TL;DR: A series of events has led me to believe that an angel or other power has been orchestrating events in my life.
About six weeks ago, I was using drugs about 6-8 hours a day. I had told my parents I was moving out. Not 20 minutes later, I got in an unlikely car wreck that totaled my vehicle but left me completely uninjured. (Was not on any drugs at time of accident).
I was afraid to attend Narcotics Anonymous out of fear it was some evangelical bullshit. First meeting there, the topic of the meeting was about how it's NOT evangelical bullshit.
A bunch of other things have happened and I feel like everything that happens to me now is either directing me or testing me.
Is this a good thing? Can I communicate with this entity? It doesn't seem to want to harm me but also doesn't hesitate to take things away from me.
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>>18333079
I've also been having very vivid dreams in which something is talking to me but I keep running away from it. I never look behind me to see what it is because in these dreams I'm always terrified of it.
My dreamscapes have been pink lately.
If you could ask this... being anything, what would it be?
>>18333088
I would ask it wtf it wanted me to do, in order to either cooperate with it (expediting a positive result)
Or I would resist it, if there were any ill will towards me.
Sometimes over the past few weeks I feel a presence with me, especially when driving. Unlike previous experiences I've had it doesn't set off instinctual alarm bells.
>>18333102
>wanted me to do
Maybe it doesn't want anything from you.
Maybe it's trying to give you something.
>>18333108
Establishing a two-way line of communication of some sort would be pretty nice. I'll start talking to it, see if anything happens.