Who do I look for?

>>19020300

Anon, the best advice my dad ever gave me was this: "If your life isn't moving in the direction you want it to then you are expecting too much. Your life will not match up with another's. You will accomplish things in your own time and, as long as you are happy and healthy, there is nothing wrong with that."

He said this in response to me feeling lost after I had repeatedly changed majors and eventually dropped out of college. I was feeling hopeless and lost. I felt like a piece of garbage. But I took his advice and, in my own time, went back to school. The month before I went back I got hired at a plumbing and electrical supply store. I talked with a lot of seasoned electricians and I found that I loved electricity. One associates in Industrial Electrical Technology and a B.A. in Electrical Engineering later and I had a great job at a combine cycle power plant and I made a lot of money for a single guy. Months later and still following my Dad's advice and I met a girl by chance at my best friend's wedding. Now I'm married with an eight-month-old.

The moral is this, anon; seeking spiritual help is great. I'm a christian, myself. But the only thing that is keeping you from a fulfilling life is yourself. Do things in your own time and you might find some sense of worth.

>>19020380
Pretty wise words. My therapists said something similar. Do what's in your reach and don't worry too much about the future. Expectations can hurt you. Which makes me think about that song.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Rywi9oXJg08

>>19020409

You're right, man. Things will shape up in time.

Good ass song, btw.

>>19020380
This anon speaks the truth.Take control of your own life and move at your own pace.
Your life is only yours to live, so don't compare yourself to others.

how do i summon a succubus?

>>19020459
Go into a bar and pretend you got tons of money.

OP, when someone who works with energy tells you that you have blockages it means you need to address some hard ugly truths about YOU. until you take ownership of your thoughts, emotions, actions, no therapist etc. will help in comparison. from the words in your post, you are clearly constantly looking EXTERNALLY when you need to focus INTERNALLY.

the notions of "having a hard time", "loss of hope", "feeling stuck" is YOU blocking YOU, confront your truths, acknowledge them, accept them, and let go of them. you will be beyond this present discomfort if you ALLOW yourself to look at yourself with loving compasion without judgement. Or choose to walk the earth looking for you as you are now. You are choosing.

>>19020300
3:5.6.1. Is courage—strength of character—desirable? Then must man be reared in an environment which necessitates grappling with hardships and reacting to disappointments.
3:5.7.2. Is altruism—service of one's fellows—desirable? Then must life experience provide for encountering situations of social inequality.
3:5.8.3. Is hope—the grandeur of trust—desirable? Then human existence must constantly be confronted with insecurities and recurrent uncertainties.
3:5.9.4. Is faith—the supreme assertion of human thought—desirable? Then must the mind of man find itself in that troublesome predicament where it ever knows less than it can believe.

>>19020510
Damn, not even OP but i needed that bit

>when someone who works with energy tells you that you have blockages it means you need to address some hard ugly truths about YOU

>>19020300
These times often happen when one is resisting a change that life is insisting upon... maybe a move, a relationship change, a career path... any number of major life changes. If you feel like you're being pushed into something by the universe, maybe you should go with it and stop fighting.

>>19020380
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Thank you all for your replies. I am going to make another appointment to see the reiki specialist and see what she has to say, and if anything is different from the last time I saw her, which was quite a while ago. My therapist is the one who brought up the idea that I lost part of my soul when my expectations of any happiness after graduation were crushed and I lost hope. The thing is, I don't believe my expectations for life are very high. I knew it would be very difficult to get a job in my field of study so I was prepared to have to work in retail for a while.
I have, however, found my expectations of other people are too high, so maybe that includes my expectations of myself.

>>19020300
Did you lose your mom anon?

>>19021363
No, I live with both parents