I just typed out a long-winded explanation of my own sexuality,

I'm interested, I've come to terms with the fact that I'm gay, which sort of came about due to a lil bit of gay sex but anywho im interested

>be quiet faggot kid awk as fuck no friends vidya 24/7
>only get turned on by fat chicks even though gay
>thought of penetrating something else makes me ree
>love camming for people online slowly get into femboy stuff
>home alone becomes dress up time
>hold shit together until final year of hs when becoming friendless
>get depressed realize trans, gain a ton of weight
>start going to therapist right after hs ends
>start dressing how I want, for some reason am blessed with lots of curves and pass fairly well pre hormones
>get bf, he thinks I'm cute chubby
>bad breakup, start hormones lose a ton of weight
>find qt3.14 cd bf who is into femdom

And that's where I am now, 4 months hrt and fairly happy (despite the fact that bf won't do fat fetish shit)

nu anon
I'll be your friend

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>>7082008
Sorry for the late response, I had to go run errands n' shit.
Here goes:

1/7

I'm gonna attempt to type this out in a clear-headed manner, but given the nature of what it is, chances are I'm gonna be a bit flustered by the end of it. I type this out not to showcase my fetishism in a deviant, exhibitionism-style cry for attention, but more so to figure out once and for all where I stand in terms of sexuality.
I've been masturbating to shemales for longer than I can remember. The first instance I can recall getting hard to the sight of a penis was on Tram Pararam, which - in hidsight - I have no idea how I got off to those pictures. Looking back on a few old favorites, the artstyle was atrocious and the dialogue bubbles were cheesy as all hell. Still, it was the cartoonishly oversized cocks that made me short of breath and made my member shoot up. It felt dirty of course, I've always been a masculine guy, so it came across as weird that I'd get so aroused by the male sex organ. However, I fooled myself into thinking that it was perfectly straight because it was on a female body - a drawn one, at that. Surely you can't ascertain sexuality from images of he-shes that don't exist, right?

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>>7082083
2/7

I was still sexually active with women at the time, and still enjoy the female form. I can get off to a woman's body and I've always been an ass man, but as of late, the porn I watch has got to incorporate a cock in some fashion.
Speaking of cocks, mine just indicated my preference perfectly clearly; it chubbed up a bit while remembering those poorly drawn penises, but talking about a woman's body, remembering the thickness of one certain ex or the double C's I played around with every week of another ex, not a single movement.

>>7082085
3/7

One thing about both of them - and pretty much every female enounter I've had - is that they were all submissive to me. They laid back and let me do all the work, and while it was hot in the moment, the memories don't excite me as much anymore. With the men I've been with however, they were always the ones in control. They were forcing me to take every inch in my mouth or pumping away deep inside me. At first, I thought it was just the thrill of fucking another man that excited me so much. Now, I have another theory.

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>>7082087
4/7

Speaking of memories and exhibitionism though, I recall one dirty habit that I'd consistently do as a cheap thrill. Every now and then, I'd "come out" to one of my female friends via text while masturbating. For some reason, the thrill of telling them that I was gay or - depending upon their reaction - going into detail about sucking men off or spreading my legs for them always made my heart rate spike and made me harder than I could ever get even while in the act of love-makin'. I'd read their reactions, get their praise and compliments, and I'd use that to edge to the point where my loads were fucking massive. At the time though, I was still aroused enough by the female form that I didn't consider myself to be gay, just bisexual. Even then, I didn't wanna admit it to myself with a level head and a soft willy.

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>>7082088
5/7

For a while, I thought all those things meant that I was gay. Especially when I couldn't keep it up with more recent submissive girlfriends, but then I discovered something. The key word was "submissive". I'd had another fetish that still excites me - foot fetishism. The thought of licking, sucking, worshipping a woman's foot still arouses me even more than any vintage gay gangbang or thick-cock shemale. Hell, my cock just got hard thinking about it.
The problem was, I can't get off to a guy like that. A dude's feet don't interest me in the slightest, and can even turn me off in most instances. So I was conflicted, until I started asking myself what it was about women's feet that I enjoyed so much, and the general consensus amongst kinksters I found was that it was an act of submission, and from there, I toyed around with the concept of being submissive myself. So I watched a few foot worship videos, which led to femdom, which led to pegging, which led to a variety of other fetishes within the femdom kink umbrella.

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>>7082089
6/7

Well, that's not entirely how it progressed. Things fell apart with my last ex, and I'd started talking to a girl who was a 4 out of 10 on a good day, but what set her apart from others was her sexual history; she was an experienced domme, and even had a full time slave at one point. She'd go into detail about how she'd dress him up and peg him, use him as a human toilet, make him kneel so she could use her as a foot rest, etc. It didn't work out with her, but the things she said kept resonating with me and I kept thinking of myself in her slave's position. That was a fun few weeks of spankin' it, envisioning her smothering me with her feet, tying up my cock & balls, and remarking at how it couldn't ever please her before spreading her lips between her hips and urinating on me.

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>>7082090
7/7

Now, I don't think I'm gay anymore. I think I've come to terms with the fact that being submissive is incredibly arousing for me. Even when I was jerking off to gay porn, I was more entranced by the cocks rather than the bodies they were connected to - unless it was a feminine twink or a slight chubbster - but masculine guys have never gotten me off quite like feminine boys.
Anyway, now I'm fairly certain that I'm just a submissive bisexual, rather than 100% gay. The thought of getting fucked by another guy is hot, but I find it's infinitely hotter to be pegged by an aggressive domme, making me lick her feet, and forcing me to suck her stud's big, juicy cock while she makes fun of my tiny little prick. Jeez, my cock just shot up after that last sentence.

I'm anon, and I'm a submissive deviant.

>>7082008
fuck off faggot.
>>>/soc/
>>>/lgbt/
>>>/trash/

>>7082091
oh this whole thing is just about cocks? I thought you where gonna talk about something weirder like wanting to unbirth 10 yr girls while eating your moms shit. This is tame as fuck

>>>/y/
>>>/lgbt/
>>>/out/

>>7082093
the same time though we have a great day and night and the rest of my life and I am also going to be just what we can be of interest to see

When the fuck did tumbler show the fuck up?

>>7082008
Please fuck off Tumblr.

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>>7082221
Why do you think this board is /d/?

Do you see any letters, "d" in "Hentai/Alternative?" This is a containment board for dick girls.

>>7082909
When blatantly somebody showed interest.
>>7082012

By the way, /d/ is now for diapers, /d/eal with it.

>>7082008
why do you think anonymity is the default here?

neither identity nor identity politics means anything here. that shit is for a website like reddit or tumblr where whatever you post is tied to some kind of identity.

>>7082982
That's not how containment boards work. If they made a separate dick girl board it would be a containment board.

We need a dick girl containment board.

>>7082909
The whole internet has to deal with this tumblr cancer and these special snowflakes.

When are people going to figure out there's a difference between sexual fantasy and sexuality?

>>7082083
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>>7082091
Thanks for sharing op, was a fascinating read

>>7083139
Spoken like a true closet dweller anon. Because it's totally not an indicator that you're gay or at the very least bi- if you love the idea of getting three futa dicks in your mouth and ass.

Well done on showing off that hypocrisy.

>>7083137
Yes, we really do.