So, I have this journal from an old friend who killed herself

sorry about your friend

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>>17861614
Thank you. We were close since middle school, so it is upsetting, but she was a positive influence on a lot of people.

>>17861625
Most seekers are. only have read a few pages, she seemed pretty empathic. it's like the exquisite beauty she could see in things and people, it may have been hard to see in herself.

total armchairing here. thanks for posting these, they're interesting and her handwriting is also interesting.

>>17861604
> and I journeyed to errands

Lol

>>17861640
Thank you. I am kindof just posting these to carry on some figment of her existence. She was like a sister to me, but I had no idea how deep her involvement with this sort of thing meant. I also had no idea how much stress she was going through at the time. . .

>>17861662
based on her prose, in my opinion she was writing as if someone were going to eventually read it, so I think she would dig you posting these pages

>>17861662
Sad as heck,
She really fucking tried brother/sister

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>>17861681
There are a few more books in the stack of papers I received. I think they might be part of the whole journal thing for the Aurora Aurea requirements, so you may well be correct that they are supposed to be read.

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>>17861693
Thank you so much. I know it is not the most acceptable of methods to honor someone's death via an internet messageboard, but her family & other friends just wouldn't really understand the onset of mental illness via metaphysics. Her name was Alexandria, or Alex for short.

>>17861640
Curious:
What do you mean by " seekers"?

>>17861705
i assume to be Yahwew? I think she was an optimist whos viewpoint was counter to the worlds. I dont know magic, but i think she was trying to use some type or runic magic in order to bloster herself. So that she would be more moral, truth seeking, and able to help everyone. Really that action, though well intentioned was pride. When her magic became unfulfilling or backfired did she becoming increasingly antisocial and isolated, leading to her suicide? I may sound mean and may be wrong, but that is what i gleaned from her writing

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>>17861804
Well my dude I think this is a worthy tribute to her memory. Also I apreciate it very much she was wise for her young age. Very eager, you can see how she was also a bit air headed? Atleast I guessed it because she is always making a point to keep focused on one thing. Perhaps more "all over the place". Anyway she sounds beautiful, would like to look at her.

Also I was gonna as about why the borders are pink, then I read here >>17861647
"a rogue bottle of strawberry syrup hath unleashed itself"
so im guessing that's the cause, and also the cause for the name of the book "strawberry book" was it ? lol

like this anon I'd like to know more about her story to if you could share what you feel confortable with would be cool, but great job and thank you

have a qt

>>17861816
I am no expert, but she did start developing an interest in Elder Futhark a few months before it happened. As far as the antisocial aspect, it was fairly subtle.
I am primarily involved because I was the one who found her, or her body anyway. She poisoned herself with something from the forest near the farm we worked on. I am pretty sure it was a tincture of wormwood, but it could have been a lot of things.

>>17861815
some people be born seekers. are attracted to stories and alternative explainations and "what ifs". It's a spectrum of, I think, combined empathy and curiosity.

My (admittedly maybe lame) theory is that humans are by nature spiritual. doesn't necessarily mean christian or Islam, just we are capable of some funky intuition and there's something about the earth itself and perhaps a stoned ape deep history.

Anyways, we live in, at best, agnostic times. I think "seekers" are simply the types of people who would have been shamanistic or orbited that field had they been born in that time. Because there isn't that class or "need" for that class anymore...seekers wander until they settle into some form of practice with their community that satiates that desire.

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>>17861837
Thank you.
She was a bit spacey at times. I do not have many pictures, but this is one of the more recent ones I have. She is the one with the bandanna next to me (sorry about the facial hair, I had just come back from working on a farm, they don't really have anywhere to get razors there. I promise I am not that unkempt normally.)

>>17861604

neat. thanks man.

>>17861838

was it an accidentally overdose or an intentional checking out?

>>17862973
It is tough to say. I don't have all of the details since I am not technically family. Personally, I think it was intentional. She was really freaking out a lot before it happened. Her grandmother had just died, and she has always had depressive episodes. Also, her later journals have a lot of stuff like "I wish I were not here." and whatnot.

>>17863005

damn. that sucks.

i'll remember her though.

>>17862939
Sorry for your loss brontendo