Recent Changes In Yourself?

>>19316802

Some people need to stop jerking off to get laid and git gud...

...I'm afraid I like jerking off more than sex... {cuz I, yu no, got gud...}

...sex is more for the bitch these days gna meen?!

>>19316802

I'm on the same boat as you. Stopped beating my meat recently and I feel great. I just felt like its something not necessary and it feeds my inner demon. But just like you, I feel like something is telling me to keep on a clean path.

>>19316802
I found that sexual energy is vital for accessing the etheric body. Without it my consciousness can't get enough force to project a solid dimensional form so I am left with remote viewing and ephemeral dreams. I found that spending time in the sun naked is a very good way to recharge the energy. Masturbating is like taking the most vital alive parts of oneself then killing them day after day. When I abstain for a while, my emotional body creates a sort of tulpa for itself that is molded according to my thoughts and energy. I consider the sacral 'Sacred' chakra like a basin of water. It will generate forms and illusions according to ones thoughts and fantasies. When it is clear without external disturbance it becomes a sanctuary for the emotion soul and it reflects the light of the cosmos within oneself. I am able to imagine that it is receiving the light from the moon and stars, and I am able to perceive them through my third eye as if their energy were dancing within my body. I consider a body like a living galaxy at this point light orbits ones soul, dna extends and retracts its arms of erotic exuberance and intimacy with the cosmos.

>>19316822
There's some deep philosophy (somewhere) in those dubs.

I suppose on a purely physical level a person can pleasure themselves better than someone else. For me, it suddenly felt like there was some sort of "energy" MISSING. Like I was noticing it for the first time. Something that would be present if I had a (loving) partner. I said to myself, "The the next time I cum it's either going to be in or on someone." (insert /b/ jokes here). And I haven't done it since (and haven't really wanted to either.).

>>19316802
I have. Ive stopped smoking weed after a 2 year every day habit almost on a whim.

Next month im going to cut out all processed foods and sugars.

I have had a skin picking issue for as long as i can remember and ive just stopped cold turkey.

I need to stop jerking off ive known i need to stop for a few months and plan to roll that into my dietary and exercise changes next month
I feel like i need to prepare.

>>19316802
Don't really know what you're into about my friend, this Aug Tellez site is new to me but I can tell you something.

I decided to stop jerking off but I don't remember how long ago maybe a month and half by now. I've been feeling really different even when I had attempted "nofap" some time ago there wasn't a feeling like this.

I feel I can start to "push" into the channels of energies within my body from the lower torso to the top of my head, I use this as a sort of meditation state to help control my awareness, emotions, thoughts, etc.

I also had a dream that was the first of its kind in my life, it was a lucid dream (had those before) but I felt like some kind of higher presence, my body was floaty and my mind was completely clear only showing a single aspect of my consciousness which I believe was my true self or whatever threshold before it.

But maybe it's just a component of a greater transformation, I still don't know if my current state is a cause or an effect.


sorry for my english

>>19316802
Kill yourself you fucking retard

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>>19316958
Kill yourselves retards

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>>19316866
(OP ^I wrote this^)
I don't want people go nofap if its just going to make you agro and miserable. I have to disagree with Augie on one thing. My gut tells me that being with a open, friendly partner would be ok. That any energy I lose to her I would receive back. There would be an energy swap but no net energy loss (for anyone). This LACK of receiving energy BACK is what I feel missing, not so much me losing my chi or whatever.

Sounds like a lot of you are dropping bad (energy draining) habits. Good for you! I just wonder if this is happening all over the world? Are these just individual things or is it like a "wave" rolling over humanity?

>>19317025
Kill yourself

>>19317019
>>19317016

Aw you not getting the enlightment signals ?

>>19317019

I would if I was sure my life would be any better, frando

I'll do Rak'Shir any day tho, bra

>im not gonna jerk it because some random schizo with a wordpress said not to.

Whatever my dude do what u want

>>19317025
My opinion is that feeling and allowing that energy to manifest within oneself is good, but the obsessive loveless pornographic pursuits aren't. I feel nothing emotionally from porn, but having that energy build up a subconscious love for oneself is pretty astounding in what it can do for esp. Its like having an invisible form that can reach out and touch the world. The spirits seem to like it when I apply love towards myself and others, and strive to respect boundaries and learn how to apply my energy towards nature. I used to get tantric dreams where I was with trees and flowers loving the goddess in nature, and she would grow in response to my feelings in beautiful ways. Having that tantric goddess connection makes nofap worth it imo.

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>>19317064
(OP)
I said I suddenly stopped FOR NO REAL REASON about 6 weeks ago. THEN I saw this weirdo thing on Augie's site.

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>>19317035
You took 30 seconds of your time just to spread negativity? I see retarded threads here all the time. I just ignore them, why not you? Next time, at least add a funny pic.

>>19317100
Please do not bully the machine-human interfaces. They are obediently providing a counter explanation, so that you have the option of freewill.

Find solace in the self evident fact that their phrasing seems as though it's copy and pasted from a word bank.

>>19317099

Tell me more about this tantric goddess connection you speak of. As it is I have trouble keeping to nofap.

>>19317035
why the fuck aren't pathetic slime like this person being banned?? seriously. it's like the mods want this place to be a piece of shit.

>>19316802
okay so I'm new to 4chan, not in a way that I've never heard of it or browsed before, just never participated as heavily as I have been within the past 18 hours.

Last week was my last fap. I literally tried two day ago, watched a little porn felt myself but it wasn't at all stimulating. Before my last fap I had fap gaps of about 3-4 days or more.

Unless I was talking to this girl I met in March_who is so awesome_nothing really got me off. I tried webcams hardcore public porn snapchat takeovers but nothing was doing anything to the point I felt good after the climax.

I felt there was a shift happening and reading your post I am convinced this last half of the year_at least for me_will be the most spiritually enlightening.

Homestuck sucks shit

>>19317475
Agreed

>>19317288
Godspeed.

>>19316822
It didn't come without signs. Signs within oneself, showing the way down every road crossed physically. In each road, it never seemed to end - racing thoughts jolting by fast, absorbing the imbalance of those passing by. Ever since beginning to tap in that essence, with Earth's frequency of 432 Hz accelerating, belting through. At times, it pulled me to a state of awareness that seemed all so sudden. It felt dissociating, but perhaps it pulled me internally closer.

It did not stop there. The recent sweatlodges, near-death experiences, feelings of something watching over since birth. As though a voice resonates throughout the mind, yet is not there. Each layer expanding and contracting.

OP speaks of transformation, we are all coming to understand it more each winding sun and moon. Every day is a new pull from within. Rising. All that comes to mind now is to not give in to pride. To give into temptation or deceit, doubt or defiance, will be to stray from the path now beginning to unfold. Within the day, we come to observe dissonance, yet only begin to understand it upon having it split ourselves further.

It shows in dreams, it has for so long. All that binds one to duality, let alone a polarity, begins to corrupt an individual away from balance. One must not look into the light, for it will blind. One must not look into the dark, for it will consume. Prevalent for many ages, in all stages - philosophy, religion, history, culture & society. We are already on the road to self-realization, for those that are wary. Have you reached self-discovery? Will you freeze upon self-actualization? Condition the mind, train the body, teach the soul. Our hearts will burn with fire like no other.

Yeah, me too OP. I was on a daily routine and stopped cold turkey. I thought I broke my brain and totally desensitized myself, but i relate with the suddenness.

>>19318452

Oh boy, a bunch of words that mean nothing.

You trying to be the next big guru, eh?

You should pick a cool trip, wouldn't want anyone pretending to be such a grand character!

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>>19318452
>>19319488
I agree. I'll try to be constructive here so, If what you say sounds like this:
>http://sebpearce.com/bullshit/
Then you might try being a little more clear.
>(on topic)
I feel like I should be eating less meat. I actually find it VERY hard to NOT eat meat, but I've been cutting it down to every other day, and trying to switch to more cheese and eggs. It doesn't seem as important as nofap but I still feel it a little.

>>19316802
And what baout the millions of normal men with a normal sex life?

Your theory is bullshit.

stopped watching porn and jerking off since having my woman in my life.

feels damn good.

sex is great i recommend it with the right person.

>>19316802
I got into healthier eating habits and started doing some minimum sport. I also broke with my gf and tried to stop fapping.

I just felt the need to find this post because of how my life has been the past year, i'll try to keep it short. I've noticed myself being happy even though i am poor as fuck and have only a few friends and never really socialize like i did as a teen when i was just like the rest of the kids my age getting drunk and shit. I almost like sense things that will happen or people say or think nowadays, i feel the anxious feeling that something is gonna happen, i've been reading conspiracy stuff online for years and years etc and nothing seems to hit me hard as these The Event things do. I also realise how differently i view the world than the rest of the people at my workplace and life in general and my gut feeling that these things are the real truth is getting more intense day by day. There's just so many 'coincidences' like synchronicity and other things mentioned that happen a lot all the time for me that i can't explain as luck or coincidence. I also think i've been 'awake' for a long long time aswell if that makes it easier for me to adapt and feel these changes.

>>19316802
DAMNIT I just fapped this morning. But I agree with you OP, I haven't felt the urge in a while either. I've been on some new medication but yeah. It doesn't really seem to do anything for me anymore

>>19317189
Its complicated, and requires yoga. The basic gist is that we have a distorted perception of ourselves and our bodies. When we embody and feel the energy within us, its like having a living connection to spirit. We can use that energy to feel nature around us, Gaia lives within us. Kundalini is the serpent power, its the goddess who built your body then went to sleep. She can be roused with dedicated yoga and love towards self and nature. Masturbation released all the energy while its in the second chakra, the personal subconscious. The 3rd chakra leads to the conscious expression of mind, and the 4th is the conscious expression of love or spirit. Men have male and female within us, we have the same x chromosomes, and the process of dna replication utilizes the masculine and feminine energies within nature. Rather than releasing the energy, I allow it to grow within myself and it becomes like a soul, a companion that I can nurture, and feel the love I give to it. I relate to Gaia through this soul, and she treats it like her long lost child, and a sibling to all of life. This formless and formed feminine energy gives me insight into reality, and reinforces my individuality as an expression of life. Side effect is when you let the energy build and do yoga, your astral body will start connecting with other people on the astral plane and you can have relationships with them.

I recently started jerking off again.
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>>19318452
Forget the assholes. I love you anon.
Let us evolve into who we are meant to be and boldy embrace the future.

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>>19320191 SEE >>19317025

My gut tells me that unless you do it 5x a day normal sex with a friendly open partner is not draining. Some of these other people seem to use nofap to build etheric power (which is interesting) but for me it's more like the spiritual desolation of spooging into a old shirt. Alone, and without love.

I think I would feel the exact same spiritual emptiness if I was with a prostitute, or a tinder hookup.

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I quit drinking soda a few months ago. I no longer feel the urge to drink the stuff anymore, I'm content with just water and coffee now. I had a sip of mountain dew the other day and it didn't even taste good to me.

>>19321079
Congrats!

Yeah I'm in the process of removing unnecessary layers. It's funny how we grow up to live on coffee, alcohol, tobacco, weed, regular masturbation etc when we didn't need any of it when we were kids. It's all distractions. Nofap doesn't suffice if you still entertain lustful thoughts (because you're just eventually going to have a wet dream). I finally asked God to help me remove these thoughts and it really helps. Of course you're gonna get tested every time you go out, and fail and get back up until you succeed. It's okay to take a step backward because you will but pray you don't and just keep on going forward, always. If it necessitates complicated rituals or symbol worship, you're probably not going toward the truth.

After about a month I start feeling pent up and get really anxious, unable to concentrate. I fapped last night and it interestingly just increased my ability to concentrate and leveled me out emotionally. Like I condensed the negative energy over the last month and expelled it, leaving only the positive.

>>19320731
>succumbing to lust
>feels good
???

it's animalistic behavior

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>>19321335
Do not judge him, anon. Let him walk his path. He will choose to experience the outcome of his decisions. The same can be applied to you. Do not try to control or force others to conform to your beliefs. It will only create resentment and conflict, even if it is done from a place of love and wisdom.
Instead, see the other beings of this world as discovering who they are through trial and error. Send out encouraging and peaceful vibes, but try to consciously resist the need to resent others for not living up to your own expectations.

I realized there was no demon inside of me but my shadow self. If I dont trigger it i can not control me. I thought I beat these habits from myself so i tested myself to withstand temptation from degenerative literature and porn. I failed so I will no longer test myself.

>>19321665
If i do not follow my shadow self or trigger it it will not take me down the path to be subjected to guilt and the sickening horror of not controlling my body and allowing a animal to rule me

What is going on?

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>>19322874
A lot of people are experiencing life changes and we're trying to figure out if it's possibly because of some kind wave or cosmic change.

Or is it just the regular number of people who spiritually evolve each year and get rid of self defeating habits.

>>19316802
Same for me man. About a month ago I just stopped looking at porn and jerkin it. No i have no desire to look at porn. Sometimes a wanna jerk but I just don't. It's weird. I also quit drinking. Never had a problem just decided to stop. I also quit eating meat. No real idea as to why.

thank you for this friend

>>19321385

i'm not the one you replied to but clearly this message was for me too

thank you

>>19317016

Asmodai is it you??

>>19320604
holy shit bro. word for word you literally described my past year. hoooooooooly shit this is fucked. I too sense things that are about to take place, whether it's what joke someone is about to make or some fairly large event in my immediate life/circle of influence, 90% of the time i'm talking to someone I feel like i can read their mind.
just... man everything you said is exactly like me

>>19324401
I keep ending sentences for people or keep saying yeah i got it even tho they havent even stopped talking Like i need to see their eyes and hear a few words and I know EXACTLY what they wanna say.

Its creepy. im no the anon who you responded too tho. just another anon.

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Used to drink heavily, eat mostly meat, and be a firm atheist. Now I sit around meditating and trying to open the third eye. Started around 7/7 after I did some MDMA and got into a very meditative state. I saw my fractal self and the fractal universe-ish it was way more than that I can't really explain. I conveyed a message to something (myself or otherwise) about what was going on in this reality and that it needed to change. It listened and changed or did something at least. After I conveyed the message I felt connected very deeply to some of the most spiritual souls on earth. Things have been happening ever since.

I am doing a 40 day period without drugs or alcohol and minimal jerking off (fucked up twice) ankhing allowed but might stop, to prepare for the black sun

I fucked up my back though and am in pain, need to see my aunt who is a powerful healer and after that I am sure I will be on track for whatever the fuck is coming.

>>19316802
Whenever I come I feel the difference in my testosterone. If I'm hot as fuck for a bitch and (I don't watch porn) I'm talking to her or something, I get turned on and I jerk it and cum and BAM!! I don't even fucking care she exists anymore.
I don't jerk it often and I've been abstinent for about a year or so now, so I have no idea what this'll do when I have real sex finally again, but I've heard that real sex has more of a rise in testosterone so I think it won't be bad.

Still, that cumming makes me so apathetic about women instantly is spooky to me, and if I ever get that urge to jerk off I usually stop before I cum because I've now associated cumming as being instant reward of sensation followed by hours of... nothing. Idk. It's very unfulfilling and discomforting. I wouldn't say I get depressed I just... don't see a point? Something like that.

I dunno what your links are OP look gay but I don't cum here often (heh) I suppose I'll read em in a few hours when I'm not busy.

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>>19324434
Don't experiment with drugs like that too much m8. They stimulate a spiritual shift but in a jarring way, it's unnatural. Sober exploration of the spirit has just as much potential and will have no side effects and less spiritual risks.

>>19324281
Well for me, I made huge changes because of the Trump phenomenon, turning me from apathetic, to hardcore nazi, and then now I'm toned down to being more capitalist, less racial, I learned a fuck load and went through many experimental ideological phases, I don't know if it's done yet or not even (doesn't feel like it) but honestly I think the political shift recently has caused a lot of people to activate if you get what I'm saying. Lots of people just realizing now there's more to the world than CNN basically. Lots of people discovering the logos and exploring the spirit for more answers.

When you see how fucked the world is you become disturbed and seek comfort. Religion and spirituality offer that.

>>19316802
how do you charge your sigils bra??

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>>19324472
Friendly advice from /x/ to /pol/ : The LAST pill you take is always the Red Pill. When you realize that there is another Red Pill to take, you realize that your last pill was just another Blue Pill.

I like Trump (as a person) but have no illusions that he can really change or fix anything. If he ever got close to changing anything (for real) they would blow his brains out like Kennedy.

When you realize that the whole left/right thing is a pointless circus show, you will have moved on to the next Red Pill. I'm happy for your expanded awareness, either way.

have some matra chants

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ebylBWgEmRw

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cf-M3ZHTcl8

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZHqmsy_ZIDA

>>19324465
>Don't experiment with drugs like that
While I would agree with you under normal circumstances, drugs are the only spirituality some people will receive in this dark world.
In better times, yes, the risk is not worth it. This world, and the times we live in, however, are not ordinary. Sometimes we have to break free by whatever means necessary.

>>19324401
Anon replying here, it's weird noticing that this is happening to so many people nowadays, these threads about how things are feeling different now. It can't be coincidence or anything, see i don't lurk /x/ a lot so im not very informed of the despair code or anything but what i've been into is reading about the EVENT things and such, the spiritual stuff. I did a quick test of what its like tfor indigo children for example and all the main traits are such taht i realised about myself a bit before i did that test. Something is going on bois

ppl always say that
nothing happens

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>>19316802

Hm. About three months ago I stopped masturbating because I felt significantly lower in vital energy for at least a day afterward. I experimented with Tantra sexual energy flow but I've stopped that too. I essentially never get erections anymore. I have wet dreams occasionally.

Maybe I'm just depressed and isolated. That too, for sure. But maybe you're right, we're storing up energy

>>19316843

same

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>>19317162

ha!

>>19317197
see>>19317162

>>19320036
I feel this very much. I almost don't crave meat at all anymore. I've also stopped dairy and eggs, but I don't condemn those - eggs are a straight up superfood, but for some reason my body rejects them now.

>>19321385
yoooo this is really really great, not just your post but the host o' posts that keep spreading this growing fiery love and companionship on this forum. Fuckin' keep it up guys holy shit

>>19324401
An integral law of the new earth, or fourth density, is complete transparency of thought. As essential an ingredient as gravity is in our world. Maybe that's why this is happening more and more (I sense it big time too). The protective layer shielding our thoughts is thinning.

Best to be comfortable with your thoughts anons!! Then others will be comfortable with them too.

>>19324465
Oddly, I've stopped desiring all drugs, including weed. I get the feeling that they will lower my vibration rather than heighten it. They used to help a lot to raise my awareness out of the fog.

>>19324696
Maybe you're right. I guess what matters most is how you feel AFTER the experience. During the experience, whatever, but the LASTING changes/effects from the experience should determine whether you do it again.

>>19326892
Somethin' is happenING. Not going to happen. It truly is happening right now.

Same thing here OP I had been gradually reducing my masturbation frequency over the past couple years, and I recently quit all together.

I am on day 58 and feel great.

>>19326921
Really?

I am on day 58 and I can get a half chub in public pretty easily if my eyes linger on a hot girl for more than a few seconds and I start thinking about how sexy she looks. I also find many more women beautiful and attractive.

>>19327041
>in public

there ya go in don't leave the house generally

when I do it's an ordeal beyond comprehension. If I've meditated and I'm in a personally stable state of mind (which increasingly I am), I can last an hour or two, max. After that the confused energies of the people around me are simply overwhelming.

>>19321318
can anyone explain this?

Good thread.

This thread cant die!

>>19316802
do not overdo it with nofap

it can lead to ED and even cancer

>>19316843
>I feel like something is telling me to keep on a clean path.

WTF! i kinda have feeling something like that too

interesting thread. i quit drinking abot a month ago b/c of the anxiety it was causing me and quit playing with my thing about a week ago, and felt much better and less anxious in general until i messed up yesterday morning and played with my thing and made the mayonnaise shoot out, and so much shot out it was weird, but my anxiety didn't come back yet, and i've shot out the mayonnaise prolly 3 times since then, and still want to shoot out more. blah today is a lost cause i'll just clean out the rest of the old mayonnaise and start fresh tomorrow ok

>>19329837
same even one hit of weed seems too much now.

>>19329837
it's puberty

>>19329851
Why did this post make me laugh so hard

Also is OP's pic a homestuck reference

Contributing to keep the thread.

Same has also happened to me too. I think it's crazy. I was vegetarian but now I'm leaning more into veganism. I've reccently been dipping more and more into meditation and breathing. I think the next step is fasting and getting all that old crap out of my system. Has anyone done or had energy work on them?

>>19316802
>I never really had a reason to NOT jerk off
If you never had a real, personal reason TO jack off, then it's not really a consequential change. It just means you're not bothering with immaterial habits as much.

I literally just jerked off.

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>>19329851
I still haven't jerked off, but for some reason, now I want a sandwich.

>>19330498
I DID have a reason to jerk off. It was as fun as anything else I could do. But mostly, if I didn't do it at least once a week, I would walk around with an erection 24/7. If I didn't do it for a month I would start having wet dreams. I would also get kinda agro and grouchy. I called it "milking the hate juice out of me."

It was only after starting the planetary ascension meditations that it seemed to go away, and I realized it's really not that fun either.

>>19330805
>I realized it's really not that fun
>as fun as anything else I could do
That's what I mean. It was inconsequential the entire time, but only noticed this very recently.

>>19316802
Did you just finish puberty Annon? I know it's shocking for some young men when their hormones aren't at excruciating intensity all of the time, anymore.

Weird shit reading this here. Last summer I just sort of stopped eating meat and I don't crave it. And when I noticed that, I realized I stopped drinking soda too and drinking milk and eating cheese too. I barely eat a dozen eggs a month and surprise of all surprises, I started eating vegetables. And not a little but like loads of fruits and veggies every day. I drink a shit ton of water now.

I stopped smoking cause one day I was suddenly repulsed by it and had this overwhelming feeling that I was poisoning myself. I also one day about a month ago felt like I could perceive how huge the universe is, I looked out the window andgot this overwhelming feeling of how massive the universe is and earth is and how tinyi am in it. Scared the shit out of me