voice.
Like did she really not even ATTEMPT to make any sort of feminine voice?
and by that i mean she is being harsh on herself.
>>6491890
Not all fights are for american freedom.
And yeah, people take patriotism too lightly.
Its for the ideals, the American dream, and more. Constitutions rights and civil liberties to list a few.
Im talking about stuff like controlling threats to the safety of American lives.
Yeah all lives matter, but people always get buttmad when American troops interfere with foreign affairs so what are we to do?
Either way im going off on some sort of autism rant, so I am going to discontinue my contribution to this topic and focus on relaxing and playing video games since I had to wake up at 0600 ;;
>>6491922
Well I suppose they are fucking up, but I am not sure of my E levels since the hospital didn't give me a copy of my bloodwork papers.
I should have asked them but I dont wanna go back to Georgia for just that.
I should get bloodwork done soon at kaiser tho.
>>6491920
I honestly think my best course of action is to try to solve my issues unmedicated, so they're actually solved and not just covered up with a bandaid.
>>6491929
well yeah, who am I going to live with if I'm too fucked to keep a job?
>>6491921
Probably because of light (or lack of light)
>>6491876
Well, if you're really clinically depressed and want to die from occupational burnout, it's the right thing to do. I know, I did. Put what little energy I had into a job for eighteen years until I was thoroughly broken. Ended up at the ER then spent a year as a psychiatric inpatient. If nobody had cared to drag my shell to the ER, I'd be dead, pure and simple.
So, yeah, "suck it up" is motherfucking good advice. You're the piece of shit, really.
>>6491929
Im such a fucking loser desu
anyone wanna be skype friends :3
As long as I'm going to be sick in bed and not being productive, I have to say
Having tits is pretty nice
>best antidepressants
>>6491947
yeah i agree
>>6491944
Would love to. Video/voice/text?
>>6491937
Nah, would approach on da street
Isla#11449 is my battlenet pls play overwatch with me
>>6491948
im allergic to nuts :/
Brb, reading novel about guy being seduced by a anthropomorphic pound coin
>>6491944
Possibly
>>6491948
570 kcal per 100g. This is nuts.
>>6491948
no, these are the best
>tfw violent and disturbing nightmares
>>6491948
>flavored pistachios
Fuckin degenerate scum
>>6491935
Grow up and get your shit together
>>6491948
This is the grandma'iest swag photo I've ever fucking seen.
100 real nut hours
COM
MUN
ISM
>>6491802
38 is not too old to be pregnant.
Who here hates cooking?
>>6491897
you're cute (and passing) as heck
>>6491973
Fukken only you
Cooking is fantastic
>>6491972
Yeah, but getting pregnant that late gets you nasty looks and chiding for being irresponsible, not VIP treatment. I know a couple women who've been there, and it's not pleasant. I'd rather not have anyone think I could be, so no belly showing.
>>6491984
Seriously? Is that a France-specific thing? I don't think that's something people get shit about here, but maybe I just don't know.
>tfw no "anti-depressants"
>>6491991
I'm out of weed too TT-TT thats why I'm day drinking
What should I do when I win the lottery tonight
>>6491974
You're back!
>>6491989
Well older women do have increased odds of delivering an ill child, but I thought 38 was still barely in the ok ages.
>>6491989
Well, it's definitely a thing here. I really don't want to be asked if I'm not afraid of it having Down's syndrome or of not being able to care until it finds a job...
Hey mtfg, I'm super high with weed right now.
Make me do something stupid.
>>6492008
Smoke more weed.
>>6492008
>>6492004
Oh yeah, I know about that but I haven't heard of people getting shit for getting pregnant late before. I don't know.
hey guess who got her legal sex changed on her passport bitchesszzzz
>>6492019
How?
ok so i was in a supermarket with like giant stuff like there was a dragon i think and i felt really weird like you do when you're sick and tgen i had a false awakening and I was in a hole with some else and they were sayong how they were stuck dien there for years and you need to wait for the planets to be in s certain position to get out and then it just happened to be like that while i was there and i climbed most of the way up but tgen i fell back do and he was amazed that i got that far and he took out some kind of computer that helped me up and i climbed out and ever was black and white and you could see people getting killed in like a tornade or something like yhey were getting ripped apart snd tgat happened for a while and then I sort of wpke up again and my family was tgere and they said i was hallucinating and then 8 told them it was because I was in the hole and them one of my uncles who is like a junkie was drying to g9 into the hole ti get high snd we all had to stop him i left the house after tgat and i was on a highway for a while and then i was in som kind of sport stadium but i was afraid because i didn't have tickets si i kept mobing around and the seets got really steep after a while so i was just hanging down from them and the i fell on some equipment and then i walked out and i was back in the supermarket and I woke up
>the curse strikes again and nothing can go right in my life yet again
why do i even live. all life is to me is suffering, but I feel like I'm being held prisoner by the people who won't let me die
>>6492019
>her
>>6492021
This is about as literate as when I wrote down the meaning to life while on shrooms.
Come back sans shrooms
>>6492019
jelly af
>>6492025
Well, legally yeah
>>6492008
come share it with me and be my friend, I'll make you food
I swear I am legitimately curse. nothing ever goes right in my life. I swear I must have been a nazi in a past life or some shit to deserve this hell.
>>6492019
I don't think I'm in a state to go to court for that at the moment. I'll just build up my file and wait until I can take the stress...
>>6492021
Completely unintelligible; you very well may be the next James Joyce, anon!
>>6492031
Woah there's the F. My bad you beautiful flower of femininity. Are you still heading for Europe this summer?
>>6492030
Why don't you get one of those?
>>6492019
You just got that now?
I've had that done for a long time
Call me the,
Duchess of Beauregard,
Fighting for what's right (engarde!),
Try and stop me? (no you can't),
Hoisted by your own petard!
>>6492042
>that gif
Why is porn so fucking weird
>>6492044
I need a diagnosis, and no psychologists in my county take medicaid, which means I'm gonna have to go to an inpatient facility just because medicaid is shit and nobody takes it.
I'm fucking sick of every tiny possible thing that could go wrong in my life going wrong. shittiest part is everything I seem to forget that I'm cursed and my life is just an experiment to see how far into hell a person can go before snapping and killing themselves.
>>6492033
「乗り余地」?
What does that even mean?
>>6492042
Because the law doesn't allow that here yet? Duh.
>>6492004
France is hypernormative in weird ways. Like how women who reach 25 without getting married have a "special" celebration, having kids past 35 is plain wrong... And I guess there aren't that many country where orthorexy is becoming a notable issue... Social pressure here isn't necessarily visible but it's omnipresent.
>>6491997
I have never encountered any flavored nut that I have enjoyed in the slightest
Including that bullhorn "honey roasted" garbage they do with peanuts sometimes it's disgusting
Roast it with salt or blanch it in salt water
Nuts need no other ingredients
>>6492060
Room Rider?
>>6492070
I'm going to accept this as the correct answer.
Well that was a fine hello...
You know, when I put effort into rhyming with an intuitive rhythm, I expect at least a little attention...
>>6492060
it means im drunk, and typed it out wrong...
I was trying to say nihonnoriyorigadaisukidesu, which means I love japanese food. Ive forgotten like all of the kanji since I gave up on japanese, because theyll never accept a fucking tranny like me.
>>6492068
*bullshit
What happened to all the words I added to my phone dictionary and why is captcha retarded
>>6492077
Hey Sirona! Long time no see~
>>6492078
Nihon no tabemono ga daisuki da yo would be much easier to understand...
>>6492077
Hi Sharona
>>6492064
Oh well it's not that important. I think of you as a girl Ricky.
>>6492042
thanks. and yes, thats what this means! spain and france and londonnnn.
>>6492094
>remote island
Ireland, you mean? :^)
>>6492086
I said I was drunk...
>>6492091
The hands on that canvas (wood I imagine?) are painted so pretty and pale. I really need to improve my learning anatomy. More hand studies I guess ;~;
That neck is so thick though.
>feel great one second and shit the next
bipolar a shit
>>6492103
Hue.
No I mean a remote Island in the arse end of Ireland.
Not even phone reception...
>>6492094
Where were ya? :o
You havent missed much desu
>>6492113
A tiny island in West Cork by the name of Sherkin. It's like it's trapped in the past... no internet, no TV, no phone reception...
It's heaven and hell all in one, and I got paid for it too!
>>6492100
That's great to hear. You'll have so much fun I am sure of it. Maybe even a bit of a romance.
While I'll be working my ass off if everything goes right.
>>6492108
It's an oil painting on canvas. And so for the neck I guess that's just how the model Jane Morris looked.
mtfg, what's the oldest you'd date? for some reason i get along a lot better lately with guys who are 32~45. although all of the guys i've talked to in their 40s look 32, so.
>>6492059
>woe is me the post
>>6492112
It makes more sense that she was writing it with an IME than screwing up with than it being a Google translate issue, I think. "nihon no riyori" versus "nihon nori-yochi" only differ by 'ri' versus 'chi'.
>>6492117
Nah, I already was subjected to that by old friends, even though I presented male at the time. So, no catching up with that needed before marriage...
>>6492128
Oh, actually she probably just hit the wrong key, since 'r' and 't' are right next to each other on the keyboard and 'ti' = 'chi'.
>>6492128
Yeah... probably.
I don't have very good deduction skills right now... so... I'm probably going to fuck up a lot of basic shit.
>>6492125
I don't see any age gap in that direction as an obstacle anymore. My last ex taught me it wasn't that much of an issue. Well, I probably wouldn't date Zsa Zsa Gabor, I guess...
>>6492121
What were you doing?
>>6492123
Probably not. Préraphaelites kind of had a weird neck fetish...
>>6492140
Cutting grass with power tools, repairing ancient (as in, 60 yer old) electronics, cleaning a boat that hasn't been cleaned in 3 years and has been sitting on a dry dock, paint scraping an entire house and building a wall.
I work efficiently.
>>6492123
Ahh strange. Did she also use a red wig for the modeling session of the first painting? Kinda looks like she's wearing a wig...
>>6492139
Oh yeah, you're right. Still, reasonable mistake to make after a long time without practicing the language.
>>6492148
Hmmmm. Up to cleaning the Augean stables?
>>6492151
I used to be really good at it too TT-TT I had a bunch of people in japan ask me if I was fluent.
>>6492125
Prolly 50
>>6492153
>Augean stables?
Do I haaaaave to?
Don't make me do it all in one day, please?
>>6491197
hi are we still doing this
>>6492160
Aww. I understand your reasons for dropping it, but that's kind of a shame.
>>6492125
I have two FWBs I have sex with who are 66 and 69 now. That is +15 and +18 years of my age. I'm not sure I'd do it for just anybody. There are still some gals in their 60s that I think are quite nice. When I was 16 I started going out with a 59yo, but he knew what he was doing on the dance floor and in bed. It didn't hurt that he was also made of money and tithed to his women.
>>6492130
lol Figures they would do that for you.
>>6492165
Pretty cute
>>6492163
My mother calls that any room I use for more than a day. She has serious OC issues. And poor memory, and no sense of organization whatsoever. Which makes finding items from any place she's "tidied" quite problematic... I left some things behind when going home because nobody could find where she had misplaced them.
>>6492165
Is that you?
>>6492175
Iktf.
Call it a mess. but at least I can find where I put things...
>>6492169
I miss japan so much, and it makes me cry thinking about how much all of my japanese friends are going to hate me once they find out im a degenerate faggot
>>6492150
She might have. The painting I posted (from Birmingham Museum) went through eight iterations over the course of eleven years.
Laughing really hard @ amy victoria rn
>>6492172
My "guy" years were kind of a joke, looking back. Always someone to out me as a girl, even when my hair and clothes didn't give me away.
>>6492187
Why?
>>6492189
Her life is horrible and i think its hilarious
>>6492189
Schadenfreude is just a fixed figure of the anon gestalt here. Just ignore it.
>>6492178
Eh. They might, they might not. It's not the worst country in the world to visit as a trans person, at the very least.
>amyvictoria looks like CFH
>they're both totally insane
Like pottery
>>6492125
As long as you don't have old-person smell and we have enough in common to talk about and stuff I don't think it really matters.
I hope you don't take this the wrong way, but from looking at the timelines and pics posted here it's safe to say this is a hugbox. I'm a girl who transitioned early, so I actually pass. I can't say the same for the rest of you.
did you know that there are trans superheroes?
[spoiler]Pretty much anyone drawn by Frank Miller[/spoiler]
>>6492210
Cool beans.
>>6492210
Whingie stop being such a dick.
>>6492180
Pretty
I'm about to see game grumps :D
>>6492212
Frank Miller is sorta trash tho
>>6492202
You could have just said I look really young and that Amy is really pretty but you had to weave a double compliment like that. Nice.
>>6492210
when you mock people for how manly they are it looks as if you were trying to make yourself feel better, and people promoting validation through inuslting others are hugboxing themselves too. there's no point in posting anything about how you look, they'll probably try to get ffs anyway no matter what you say. feel free to act however you want and someone will always be ircked by that.
>>6492223
Poor Erin, she must feel like a freak whenever she tries women clothing ;__;
>>6492230
>hon post
>>6492212
>dem hands
>dat brow
>dat shoulder to hip ratio
>dat adam's appel
>dat hairline
D-Does he know how a woman looks like?
>>6492223
tell Erin that we're here for her :)
>>6492234
I'm telling you that you'll get people to dislike you if you say they look pretty or if you say they look like a man, so do whatever you want knowing you always look like an ass.
>>6492234
Nah, this is a literal hon post. See the difference?
>>6492239
im not them but you sound like a hon. i dont think i am wrong about being a hon
>>6492240
You have a big smile. When I was little I used to be afraid of people with wide mouths because I couldn't help but imagine them bitting my head off in what I would later call a Junji Ito style. Something like http://static.tvtropes.org/pmwiki/pub/images/Binjo_Tsuji_4918.jpg
>>6492223
saw their live show in LA, it was hella fun
>>6492249
In case, you haven't noticed, I don't show teeth in pics...
>>6492188
That question was hanging about me some, but growing a beard quelled it. After conversion therapy, I was kinda stuck in the middle despite having an obvious male body skeleton, and my face didn't properly fit either.
>>6492240
You don't have the right attitude for a hon.
>>6492214
Sorry, but what else can I say? I blend into society now as a cis woman and I don't like it when new era trans girls shit it up and misappropriate the term transgender for the rest of us.
>>6492216
What is whingie? I urban dictionary'd it but I still have no idea what it means. I'm not being a dick, only honest. Do you want to live in a hugbox and only be told you look cuteprettykissablewowiloveyou all that, only to be shattered by the onset of a cold truth outside? You are living in fantasy.
>>6492230
I'm not hugboxing myself, I have a boyfriend of 2 years and I have cis friends who don't even know I am trans and they are consistently jealous of the attention I get from men. You can say I'm hugboxing myself if it makes you feel better or something, but the reality is the people in this thread are being showered by white lies only to feel temporarily better and are bound to be hit with a brick wall when they step outside with mockery and laughter. You are responsible for that, not me. It doesn't matter if you are irked by it, you need to be told the truth.
>girls even have an easier time becoming men than vice-versa
Fuck women. I'm only becoming one of these things because they're nicer to look at and to get some of that female privilege.
>>6492267
That girl has a man jaw
>>6491720
Hey Grace I don't want to be rude but I don't think your jaw is going to allow you to pass.
I'm sorry but I don't to hugbox like the rest of these people.
>>6492274
I guess that if people are watching your boobs, or even better your ass, it's hard to pay attention to facila features.
>>6492266
>I don't like it when new era trans girls shit it up and misappropriate the term transgender for the rest of us.
That's a pretty popular opinion here to be completely honest; people just have a different idea of who is misappropriating.
>>6492282
Most people aren't looking for masculine features in women and thus don't notice them. It's just us as we're trannies and used to trying to spot them on ourselves or our friends.
>>6492286
*hug*
Where's Phien-chan? anyone know how she's doing?
>>6492262
Even with a beard, I still routinely got comments about my butt. And unlike boobs, that's rather hard to hide... Not to mention all the awkward moments on the phone with anyone who wasn't familiar with my voice.
But yeah, the hon thing is a joke. They usually hate me. But... Could my attitude ever be called right? I mean, in any context... ;)
>>6492266
>says she passes for a CIS girl
Time stamp pic or stop trolling
>>6492266
You say that as if transition is something people chose to do because they think they'll pass. It's not something you say "oh well" and forget from your life if you're not pretty.
>>6492289
destroying her liver and possibly her relationship by abusing progesterone since it ahs benzo like effects in absurd dosis.
>>6492293
A lot of us try that and fuck ourselves over worse, though.
>>6492291
>she didn't wear an ass binder.
>>6492301
Well, it's like wanting to be one of those guys that jump in a bike over the grand canion. You have to assume failure is a very possible result from the start and still do it.
I mean, yeah, if looking ugly is gonna stop you it's usually better to not start.
>>6492296
Hush now, laziness is in effect.
>>6492298
...
If I remember correctly it gets phosphorylises into a benzo-like, and its effects are catylised by chocolate...
The same effect occurs in cis-girls causing a chocolate addiction and little else.
But then, I'm a random faggot on 4-chan, don't take my word for it.
>>6492306
And if you make the jump and don't make it across, if I'm reading your analogy right, we should commit suicide? Or what?
>>6492285
To me, misappropriation comes from normalizing unpassability as passing. I know what you're trying to do, you're trying to cheer up your little online friends and what not, but it'll ultimately lead to their demise.
>>6492292
What is time stamp pic? You want me to post a picture of myself with the time? Do you want me to specify which timezone I am in in case it's different from yours? What a strange request.
>>6492293
The point of transition is to alleviate gender dysphoria, but passing is indeed important for anyone to be accepted and functional in society. If you don't pass, then it leads to problems unless you're anti-social to the point you don't care what anyone says or thinks.
>>6492316
>What is time stamp pic? You want me to post a picture of myself with the time? Do you want me to specify which timezone I am in in case it's different from yours? What a strange request.
is this your first day in 4chan?
>>6492316
no its not a strange request you retard
if you fling shit about others appearance you had better be posting your own ugly ass
>>6492315
Yup!
What, you expect my to criticise her?
Hell nah! She's had it rough, let her have her escapism. Hell, I have mine, it'd be hypocritical of me to be a bitch because she has an addiction when I've been abusing meds all week...
>>6492316
>show proof of what you say
>What a strange request.
?
>>6492324
some worry about your friend risking the only thing she considers of value in her life and multiple times has said she'll kill herself once she looses it would be healthy I think.
>>6492019
Why are American passports in Spanish? I thought it was a white country?
>>6492316
A "Time stamp" is a selfie where you're holding a piece of paper that has the present date and time on it
>>6492332
Phein-chan and I have talked about this to conclusion on Skype. Rest assured that I'm worried for her, but I'm not going to stop her from doing what she is. It's up to her how she deals with her pain, and considering that I deal with it in a similar manner, I won't criticise it.
You'll always be my first love /Mtfg/
communism
>>6492348
hi do you want to be my mommy?
>>6492348
>>6492316
Oh, so are we cool as long as I agree that with you that I will never, ever pass? Can I still call myself trans or would you prefer I just call myself a boy with boobs?
>>6492335
60% white and rapidly dropping. The final plan is almost here. The planet of the apes movie was a pretty accurate description of the future.
We should have kept blacks in their natural habitat but they will outnumber us now using our tools to do so.
It's all over.
>>6492348
Don't make me start saving "god damnit Faye" images like I have for Elanna...
>>6492307
Hi Sirona
I have a skype now
shakira.s11
oh and a soundcloud too
https://soundcloud.com/user-954054996
>>6492322
No it's not my first day. But I don't come here often because I can't relate to anyone here. I do drop by time to time because I care about the trans community.
>>6492323
I don't have an ugly ass to post. My ass is spectacular. If you're trying to get me to post a picture of myself, I'm more than willing to do that. It's not hard to figure out you are triggered by what I said and you're only looking to get "even" here and that sounds unproductive.
>>6492326
What proof do you want from me? Look at the pictures posted on here and judge for yourself.
>>6492266
As I see it's pretty simple. I could be watching something, reading or talking with people here. I don't want to talk with a pile of depressed sobs so I prefer if they feel better about themselves. Nothing I can tell them will change how the world around them is. I don't get anything from pointing out things people in the street do already. I don't win anything if I remark how they look like a man, I win a little of I ignore them or tell them they are okay.
At the end of the day a big part of it is the ambient they move around and what they do with their time. You can be a hon and have a happy life, it's just harder. You can literally be a man that wears dresses and still do okay if you limit your interactions and have something to offer.
>>6492356
Sweet. Adding you.
>>6492335
>Spanish
>not white
>>6492348
Those are not tranny tits! Impossible!
>>6492363
Agreed
>>6492363
You never saw a pushup bra?
>>6492354
>mfw black
>>6492361
Mexicans are not white. Also Spain was Islamic for centuries and many are mixed with moors.
>>6492363
a good bra to hide your man chest is important.
Faye with a sports bra looked a bit hilarious.
>>6492365
No i am a basement dwelling guy with several mental issues and i do not watch porn for religious reasons.
I work from my basement so tehnically i am not a NEET
>>6492365
Helluva push
>>6492348
>Still transition goaling them things.
Is it at all peculiar I'm kinda craving another injection...
>>6492366
every single city will turn into detroit
>>6492363
If it makes you feel any better she might have given herself brain tumors growing those. (Hopefully not.)
>>6492165
This picture literary made me cry. Especially 18 y/o one. Fuck I know what I was when I was 18 wtf I did the whole repression shit and hide in my room for another 7 years.
>>6492367
Italians are mixed with northern african populations, Greeks are mixed with Ottoman Turks, Finnish are mixed with Mongols, Portugese are mixed with Moors and Berbers, the list goes on and on and on.
>>6492385
As someone who did the same but longer, I understand those feelings, but don't dwell on them, work with what you have.
>>6492337
I see and thank you. I'll take one now.
>>6492353
I can't change how you feel inside, if I could then a lot of us would not be trans. But our society at large assigns you as non-binary if you don't pass. This may sound like an insult to you, but that's what a boy with boobs is. So even if you feel like a girl inside, if you don't look like one then you are non-binary by default to everyone else outside of the trans community who are prone to respect each other a little bit more.
>>6492359
So you are telling them they pass just because it might create a more positive environment? And what is a hon? I don't understand the rest of your point until I know what that means.
>>6492385
>implying that you cry
>not another bdd attack
>>6492387
I'm not white?
>>6492393
what reason is there to even live anymore
>>6492398
Scientists have yet to answer this question.
We can wait until they do, right?
>>6492390
You probably have unrealistic standards to what passing is. Sure you transitioned early you can get to be an absolutely feminine girl, for most people here looking like a slightly more masculine girl would be fine.
You don't have to look like a model to blend in.
>>6492378
You kids know nothing about communism or how fags were treated there.
>>6492401
too much misery
>>6491932
Well, like I said I didn't talk to her. I just heard her muttering to herself. But nope, no attempt, sounded 100% masculine
>>6492365
I have, but that ones not the push-up, that's just a regular nice bra that isn't from Walmart or Amazon
>>6492396
Aww right in the feels. Cheer up nikky, you are a qt.
>>6492348
>wake up
>see this
I'll be in my bunk
>>6492390
I don't think I have used to word hon today... it's a vocative late transitioners use to force soundind more feminin. Here it's used to demean people who put only a supperficial layer of effort and expect to be treated like a woman. Or just an insult for ugly people if you're new and never took the time to interact before trying to be a cool kid.
And yes. It might be mean to say it, but I'd rather have a mildly delusional community where I can come and enjoy for a while than a shithole of people complainingabout their lives. They're not gonna stop their transitions anyway so you'd only get more depression. Everyone knows who are the few girls that pass and the ones that sort of do. Not everyone had the chance to transition early or decent genes, that doesn't make them less trans or anything and they can still be insightful or interesting.
And if you really don't pass people won't hold their punches either. The issue is the middle ground.
>>6492394
#F4A460
>>6492410
Welp. Not much I can do really. Sorry friend-o, I've been abusing pain meds, antidepressents and anti-allergens all week. My body's been under so much stress that I thought that I was lucid dreaming this morning and tried to fly. Fortunately I was jumping off a pier and only got wet, and not dead.
>>6492405
I don't have an unrealistic standards to what passing is. I think maybe you do?
I didn't say anything about having to look like a model to blend in? If you look like a model, than you stick out and get noticed more. Trust me on that one.
>>6492390
>can't be a femboy because too old and unfem
>can't be trans because anon says so
>any other label makes me a special snowflake
Fuck, I'll never belong. ;_;
alsooooo
i wish i had more of a variety of pics so i could make a nice timeline like this >>6492165
but rip
>>6492409
Well, money wise, between lawyer and experts fees, it can quickly add up to 2k €. Now, I had SRS done, so there's no reason why the judge should reject it, but there's no guarantee either. It's totally arbitrary.
Also, depends on what you want to see. Roman monuments, you're looking at Arles or Nimes. Nature, that would be the Camargue delta.
>>6492426
>no u
>>6492414
Thanks Rikki sure I wasn't pretty at 18 but I would guess I would end up so much better than starting at 25. Those 7 years really affected me mentally.
>>6492425
i wish i had some stuff to abuse
glad ur not dead
>>6492427
Just be yourself. Who needs labels anyway?
>>6492437
So am I honestly. Though my week of isolation is up so hopefully I can go off the anti-allergens and lower my dosages of pain meds.
The antidepressants I wasn't abusing really, but when you're taking all that on top of your usual doses...
Yeah. Add that to the fact that I make no claims to sanity and I guess you can explain the vivid halucinations and obvious delusion.
I mean... There definately isn't a mad dryad living in the attic and a werewolf who's infatuated with me on the same island, right?
Right?
...
I wish there was someone who was infatuated with me...
>>6492432
I want to see Roman monuments. There isn't much here. The only city here I can think of that has a decent amount of Roman ruins is St Albans.
>>6492421
Okay, so hon is a slur for someone who doesn't pass. Thanks for explaining this to me, I learn something new every time I come on here. I think what you're trying to do is selfish for yourself and not fair to the people on the receiving end of it. I know trans people can be delicate and deserve to be treated with more respect, but I believe respect comes from being able to communicate honest opinions and ideas in an open discussion. You can't force feed someone with lies to prop them up and say it's out of respect, it's counterproductive for their end. We can agree to disagree, but I strongly dislike Reddit communities for that very reason.
>>6491186
HAPPY / HIGH / I HAVE EATEN
... and for the first time in my life i feel kinda okayish about my body. Bought some clothes that aren't just sterile, even a cute bra which isn't just neutral. Feel good, i think i slowly start to realize i have a sexuality aswell. Good feels.
How is it going, mtfg?
>>6492428
timelines are overrated
>>6492398
imagine a big guy grabbing you by your butt and insertig his peen into ur butte
orgasms and such, but what do i know, i just entered a mental hospital for depression
>>6492396
please don't cry. wanna talk about what happend? I just got here...
>>6492434
I know it can be a burden but you shouldn't dwel on the past for long, you still have a life ahead of you. You worked hard enough for it so that you can live it as an attractive girl too.
Don't waste that precious time by thinking back on could-have-beens, focus on what you have and try to pursue what other things you want in life. Pursuit of happiness :)
I'm buying a cheap violin to learn with soon
>>6492416
Sheen, haven't you heard, theyre obviously implants, in a push up bra, or I'm cis a cis troll or something....
>>6492461
They're everywhere in Southern France. Not that much where I come from. We do have a few sacrifial altars from before the Romans, though. They've been well maintained over the centuries because, you know...
>>6492469
i should probably be in a mental hospital honestly
im a mess
>>6492483
same famalam
>>6492472
Then I need to move. This country is anti-feminism, anti-lgbt, anit-left it's basicly /pol/'s wet dream.
I can't be happy here. I'm lonely and hated.
>>6492483
how come?
I think everyone who is trans is also borderline suicidal/depressive and generally fucked. Maybe the older delusional hons are the only happy trannies
>>6492480
oh, well I mean.
its just because you're intersex and you were on a good hrt regiment.
I've got my dads man genes so it was no wonder I turned out a hon.
>>6492487
the counselor at the lgbt center says I need psychiatric help...
>>6492494
I'm all kindsa fucked
>>6492493
;_;
just cry a bit more about it
;_;
just do nothing, change nothing and cry about breasts
:((((((
bluh i slept for like 11 hours
>>6492491
I know what you mean, the Balkans can be a scary place at times.
Sounds like you could use a change of scenery.
>>6492492
the voice in my head wont stop telling me to kill myself
>tfw your boss starts ranting to the kitchen staff about Muslim immigration
>>6492493
you are not a hon. you are just fat. And you are pretty cool person in my opinion.
>>6492506
i sleep for like 16 on average
>>6492493
My mom used to hold that against me
>You're still my son!
>I have boobs now, it's not appropriate!
>you've always had boobs!
>but they're much nicer now
>....
>>6492511
stop enabling this persons behaviour
>>6492507
But you have good accordionists, that has to count for something...
>>6492492
all of my ftm friends seem to be doing just fine.... I wish i could still be productive...
>>6492513
yep
that's what I thought would happen for me
still wanna off myself
>>6492428
>making a timeline
dont do it senpai
>>6492464
I don't lie when I comment on someone, if it's a lost case I won't say anything and if there's something actually nice about them I might bring that up, or if there was a big change in a timeline. I don't think anyone here loves hugboxes and when someone says shit like "You look so cute! Kawaii!" I wouldn't respect anyone who takes it seriously. It's also common knowledge that even the people who live stealth don't post pics from every possible angle and choose carefully what to show. It's rare for someone to 100% pass. Telling someone they look like a man isn't gonna help them too much either, and there are people who give up on putting any effort because of things like that and it's for the worse.
In general terms I just think that pulling people up or down isn't good for the general. Not answering or being extremely conservative is the nicer route both for others and your own enjoyment.
I guess that's a definition of a hon, but the mental image is a 40 y/o man in a dress and make up trying to sound like a southern bell. The standard for susans.
>>6492518
Accordionists are usually gypsy thieves, no thanks tb-h.
>>6492516
Have you seen how weight loss (20kg) changed my face and figure? I really believe you can do it.
>>6492398
there is none desu
if you want to die and you're ready to die just do it
>tfw ur parents take out life insurance on you so they can collect a few pennies when u kille urself
lmao
>have to go buy more E
>it's raining
okay, detransition it is.
>>6492532
but you have to properly plan it, life inssurance doesn't pay in case of suicide or people in debt would be wrecking them.
>>6492513
yeah... after I started to transition, my life went to shit, and I had to drop out of school, and now im stuck living at my parents house while theyre struggling financially because of the burden of having to pay back my debt for me.Fuck, even my degree is worthess, who the fuck wants to listen to jazz music anyway, im nevergoing to be successful in anyhting i do, because im fundementally broken
>>6492443
Oh, I was joking with that post. That's what I'm trying to do.
>okcupid
>I've never been with a trans woman, but I'm attracted to you and it doesn't matter to me ;)
Is he a chaser or not?
>>6492548
>;)
yes
left or right??
i prefer left, but i feel so unsure....
>>6492538
idk, im not sure what kind of policy it is; but around half of my attempts can be conscrewed as "accidents" probably
>>6492542
lol ikr
>>6492548
doesn't sound like he's a chaser?
if he's attractive and seems like an okay guy, go for it
>>6492534
>not taking an umbrella and braving the cold
don't become a man for nothing anon
>>6492551
This fucking emoticon, I knew it!
>>6492548
yeah thats a common strategy
lie and tell you what you want to hear
>>6492547
i had to leave because being an unpassing tranny in texas was too much for me to handle...
>>6492553
def left
>>6492555
it's like chasers have trademarked that emoticon at this point
it's so creepy, idg why they still use it
quak
>>6492563
>you still have your dick? ;)
>>6492572
It does help, yeah. Had a hard time accepting it, but I'm beautiful. Now if the inside wasn't so fucked up...
I MADE BREAD PUDDING BUT I CAN'T EAT IT SINCE IT'S 300 DEGREES RIGHT NOW
DOES THE WAITING EVER GET EASIER /mtfg/?
>>6492515
when I came out, my sister was all
>this explains everything
but it was like... none of my other brothers or sisters believed me because I was too manly and never suspected it or whatever and I was like
>thats not how it works
>>6492517
but I am a hon, I've got a lot of masculine features that wont go away with weightloss
but I will shutup about it and just keep working on the weightloss
>>6492530
I need to lose 60kg of fat and muscle
https://unsee
.cc/dumezapi/
Should I put Grace down as my preferred first name on applications? It might be easier to let employers know I'm trans from the get go instead of just hiding it..
>>6492565
>>6492568
>>6492577
ugh so unsettling
>>6492577
Life without Dick isn't life. http://youtu.be/NdwmEH_Yr8E
>>6492580
Throw it in the freezer for like ten seconds.
>>6492581
more proof of honness
>>6492583
It would probably help you find out where being trans is a problem before you even get the job, so it could be a good idea.
>>6492583
If you feel comfortable with that then probably, you don't want to get hired into an environment that is hostile to trans workers.
>>6492583
Do you expect it to be a long term job? If it's just a couple of months at this point you could probably boymode it and get the cash before it becomes an issue.
>>6492525
I think it's more so the people who say "You look so cute! Kawaii!" that's problematic only to appear as a nice person. It's like, what are you doing? Are you trying to prove that you are a nice person by having low standards for passing? That never made any sense to me. Given that there are varying degrees of masculine features in cis women, I wouldn't say a 100% pass standard exists. I disagree what you say, you don't have tell them they look like men to insult them, but you can open a dialogue of constructive criticism and offer helpful tips. What good is in telling someone they look good, when they don't? Only that they may feel better about themselves for a little while, but in a dysfunctional relationship with the truth. The less lies we feed to people, the less "honnish" our community will be.
>>6492553
i bought the one on the right and literally cut it off my feet while drunk with maddie in portland because it was the most uncomfortable shoe on earth lmao
>>6492581
The good news for you is that weight loss when you're that fat is really easy. Weight loss at around the 200 lbs mark is suffering because just one extra bowl of cereal because you got hungry before bed can stall your entire weight loss.
>>6492582
Ill make one soon ;~; sowwy anon
>>6492548
sounds like an open minded gay man
>>6492603
I did that when I showed up to jam with a band once for that reason. It felt great presenting and being recognized as female but ever since they e-mailed me back to reject me I sometimes wonder whether it was just because I'm obviously trans. I'd still do it again though.
>>6492603
I'm staying in the closet for the entire duration of university
>>6492596
They will remain hons, unless they are asking for tips about ffs. If it's something like make up or proper clothing for your body type I don't think there's any debate that it's a proper topic for the thread an even people outside the convo can learn somehting new.
I always assume that the people that just love everyone are chasers that want a femboy or straight out a man. We have tons of those. You shouldn't pay too much attention to what anons say in general unless it's specific and resonates with something you were already thinking.
I seriously doubt any 4channer has a really big ego anyway. Except maybe Faye. And CFH but that's more of a case of needing it to get through with things.
>>6492605
the sad thing is when i went out with my bf, his friend and his girlfriend, at the end of the night my bf ended up saying i had more feminine mannerisms than his friend's girlfriend
a lot of cis girls don't give that any fucks about acting feminine
>>6492597
tytyty
they're both cute, but i couldn't be sure
>>6492603
worry about being trans later and worry about the qualifications first. unless you're an extreme faggot tier trans acting like a flamer, most people don't care if you are trans as long as you keep yourself together and can do the work
>>6492601
Just go suck your bf next time you find yourself with P in your hands and we're cool.
>>6492603
>I don't wanna have to hop jobs
Well, I'd assume you normally wouldn't. But many jobs tend to hire people for a short term so they can save on costs. At least that's how it works in my country, permanent personal get a bigger paycheck. If you need a job you can start with a meh one while you look for the next one so you don't have to entirely depend on your parents until you get a chance. Getting a good job isn't easy.
>>6492621
what did she mean by this
>>6492588
I want to punch you right in the nose for making that face
>>6492619
I guess my biggest concern is being able to get water and use the bathroom as needed. In my last job that was difficult, they hated when I dared to drink from my water bottle for 30 seconds.
>>6492612
I think I'm gonna explain to them that it'll still be a little while before I present but I'm going to be going full time while I'm still employed with them so it's something we'll have to deal with eventually.
>>6492621
>But many jobs tend to hire people for a short term so they can save on costs.
That's the kind of job I want to avoid, my last job was like that but instead of letting me go they just drove me out.
>If you need a job you can start with a meh one while you look for the next one so you don't have to entirely depend on your parents until you get a chance. Getting a good job isn't easy.
Yeah I mean all the jobs available to me are pretty shit tier but I need something to cover transition costs and then the costs of moving to Portland and starting my new life.
>>6492634
thats just how my face looks
>>6492633
its not that easy anon :c
>>6492646
If you can stand it until they fire you, or leave in good terms then the more jobs in your resume the more chances you have to get a decent one. Many places prefer job experience over a particular degree. Ideally you should be the one leaving, with the two weeks and all the deal, while keeping good terms.
For what I remember your issue in your previous job felt more related to a lack of comunication from your side. It's hard, but you have to stand a certain amount of ground. Unless you're a cashier no one should complain if you go to the bathroom every coupld of hours or something. Although you're just on 100mg spiro, right? I'm in 200 and I barely have to go pee a couple times more than usual. You might just have to learn to hold it a little bit.
>>6492615
You're could be right about some of them being chasers. I didn't know so many of them were here and under specific names. The nature of some of the comments that baffled me didn't seem that chaserish, but rather hugboxish. It's all too common in trans communities and it's surprising to see that 4chan of all places practices it. Some people tend to pay attention to things that are in conflict with their beliefs and ask questions. To not do that and only pay attention to things that you agree with would be extremely dull.
>>6492661
just go suck him whenever you are going to grab your pills. at least it should reduce your needs a bit. like one of those stress balls.
>>6492668
he isnt the type that wants that hed just tell me to fuck off most of the time v_v
he says he ist 15 anymore
Well, sent out a job application finally, also checked the disability box because lolbrainproblems
Curious to see how this turns out, but I probably wont even get called back
>>6492663
I couldn't handle my last one, it was taking too much of a mental toll on me that I just had to leave without the 2 weeks.
>Unless you're a cashier no one should complain if you go to the bathroom every coupld of hours or something. Although you're just on 100mg spiro, right? I'm in 200 and I barely have to go pee a couple times more than usual. You might just have to learn to hold it a little bit.
I can try to figure out something with them about the bathroom, I guess it just depends on what my tasks are. They didn't like that I'd have to stop making things to take 2 minutes to piss.
>>6492675
oh, well, just kneel next to him and present yourself. it seems to work for my neighbor's cat.
>>6492690
nope it doesnt. trust me, after srs I couldnt have sex for a year, and offered blowjob, but he wanted to wait until I could have fun as well :c
>>6492708
That's pretty sweat
>>6492713
was pretty bad for my self esteem desu even though I know he meant well
>>6492719
Did you reclaim that self esteem now that you've recovered and you have sex regularly?
>>6492732
sadly nope, I havent gotten over it, even though weve had sex like 200 times since then and he seems to like it.
prog makes me extremely horny though, like Id need some 3 times per day :c
>>6492708
No, no, offering your butt like a cat in heat does. Just kneel with your face down and swing it around. That should do the trick.
>>6492747
hed just ask me if I am high
(which would actually be accurate)
cant risk that
>>6492741
Really? What's the reason, did you feel unwanted/unattractive for that period?
>>6492763
yes.
I kinda still do, I look like a man, so thinking someone desires me is kinda werid
>>6492762
I don't think it works outside of porn, but it's weird that you've been together so long and you haven't found any buttons to push. DOesn't he have a certain fetish? Or some sensitive point? Or something you think he might want to try out?
when doing new things it's okay to ask, if you try to just do something like a porn or a doujinshi you'd weird the other person out.
>>6492765
Well that checks out with the rest of the stuff you feel I guess.
But I think you should try to rationalize more and base it less on your feelings, people can find you attractive regardless on how you feel about yourself.
And certainly if he initiates sex regularly he must find you desirable.
>>6492815
You don't have to really initiate, the easy way is to bring up the subject and ask if he'd like X thing you know he likes or show yourself open to it. It's the feminin way to initiate without looking controlling.
>>6492815
>or he knows I need it?
As much as he does probably, don't sell yourself short.
>>6492845
You're impossible to talk up to lol, you always try to make it into something negative about you
>>6492879
I am sorry
you dont need to talk to me if I am too annoying though
>>6492886
I seriously doubt that was the point, phien.
"lol" usually translates as "don't take it in a bad way"
>>6492886
I don't really find it annoying, it just kinda bums me out that I can't get you to feel at least a bit positive about yourself.
But I guess If a person over the internet could do it you wouldn't need therapists.
>>6492936
You really needed me to tell you we want you to be happy? Almost every thread has an epilogue dedicated entirely to you during the next one.
>>6492956
you think? I was gone for like 5 days, and the only one that mentioned me was an anon saying she hoped I am dead
not that that bothered me, I want that as well but I didnt really think I was liked
>>6492972
Most people assume you are in a different time zone or doing your thing. Most of the time not being here is a sign of health more than anything.
>>6492972
People wont really start mentioning you just because you don't post for a few days though, it'd be pretty paranoid.
We just assume that you're preoccupied.
I'll be honest though I was kinda worried in the back of my head, what with the drugs you're abusing.
this season's anime look SO BAD
where has all the good/interesting anime gone
>>6493019
I mean I wish you'd stop but I don't think I can get you to, I advised you to tell your bf but you said that'd be a bad idea.
All I can do is be hopeful that you'll run out before you hurt yourself, or maybe your bf will realize something's wrong and manage the situation.
>>6493036
>All I can do is be hopeful that you'll run out
am out of stuff, took the last 2,3 g today :c
will be high till tomorrow evening, then Ill have to hope to have enough money left to get new stuff, not sure if I should tho, my hangovers are like a week long now
>>6493048
In my limited experience with addiction, I've found it easier to avoid purchasing stuff than avoid using it once I bought it.
I think you have the strength to not put effort to order/go get more.
>>6493066
true, but I dont want to be sober. I want to just not die of liver failure within 3 weeks ;_; I wish I had access to real benzos desu
>>6493090
You've been sober for a long time though, right? You can do it again.
I don't know about benzos and how bad they are but you probably stopped for good reasons, don't give up the effort you put into stopping.
>>6493109
>but you probably stopped for good reasons,
stopped for srs and cause my access was killed, after I tried to kms with them, I went onto tramadol for 11 months 6 months later, I was sober for 9 months after, but addictions are really hard, especially if you REALLY dont want to stop
>>6493153
>after I tried to kms with them
Doesn't sound like you were much happier on them then
>>6493180
that was in 2013, I had no reason to live, now I do tho.
>>6493193
Then do you really need them now, you can be good sober girlfriend, I am sure your bf would prefer that.
Besides, the more you stay off them the easier it becomes in my experience.
Also did a bit of looking:"While benzodizapines may have short-term benefits for anxiety, sleep and agitation in some patients, long-term (i.e., greater than 2–4 weeks) use can result in a worsening of the very symptoms the medications are meant to treat"
This sounds very bad.
>>6493226
>Besides, the more you stay off them the easier it becomes in my experience.
true, tho Ive gone back to them everytime I was about to off myself cause I couldnt take my rl pressure. I am just a weak idiot that uses them as a crutch. they feel so good, they eliminate nearly all the crazy symptoms I usually deal with
>use can result in a worsening of the very symptoms the medications are meant to treat"
true, I am not taking them for anxiety anymore though. just to not think. alcohol would do the same I guess, but bf doesnt allow that so...
>>6493241
The more I read the wiki page the more horrifying this drug becomes though, you really should put all the strength you have to avoid relapsing to this.
>just to not think. alcohol would do the same I guess
Alcohol would probably be better but still not great.
I wish they'd move faster with the medical marijuana stuff. It would probably be exactly what you need with way less side effects.
>>6493260
yes, it would probably fix anorexia and anxiety to a certain level at least.
>The more I read the wiki page the more horrifying this drug becomes though
its not much better than heroin. cold turkeying if youre physically addicted can literally kill you
>>6493269
I wasn't even aware about them and didn't really realize how bad this stuff is.
Though I don't think it'll take long before weed is fully legal in europe, maybe you can have that to look forward to.
>>6493292
>it'll take long before weed is fully legal in europe
this will take at least 20 years in germany. you cant even get antibiotics here easily.
>>6493305
What, really? I guess I don't really know germany, I live in a pretty conservative country and there's already talks in legalizing medical marijuana.
Hopefully you can find a source sooner then.
>>6493317
technically Ive 2 sources, they wont sell to me cause I am too crazy tho
I hope we can get stuff when we move to cologne next year
>>6493305
You can get it easily in sweden and to a certain extente spain and portugal. But it would have to be after ffs.
how did you even start with them?
>>6493326
benzos? my anxiety was so bad in 2013 that I couldnt eat or speak. communicated with my parents by carrying around a laptop. I couldnt eat either. after a while, my psych gave me prozac and xanax. it helped, I could talk and eat again (occasionaly) but I ended up liking it too much, tolerance grew and I manipulated multiple doctors to give me giant stacks (f-for 6 months each or something)
>>6493335
>giant stacks (f-for 6 months each or something)
how shit of a doctor can you be? you just don't do that!
>>6493335
>communicated with my parents by carrying around a laptop
Didn't even know anxiety could get this bad, wow.
Oh man I just finished Life is Strange someone please hold me.