Eating Disorders

>>8202491
>food porn
>/ck/
You've come to the wrong place my skinny friend.

>>8202496
Junk food is what I look for. That burger thread is off the charts.

I mean some fine dining porn would be amazing also, but, hey, I take what I can get.

>>>/lgbt/

>>8202516
Tobkerk

>>8202491
Get help. I'm not trying to be a dick or sarcastic or anything. Seriously, get some help.

Binge eater here. Been trying to go to overeaters anon for a while now. Too much a pussy rn, eventually will tho.

>>8202539
What exactly is binge eating? Is it just being fat or does something upset you and then you eat a whole bunch of food? Do you normally eat very little?

>>8202491
Yeah but it's purely a physical/medical issue but i'm too poor to go to the doctor so whatever. I feel like I have stomach cancer or something.

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>>8202491
I was anorexic in high school. Ended up having a BMI of 16 at one point.

The only honest answer is, get help. If you're actually mentally ill, get fucking help, because you're ill. Like not in a "kys faggot" way, but in a "You're sick, go to the doctor" way. I am not a mentally healthy man, considering I've been diagnosed with assburgers, OCD, anxiety, depression and anorexia (yeah, it turns out mental disorders come in large groups), but I go to work and make a living because I fucking got help and still get help. Treat it like you would a heart condition.

Oh, wait, I got the heart condition too. Uh, I kind of got the short end of the stick in the genetic lottery.

Anyhow, if I, a guy with way too many mental problems and arrythmia can live an adult life because I'm still smart enough to get fucking help, you can go get help. Do it. JUST FUCKING DO IT.

>>8202589
What's your BMI now?

Yeah I got MDD, GAD, panic disorder and anorexia. BMI is 17, trying to look like my chinese cartoons.

I tried the psychology+psychiatry meme, didn't work for me. They fucked me up on drugs and I lost three years of my life being a zombie.

>>8202594
BMI's 23 now, and I try to keep it around there.

Even if drugs don't help you (they didn't help me, but I have friends who they've helped big time) find some way of getting help. Counseling, good friends, someone to talk to, anything. Humans don't work well alone. Everyone has problems, and once you accept that and come to terms with the fact that you're going to need help - perhaps more than the average guy - life will be a lot better.

>>8202598
I don't have any friends and I live in America so counseling is super expensive. I have money because of a good job but tired of giving some con artist 200 bucks an hour for therapy and then some psychiatrist another 300 once a month.

>>8202605
The answer is:

GET. FRIENDS.

It's not hard. Seriously. I'm a sperglord. I have OCD. I have anxiety. I am terrible at reading social situations, I talk too loud, I have virtually none of the standard social graces. I have friends, close friends, who are there for me - sure, not in a huggy way, but when I have a shitty day we get drunk and play video games or something like that.

Even if you don't have close friends, talk to your neighbors. Get to know them. They'll think you're weird, you'll think they're weird, but knowing them makes life better. It's strange as hell, but I legitimately was sad when my chemtrails believing neighbor moved out, because he was somebody I talked to on a regular basis and got to know. It's not like we were close, but we would talk, share a beer every now and then, shoot the shit. And, while I'm not that talkative with all of my neighbors, I do that with most of them. We come to each other for random stuff - one of my neighbors knocked on my door the other day to ask if he could borrow an extension cord. It sounds like nothing, and it is minor as hell, but connections like that keep you saner and happier because you're part of a group.

That's really the end answer. Don't look for a perfect friend, look for a good enough group - or better yet, a number of good enough groups. You'd be surprised at how good of friends that makes.

>>8202491
>I mostly browse /ck/ just for food porn

This confuses me. If you want to browse food porn then surely there are far far far better places to do it than this place?

>>8202630
Thanks m8. I'll try. I know my loneliness doesn't help, I used to have friends but lost touch with a lot of them when I got on the psych meds. Also I live at home which makes things worse, combined with being exhausted all the time from work.

>>8202645
I'm on 4chan anyways and I enjoy the bantz combined with the food. Sometimes I use Instacart app and make fake grocery lists with lots of cookies and yummy things on it also.

>>8202491
Yeah, I binge eat.
I often only eat one meal a day.

>>8202549
Binge eating is the eating disorders fatties like to claim since it gives them a reason to eat like an animal.

>>8202741
I've met a few bulimic people. None were fat.
Most were also anorexic ,even if this mess with your simple mind to comprehend how can someone suffer from two disorders that look opposite .

>>8202491
I used to be bulimic for 10 years, now I just binge eat. I do like to eat while I'm browsing /ck/

Funnily enough, when I was bulimic the binges were so extreme that I weigh almost the same as I do now, even though I was purging and starving myself after binges before.

I'm 1 to 2 clothing sizes more than I was when I was bulimic (and 25 pounds more than my lowest weight), but I actually feel like a human being now, and do things other than think about my body and food... Though I probably will always be a little off in my thinking.

>>8202572
Are you in USA? If you are too poor to go to doctor you probably qualify for medicaid.

>>8202651
Try calling them again.

One of my current good friends got into a relationship at 16 and cut all social contact so he could spend time with his girlfriend. 3 years later he found out that he had no friends left, and started contacting people again. Now he's got all of them back and even more on top of that.

It just takes one or two good contacts to get the ball rolling.

I used to be anorexic too, I started making serious efforts towards getting better once I saw my hair fall out in handfuls and felt my heart slowing down and getting weaker, no joke, that last one was fucking terrifying

>>8202491
I got diagnosed with OSFED/EDNOS. BMI is 19, but I lost my period, do 2-3 hours of activity everyday and am /fit/-obsessed and orthorexic.

Working on it. Worst thing is feeling bad about eating hedonistic foods and purging sometimes if I do.

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>>8203059
>lose period when bmi goes under 17
>gain weight back to 17.5
>period doesn't come back

I had been eating very little for a couple of months (I kinda forgot to eat some days, and just ate some salad when I remembered). Now I am just eating all day. yesterday I bought some boxes of granola (honey and almonds) and just ate it all compulsively. Today I checked the box and it seems that I consumed like 20000 calories and now I'm eating turkey I seared with butter. Does this count as an eating disorder?

>>8203093
Period more dependent on stress, hormones and body fat than weight. I imagine it'll take ages to get it back, so I'm kickstarting it using hormones so at least I don't get endometrial cancer or whatever.

>>8203119
Eating disorders is more of a self-harm thing, it's like eating very little (or purging) to reach really low weights. Generally about aesthetics.

"I forgot to eat" or just having low hunger doesn't really qualify, although if you get too low of a weight the results can certainly be the same.

2000 calories is plenty though, I mean my gf eats like 500 and gets light headed. That's when it's a problem.

I'm nothing serious, but I do have an unhealthy relationship with food. I seek comfort in eating, so whenever I'm sad or upset I'll "treat myself" with something sweet or salty, usually unhealthy.

My weight is normal, BMI is around 23, but I feel fat. Sometimes I'll start dieting, and after 5-6 months of eating low carb and not treating myself to ANYTHING unhealthy I'll go down to BMI 20, lose 5-7 kilos (thyroid problems, which is why it's taking so long). But at some point I'll start drinking beer again and eating sweets again, my weight will go up and I'll hate myself again.

>>8202491
I drink a can of soda a day and eat candy all the time because I'm a fucking idiot. I eat proper meals but I'm a slut for sugar especially after dinner.

Probably going to end up with diabetes, assuming I don't already have it.

>>8203130
You're right. I just worry because there are cases of severe eating disorders in my family, just as there seems to be some hereditary bipolar disorder (yay fucked up genes). I think I just go after the high eating like this gives me. Also, in the periods of depression, hunger reminds me I'm alive.
So, it's more about getting high.

>>8203140
>at some point I'll start drinking beer again and eating sweets again, my weight will go up and I'll hate myself again.
iktf

>>8203182
Yeah, keep an eye on that m8. Depression makes my lose my appetite, but I know others gain it. Sometimes I'll still get upset and eat a crazy amount of food, but I get so sick after that then I don't do that for another month or so. From restricting so much I can't handle much sugar or any kind of deserts, it makes me immediately sick.

>>8202491
I have depression since 10 years (I'm 20 now) and that includes never being hungry, unless my stomach is completely empty and I'm really starving, I'll be able to feel it.

I can like or dislike food, but eating foods I like bring me no pleasure or satisfaction; even the "pleasure foods" like chocolate, sugar...

I however kinda have a need to "fill myself up", so I eat a lot. I almost crossed the line to overweight, so I decided to stop and start eating healthy and lose 10 kilograms. I'm halfway to my objective.

>>8203253
Congrats on catching yourself before you got too fat, anon. That's hard to do. I didn't until I was in the obese range.

Here comes a long one so totally ignore this shit if you want, guys.

> 11 years deep into an Eating Disorder
> Diagnosed with Anorexia Nervosa: severe
> First time being hospitalised was 13 years old, spent two months living in the children's/minor's ward
> Get a little bit of treatment and counseling after being discharged but was mostly just me and my family on our own
> Stagnate and maintain at least a passable level of normalcy till the end of high school and start of college
> Age 19/20, oh fuck everything the Anorexia demon rears its ugly head harder and stronger than ever before
> Crash, burn, starve, almost die, fall into endless vortex of depression, hospitals, illness, treatment, etc etc
> The ride never ends

I have been hospitalised six times at this point, I'm now 24. Two of those times were emergency admissions when I was close to death. I was on complete lockdown - confined to my bed and not even allowed to sit upright because it was "expending too much energy.". I had a feeding tube inserted through my nose and down my throat so nutrition could be slowly dripped directly into my stomach. I've had that happen twice.

I'm 5'8" and my lowest weight was around 71 or 72 pounds. I don't care at the moment to do the math to figure out what BMI that is.
I haven't had a period since I was 20 years old.

Right now I'm beginning to pull myself out of the muck. I think it just finally hit me how shitty living life like this really is and that getting better might be worth it. Its fucking hard as hell but I'm trying. Five days a week I have support groups, counseling, medical appointments, everything. A full treatment team is behind me. My family is supporting me every step of the way. My weight is still only in double digits right now but it's higher than it used to be. I am going into the hospital again at the end of the month but this time it is a voluntary intensive inpatient treatment program.

>>8203794

To everyone ITT who is suffering right now, I feel you. This will sound fake and cheesy as fuck, but, you're not alone.

I don't even know if I CAN get better, and it is the most painful fucking thing and it hurts me like hell to even try but holy shit am I ever trying.

I have met people who have recovered from this so I know it is possible. So every day I am going to keep trying until life either starts to get a little bit brighter or I drop dead from the effort. Because this disease will kill me (and you) anyway if you dont fight.

So fight.

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>>8203807
Fagit

My BMI was 14.4 6 weeks ago.
Now it is 16.9, so I am recovering but I feel nervous about calories. (gained like 20lbs)
Have a nutritionist to see tomorrow so I hope they help.

>>8202491
no not really. I only eat between 6pm and 10pm though but I do get like 2500 calories in during that time. My parents and some friends are weirded out by it but is bretty güd

>>8203871
are you just a big guy or fat/chubby

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Former Bulimic. I love /ck/ too.

>>8203874
6'2" 180lb and I work out. I would eat more if I were trying to put on muscle but I'm just kinda maintaining right now

>>8202549
Not that anon, but for me, binge eating is more like a compulsion. I'll just keep thinking of food and I HAVE to eat it. If I have say, a pack of candy in the house, and I see it and want a piece, I can't put it off until later - I have to eat it NOW and I have to eat the whole pack. Then I'll see something else that looks good or think of something else and it just continues until I feel too shitty to keep eating. I usually eat pretty well, but sometimes I get stressed or depressed and I just get out of control.

At that point, I usually go to the bathroom and throw it up.

I have both binge eating disorder and bulimia, and it's awful. It's a hard thing to break out of, especially because I usually feel so "clean" after puking that it's a hard habit to break because if I don't, I can almost feel my body getting fatter and I feel like I can't breathe because it feels like I'm suffocating under the fat.

>>8204089
Are you overweight?

>>8202491
I wont actually feel full unless its physically uncomfortable to eat more food.

I dont over eat often but sometimes i forget that ive already had a lot to eat and eat a big meal.

>>8202491
that feel anon

my stomach doesn't sit in the right place, so it's like having a lap band
I never have any appetite, so if I'm out of synch i can go days without eating
and the nausea is awful

I tend to eat a three or four course meal a day

if you're depressed, have AIDS or cancer there is so much help out there
but if you're just a guy with a shitty stomach, all you get is patronizing advice from people who don't know shit

When I was 13 or 14 I started purging, restricting ridiculous amounts of food, and exercising a bunch (also doing a BUNCH of DXM which made me lose my appetite, yeah I know I was stupid). My lowest BMI was Freshman year of HS at 12.something but then I slowly started eating healthier and got /fit/ but even now almost 9 years later I still have issues with binging and purging. I'm at a more normal weight but I still want to lose more weight so I'm going towards that in a more healthy manner. Keeping myself busy helps me mentally with everything though.

But I can eat craaaaaaaazy amounts of food and vomit pretty much on command now. Luckily somehow my teeth are still in great condition and I haven't even had so much as a cavity my entire life. My dentist is still happy with them and my doctor hasn't said anything about my health.

Yet anyways Ha.

>>8205049
Oh and before that I was a fat kid almost all my life. I was 200lbs by the time I was 10 at like 5'0 at the time

Good god, those legs are beautiful.

Is not eating because I work an eating disorder? I've been on a diet of gouda, wasabi peas and beer for a couple days.

>>8205058
>Drinking liquid bread
>Diet

>>8205114
Idiot.

>>8202491

Those legs Are sexy to me NGL

I'm ~450 lbs, which disorder(s) do I have?

>>8205253
I feel you.

>tfw picked up compulsive eating as a way to deal with depression
>managed to maintain a healthy weight because I still worked out
>recently stop working out
>depression gets worse and so does the binge eating
>end up gaining 20 pounds

I'm still pretty depressed, but my eating habits seem to be on the mend. In spite of that, I'm afraid of having a relapse.

>>8202491
qt legs I want to lick them

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Put myself on a strict budget and been cutting back on buying and eating crap food.
I used to be addicted to certain junk food, to the point that if i stopped eating it i would get back acne that was so itchy i had to go to the doctor and they didn't tell me shit, the only cure i got was eating junk food again.

>>8205259
I'm not sure they consider obesity an eating disorder, strangely enough. I don't see why they wouldn't, but now there is a huge push on being nice to everyone fat and accepting them and so forth so maybe that is part of it.

The semantics don't really matter though, try and lose some weight! You can do it, anon!

i am bulimic, really works but some side effects come with the joy of shedding pounds. waste of money on food, teeth and throat degrade, pounding headaches at times. on the plus side you look good, but for me personally i fuck it up b/c ill gain pounds that i have lost b/c i get comfy and indulge. at least i never have to worry about being obese/fat b/c i have the quick fix.

>hate all you want i love it

BMI 14 anorexic here. Being threatened with hospital at current which is fun.

I'm on /ck/ for similar reasons to OP but I actually eat "a lot" for an anorexic I guess. I enjoy cooking but I wouldn't as much if not for the ED.

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>>8202491

Yeah, I come here to look at food while I restrict.

Got diagnosed with anorexia with a purging disorder, now consider myself recovered even though I still throw up like once a month fuck

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>>8205055
Are you me..

>>8203807
Thanks mate. My situation isn't nearly as bad as yours, but I've never had a good relationship with food and that sort of snowballed into anorexia and bulimia by age 12. I'm 20 now and it's the worst it's ever been.
I finally decided a month and a half ago that I'm really going to fix it, I'm just forcing myself to eat and pressing boundaries I've let build up for too long, like eating in front of people or taking bites that aren't uniform size and timing.
Textures really fuck me up, and I dread eating. I just force myself through it. I've been browsing /ck/ often because everyone sees eating as such a positive thing, and that helps a lot for some reason.

>>8202589
How can you "get help" with a mental disease ? That's the part i don't get. A mental disease can only be healed with one thing : your mind. Yourself. Therefore how and why other people could help you with that ? Especially """""therapists""""" that mostly don't give two shits about you and see people like you every day and will try to shill you pills.

I love food but I'm too lazy to exercise. I throw up at least twice a day (after meal and/or dinner)

>>8206086
>I throw up at least twice a day (after meal and/or dinner)

Not only that's not normal, you probably guessed it, but you will definitively fuck your whole shit up quite quickly. Namely your esophagus.

>>8205439
You probably don't eat as much as you think. A lot of people think they eat "a lot," but what they mean is they eat small portions throughout the day. Since most people don't count their calories, they don't really know if they're under or overeating.

Its the equivalent of obese people saying they barely eat but gain weight easily. It's because they eat very calorie dense food throught the day in small portions.

anyways, you should get help OP.

>>8206081
>you don't need pills anon you just need positive thinking :))))
You ain't a fucking doctor. Kiss my dick.

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I'm absolutely floored at the number of people who come to /ck/ to obsess over, but not eat, food. When I saw this thread yesterday I figured the OP would just get ridiculed for being a weirdo.

>>8206094
Where did i said any of that you fucking retard ?

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I have tried to gain weight to recover from anorexia I understand that I need to lift to build muscle as my weight increases.

However I am AFRAID of going near a gym. I am scared of it. I just went to sign up and noted every single thing that was done in judgement of me by people en route. It makes me feel nervous and upset.

Is it possible to workout with ONLY dumbbells and get results?

I only need enough muscle to avoid skinnyfat mode. If I will be skinnyfat I would rather stay anorexic.

Pic related it is the log of incidents. I have typed this and will read whenever I think a gym is a good place for me. Also, it allows you guys to understand my situation.

>>8206168
>Is it possible to workout with ONLY dumbbells and get results?

No. Hit the gym and keep in mind the following thing : nobody will ever look down on you for trying to better yourself. If they do, they're the fucking insecure losers deep down. And everyone in a good gym knows that.

>>8206081
it can be treated with good attitude, but anon, some people have hella hallucinations that need medical intervention to make it go away. reality just isn't the same as normal people to people with a mental illness. they experience different things than you do, feel different things than you do. if you suddenly felt the way someone with a mental illness does, you'd react the same way, because the feelings to them are real. they don't just make it up or invent it (though some ppl do avoid getting better by not forcing themselves to face their problems head on)

>>8206168
>walk past girl
>she looks down
>she thought she could push me to the floor due to my weakness
You have to be trolling. No one is this autistic.

>>8206272
you didn't see the look she gave

>>8206093
Did you even fucking read what I posted faggot? I know I don't eat a lot for my body but I eat more than most people would consider to be "anorexic" or "disordered".

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>>8206168
You're over thinking. Relax, anon. Everything has a viable reason on that list and you're choosing worse case scenario. I know how you feel, insecure and honestly I admire you for trying to improve yourself.

>>8206331
It might have been me. Sounds a lot like me. What gym do you go to?