Please help

Before the last 2 days, I didn't realize these things were related, beyond a passing notion that I disregarded as ridiculous. Yet just two days ago, I re-encountered a number of YouTube videos and web articles that renewed my interest in occult and conspiracy related issues.

When I got home from a new attempt at an MRI for another joint issue (this time in my shoulder) I got a letter from the housing authority and they are evicting me due to a form submitted by a doctor I used to see, stating that I was no longer disabled, despite numerous medical records and other physicians opinions to the contrary.

The doctor in question refused to take my calls to explain why he got involved with my housing situation after not seeing me for months prior, as I had been referred to a new specialist. Even using the hospitals "my chart" web system, my emails go on being ignored and my records with his office are now gone from the web archive avalable to all patients.

This is my current situation, /x/philes. I am at a loss, at the end of my rope. Is anyone else experiencing anything like these events? I don't know what to call it, or explain it any better than this. Just that my pursuit of "the truth" is being actively punished and hindered.

I swear to you this is no RP. I will try to keep a wondow open so I can see replies and responses and answer any questions that anyone might have, if it will somehow explain my situation or at least someone to share with me their own experiences. And can we fight back somehow? Or are we doomed to live a life that "they" want and only believe what "they" want us to?

>>18642764
>keep a wondow open
Keep a Window Open
(sorry, I wish I could edit these)

If that's true, I have a question:
What is more tied to your happiness, know the truth or having peace?

Either way, you always can use tor to hide your activity. Kinda.

>>18642794
I know what you are getting at. It's sad that I have to make that choice, that I can't have both.
You know, after a lifetime of unhappiness even without seeking the truth, I think I would still pursue truth. There's just something in me that wants to know. I don't think happiness is ever possible, but finding the truth should be

OP here again
Another thing I don't understand is, "Why Me?" Why is MY pursuit of the truth worthy of punishment?

I understand, anon. But think this through. The consequences can be harsher than you realize. Like when you say you can eat that giant subway sandwich and then you regret it later.
If you reeeealy want the truth bad, at least learn everything you can about cyber security.
Bailing out. You are on your own. Good luck.

Have you ever consider that all this is just a illusion, like a false correlation?
I've done a lot of those things and all my friends had too at some extent. I think every one start getting paranoid eventually.
Try to get a better understanding of what caused your condition in the first place. Surely it have a explanation.
If it's a non usual one, then you'll know some interesting truth. : )

Well, first off, hire a lawyer and fight this bullshit.

And, I dunno. I like to keep an open mind see every perspective possible. But that kinds leaves me unable to pin anything down for certain and I end up just believing whatever I feel like, which often changes over time.

I've had similar-ish things happen to me and come up with all sorts of explanations.
But basically Id say that researching these things is probably putting you in a negative mindset/spiritual path/vibration/whatever and making you more open and susceptible to negative energy/vibrations/shit happening.
People who think positive tend to have positive things happen to them, and people who think negative tend to have negative things happen to them. Sometimes the same exact thing can happen to two people, and the results are entirely different based on their perspective of it.
You are in control of your own life, you are the one in the drivers seat, and right now you are driving down a dark road through some spooky woods filled with monsters.

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>>18642823
>false correlation?
This op.
You just happen to have rotten luck.
Maybe just try to not let it bug you? Take the facts about sandy hoax and all that at face value, and instead of obsessing, maybe try to focus more on the situation at hand and try to dig yourself out of it? Sorry, probably not the advice you're looking for, but I'm a realist, and it's the best I got. Good luck to you op.