>lucid dream
>remember idea of asking your own subconscious mind questions in lucid dreams
>ask "how do I stop wanting to die"
>first answer I get is "kill yourself"
>reiterate question saying "without dying"
>no answer, turn around in dream and see my dog and old drinking buddy
>drinking buddy types in computer "leisurely cutting"
>go into hospital room, I go into hospital room after hospital room, it's progressively getting darker
>I say "show me something"
>it goes completely black, the sentiment pops in my head that this is what life comes to, absolutely nothing so I should live and have experiences while I still have the capacity to have experiences
>>19551907
Damn I should make my lucid dreams productive like that, instead of flying, getting in fights, and fucking sloots.
>>19551907
>I should live and have experiences while I still have the capacity to have experiences
inject some marihuanas, crack, meth, and heroin
it is good
I think it means that you kill youre actual beeing youre thoughts. Reset youreself and the thoughts about dying and the fear about it!
>>19551928
What the fuck are you saying?
I had a dream relatively recently I killed myself. I was on a bus and my ex gf was near me when I took a gun in my mouth. She did nothing as I pulled the trigger. I heard no click or gunshot but I was taken a short distance from where I was. I was on a parked bus at what seemed like a bus station. I went back to the bus I shot myself on to see most of the people in the area acting like nothing happened. I still struggle with depression, but it showed me that I/we don't matter in the grand scheme of things. But part of me did feel like my dream helped me learn something important. I hope it helps you too.