What troubles you anon? Get it off your chest.

>>730538644
Failed a final today, considering suicide

Being physically addicted to alcohol, no friends, no job, no post high school degree, 36 years old.

I mean fuck. For a lot of guys that equals a mass shooter.

>>730538841
How are you "physically" addicted to alcohol? Addiction is a mental disorder...

>>730540008
If I stop drinking I get bad withdrawals

>>730540008
Mfw mental illness is physical in the brain

>>730540008
>addiction is a mental disorder
Withdrawal has physical symptoms you fucktard.

>>730540508
Addiction starts with the brain you dumb fucking faggot. Withdrawals are a side effect.

>>730541491
>Pain occurs in the brain
Pain isn't physical

>>730538644
Well, I have been finding myself very attracted to Asian girls recently. I've been wanting to ask out this girl who was in my group for a project all semester, but didn't have the balls to do it in case she said no and I had to work in a group with her all semester. So now I am patiently shooting myself in the foot waiting for next fall to ask her out.

I might fail chemistry
It probably won't matter in the long run because the rest of my grades pull my gpa to above 3.0 but it still worries me.

>>730538644
turned 30, want gf but its only single moms and uggos from here on out. i also cant stop smoking weed.

>>730542073
man up and marry a single mom.

>>730541730
Who do you go to for treatment? Checkmate fag.

>>730542234
noway man im not gonna play daddy for some bastard, that'd be like being retrocucked

>>730542262
Well your mom always makes me feel better

>>730541894
Call her fag. Don't text, call. Asians are EZ money.

I'm trying to start my own religion but its really difficult.
I'm also being persecuted by the american government, because pollution is a sin and sins prevent you from seeing the light of God.

>>730542073
Outsource to asia or south america.

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>>730542234
fuck that
don't.
DO. NOT. MARRY. SINGLE. MOM.
they are single for a reason.
>inb4 but-but muh wife was a single mommy and i rescued her
don't give a shit.
98% of the time it's a bad catch.

single moms in general, in their 30s and 20s are riding the cock carousel and as soon as the next best thing comes around, she's ditching your ass.

>>730542542
totally not schizophrenic at all.
i didn't know asylum patients had internet access.
then again, it would explain the surge 'gang-stalked' crowd and flat earthers.

>>730538644
These dumbasses attempting to push the "black takeover/supremacy cause muh bbc" agenda. It's getting annoying, as well as upsetting. Like for real, it shouldn't matter your dick size when it comes to being in any relationship.

>>730542756
i absolutely wont, i'm not raising a bastard.

>>730543024
>>730542756
>>730542380

i love seeing these replies, it shows how impervious young men are to shaming these days

>>730542756
Can speak from personal experience. A friend I knew since I was 12, madly infatuated with, got knocked up in her twenties(she was mom #3 of this guys kids, hasn't had two kids with one woman, I know he's up to at least 4 kids), she calls me up after having the kid and says she's in love with me, move out to be with her, get married, encourage her and try to motivate her to finish college and then endorse her in the Army, find out she's been cheating on me long distance for over a year. 4 year relatonship, 3 year marriage, 18 year friendship. All because she's a fucking whore.

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>>730542380
>Retrocucked

>>730541914
Do you need help? I teach college chem, kik me morphine911

>>730542917
Nah, I'm not crazy. Life is crazy.
It will take awhile for science to catch up to the Truth so the world will remain in darkness for quite awhile.

>>730543692
No, but thanks for the offer. My grades have been shit so far and the semester is almost done. It's less a problem of not understanding the material and more me being a lazy dipshit and not doing the work and shit.

my dog is being put down tomorrow

also: https://discord.gg/KnehABJ

>>730543922
you knew this day was coming.

>>730543869
thats college for ya

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>>730543720
I didn't say you were crazy.
I implied you were schizophrenic.

Schizophrenia is a mental disorder
Crazy would be an opinion.

>>730544010
yes I did but its still feelsbadman

>>730543922
I'm so sorry anon
Take solace from the fact that you gave him a better life than he otherwise would have had. It's what helped me, maybe it will help you.

>>730538644
Loneliness and a lack of interesting problems to occupy my brain box.

>>730544975
>Lack of interesting puzzles
If you like puzzles, check out either rubiks cubes of different sizes or hanayama cast puzzles. Both are pretty good for working your brain out in a physical manner.

>>730545353
lack of interesting problems* sorry

>>730543922
Sorry to hear anon. My girlfriend and I recently broke up, and she is keeping the dog

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>>730543448
just reading this pisses me off.

I'm this guy here >>730542756

I can understand reasons why a younger, single guy would want to hook up and rescue a damsel. It's empowering in a way, and being in a relationship is a sense of security. you feel like you're fulfilling your role in a fatherly and husbandly manner.

she convinces you to help her with school while she stays home, or at most, work part time while you're clocking in 40-50 hours a week.

she almost becomes your mother. dictates who your friends are, where you go alone, etc. because she needs you bent to her will and and devoid of any outside influence.

as soon as she's able to, she will move on to the next guy in line with a slightly bigger house, paycheck, and self-esteem.

so yes, I can relate as well but not in the way you have. my mom was similar and growing up with my dad as my single-parent helped me realize how awful and vindictive women can be.

she had custody of my brother, who is of a different father. a father he never had the chance to meet until 25 years down the line when Facebook came around.

>>730538644
I came out of a 14 month long coma a few months ago. Still trying to catch up with time. My insurance quit covering me last February, so my bills stacked up like crazy, gf left me, I forgot the pw to my phone so I'm stuck on my computer still I figure it out. I still feel like an alien.

>>730545353
It's too bad i find puzzles to be complete wastes of time.

>>730545695
>gf left me
dodged a bullet. if she was worth anything, she would have been by your side.

could've been worse. could've been married, she would then dictate whether you're pulled off life support or kept in a vegetative state. could've added kids to the mix, and all the judicial bullshit men have to fight through just to establish visitation rights.

I'm going into the military after high school because I need a way to let out my thoughts of brutally killing and torturing the ones I am close to. I cover this up and I've never told anyone before. I'm going into the Marines in hope that I can receive the discipline I may need.

P.S. I'm a sadist..

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I can get ez dubs but not laid

>>730545695
how did you get in a coma?

>>730546188
How about mystery novels like sherlock holmes? Trying to figure out whats going on before the protagonist does?

>>730546348
>after high school
underage b8
>>730546377
checked

>>730546377
level 30 wizardry
jelly af

>>730546475
>can be 18 in high school
>being this retarded

I can't ask out my crush because I'm fat. Before any of you say "just do it pussy" she is very shy, timid, and also my friend. I'm afraid I will ruin our friendship if I do it before I feel comfortable with my body.

>>730546602
Fine wait until Chad asks her out

>>730546602
get
>>>/fit/
Don't aim for perfect aztec-gods-of-fitness levels. Just get yourself into a reasonable shape. It'll also help your self confidence in asking her out.

>>730546345
We were only dating 2 months but still sucks kinda
>>730546416
Was T-boned by a speeding car while riding my motorcycle. Was wearing a helmet but was told when I got hit it flew off.

>>730546691
I'd rather have her be happy with a normie than ruin our friendship because of my fatness

>>730546762
How can your fatness ruin a relationship? Stop being so self conscious.

I feel like I can't attract any girls. I don't think I'm ugly, but I also don't think I'm handsome. It feels like any girl I talk to is either not interested in me, taken, or unattractive. Guess it takes time to find the right one, but I've never dated before. I feel really left out.

>>730547769
Aww

>>730547769
You can do one of two things anon
1) You can make yourself attractive through status, money, or maybe working out
2) You can ignore relationships entirely and focus on more productive hobbies.
I went with the latter and its not so bad, but it does suck for a while.

>>730547888
now those are some digits worth checking

>>730547406
Read my posts

>>730538644
I got offered a promotion, but they aren't giving me it. Saying that they are "working" on it.

Have no other place to go so I'm pretty much cucked until they do.

If they don't say anything by Thursday I'm gonna send a kind hearted email.

i have feelings for someone who doesn't want me.

>>730548309
>sending an email
If you aren't prone to sperging out, I would ask in person.

I never learned how to interact romantically with women, though not shy i am very much an introvert so these two things combined have lead to a very lonely existence as a 23yr old young adult.

I've never gotten to kiss, hold hands or have sex with a woman (i don't count the couple of hookers i fucked when i was 16-17 just so i wasn't a teen virgin)

Any advice?

I should clarify that neither have i learned about socialization in general.

I'm also in a similar position to >>730547769 except looks aren't that important to me. A cute smile is all i need to get charmed.

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First day of new job tomorrow.
I need to leave in 5.5 hours.
I might just not sleep.
What do.

>>730548309
>Have no other place to go
Job hunt a little bit until you get an offer, then you can press your current job for a promotion.

I'm going to have to repeat physical science

Plz help always forget acid trips sometimes total psychosis

>>730548648
Repeat a phrase over and over until you fall asleep. I've found that praying a rosary knocks me out within the first decade or so.

>>730548648
Sleep 3 hours, as it is the minimal undivisable unit of restfull sleep. This will allow you to be a little more perky in your first day without getting there late.

I'm constantly putting myself down, and can't accept myself for who I am.
Acne and constant pains in my body don't help at all either. There are times when I feel a little better, I try to remind myself that I have a lot of friends and have average looks, but my shitty self esteem fucks it all and makes feel like I'm not even trying

People on here hate me for being Jewish.

Asked a girl out and hopefully will fuck her, but I can't get it up to women anymore because I'm gay after so much 4chan and trap threads.

My grandad has viagra in his bathroom cupboard so I might nick some. Jesus Christ /b/ I just want to have a nice wife and kid and raise a family but you made me fucking gay.

>>730548811
I might just sleep 4, as I've found that correlates with my REM

>>730548808
and i'll do this in 1 hour

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I was completely straight until a few days ago when this hot dude asks me for dick pics, im going to see him soon. What do i tell people?

I am a nolongermarriedfag. Been banging drunk skanks, most of them chubbies, been drinking a lot. Been blowing yay, even free based last week. Want to get a nonskank and maybe settle down again, but addicted to booze, pot, and skanks. And the skanks all trying to get all up in my business.

Do I need to isolate, start just doing pot and fapping to traps until I break my habits, or keep on the path to lonely old life with nobody to spend my money??

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I don't know why my best friend keeps ignoring me, I fucking took her to an ayahuasca ceremony a month ago and she's still angry with me. I don't know what more can I do. Fuuuuuuck.

>>730549064
See where it goes, sexual orientation was not a part of human identity for long periods of history, where men just fucked whatever was there to be fucked.

What you like to fuck doesn't have to change or define you.

Straight, gay or bi, you'll still be you.

>>730548906
I recommend doing some work for charity. Volunteering at an animal shelter or a soup kitchen, for example.
Speaking from personal experience so your mileage may vary, but I found it harder to think myself a piece of shit after I had helped people.

moving in a few months, gonna have to leave my gf whom I literally consider perfect ://

>>730549342
Take the course of action that your self-respect and worth tell you to. Women, even as friends, respond to this.

If whatever she's mad about has a variable directly related to a desition she made then she's the only one to blame for it.

Something along the lone of "I want us to still be friends but i'm not going to apologize for something you agreed to do, so tell me right now whether or not you want to talk to me again so i don't waste any more time." but with your own words.

>>730549540
It sucks, but your life goals > relationships.
If you're good together then you can give it a chance at another time.

>>730549355
Thx man, he is the first dude ive ever considered hot. Idk how to feel, what if it kicks off and i stay with him? Wtf do i tell people then?

>>730549749
Thanks, bro. This is actually good advice, gonna try it.

>>730549910
I have been with her for 2 years and things have been going extremely well with her. she is very loyal and clingy in a good way and honestly she is one of the only people I genuinely care about at the moment so idk if I can really move on tbh

>>730542234
>playing another guy's story mode savedata

this happend last weekend
>from LA
>mexican but look like a white spaniard
>grew up with some thug bros
>had a uncle ill call banger (gang banger)
>banger was into some real criminal shit
>moved pounds and pounds of meth coke and weed
>he used to give me and my friends odd jobs like moving product or protecting corners his homies sold on
>got so much fucking pussy when i did that shit in high school
>being a senior with thousands in his pocket and a nice whip got my pretty much any girl i wanted
>one day i got a text from banger saying he needed my help
>one of my close friends had been fronting people dime bags of bud and banger found out
>made me text the friend who ill call vic (victim)
>told vic that we were gonna pick up a bunch of bud and needed him for backup
>he was a bit hesistant but the 500$ for an hour of work drew him in
>the second we got out of the city in bangers suv shit hit the fan
>he lunged from the passenger seat into the backseat and started beating the fuck out of vic calling him a thief
>vic is a manlet mexican 5'10 and 170 when wet
>he stood no chance against banger at least 6ft and over 250 pounds
>he beat vic for a good 5 minutes before we found a secluded spot to punish him
>vic was sobbing and apologizing the entire time while banger beat the fuck out of him
>he hit him for an entire hour. by the end of it his face was swollen and bloody covered in snot and tears
>he smelt terrible after shitting and pissing himself still trying to blubber out "stop" and "please"
>after banger was done he gave me his 44. and told me to prove I was loyal to the crew and family
>I pointed the pistol for about 3 minutes not wanting to shoot him before banger came up and smacked me hard and took it from my hand
>"you better harden the fuck up or you're gonna end up like vic"
>shot him 5 times and then grabbed me by my collar and dragged me back to the car
paid me 1500$ for coming along
>went to a bar after and went home to cry that day

>>730550120
You tell them he gets your dick hard. You can use other words but other than that there's no explanation needed.

>>730550205
Glad i could help.

>>730550307
It sucks, but sacrifice is needed in order to reach your goals. While i would not reccomend a long-distance relationship, some (rare) people have made it work. You could try that, but i strongly insist you let her know what she means to you and how much it hurts you to have to do this, and why you have to.

The best you can hope for is ending things well enough so that, if the oportunity presents itself, you can resume the relationship in the future.

Still incredibly depressed and sometimes suicidal over attempted infidelity some 10 years ago anon, I know I'm superior, I know it didn't go through, but it's still killing me

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>>730550629
did this happen?

>>730538732
Come on, anon. You won't even remember that final 10 years from now.

>>730550709
Yeah the only problem is that my dad is a bit homofobic

>>730550709
thanks for the advice, I will try my best to move on.

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>>730546602
>>730546722
That is the story of my life my man, lost 115 pounds in one year because my dream girl joined my sophomore high school class.
I just ran until I couldn't breathe every night thinking of her before I went to sleep for an entire year. She was the sole inspiration I needed to keep running no matter the pain.

Had the best sex anyone will ever have with the captain of the cheerleader squad for two and half years after that. Worth every mile I ran.

Best of luck man, All that matters is your inspiration or muse and nothing else at all.

>>730550944
shit like that happens every day in
shithole LA mexicans and nigger ruined this fucking place

>>730550903
The brave man isn't the one who never fears, but the one who stands his ground in the face of it.

You were tempted and you showed you worth, you shouldn't be neurotic about it, you should be proud. You're a rare breed. Be proud of it and work to mantain it.

We all get tempted, and we all waver. But in the end all that matters is the desition we made, and you made the right one.

Again, be proud you're a better man than the average. At least fidelity and honesty-wise.

>>730551169
Every father to a son is a bit homophobic. Nobody is confortable with the thought of their son sucking or taking dick, as it is (instinctively) a sign of submission and weakness. You can probably comfort this fear by showing him this does not make you any less strong or any less of a man.

>>730551298
Good luck, man.

Like most anons, finals coming up and I'm losing my mind.

>>730541894
>waiting


you scared fucking pussy.

>>730548919

I hate you for many reasons but none of them are being Jewish.

>>730551678
I can't help you this time, but i can help you with the next. Learn to take notes, and then translate those notes into a (digest of notes?) when you leave class. When the next finals come arround you'll have a full run-down of the class written in your own words, and you'll be able to pin point every single concept you're having trouble with, which any professor will gladly elucidate.

The anxiety will be quieted by a comfortable matress of preparation.

>>730545695
I've always wondered how waking up from a coma would be with so much time lost. Personally, losing time for me is a fear I never knew I had considering time is the biggest enemy. How is everything?

>>730538644
Im socially retarded
Poor as fuck for now
Trying to pass my finals
My car is dying, but I can't fix it until I get more moolah.
sucks a thousand schlongs

>>730551612
Sorry anon, I should have been clearer. It was my partner. I haven't done anything, but she tried to, or so the story goes, for many years I was lead to believe it happened, it was a mistake, we were young, I get it, but recently she said they tried, they made out, tried to get him up to do the deed and it just wouldn't happen, so they didn't have sex, but I have no way to know if that's the truth, it's terming me apart even now.

She hasn't done anything like it, and been nothing hut amazing ever since, but in a depressive state I reached out to mutual friends and was told the guy had been saying they did it not once, but several times. And I have no way of knowing.

I don't know what to do anymore anon, I'm sick of thinking about it, but it's daily, and it shouldn't still hurt. I know I took the high ground, but I just can't get past it, and if I try to leave it breaks her heart, and she doesn't deserve it. Good lord never thought I would put this on 4chan, but I'm at wits end.

>>730538644
Slowly finding out all my friends don't give a shit about me. Now have no friends.

>>730551612
Thx dude, im going down there to see him soon, il be telling my parents im going down to meet some old friends. Only slight thing im worried about is that hes 30 and im 20, that can be a bit awkward if we kick it off. But ive known him for a year and hes a nice guy. Thx for the advices :)

I've cheated on my girlfriend three times. Twice with our roommate and once with my ex-girlfriend. She has no idea and constantly tells me what a great guy I am and it eats me up inside.
I think about breaking up with her often but keep waiting for a good time.
Feel like shit

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Kicked out of the mtg community on tumblr (wotc uses tumblr as their media platform) for supporting trump, opened shit pulls at a prerelease, had to put down a 5 week old kitten, banned from facebook for 3 months for calling aliens space niggers, and grades are slipping. All since last Friday.

>>730552827
Im sorry about your kitten but the facebook ban is funny. Grades will come up boi just bust a fucking nut from working so hard.

I can't feel a thing. So I guess nothing's troubling me right now.

>>730552827
Agreed with anon, that ban is great, but he's right, grades will come up, shame about magic since it tends to rake a lot of time and investment, but see how you go, I'm about ready to knock myself off for reasons mentioned above, but if I don't, will be here for you buddy

>>730552456
There's a circuit in our brains, the one that tells kids there's monsters in the dark and won't calm down until the light's are on. It won't leave uncertainty alone, because if there might be a snake in you cave then you must act like there absolutely is one there in order to assure the survival or your line.

You are uneasy because you saw signs of a snake, and your brain won't leave it alone.

I won't tell you to leave or forgive her, that is up to you.

You're chasing an invible snake, you will never be 100% sure wether it's there ot not, and there's only one way to deal with it if you are to keep the relationship alive: Re-building trust in your partner. It's slow, it can be painfull and things might never be the same again. Begin the process, and even if it hurts her like a thousand knives, she has to know this is what you're trying to do.

Do what you must to get it going, as long as you know your desitions come from a place focused on repair and benevolence (both for your relationship and yourself).

This is all i'm sure will be usefull to you, but if you're married or have children together then consider talking to a couples counselor. Even if you do it alone.

Good luck, anon.

>>730552655
Glad i can help.

>>730538644
>Beta as fuck.
>Have crush on a friend.
>Another friend is hitting on them.
>Can't be with both of them in the same room.

>>730538644
getting my shit together is hard as fuck

>>730553591
Thanks anon, not married, no children, but it's been 10 years, and I've tried everything I can think of, but I always just wind up repressed and start slinging accusations again. It's jot an easy decision to make by any means, and counselling made it work.

But if nothing else thanks for taking time out of your day to listen, it actually means quite a bit

>>730538644
I fucking hate teenagers. Something about them drives me crazy. They all act and dress the same. Now a days I feel like the intelligence of the human race is decreasing drastically. They don't seem to have a grasp on reality. I mean I guess it's always been like that with that age. I never really associated with teens when I was that age which is probably why I only had 3 really good friends growing up. I have a 16 year old cousin who is everything I hate about the generation. Now he thinks he knows everything there is about women. When I mention my friends who are girls, he goes with that "ooh you're gf?" bullshit. And he fucking keeps bringing up my ex who I dumped. Yeah, I can just get a go and shut him up but that side is lacking. I'm tired of his no respect attitude. He always says "get it in" when near a women. I need to shut this kid down and make him respect me. I want this kid to stop talking to me like I'm his age. I'm 20 and I probably sound like a bitch but It's just that he gets under my skin and he doesn't even know it. Things don't appear as they seem. What should I say to this kid without sounding like he got to me?

My girlfriends cat ran away, and that doesnt bother me, but her response does. I told her to put up posters and go walk around outside, touching poles and things to leave a scent. She didnt do either of those until four days after it ran away, and has been really lazy about it, even though her cat is literally her other half. Her laziness has raised red flags before, but this has been the biggest so far. I love her, but like, idk lmao

>>730553591
Also, Oddly enough I do trust her, I trust she hasn't done anything since, and that she has no intention of doing so again, but it doesn't stop it from coming back and still being hurt by the initial situation. Logically it makes no sense I should be stuck, but the chemicals clearly aren't doing the right thing and it just comes back again and again, but thanks again anon

>>730554179
quit being a bitch

>>730553902
If you don't have a chance then just take distance, you don't need the suffering or drama, you need space. Move on, work on yourself.

Work towards your personal goals you forget those feelings. Don't put yourself through the pain of seeing them together, or being around her without being able to act on your desires.

You'll eventually either find someone else or have improved yourself enough so that you have the confidence to do whatever you want.

I want to clarify, don't work towards what you think she or other women would want you to be, but towards what you want and where you want to be, women will naturally follow.

>>730554173
I'm glad i can help.
I think this guy might be able to help
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dbGzUqFcHSs
He's a psycology professor, researcher and clinical counselor.
There's another video of his that talks about the circuit i mentioned but i can't find it right now. It might help you but if it doesn't then at least you'll have learned something interesting and hopefully have been able to re-organize your thinking.

>>730554421
>still being hurt by the initial situation
This is very interesting, the guy i mentioned before once mentioned something along the lines of "If there's a memory more than 18 months old that still causes a negative emotional reaction, then you haven't articulated it properly".

It's great that you trust her again, and that you can be sure that she hasn't cheated since then at least.

I wonder, would a real heart-felt apology from her help you move on? What else do you think could help?

And maybe more importantly, what do you think you would need to hear in order to be able to let this behind you for good?

>>730551091
wew lad

>>730542420
dam...

>>730551091
you're right, I just need to stop being lazy.

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>>730551324

Fucking Story anon. This shit sounds Good.

>>730555281
She's done that, she's done a lot T ok try and reconcile the situation and even after our arguments still begs me to stay despite me being a detriment to her. But the arguments always start because I'm depressed and I have to pretend to be happy at times. Sometimes. Are great, others jot, but when I'm okay everything is fantastic. I just wish I knew the truth, but no man with a any self respect is going to say he couldn't get it up, so there's no way to ever know if what she's saying is true. It's that lack of certainty maybe, and the years I believed it had happened? I genuinely have no idea. Logically it makes no sense to still be impacted by it, despite other more recent events like losing family to suicide, but here I am, still hurting, still depressed, it still always comes back despite the fact that I have been told it was a mistake, I know he's a piece of shit, and I know that I have done right by her till I get depressed, and even knowing for better or worse that I'm more well endowed as dumb as that was to ask, and yet here I am all these years later.

>>730538644
kek

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>>730550307

Then seriously. Why are you moving.

I have a friend who's meditating on suicide at 40. He left his perfect girlfriend because she had a child with another guy (before meeting him) and cheated with her last ex to get with him.

He left her eventually because he didn't want to be a part of that three-person dynamic. He regrets it to this day. He's 36.

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Im autistic shocker here i know. I am having trouble holding down work. Should i apply for disability? I know it applies to autism :/

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>>730552827

>Space niggers

Kek

>Memories of cringe worthy shit I did or said from throughout my life pop into my head 24/7 and make me hate myself
>had a psychotic break over a year ago and now on mental health probation, remember stuff I did during that very often
>memories won't go away and trying to think positive about myself when they come up doesn't make the cringe feeling I get stop
>get so pissed when my mom starts bitching at me and tell her to shut up and called her a cunt today, very easily angered and it just bursts out, don't even really feel bad about it until after the fact, usually buy her food and take her out afterwards but it doesn't make it better
>think about an heroing every day, too pussy to do it
>lazy and pretty worthless as a human being
>no friends, don't really want any
>no gf, no sex drive at all cause of my medication, used to be a horn dog and mess with girls but don't even talk to any human being now besides employees at GameStop and restaurants, my mom, therapist
>got fat cause of medication and terrible eating habits, appetite seems like it's insatiable sometimes, not too fat only 200 pounds but fat enough to lower my self esteem, girls used to think I'm cute and now they don't really pay me any mind, but I don't really go out at all so that doesn't help
>blow all my money as soon as I get it
>wake up in the middle of the night every night, always accompanied by a weird ass dream, good ones are cool but the nightmares literally terrifying
>can't join the army now because of my diagnosis and 302 so I gotta spend my own money to go to some shitty community college, school was literally the worst experience of my life besides the psychotic break and I really don't wanna go back
>also constantly think about the shitty friends I had last year, wronged me and I hate them, just annoyed by them even being in my thoughts

Kinda all over the place but yeah. First world problems I know but the memories make me not want to wake up in the morning

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>>730538644

I'm 30, and most of my friends profiles have turned into Mombook. I don't feel like any of my friends in real life understand my curiosities (except /b/, /pol/), because even I find them too difficult to say with a straight face (murders on video, bestiality, wincest threads). I'm not politically correct at all either.

>pic very much related

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>>730558100

>Memories of cringe worthy shit I did or said from throughout my life pop into my head 24/7 and make me hate myself

If you have the time, you gotta tell yourself to 'Shut the fuck up'. I live alone, and it helps. Say it as many times as you need, with as much emotion as you feel. Two times for my mostly neurotypical brain is often enough. Repeat as necessary.

>blow all my money as soon as I get it
What do you spend your money on. Games? Track your spending habits. It's said that, 'What matters most to people is what they spend their money on.' - Choose what matters most to you, and spend it on that.

>not wanting to go back to school
Heh, no advice there. Are you me? I was *Done* with school after graduating high school. 'Optional years of schooling?' Heh, I'll pass.

Not getting dubs

>>730559187
>what do you spend your money on

Food and games. Mostly food. When the memories come I try to say "why do I still care about that" or something along those lines. It's just the initial feeling of the memory, makes my head hurt in a way. And there's just no way I can handle school without being prescribed to benzos and adderall, (adhd and literally full retard when in public). Gotta wait to be off probation to be prescribed to those tho. Not addicted or a druggie, but I know I'm gunna need it if I go to college.

Message "howdoikik" if you want to talk to someone about anything going on in your life. Anything. Really.

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>>730559682

Me too. I just don't want to get any heavier (5'10, 89 kg) so I can't go the anti-depressant route. I'm afraid that I'll wake up one day 118 kg and just be too fat to care about anything (progress, girls, doing better) and just be static until I die of coronary heart failure or chicken tendies.

I joined the military to get fit and get bitches i've been in for 2 years and everything was fine. But then trump became president. I spend every day waiting to hear that trump did something fucking stupid and caused ww3. I just wanted to get bitches and buy a new motorcycle not die in some shithole.

>>730560317
I don't care what anyone says, food is the most addictive thing on the planet. I could easily go on a diet and lose the weight, I did the cereal diet for 4 days and lost like 10 pounds. The problem is eating good foods after losing the weight to maintain it. As soon as I got a taste of Chinese food again it was over lol

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>>730540311
You can fucking die from the withdrawals.

>>730542073
Fuck and marry younger women then, Anon. It's not hard.

>>730560317
But yeah I don't think benzos are associated with weight gain. But they're really addictive

taking zoloft so i can't smoke weed or drink

generally i feel pretty normal but im still lonely and depressed

>>730538644
Ill never get rid of uzbek jews while listening to my song
https://youtu.be/Vb3IMTJjzfo