Experiences with death

>>17891081
I murdered your moms pussy

>>17891119
DDAAAAMMMNNNNNNNN

>>17891081
>It's that guy who made a thread about murder a few days ago
Sup brah, I wish you the best of luck on your first kill in the future.

Actually, I hope you fumble and end up killing yourself.

>>17891119
>>17891130
this board is literally terrible

ive been to a funeral before, knowing the dead body is inside that casket. if you think you wouldn't be put off by it, you won't.

also just remembered i went to tufts and took a tour, where there were many dead bodies. the smell was that similar to grease, it was very heavy and potent. everyone seemed fine with it but i had to cover my nose or my stomach felt sick. dunno if it was the smell or knowing where it came from. anyways, they showed us things like metal in knees for acl/whatever-cl replacements, how fingers move, and we even picked up organs. a brain, spine, and i think a heart. i went in there after most people left cause i was not getting touched by them gloves with organjuice, u fuggen crazy?

>>17891140
Wait what

Was painting a house once with my sister's husband.

They were moving back into their old house, and the previous residents had all moved out except for one. As far as I know, he didn't work, so when everyone moved out he didn't have a place to go because no one wanted him to come with them since he didn't have money to pay for bills.

So he was basically maxing out his time to stay at this home, until the last second.

We started painting early, and he was around a bit but didn't talk much. Looked sweaty and a little off. Eventually around noon he receded into his room.

We finished up with our work and started packing up, and we realized... We haven't seen this dude take a piss in over 6 hours.. or get food. Maybe we should check on him? Knocked on his door for a while and he didn't answer, eventually we busted it in and found him dead.

He hung himself on his closet door. Will never forget how mangled his face was, with his jaw protruding outwards and open after it getting broke from the fall.

I didn't know him, but I did find out that his wife had died young and he had no family... so they burned his stuff in the backyard. Dozens of bibles bookmarked to passages around his room, and pictures of his wife and empty bottles of booze.

Must have meant a lot to me being that young, because I stopped being religious after that.

I feel like, if god or Jesus couldn't stop for two seconds and help this dude with a "Hey man, things will be okay.".. then I don't really feel like praying to them anymore.

>>17891140
Not me. I made this after finding a dead frog outside my house. This isn't about murder anyways, just death in general.

>>17891081
My brother put a shotgun in his mouth and pulled the trigger. He was about 20 feet from me when he killed himself. This was about 2 years ago.

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>>17891242
That sounds terrible,
I hope you're alright

>>17891276
Yes I'm ok. Thanks for asking. It was rough, and worse because he threatened me with the gun and fired it next to me right before shooting himself. I had a few months of being really jumpy over loud noises, and nightmares for a while. He did it in my house, and I'm about 30 feet from where he died right now. Nothing like seeing biohazard tape strung up in your house to give you the creeps.

On a road trip last year going through New Mexico and a car rolled a couple times about a mile ahead of us, landing right side up. Others were already stopped and calling police, as we drove around the debris I looked through the cracked drivers window and the guys head was split like a melon all over the front seat.

Seen a dead guy getting carted out of his apartment, all pale with that half lidded look of peace in his eyes as well. Also been to some open casket funerals, nothing too shocking there cause they make them look pretty

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Me and another neighbor were the last to see a neighbor alive.

M. was an alcoholic and lived alone in a small apartment above a garage on a neighboring property behind my house. I was never on good terms with the guy as he'd wander into my yard drunk and would piss. One night he was especially boisterous and drunk to the degree that he was moving about his porch on his hands and knees. After him yelling, slurring and making a racket for maybe an hour (the cops around here are useless), I yelled to him to "drop dead." I still feel bad about saying that, even if the dude was a colossal piece of shit; no one deserves to die like that. I woke up a few hours later to his house fully engulfed. Apparently he had punched a biker at the bar a few months earlier.

I remember firefighters lowering his body to the coroner after they had outed the flames. He was a large man, 300+ pounds, XXXL. The wrapped linen on the gurney was as small a child.

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>>17891081
i was in a nearly fatal car accident and i don't like to think about it
i will say though that i have never ruled out the fact that i was probably unconscious or in limbo
main reason being i had taught myself how to lucid dream years prior due to reoccurring nightmares
>teaching brother how to drive stick
>third or fourth time out, getting the hang of it
>bum fuck nowhere just to be safe, old country road
>of course there's a deer around the fucking bend
>no time for counter-steer tutorial, already heading off road
>blink
>???
>wake up to bro shaking me furiously
>car is on its side, drivers side in the dirt
>get out, survey the damage

ill get back to the ??? but
i actually laughed at the fact we survived
>veered into ditch
>rolled a few times
>went through a fence, hit some tress, and narrowly missed a 50ft drop into a ravine
>no airbags deployed
>top down, dads convertible

we should have died, and i think i did die at least for a moment
>???
i dont really want to talk about it, but i think i was in limbo? it wasnt a dream, because it was made very clear to me that whomever i met/talked to was not me nor a representation of myself
>lucid dreaming
it was weird because i knew in reality that my body was still in the car, but i couldn't wake up

>>17891242
Different anon but wishing you all the best, anon.

I hate to ask but was your brother in the military?

>>17891314
Thank you. No, he was a drafter, used auto-cad. He liked guns though, and would have done well in the military if he hadn't had back problems. The discipline I think would have been good for him.

watched that black guy get killed in Red Stick on ytub just a few minutes ago. Pretty fucked up when his arm twitches and raises as he passes. like he was fighting something. if u missed it, look again.

when I was 6 I went fishing with my drunk dad and older bro. long story short I fell in the canal reaching for a stick when standing on the culvert. it was maybe 7 feet deep where I went in. I was small and didn't know how to swim, all I remember was standing on the canal bottom and jumping up to try to get air. I could ingredients get my head out of water. I was coming up maybe a foot short. it was torture. i remember seeing my dickhead dad but he didn't see me. last thing I saw. pure white. I woke up in my dad's truck. my big bro saved me! he says he didn't even know wtf I was below the water until he looked and didn't see me. he started hitting my chest and did a half asked attempt at car. God saved me. my big bro is a dummy he don't know any car. however he did spot me and pull me up. my biological father was a mother cycle dude, President of a large chapter. he was a killer. beat of. my mother, brother. badly. but aside from brain games he was not that bad on me. many times I woke up as a child to see him holding my mother off the ground by her neck and he had his buck knife to her.
"
Dad".. last time I saw him I was 12. he did a drive by on my mom's and I house. shot over 30 rounds. a bullet went under my bed. the hole from outside the house ..yep u guessed it. I should have been dead, again. I am a blessed individual. God is an amazing thing. old dick head dad died at 58 suposedly . I never saw him past 12.
my older brother and his best bud did get to beat my dad to a pulp, broke just about all his bones. that was later the night of the shooting.
remarkable that I'm sane and an excellent father to my kids, wife. but I can't drink or my demons pop out.

>>17891307
Sounds like you had an out-of-body experience. Did you see a white light?

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I had just turned 10 when a friend and I were debating on what to do on a summer afternoon. We were sitting out front of our neighbor's house when he had pulled in. We continued arguing, but I found it strange that the neighbor didn't reciprocate my wave when he'd pulled in.

Our neighbor, wearing sunglasses, spent his time pulling gasoline tanks from the back of his car, which I didn't find odd as I was 10 years old and also arguing with my stubborn friend about what to do for the remainder of the day.

My friend and I couldn't agree and he went home, but I sat outside of our neighbor's house for a few minutes before returning home. After clearing the car of the gasoline tanks, he returned one last time without sunglasses. His eyes red, he returned the wave and closed the trunk of his car.

I went home, not thinking about the strange interaction. Hours later, I noticed a large cloud of smoke from my neighbor's house. I went to the house to investigate, only to find that the house was in flames. I ran into our other neighbor's house, an older woman who was close to the man who I had spoken to earlier.

She called 911 and the first responders arrived. They retrieved the man, who I had seen just hours before, from the home. His skin was covered in ash and burnt. He was dead. He had committed suicide, likely because of a divorce, and the insurance wouldn't cover the house being rebuilt for when his wife returned home from her vacation.

I was commended for my "quick thinking" in alerting someone who was able to contact authorities and was given a proclamation at a town meeting. The whole experience was an awful one. I felt responsible for the death of the man for some reason. I still do. I have recurring nightmares where I relive the experience again.

I maintained a close personal friendship with the neighbor who contacted authorities until her death last May.

I've had a good number of relatives die, but no other death has impacted me like that one.
Cl

>>17891342
no i did not see a white light, i didnt talk to jesus, it wasnt valhalla or whatever

all i know is that 30-45min passed because i remember looking at the clock prior to going around that bend, felt like i was out for an entire day almost

i dont want to talk about what happened during said experience because it had a significant impact on my outlook on life, and it wouldnt be right for me to influence anyone else's in the same way

kind of off topic. but I have lost3 close friends this year's. and numerous other acquaintances over the last 18 months. I'm to young for this . and it's very strange. my 3 close friends deaths are all very mysterious. and we have had 2 suicides in the family. it's insane. has anyone else lost alot of people these past 2 years?

I'm also dude above who drown with the drunk dad. Apologies for my typing. tired. thanks

>>17891439
In the past 3 years I've lost my grandmother, my mother and my brother, and my brother-in-law just died 3 weeks ago. I feel you Anon.

oh idk, guy got killed 10ft in front of me by ordarlies. They killed him, parametics come rushing in try to recesetate him. Had friends die in car crashes,kill them selves, cancer. Been to a dozen funerals. Almost died 4-5 times. Been to the otherside twice. idk shits stupid. Buried brothers, mothers,aunts,uncles.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dhwHJ7dFp58

When I lived in cali, one of neighbors died. Her and her husband were kinda junky bums, living off welfare and favors, you know the type. One morning we were still on our pajamas when her husband comes over and tells us he can't wake her up. He said she woke up early in the day and made breakfast and then came back to bed and now he can't get her up. So we get there and call the police immediately and they give us instructions on how to resuscitate. I know she's really dead at this point but my mother-in-law didnt want to just give up (they were buddies kinda). So we start to move her to the floor and she's in rigor and I just put her down and put my hand on moms shoulder and tell her that its enough. Then we waited for the ambulance. It was bad. She was cold and waxy and pissed herself. Sad. I took a scalding hot shower for about forty minutes.

>>17891081
I watched a man pull out in front of a semi right in front of me he was ejected from his vehicle it was pretty gruesome

>>17891485
*grandparents,sisters

Saw my dad pass away slowly from cancer. He died holding on to my mom's hand in my living room on a hospital bed. The last month or so was the worst. Just watching him deteriorate until he just stopped breathing. He was surrounded by me, my mom, and my two brothers as he slipped away from existence.

>>17891522
felt my brother go cold after having been dead a while, stuff like that.

>>17891546
dad is crying his eyes out constantly for an hour. I'm rubbing his hair in the er. were talking popcycle city.

>>17891530
Same thing with my grandmother. I lived with her, she raised me. I was only 10 yrs old. It changed me. She was diagnosed did one chemo round and then they moved her back home on hospice. Miss her.

>>17891576
after a while it sinks in, your really never gonna see them again.

>>17891439
When me dron ,Dr medicine szy me brain damage. Unpossible! Me type like stakespeare

>>17892172
Daddy and big brudder now car now

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When I was 17, I held my Grandfather's (from my mother's side) hand as he passed away while everyone else was out getting lunch. He was 74 and died of bowel cancer.

When I was 19, my Grandmother (from my father's side) died of pneumonia, originating from Alzheimer. She had no memory of who I was or why I was there. Literally, everyday, I was a new person to her.

When I was 23, my brother was killed in combat while posted in Timor. He was struck by a stray bullet that hit his left leg, severing his femoral artery. There was a lot of speculation as to whether it was friendly fire or from the rebels that attacked his squad.

My uncles a cop and one time he had to watch a guy burn to death in an overturned car

>>17891081
Paramedic here. I've seen lots of people dead on scene or who have died in front of me on scene or on the way to the hospital. Murders, suicides, car crashes, factory accidents, SIDS; I've seen a lot but not everything. There's nothing special about death, it just happens. No weird feeling or presence bullshit some people claim when they witness someone die. Sometimes it's sad, usually it's not.

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moot owns 4chan hella porn program man his genticals are huge size f his arm

>>17892876
If this thread is still alive when I have some downtime at work tonight, I'll tell some stories if people are interested.

Yes my grammar is atrocious. Deal with it.

>>17891081
I've attended autopsies for almost 2 years total, ask me anything

>>17892901
If you're in the US, do you know if it's legal for a person to just own human bones, assuming they can prove they got them legitimately?

>>17892905
Yes. You can buy human bones online. India is a big supplier.

>>17892905
Europeanbro here. Don't know if it's legal but almost every medical student I've met had human bones

>>17892921
>>17892919
Cheers m8s.

I can't say much but I've intentionally killed one person, accidentally killed another and drove someone to suicide. Some you regret some you don't. Regardless, you never forget that vacant stare in their eyes afterward

>>17891081
Mortuary Science major here.
They're dead. That's it.

They aren't spoopy. They're people who aren't people anymore.

Two months ago my aunt on my mother's side passed away from lung cancer. I watched her die in hospice care. By the end, she was just a bloated, spotted, sagging version of her old self. She had the reputation of being the biggest badass around, and there she was, in the hospital and barely able to open her eyes let alone breathe. I don't think I'll ever forget the gurgling noise she made while struggling to breathe.

>>17891081
13 years ago this week I saw a laborer get run over with a backhoe. He lived about 15 minutes and died on the jobsite. I still think about it every year around this time.

I had a near death experience getting hit by something while crossing the road at night, amnesia made experiencing breakups again fun. . .

Was working on a roof second story about ten years ago with one of my good friends, he was struck in the head by lightning. Instant death. I woke up in hospital.

>>17892941
sure you did buddy

>>17892941
*tips fedora*

Few years ago with my bros, while walking alongside the shores of local river, i had a random idea to go fish for stuff in the river, pretending to try and get Wilson (From castaway).

With combined effort we fished out a wallet. 100 bucks in it. We blew it all on booze and food.

Two days later we heard that that same day, but few hours prior our arrival, cops found a dead body in the same river, except it was more upstream.

>tfw stole dead peoples shit

>>17891081
My dad helped a homeless man kill himself, the guy jumped in front of my dad's semi. Creamed the dude of course, no one claimed his body, no one even came forward with his identity for three months. Thr only thing on him was his suicide note that said "I'm starving, im cold and im tired. God knows i did my best. bury me, dont burn me."
. the guys family showed up demanding money but the court ruled in our favour somehow.
Shook my dad up, he said it was the most fucked up noise he's ever heard. He doesn't talk about it at all unless you press him for the story.I think he feels like he killed the guy himself.

>>17892882
true

>>17891349
When did the elderly woman neighbor die in May?

>>17891081

Stumbled upon my stepdad's hanging body. You know, I did pretty good coping with it throughout middle and high school - despite some small anti social snags here or there. Now my friends and I are all in our early twenties and some of my threads are becoming much more undone. It's true, that shit does catch up to you. Egos are weird.

>>17891530
Same here anon

He even got a bone marrow transplant from his sister but it just wasn't enough. He died in my mom's arms

I went to college in Providence, RI. Most students off campus lived in these Victorian mill houses. Pretty identical, 3 stories, etc.
One Friday night my roomies and I were watching movies. We heard cops, fire engines etc, breaking up a party across the street. There were a few girls hysterically crying and screaming in the street. We just laughed and joked that it must have been a really good party.
We found out the next day that two people died at that party. It was on the third floor. The guy was sitting on the edge of the bay window. The girl was leaving, and went over to give him a hug. She lost her balance, fell into him, and they both fell out the window, landing in the driveway. He died instantly. She died at the hospital the next day.
When I went out to go to work the next morning, there was still a fairly big puddle of blood in the driveway.
Still fucks with my head. Going from hugging a friend to dead in the driveway in a second or two.

>>17893603
I actually live right down the street from those houses, that's some pretty scary shit. Any news articles on this?

>>17893603
Probably in the Projo. It was in the Spring of 1997 iirc. Possibly early Fall 1996.

This whole thread is depressing and sad. I am sad now. Cheer me up anons.

>>17893603
>>17893608
>>17893613
http://www.southcoasttoday.com/article/19970420/news/304209958
I guess some of my details were dodgey. It was all gathered from neighbors the morning of/night after.

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>>17891081
I had to go to the hospital and see my moms dead body when I was 20 years old. She died suddenly during a pretty common operation. It was pretty traumatizing. Life didn't even seen real for at least a couple of months. Ive also rolled my truck multiple times like in an action movie down into a small river. this is the truck afterwards.

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>>17894125
here's another picture. I was probably going around 65 and veered off into the cornfield, all I remember was waking up and seeing corn. then a huge bang, lots of some kind of movement, and then another big bang and i was sitting upside down in my seatbelt.

>>17891242
I hope you're ok, Anon.

>>17891081
>tfw about 5 years ago, going to a cousin's funeral
>tfw hearing he was helping his buddy with roofing shit, he took a break, went to sleep, and died from a brain aneurysm
>tfw he was about 28

its just amazing how one moment someone's alive, and the next moment - bam! they're gone.

it feels crazy

>>17891081
i watched a toddler choke to death on a free sample at work once. paramedics couldn't revive it.

>>17891081
I used to party at a house owned by an older guy who boarded a co-worker and her boyfriend.

The owner was a nice guy who had fallen on hard times and spent his nights drinking in front of the television.

I didn't see the body, but one night after I had gone home, my friends found him dead on the couch. I didn't find out until the next day when I called to see if they wanted to get together.

My next door neighbor went in a similar manner. His wife is still alive and well.

As a teenager my uncle succumbed to Hepatitis C. I visited him in the hospital after he went into renal failure. He was comatose.

He had always been a cut-up kinda guy, often joking and wise-cracking his way through family functions. It was strange to see him in such a vulnerable state. He died a few days after my visit.

I still pour him a drink every now and then.

tl;dr: Death sucks, live your life to the fullest and do the things that make you happy.

>>17893482
>My dad helped a homeless man kill himself, the guy jumped in front of my dad's semi.

i hate fuckers like that. if you're going to kill yourself, then do it alone and don't cause someone else grief and anguish the rest of their lives.

sorry for your dad, dude.

>>17891081
For me, the death/body part aren't so bad - but they still do have their toll on me. Funerals are traumatic for me, as everyone there is incredibly sad and hurting.

>>17891289
What an ordeal. But why did he do all that?

My older brother hanged himself when I was 11 years old. I still live in the house he did it in. To be honest I don't remember much mainly out of shock and depression, kind of let it leave my mind over the years. It was the perfect age to completely understand what was going on, yet completely repress it as well.

Don't know where he did it, don't know why, all I can yell you is it is a very very terrible feeling. I woke up one morning and there was a bunch of family in my house, my mother took me to my bedroom and told me that my brother "killed himself last night"

Went to the funeral and everything. Open casket.

Death is pretty cool and all in film and the like but when it directly affects you it is a feeling you cannot shake.

I saw tens of people die right under my eyes. I work in ER though. It's strange and sometimes creepy but nothing x

I worked in construction for a bit. One job was renovating an old bank. There was a team tarring the flat roof. One of the guys on that team was in his 30s, with tattoos on his neck. I remember seeing him at the end of the day, he was hurriedly coiling extension cords swearing under his breath. I remember wondering if he'd thought about what his neck would look like when he got old. About 10 minutes later I heard an ungodly crashing sound and someone started screaming. I walked outside and saw the guy laying sprawled out on his back with his ankles under a metal extension ladder that had a heavy roofing hoist on it. Another guy was screaming for help with whitish foam spilling out of his mouth. One of his guys dragged him away from the ladder, which had fallen against power lines when the two had tried to move it. The crash sound was the electricity arcing. One of the other workers walked back into the building pointing at Tattoos and said "That guy's dead". Someone else weakly said "No he's not", but he was. Mouth open, looked like he had just fallen asleep, eyes closed but they were blackened. This was about 18 years ago. The screaming man made it, life flighted out, but had holes in his feet and hands where the electricity exited his body. We were all in shock. It was in the papers. I've never written this out before. Some things you don't forget.

>>17895692
Samfagging but damn just found this if anyone's interested. Weird seeing it written out.
http://articles.courant.com/1998-04-29/news/9804290346_1_parking-lot-building-two-men

>>17891081
I am vet (Iraq) and have seen plenty of dead bodies, half dead bodies, people eviscerated, decapitations etc etc...in the beginning it fucked with me but after a while I became de-sensitised to it and now I literally am bored by it.

>>17891119
Kek

>>17892905
I'm pretty sure it is. The Mythbusters had a shop they went to in San Francisco just to buy human bones for experiments. It was called The Bone Room, or something similar to that.

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>>17891081
When I was 14, my grandpa came to stay with me and my mom. While I was at school, he blew his brains out in our guest room.

They don't mention this in crime shows on tv, but when the people in hazmat suits come in to clean the crime scene, it's not free. That service was too expensive and my mom refused to enter the room so I had to clean it.
My grandpa used a Smith and Wesson 500, so it really made a mess. I had to clean my grandfather's brain matter off the walls of my house.

>>17895796
fucking hell
thats cold

>>17892941
Old ass pasta

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>>17895796
Jeeeesus that's fucked up.

>>17891081
Once I was arriving at home and there was a man executed with headshots in the middle of the street where I lived. I ran to sorta pretend I cared to the house of the nearest neighbor and he said he'd already called the police, but I noticed he was caring as much as me. I relocated a few months later. Such is life in Brazil.

>>17896429
Another story. When my grandfather died in the emergency room and we left it, suddenly an "unbranded" car with two policemen stopped, and they calmly offered us to sell a fake death certificate to avoid autopsy. My late mother was a nurse, who couldn't care less about it, and just told them to fuck off.
Another time I was about fifteen years old and paying a visit to the biological sciences state university library, to photocopy a couple of articles on mammalian evolution from the Evolution journal, and when I got out of the library I could see a bit far away a room full of medical students preparing to perform autopsy in about a dozen bodies. After a couple of minutes someone noticed me and my horrified face and then the curtains of the room were closed.
Those are not exactly hallmarks of a fucked up life. Other things happened that are not relevant to this thread, except perhaps for the horror stories my mother told about when she was working, but now I realize it's no wonder I ended browsing 4chan daily. Goddammit.

>>17891081
>drowned in pool at age 2
>nailed head on dresser age 7
>almost od'd age 14
>almost died by nailing head on water faucet after a 6 foot fall at age 16. Cardiac arrest afterwards.
Yeah, I've had experiences with death. You know what's there? No grassy fields, no perfect heaven. When you die, that's it. Black. Nothing. You die, and nothing else occurs. Your brain gels inside your mind and you go black after a slow and strange set of colourful and odd sensory oddities, that's it. Game over faggot.

Make your own life.

>>17895796
holy shit
didn't you also tell this story on /b/ one day as well?

>>17896503
That depends on the person. I suggest reading this book from the State of New York University Press (I mentioned the imprint so that you won't the book was made by a crackpot; I specially like this book for the way he crushed Eddie Sagan's ramblings in The Demon Haunted World about Near Death Experiences being a replay of birth experience. You may read it on page 110:
https://a.pomf.cat/hxwjmx.pdf

>>17891148
May have been formaldehyde or some kind of preservative, I've never known a dead body to smell like grease.

The kind old lesbian who lived across the street from me and once saved me from being kidnapped was murdered with an axe by a man who she'd turned down when I was 6-7ish.

I pretty much watched my adoptive dad die at 9, left the room before I could see my great grandmother die at 10.

Pretty much everyone worth a damn in my family other than my mother and sister died when I was in the 8-12 range. The only one that I'd hoped would die is still alive and kicking, and treating nursing home employees like shit.

I nearly died in a car accident several years back. I'm mostly recovered at this point. I lost 40% function in my left thumb and have permanent nerve damage in my right hip, and thus a slight limp.

>>17896520
I read it a little bit.
The first two, I clearly had an NDE. Specifically the first one. The feeling you get when you're nostalgic about something you haven't seen since you were like 5 is very close to the feeling of a brain death. Familiar, colourful, and vibrant. The last moment is like falling into a deep sleep. You feel nothing, yet you feel encapsulated by a deepness. The last was, as doctors put it, probably going to kill me whether doctors were there or not. That one is where I realized that all the shit that comes before is just a chemical response to the shutdown of human life giving systems. In that case, cardiovascular.

When I was a kid, I saw a woman get mowed down by a car.

Her scalp came off and she skidded down the road.

I can't really remember much other than that, must've instinctively blocked the sight out to protect my fragile young mind.

>>17891338
Pretty loose life, what country you from?

>>17891426
Mate you cant say that last paragraph and not elaborate at least a little, some of us might go through our lives without such an experience so your thoughts on the matter may be invaluable.

>>17891502
thats sad anon
you said they were junky, was it an overdose or drug related?

>>17892886
p-please share

>>17891530
Cancer is horrible to witness especially if it takes a couple of weeks/months. With old people it isnt so bad but my aunt died of it in her forties and going from a bright, funny woman to a shell of herself that could barely speak in her last days was terrible. It was as if she aged 40 years in 2 weeks.

>>17896622
Based on him calling Baton Rouge "red stick" and the general trashiness of the story I'd say Louisiana or thereabouts

>>17895698
Cheers man, good story in its starkness. Alive then dead in 2 seconds. I imagine its not a great memory .

>>17895796
Fucking hell, your mum is either borderline evil or was in some serious shock.

Making a 14 year old do that is fucking nuts, surely at the very worst if money was a big issue she could have got an adult neighbor to do it or whatever, even getting in contact with a local church or some shit and they might help you out.

>>17891530
Damn. I read your post while sitting next to my mother in law (who has Aml Leukemia) here at the hospital. She's like a second mother to me, and I've been her caregiver for about a year now and I can tell its coming to and end. She's been fighting for over a year and cant seem to get back into remission. Finally started clinical trials here at MD Anderson a couple months ago but nothing works quite long enough. She was released today after 1 and a half month long stay. We didn't even make it home before she started having trouble breathing and fever, and here we are getting readmitted for the 100th time. Cancer is hell. Especially this Leukemia. Transfusions every day. Pain every day. It drains everyone, including the family. They've already told us she's too deteriorated to qualify for further trials. But she wants to keep going. It's hard to watch someone dying. Its hard to watch someone reduced to bones. Its hard watching someone talk to dead relatives in their sleep, or hallucinate when they're awake. Its hard to consider palliative care when she feels like it means admitting defeat. Its hard to watch someone in denial of the inevitable. Watching them pray for a miracle to salvage what little life they have left. We all want to live, but it seems like death is so much kinder than living this way. If you can call it that. Im sorry, Anon. Just needed to vent.

I was in a car crash once and like flew out the passenger window and my head landed like 2 inches away from a rock when I came to a sheriff was right over me an was like "you should be dead" but i wasn't actually hurt. I'm weird about death it freaks me out like my mom died a couple years ago and she was in the hospital for like a month and I didn't go and visit her once cause I didn't wanna see her connected to tubes and all that kinda shit.. Shits depressing.. Plus she was in a coma anyways so no point in visiting. Then a month after she died my dad died in the middle work or a massive anurysm in his abdomen. Ahhh life. lool

Nothing quite like watching someone die slowly. My mother was in hospital for two months struggling to survive after a severe stroke, and it's not a fun experience. Not something I would wish on my worst enemy, it fucked me up for life, basically.

>saw first dead body around the age of 7 or 8 maybe
>at grandma's (father's side)
>one aunt lived there as well and a cousin was over that day so we were playing
>grandma asks me to check on aunt
>go in aunt's bedroom to find her lying facedown on the floor
>tl;dr drug OD, didn't know she was dead at the time but it didn't phase me for whatever reason

>13
>out one night with parents, friend of father's (Richard), Richard's son, and a ladyfriend of Richard
>plan was to go boating and shoot off fireworks (I think this was around 4th of July)
>Richard puts his small bass boat in the water first, goes a couple hundred feet out (can't see shit in the darkness)
>we hear him call my father's name, small break (could have been seconds or minutes, honestly don't remember), calls my father's name again
>then we all hear a splash
>tl;dr fell off the boat, hit his head on the side which knocked him out, and he drowned, also turned out that he had ~13 Xanax in his system when his body was found

>18 I think
>walk in living room to see my father mid heart attack from drug OD
>bloated purple face, body covered in sweat, slouched sitting on the couch and sliding down
>turned around and walked back to my room
>he was only saved due to my mom finding him seconds afterward

I can't remember any other specific incidents off hand but if I do, I'll post.

Some South American gay tourists stared talking with me loudly and flirting with me on the train. I was uncomfortable so I went and took the next train instead.

I was stuck in the tunnel for more than an hour with a bunch of strangers. Even worse.

But it gets even more darker - turns out the reason I got stuck with the second train was because someone jumped in front of the train I was originally sitting on with the South American homos. I was also sitting as far in the front as possible, meaning I would've seen the blood splatter and everything.

I sort of regret going off. Sounds crazy, but maybe it would give me something.

When we passed the station it was a bloody scene. Looked pretty freaky.

>>17899340
Same guy.

I haven't witnessed death but my cousin recently killed himself. I should feel something, but I don't. I don't feel anything. Even though I was quite recently talking with him and everything. I guess my feelings will come later.

>>17891081
im an emt to yes to all of those. but on my first day of interning before i was even licensed i got a suicide so that was pretty neat. i was actually contemplating killing myself prior to that but after seeing that ive decided against it.

>>17899340
>I sort of regret going off. Sounds crazy, but maybe it would give me something.
wtf would that give you?
t. /svt/

>>17891157
poor guy

Nothing too exciting here but, I work in a nursing home.

Most people I work with flat out refuse to do post mortem care (cleaning the body, redressing it, fixing the hair, taking out dentures) for the mortuary workers who pick them up. I never cared. I've handled dozens of elderly corpses. I work in a large home, funded by the state. It's big. Clean. And carries an impressive reputation in my state. So, with so many people living there, I deal with a body every month or so.

I do get weary sometimes thinking about all the bodies I've handled and if they've ever stuck with me. I mean I'm the first one to touch their corpse after they die. I literally have to drop what I'm doing, go to the floor and the room and start prepping their body. Maybe some of em follow me or stay with me. I've done dozens and dozens and dozens.

>>17899593
how does it feel doing that to people you know and probably talked to recently?

Also haven't you picked up a "weirdo" reputation since you're the one who "wants" to handle the bodies

>>17899303
>>turned around and walked back to my room
?

>>17899617
Nah. It's mostly women I work with. If I'm off work and a death happens they fucking bitch at me that I wasn't there.

When I get approached to do yet another body I don't get a hard on and start rubbing my hands together while licking my lips. I just...do it. I shrug my shoulders, finish what I'm doing, and do it. They know I don't mind doing it. I dunno. I never care. Just part of my job.

This is a pretty vague memory, but I'm certain I'm remembering it correctly. Haven't thought about it in years.

>5 or 6 years old, playing on the playground during the afterschool program
>it's for kids who don't take the bus or have a ride home until their parents get off work at 5 or whatever
>the playground is in front of several busy intersections, seperated only by a small hill and fence
>sudden loud noise from the road
>everyone starts freaking out
>i look to the street and see a stationary car with a twisted up leg sticking out from underneath it
>one shoe several feet away in both directions
>people frantically approaching the scene
>teachers come grab us and usher us all inside before I can see anything else
>once there we are instructed not to tell anyone, even our parents, what we saw that day

Again, it's an incredibly blurry memory. What stuck with me the most was the shoes, and the staff asking us not to tell. I told my parents, but I don't remember their reaction.
Somehow I remember finding out that the kid died.
That was my first experience with death.

>>17900707
hope you get paid more

>>17900711
>>once there we are instructed not to tell anyone, even our parents, what we saw that day
why? and did you tell?

>>17899769
I didn't do anything after I saw him. I don't have a good relationship with my father so I was hoping that would kill him off but I didn't get so lucky.

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A vivid memory that I don't think I will ever forget.

>Be like 3 years old, being hurried along the street by my mother.
>Lots of commotion on the opposite side of the road
>'keep walking kiddo'
>Curiosity got the better of me
>Actively duck past her so I can see why all these people are gathering.
>Old lady led on the ground, half of her head missing and an enormous puddle of blood on the floor.
>Still see her mouth and eyes moving.
>Makes eye contact with me
>See the weakness in her eyes.
>Get fucking yanked away by a distressed mother

I was too young to understand at the time but those eyes will never leave me.
Never found out what exactly went down either.
Makes me sad to imagine the discomfort she felt in having all these people and some annoying kid staring at her for her last moments.

>>17897577
Cancer survivor here. I've thought about if I ever get it again. I'm probably going to just travel to my child hood home town and kill myself in the woods I used to play in all the time. Just seems right.

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>>17896511
I don't think so. I might have, but I don't think so.

>>17896712
She was pretty unstable at the time. But she didn't really make me. The situation was "this happened, there's nobody we can call, and my mom just isn't going to do anything, and that room needs to get cleaned". So I just walked down to the store, bought some peroxide and gloves, and when I got home I went to work.

My mom was very reclusive. She didn't have any friends and we didn't know our neighbors. I thought about asking them, but I came to the conclusion that it would be insane to ask our neighbors for help. I mean, what would I say? "Hi, an old man you don't know offed himself in my room and he left a mess. Help me get his blood out of the carpet?"

Shit happens.

I work in a hospital morgue and I used to work within patient care. The first few times I saw the big blue bags that the bodies are moved in I was bit uneasy but I've become immune to it and knowing that I've done the best for the person is oddly comforting.

>>17896503
Just because your Game Over screen sucked doesn't mean everybody's does.

>>17891081
My father had terminal cancer. I got the call he was going and raced to my parent's house. I got there just in time for his last moments. I didn't expect the ragged quick breathing that stop and start and then nothing...

I'm glad I could be there with him in his last moments, but it still haunts me.

I'm a med student so I've seen countless bodies, body parts on tables etc. Strangely enough I saw a dead body on my way leaving the univsersity. It was a murder and was very recent as the first respondents just arrived as I walked past.

One class whilst studying neurology there was a bucket filled with human brains. We all grabbed a brain from the bucket and studied it. Was pretty surreal knowing that the 15 or so brains in their once belonged to living breathing humans. I've been hands deep inside of many corpses whilst studying anatomy. Some find it disgusting but its absolutely fascinating to me. A cut open body does not look anything like diagrams, its just a big squashed mess

Saw someone get stabbed on my school bus, he had a ruptured spleen and punctured lung iirc. Saw my mom high and drunk a lot, to the point of self-destruction.

>>17900810
Cold

When i was 4 years old, I saw my grandpa in his coffin,I can´t remember another thing about him, just his dead body.

When I was about 7 I was at the dentist when an old man had a heart attack in the waiting room. The paramedics were called but it took them about 10-15 minutes to get there. I later learned a few years later that the man had died not too long after the incident.

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I worked patient transport at a hospital for a while. I was in the room when I patient died
>fat bastard around 55 or so
>I don't know what was wrong with him but every time me and the nurses have tried to move him he screams in pain.
>he's been there for a few days now.
>get call for emergency transport
>get to the room and he's screaming in pain.
>nurses are doing there thing
>see nothing but terror in the guys gave.
>watch as the life leaves him
>his eyes change from alive and terrified to just dead.
>walk out off the room and wait for them to do the time of death and bag him up
>me and 4 other people take him to the morgue in the basement.
>look back as I shut the freezer door and break down in tears.
>leave and never go back
This was in like 2012 2013 and I still can't get that look out of my head. He knew he was about to die and he was terrified. Rip fat guy

>>17891157
there is no need to abandon your faith after that encounter, good things didnt come for him just ecause he didnt search for him, whatever god you believe in will do you good if you make an effort to do good yourself

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>>17904539
so you're saying God didn't save him because he wasn't a good person? Nice

>>17904539
Fuck off, retard. The dude was suffering in misery and it's his fault because he "didn't search hard enough".

Get fucked.

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>>17891081
>Body gave up on me while I was hospitalized
>End up in ICU with a machine keeping me breathing
>While being clinically dead all I am doing is walking down a road in a black an white town with no one around me
>Can't breath
>Feel like I need to throw up or at the very least breath some air
>Total isolation
>Total Panic
>tfw terrified that that is all that is after we die and there is absolutely no point to life.

>>17904717
>was unable to breath on my own for 9 or so hours.
>so bad.

7 years ago i caught some fucking virus or somethinf from going to pakistan, made me shit and vomit every 5 minutes for about two weeks, and then, from lack of sleep as well as lack of fluid, i started going into shut down and was taken to hospital, apprently if i had gone an hour later id have been dead. I remember it started like there was no air in the room, even though the windows were open, and then i just sort of drifted off and it was black but i never felt like it was the end and i never lost my sense of existing and self. So I am inclined to believe that once you are dead, your soul is in a sort of stasis until it finds some other thing to do.

>>17896503
stories for these experiences? I'm curious

>>17900810
ice cold nigga

was interested in joining the rcmp so i went for a ride along, we responded to a collision on the transcanada and saw charred bodies in the front seats of a smashed up car, one of the bodies was missing most of its head

pretty nasty stuff

The love of my life was killed in a car crash three years ago along with two of my closest friends.

I dug a few ashes out last summer when I worked at the city's graveyard. Put a few of them down myself.

Not sure whether it's sad that I was the last person to have seen them or not, I hope they at least had a wake or some shit. The first time I buried a guy by myself was sorta humbling, I mean, an adult person was burned down and fit into a small box.

>>17891130
>>17891119
samefag summer kid

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i found my brother dead at his house with my dad, we saw him passed out on the couch and i tried to break the window but my dad yanked me off. i remember watching his body be carried down by coroner people and then i laid on the couch where he died and felt his sweat ont he back of my neck

he died from drugs

i watched my grandma die a horrible death, she had cancer and she dried out. she lost contact with reality and was hallucinating for the last week she was alive. she got to a point wher she couldnt swallow anything and didnt know what was going on so she essentially dried out. we could only put drops of water on her tongue. really fucked up.

the last few days before she was no longer able to talk she asked me what the sign was for dying. like "when will i know ive died?"

>>17904595
>>17904660
Good evening reddit.

>>17908900
i'm sorry you had to go through that anon. My grandfather died of cancer earlier this year too. It's a horrible thing to see.

>>17891081
I saw my uncle die from a heart attack on my living room.

We couldn´t do anitying to help Him.

Sad thing is He was the best from my all my other uncles from my mom´s side.

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I watched a man walk in front of a speeding freight train. Right in front of me. One minute he was standing next to me at the crossing gate, the next, he was nothing but a dark red stain all over the sidewalk and tracks.
...That shit messed me up pretty good. Had to go to therapy and everything.

Paramedic.

Nothing special about it. The first body is genuinely creepy, the next few are merely weird and after your 10th body or so they're completely mundane.

The only feeling I get every once in a while is pity, but only if they're children or teenagers. The worst part is seeing their surviving relatives rip out their hair and sob uncontrollably. That shit gave me quite a number of sleepless nights.

Im a nurse.... we once had a old lady dying.. she was end of life care. She was a nun but was in a hopsital gown. It was the middle of the nights we had no visitors. We had another patient admitted opposite her. He asked why there was three nuns stood at the end of that ladys bed. There was no one there. I think they came to collect her.

>>17891242
different anon again but this sounds rough friend, wishing you and your family all the best

when i was 17 i watched my step dad suffer from cancer for 3 or so years, he was on his last days but my mother insisted i still went to college, i came home one friday and she told me he'd died. i didn't realise he was still upstairs in bed. i saw him and he was still warm, looked like he would wake up and start breathing any second.. the next morning my mum asked if i wanted to say bye before the people came to take him away. my mum had put hot water bottles all round him but he was cold anyways, his skin had started to darken and get lighter in some areas. it was nice to say goodbye to him though