Feeling like shit so let's complain

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Just tell me it's gonna be okay and I'll be happy.
I'm basically a pussy, I'm a victim with a victim mentality !
When I was young I was privileged in kind of ghetto environment.
I was shit at sports and bullied by girls. I'm still SHIT at sports, I have no strength, its a huge complex. I dropped out of high school went to PW they gave me medicine but this medicine makes me weak and sleepy.
Now I can't even be on time on appointments.

I'm 27 year old living in Japan without employment and my visa will end.soon. only good thing is i have about 20000$ in the bank. I feel unable to work and unable to succeed in society. I always give a VERY GOOD FIRST impression to everybody until they know me then they are disappointed by me. All my best friends betrayed me cause im too weak and lets not talk about the girls, it always goes downhill after the first 3 months. My ex dumped me 2 days ago for no reason, but.id bet its because im depressed and have no job. I dont even have a driving.licence and im so depressed the only thing i can do is complain.
some people hate me and i hate myself. My last company dumped me cause they say im not reliable and THEYRE RIGHT. I am too ashamed to show my only good piece of work cause I feel like its my friends work and not mine, and this friend betrayed me, then because of this i betrayed him too. I feel so much guilt from this even tho I know he deserved it. I feel so much emotions and cannot get them in order. Posting here helps. Thanks