I've fallen from the light

>>19110235
>feel the pressure in my forehead
stop taking stims before you stroke out ffs

>finally lost my virginity omg lmao ahhh

>>19110235
We struggle to balance the desires of our bodies with the aspirations of our souls.

>>19110235
>I went to a brothel in Mexico.
>I was an unstoppable force.
>What happened to me and how do I fix this?
here's a tip fucko: they don't test for STDs in Mexican brothels like they do in Nevada

>>19110235
You werent like that before, so why do you fear you will be like that forever. Dont be a child, stop taking yourself so seriously and stop making so much drama. Just go with it - fuck the shit pf those bitches, after a while you gonna get bored and go back to looking for a higher meaning, and when you are old you wont regret denying yourself your dreams(even if they are basic)

>>19110235
The Christians say you're goin to hell. Sorry bub.

>>19110235
http://www.littleknownpubs.com/Rumi17.htm

Relevant part:
" There are three kinds of creatures. First there are angels, who are pure spiritual conscience. Worship, service and the remembrance of God are their nature and their food. They eat and live upon that essence. Like fish in the water, their mattress and pillow are the water. Angels are pure and free of lust, so what favor do they gain by not yielding to such desires? Since they are free of these things, they have no struggle against them. If they obey God’s will it is not counted as obedience, for this is their nature, and they cannot be otherwise.

Second are the beasts who are pure sensuality, having no spiritual conscience to restrain them. They too are under no burden of obligation.

Lastly, there remains the poor human being, who is a compound of spiritual conscience and sensuality. We are half angel, half beast. Half snake, half fish. The fish draws us toward water, the snake toward the earth. We are forever in battle. If our spiritual conscience overcomes our sensuality, we are higher than the angels. If our sensuality overcomes our spiritual conscience, we are lower than the beasts.

“The angel is saved through knowledge,

The animal - through ignorance.

Between the two struggle the people of this world.”

>>19110235
You haven't "fallen", you just realize you have a dark side. Everyone does. Just embrace it and try to be a good person and that's the most you can do.