Have I created a tulpa?

No
It's a manga called Deadman Wonderland

Just give good thought to who you truly are not not invest your emotions in a persona. Trust me, a persona is a fraction of your true identity you've been living for years. A persona is like a house of cards. You can dress up, wear shades, buy jackets and suits but someone who knows what's going on will see right through it, and you'll come toppling down depending on how much time you invested in it.

But with that said, it is good to try and be better and stop playing the victim and telling yourself in the back of your head that you're a loser everyday but don't try to be some rockstar or badass lone wolf when you're not. You'll find that you'll always gravitate back to your heart and not your mind made mask.

I love you and I went through stuff like thus, trying to see different sides to feel differently about myself and life. A different personality at the snap of your fingers when you need it is convenient but when you are truly tested you will regret not having bettered yourself instead of running to an imaginary self who you invested all your energy into when you were strung out.

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>>18729684
Shit dude I didn't expect some sage emotional advice I just expected "no fag it's an egregore".

I planned on moving away from my family beforehand and adopting this completely, like 24/7 if that changes anything.
Wisdom from people on 4chan usually isn't something to follow but this feels like an exception and I trust you.
>>18729672
>always disliked Japanese media
>he who fights monsters
>mfw

Has something happened to you in your life you couldn't cope with anon? This is what young adults and children do to cope. It's how dissociative identity disorder starts. It's your brain coping. Good luck buddy.