occult psychedelic love

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>we met at a party
>i was on acid
>she was on acid too
>she told me she wanted to be an english teacher
>i said i wanted to drop out and become a magician
>she laughed and said i looked like bob dylan
>i asked if it made her edie sedgewick?
>her friend arrived and asked if i could find them drinks
>i skillfully made my way to the kitchen and juggled three red solo cups back
>she asked if i had a girlfriend
>i told her many for i was open to the idea of spiritual polyamory
>her friend laughed
>i proceeded to explain how we are chaotic particles hurtling toward oblivion and meaning is solely what you make it and the best bet is to try and find what love and affection one can find without holding onto antiquated monogamous concepts
>"monogamy, monotony, and monotheism"
>"you're a polytheist"
>"certainly, why limit one's mythology to one all-powerful entity? i am multiple"
>as things happened, i got pretty drunk and she walked me home
>we had sex and then she left
>it was the most magical feeling of connection of my life
>as she was leaving, she kissed me on the lips
>she told me, "you are the first human i've captured"
>i never saw her again
>but every point forward i would take acid, i would hallucinate her manipulating fate and end up psychotic and hospitalized
>the last time it happened, i was just smoking weed
>since then, i've been on antipsychotics daily
>but to this day i question my experience
>perhaps i hallucinated the whole party...
>perhaps this is god's judgement for dabbling with demons?
>before the party i had meditated and made a sigil to Isis in a sort of chaotic ritual to find a suitable lover / magical partner to enhance my life
>this was not what I expected