al/ck/

>>9135519
So far so good, about to run out though, not gonna be doing so good after that

>>9135564
Too fucked to go to the store?

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i've been on a tolerance break for a few days and i'm bored out of my mind

3rd month sober, I can't start drinking just yet again, that cost me job problems, health,sanity and stress in family. Gotta sort myself out first.

>When your body is fucking up in so many ways alcoholism is not even in the top 10

Had a few beers this morning and didn't sleep last night. I don't want to be too sedated and fucked up for work later though.
Honestly the only thing I really want is good sleep. That's the only thing I want.

reading it takes 7 years for your brain to fully recover after heavy alcoholism

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>>9135661

>>9135519
Better now that the FBI unfroze the board.

>>9135675
I always assume hiromoot didn't pay the god damn electric bill.

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>>9135686
>Pls buy a pass

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I'm on my 9th day sober and just had the best sleep in years. I woke up rested and clear headed like I used to do as a child.

Feels good, man.

Had half a tall boy this morning....my drinking has gone way down from 2 bottles of wine a night and heavy drinking on beers through the morning and afternoon. Starting as early as I could convince my wife I had to go get cigarettes or w.e. thing could bring me to get to the gas station....anyway down to a few tall boys or a bottle of wine a night and a beer in the AM I'm overall satisfied just wish i could kick that morning beer

I'm done with liqour. I can't control myself with it. I make my drinks way too strong on purpose and I always fucking black out and I'm sick of it.

Only drank a 6 pack a night so far this week. That's about as close to sobriety as i think I'll get.

>>9135728
That's the one thing i always long for during periods of extensive drinking.

Being tired and exhausted and yawning all day blows

>>9135728
>>9135958
I must be broken because today is 21 days booze free and I'm struggling to stay awake all the fucking time.

>>9135999
Did you attempt to get your diet, exercise and circadian rhythm in check as well?

>>9135999
Depending on how hard you drank it could take a while to heal up... vitamins help.

I wish I was dead

>>9136115
So do we, sweet prince.

What drink goes great with a cigar?

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>4:45 PM
>15 minutes to 5PM

i've made a promise to myself to never drink before 5 PM

so close lads

>>9136177
Good job mate

>Buy rum
>It's been a shitty few months so I'm drinking a shot(s) in the morning just to get through the day
>Bring it to friend's house because I have nothing else to bring to a party
>Leave it there
>They drink it all in two days

Well at least that kept me sober for a while...

>>9136196
how much rum? two days to drink it seems long

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>>9136177

ahhhhhhh much better

>>9136203
It was one of those big kraken bottles. They are casual drinkers so it was surprising. I then found out that their new room mate who was a bartender and alcoholic cleaned their entire liquor cabinet in a week and my rum was one of the casualties.

>>9136168
anything aged and brown. cognac, armagnac, aged rum, whisk(e)y etc.

>>9135728
Now it's time to celebrate! You know what to do.

>>9135999
You know what will make you sleep through the night? It's a simple solution

Drank 4 strongbows this morning and now I'm done for good. Puked blood last night and decided it wasn't worth it to drink any longer. I was drinking 15 beers a day without even getting drunk any longer. Then I puke blood? What a rip off.

>>9136362

i like your style

>>9136177
I do the same thing but I sleep and wake randomly, so it's more of a I don't drink until at least 8 hours after I wake up. Alcohol always sounds and is so disgusting for me in the mornings.

>>9136226
>enjoyamstelresponsibly.com

>>9136226
Please enjoy, but responsibly.

>>9136362
>Now it's time to celebrate! You know what to do.
Yes, had a nice cup of coffee.

>>9136177
15 minutes early tonight, 30 minutes early tomorrow, 3 hours early the next day etc etc

>>9136363
the "all or nothing" approach doesnt work for everyone. after a few days of being disgusted with yourself and feeling sick, you may feel like drinking again. at that point its probably wise to come up with a plan to limit your drinking.

>>9136115
You know how to make that happen

It's been four days and my laundry is still just sitting in the dryer....
>It's begining

after being fucked up for 3 days including drinking a fifth in less than an hour and piss in my travel bag, its time for a little break.

til sunday. When i got 2 days free and avoid the fucking vodka.

>upgrade fridge
>recently make big pasta bake
>freeze whole slab together like idiot
>today
>pumped for dinner
>can't cut up pasta bake into dinner portion because it's actually frozen
>not used to freezer actually working

And now I'm having McDonalds fuck I need a beer.

>>9135519
Bought a litre of whiskey last night.
Finished it off earlier, went and got 6 cans of Desperados.
2 down in an hour... now wishing I'd bought a few more... fuck it, if I need more I'll get on my bike and struggle to the 24 hour garage.

>>9136910
which country?

>>9136952
probably france
probably drinks label 5

>>9136910

fuck i miss desperados, going to poland in 3 weeks and abuse the shit out of it

>>9136952
UK!

>>9136997
I'd assume it's cheaper over there than it is in England... I've heard from my mate that's engaged to a Polish bird that the Polish FUCKING LOVE TO DRINK and it's really cheap over there for everything including big name brands.

I need friends

Whenever I drink alcohol too quickly I have horrible back and shoulder pain that radiates everywhere except my extremities and lasts 10 minutes. Anybody else have this?

>>9137005

Haha i havent been in the UK so i cant compare prices, a bottle of desperados 0,33 would atleast cost 4 quid here in Norway.

I remember i paid 85 euro cent for a 580 ml desperados.

The cheaper version in Lidl cost like 50 cent, crazy cheap

>>9137019

You should uhhhh get yourself checked out

>>9137080
I have, it's not lymphoma, but I still haven't checked for pancreatitis. It's weird how all people think I'm making this shit up. Even the doctors say it's nothing

>>9137018

Where the fuck do I meet people? I have like 2 real friends and I live in a city on the other side of the country from them. I love going to bars alone but I feel awkward being social when I'm alone. So there goes that.

Has anyone had any luck with like specific interest meet ups? Idk. I just want to meet people. I don't wanna be alone anymore.

Felt like shit the past few days, decided not to drink tonight and suddenly my side is hurting.

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Eating watermelon. Hassle-free giver of fluids and sugar. Absolute godsend if you're struggling to keep things down.
Drinking vodka.
Feel, uh, well horrific obviously.

>>9137019
>>9137093
How hard do you booze or did you used to booze?

I get aches and tremors even if I drink moderately now. Probably kindling.

>>9135623
If I could spend my entire life asleep I would be fucking delighted. I fucking hate waking up, I instantly reach for alcohol in an attempt to pass out again.
I wonder what comas are like, and how they can be medically induced...
Brb google

>>9135661
Kek, it never recovers. I have holes in my brain; "lesions" which are irreparable and debilitating in too many ways to bother describing

>>9135728
>child
I can relate to this feel. Prolonged sobriety really does leave you with a feeling which reminds you of childhood. It's an amazing amount of coziness which i wish I could experience again before poison buries me, but that fucking WD barrier is astonishingly impenetrable.

>>9137099
Where you at m8?

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>get fucked up
>put frozen pizza in oven
>pass the fuck out
>wake up to fire alarm and pizza as black as Bill Cosby's dick
>still eat a bit of the burnt crust because I always forget to eat when I'm on a bender

whew lads

>>9137150
Try anyway. I get all kinds of shakes, stupor, and hallucinations when I withdraw now. But it's all essentially gone after 1 week sober.

>>9136549
Shit you not, a few months ago I went to do laundry and it had gone so mouldy that it was all in one congealed lump, and even the wicker basket had like a square foot of thick white mould on its exterior. Like half my clothes simply ruined. Worse still, I'd been in bed so long and without realising it lost so much weight, that I spent weeks with literally no clothes. Just a dressing gown. I now have 2 tops and 2 pairs of jeans having ordered them on ebay, and that is it.
I've also just broken my laptop by apparently thrashing around in my sleep. That makes 4 laptops destroyed in less than a year.

>>9137168

Philadelphia

Do you alcohols ever do a solid shit?

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>Take anti anxiety before work
>decide to have a few beers after work
>turns out thats a fucking bad idea
>get massive headache and black out after 4 or so beers
>bathroom is redecorated each time I do this
>towels on floor
>garbage in sink
>toothbrushes hiding somewhere
Done drinking unless it is on a saturday.
>>9137251
I either get explosive shits that launch me to orbit or a slug that falls out of my ass.

>>9137275

is this shit real? if so how much is it

>>9137275

Each time i see that pic i get shivers.

i could easily drink that in 3 days and then die in peace

Hey ck, while I don't consider myself an alcoholic, not a day goes by that I would refuse a drink. Right now I'm about half done a bottle of Scotch, jamming out to tunes. Does anyone else just like to drink while listening to music and zone out? I started with Golden Slumbers and let Spotify take it from there. Any hard drinking/relaxing song suggestions? Stuff like Wish You Were Here or The Air That I Breathe if you got em.

>>9137275
I'd buy that if I ever saw it in a shop.

>>9137251
Alcoholism gave me ulcerative pancolitis, so im lucky I don't shit into a bag. I do however shit liquid lava up to 30 times a day.

>>9135728
That's a really cool gif

>>9137302
Nujabes and Buckethead are what I like to listen to for chill music.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TYRDgd3Tb44

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bHQmDqlv5Rc

>>9137302

Yeah I'm not sure where I ride the line. I drink to mild drunkenness every night, but I mainly just enjoy the relaxation after work while I play some vidya. I have a healthy relationship with alcohol and my drinking hasn't really changed in a while. So whatever. I'm cool with it.

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I just bought this bottle of bourbon, it was the cheapest bottle in the store.

How bad is it?

>>9137251
I only ever get the liquid shits when I've been drinking hard for at least 3 weeks. If I take just one day off every 20 days or so my shits are mostly normal.

>>9137251
I've been keto for about 8 months, so I have no complaints about my shits

>>9137324

take a sip and find out

>>9137330
I've gotta go to work soon and I get drug and alcohol tests randomly so I'll take a sip in about 10 hours from now.

>>9137355
>not immediately downing all of it, blacking out and shitting in your bosses office
YOU ARE NOT WELCOME HERE

>>9137201
fuck dude. That's incredible. How long were they in there? More stories

Why do people like drinking? I've never had more than a couple glasses of champagne but I really don't know how people like that feeling. It feels like my head is spinning and I can't think straight.

>>9137162
Have you tried assisted benzo taper?

>>9137368
That sort of behaviour would probably get me a promotion.

>>9137403
It's a nice break from having to think about all of life's bullshit. Thats my view anyways. In simplest terms it's a form of escapism.

>>9137416
But it's just the room spinning and feeling sleepy. It doesn't feel any better to me. idk

>>9137426
you might just be a pussy

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>>9137403
Not being able to think straight was what I needed to participate in normie life, which felt essential to me as a teen and in my early twenties.

Then after a while the drinking habit is established and no longer really helps to normalise, so you end up drinking alone most of the time, especially if you're prone to embarrass yourself as your alcoholism escalates. So the medicine no longer offers benefits but you can't really do without. And then you're trapped in your booze cave by yourself.

That's how it went for me at least. Ultimately the side effects got too bad for me so now I've managed to sober up (10 days in) and as with earlier quitting attempts I've become even more reclusive than I normally am. Willingness to socialise or even interact with other humans in meatspace has dropped to zero.

But lately I've kind of accepted my need for solitude and now that I feel more healthy and wholesome the hermit life feels pretty good.

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>>9135519
Wait is this a /feels/ thread on /ck/?

You guys have these here as well?

Well, don't mind If I do. I'll post some feels, most here won't understand how to help someone like me though. So just read and enjoy this story of some anons life

>>9137201
Damn dude that's rough... yeah I've been wearing the same clothes three of the four days my shit has been getting moldy and I have been wearing the same jeans the whole time :/... what laptops do you buy? Shits expensive homie

>>9137450
Spill your guts anon, keep it

>>9137458
Oops, meant: keep it al/ck/ related... unless it''s *really* funny

>>9137450
29 in a few months

>No house
>Live 2k miles away from home/family/older friends I once had
>Have a job in a corporate setting
>Currently make 95k a year
>Pretty much have no life at all except the internet and work
>Workaholic most of my life and only focused on money and a career, never thought about getting a girl friend or even finding new friends in a new state I moved to two years ago

>The definition of failure is me

>New office job

Keep telling myself to be more social and talk to my coworkers
Meanwhile, I sit in my cube and focus on work
Guy who is my lead mentioned I should try to make some friends in the office since only talking to two people isn't going to cut it eventually

Its not like I'm anti social, I just don't have the time to focus on saying hello to people I don't actually work with since they're not in my department

>>9137466
Drink your problens away friendo

>>9137466
Find a hobby, fishing and bush walking breaks up the monotony of day to day work life for me.

>>9137472
I don't drink and no interest in drinking alchol

>>9137480
Plenty of hobbies and interests

>Still alone
>Have a guy at work and we only talk about work stuff sometimes
>Don't want to come up to him and talk about life/hobbies since we actually enjoy the same hobby

I'll be alone and miserable than

>>9137426
Different folks different strokes I guess. For me, I forget all about life's different fucking boxes and categorizations, it gives me a meta sort of feeling, which helps me deal with the menial day to day menialness of it all. Where as when I'm hogh, I can see all of the unseen categorizations of life's minuscule problems. I don't know. If drinking doesn't help, try weed. If that doesn't help, kill yourself. That's a joke. Anon even if you don't think noone cares about you, you're wrong. Suicide is never the answer.

>>9137450
This is the crippling alcoholism thread, friend.

>>9137483
>I don't drink and no interest in drinking alchol
leave

>>9137150

How much did you drink and for how long. also how do you know you have lesions? mri i assume? what symptoms did you tell your doctor that warrented an mri of the brain? cheers

>>9137501
Uhhh

I need help, don't judge me for stopping drinking

I needed to do something else in life, I'm broken more so than some on here

>>9137505
fucknu man 凸(-_-)凸

>>9137505
>successful teetotaller professional who is slightly uncomfortable with watercooler talk is more broken than people literally dying of cancer and liver disease

wew lad

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>>9137528
Why not be friends?

>>9137448
Interesting. Thanks for the explanation. I think my Dad and both of his parents are alcoholics, so if it runs in my family that is something I will stay away from.
>>9137491
lol I'm not depressed or anything. But thanks for answering.
>>9137444
>implying

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>>9137534
I also have a health issue I found out a few months ago, why do you think this was my last photo of me drinking at home by myself....

You don't know me, and don't assume you understand what I'm going through based on a few posts

>>9137549
>health issues
>general with a guy with later stages colon cancer and an alcoholic who drinks liters of vodka a day whose skin is peeling off

sheesh

After about 6 months of drinking half a bottle of whiskey a day I'm finally cutting back to a bottle a week.

Trying to lose weight.

>>9137466
If your making more than 40 grand you're more successful than most my friend. Don't let a lack of social setting disturb you. Take broad look at life. Try anything that interests you. Focus on any self interests before worrying about social relations. To love another you must love oneself. If that doesnt work, see a psychiatrist.

>>9137537
>Interesting. Thanks for the explanation. I think my Dad and both of his parents are alcoholics, so if it runs in my family that is something I will stay away from.
Wise choice, anon.

>>9137575
>To love another you must love oneself. If that doesnt work, see a psychiatrist.


I cant love myself, that will never happen

But I'm going to call it a night, just wanted to share a piece of myself with the world for tonight..

later

>>9137549
You're not giving me much else to go by do you, mister 'I don't drink and no interest in drinking alcohol'?

Meanwhile Smirnoffbro is probably lying dead in his room by now.

>>9137593
d-don't say that, I have faith in smirnoffbro

>>9137584
No matter how you feel Anon, don't take what you have foregranted. You never know who is wishing they had your life.

>>9137600
He said he was going cold turkey last time he posted and that his eyesight was failing him. Basically said farewell. That was days ago.

Looks pretty grim.

>>9137614
I'm going to toast a bottle of Smirnoff in his honour if he doesn't post in the next couple of days.

>Gotta take a break, my liver is killing me and I get a fever every time I drink
>fucking holidays, fine, just tonight and then I sober up
>Sober for one day
>Visit dad
>He shows me a bunch of 3rd grade art I did
>Reads the edgiest fucking poem ever, about me burning down the school
>Go home
>Immediately crack open a bottle of vodka
SO MUCH FOR THAT

Anyone else like to play overwatch drunk?

>>9137650
You need to lay back and slow down my man

What is going on in your life that you are drinking like this?

>>9137720
The worst part is nothing extreme is happening in my life, I'm just generally a completely miserable person.

>>9135577
Same friend. I haven't drank since yesterday and most likely not going to today or Tommorow but I got invited to a work party on Saturday and last time I went to one I blacked out so I'm scared everyone will be watching and judging if I go

>>9136022
Would you happen to know how long 2 years does of drinking 2-5 beers daily and sometimes 7 shots with no beers would take?

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>>9137198

I wouldn't consider myself an alcoholic or anything but I am a fairly regular drinker. I swear to christ over the past year or so I've hit a weird wall where my body just refuses to handle liquor the way it used to. I used to have the 'Oh man my hand hurts and I feel kinda bad' hangovers but with the same amount of liquor they've evolved into 'Enjoy puking every 30 minutes for the next four or five hours fucknuts'

>>9137755
Sounds like you're in the process of ruining your stomach.

>>9137784
That's probably part of it, I just also think once you reach a certain age your body can't bounce back from shit like it used to.

>>9135519
Just found out my father in law died and it couldve been related to his drinking, so im toning it down a bit

>>9137755

Yea that doesn't sound good. usually when liking that much it means you've poisoned your body. I only ever puke like that if I go completely overboard , like I did last weekend when I drank 2 Mickie's in one day

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>bro's birthday on Wednesday night, spend 5 hours bar hopping
>grab a bottle of Evan Williams on my way home, end up getting pretty trashed
>somehow alarm wakes me up at 6:30, have to be at work at 7
>go in, vision blurred, trying my hardest not to stumble, fail a few times
>no one says anything most of the day
>as I'm about to clock out boss says "Hey, anon!"
>sure my ass is getting canned
>"Great job today!"
>"Thanks."
>go to the parking lot and laugh my ass off in my car, go get more booze immediately afterward

I know I'm not the only one this has happened to.

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>>9136115
me too anon. whats stopping me is my need to los my virginity before i go.

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Not good man. My brother said I can't come back (I stole 2 shots of his girls gin) so I'm debating going to a homeless shelter. It's either that or living with this super creepy guy who runs a storage building as a "handyman". I figure if he kills me it's a win/win situation.

All my friends are dead. Breaking a 45 day sobriety cause I mean...What's the point. Tried to get weed, failed, bought two fifths R&R. Halfway through the first now.

It feels fucking hopeless lads, and that's the worst feeling anyone could have. I asked my brother to just shoot me. He wouldn't do it. Wouldn't even give me a beating as a first offence. Instant exclusion from the group.

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>>9137198

>>9138076
>stole 2 shots of his girls gin

As in she had a bottle of it and you drank a couple shots from it? How could they even tell, do they mark the level with a pen? Also that hardly seems an act worthy of being thrown out for, he sounds like an asshole

>>9137390
Trying to respond more extensively but can't

I got sober this past November after rehab. Decided to quit and to go on the Vivitrol (naltrexone) shot. Doing just fine. Quit cigarettes too. If I want to get a bit stoned every now and again, i take a few puffs off my g pen. Life is much better.

>>9137742
thats not enough to require a month of healing to sleep/wake normally.

>>9138076
being homeless isn't the end of the line. i was homeless. it just means you have to change your ways and figure out another way to live. usually it is just a temporary situation for people. you stay in a shelter while you save up some cash for a place to rent, and within a number of weeks you are once again employed and living in a place of your own.

dont give up. also consider ending your relationship with your brother. either you are a lot worse than youve written about here, or he is a dickhead.

>>9138235
nice! i always like hearing stories of people who got sober with the help of medication. im a firm believer in medication-assisted sobriety rather than purely 12-step based.

>>9138138
That's what I'm wondering.

>>9135519
Drinking alot perhaps it has to do with all the things that I have lost. I did not drink before this but now I can not stop myself.

>>9137755
how old are you? alcohol tolerance starts to decline for a lot of people around early middle age or even before. I started noticing it in my late 30s.

>>9138465
drinking is a self-perpetuating problem.

>>9138413
Wellbutrin, a month of inpatient rehab, and Vivitrol is what I did. I told myself I was going to go to meetings once I got out, but I just didn't want to return to AA. I've been there before, but wasn't really a fan. I stopped Vivitrol last month and I'm doing fine without it. Lemme tell you, I was rough. Amazing that I'm doing so well.

>>9137614
He has said farewell before, remember when he bought the rope and was going to hang himself? I really hope he comes out the other side of this, seems like a decent guy who has managed to dig himself into a very, very deep hole.
>>9137624
Same actually. How do you drink vodka? Mix with tonic water / club soda? Never really tried it.

>>9138594
fantastic!. make sure you spread the word about vivitrol. aka naltrexone for people who cant afford the shot. its a pill you take daily.

>Wake up
>Go to store for booze
>Toe hurts
God fucking damn it, another ingrown nail, at least this time it's not bleeding so that's good, takes a fucking long time to heal though, god damn it

>>9138744
I used to get them once or twice a year and fix them myself, haven't had one in ages now. Must have done an ok job, fucking going to the doctor for that

>>9138746
Yeah I had them 2 times, I didn't do shit and it went away on it's own after a while.
Couldn't wear white socks though,
>Bleeds
>Get a scab that's 50% scab 50% sock material
>Remove scab
>More blood
There's so much different information everywhere about them too, and it's all contradictory

>>9138638
He broke several laptops too, like >>9137201

>>9138749
I had one as a kid, my mom took me to the podiatrist who taught me how to cut/clip my nails to avoid them ingrowing.
Never had one since then.

>>9137549
You had several posts in which to summarise why you're unhappy with your life. It's nobody else's fault that you spent a whole lot of time saying "I work hard and make a tonne of money but don't chat to my colleagues enough".

>trying to taper
>drink a few beers
>get the taste and cant resist the impulse to go and buy more
FUCK

>tfw dream of booze, cigarettes and opiate pills

I quite enjoy being sober but my subconcious might disagree. I never even did opiates.

>>9139045
I dreamt I was in a store at 9:58pm and trying to buy booze before alcohol sale ends at 10 pm, the cashier was slow as fuck and didn't know how to do her job, so I couldn't buy booze, I got super pissed and woke up pissed off too

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>>9138999
>You had several posts in which to summarise why you're unhappy with your life


Thats an old copy paste from a few months ago

These days I'm a broken man who is trying to find the will to live again...

Cheap bourbon anon, tell me how it is

Fell asleep with every window in my flat open last night

fucking chilly waking up hungover, think I caught a cold

>tfw you check the news and the state of society discourages you from making any wholesome healthy plans for the long term future

It's hard to justify staying sober in a civilisation that will very likely become worse with each day.

i love that feeling, reminds you are alive >>9140163

>>9140051

This happened to me irl, yeah I was pissed off

day 2 no alcohol

i don't give that much of a fuck about my liver, I'm just tired of the nasty shits and sleeping in filth

i'll probably make it 4 days tops

I downed three vodkas while cooking earlier.

I'll tell ya, putting vodka in the freezer has been a revelation

>>9140227
Learned that lesson in uni. Good stuff

>>9138638
I always drank vodka and coke when I was a teen until I met a Russian guy who ran an alcohol import business and he had me try some expensive vodka with tonic water and it was fucking delicious.

>>9140232
that's how I drink it, mostly because it's low calorie content
add a wedge of lemon/lime in there with it, good shit

Vodka is supposed to be drunk neat, faggots.

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>>9140250
I can't do it anymore. Spent too much time as a teenager drinking pic related straight that it haunts my dreams

I puked on a girl last night al/ck/

>Get a match on tinder
>Oh shit I know this girl
>6/10, petite, meh face
>I used to fuck her best friend until she got a restraining order against me for punching her faggot boyfriend
>Anywho, this chick actually liked me before I liked her
>Chat her up half expecting her to block me
>Exchange numbers after a few messages because fuck the tinder chat app
>Talk for a few hours
>Invite her over for some drinks
>She declines, says is a bit too fast
>okay.bmp
>Get home, start hammering the pisco sours
>At around 1 AM get a text
>Its her
>Shes plastered
>Had to decipher her text asking if I was home and she could come over
>It's on
>I'm also fucking destroyed after drinking a bottle of pisco by myself
>Pop a viagra and hope I don't die of a heart attack
>She arrives and pounces on me
>Meanwhile my guts were trying to escape my body
>Didn't help that she drunkenly kneed me in the stomach when she jumped me
>Stumble to my bed
>I'm sufficiently hard at this point
>Pull her pants down and jam it in from behind immediately because fuck condoms
>Pound her for a while
>The movement of my own hips is enough to make me feel Im on a cruise to Barbados
>Throw up all over her back
>I try to mumble i'm sorry im sorry for a few seconds
>No reaction
>Did she?
>she did
>Bitch fell asleep mid fuck
>Carry her to the shower
>Clean up the vomit from her hair
>Pass out sitting in the toilet

Fuck tinder.

>>9140051
This has actually happened to me at Walmart before. It was 10:50, I'd just gotten off work, and I rushed to get a six pack, then to the front to check out, only to see there was one register open and I was stuck behind 5 families of manatees with carts full of garbage. Eventually another cashier came over, beckoned me because she saw I had the beer, and then this STUPID FUCKING CUNT cuts me off with her cart and says "excuse me hon I got keeds to feed hyuck hyuck" and the cashier's system wouldn't let me purchase my booze.

Not much either of us could do. If she were to tell the fat fuck to piss off, it would've caused a tantrum of the ages that still would've resulted in me not being able to get my booze.

>>9140320
Couldn't explain that you have one item that will take literally a minute to process?

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Why do you guys drink?

>>9140329
Good luck with that, there's far too few people who have the decency to let the guy with 1-2 things go in front of them when they have a huge cart filled with shit

I'm at the stage right now where I can no longer feel my lips.

I really want to do some drugs. But I don't want to buy off the scum around here. If only I could find some white middle class wigger who sold shit on the side.

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>12 minutes until 5pm

>>9140382
ok?

what about it?

>>9140353
>I really want to do some drugs.


Same here, I was going to do some drugs tonight but ended up skipping since I have blood work/test tomorrow and don't want to fuck up the blood test

>>9140390
Sweating frog anon can only enjoy Amstel Light responsibly after 5pm.

>>9140320
>and the cashier's system wouldn't let me purchase my booze

Yeah that's the worst, sometimes at rural areas in smaller stores they don't give a shit about it thankfully, but alcohol curfew laws are the worst, they just piss people off and make people stock up more, except alcoholics drink all of that shit anyway without stocking up so the curfew laws might make things even worse for some people

>tfw quit beer to stop shitting myself to death
>crave fizzy stuff
>drink a couple of energy drinks
>worse shits than on beer

>>9140382
Please drink responsibly.

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>>9140382
>>9140415
>>9140402
>>9140390

ahhhhhhhhh much better

>>9140409

club soda bitch

>>9140429
what the h*ck is that?

>>9140434

carbonated water bitch

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>>9140296

Nice one. Bonus points if you blame her for vomiting in the morning.

>>9140397
that whole blood test shit in the workplace is fucking authoritarian bullshit

>>9140296

fucking kek what a nightmare
at least you got laid

>>9140409
perhaps you have an ailment that can only be sorted with the aid of a medical professional

>>9140440
>Workplace?

Na, I have health issues as I mentioned before... blood test tomorrow results next week and see where I'm at ...

>>9140449
oh right, well, good luck

>>9140446
Too much caffeine I think. Had solid shits without beer/caffeine, my two favourite things :(

>>9140438
She was actually gone before I woke up in the morning.
Haven't talked to her since, I'm afraid she might remember something.
>>9140444
My reasoning used to be that
Now I'm not so sure.

>>9140331
Boredom. At least that's what I think

>>9140331

this >>9140495

I remember being in a German hotel on Christmas day, alone. So I spent the day drinking and posting on this shit hole. I remember trying to shitpost on /tv/ for a while but I accidentally clicked /vp/ instead and I couldn't figure out where I was or how to get out of there. So I would just go from thread to thread crying like a lot child in a train station.

I got an escort later that night so it's all good.

>>9140331
Because I can.
And when I can't
I'll sure die

>>9140331
I used to drink really heavily but for the past two years I haven't touched the stuff. Lately tho I've been looking to zone out a little - I moved and have become a little isolated. Can't really find weed around here so booze does the trick.

Life is pain.

>>9140331
I do it to make weekends pass quicker. Or I did.

Now I do it because drinking on my couch at weekends is just what I do. Like a really bad habit. Don't even enjoy it.

TNA is on my television.

I'd never watch this shit sober.

>>9140331
I used to drink a lot, more than some of these guys and 2016 was hell for me

I had to stop though, and eventually slowed down

2016 was one of my worst years but I needed it at the time, the feels were really bad everyday and I would stumble into bed after coming home from work, drinking and everynight drunk until the morning...

I'm happy I quit

I used to get super high and drink all night, to not feel the pain anymore

Sadly, the pain is what I needed at the time to get off my ass and move on..

Any uk bros in north yorkshire? I need some friends :(

>>9135519
lads I'm drunk as fuck right now

>tfw no gf

>>9140558
>>>/soc/
>>>/b/
>>>/int//brit/
>>>/r9k//britfeel

>>9140594
>drunk as fuck
>able to type coherently

I feel like you're exaggerating

>>9140598
> >>>/soc/ - gay
> >>>/b/ - 凸(-_-)凸
> >>>/int//brit/ - autism
> >>>/r9k//britfeel - ultra autism

>>9140605
This is a board for food and cooking discussion. Those are boards/thread for discussing meetups and feels

This site is not some anarchic free-for-all

>>9140604
Not him, but I never understood this notion that you can't type coherently when leathered. Yeah, it takes a lot longer but it's definitely achievable, I used to message my bf when shitfaced and I typed just fine.

>>9140604
I've got a lot of experience at this lad believe me.

Any uk bros in north yorkshire? I need some friends (to drink and discuss alcohol with) :(

>>9140619
No, all yanks here

>>9137275
>premium quality

>>9140619
London
o
n
d
o
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m8

>>9135519
I keep trying, and failing. But at least the alcohol makes me feel less shitty about it.

Cheers, things always look up eventually.

>>9140619
Harrogate standing by

>>9140629
I should have specified that I'm looking for fellow white British nationals.

>>9140633
Posh cunt

>>9140634
I got stabbed on London Bridge for your freedom, lad. Show some respect.

>>9140639
fucking fight me then lad

where u from

>>9140642
Skipton, where the average age is about 98

>>9140619
STAY FUCKING ISOLATED BOYO

>>9140649
ahhh skipton

only ever been to the castle when I was bairn and this music festival called Beacons

>>9140654
It's shit and everyone is a complete mong.

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On;y thing I miss about Yorkshire

>>9140659
yeah yeah thats just north yorkshire full stop mate... mongys and the haggered.

at least harrogate has tidy birds

>>9140662
thats not a fucking parmo.

Yorkshire is class, shits on lancashire

>>9140670
fucking parmo

Can't find it anywhere else and it drives me mad. I might have to stay sober one weekend and drive to York just to get one.

>>9140670
>tfw live on the yorkshire/lancashire border

>>9140677
try the ones up in boro fucking mental.

last christmas found some takeaway in redcar doing festive parmos - i've never shat so much liquid in my fucking life.

Absolutely class though, fucking love parmos me

>>9140684
Huddersfield?

>>9140689
Nah, barnoldswick

>>9140692
When people ask where you're from do you say "near Leeds"?

>>9140695
kek, yes

>>9140692
>>9140695
hahaha thats such a weird part of england to live in. not north yorkshire, not west yorkshire and not even lancashire just a hybrid

>>9140705
It's a complete mess consisting of chavs, inbreds and old people with absolutely fuck all going for it. Crime on the up, poles moving in because cheap housing, 10:1 ratio of takeaways and literally any other kind of shop. I need out so badly.

>>9140714
sounds like shittier version of Ripon if there such a thing.

I've moved up to Glasgow recently, not really as rough just bleak but still fucking good like

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>>9135519
Is this stuff good? Some kind soul gave it to me as a gift.

>>9140724
I lived in Edinburgh previously... imagine moving from fucking Edinburgh to Barnoldswick hahahaha

>kill me

>>9140748
How do you move to Barnoldswick? That's the kind of place you are born in and never escape - what was there to attract you/your family to it?

>>9140748
which bit of Edinburgh, i've heard from many that edinburgers are mental, like the old ones when edinburgh wasn't some sort of tourist enclave.

Shesh why did you move?

>>9140409
Avoid sweeteners, some give diarrhoea.
Real sugar doesn't.

>>9140605
Fuck off to reddit then, there must be a local sub for meetups in your area.

>>9140616
Plus there is speech recognition software on all phones now.
It's harder to type with the shakes than drunk.

>>9140761
>Plus there is speech recognition software on all phones now.

That's even worse. Now it's just some drunk arsehole shouting his shitposts at his phone. Probably from a park bench

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>>9140753
my family moved here when I wasn't old enough to live on my own, and as you just said, there's no escape. Hence why I drink myself to death.

>>9140758
5 mins from Grassmarket, near the pubic triangle.

>>9140761

>>9140774
ahhh fair enough - got a series of mates who live tollcross way

>>9140556
22 days sober, still in the hospital but getting better daily. I'm no longer Homer Simpson yellow and I've been able to walk again about 40 feet at a time

>sobering up before midnight

tonight was a mistake

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>>9140426
>he doesn't "wait till eight"
>tucker carlson comes on
>adult swim comes on
>at least 8 hours of sober time even if you woke up at noon
>feels sweeter the longer you wait
>sun coming down
>end up drinking alot less because already a little tired so health less effected
>again, it feels alot better because you waited

wait till eight, anon. wait till eight.

>mfw 12 minutes
>mfw I waited till eight

wait till eight master race

>>9140807
Keep it up anon

Only reason why im sober now is nightshift work at a gas station

Fuck my life and fuck drunk people

I need sunday now

>>9141011
>wait till eight
>drinking until six in the morning
>wake up around five
>only three hours until eight

everytime

Good for you m8.

I'm at day 11. Hardest day yet because I was angry and I usually drown anger but I made it through the worst cravings.

>>9141259
Meant to reply to >>9140807 yellowbro

>>9141250
that's why you get it in between 8 and 12
>he stays up drinking for ten hours straight
u wot m8

>>9141079
Hows the job?


You see a lot of traffic at night?

How many people you think you see in a night?

>>9141250
>11 hours sleep while drunk
How does that work

>>9141266
most of my drinking bouts easily make it to 12 hours or more desu lad.

>>9141275
stay up drinking a long time and then crash

>>9141286
that sounds pretty terrible

>>9141344
It is desu, when you get used to marathon drinking you get physical dependence rather quickly.

I decided to taper and quit (for now) when I started to get used to vodka on the nightstand to stave off withdrawals.

>When you can hear your wife greeting the in-laws downstairs
>You sit down for a moment on the side of your bed and just brace yourself
>Reach underneath and take out your one bottle of good expensive liquor
>You almost forget why you do it until it slides down into your gut and the warmth spreads throughout your body

Fucking orgasmic.

>>9141271
Its boring as fuck, since im alone and only company is the drunk people that stumble by drunk and want burgers, but the pay isnt to shitty and its usually only 2-3 stressful hours out of 9.

Tomorrow will always be worse, its a small city so its not too crowded on a friday night

>>9141528
I wouldn't worry about it yet

You're working and have a steady gig, most of us wont know what that is like..

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I'm going down the rabbit hole again tonight

God forgive me

Someone please stop meee, its getting hurtful

>>9140331
I don't have friends so it's the best way to pass time.

>>9138744
>>9138749
Haven't had one in years, but used to get them all the time when I was a kid. Only way I found to fix it was to take some cotton and shove it underneath the side of the nail that was ingrown so it could grow over the cotton and not into my skin. Would leave the cotton in there for weeks, then when I'd take it out, it'd be brown from all the blood and pus. Smelled insanely bad, too.

The Patriot = aesthetic as hell when buzzin'

>>9140807
That's awesome man, keep it up.

>>9141572
Me too mate. Just finished work. Sat lunchtime here.
I know it is killing me, i can't stop?

>>9140296
Wew lad
The worst thing about drunk lays is the numb feeling your dick gets. Guess you aren't meant to have your cake and eat it.

What's the longest you lads have gone without a drink since you started boozing? My record is 30 days.

>>9141743
currently at 29

>>9141743
four months. After that I started just drinking on the weekends. I still have a slip up every now and then and will wind up getting drunk for a couple days straight but that doesn't happen often and usually only happens when I have nothing to do for a couple days so it doesn't impede on my sober life
I would recommend taking that long of a break but honestly don't know if it would help different people

>>9141560

Thanks man, thats somehow encouraging lel

Im just trying to survive and everyday is a struggle

Have a nice night

>>9141743

21 days, jesus christ i felt human then

>>9141743
A year, but was on military deployment so I didn't have much say in the matter.

>>9140662
ALLLAAHHHHUUUU

AAHHHKKBAAARRRRRRR

>>9135519
I kicked my husband out tonight over his drinking. He says he'll try but then nothing changes. Then he's out making us both look bad while I'm home with our two point five kids. He almost lost his cush ass city job because he showed up drunk last week. Was I being too hard al/ck/s? Is it something that some people really can't control?

>>9141825
half of alcoholics have a brain chemistry problem that makes them seek satisfaction via alcohol or opiates or whatever. the other half of alcoholics have an emotion problem meaning they cant cope correctly with life stresses.

find out which one he is and get appropriate treatment. for the former there is a drug called naltrexone.

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>>9137937
that's called Lady Luck. Give her a kiss.
Meanwhile...

I used to drink lightly, just a couple beers everyday, but from mid-October 2015 to the end of March 2016 I got plastered drunk every night because life was unbearably bad. I would barely eat all day, so most of my caloric intake for that period was just from the alcohol.
One of the worst things that happened during that time was going for a job interview extremely hungover and slurring words and shaking and the guy interviewing me was very aware of it.

I'm doing better now, stopped drinking everyday and I try to just drink socially but when I do I go crazy and get almost black out drunk so not great.

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Does anyone do weird things/activities when drunk? I always feel the need to take pictures of myself drinking/when drunk and it leads to a lot of odd pictures I don't remember taking.

Pic related is me falling down after downing a bottle of whiskey and trying to stand after sitting for hours.

>>9141854
she has really nice teeth.

>>9142177
i went to high school with her. the advisors told her that she should pursue a career in teeth modeling. she said no at first but after years of heroin abuse and prostitution (see her tattoos) she gave up.

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>>9142096
I listen to really sad music and watch really lewd anime shows

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>>9141825
Maaaaaaaaan, I dunno. I've left or been kicked out of relationships over and over for not being able to stop. it's like a switch in your head you don't have any fingers on but goes off anyways. In retrospect, all I really wanted was someone to keep me no matter what. So much for that.. at this point I guess I'll stay by myself.

>>9142096
i have a horrible tendency to email/call ex girlfriends and also cut off ties with blood relatives. dont have the balls to do that stuff sober.

>>9142186
you lost me at i

how much do you even have to be drinking before its possible for you to even get withdrawal?

>>9141825
Really hope you won't make your children grow up in a fatherless household

>>9141743
I think I did 9 months a few years ago. I'm 6 month dry now, 17 months if you don't count smallish benders.

>>9141825
Telling him not to drink won't work, threatening him either (when Death isn't scary, kicking him out won't do shit). That's the point of an addiction, you can't just stop like that, it's not rational.
Al-Anon is for relatives of alcoholics, idk how close to AA they are. Some AA groups welcome relatives. Also look for doctors specialised in alcoholism and addictions, they can help differently than groups.

>>9142087
>so most of my caloric intake for that period was just from the alcohol.
i think not eating while boozing might be one of the prime wrecking factors desu

>>9142499
sometimes not having a father around can be better than having a drunken father around though.

t. second gen drunkard

>>9135519
Awful
Family member died few days ago, relapsed. Woke up feeling horrible and dragged myself to AA in shame.
I don't want to die from this

>>9142096
I listen to extremely romantic or sad music and dream. Like unhealthy dream, I am somewhere else all day, my whole life I am somewhere else

>>9142725
Sometimes not having a father can fuck you up a lot worse

t. third gen drunkard

My fucking sister left the door unlocked, some kids must have broke in because it was wide open this morning. 100% of mice now. Fuck.

Day 23 sober. I'm checking in with a few things some of you might want to consider.

1. Alcohol withdrawal can kill you so trying to dry out without medical support i s dangerous and unlikely to work.

2. The processes of breaking the physical addiction can be slow and deeply uncomfortable but having a team of doctors and nurses around helps immensely.

3. If you do not seek treatment you're likely to be found dead or near death by one of the few people who still cares about you and repairing the damage from organ failure is no fun at all.

A bit yellow again today but not much pain. My kidneys are continuing to improve and my liver is putting up a good fight. Hopefully no more dialysis.

6AM, drinking homebrews and sipping on cheap rum, watching movies and comfy twitch streams. I've also started playing oldschool runescape, trying to relive my nostalgia. The early/mid 2000s were the best time of my life. Playing RS or WoW all day, hanging out with friends, listening to death metal. Not a care in the world.

>>9142846
if you're dad's the type to not raise his kid are you sure he's the type you would want to raise you?

>>9142882
He died when I was ~1 but it would have been better if he was around, maybe my life wouldn't be so fucked up then

>>9142886
did he drink himself to death?

>>9142894
Nope, genetic heart problem, he was a drinker though but I doubt that had anything to do with it, every man in his family has died near 40

Is anyone in this thread at all enjoying themselves? Or is this just an /r9k/ tier hangout for sadcunts?

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>>9142934
These threads are not for happy drunks, no.
Good job figuring that out, buddy.

>>9142934
I'm having a good day so far. I'll post pics of my breakfast when it arrives

>>9142938
At least /r9k/ has comfy drinking threads, you people are another level of pathetic.

hey folks been three weeks sober, i got a sunburn and diarrhea but i've been sleeping good the last few nights, i dont wake up 4 times to pee like i used to, i just wake up in the morning and take a giant russian race horse pee. anxiety and depression seems to be a bit better too as long as i'm by myself. researching home brewing and distilling stuff alot, i think when i get back into hootching after i get my own place i will make a deal with myself that i can drink only home made booze, which will be better for you cause it's not that rotgut ooga booga stuff that has god knows what in it. and that guy on here is always bragging that he makes top shelf booze for like a dollar a bottle, pretty cool huh. oh well take it easy folks.

>>9142898
I see, that's a different type of situation.

Still, generally speaking I think a single mom is to be preferred over a drunken wife and child beater or something like that.

>>9142934
Real alcoholism is never fun.

>>9142952
>and that guy on here is always bragging that he makes top shelf booze for like a dollar a bottle, pretty cool huh.
I think I may be that guy or one of them. I'm on the wagon for a bit because I couldn't handle having literal buckets of liquor around desu.

That said, if you must drink yourself to death good shine is better than rotgut commercial vodka.

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>tfw smirnoffbro hasn't posted since he said he was going cold turkey

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Hot tea with a large orange slice and 2 sugar packets

>>9142991
>tea with sugar

m8 please

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>>9142991
Blueberry muffin, sausage, cheerios, milk OJ, and a butter pecan flavor nutrittional supplement drink

>>9141851
>>9142189
>>9142534
Thanks for the insight, guys. You've given me a lot to think about this weekend. Not sure where things will go from here but at least now I know there's options.

>>9142499
Seeing kids around that is hard. I just want him to want get help, not leave forever. I was thinking what >>9142725 said is right. I grew up without a father. Shit sucked but my older half siblings grew up with a drunken psycho and they're all fubar'd. Prison, abortions, heavy drug addiction. In retrospect I had a really cool gramps who took on that father roll and my life turned out so much better for it than if the loser who was my dad would have been around.

>>9143006
London?

>>9143012

Anyone here like drinking fast? I'm not into the whole drinking all day thing or even starting at 5 and drinking all evening. Usually what I do is I won't drink anything all day then at night after I've had dinner and taken a shower and stuff I'll kill half a fifth of liquor pretty quickly and just sit around for like two hours drunk watching TV or shitposting. Then I go to bed.

>>9141743
I did four weeks last month, then had a shitty couple weeks where I drank five times, back at it again now. Day three

>>9135519
I'm practicing mindfulness and self compassion, essentially my life is on the upwards curve, then I don't drink to excess, just the occasional glass of wine.

but good mental health is something you have to work for. Our brains are literally wired to constantly be worried and thinking about what ifs. I like to drink to manage that but I have anxiety disorder (I take setral). That's a bad combination since it causes suicidal impulses.

I walked piss drunk down to the sea at my bad point intent on "swimming", SO stopped me.

I've cut myself and eaten not digestible stuff when I'm drunk, which I don't do when sober, it's just something about the lack of pain that thrills me when I'm drunk. And how relaxed I am.

[spoiler]Christ now I want some whiskey [/spoiler]

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THis isn't a competition, but who here has had the longest bender?

I'm close to 3-4 years now

>>9142952
>that rotgut ooga booga stuff that has god knows what in it
Unless you live in the third world, it follows regulations. Your moonshine could contain methanol and other poisons.
Don't believe everything trolls say.