OP updated, new links for Informed consent and trans info. new discord link. Pls recommend good beginner makeup tutorials and resources
whoever makes the new thread use this op
▶Informed Consent Providers: https://dl.dropboxusercontent.com/u/932389/Trans/Stepping%20Forward%20-%20Informed%20Consent%20Clinics.pdf
▶Trans Info Dump: http://pastebin.com/h1vLPxyV
▶Size charts: http://www.americanapparel.net/sizing/default.asp?chart=womens.pantse_conversion_chart.php
▶Transition timelines: http://imgur.com/a/qWpxv
▶Voice Training: http://pastebin.com/dgipdsge
▶HRT info: https://web.archive.rg/web/0000000000000 http://taimapedia.org/index.php?title=Hormones
▶Voice Help: http://webjedi.net/projects/lgbtq/speech-therapy/
▶Discord server: https://discord.gg/0jCp5pochww8t2Oe
▶MTFG Radio https://www.dubtack.fm/join/mtfg
▶IRC: https://www.rizon.net/chat #mtfg
I just got called "a sissy mother fucker!" By some meth addicted homeless ex-con...
The biggest thing I feared just happened and you girls know what? I'm proud. I'm happy it happened. I am a sissy transgender and I'm proud.
>tfw ufufu is gone and not coming back
at least she is like, a million times happier
>tfw no boobs
>tfw 9 months HRT and still A cup
Yeah I have it, I'm not even gonna try to deny it. I'm probably going to get a boobjob somewhere further down the years.
I am also starting to have a problem with my ribcage and shoulder size...
I've been banned on here before for saying nigger. Nigger seems to be a bannable word on /lgbt/. I wish nigger wasn't a bannable word but it seems to just be that way and I'm not sure why. Nigger.
You don't seem to be banned still.
Are you sure it wasn't because of something else?
fml, how to be happy post transition? i pass, i look pretty good, have nice bf, good school, getting srs in a couple months. family is accepting, friends either don't know or don't care. Yet here I am posting on mtfg.
How do I leave all of this trans shit behind and just try and lead a normal life? I have friends here and it keeps me coming back. I just can't find happiness.
Might be possible that the mods are banned, nigger.
Yeah on most boards but nigger seems to be bannable on /lgbt/. I once just wrote nigger and nothing else but nigger on a post and I got banned an hour later. It was really annoying because nigger is just a word and I can't imagine anyone but a nigger being upset about someone saying nigger. It's not a bad word, it's just nigger talk ya mean, nigger?
this fucking general reminds me of highschool.
lurked here for a solid 13 months
the shitty banter. the cliques. the attention whoring. the r9k cringe.
WHAT IS WRONG with you ppl?
why am i on here, i haven't been relevant in months
like how often do i even post here anymore?
that only happens if you're going for unnatural proportions, dita von teese style
if you're just reshaping the ribcage cartilage and aiming for a natural female shape then it should have any major health risks
what do all the tripcodes look like?
is this in the OP post? did i miss it?
if not dump when?
>Not in another /mtfg/ compilation
>Tfw high hairline
>Tfw on HRT + dutasteride but paranoid you're still losing hair
It's not fair. I'm only 18, I was too awkward/scared to come out until recently and I didn't know how to get hormones when I was younger, but I feel like I'm already fucked. In two years when all my hairs fallen out and I look like a ridiculous fake woman with male pattern baldness I'm gonna kill myself.
i'm just some random shitter from /gaygen/ but i was wondering about a thing
how many of you guys have a tumblr
and if you do have a tumblr, do you partake in The Discourse when it comes to trans issues
because there's some wacky people on tumblr and i was wondering how you guys felt about how they felt about things
Lord, that image of Edgar gets me all the time
been here less then a year
soon after I got here, I was inspired to present by the fultimers and my girlmode finally saw daylight
...fast forward a few months of work and effort and I'm passable
but it's now so neg, depressing, and lewd
>tfw used to be princess tier and not even included anymore.
>tfw most disgusting neet creature ever
>tfw eating a coffee ice cream dessert
>think its in a chocolate case
>its chocolate colored plastic
>this is a travesty
>realise I'm overreacting, calm down and sulkily eat my ice cream
>burst into tears
>headpats from gf
and thats the story of mood swings when a dose of mones is missed
I do have a tumblr. But I use it specifically for geology, paleontology, beer, and gardevoir posting. Only occasionally do I bother with discourse, and when I do it's literally to call out the idiocy that happens to cross my dashboard sometimes.
I rarely check the damn thing because I find tumblr to be useless.
>tfw thinking about the process of FFS
>literally going to need my skin peeled back and my bone grinded down just for the chance of feeling neutral instead of sad all the time
the trans life is hard, I don't want it
what if it gets botched and I end up looking like Pete Burns?
A few things
One, the drama is still going on.
Two, it is strange how /v/ has shifted from liking traps and transpeople to hating them
Three, with how they are today I'm sure it would have been fun. I'm not sure if it's a meme to say >she or if they believe literally everyone is trans
It bugged me a big but considering I'd posted the pic as a 'hey heres no angles' pic I didn't care too much, IIRC Caddy had a rough time with /soc/ from it and left here for a while =\. I don't recall about Kayla I try to stick to only paying attention there when she seems to be actually asking for advice.
>tfw second laser session wednesday night
i'm nervous but i'm gonna turn it up to the maximum intensity pulses, i heard it just feels like a rubber band snapping against your skin so hopefully that turns out okay
Like, look at this
I wish someone would put me out of my misery
i try not to let stuff from here get to me too much but i admit i was a little upset over the last tier list and tranny roulette. it was right before i went full time too so idk the hit to my confidence was not really great.
No problem follow my lead!
>Having a bit of fun with this..
I didn't know that drama was still going, people really like making a lot out of nothing I see. It really is strange though, I remember back when I was on /v/ years back there was like 2-3 traps threads daily. It was interesting, and idk on their meme culture, but it seems to be mocking, I see it happen a lot if I pop on a Renegades match with Twitch chat open.
Yeah, I think it got to a lot of people a little bit for reasons like that. I had just gotten my name/gender change done and was worried about the pressures of feeling obligated to pass
>Two, it is strange how /v/ has shifted from liking traps and transpeople to hating them
it was back in the day when /v/ hated women for being picky entitled cunts, tarps seemed like a nice alternative- then Brianna WU and gamergate happened... and the tumblr trans stuff with the triggers and privilege and all that jazz-
/v/ realized trans were cancer or perhaps mostly lesbian and interested in girls more than guys, that and probably a lot of oldfags left, and new fags entered- /v/ probably doesn't even know about deus ex....
When ego-raptor transitions... it is gonna be a big shit-storm
It's from a web comic called material girl.
Really relevant to this thread seeing as how it deals with gender identity.
(Funny enough, it was done by someone who later realized they were trans and began the transitioning process.) Calvin and hobbs are huge influences on her work.
Ty ^^ But yeah pretty much is why I didn't post any pics here since then until this past week really, because of that whole episode.
Yeah makes sense. I haven't gone there in a few years since my like for vidya turned from love to 'eh its fun'.
I don't even really know, just something I remember skimming.
Cute ^^ I can definitely see the influence there.
Yeah, most tier lists aren't made objectively and are just tools for a few people to snipe. For a while I was higher on them.
>tfw look like a cute 16 year old boy
> but still male, hard to pinpoint what exactly makes my face masculine
> stare at my face everyday for 30+ minutes at a time.
Dont trip and then tell me you aren't an attention whore. You wanna be top tier just like the rest of us.
>tfw you look like a 25 years old man
>tfw face is literally a square with tiny eyes and a huge nose
>that and probably a lot of oldfags left, and new fags entered
basically this happened to /v/
> my standards are better then your standards
even if i DID go along with it. THAT LOW??!!??
i like (You)s as much as anyone else but i get my fair share of hate from tripping and there are legitimate reasons to do it too. I've made a lot of friends itt even if it is a toxic shithole
Sounds about right. It's pretty bad. I also honestly wonder how much of old /v/ ended up trans.
I just trip because I guess I guess I unrightfully assumed everyone is as autistically bad at telling anons as me and was interested in having some hopefully real feedback. Then it devolved into this.
>pretty small for a genetic male
>pretty ok body all around
>disgusting jew nose
>disgusting man chin that could cut glass
>disgusting hormonally ravaged acne scarred skin
>disgusting deep set serial killer eyes
>tfw I will I never have an attractive face no matter how many skittles I eat
I should kill myself. Ugly trans aren't ever human beings.__.
It's the piece of bone over your eyes that makes you look like a caveman. Adult male levels of testosterone tend to produce a prominent brow ridge.
What about when Boxbox starts?
Idk, I definitely had a different idea of this going into it, but it's kinda just like welp established a name for myself why go hide in the shadows, part of transitioning was being honest about shit. I kinda tried to carry that to most parts of my life.
I guess I just hope I'm not too bad of one.
honestly the three main things i can think of that really make or break your femininity are your brow ridge or lack thereof (you don't want one), fat redistribution from hrt, and getting good at makeup.
okay just flick through a ffs portfolio and try and see what was done to make them look feminine.
i still say that the brow ridge is the single most defining feature. you see cis girls with manly jawlines or ugly noses without questioning their sex, but if they have a manly brow ridge it will at least make them look ugly if not make you think they look a bit manly.
Here's a (You) maddie, I hope it can sustain you until your next hit ;~;
I'll pay attention to you, if you pay attention to me.
Establishing a name for yourself is kind of an attention thing is where I'm coming from when I say that kind of stuff, but yeah, there are real legitimate reasons to do so. Like Ill trip in passgens so people can have some idea of who the person judging them is.
Yeah, I hadn't lurked here much at all to find out the trip culture, I just saw tons of trips and figured it was the standard for people 'in transition'. I also didn't really realize passgen was actually it's own thing with its own regulars and not just a place where people here post their pictures as a sounding board until like a month in though, so there's that.
As far as gaining a name for myself I wasn't exactly trying to when I nearly became a meme, but I'd meant it as I guess just establishing an identity cause I'm tired of feeling like a wallflower, so yeah a bit attention whorish.
I guess it's just like hey I can finally be myself why not learn how to socialize with an identity, moreso.
Are there reasons for a guy to date a trans girl over a cis girl?
No, not really.
You cross your fingers and hope someone just falls in love with you.
It took me a while but I realized that there really isn't a reason for the long run unless there's a real connection and they've known each other for a very long time. If it's not the Disney marrying your best friend since kindergarten then it's not real and he'll leave eventually.
>have you ever tried IV (You)?
ELANNA !!!! stahp you are enabling her !!
Oh, I started tripping before /mtfg/ or the lgbt boards existed, so I have a very different view on it. It is pretty standard for transitioners to trip here, don't let my moaping get to you.
That's fair, and eh there is a lot of 4chan outside of these threads that despise trips. There is avataring, if you can evade or don't care about bans.
Transwomen are less entitled, generally. They also can't get pregant. But we're also normally traumatized and inept so no.
Yaay. I'll give you attention whenever I see you from now on.
I'm a virgin so I guess I can't say for sure how I would act, but I don't think I'd offer up my butt either, I think that'd hurt and it'd just plain feel gross to have something thrust up into there. Aren't hands, mouth and outercourse enough?
Oh yeah I definitely knew about trips being hated from my time on /v/ but I guess I kinda just assumed things were different now that it's like an entirely different demographic almost. I didn't really ever collect pics and didn't think about avataring honestly, but yeah kinda impulsive start but ever since then I guess I just turned my stubborn mode on.
> tfw i kinda wanna post a picture of myself as a boy to see what you guys think cuz i literally dnt knw what to think.
should i? or is that not a good idea. fuck around and end up on a tier list lol
do you know where I can get some (you)s?
My (you) dealer moved upstate.
>tfw no money
its straya day tomorrow but I guess we should talk about that tomorrow
/tg/ wasn't bad either, I had a friend who got me interested enought in browsing there at least once or twice back in those days. I didn't really take to the board animosity stuff so much. Though I did try 7chan for a while and all. I noticed the Asuka though, but never been too much into NGE myself though idk. (don't kill me)
my sister is uncharacteristically throwing a straya day bbq
butt stuff doesnt really hurt if you do it right
and when your partner hits the right spot it is fucking mint
you have to at least try it at some point
I used to be the same way, bc I thought it'd be really gross and painful, but I was wrong
I mean, I've definitely done that a few times, but it just wasn't much fun. I don't know if I was doing it wrong or what. I haven't tried anything since starting HRT, but I can't imagine it'd suddenly be better with a shrunken prostate.
Oh I mean, I just never even tried to take /v/'s opinions seriously, moreso just read critiques of the games to see if there were flaws that sounded reasonable enough to care about and based my opinions/game decisions off it in that way. The way I saw it people only go there to complain if they don't like a game, rarely to praise a game even after completion but especially during play. So it was very skewed in that sense.
Dear British Empire please fulfill my wish of the deepest sleep on this your most holy convicts day tomorrow. signed Elizabeth Romani-Barishnakov. Hitler
>street name captchas
time to say gn i guess
yyou never told me ur last name was hitler
so for the longest time i've been having trouble finishing during sex and masturbating has been... idk. i couldnt bring myself to bother like it was a chore
like seeing it has been bothering me more and more the longer i'm on hrt / the more i figure things out.
like it still feels good to play with, but sight of it and the typical jerking motion brings on the dysphoria too strongly.
that is until tonight. i figured something out and now feel like an idiot. i put my middle and ring finger over the head and pushed down on the whole thing so my palm was pressuring the shaft down like pushing down on the pubis mound. kinda like holding it tucked in place with fingerd curled around. the i rubbed the under of the head with the two fingers. idk, it took awhile [30min], but i finally finished. for reference i havent finished in maybe 3months. like i go hook up with guys but i cant cum just from getting fucked :[ shriveled prostate from lupron maybe? idk. they always try to jerk me off too, but it kills it for me. idk. they're usually disappointed enough when i tell them i dont like it sucked...
idk, is that weird? is that a weird way to masturbate?
This tho. Vaginas aren't nearly as interesting as dicks. Dicks won't turn into an abattoir once a month, and an ass won shit out little humans. Any bottom worth their salt will know how to douche too, so it shouldn't shit out anything desu.
>tfw you don't douche properly and you accidentally poop on their dick
>tfw you unironically listen to Hawthorne Heights
never gonna grow up
How do you feel about your own trap dying?
I usually just lay down and hump my hand, it's how I learned to masturbate.
Before I knew what it was, I'd rub my crotch on a bedpost because it made me feel weirdñ like I had to pee but I didn't
This happened to me once. Drunk and cis girl friend decides she wants to try jamming her strapon in my ass without letting me clean first. 1/10 experience. Not just because of the poop though. She was shit at fucking. This is why I mostly date dudes and other trannies.
I doubt it's that weird, I've basically been doing that since HRT made it so that I don't get fully erect anymore, except I use my index finger as well. I haven't ever had an orgasm from doing that, though, it just feels good. It's probably the closest you can get to what rubbing a normal clitoris wold be like without SRS, in any case.
sup fags, I am posting on reddit for the lulz
>user name is Making America Great Again_Freedom
>gun in hand
>asking if I passing, knowing they will say I don't
>Murican flag in the background
>anti sjw shit
I wonder how fast I get banned.
bawaaaaahhahah I should really go back and listen to my new hero Sussman. I will learn to code in scheme via sicp god damn it. I learned some really cool math that is basically useless but cool nonetheless from sicp too.
Oh man, why did franky have to die? He was like the qtest boy ever.
> "HEY GUYS look at me be cool! XDXD going on reddit *just for keks guys i'm cool XDXDXD"
> going on reddit...EVER
>picture motherfucking related
I think he was pretty. If I'd known him I'd have totally fallen for him.
I'd probably try and hold his hand and ask him to be my bf. It's super depressing he killed himself :c
That's the method I started with too. It was the best, especially before being old enough to ejaculate and make a mess so I could just keep going. It stopped working once the erections got too hard and my penis got too long to grind the head up against the pubic bone, sadly. I had hoped that I'd be able to do this again once HRT had stopped me from getting erections and the length was reduced, but it still doesn't work; I'm not sure if my foreskin is too loose now for proper friction by the method or what.
They never came out as mtf...
it was a joke.
Google "transgender 41%" and you will found out some over bloated static about how 41% of trannies try to kill themselves or something.
I should go take a shower or start coding again.
yeah whatever. I bet I am going to be called an anti-Semite now ...
>hurr durr you joke about shit therefore you are evil.
I make fun of myself too.
I am ugly and I don't pass.
idk who is more pathetic you, the r9k cringe tier tripfag who seeks approval from basement dwelling limp wristed faggots on a Vietnamese comic strip subreddit
or me the insecure autist who is trying to make itself feel better by antagonizing slightly more mentally ill retards on a Zimbabwe interpretive dance board.
All this talk about people that have killed themselves or are going to kill themselves...
>tfw no Franky bf to awoo with
>tfw Franky is dead and I might be too somewhere down the line
kill me pham
just kill me
code academy should work, but try sicp if you really want to learn how to code. Beware tons of math. If I wasn't so distracted I would be a lot further lol.
I should get back to it after I get out of a call with someone.
honestly what you guys need is some ambition.
is this all you guys do? worry about your gender?
who you are is SOO MUCH MORE then gender.
get good at something. try and be the best at something. Be a force in the world. make a difference. Be legendary.
what's your purpose? what's your drive? what gets you up in the morning?
people seek relationships in people have ambition. Way more attractive then people who are idol and r9kers
Gender is the first thing people see in you. If they don't see you as a real woman then you're illegitimate to them and you'll never be able to fully accomplish what anyone else would be able to.
I didn't say I was checking out yet, I'll give it a few more years and see if I'm any happier, if my self image gets any better, or if I'm any more at peace. Will you join me in that?
I flirt with people who are better looking than me in order to live vicariously through them and make them fall in love with me in order to validate myself and feel better about my own transition. That's pretty much the only reason I get out of bed, I have no other ambitions in my life.
i have a lot of ambition. my life is my work, and my work is my dysphoria repellant (major distraction).
right now though, my work is suffering because my head is just too clouded with dyphoria and shit. i just want to transition and get back to doing what i love. i dont want to spend all day thinking about this anymore.
unfortunately i think im too ugleee2pass
and way too poor to fix my ugness :(
kill me dad
Probably, but it's up to you to decide whether you get out of bed or not.
Sounds like you don't understand how mental illness works, friend. Good for you. I wouldn't wish it on you for anything in the world.
how much longer? I've already been trying and failing for long enough desu, I don't see how waiting through a few more years of emotional torture is gonna change anything for me
my family practically disowned me before I even came out, fuck them
what do you do when you are not good at anything? what happens when you only have one thing that are passable at best, and insulting to the medium the work is delivered on at worst? there is no way to become great when you have nothing to become great at.
eventually there is nothing left to do but wallow in self loathing, rising only for self-depreciation. eventually the towel has to be thrown in. most of humainity isn't great. most of us are mediocre at best.
trw you will wake up tomorrow and realize you will wake up the next day.
dont worry yall, we're all already dead. all of time exists all at once. we're just experiencing every moment in order. like watching a movie that you cant rewind or fast forward. just be patient, you'll get to the death soon enough. i dont wanna suicide, cause i dont wanna spoil the ending
>tfw all the shit I have to go through just to start hrt scares the shit out of me.
Is it worth it ;~;
I'm doing it for them. They already almost lost their kid, and I know they already blamed themselves for that.
I'm going to say 3-4 years longer. Long enough to finish school, move out and maybe be an adult for a while. Maybe life will feel like it has a purpose by then, that's what I think is needed. All I have is the (significantly reduced) dysphoria right now, life needs more to drown it out.
it doesn't matter how they see you. it's about what YOU do. they can't control you.
be so good at something they can't deny you
be so great they can't ignore you
make them respect what you are.
Gender was never supposed to thing that defines you. Yeah it can make you feel sad but it really can't take away from what you can physically do. Stop crippiling yourself. you aren't looking at the big picture. what does gender honestly even mean? literally nothing.
but hell maybe being passable is your ambition. maybe this is what gets you out of bed. well work harder at it. git gud at make up. budget your money for the right surgeries. don't be fucking content with being a sad salty fuck.
lmao don't come at me with that shit. i'm just as confused as most of you. i didn't have ANY gender dysphoric feelings until i was 18. i'm 20 now and things are so confusing and wierd and idk what to do about my gender identity. but does it stop me from wanting to be the best at my craft? LOLno. idgaf WHAT my gender will be at the end but i'll be the greatest that's for sure. it's literally an afterthought. i could care less what anyone else thinks or what even I think. the will to win and the will to be succesful and legendary has lit such a crazy fire under me. NOTHING can actually stop me. i wish you could just find the fire i feel.
then you git gud. i was like alot of you. no ambition not really good at anything but then i started trying. i got a little. good and i got better. and i kept working at it because i had NOTHING else to do. eventually i realized this is my calling and the fire it lit under me is incredible. it's changed my life. you can find it anon-kun YOU GOTTA BELIEVE. KEEP FUCKING TRYING DAMN IT.
>be so good at something they can't deny you
>be so great they can't ignore you
not everybody is talented enough to do that though, a lot of people are just shit at everything but luckily they don't have dysphoria to deal with on top of that, some of them still commit suicide anyway based on that alone
if you're predisposed to be really creative or smart then yeah having other hobbies can help with dysphoria, provided the latter doesn't drown attempts to concentrate on anything else out
but some of us just aren't very good at stuff
It is. It doesn't solve everything, or even most things, but I'm happy I'm doing it.
Good luck; I know it's terrifying. You'll be upset with yourself if you don't go ahead and try now, though; don't make the mistake of procrastinating because it's too scary, that's what I did and I regret it a lot.
>tfw playing Civ 5 with a few people but game crashes a few times
>maybe being passable is your ambition
It kind of is, and I am doing what I can on that front (I'm living with my parents so I'm kind of playing the long game on stuff like makeup/surgery money)...
But I want to have another more substantial desire too, and I just... don't.
Talent is a myth. The only people with "talent" are the ones thrust into things when they're young by their parents and forced to do it every day until they're so good it's boring, and every time they're told hiw great they are they die a little on the inside until they finally break
Do you think those people get there out of nowhere? listen nobody said it would be easy. it NEVER is but you have to have that will to push through it. find yourself. find something that you are willing to work at anon! i fucking believe in u.
yeah you aren't good *right now* but you can get there! that's the beautiful thing about life. that's the sick thing about life. nobody can ACTUALLY stop you.
you don't THINK your talented but have you REALLY looked?
I haven't even looked yet. i get so excited thinking about the possible opportunities. i had all these realizations JUST 6 months ago.
NOTHING is predetermined NOTHING is set in stone.
i won't let u cripple yourself anon-kun ily
we're more similar then you would think. i'm in Full time Uni (sophmore) but i'm dependent on
LITERALLY a few MONTHS ago i was in the same state as you. i kinda understood the whole ambition thing but i just didn't have any and couldn't really find it, dude you just have to believe it's coming. The little things you are doing RIGHT NOW can turn into huge things. What i'm doing now and what's changed my life was literally just a stupid hobby and now it's changed everything and it happened so fast. the spark just lights and it never leaves. it can't leave....not until i get what i'm aiming for.
and if i don't make it? At least i spent my time working towards something and i know that people will admire my ambition and how hard i work and i'll know my life has been spent on the edge living it to the fullest.
you need to find yourself and find things that you can do. things that interest you. write out a list of possibilities and pursue it.
there are NO SUCH THINGS as *inherant* talents. i mean well there are but for the 95% of people it's not a thing. you need to accept the fact that no matter what you start at...you're going to be shit at it, but once you find the desire and will to succeed...nothing can stop you. it's an amazing feeling.
>Sellingmyselfshort: the post
>Content with mediocrity and sadness: the post
it doesn't have to be like that though...
they call me crazy. they call me autistic. they say i'm wierd. they say i'll never pass. they say i'll never do anything ect but it doesn't matter as long as you get to where you wanna go and it doesn't matter if you're happy.
i wish i could make you understand : /
There's no way I can do it in person, I just can't. The thought of telling my dad in person makes me want to jump off a bridge. I can probably tell my mom in person, but it might be easier to write.
>it doesn't matter if you're happy
>tfw your ex from a 4 year relationship says "I was never able to make you happy, it tore me apart that I couldn't. you deserve to be happy, but I can tell that you've been in pain for a long time."
>tfw he was right
How exactly am I supposed to be happy? I've tried for so long..
I'm gonna break you, have pamcak :3
Me too desu
>gf made porridge and coffee and brought it upstairs
Well they probably won't notice right away if you prefer to wait until you look more feminine. A lot of people here have said that parents don't really seem to pay attention to that stuff; they might note that your skin looks clearer or you look younger but that's about it.
I meant after you find different things that interest you and you start out on that path you just have to work hard and believe. you have to believe in yourself and believe in your future.
good luck on your transition stuff!
The only things that ever gave me actual letters were schools, the government, bills, and my grandma. The only time *I* would send anyone an actual "letter" was if I sended some novelty postcards or holiday greetings, but even then e-cards are so much easier
Thanks. I seem chronically uninterested in stuff that doesn't involve transition (or my friends, but that's not really relevant in this scenario), so I'm afraid that doesn't do me much good but I appreciate the sentiment.
I hope whatever you decide to do about your dysphoria goes over well, too
giving your life meaning and having your hard work pay off is what makes me happy.
you can be happy in the small victories you gain in your transition until you find more substantial things that give you a reason to wake up and stuff.
You just have to put more effort into finding the things that get your blood flowing! and trust me once you find it the more you persist at it and grind away at it the more you'll enjoy it and the easier it becomes.
and yeah my dysphoria stuff is pretty annoying when i'm not focused. It's really confusing too because i'm different from others. most experience dysphoria starting at a young age. Dyshphoria randomly coming in at around 18 threw me off alot and i'm still not quite sure what to do about it. it's been 2 years now so idk if it'll just go away.
I'm gonna say you, congrats!
I don't focus on transition though, I transitioned 5.5 years ago, I'm content with my presentation, I'm content with my body. I go to school, I get good grades. I still am depressed, and I still have bouts of dysphoria from my face and voice.
I might, I'm just getting worse and I can tell.
what do you wanna do with your career?
honestly outside of my ambition i am pretty disinterested in school. i make decent grades but i have like almost zero interest there.
i really want a major or field i could really get into like my ambition.
I wanted to be a chemist, until last year of university I got to doing chemistry research and realised just how much I actually hated science as a career. I'm back in school to be a programmer, it's sort of the next best thing. I just want to code, I enjoy it a lot.
Thanks kuppy, I'll keep you posted on it. I got a list of therapists forwarded to me by a family friend today after they found out that I'm back into drugs again.