What is this shit?

It's the real you.

Fear not OP you are just seeing a spirit(of what's I cannot say) have faith in the ones who are watching, you will be safe. Also call someone close to you(possibly your mother or a similar type figure) and get some sleep.

>>18506513
You are such a delusional faggot.

>>18506494
I'm not sure if you realize it, but schizophrenics are often insistent that they're not insane, that their hallucinations and delusions are reality. From their perspective, experiencing them, they are real, and everybody else is simply oblivious, or deceived, or part of the conspiracy, or whatever.

Don't rule out your being crazy. It's never a good first assumption, but if there are no better ones then it may be the truth.

>>18506515
Believe what you will. Also sorry for your loss

>>18506522

No I'm very aware of that, the thing is that I don't have any hallucinations besides this if that's what it is, I know what those are like, I've done my fair share of drugs before and know the difference between seeing things that aren't really there and vice versa, thanks for the suggestion but I've already considered the possibility many times before, hence the beginning of my OP

>>18506494
What you're describing is very common and is most likely Hypnagogia.

It's a special state that the mind is in when it attempts to transition from a wakeful state to sleeping.

However, as >>18506522 pointed out, then you must never rule out being crazy. That is the first symptom of every schizo out there; "it's not me, it's everybody else".

I know a lot about Hypnagogia, as i suffer from frequent Sleep Paralysis myself. It's harmless, and you shouldn't worry too much. Just google it if you want to know more.

If it can relax you, then i can tell that i have had way more vivid hallucinations when waking up or going to sleep. I have seen bats with red eyes flap around and i see faces when i close my eyes.

The difference and most important factor, is that it's only at night time or when i'm about to go to sleep.

>>18506513

How do you know that's what it is? I'll concede that it does look ethereal in the way it flows (if that makes sense) but why would it behave how it does? Why would it want me to notice it? What's with it making contact or attempting to? How does it follow me across several provinces and even onto an island?

These are actual questions, none of this makes any sense and I'm not necessarily frightened but it does make me feel uncomfortable that it's in my home and that I can't interact with it to find out why it's here

>>18506553

This actually makes a lot of sense, I only see it when I'm in bed, and it went away when I got up to have a smoke, maybe it is just my brain playing tricks as I suspected, it really startled me how vivid it was tonight though, thanks for the insight