Lux Buff Hype Train
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>>8049653
Ash thread
Luck could totally be mtf
>>8049653
I haven't played league in a long time I used to be an autistically good high diamond player.
I really really love tabletop wargames.
But they're super ultra masculine.
God I have almost dumped all my pills down the toilet, gotten drunk, and now I'm playing with chickens, and all of this before noon. What a wonderful day, who says the tranny life ain't grand.
I want to die.
>>8050631
nothing is masculine
nothing is feminine
do what you like
Omg where the fuck is everyone I'm lonely and drunk and my gf doesn't feel like dealing with my sjit when I'm like this come on who's up I need someone to talk to
>>8050726
Fuck. Thank you thank you. This bukkahit is why I stopped coming to /mtfg/ I never knew where y'all are at
>>8050700
Then why do we use gendered pronouns for inanimate objects in every language except English?
>>8050756
i feel like you missed my point
>>8050759
really? pretty much everything i can find on pinterest is stuff that looks a bit like this
>>8050631
Desire is the measure of all things. Be unbound from moral tethers. Do as you will, to whom you will.
>>8050775
If you have large feet it is going to make them look absolutely massive, don't wear this look unless you have small feet.
>>8050756
thats just languages like spanish being fucking retarded
there's nothing feminine about a fucking chair
>>8050779
>Be unbound from moral tethers. Do as you will, to whom you will.
this sounds like really scary advice desu
>>8050779
>Do as you will, to whom you will.
yeah, thanks but no thanks, i don't want to end up in prison
tfw look like a failed male
tfw everyone plays LoL but you
>>8050785
oh huh ok shit
that kinda sucks because i hate boot cut jeans
is this better
>>8050700
Huh you're right nothing is masculine or feminine. Time to flush my HRT, since its all the same
>>8050789
its literally from the scp foundation so yes its deliberately bad
my bobs have been putting on weight.
i have to wear baggy shirts now
>>8050795
Iktg, I play the superior game Dota and all the trannies I know are league kiddies
>>8050631
Girls are allowed to do masculine things though, its the reverse scenario that'll pick up flak.
>>8050793
its okay to kill people
there is nothing wrong with being a murderer
>>8050756
& chinese, basically every language that doesn't use declensions
>>8050800
im perma-hoodie mode now
it just kinda looks like gyno rn but i ate an extra large pizza all my by myself yesterday so im hoping it goes up top
>>8050795
Get into dota instead
Reposting in this thread cuz I think we're in this thread now I guess
>>8050763
I live in Texas, Bryan/college station.
>>8050797
>since it's all the same
quote me on where i said that
>tfw lying to a friend about transitioning
>tfw you are just gonna neck yourself instead
>>8050808
same here.
my appetite's been going up a lot.
& lately, my stomach's been nothing if not accomodating
>>8050767
that's just how depression is I guess. somedays you just wake up feeling bad for no reason.
>>8050808
>tfw perma hoodie / fleece pullover mode in the summers
D:
Having to hide yourself sure stinks
>>8050803
>>8050809
The only moba I play is heroes of the storm
>>8050812
>nothing is masculine
Tautology 1
>nothing is feminine
Tautology 2
Therefore
>masculine is feminine
So they're the same.
>>8050796
A bit
You want to avoid making your lower legs look too narrow when paired with chunky shoes like this or else your feet are going to look like cinderblocks next to them. I have size 10 feet and I definitely can't pull off this look.
>>8050817
yeah it's weird, i feel gross sometimes for eating so much but i guess we're going through second puberty so it's okay Dx
>>8050819
try doing that in florida x-x
>>8050820
Fug lots of my friends play that too. I don't know why I don't since I'm such a blizzard fangirl
>>8050823
>size 10
you are like a little baby
SIZE 14
>>8050820
Also a good choice. I like how hots has dedicated healing characters unlike other games where support just means you have stuns. Li Li best girl btw not open for debate
how come when i tell people that murder is okay and there's technically no ethical issues with cannibalism everybody accuses me of offering poor advice
>>8050765
Yeah I know, I was being intentionally oblivious.
I wish you were right Sertii but I don't believe that worldview. I think our culture(s) have definitely come to recognize certain activities and things as feminine whilst other activities are inherently seen as masculine. We can acknowledge these associated ideas as being that and try to move past them in a sagelike manner but I feel thats distanced from reality. To 99% of people, these associates are a hard reality and they will perceive things as such.
It gets even weirder when you loo back at indigineous cultures where you had men who did feminine things and women who did masculine things: Or, did you? Because as far as I'm aware a man who acted in a feminine manner in an indigineous culture would come to be seen as a female in adulthood. The same would be true of a biologically female child who grew up a hunter, they would be seen as a male in adulthood. I believe indigenous tribes are a humans natural state, we presumably existed in ways far more similar to them for the majority of our existence before the dawn of civilization.
To them, the social construct is the ultimate reality. Which makes me believe that inherently, the social construct is also our ultimate reality- no matter how much western culture and enlightenment tries to get us to ground our reality in science its ultimately our interactions with others that form the basis of our existence. And to those indigenous folks a masculine woman, is a man, which means in theory if I play too many wargames I could accidentally detransition.
Perhaps Ive done too many hallucinogenic drugs, but I do believe that social constructs are a hard reality to a human soul.
>>8050796
Why tho
>>8050829
Its kinda fun, but no one seems to play it
>>8050831
That's not how you spell auriel
someone buy me some skinny jeans okay
>>8050834
because they haven't realised that nothing matters yet
>>8050818
Hmmh
I think you're right, actually.
So far I'm skeptic about having actual depression, because I feel like other people have it way worse and I feel like I'm just complaining for no reason
But that could also just be me having incredibly low self-esteem and it causing me to think that way of myself compared to others
i mean, i AM sad and stuff, but I guess I just doubt myself a lot :/
idk
>>8050826
yea
>>8050836
Just play the goddamn tabletop wargame.
>>8050849
i feel like it's all just going to my ass & bobs
>>8050806
Lol commies
>>8050852
i certainly hope mine does :/
my fat would always go to my tumtum before mones
>>8050857
You have posted this image repeatedly and I just wanted to inform you not one time have I expanded the thumbnail to even read the text.
>>8050851
but I don't like them.
>>8050836
>We can acknowledge these associated ideas as being that
But they aren't even that. People aren't born as tabula rasas, we have neurological structures that define certain behaviors, and if there's behaviors that all women with properly developed brains consistently engage in and properly developed men don't, then we can define that as a feminine behavior.
There's exceptions when peoples brains develop differently (see: trans people and feminists) but we're the exception, not the rule, and you can't redefine the gender of these social behaviors just because of some exceptions. The exceptions just have to suck it up and accept that they are men who engage in feminine activities or women who engage in masculine activities. Or avoid such activities if they don't want to be labeled as such.
>>8050859
You still take the time to reply though love.
I literally live in game of thrones land
I was happily telling my mom about everything, she got this notion I'm going to buy a big house and live with my brother and subsidize his rent, and she started asking for account access to my money.
Anyway I shut her down, and she kept acting weird, and then last night came right at me fist raised again
I held her arms this time after the first punch and just said that I won't let you hit me, I am doing this for both of our protection, I'm going to let go after your body calms down and it's safe.
She left threatening to watch me burn in hell, and that I'd never work for the police after she's done
This morning I recorded her call, she said she's building repor with the VA mental institution and she can have them come down and drag me away if I don't play nice.
I'm going to the police and the va today, and I'm working on having a number to call in case it happens.
>>8050858
Mine still goes there even after hrt, I'm jelly
>>8050857
i'm a syndicalist
also, idk what the text in that particular image had to do w/ us, in any way
>>8050858
well, i think i've been gaining & losing weight in cycles
what the heck
Chloe just got mad at me for answering the phone for poor depressed Kate Marsh!
>>8050779
That was an extremely Slaaneshi line of encouragement, I shall continue to play wargames when I wish then. If for no other reason than to please the Dark Prince.
>>8050805
I suppose thats true, and as much as I say wargames are super masculine- they're not nearly as masculine as like lifting weights or actual fighting.
I mean I guess you could look at it as a bunch of adults playing with arts and crafts followed by playing pretend with dolls. Very small plastic dolls.
>>8050870
i can't tell if it is or not x-x
>>8050843
If I ever get into it I'll play it with you cindy
>>8050859
>she can't read the text from the thumbnail alone
i hope that's without your glasses
>>8050873
i think ive been doing that too
i have no idea if it's working or not though lol
>>8050869
jfc
get away from that maniac
>>8050869
Becoming a cop makes you instantly undateable, fyi
>>8050830
I'm at the cutoff for what is considered large feet.
I can say without a doubt though that if certain looks don't work for me they deeefinitely won't work for someone with larger feet.
>>8050822
gender roles are a spook.
no activity is inherently masculine or feminine in any way.
>>8050823
this sounds complicated and now im kinda unsure
the boots i linked look pretty sleek and narrow
kinda like wearing high top converses i feel and i do >>8050796 with them and i have a size 12 with those
Maybe i do need to try them on but the closest LTS is in L O N D O N
>>8050836
>To 99% of people, these associates are a hard reality and they will perceive things as such.
maybe, not to you though, so you can play w40k without feeling like you're taking part in a masculine activity and be happy if you believe it.
>the social construct is also our ultimate reality
only if you believe in spooks too much. There's plenty of people that don't for this to not be an issue.
>I do believe that social constructs are a hard reality to a human soul.
they definitely weigh down on you, you can try to fight against that though for the sake of your own happiness instead of enforcing them.
>>8050840
... i mean you just put them inside there, there's not point lmao.
>>8050883
I would date a cop.
Just sayin'
please arrest my boipucci faye
>>8050878
I have a shitty monitor.
>>8050883
I wouldn't really want to date someone who had an issue with that
>>8050873
>i'm a syndicalist
Yeah well good luck with that lol.
>>8050875
Yeah its not super masculine and again, females might look odd out at a tabletop battle game but at least it aint like a guy at a teaparty or doing someones nails. People would be assuming all kinds of shit and probably harass or laugh depending on the situation. So you're good, overthinking way too much.
>>8050836
This seems legit though, people been trying to break those social constructs down lately though but its like trying to tell a human to stop perceiving the world with his senses.
>>8050869
Thanks for hitting enter twice after each sentence, I really enjoy having a 27 inch screen but still having your post cover half of it.
>>8050877
Sounds fun, thanks
>>8050848
there are alot of kinds of depression and other diseases that have similar symptoms so sometimes it's hard to say what it is.
I'm manic-depressive and during my depressive phases I go through lots of selfdoubt too even if my friends told me otherwise just a day ago.
>>8050816
don't do it senpai
>>8050886
ye
gonna have to get my shoes at those giant feet stores x-x
>>8050848
> I feel like other people have it way worse and I feel like I'm just complaining for no reason
you only think that because you associate with Anna a lot, who is melodramatic as fuck
i-is it possible for two boys to have sex with each other?
>>8050895
Mhm yeah I didn't think of that yet.
Thank you for sharing this with me and reassuring me, anon.
I hope things turn out okay for you.
>>8050906
no, it's actually never been done before, ever.
>>8050893
I'm reddit tier
>>8050836
Appearance constitutes reality. If you appear as a female and everyone thinks you are a female, then you are a one.
But is a man with a full beard and huge muscles acts like a woman, he is not seen as a woman. Appearance determines everything. Truth is irrelevant.
>And to those indigenous folks a masculine woman, is a man
Appearance determined the gender for them, not behaviour.
>>8050906
That's actually how Greek people reproduce.
>>8050903
i dont wanna make eva like me D:
>>8050875
Lifting weights is goat though
>>8050887
Idkk I find Chelsea boots don't really look very sleek at all on large feet but I've tried on some pretty frumpy looking ones. Also, while I love my converse, they are by no means sleek, they look like clown shoes even on people with pretty dainty feet.
The best advice I can give is just to not buy clothes online until you have a good sense of what does and doesn't work on you. Trying shit on is a must imo.
>>8050914
pepe is getting promo deals now?
>>8050888
They're slimy tattling motherfuckers you'd never want out in the middle of nowhere with beer, fire, debauchery, and fun.
My sister dated a cop once, tried arresting my cancer-ridden uncle at a wedding.
Also, he let her dog die after they broke up.
Can't trust em.
>>8050892
You wouldn't be dating them tho.
....
They wouldn't date you.
Lol
Also, are you sure it would be safe for your tiny self?
Especially if you go as a boy.
Ppl are more likely to harm male officers
>>8050906
https://m.imgur.com/gallery/QYTgH
>>8050903
No, not just because of Anna.
Even before I met her I felt this way. My sister is also depressed and she seems to have it worse, a friend of mine has it too etc
umu
>>8050917
of course
i-is it possible for two girls to have sex?
asking for a friend
>>8050925
sellout baka
>>8050915
just please don't complain about how your shoulders and jaw will never let you pass when you're around her lmao
>>8050916
shit, i guess you're right
oh well at least i'm going to london decently soon lol
>>8050922
>not just because of Anna.
ofc not but she's not helping anyone around her either lol
>>8050893
>but at least it aint like a guy at a teaparty or doing someones nails
>This seems legit though
Which one is it? You seem to agree that a guy acting feminine is weird while also agreeing that it's human nature to just accept a guy acting feminine because that's what indigeneous tribes do.
>>8050935
b-but she does comfort me and stuff
>>8050893
>implying syndicalism needs luck, or a nationstate
anarchists are okay
idk why internet marxists and anarchists like fighting each other so much
its probably just larping idiocy
>>8050946
Lastly,
I've never met a cop, male or female who wasn't compensating...
Closet dykes and men who were bullied with no fathers as boys.
Basically.
Not you.
Can't compensate after popping your first tittyskittle.
Sorry bb
You'd make a shit cop.
>>8050956
it's not unfounded!
>>8050961
-_-
>>8050945
There's less chasers right now, it's pretty nice
some new really nice posters too
>>8050907
thanks maybe they will. rn I just hope that I won't need to go to a mental health clinic.
>>8050966
ANNE
>>8050897
don't worry i'm not doing it right now or anything
i'm just sadposting because i'm not happy
the suicide will probably come after i'm not in group work for uni anymore
i don't wanna be a burden
>>8050961
well we've had this discussion many times now so i'm not going to go over this again
just don't spam the threads with your delusions :p
>>8050961
nim, please.
theres this cute cop i deliver to sometimes is it illegal for me to kiss him
>>8050977
acab
>>8050974
i found it interesting how Nier tried to gender female robots through their bowties and makeup and stuff and the default robot was assumed to be male
They need to rebuff lethality
>>8050956
definitely UwU
it was the first thing we ever (albeit ironically) discussed and I find it funny that it came up again
>>8050973
i cant stop x-x
>>8050982
ANNE.
>>8050972
what do you mean you lied to your friend about transitioning?
>>8050959
Oh you mean long term beat cops? Well guess where the good ones go? Specialized units you don't see
>>8050987
They need to nerf the champions that have been op for almost a year like Jayce
>>8050997
Maybe they could just create a balanced game where all heroes are viable and picked in pro play.
Oh wait dota already exists
>>8050988
>I find it funny
i really didn't
your (her?) current plans are also absolutely retarded but i'll stop talking about all this now
>>8050989
you'll have to put in conscious effort
do it for her
>>8050987
they need to buff twitch caitlyn jinx and auto attack adcs in general
maybe i'll start playing that shit game again
>>8051005
Dota isn't fun I played antimage only a few years ago and was 5k mmr
>tfw ur meeting with a prof in 5 hours and ur probably going to fuck it up
>>8050994
i'm saying that i'm transitioning and stuff
but i'm really not doing anything at all
>>8050947
>>8050893
so yea, i say let the communist have that luck.
they're the ones who need it lol
>>8051006
im gonna be in boymod all the time around her so it that might help
>>8051010
probably
just have fun
who cares?
>>8050987
DELTE this reeeeeeee lethality is finally balanced they need to buff crit adcs
>>8051010
how
>>8050992
yes?
>>8051011
:(
why not anon?
>>8051016
i highly doubt the viability of a "boymode" of you in 4 months lol
>>8051010
you are probably just nervous it will be alright.
>>8051024
stop making that face okay
Esports are not fun.
Is there a good cooperative multiplayer game that isn't competitive at all? I just wanna have causal fun with friends.
Also does anybody want to be my friend and play a casual non competitive multiplayer game with me?
>>8051010
Good luck, Elanna.
Throw that defeatist attitude in the can where it belongs though. Just remember to nail it and not nail him.
boobs wont stop growing please help
>>8051029
what face
god i really want to play twitch again
>>8051030
I think Overwatch is like that
I'm not a very good friend but I can try
>>8051025
fear?
self hatred?
inability?
something
i just can't do it
>>8051030
fucking casul git gud
>>8051037
FINISH NIER AUTOMATA
>>8051030
You can play every competitive game casual
>>8051027
my laser isn't gonna be done by then lol
>>8051021
By being nervous and incompetent and a poor candidate to be a student obviously
>>8051028
I hope sooo
>>8051017
I care this is my future yo
>>8051032
I'm not a defeatist!
>>8051042
yes ma'am i'll open it up right away !!!
>tfw almost out of Spiro
>tfw placed the order just today so I'll go a while with no E or AAs
how long before I start to masculinize again?
>>8051034
-_-
>>8051049
every student is gonna be nervous wtf
>>8051049
>I care this is my future yo
yeah but if you get it you'll get it
if you don't you won't
being a little bitch about it isn't gonna do you any good
btw, cartman, when are you gonna hurry up & transition?
>>8051056
Minecraft, l4d, the old rainbow 6 games
>>8051030
>implying that playing competitive is not casual
I only play competitive and I play it casually
>>8051056
>why raise cortisol levels by making them competitive? Cortisol inhibits estrogen.
Thanks for making me feel bad about being a tryhard.
>>8051040
maybe you could try taking hrt and not socially transition for a while?
at least you'll probably feel a bit better about your body if this is something that really bothers you...
>>8051052
stop making that face nim
>>8051056
how is cortisol released?
>>8051067
u first
>>8051014
>>8050947
>>8051069
-_-
>>8051061
Ty. Minecraft is like 3d terraria right? I had lots of fun in terarria.
>>8051063
I didn't mean casually playing competitive games, I meant playing games where my opponents are not human and the goal is overcoming obstacles as a team, not "winning". I mean I guess I could play a competitive game against bots? But even then the game is structured to be competitive.
>>8051064
Sorry anon. But it's true. Gotta stay back and chill
>>8051068
Stress. Which for me comes from competitive situations
>tfw size 13 feet
in mens ;_;
>>8051065
i don't know how much that would help though
i generally avoid myself entirely because i hate literally everything about me
hrt probably won't change that
>>8051049
that's how it always goes. at first you are nervous about it but it works out in the end because you are smart and you know your shit.
>>8051073
im gonna get mad at you omg
are buttplugs agp or trutrans hsts?!
>>8051071
>ancap colors
>"anarcho"-capitalism
>obsessed with fascist authoritarian
really makes u think
>>8051051
>long nails
make this meme stop, make it sop...
>>8051074
so does everyone wtf
they know people are gonna be nervous
>>8051082
for what i didnt even do nothing
>>8051080
hmmm
idk what to say anon
the thing that kinda propelled me to start was the thought that if I'm going to kill myself anyway....I might as well TRY hrt and see what happens
and I'm definitely happier now for what its worth
okay I'm going to informed consent wish me luck
I don't know what to be prepared for though
>>8051085
>french tips are long nails
>implying my nails aren't shorter than nearly every girl I bump into
pls dont comment on things you know literally nothing about. not having your nails super short helps to feminize your hands
>>8051089
you're making faces at me wtf
is programmer the best way to get a good paying job? please i need to start my life and ill learn this if i can get a job with a decent salary
>>8051085
Kinda long nails are nice >.>
>>8051094
I would love to know how that goes and what happens. I've never been to one but there is one like an hour away from me.
>>8051093
i can't motivate myself to do things with guaranteed results
let alone stuff which is a maybe
you don't need to say anything
i was sorta not expecting a reply
>>8051098
Probably, that what I'm doing.
I'm learning Java and Computer Science.
>>8051084
Both are better than liberal bullshit, and a nazi society can still exist in ancapitalism which is the beautiful part. Also, I didnt draw the pic.
>>8051098
become a pro ho desu
>>8051082
-_-
>>8051100
you know how they call a lesbian without clipped nails?
single
>>8051111
sertii not you too omg
>>8051097
i never did such a thing
>>8051096
They're nails, and they're long.
So they're long nails.
>pls dont comment on things you dont like
Excuuuuuuuse me, princess. I can voice whatever opinion I have. Don't nail-gatekeep me.
I hate long nails or fake nails or huge round earrings or shit like that.
>>8051100
that's fine. it's just not that great for holding objects or fingering people or... doing anything actually
>>8051098
It can be. I'm sure it depends on the local market though.
I have a friend that finished a two year programming course at the College here. The program is custom tailored to what local businesses are after and the work experience portion payed off her student loan with some left over. After school, she was hired by the University as the head database programmer making really good money.
>>8051120
yeah you did
every day wtf
>>8051102
Probably later today, it takes 2 hours for me to get there
I just kind of called and said I want to do informed consent and they told me when to come in no questions asked
They're probably used to hons and such though
>>8051116
Good thing I'm bi
>>8051121
They're pretty and they don't really get in the way that much ><
>>8051130
im shocked and hurt by these terrible accusations tbqh nim wow
WOW.
>>8051085
I like long nails on girls, as long as they're not fake nails. They look pretty feminine, and also it feels nice when they scratch your head.
How do I stop being emotionally numb
>>8051135
i h8 u
>>8051121
that's fine if you hate it but it isn't a meme that's for sure
>>8051105
just swallow a couple pills every day
not really much lost either way
>>8051139
I need to know the opposite of this
>>8051139
Take some of mine I am way too emotional lately ;_;
>>8051133
I mean they do get in the way a lot. you can't really clench your fist without stabbing yourself or being afraid you break your nail... And you can't even hold a mug with that.
Imagine really long toenails. That's how silly it looks to me
>>8051145
long nails are definitely a meme. I don't know how many times older women have said "you're not really a girl if you clip your nails".
>>8051139
Let me know if you figure it out. I thought estrogen would fix it.
>>8051139
listen to some lou reed
>>8051131
Really? I always thought I would have to go through a bunch of shit to scheduled an appointment.
>>8051142
dont say that ur the only person i like around here
Friendly reminder that long fake nails are for trophy wives and other people who don't ever have to use their hands.
>>8051159
this
and old 'cougars'
>>8051139
I've
become so nuuuumbb
>>8051159
I wish I had long nails but unfortunately this. They get so brittle from washing dishes and stuff and I use them as tools way too often
>>8051122
well you know your shit good enough to get to a school to teach you more. I mean you are interested in chemistry so much that you want to study it you must know alot about it.
>>8051152
if you think french tips are long nails or somehow inhibit any daily activity then yeah im going to call bullshit and assuming you're talking out of your ass. you can have nice nails that aren't clipped short that don't get in the way at all
t. someone with french tips that gets them often
>>8051159
not worth the struggle to put in/take out contacts desu
>last friday at the gender clinic
>>go tell everyone you're a tranny right now!
>>you can't physically tell you're a tranny yet so now is a good time :)
[stuttering intensifies]
>>8051159
that's why you keep them a reasonable length
>>8051166
if you have to worry about your nails, they obviously get in the way. But you probably don't use your hands for anything desu. You probably get other people to do shit for you.
wishin my brain wasn't the way that it is
>>8051171
picture above was not a reasonable length.
>>8051139
I wish I knew
>>8051152
Well I don't mind not clenching my fist, but I can still hold a mug
I just hold it the girly way with two hands
>>8051159
I don't get fake nails, they don't look as good as if you just take care of your nails imo and seem like more effort
>>8050851
B-but I'm like the only girl there and everyone stares at me....
>>8050864
Yeah, I generally agree with that. Like fighting is a masculine activity and childrearing is feminine. Women will still fight if they have to, and men will raise children if they have to, but its preferable in such a situation for the man to fight whilst the woman raises the child.
You're def right, we are the exception, I think that the social reality is far more real to us than the physical however. Not to mention with hormone treatment it brings into question what the physical reality is- my mentality and emotional state is that of a female, this is fact. Even if my hormones are XY, at this point the only masculine thing about my body is my genitals- and the only reason I havent gotten that fixed is due to monetary restraint. I am phenotypically female, a transman who has been on hormones is phenotypically male.
>>8050887
I suppose thats true, if I dont associate it with masculinity I can be female to myself- but Ive always been female to myself.
Its not that I believe in spooks, its that spooks have a real effect on my life and Im not strong enough to fight them.
Im not trying to enforce them, I just dont want to fight them. Fighting is masculine, after all.
>>8050893
You're definetly right, I know other female wargamers- they're very few and far between, though. Girls tend to gravitate towards RPGs and TCGs before wargames, but I guess so does everyone because the cost of entry for wargames is high.
And yeah just because something is a social construct doesnt take away from its reality in regards to us. Humans are social animals and inherently yearn for companionship and acceptance, thats why its so devastating to get misgendered. Other people accepting us as our preferred gender is far more important that if we accept ourselves, anyone who claims a contrary opinion is lying to themselves.
>>8050916
I just do crunches to keep a flat tummy~
I wish I could get long nails and not nervously chew them :c
>>8051172
>being this wrong
im literally a waitress and my entire job involves using my hands constantly. not one time have I had to worry about my nails or have they hindered my work in the slightest. you have a very warped definition of what constitutes ""long"" nails
>>8051178
>hold it with two hards
cute actually owo
but it would burn you if it's a hot drink tho
>>8051177
Hormones will probably make you more emotional, at least they did for me
>>8051157
omg rlly
>>8051179
>Fighting is masculine
moap you realize all the feminists that fought for women's rights were mostly women right
>>8051159
can i be one of those
>>8051184
They're ugly tho, if you're the person who posted her hands earlier.
It's just... eugh. Whenever I tried to grow my nails long and had them done correctly by a professional I felt so uncomfortable.
Just looking at them bothers me and kinda anger me, actually.
>>8051173
What is wrong with your brain? :(
>>8050996
You're grasping......
>>8051196
i like you too okay
anne is it okay to leave the house in a stained hoodie and not brush your hair
>>8051195
sounds like a personal problem not an issue inherent with having nails
What did I pass up on last night /mtfg/?
It was at the same park I picked up herion at
>>8051165
Yeah I like chemistry but I do think it will show that I haven't set foot in a lab in 2 years.
>>8051179
Have you considered planks?
They do the same as crunches but even more because they work your entire core
>>8051204
did u just walk to someone and asked if they had heroin?
>>8050913
I actually agree with you, looks are everything and dictate your reality. On one hand, thats my shallow narcissism bleeding to the surface, but on the other hand it is a cold truth. As an example, I am certain most average looking women would trade spots with Edie and become a transwomen if it meant they could be prettier and sexier.
I disagree with you about behavior however, I thinmk behavior is just as big a contributor to gender identification if not a bigger contributor than appearance. Even looking as I do, I would not pass if I walked around in a manly gait, sat with my legs open scratching my crotch, talked of sexual conquests, and drank beer with the fellas whilst watching football.
>>8051203
well it's obviously a problem having to do with nails, seeing long nails (yours are definitely long if they protrude from your finger), growing nails... it's just uncomfortable and disgusting to me.
It's like really huge earrings to me. It's just 'old woman who uses too much perfume and makeup' aesthetic
>>8051210
Yes.
>>8051204
those are not girl pills
>>8051212
Chatroulete said me and bitchdrake(such a bitch) where fighting over you moap
I just want to clear it up that we're not
>>8051214
that's some grade A autism right there. I suggest getting out more and hanging out with cis girls.
>>8051202
yeah sometimes i go days without brushing my hair
>>8051220
Yeah i don't want to hang out with people who make me uncomfortable with their longass nails no thanks
>>8051212
>I am certain most average looking women would trade spots with Edie and become a transwomen if it meant they could be prettier and sexier.
I'm certain they wouldn't, considering the cost of this is having a dick and being unable to bear children.
>>8051225
Ngl I'm not a huge fan of the long nails but you're acting kind of weird about it.
>>8051219
>Chatroulete
lmao
>>8051228
Long nails are the weird thing
>>8051214
Honestly this
I hate the look of long nails
>>8051179
>I think that the social reality is far more real to us than the physical however
Ehh I'd say that too depends on the person. There's neurological structures that define self-identification (for example this is how a person knows that their reflection is them). Again if those develop improperly your brain is going to be mapped for a physical body that is the opposite sex as to what developed. I think for some people, this aspect may be more intense than the behavioral cues (in fact they develop separately, so you could have male behavioral structures and female self-body mapping and be REALLY confused)
And of course none of these structures are strictly speaking binary, so you can end up with behavioral structures that are not strongly masculine and maybe be a man who engages in a few typically feminine behaviors, but otherwise is content with their maleness. After o learned that I stopped hating nonbinaries as much as I used to, though I do think they need to not co-opt the trans label.
Basically it's all these different structures, which develop mostly independently but the sum of which is kind of the threshold for tranny or not.
Tbh the more I learn about neuroscience the more sure I am that we (trans people) are not delusional, but just miswired. It's a shame more cis people aren't aware of the science, maybe we wouldn't be so reviled.
Long nails are kinda cute
>>8051240
agreed. personally I don't care for short nails and find them ugly and plain
>>8051234
thank you.
To clarify, it makes me so uncomfortable I can't stay close to a person playing or showing off their long nails on purpose.
It's kind of OCD, I want order, and the idea of something being longer than it should be bothers me. As well as the fact they can so easily break.
What bothers me in huge earrings, on the other hand is that they are huge and are 5th time the size of the person's ear. it looks wrong
tfw girl with ponos
>>8051209
hug brain (eww)
What's making you sad?
>>8051240
long natural nails = trutrans
long fake nails = AGP
short nails = bulldyke AGP
>>8051243
this is a feeling I know very well
>>8051233
No, caring at all about other people's nails is honestly the weird thing
>>8051250
Well call it a literally-autistic thing or whatever but it's really weird and makes me extremely uncomfortable.
>>8051207
isn't it hard to find a chemistry job with the degree you have rn? if yes the prof probably knows how people in your situation are
>>8051243
I'm happy someone saved my edit
liking anything: agp
disliking anything: agp
mtfg: stop liking what I dont like you agp fetishist reee
>>8051253
didn't know it was an edit just thought it was funny
you are very good at photo edit though
>>8051250
How dare you try to stop my conquest to obtain (you)s.
I went extra hard on the tree punching and pushups today cuz y'all said I was weak
Ima dip in like an hour to go to that job training thing and ask them about where I can get clean clothes and shower cuz I stink at this point
>>8051261
Thank you~
I'm not that great at editing pictures, but I'm glad you like it.
>>8051252
It is, but I generally assume most people do better than working in retail
>>8051251
Don't judge people for wearing the kayla-chic look
>>8051266
Newfags need to know
>>8051274
reeeee
>>8051272
Some people didn't even noticed the bottle in the background :>
>>8051271
Why not punch yourself in the face like a real tough person would?
>>8051219
Everyone fights over me at some point, its ok. One day my father will hold a grand tournament to settle it all, Im particularly interested to see Drake beat Birdie in the first rounds.
>>8051226
They would and might even consider those both to be benefits, depending on the girl in question. Lots of girls would consider sterility and an end to periods to be a gigantic bonus.
>>8051237
>Ehh I'd say that too depends on the person. There's neurological structures that define self-identification
Gives a lot of validity to transfolk self identifying as their own gender.
My position on nonbinaries is still one of pick a gender to identify as but its ok to have traits of the other gender. Its just a social thing, we identify people as male or female upon meeting them and thats the social reality- and Ive already voiced how I believe the social reality is relatively more real that physical reality.
I dont care about the science desu, the validity of trans identity is irrelevant to how I will present. I will always grow my hair out, wear dresses and makeup, and work hard to maintain a soft blemish free appearance.
I do agree with your theory however, I think when we come up with the hard science on the miswired brain pathways we will push transpeople away from the LGB label and under the intersex label instead, which is how I feel it should be anyways desu.
>>8051240
I miss my french manicure, desu my nails are long enough again I just need to call the salon...
>>8051246
my body is never gonna change and i'll always have dysphoria
even if i didn't have dysphoria, i'd probably still kms because there's no reason for me to live at all
like fuck i stopped going to school a while ago because it felt like there was no point
>>8051278
I'm paranoid again ._.
>>8051289
sorry D:
>>8051284
Honestly I'm kinda in a same situation I just don't see the point of anything in life. Hope it gets better for you though.
delet delet delet did not know glooms was itt
It's gonna be ok glooms
>wake up
>scroll down
>hmmm that is a dick
>is that real or a cake or something
>nope its real
Okay, well then. What's everyone's adventerous plans for today?
>>8051274
I don't think doing better doesn't mean anything unless they have a chemistry related job or more experience than you have. how do you know others are doing better anyway?
>>8051290
bean you need to really clean your bepis, like really hard cleaning. And maybe shave or trip your pubes too. This doesn't look appetizing.
tfw qt af new jersey neighbor girl almost remembers ur birthday exactly..
she was in a car accident recently..im going to bring her some flowers...
Go to government office for job training thing.
Visit ocean to wash up.
Eat.
>>8051299
>>8051280
Ahh I think I misunderstood what you meant about social reality being more important than physical. I think I see what you mean now.
Mhm, re: Nonbinaries I do agree, because socially we have 2 genders (not sure but this is probably a neurological thing as well, it would make sense I just don't know for sure if there's any science about it). It sucks for them though, that their brains don't match social realities.
And, I'm definitely at the peak of the dunning-kruger curve here, this is all broscience and my own ideas about how this all works. But I think it makes sense, from what I've learned so far. I hope someday someone can get published research. I'm with you that I don't need science to justify anything, but lots of cis people insist on it :\
>>8051305
trim*
>>8051071
>i don't like this person's convictions
>let's throw them off a helicopter
"now you see the violence inherent in his system."
how are you any different from sjws's?
it's also really rich seeing an ancap trying to tell others how to govern themselves & fantasizing about coercing them to do so w/ violence.
such a disgrace to anarchism
>>8051147
it would be more getting the pills though
sitt
>>8051307
congrats u now smell like fishy water
>>8051313
>:3
>>8051177
I don't even feel empathy really currently :/
>>8051305
Maybe you just don't like Cock
>>8051308
Kinda like English but with less meaning
>>8051313
>>8051306
Wack her with that stick you took on ur bike ride yesterday
>>8051310
Anarchism is a fucking JOKE
"Oh lol let's smash shit
b-but at the same time also abuse society and big daddy government just like literally everyone else"
Go live in the woods then pussys
>>8051313
:/
How?
I go to Santa Monica beach Cuz it's only one train I need to hop and that's super easy if you're constantly looking out for cops and Metro security
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH EVERYBODY
http://a.co/729JKBV
>>8051321
Better than what I smell like rn
Smelling like the ocean is good, it's a good smell.
I'd confidentiality go out with a girl if I smelled like the sea
Bet she'd dig my aquaman vibe too
>>8051325
I love cock. clean yours
>>8051327
it's you!
>>8051294
>Hope it gets better for you though.
you too
sometimes i think about art
when i was a kid i wrote stories and drew pictures and stuff
now if tried drawing something what would it even be
there isn't anything about myself to express because i'm just so dead
>>8051310
Violence is the cure to conflict, violence has been the supreme judge of disputes since the beginning of times. Compromise and coexistance has been the outlier and oddity.
>>8051271
>punches tree
>no blood
Weeeeeeeeeak
>>8051212
>I disagree with you about behavior however, I think behavior is just as big a contributor to gender identification if not a bigger contributor than appearance. Even looking as I do, I would not pass if I walked around in a manly gait, sat with my legs open scratching my crotch, talked of sexual conquests, and drank beer with the fellas whilst watching football.
I understand. My main point was that if you looked like a woman but behaved like a man, you were still seen as a woman. And the other way around.
Care to explain more about the behaviour stuff? I'm really interested about your opinion.
>>8051295
The winner of the tournament doesn't like win me romantically or win my hand in marriage something. You'd win me, like an object, and could do whatever the law allows you do with me- you'd be totally free to seek out other women for companionship.
Also your dick was a 4/10, id give it a 3 but you were uncut at least.
>>8051308
It does suck for them, but at least they arent hated as much as we are.
And eh you might have some details wrong but I agree with the general idea of your theory: there is an undiscovered physical real cause to gender dysphoria and its probably some neurological mumbo-jumbo.
>>8051327
awwwwww
the burg one is so cute
>>8051327
Ohh Zna showed them to me yesterday, but they want 45$ shipping here so I can't afford any :(
But soo many cute plushies!
http://squishables.com/
>>8051304
I mean I think that's what I mean when I say doing better.
Then again I haven't really kept in touch with my classmates and the other undergrad that was in the group ended up just doing their master's anyways instead of entering the workforce so I guess with that in mind I'm not much behind
>>8051332
Ur hilarious
Just let me smell like sea water dam
If it makes me happy..
>>8051334
Make me
>>8051339
I snuck into that hotel I was talking about the other day again and got away with like a whole 40 of ice cold beer right off the tap
>>8051345
Ok asshole ima ouch them so hard my hands bleed ull see
>>8051327
Too bad the massive one is sold out :<
>>8051356
please don't post dicks here this is a blue board :(
>>8051325
that's not really what anarchism is
also there are lots of anarchist and primitivist land projects lol
>>8051353
OH MY GOD I NEED THAT FOX AND SHRIMP ROLL ONE
THESE ARE SO EXPENSIVE THOUGH
>tfw you look sick
>>8051347
I don't agree, and think that realistically without hormone treatments or plastic surgery that there we almost none if any indigenous transpeople that passed to our standards. Their gender identity came entirely from their behavior, even dressing feminine and having girly hair is a behavior when you think about it. We know tis because of European accounts of new tribal cultures immediately identifying the transfolk as men dressed as women or women dressed as man. Passing doesn't even seem to have been a real concept to indigenous peoples.
>>8051367
Rini liked the shrimp roll too :3
I really wish I could have them all! But I can't afford any of them :(
>>8051376
>$40 for a stuffed plush
reeeee
>>8051356
>Ok asshole ima ouch them so hard my hands bleed ull see
Hahaha as somebody who used to punch trees, cars, and walls until my hands were bruised and bleedin; stop. Just stop. When you get to the point where you can't unfist your hand because yojr fingers no longer move due to all the damage you'll realize that it wasn't worth.
Now I only cut myself tho so whatever
>>8051382
uwu
>>8051382
No beep
I'm used to be from jersey and it's a shithole.
Only good thing there is is wawa
Good evening ladies,
I come to you in search of love and companionship.
We all know it, life is a mangy whore and, to be honest, in these everyone stabs everyone in the back for personal gain days, you really can never have enough friends, true friends.
So let me tell you all a little about me,
I am a 21 year old male artist who lives in Europe, currently studying abroad, but I'd traverse any ocean to meet the love of my life and I'd be lying to you all if I didnt say I have a slight preference for mtfs, there's something about you all that is just so adorable.
That being said I'm currently finishing my university education in 2 months but I plan on continuing my studies whilst travelling.
Some of my greatest passions are cooking, mostly italian cuisine, traditional artisanal crafts like wood cutting, stone sculpting and metal working and last but not least, tabletop games in general, mainly Warhammer and pen and paper roleplaying games.
Life can be intimidating, I currently live alone and coming home to a dark empty and cold room is heart crushing and, by this point, I just want someone to love,
someone is loyal and who will love me as much as I love her,
someone with whom I can do everything and nothing with and sit in a call all day, even if we do not speak,
someone who will cook for me and care for me when I come home, be either from work or from shovelling snow outside of our, would be, front garden,
but firstly someone whom I can call my best friend and greatest companion, someone who will stay by my side through best and worst.
So, ladies of /mtfg/, if any of you are interested, even if you don't want a lover but merely a friend to talk to, then please be my guest, my email is [email protected]
If you are not, feel free to ignore this post.
My best regards to all of you and I wish you the best that life can offer, we're all going to make it one day ^^
>tfw u cant post ur penis on the internet for attention anymore
>>8051363
It just seems stupid
Why don't you want to be a contributing member of society and make something of urself you literal child doesn't matter that it doesn't fit in anyone else's world view as long as it makes YOU happy and ur not abusing others
>>8051362
I'll stop, sorry.
>>8051350
I don't want you. You'd probably get lost on the first day with me.
And then I'd have to feed you.
No, nu-uh those two weirdos can have you I'm good just sitting here playing pretend with my other rpers
And if you don't worship my Penis I definitely don't see this working out at all
>>8051394
ENGLAND?
>>8051398
Thank you
>>8051355
yeah most other students are probably somewhere where you are too rn because why should you put too much effort into another career aside from surviving when you want to do your masters anyways? and why would you not want to do you masters unless you get lucky and get a nice job in your field with a somewhat good future and enough pay.
>>8051394
fuck off lol
anyone else just wanna lie down and die
>>8051400
Right below you, same time zone, the legendary land of Portugal.
>>8051394
Can you swallow a ballpark hotdog whole?
Please upload a webm of you deepthroating a hotdog so I know that I'm not wasting my time
>>8051394
Good luck in your search for love.
>>8051412
Please tell me what is so good about NJ?
>>8051384
Ur stupid
"Oh ima do self harm cuz my life was so bad and mommy didn't love me that'll show society how edgy and real I am"
I'm punching trees cuz some one told they punch trees to get there fists hard for training for a fight.
I want to be ready to slug a bitch and run if I get caught in a bad situation cuz I'm out in the street a lot doing drugs and stuff
>>8051394
Ur gonna get replies and bites just don't be an asshole and if you like dick just be upfront about it and don't try to hide shit cuz it'll come out in the end anyway
Good luck and don't be a creep
>>8051284
Your skeleton isn't going to change and you will probably always have some dysphoria, but your body is going to change and your dysphoria will become more manageable as it does. Hormones can do a lot, like I was a fat disgusting blob and not even remotely feminine at all and I'm old. My body actually looks okay now and it's still changing. The things you can't change you just have to learn to accept. It's terrible and it hurts but we have to try and make the best of what we have.
There has to be something you enjoy doing, or used to enjoy doing? We create our own purpose in life; no one is going to give that to you. I certainly struggle with this and as miserable as I am I know things will get better eventually. Try and find something to look forward to, some kind of goal or something you are passionate about and ride this out until you get there.
Please don't give up on school, it's too important. It's stupid and a lot of it is pointless but it's a rite of passage and you need that piece of paper to do anything worthwhile in the adult world. I don't want to sound like an after school special, but I dropped out in highschool. It destroyed my life and I've been living in poverty ever since. It's a really difficult thing to recover from, especially if you have other problems in your life.
>>8051410
I would love to
>>8051418
keansburge was really fun when i was a kid and ive had at least 3 crushes that were from there that were all tiny, and adorable af. i like the tough girl do it yourself attitude that they all have
>>8051403
Idk a lot of people use their chem degrees to get unrelated work and then go "oh, this desk job sucks maybe I should continue onward" because lord knows without an internship you're not getting a chem job.
Plenty of them had internships though so it's not outside the realm of reason.
What should I add to the pack!
>>8051394
Do you have access to obsidian stone, a laser or hydro cutter, CAD, and a laser dot print setup and stain glass knowledge? If yes we can hang out. See, I'm trying to kill myself this year so I want to have my grave stone ready. I want it to be black stone with a glass orb cut through the center with the Great Hummingbird Octopus Dragon inside. And then some stained glass injected to the center, which will probably have to be the first step, then the laser cut, then the obsidian sculpt, and then fit the glass inside.
pls respond
>>8051411
What's it like living in a country with all legal drugs?
I wish it was tomorrow
I need it
>>8051434
Why do you care so much about a grave stone? When I die I couldn't care less.
>>8051437
iktf ;-;
>>8051434
Don't kill urself
>>8051433
WHY DOES MY PHONE ALWAYS UPLOAD PICTURES UPSIDE DOWN AHHHH
>>8051430
>keansburge
North jersey
I was expecting you to say ocean city or wildwood
>>8051356
cleaaan your peen bean. it's something you're /supposed/ to do. Like every peen owner
>>8051437
Iktf
New stellaris dlc is out tomorrow
I MISS RAIFU I MISS RAIFU I MISS RAIFU I MISS RAIFU I MISS RAIFU I MISS RAIFU I MISS RAIFU I MISS RAIFU I MISS RAIFU I MISS RAIFU I MISS RAIFU I MISS RAIFU I MISS RAIFU I MISS RAIFU I MISS RAIFU I MISS RAIFU I MISS RAIFU I MISS RAIFU I MISS RAIFU I MISS RAIFU I MISS RAIFU I MISS RAIFU I MISS RAIFU I MISS RAIFU I MISS RAIFU I MISS RAIFU I MISS RAIFU I MISS RAIFU I MISS RAIFU I MISS RAIFU
>>8051441
Because you don't know how to work your iPhone
>>8051444
I haven't showered in going on two weeks
Whatever you just don't like my Penis that's ok
Ima dip and buy another sub and shit and. Then go over to that government office and I need to be looking for work also.
But I smell.
See ya
>>8051450
It's a Galaxy s6
>>8051441
Same
On the computer they're right side up, but when I upload them on here they're sideways
So that friend that was in the Sennaya Ploshchad bombing is confirmed dead now.
>>8051432
idk how the prof is but I would guess it's better that you are interested in chemistry than people who just go on because they want a better job. did you had interships?
>>8051455
Simple and easy way to fix it.
Slighty crop the photo and it will resign itself
>>8051462
Aww
You okay?
Being close to my love hurts
Being away from my love hurts
It doesn't matter what I do I get hurt
Why can't she love me
Why can't I not love her
I only want the pain to be gone
hugg anna tightly
Where is Raifu, where did she go?!?!?!?
>>8051398
their idea is that in this society there is basically no way to live without being abused or abusing others, whether you mean to or not
your perspective is basically life is shit but we should do nothing and keep doing all the shit things. theirs is life is shit so we should try to change it to be better
also sry can't rly reply im at work lol
I think I've come to the conclusion that I should just save up for an orchiectomy, quit hrt, and just live life as a castrated man instead of pretending to be a girl. Thoughts?
>>8051482
OSTEOPEROSIS
>>8051465
Nope, I never had an internship. The extent of my related work experience was as a summer research assistant, although I got a dope senior project paper out of that that I'm going to bring along
Idk, my story is that I had a quarter life crisis after my undergraduate degree and fucked around for a year in a diploma program at a technical school because I doubted everything I wanted to do with my life but now I'm back on track and ready to finish what I started, given I had been trying to set myself up to go as far as earning a PhD
>>8051438
Here I made a better version.
>>8051482
terrible idea
>>8051485
The risk of osteoporosis is significantly overblown. Maintain good health and nutrition and you should be fine.
>>8051492
Do a flip
>>8051494
Oh also you can't live without sex hormones so if you get castrated you're gonna have to take pill hormones
any last minute advice for me, I'm leaving to convince doctors to give me girl pills for the first time, not sure if I'm prepared
>>8051499
Life won't be easy or fun but it's doable. Many a eunuchs were made in history and they usually lived long lives.
I hate being alive. All this was a mistake. I'll never look i want to look.
>>8051504
Plenty of people have lived without sex hormones that's not a reason I shouldn't.
>>8051497
I just wanna know what happened to raifu I miss her very much
>>8051510
Why wouldn't you want to transition anyway?
>>8051509
lol
>>8051503
Dont let them talk you into "just trying estrogen at 1mg for 2 months". Demand you start with testosterone blockers too. Some shitty old white male doctors might meme you into birth control doses, don't let them.
Do you have an endocrinologist appointment? Does your gp do transgender care? Have you passed through a psyche gate keeper?
>>8051489
I'm actually already dead I haunt a cemetery.
>>8051512
Didn't she kill herself
Or die
Or something
Or was that someone else
>>8051516
Go ahead and laugh at me like everyone does
>>8051482
Orchis are scary as fuck to me. Maybe it works out for you. If it doesn't you could always start hormones again and you wouldn't need blockers.
>>8051509
*spoilers*
No one does
>>8051517
It's informed consent I haven't done anything but call and make an appointment with them
>>8051509
Sempai you are the reason I even bother to transition (._. )
>>8051520
If you insist friend.
Heh
>>8051512
Stop using sophie's images you're confusing me
>>8051526
You're going to be just fine you're in good hands.
BRING A NOTE BOOK AND PEN! and ask lots and lots of questions so 4chins doesn't have to give you meme answers later (I've asked so many here usually we do give good answers).
>>8051486
a great paper should be as good if not better than some internships. it shows that you can do it but you just had some difficulties along the way. it's never too late to finish what you started I've seen people older than you and with worse fuck ups getting their lives back together.
why am i sad again jfc
>>8051531
I honestly thought about doing the same but I was self medding and I have no clue how I would go to a urologist and just be like "trust me I'm a tranny I want an orchi".
a l m o s t
>>8051540
There are some docs who will do it no questions asked. I can think of at least one. My biggest problem atm is just saving up the money for it.
How do I feel like a girl
>>8051527
Like everyone here you probably look light years better than me
>>8051553
lol show a picture without makeup or angles
Most of us have it worse, only a few have it better.
>>8051535
Hindsight is serious shit though like idk it wasn't the worst fuck up but in retrospect it was pretty stupid.
Here's hoping
I don't know if she has funding for a student right now anyways although we'll see. I'll just b myself and hope that's enough
>>8051548
tuck ur peepee between ur legs and dance to goodbye horses
>>8051556
>show a picture without makeup or angles
Fuck that
>>8051546
Really? How much does an orchi usually cost? I literally didn't look anything up about it since I figured I couldn't get one while self medding.
>>8051533
I just miss raifu alot, she disappeared
>>8051560
I think around three through four thousand dollars, but yeah there are some docs who give orchiectomies not even to trannies but just dudes who want to be eunuchs
>>8051559
AnComs arent real anarchists tho
>>8051560
Orchi = no balls = no srs ever right?
>tfw your friend asks to meet up with you in NYC when you're gonna be like a year and a half on HRT
>>8051564
I'm gonna have to look for a doctor like this. Too bad I don't have the money for it atm.
>>8051422
yeah i used to enjoy things, and i still hold those interests i guess, but i don't enjoy anything anymore, which adds to the feeling of pointlessness
and i'm aware that fucking up highschool is bad but like it won't matter if i'm dead
>>8051566
I doubt I will ever have the money for srs anyways so it wouldn't bother me much.
>>8051561
*patpatpat*
>>8051569
tfw nim will never meet up with you
>>8051571
Depression sucks I can't really help you with that since I'm always depressed too.
>>8051565
for the last time, i'm not a communist.
i'm a syndicalist
>>8051588
hugg
my pretty cis relative told me all the reasons I was gonna be prettier than her
also cooked me several delicious home cooked meals and got me fat again
i'm not planning to steal her totally adorable children
>>8051572
don't be silly kayla
>>8051587
ya prolly not desu
>>8051557
everyone does stupid stuff at some point in their lives. with some things you just have to learn it that way.
yeah just go there and b yourself and it should work out. if she hasn't enough funding you can't do anything about it that would just be bad luck.
Just finished my exam! Took 2 hours but hopefully I managed to get atleast a B!
>>8051589
Syndicalism is retarded, basically saying that you want to get rid of corruption by becoming the corruption
>>8051589
as leftist anarchism goes, we're among the farthest to the right, & the most libertarian
>>8051596
a two hour exam sounds so stressful x_x
>>8051572
You're not ugly, Kayla, chill out. We're all going to make it.
>>8051600
Yes I was literally like
>>8051598
have you even read a wikipedia article about it. your descripyion could be applied to any theory.
i think you're the one that's retarded
>>8051599
>anarchism
>ULTRA-anarchism
i really wanna know the difference
>>8051607
There is only one solution for you
>>8051605
>chill out
I've been out of xanax for a week and no refill, im so anxious and so worried i will never get to go fulltime. If I could be fulltime i could be happy
Is it just me or does Grace actually pass a lot better than Kari now?
DAE feel like Grace is dating down?
>>8051610
wtf are you even saying?
are you insinuating that i said something that i didn't say?
idk maybe i made an error about saying most libertarian in reference to any school of anarchism.
that must be it
>>8051618
using violence means you're threatened....
by someone who believes in non-aggression
So, since singing that out of the blue along with my speech therapist this morning didn't seem too bad, I did record it and pass it through a basic chain (I'm too lazy to hook up a proper recording setup so I use the crappy built-in laptop mike and I fucking hate the raw output of that thing...), just to hear how I could sound. So, not too shabby, definitely unsteady and forcing too much air through, though. We'll have to spend more sessions on fixing that, I guess.
https://clyp.it/udqvuya5
>>8051622
It's okay just wait a few weeks
>>8051571
That sounds like depression and I really hope you will talk to a therapist about it, if you can. It's very easy to get trapped in negative thinking until that becomes normal and a therapist can help you get past that and help you to train your brain towards more positive thoughts. You can do this on your own as well, but it's easier with help.
HUGGS
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KxGRhd_iWuE
>>8051596
Hopefully! You've been studying a lot though, right? I'm sure you did great.
>>8051619
Honestly you probably could go full time in all the pictures you've posted you look fine
>>8051632
I'm no where near done with electrolysis yet. I can't shackle myself to having to cake on makeup forever. If my rent didn't go up I woulf be fine but im getting only one three hour session a week.
>>8051624
The NAP only applies to people stupid fucking commie
>>8051619
Stop relying on drugs as a crutch and figure out how to manage your anxiety
>>8051624
>wtf are you even saying?
i'm referring to your little chart you posted
>>8051643
My anxiety is because my horribly intense facial hair. Funny thing is I tuck my dong perfectly and it doesn't worry me but i cant control my beard and it makes me want death.
she tucc
not me though, it sounds scary
trapp fucc wit a tite tucc
tfw dicc 2 bigg 2 tucc
>>8051569
i wanna save money to travel to seattle some time next year
i will probably already be fulltime by then so that'll be fun i guess
>>8051651
Yeah beards suck especially if you have light skin dark hair like me
>>8051657
same
>>8051642
you're calling me stupid?
i don't need to defend my materialist philosophy with threats of violence.
it certainly isn't the 1st course of action that i'd take.
if you're so smart, why can't you come up w/ any arguments other than proposing the defenestration of your political opponents, you psychopath?
>tfw u learn that the chemical element with atomic number of 118 was officially named last year
wtf my periodic table is outdated bullshit now
>>8051651
Got to admit that in the first months after I went full-time, when I wasn't done yet with laser, the few times I got clocked came from partying so late the shadow was clearly showing. Definitely a Cinderella effect...
>>8051599
national socialism is a variant of fascism though, why is it to the left in this compass, its an authoritarian far right ideology
>>8051651
Stop relying on drugs either way because avoiding your problems doesn't help in the long run
Why not move away from Cali and live somewhere cheaper
>>8051663
ur a nerd
>>8051662
>responds using ad hominem
not an argument
Is there a voice training chart? Like something that tells me everything I have to do in order to get the perfect female voice?
>>8051663
Putting a vanity name on element 118 is as useful as on random asteroids or endemic microfauna species.
>>8051666
I don't wanna move, I love the area and my bf lives only 5 min away. I just wish someone woulf buy my race bike, if I finally sold it I could finish all my electrolysis and then my insurance will cover a boob job and then I would totally go fulltime
>>8051662
>>8051674
Can't help with that. I did by trial and error and everything fell into place pretty quick. By the time I got voice therapy covered, I was told that my voice didn't need further feminizing, so...
>>8051680
Just have your mom sell her house :^)
>>8051663
what does it do
>>8051680
Might have to lowball yourself on the bike then. Money's tight these days for everyone, it's not easy to just get a used racing bike as a luxury.
>>8051679
no im cool
>>8051689
it falls apart lol
I'm a transsexual rapper anarchist :V
>>8051694
that's no good
>>8051684
I feel like i need a lot more work but my speech therapist says it's okay...
>>8051694
it me
>>8051694
isnt that basically all of the big number elements though
>>8051679
That's a taxonomist's POV. The aforementioned endemic species? All field entomologists I've met used a collective name along the line of "little green shits".
anyone have experience meeting an old friend like a few years into transition
>>8051708
Not yet, but I really want to troll a couple people I used to know >.>
>me: "hmm my laptop's casing is falling apart, I know, I'll fix it with superglue"
>dyspraxia: hahaha no
>>8051713
Fucking same
>>8051700
I still need work, just not on sounding more feminine, only more general voice quality issues. I think the clyp I just posted shows I really shouldn't push my pitch any higher.
>>8051703
Yeah p much, after a certain point they just won't last beyond a few milliseconds
>>8051696
Nope, lazy fucking nucleus needs to get its shit together
>>8051688
I think it's neat considering that I remember them just having unofficial names for the longest time and suddenly there's been a bunch named. Cool stuff
>>8051705
They let you interact with people at the nuthouse?
>>8051706
lmao ok
>>8051718
Oh wow I just looked at a periodic table for the first time like 2 years and all the 113+ have names now instead of nunbnubnunuubunbunbunbubium
WHAT YEAR IS THIS
>>8051708
Yeah, a few who are working cashier jobs around where I grew up. They just didn't recognize me, I was obviously a female stranger to them. Going to an alumni meetup this fall. That should be fun. They already knew I was trans back then, though, so that won't be a shock.
>>8051700
That means you need more work. Voice therapists don't want you to kill yourself and lie (and also want you to keep paying them). I've had 3 and purposefully done poorly and said "I think I improved" and they all said definitely. I put off voice training actually today is day 1 presenting female (read also: low androgynous range) voice and its actually not bad just from fucking around in my car all these weeks.
>>8051708
My friend Sean moved to Florida before I came out and I'm not on any social media so I don't think he knows. When he visits again next year I'm going to "send my girlfriend" to meet him. I will need more SJW glasses though or he'll recognize me.
>>8051716
Jesus this will be hilarious. How is your voice?
>>8051718
You know I worked for years before burning out. And I've been out of that clinic for a year.
been seeing a lot of tall women today
thought I saw a hon but I think she was just a cis woman dressing like a hooker lol
>>8051727
How have you been CFH?
>>8051728
>How is your voice?
Horrible like every other part of me
>>8051735
that's squeak she also had a lesbian relationship with princess Diana
>>8051731
Doing fine. Bit busy with real life lately, so I'm not posting much.
>>8051734
At least you're self aware.
>>8051730
I've been noticing this lately too, women 5'8" aren't too unusual at all.
>tfw want a bigg torrent for a movie but I can only find 7GB ones on Rutracker which download at 10kb/s
REEEEE
How come post ops are the most cattiest fucks?
>>8051721
look, if you don't want to bother elaborating on how i'm wrong, then how am i supposed to be convinced?
>>8051735
Uh, I'm not Syndie. And I don't think she ever claimed to have slept with him.
>>8051746
They only named them I think, there would probably be no way to keep them stable long enough for any kind of use.
>>8051742
>women 5'8" aren't too unusual at all
im so pissed oh my god
Thats not a pic of me lol
>>8051315
thats like the easiest part anon!
just go to hrt gen and look at the OP image, all the info for the websites are there
>>8051744
I'm a big cat. Roar!
>>8051734
actually your voice is really good
>>8051703
Kind of yeah
There needs to be a balance of electrons and neutrons for it to be most stable.
Only few are in the balance zone and its supposedly represented as a small "island".
If I remember all of the atoms past Uranium are all artificially made.
>at chill trans support group (<25s only)
>special guest is a gay rabbi from New York
>talks about how his dad was in the RAF in Dorset and was the most old-fashioned posh officer type imaginable
>when his dad died they went to the funeral and there were shitloads of trannies and crossdressers there outnumbering the family
>turns out the dad had been living a double life for the past few decades and was a hugely respected figure in the local queer scene and had been repressing from transitioning the entire time
fuck
>>8051714
whoops trip on
>>8050869
WHY ARE YOU STILL NEAR HER?
>>8051752
I see some women taller than me too, not often, but they're out there. You're in the top 0.1% but if you get voice and hair and makeup and everything else down well, you should be fine. I've never had to question whether the 6'0" women I see are cis women or not.
women 6'1" aren't too unusual at all
Is it just me or does Grace actually pass a lot better than Kari now?
DAE feel like Grace is dating down?
Is Birdy going to finally get rid of Kari?
>>8051721
>>8051745
hell, i might actually consider how throwing people off helicopters is a justifiable approach to someone disagreeing w/ you in general, if you can just explain it
>>8051764
what is this post
>>8051739
Mmmm thats good, busy with boys I hope?
>>8051760
Thats actually really sad, I feel bad for people who never got the chance to transition.
>>8051768
>what is this post
spam :(
>>8051765
>alinsky rule no.4
oh my goodness such crisis
>>8051761
i guess but i don't want to be in the top 0.1%
>>8051762
what about ones with male skeletons
>>8051743
umu
>>8051770
Boys? I'm neither into males nor a cradle snatcher.
>>8051768
Some fat loser who wont dare show his face stirring up drama, just ignore it.
>>8051776
I used to get pissy over things like my skeletal shape and height and obsess over how I could never pass because of it.
If you literally cannot change some things about your body, focus on what you can change.
so did we ever find out if burch died?
either way its nice he stopped posting
>>8051779
's okay I have enough stuff to watch on there bby
>>8051770
yeah I know
fucking scary
>>8051765
Worked in Chile
>>8051765
Throwing people off helicopters isn't fun enough for that. This is better. https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Drownings_at_Nantes
Okay so I finally got my hormones from QHI after 4 weeks and
It wasn't the USPS guy that delivered it was someone else
Apparently USPS sent it to a completely wrong address and the person felt compelled to drive to me and give it to me themselves
My address is like clearly printed it's not even mistakeable what the hell
It was probably stuck in customs for 2 weeks too
Am I the only one disgusted in the lgbt community?
I really don't want any part of it outside this board. Is that wrong of me? I got a call today from my clinic and there was some trans event next week and I was all like "yeah no..."
>>8051801
internalized transphobia is common unfortunately
>>8051801
Trans specific groups, kind of. LGBT at large, no. I wouldn't go out as much if not for dyke dives.
>>8051772
>hypocrisy is a good reason to kill someone
no, that wasn't what i was looking for.
even assuming i am a hypocrite, you've basically admitted that you'd rather not make any appeals to anyone, no, it's just better kill them instead.
i'll just freely assume that you've abondoned the pretense of being reasonable @ this point
>>8051801
many people hate themselves and project that on others
i for one am kind of excited for the amsterdam pride parade
>>8051801
You're honestly doing them a favor by not going
>>8051780
You need to get over your fear of men, CFH. What you really need to fix your life is a mans penis, havent you watched romantic comedies?
>>8051789
Terrifying really, Im glad I was able to come out as a teenager.
>>8051801
Same boat, I'm actually disgusted with this board even. I'm disgusted with you in particular, you're part of the problem.
>>8051812
Elanna~ <3
>>8051812
no chill
>>8051812
Yeah and your a heartless wretch who gets off on making people without srs feel like shit
>>8051819
Dude like Eliot you still don't get that you need to be full time before you can pass, just give the fuck up youll never make it. Anyone else in your shoes would be full time passing two years ago.
>>8051801
The idea that you can take a bunch of ragatag warped sexualities and throw them all into one community and expect complete cohesivity is stupid
I want to transition and live a nice quiet life
I don't want to be a part of stupid parades that clog up downtown cities
I don't want to be running around in leather or latex or just a tiny thong waving around dildos screaming this is how to express ourselves
I don't want to drag around kids in bondage gear and exposing them to adults fucking in public or getting as close to it as possible
I don't really feel compelled to hang out with most other trans people because it's rare for them to give a shit about passing
I don't want to live as a tranny I want to be a woman and post-transition there's like no reason to be a part of the LGBT "community".
Seriously though what are those stupid events and parades supposed to teach people or express to anyone at all besides the fact that the LGBT community is full of risky, overly sexualized behavior
Most LGBT people have no concept of identity outside of their sexuality, like, if you ask someone who/what they are, their answer will be, gay, lesbian, tranny, etc. Usually pretty boring people.
Maybe I'm another internalized transphone idk
>>8051815
Why would I eat a man's penis when I could have pork sausage. And if I really wanted to eat dick, I'd go for a bull's. I hear it's pretty good when properly cooked and seasoned. Because let's face it, a guy's dick is just enough meat for a light snack. Not worth the cooking time.
>>8051819
whatever being trans actually is, it's something that's stuck with me forever. I may as well accept it as a part of myself and try to be happy.
perpetually hating that part of you sounds pretty unhealthy desu.
Meeting other trans people is nice because you can empathize a lot, and the pride parade sounds genuinely fun, there's going to be dykes as well.
>>8051827
*you're
>>8051820
<3
Sorry, I just know being trans sucks enough without kayla occupying the same space
>>8051830
have you even seen what straight people parades look like
parades are fucking insane and ridiculous in general
its not just hurrr the lgbt community
Time to OD on estrogen wew
i want some e injections and an endo okay
>>8051801
I don't hate the community but you will never catch me going to lgbt events or parades
>>8051846
>have you even seen what straight people parades look like
Dogs on skateboards, old guys in little go carts that look like fullsized cars?
>>8051778
-_-
>>8051846
I haven't seen it.. what do straight people even parade about?
>>8051801
I don't really like the lgbt community in that sense of those sorts of groups and events and stuff
But I like talking to other transgirls, they're nice
beangirl in 2 years
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aiavtMNE8lc
>this house is copped
true freedom is only found through socialism
>>8051830
>I don't want
Well it sure is a good thing you're not forced to do any of that huh?
>>8051869
I'd like to have some kind of sense of belonging with other people like myself
>>8051834
You don't eat a mans penis silly, you suck it!
And then you swallow when hes done~
>>8051836
Too tru. She's genuinely the worst poster on the board, only CNT was worse, or theoretically Chris-Chan- but I still don't believe he posts here. Kayla is literally so bad that she makes me miss PoTC.
>>8051842
Pretend trannies who wont go full time after like seven years on HRT need to get the fuck out, all you do is give bad advice to babytrans and make a mockery of the rest of us.
>>8051861
>But I like talking to other transgirls, they're nice
Met a few from here in person, totally opposite experience
>>8051859
you know, stuff like mardi gras, the brazilian carnival tradition
parades have always been hypersexualized and loud and exceedingly colorful and so on and so on
if you don't like that, that's entirely fine, it's just not a purely gay people thing
the real problem with gay pride parades is how they've become a way for corporations to virtue signal
they were a lot more somber when they were directly inspired by events like stonewall and mostly made of poorer and more marginalized lgbt people
capitalism.
>>8051819
I wouldn't treat it like a disease because that's stupid, but desu, I'm going to avoid irl trans spaces until I can be relatively certain that they've been quarantined of the sjw virus. Meeting individual trannies outside of trans spaces has been pretty cool, though. Most of the ones I know are pretty chill and have a great sense of humour.
>>8051863
This, senpai.
>tfw you associate with lgbt stuff once a year because you don't base your self worth on what other trannies do or look like and don't feel that being a woman and acknowledging that you're trans are mutually exclusive
>>8051876
So the problem isn't horny retards, it's money?
>>8051878
>I can be relatively certain that they've been quarantined of the sjw virus.
my suggestion is to stop idiotic internet culture wars from affecting the way you relate to the real world
>>8051874
Ive only been into transition for two years and 2 months, i can't and won't go fulltime untill i can pass 100% and not make a spectacle of myself in public.
>>8051882
i hate to be all like "shit baby trans say" because im technically new at this whole shit but ive seen people peddle the idea you "stop being trans" once you pass which is like... straight out "i have no idea what im talking about". you know, if you start avoiding lgbt stuff because there's weird or ugly people there you might as well distance yourself from society entirely, because every single human space that exists has weird, ugly, awkward, disagreeable or just dumb people, every, single, space.
I'm really horny, but I've already cum to every foot picture in my folder. New material, please?
>>8051892
USPS delivers international mail I think
omfg
>>8051892
>Just go out and avoid shit people
Lol i don't have rockets that powerful
>>8051858
ANNE WTF
>>8051885
I literally used to hang out with these people all the time. I don't know what haven you live in, but every tranny I met in trans spaces, at least in my age bracket, was a histrionic parasite. The only things they ever seemed to talk about were how offensive things were and how oppressed they were, and lord help you if you contradicted their uncited claims.
>>8051882
>tfw you form voluntary relationships with individual trannies until you have a rudimentary collective that can destroy any opposition
>>8051892
Have fun. They'll shit all over you if you speak too much.
omfgggggggggg
>>8051904
anne hru
>>8051894
>>8051896
Oh really weird idk. I always get some random dude named Wayne Cockren's sprint bill at my address - which is weird because I live at home in the suburbs not like an apartment where mix ups are more common. I call sprint every so often to troll them now. His bill is over 200. I return most of them to sender but it's automated so they keep spamming me.
>>8051906
im ok bout to go work for an hour or two and then come home and shower and eat dinner and then go out w/my girl gang and see a moovie and mebbe grab a drank
hru
>>8051882
The main reason I don't associate with other LGBT people is because you're all crazy leftist communists. I idealize the traditional family and have conservative values.
>>8051886
You will never pass until you go full time.
People dont give a fuck about you, its an ego trip for you to think youll cause a spectacle.
Ive been full time since 6mo hrt get the fuck out.
>>8051895
Have you seen my butt yet?
>>8051910
what movie
>>8051908
Maybe forgot to give a forwarding address or change address.
In any case I hope these E work better than what I have now.
I just hope I don't fuck my liver on 6mg estrogen and 100mg cypro and 300mg spiro.
>>8051902
Trust me, I know exactly what "problematic" views I hold and how to handle myself - I've been blogging about their cancer since junior year of undergrad long before I was trans...well before I knew. Now that I am living the memes, I'm razor sharp with the talking points, counter points, and shit posting opinions. It puts me in a strange juxtaposition where I like that they're supportive, but I fucking hate them because they're probably doing more harm than good by trying to fit in to a faux social movement. We'll see if it's changed. I was 20 when I used to rant about it now I'm 25 with boobs.
>>8051914
I only jerk for feet. MTFG feet. I wouldn't mind see it though.
>>8051894
It's not so much just that babytrans say it (although they often do). It's more something that people say when they're still steeped in the same homophobic and/or transphobic bullshit that they were raised with and just havn't gotten it out of their system yet. Some never do, but you can't expect self awareness out of people who don't yet live as women and may or may not even leave their house
I actually have yet to meet anyone who has been like "I refuse to associate with anything lgbt" that I'd like to associate with anyways.
>>8051914
That's a fair reason but don't you still go to the occasional support group regardless? I was under the impression you had a tangential relationship with some campus stuff.
>>8051915
it called 'raw'
>>8051924
i dont think id be comfortable going to a pride parade is that bad
>>8051920
George Bush did nine eleven
Ted Cruz is the Zodiac killer
>>8051925
what's it about
>>8051926
Do you have to ask this question every week?
>>8051930
i think its some kinda horror movie about some vegan girl gettin a taste for meat and going too far with it and being a cannibal or something
it looks interestin
>>8051931
maybe the answer would change
>>8051914
>You will never pass until you go full time
What do you expect trial by fire to do for me? What a ridiculous way to transition. Anyway I'm right at the brink of full time anyways, all of my name and gender change shit is done, I'm not even recognized on the federal level even as a male let alone my old name, i even changed my last name, shits giving me panic attacks. All I have left is electrolysis and then I could meet a professional stylist (found one in hollywood for $375 an hour) get an actual sense on what clothes to wear, get a new wardobe, and then fuck off to Seattle like I planned years ago. I want to be stealthy as humanly possible
>>8051936
is it based on a true story
I feel like I still smell the same after 7 months on hrt https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1wqeczRmbhY
>>8051940
idk maybe
>>8051941
can i smell u
>>8051943
would you eat a dude anne
>>8051937
>maybe if I ask her again she'll give me an excuse to not objectively analyze why the beliefs that my mom's religious upbringing gave me are hypocritical and not conducive to my own personal development
You're really trying my patience nim
>>8051945
nah
I have to peer review this faggot's paper and it's half the required length. The thesis blows ass. He doesn't follow his topic sentences. The formatting is all wrong. There's so little done correctly that I'm practically telling him how to write the entire paper. Fuck this faggot.
>>8051941
You don't tend to notice your own body odor
>>8051950
what about a chick
>>8051941
>not just smelling like cocoa butter
>glancing around at catalog
>see this thread
>>8051777
>>8051890
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH IT'S NOT TRUE
>>8051952
My sweat used to smell like swiss cheese, now it smells like funyuns and ladies speed stick
>>8051918
So long as you get off on the fight, I suppose. I just find them insufferable these days. I can't deal with their shit in large groups anymore. I actually hate them more because they welcomed me in when I was genuinely insecure about myself and felt like I needed a connection, and when that initial well runs dry, just like a narcissistic partner, they start abusing you for saying things they don't like or dressing a certain way or even just enjoying things that don't fall under their purview of acceptability. I remember one of them told me that she would try to get me fired or find a legal way to stop me from speaking if she didn't think I was inconsequential to the greater public.
>>8051914
>The main reason I don't associate with other LGBT people is because you're all crazy leftist communists. I idealize the traditional family and have conservative values.
I'm just doing it for attention, Mommy. I really just want your cuddles, pls.
>>8051951
What's his thesis?
>>8051947
what if i just dont like the flamboyance of it all
I just had a call with trashy again and she showed me her dog
But her mum told me I look good with short hair REEEEEEEe
>>8051961
*gobbles u up*
>>8051960
That's...really unusual. The fact that you can discern it either way. It's -usually- not something most people notice.
My room has a lot less of a smell to it, I can tell that, but not my own immediate presence.
>>8051966
what about a half-man/half-chicken hybrid
>>8051963
Don't let elanna guilt trip you on not liking all that pride crap
>>8051963
>excuses given by someone who has never actually been to the corporate circlejerk that is modern pride
I really don't have the time or the energy to talk in circles with you again today nim
>>8051973
nuh uh
>>8051968
thats a good way to get food poisoning i think
>>8051957
god fucking damn i had a classmate that always smelled like cocoa butter and it was awful
>>8051970
>That's...really unusual
I've always been hyper sensitive to smells
>>8051958
Do these people not understand that the only asians they interact with are the ones with wealthy or westernized families? No one here is talking to fucking rice farmers.
>>8051976
what do you mean corporate circlejerk?
maybe id be okay with joining like a support group or something in nyc just to start out
work my way up to pride i guess
>>8051978
wtf live a little
>>8051979
i cant hear you you're in my tum
>>8051926
Pride is fun and you can participate or not and act as gay or straight as you want. It's just like any other event. No one is going to force anything on you.
>>8051952
I do, but usually only when I've come in from the cold. When I unzip my coat it smells quite sweet.
>>8051960
Body odor can be affected pretty strongly by your diet. When I was living off nothing but curry for a while I smelled less than great.
>>8051993
THEY KEEP SEEING ONLY K-POP STARS THAT HAVE HAD MORE PLATIC SURGERY THAN ALL OF MTFG COMBINED AND THINK THE AVERAGE ASIAN LOOKS LIKE A GODDESS
AHHHHH I WANT THIS MEME TO STOP
>>8051994
you should kiss a dude ASAP
>>8051999
Not saying i smell bad in fact one of my female coworkers asked me the other night what perfume I had on, plus my bf tells me I smell amazing
>>8052005
stop :(
>>8051999
>Pride is fun and you can participate or not and act as gay or straight as you want. It's just like any other event. No one is going to force anything on you.
Actually true, desu. Ironically, pride here in Van, while it was stupidly commercialized, was pretty chill and plenty of different folks showed up. It's just a thing people do now. It's not really a sociopolitical hotspot, at least where I live.
>>8051994
Modern pride parades are family friendly corporate sponsored events that literally consist of companies patting each other on the back for how progressive they are for having a float in a pride parade.
To call them flamboyant in this day and age is a bad joke, and shows you're writing off something before you even know what it is. Because you're uncomfortable with gay people.
And we've been through this enough times for me to really feel like I'm talking to a wall, you are a homophobe.
人類に栄光あれ
>>8052012
i said i was against myself before
>>8051994
The most "extreme" thing I saw at pride last year was a drag queen, I'm not even kidding.
>>8052020
Fuck I hate you
>>8051938
It's true tho.
You'll still be clocky af even if normies see you as cis as you walk by.
The confidence, attitude, social demeanor, and overall body language that comes with being full-time is what transcends you to stealth.
>>8052025
why
you know, considering the sorts of people i've been talking to here recently,
(1of them even going as far as to openly admit to reading literature for radicals)
i think maybe i should put "buy a gun" a priority item on my to-do list.
i don't trust you people, & honestly, why should i?
seeing how 2 people here openly advocate for violence/allowing violence against their dissidents.
i'm not responding to any calls for meet-ups either.
even if you tell me that you're here in reno, my only response to you will be to stay the fuck away from me
Im genuinely surprised at the levels of people comfortable with faggot ass pride shit
>being a homophobic tranny
ISHYGDDT
>>8052033
>I'm genuinely surprised people don't hate themselves as much as I do
wait what really
>>8052020
>>8052033
This so fucking much...
>>8052006
I wasn't trying to imply that, I was just mentioning it because it's definitely a thing.
>tfw too poor for a high fruit diet
>>8052009
Same thing in Victoria. I missed the parade last year but I went to the event and it was mostly a bunch of local businesses and tents set up and then a beer garden with a band.
Plenty of younger people dressed up all crazy, but also lots of "normies"
I just wish I had someone to go with. I mostly wandered around and ate pizza >.>
>>8052033
you're genuinely surprised with everything that doesn't feed into your miserable spiral of self-hatred and non-existent self-respect. just in my opinion
>>8052026
Oh that's all bullshit and you know it. Going fulltime before im ready will only invite people to assault me or mock me.
>>8052022
its ok nim, I used to be pretty homophobic when I was younger
it was a combination of conservative religion with fighting my own same-sex attraction
when you're taught that its "bad" to be a certain way it can be hard to shake those thoughts and feelings
>>8051921
Well, everyone else has seen it.
>>8051924
Yeah I do once in a blue moon, Ive been considring it lately after that stuff that happened with my brother. I know the campus people and when I start taking classes at the uni again next semester Ill probably go to a few events every now and again to say hi to everyone and keep in contact. Still, I wouldnt consider any of those people actual good friends- we differ far too much in our worldviews.
>>8051938
I wish I could be there when you get off the plane and have a breakdown when the first person you talk to off the plane addresses you as sir.
>>8051957
I smell like marijuana and cheap mist sprays from the mall.
>>8051962
Honey you need to understand that communism isnt a joke and is an actual force of evil that would see the end of individualism, expression, and freedom. Lets go home and Ill tuck you in.
>>8052033
Kys my man
>>8051921
>>8052032
Nevada turns bluer every day because of Las Vegas. Get something now if you can.
>>8052047
i dont have a same-sex attraction..
>>8052045
I'm fulltime and stealth at my job yeh tard.
Kinda sucks b/c my electro has another yeAR left
Forever shaving....
>>8052032
>violence
this is the brice of gommunism :DDDDDD
>>8052048
>I wish I could be there when you get off the plane and have a breakdown when the first person you talk to off the plane addresses you as sir.
Thats funny because I get mamed in guymode lol, ask my bf, we were in home depot the other day buying an appliance and the sales person called me miss the whole time
>>8052053
Lewd girl. You need to be spanked.
>>8052055
oh come on now
>>8052033
I'm not a self-hating tranny
well, at least not self-hating in that way
>>8052057
>I'm fulltime and stealth at my job
Sure thing crimson chin
>>8052059
Lol wait till you leave Cali... Suddenly the pandering stops.
>>8052062
im attracted to girls and transgirls..
>>8052032
I almost never discuss politics, even tangentially. Shame cuddling is out of the question.
kayla is not a real person.
kayla is a bot
stop giving it replies and maybe whoever is running it will turn it off
I know trannies are easily baited but come on
>>8052066
lol
>>8052041
Yeah, in the one here, the weirdest thing was a stage where the drag queens were marrying each other. Was kinda neat, but also really stupid.
>>8052048
B-But revolution... *sniff*
You could be happy too if you realized that collectivism doesn't necessitate the end of personal expression. But the polcom meme tells me I'm an AnCom, so my ideas about self-expression are pretty ardent, senpai.
>>8052069
so you're saying you see yourself as a boy
come on we both know that's fucking stupid
>>8052068
Socal is really conservative I have faced more hate and violence for being trans there than the rest of the world combined.
>>8052069
That's funny. I like boys and girls... But lately I've been fucking boys more, it's goooooood trust me Nim, go get a tall Daddy to fuck you up and give you cuddles :3
>>8052075
well i dont feel like one most of the time but you said sex not gender
>noone to cuddle
>>8052072
kayla is going to still be posting here by the point the thread's topic has shifted into cybernetic implants and whether or not openly displaying your mechanical attachments is trutrans or fetishistic
>>8052068
Its not pandering, my body language is super fem and even when i was repressing it was fem, that coupled with the fact ive stopped binding my boobs kinda ruines my boymode. Only weird shit happens when i grow the hair out for electrolysis i get people calling me both pronouns in the same conversation
>>8052080
id probably throw up
>>8052066
Ha.
W/E bro.
I've nothing to prove to you.
I'm happy, you're forever not.
There's a handful of trips who can back me up on this one.
I don't really care what you think / believe.
>>8052048
Yeah I think that's a perfectly reasonable approach to pride stuff. You don't really need to be super involved or even share the same beliefs to like, associate with people and recognize that you have a common struggle. Idk, I'm considering volunteering some of my time if I get into school simply for the sake of at least having something even if I don't get super involved or necessarily agree on everything. I am not as conservative as you are, but I am definitely more conservative than your average lgbt group.
You're far from the hard line mentality that I associate with self hating trannies and that I really only see here.
>>8052081
so if you're attracted to transgirls then it's a same-sex attraction?
>>8052053
>you will never have a butt like that
>>8052094
i dont know
>>8052079
Finally someone who gets it. I dunno why southern cali is seen as liberal because it isn't.
>>8052054
i can't. :(
>>8052058
i've had enough out of you people.
i guess the nationalists invaded & cnt-fai were peaceful, huh?
fucking killing commies w/ kindness, aren't you?
even though i'm not a communist.
i don't believe in abolishing money,
i don't believe in the redistribution of revenue.
but somehow i'm a commie.
fucking blow me t>.<t
How's everyone's day been?
>>8052072
she's a not-so elaborate bot that posts the same things over and over tbqh
>>8052092
Wow my sex is female on all my shit too, that's neat cocky mc cockerson
>>8052098
why not?
>>8052053
>Slaaneshi mark
I'm guessing you play Slaaneshi demons
>>8052102
I'm actually confused here.
Are you implying I'm a fascist.
Because I'm a communist like unashamedly and unironically.
I just like shitposting.
>>8052111
how do i get a good butte
>>8052085
Oh Kayla your T needs some more nuking babe, you're so angry... Please don't tell me you are only on spiro :/
>>8052111
Because my body doesn't like putting fat down there like it should. Maybe my E is low, but also I'm way too lazy for exercise :(
>>8052115
lift heavy weights
squats, deadlifts, hip thrusts
throw some bench press in there to not have flabby arms
>>8052115
I've been eating more and my thighs and ass are getting bigger, much much different than how I gained weight pre-hrt
my plan is to gain some weight then lose some weight and see what happens
>>8052123
>throw some bench press in there to not have flabby arms
I never understood this. Smaller arms are a good thing for MTFs, why would anyone want them to be bigger?
>>8052108
I'm not legally female dipshit.
Took me 3 hours just to get my car insurance switched back to male b/c the adjuster I met with signed me up as female and everything was fucked up.
This was just from a blood test last week....
>>8052117
Ive had an orchi. I'm out of xanax and that's making me hulk out, plus im so poor Im down to eating 400 cals a day and im unhinged. I spent my entire tax return on electrolysis and my jaw strap isn't even done yet so my stress is at an all-time high, plus I'm being trained as assistant manager and its too much i swear the guy training me is on meth or coke
>>8052081
>I experience same GENDER attraction, not same sex attraction
this might be worse than straightgay
but I'm sorry nim I'll stop poking at you
I understand it takes some time
>>8052114
well, shit.
i'm sorry.
i'm the one who's confused.
i still won't trust you anyone else here though.
just so you know.
i do not necessarily consider other leftists my allies.
the soviet union has crushed democratic & horizontal socialism too, & they were leftists
>>8052123
wish i had like a specific routine or something because i still don't know where to go from that
also not interested in the arm thing sorry
>>8052138
How do I not be lazy. I always fall out of any routine within 2-3 weeks because sitting on my butt doing nothing is just more appealing
>tfw no bf to motivate you
>>8052083
same
you can cuddle me if you want
>>8052132
>I'm not legally female dipshit
I am :)
>>8052139
>wish i had like a specific routine or something
great that you asked! read this book!
https://www.amazon.com/Strong-Curves-Womans-Building-Better/dp/1936608642
torrent: http://bookzz.org/book/2283244/4bbe8a/?_ir=1
>>8052143
if you lift actually heavy weight the fact that you'll get stronger pretty much every week really motivates you (in my experience at least).
>>8052102
Nevada should let you get a shotgun at 18 and handgun at 21 maybe with some state licensing hoops. Look it up.
>>8052150
>want to buy a gun to feel safe
>too scared I'll use it to kill myself to buy one
>>8052146
Not irl.,
Not at your place of employment.
Not full time...
Lol.
What's the point of that if you just Waltz around as a guy anyways
>>8052148
Website feels shady, is the .epub file a torrent file or what? I've never heard of that extension
>>8052148
i gotta get my meds fixed before i can read that book x-x
>>8052146
is this legal in all 50 states?
>>8052157
epub is an ebook file
>>8052154
I agree... Where I'm from you have to socially transition before they'll give you hormones, let alone change your sex legally xD
>>8052157
Nothing shady about the extension. Epub is one of the main standards for e-book files.
>>8052154
>What's the point of that if you just Waltz around as a guy anyways
Because im afraid what people would fucking think if me duh, what else have i been fucking saying? I have severe social anxiety, top that off with looking like shit equals me being petrified to be myself and to protect myself im always angry and on guard
>>8052165
i cant concentrate
i couldnt get like 10 pages in
>>8052153
Yeah one day when I'm feeling depressed I would no doubt kill myself if I had a gun. That's why I will never buy one.
>>8052165
I'd say it's less a case of sweet summer and more of eternal September...
>>8052059
You can be maam'd all day, it only takes one person calling you sir for you not to pass.
>>8052060
Tee hee~
>>8052098
Work at it, you can do it! Praying to Slaanesh helps, too!
>>8052074
Honey I dunno what that jargon all means but listen, communism is just make believe. The reality is tyranny like Stalin and Mao and the death of individual freedom in Asia and Eastern Europe. We don't want a repeat of that, do we? Go to bed now, youll feel better in the morning.
>>8052093
Like if another transperson is in need Ill help them out, and Ive been helped out in my times of need by other transpeople. Its sort of a if we don't look out for eachother, no one will. I have no such loyalty towards tumblr demi gender shit or LGB folk.
And yah I dont think you are ether, but Im very right wing, I only lean left on social issues, and even then I dont lean far.
I feel both of us are in the minority on this thread in that we're mostly functional and leave our homes daily. Not to mention that were full time and pass. I feel that makes it easier for us, desu. It makes me feel a responsibility to try to help baby trannies in a way.
>>8052173
>she's not on mam or bib
>>8052176
Actually I'm more of a November girl
Estrogen : You get really nice and soft skin
Me : Cool thanks what's the catch
Estrogen : But your skin dries out faster than Death Valley and you need to carry around lotion with you forever
>>8052181
Iktf, i even carry lotion in my purse now
>>8052180
You don't have to wear heels to be a woman... Jesus.
Also fulltime is fulltime, it means everywhere. Especially work
>>8052190
How does he get the shit on his dick, though? Autosodomy seems unlikely.
>>8052195
this shit as in his book
>>8052175
Keep them unloaded and locked?
>>8052195
Do not quit your day job.
>>8052177
Do you, by any chance play DoW?
>>8052194
>Especially work
I work at a fucking warehouse, i hate it but I'm afraid of not being able to find something better. How could I be myself at a place that already knows me as the fake male me? If I just started using my girl voice and being myself they would laugh
>>8052204
you should start coming in dressed like a slut
>>8052204
Stop munching xannys and start loving yourself. That assumption and doubt comes from within. If you are as fulltime as you say they ought to know by now anyways...
>>8052188
I thought girls carried it around to be vain and smell nice
Turns out they actually need it
>>8052208
I should take my paid vacation days and go look for work. Thing is I have to maintain guymode because electrolysis and my name is changed so how tf do I apply to a new job?
>>8052145
Are you nice?
I'd have to get to know you first
>>8052204
Get a job at Starbucks and practice your people skills. They also have great benefits packages
>they would laugh
With the way you act(out) here, id think youd be used to getting laughed at
are we posting hands?
>>8052211
>start loving yourself
How do i do this? I fucking hate myself and its all i dwell on now. I don't even have hobbies anymore, i stare at my mirror and tell myself how ugly i am. Trust me i don't know how i got here and i want to love myself even like i did just a month ago before i started weekly electrolysis
>>8052215
and you're legally a female too
>>8052223
>xbox
ugh
>>8052230
hey it's for my pc
>>8052223
I would not mind holding that.
>>8052202
Nope. I play Total War: Warhammer and Battlefleet Gothic: Armada tho.
Mostly I play the tabletop tho, Imperial Guard and Slaaneshi Chaos. Also Eldar but I dont play them much.
>>8052223
Digit ratio
>>8052238
cute hand
>>8052231
>using a controller over the factually superior mouse + keyboard
ugh
>>8052238
isn't that the male digit ratio?
>>8052242
>mouse+keyboard for Nier
>>8052242
Controllers are better for some things. Emulated console games, Dark Souls series, fighting games, ect
I thought this "girls can't open jars" thing was a meme. I had to get my dad to open a jar of pickles for me.
>>8052242
Some games play better on controller like Dark Souls or some third persons
>>8052241
Thanks i guess, not used to compliments here. I've been suckered into using a glitter top coat and now its what i always use because it looks super sparkly irl
new
>>8052252
>>8052225
Fuck girl, you're a Trainwreck... Does your therapist not help you with self esteem issues? You shouldn't ever medicate anxiety, exposure therapy is best. Your brain needs to trust you are safe. That only comes through unmedicated experience.
If you are staying into the mirror and saying negative shit, that is bad. State into the mirror and say positive shit.
"Kayla I fucking love you, you are such a wonderful and amazing girl, you are capable of love and capable of being loved. Nothing can stop you from being awesome!"
It doesn't matter if they're lies, brains are stupid. Just gotta keep lying to yourself. Why do you think Mega obese people are so cool about their weight even though they are killing themselves? Constant denial and good self worth, even though it may not seem like there is any reason to have any at all.
>>8052250
Just press down on it.
>>8052246
Yes...
>>8052246
Nope
>>8052217
i hope so
>>8052267
See you already have denial down pat. Just lie to yourself, makes life easier :)
Test
>>8052032
>ople, & honestly, why should i?
>seeing how 2 people here openly advocate for violence/allowing violence against their dissidents.
>i'm not responding to any calls for meet-ups either.
>even if you tell me that you're here in reno, my only response to you will be to stay the fuck away from me
this is why i hate you fucking people
free goats