tulpa creation

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I am a few sessions into creating my tulpa, I have spent previous sessions getting into a zone and an internal space where this process can take space. During my last session I experienced a very chaotic (not in a bad way, more excitable) ball of energy wizzing about coming and going, took a lot of concentration to try and calm it down. After a while the energy seemed to start taking a form that I could relate too, previously it had been morphing into various shapes and it was almost as if I was experiencing various places without feeling like moving.

A picked a very relatable space for my base of creation and designated certain places within this space for certain tasks, accessing memory's ect. Back to tulpa, I found myself feeling very content with her, and felt that it was a comforting presence that I required, all the ideas that I had had envisaged before creation seemed to be bouncing between us, like a perfect brainstorming session. By nature I am a very demanding person, but also apologetic because I know I'm a pain in the ass, but I was reassured and comforted by the responces between the connection. I didn't want to try and force a specific apearence but I had an idea, I saw glimpses of an apearence but I didn't want to push it, the same with any kind of verbal connection. A lot of it was just kind of a reassuring experience and ended very calmly from its excitable beginning.

When I came out of my meditative state I felt very content and feel very at ease with what had happened. The only thing about it was how much time had past, I had experienced so much in such a short space of time, I had been at it for about an hour, I know roughly that to get into a calm meditative state for myself it has usually been about half an hour before I get into my space.

I'm obviously new to this so any thoughts or comments are appreciated, as is any info in proceeding forward. Cheers