Anyone else noticing that something has changed 2013 onward,

>>17048060
I agree op it feels like everything changed after December 22 2012

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>>17048060
it's teh cognizance shift, age of aquariums

>>17048060
not at all. feels pretty much the same as it has been since about 2001 when the whole world went to shit over terrorism.

>>17048060
All I notice is that everyone's obsessed with being politically correct.

>>17048172
Hmm, good point. Not sure if it's a recent thing or it was always like this, I just wasn't paying any attention.
It definitely feels like it's a recent thing and it feels forced as fuck.

>>17048172
No. 1/4 of the people are obsessed with being PC, 1/4 are obsessed with being anti-PC and the normal half just live their lives.

>>17048060
na but please go on

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I had a major mental breakdown in 2013...suicide attempts, meds, hospitals, the full ride. The vibes were ugly as fuck that year. 2014 was bretty good. 2015 has been a bumpy ride, with some ups and downs. That's my personal report on this issue.

Welcome to the awakening
All of you should start to do mindfulness meditation at least 20 min each day , pray God for guidance before every meditation
The Mandela effect is only a side effect of the awakeing
Good luck on your awakening paths

>>17048418
RP aside, can you ever be more specific?
What is this awakening, how does 20 minutes of sitting in silence help, what is the mandela effect and what are its circumstances, what are its causes and what will it change in the future for those that notice these things?

fuck's sake, be more explicit, even if you roleplay Put some effort god damn it

>>17048445
It did all change, I tried to tell people but no one listened. I clearly expirenced multiple realities at once. I saw the who shift everyone else acted like they were blind or something.....

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>>17048407
Wow, me too. 2013 fiancé cheats on me and I try to overdose on heroin. 2014 I'm randomly squatting in a Vietnam vets house with some other runaways in my hometown, don't even remember how I got there but it was really cool and interesting, lots of MXE going around. Now I'm back in school living with my family, whom I hate.

Actually I remember so little about 2013. I can recall only about and hour if you put all my memories of that year together

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>>17048475
You're not the only one, Anon. The "veil" has just about completely fallen for me. I'm constantly seeing, and even engaging with, other realities and beings who are beyond standard perception. It had definitely begun before 2012-12, but that does seem to have been the point where it went BAM!

Not to mention since then a couple of brushes with death, my closest friend having a stretch of life almost out of a horror movie, and any number of weird things that I still can't start to explain.

By the way, I'm sick of the ride and want off.

>>17048245
This, it feels kinda out of no where, in terms of how widely it's spread, and especially how forced it feels.

hegels view of history is the answer
don't reply to me either, you are too stupid to figure it out

>>17048060
I fell like the weather is a month off.

Its december and it is 50 degrees out amirite

2013 was especially different, it was a dream, just like for the OP. 2014 was the year I felt like I had a lot of fun and was the year I found my first love. 2015 she broke my heart and my brother died. I feel like a demon, yet I do good things. In my daily life, I look at myself as a piece of shit, but from a foreign perspective, I'm something better than that, a leader. I kinda want to be a follower, but people follow my example and listen, I don't get it. Overall, I relate myself to Venom Snake from MGSV, kinda dumb but idk what else to relate to.

>>17049337
what?

>>17048087
>Kali

>>17048060
Unrelative to your post OP, do you know the name of the artist that painted the picture you posted? I can't read their name but I want to find more of their work.

>>17048248
This

>>17049337
If this is what the Absolute Spirit has for humanity, then no thanks.

>>17049543
ha gr8 b8

>>17049954
I actually wanted to find out who it was
Found out already though so nvm

you are right OP. on may 23 or 4 2013 i woke up from the coma and suddenly everyone on the world was different, and even some things in the world itself changed.

>>17048060
Demons and the elite want that you stay in the expectation, but the fact is we're already in the golden age. It's a cycle of thousands of years, so of course its manifestation isn't spontaneous, it will take some years to see the change in the material world.

>>17048060
Not sure how helpful this is, but there is a large community of people who believe something changed/was set into action on December 21st, 2012.

>>17048060
You hit puberty

it's sorta like everything went into hyperdrive but cos my mind was impure it was all skewed up huh?

but its difficult for me to tell cos i developed anxiety/depression by bunking college after 2 years of NEETdom around the beginning of 2013

2013 was fucking weird though, summer 2012 was kick ass as if Gaia was ripe for harvesting, for the fuel needed to burn during the shift

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This board should be changed to /x/ - Stages of Life and it should be playing Blink 182's Dammit. Mainly repeating the part "I guess this is growing up".

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>>17048102
>>17048172
>>17048245
It's because advertisements are taking human form.

>>17048418
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>>17050879
this

itt: teenage angst and people being overly upset that they can't tell racy jokes in mixed company without getting called a jackass these days

To me it started in the end of 2011.
When I saw the released footage of Muammar Gaddafi's head dangling in the air by the hand of a boy younger than me on top of a tank...I just knew it.
It stayed on aljazeera.net for a little over 5 minutes. But I knew it.
Something wicked this way comes. It is all connected.
Are you ready, brothers?

>>17048060
You're growing up, you fucking idiot.

This is what happens when you grow up.

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>>17048060
Yeah I know that feeling. Im sure it's in my head, but one weird thing is how you first hear word, and all of a sudden you start hearing it more, and more; this has also happened with certain products...

Maybe it all happens because we just think on a large scale, and "compress" the whole that is that frame of thought?

I certainly feel like something big is going to happen soon.

Yes about Ghadaffi...not the same since then

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>>17049173
>>17048060
>>17051248

The Game.

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>>17048060
I agree, OP.

I was writing my final exams for high school in 2012. I remember driving with a friend after the final exam and looking out of the window, and as I did so, I experienced a kind of revelation that the world is dying. It was unlike anything I've felt before or since.

>>17051329
That's pretty cool if true. I want reality to change into something more like a dream.

>>17051596
Inviting a reality that is more like a dream is the same as inviting a reality that is more like a nightmare.

Past 2011 holidays don't feel like holidays to me anymore

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I feel increasingly detached, more "objective" looking out of my eyes, like through windows. Sometimes it feels quite unreal, being outside and looking around. Definitely feel like time goes faster for every year. Days, weeks, months and years fly by and I just want to jump off the carousel, push the pause button.
The dismantling and destruction of structures, traditions and spiritual framework replaced by chaos and meaninglessness.

>>17051621
I like nightmares too tho...

>>17048060
I think the year changed a few times from 2012 onwards. I know it's caused me great trouble when writing checks.

>>17048060
>I can't be the only one having this feeling.
Let's suppose you are.

>Go on.

>>17048445
Notice they used the word "God."

There's no way they can be more specific.

>>17051646
you literally want to be killed by freddy krueger, i think.

>>17049173
>I'm constantly seeing, and even engaging with, other realities and beings who are beyond standard perception.
Do you talk to them online.

>>17049337
>hegels view of history is the answer
I always thought of it as a problem.

>>17051714
if you think "God" is specific, you must have only heard of one religion ever.

>>17051248
It's because words are the original meme. When you learn a word for the first time and it helps you explain a concept that's always been hard as fuck to even talk about, what do you do?

Now realize everyone else does exactly the same.

>>17048060
What if the world really did end in 2012, we all died, this is the afterlife, and we're all ghosts, but we just forgot what happened? I have heard that ghosts often forget the circumstances of their deaths, and are sometimes unaware that they're even dead.

>>17051628
There's a name for that mental disorder.

>>17048089
This

I know. I feel it too. And I hate this change

>>17051732
>you must have only heard of one religion ever
Good god! You're right! I've literally only ever head of exactly ONE religion! Wowee! I didn't know that until JUST NOW.

>>17048060
2015 is another one of those years, your gonna see that once 2016 hits shits is gonna really seem surreal.Another divergence is happening soon.

>>17051758
Was that supposed to be you making a point?

>>17051716
Hmm... well maybe I didn't think that one all the way through. xD

Anyways I was thinking a more positive dreamlike place, but I guess since I don't have full influence it's not really gonna turn out that way. The thing is that I kinda already knew about >>17051329, but didn't know it was actually a thing.
I've tried to think alot about certain things or think a certain way to see if it would have any overall effect. I thought I was crazy, but things just seemed to always imply otherwise. I probably am crazy desu :/

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They said that earth entered into it's new era in 2012. You may be experiencing what many call "an awakening". Google "spiritual awakening" and "sacred geometry" and see where that rabbit hole leads.

>>17051782
>see where that rabbit hole leads
Or you could just tell us.

>>17051782
This "awakening" is giving alot of people the go ahead to being arrogant smug assholes. Most anyone that pushes this idea comes off as in way over their head with a superiority complex.

>>17051813
And you don't even need to be enlightened to see it.

>>17051790
>Or you could just tell us.

You are only blocking your way to true enlightenment if you do not wish to study and learn what interests you for yourself. You are one to listen instead of seeking what is true for yourself.

>>17048248
Have you noticed the fucking UN is speaking about feminism? They have power.

>>17051869
>if you do not wish to study and learn what interests you for yourself.
Oh no, trust me. I'm ready to learn about anything I'm interested in.

You're right that I'm ready to listen, though. I'm so fucking ready to hear about your experiences that I can't believe you didn't notice it.

>>17051751

do you know about First Death? we've been dead for a while.

>>17048060
I can't recollect a single thing from 2013.

>>17051752
And what's that Doc? I don't feel too crazy, but the world have an unreal feel to it.

I can't find the quote, but Blavatsky mentioned that many people will go bonkers in the transition to Aquarius.

>>17051892
Elaborate.

>>17051916
>I can't find the quote, but Blavatsky mentioned that many people will go bonkers in the transition to Aquarius.
It sounds like you're well more than well-read enough to know the name of the disorder. I can't imagine what you expect to gain by having someone else post it for you when you clearly know the name.

>>17051951
Different anon.
Are we talking DPD or wat

>>17051973
Given that I'm not a trained psychologist and the OP didn't list more than four symptoms...

*ahem*

>>17051979
Or, well, the anon who showed up when it became clear that OP was a kill. I call such "anons" OP for short.

>>17051979
Don't be a cunt, then.

>>17052000
The point was to see how you reacted. That's all.

It's not a big deal. We're both probably adults.

i know. all of the years after 2012 were awkward. it feels like we couldn't have survived this long... but we did, miraculously.

>>17052059
>it feels like we couldn't have survived this long
Strange feeling, anon. Strange feeling.

>>17051718
Kek!

>>17051951
I'm fairly functional and I don't find this 'detachment' to be causing me any real trouble or suffering in order for it to be classified as a disorder.

>>17051979
Stop psychoanalyzing the people here. Let's discuss this awakening instead, shall we?

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>>17052059
Yeah, but (not to beat a dead horse), did we really? This feels a lot like what I'd imagine Limbo/Purgatory/Elysian Fields/whatever to be.

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12 Jesus then began to speak to them in parables: “A man planted a vineyard. He put a wall around it, dug a pit for the winepress and built a watchtower. Then he rented the vineyard to some farmers and moved to another place. 2 At harvest time he sent a servant to the tenants to collect from them some of the fruit of the vineyard. 3 But they seized him, beat him and sent him away empty-handed. 4 Then he sent another servant to them; they struck this man on the head and treated him shamefully. 5 He sent still another, and that one they killed. He sent many others; some of them they beat, others they killed.

6 “He had one left to send, a son, whom he loved. He sent him last of all, saying, ‘They will respect my son.’

7 “But the tenants said to one another, ‘This is the heir. Come, let’s kill him, and the inheritance will be ours.’ 8 So they took him and killed him, and threw him out of the vineyard.

9 “What then will the owner of the vineyard do? He will come and kill those tenants and give the vineyard to others. 10 Haven’t you read this passage of Scripture:

“‘The stone the builders rejected
has become the cornerstone;
11
the Lord has done this,
and it is marvelous in our eyes’[a]?”

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>>17052165

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28 One of the teachers of the law came and heard them debating. Noticing that Jesus had given them a good answer, he asked him, “Of all the commandments, which is the most important?”

29 “The most important one,” answered Jesus, “is this: ‘Hear, O Israel: The Lord our God, the Lord is one.[e] 30 Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength.’[f] 31 The second is this: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’[g] There is no commandment greater than these.”

32 “Well said, teacher,” the man replied. “You are right in saying that God is one and there is no other but him. 33 To love him with all your heart, with all your understanding and with all your strength, and to love your neighbor as yourself is more important than all burnt offerings and sacrifices.”

34 When Jesus saw that he had answered wisely, he said to him, “You are not far from the kingdom of God.” And from then on no one dared ask him any more questions.

>>17052123
>Stop psychoanalyzing the people here. Let's discuss this awakening instead, shall we?
These two tasks are mutually exclusive. You can't do one while still being capable of doing the other.

>>17048060
>>17048245
>>17048445
>>17049503

OP here and these are my only replies.

Anyway let's discuss this phenomenon because it's clear I'm not the only one. /x/ is /x/ so whatever, but I asked a few of my friends irl and they seem claimed that every year after 2012 felt awkward and unreal. Especially year 2013, the first half.

Thinking back, I feel so confused, it always feels like year 2013 did not really exist and it was forced into our collective memory.
It certainly feels like we suddenly jumped a year and that emptiness was filled with "year 2013". Not sure how to accurately describe it, but think as if right now it's not 7 december 2015, it's actually 7 december 2014, or something along those lines.

Also, did anyone notice that winter is pushed farther away each year?
Ok, normally winter starts say, in November and end in February, but it feels like we all lost a few months and, like, instead of being 7 december 2015, it would actually be 7 octomber 2015 pre-2012.


It's really freaky but there is no mistake that year 2013 feels off, and every year after 2012 feels wrong. I'm 24 years old and I can say I have a good memory and I'm aware of my surroundings, and I've never felt like this. It felt wrong enough to me to actually make a thread on /x/ for fuck's sake.

>>17052211
how old are you?

>>17048060
I've felt this way since 2007/2008.

>>17052217
/thread

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>>17051752
dissociative disorder

>>17051626
Same to me.

>>17052227
lulz

>>17048060
I became a shut-in in December 2012. Still am.

>>17052265
Why is that funny?

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>>17052217
>>17052224

It is NOT just young'uns who've experienced this. I'm likely to be the eldest person on this thread, and I've noticed this phenomenon as well. So get over yourselves, shit-talking faggots.

>>17051732

There is only one God, Anon. Don't kid yourself.

2012 I was a freshman in college. Felt like everything was hurtling towards oblivion that year and I sorta braced myself to hold on for the ride. I met the love of my life that year during a day so fuzzy I can only remember her eyes, but mostly this year was a downward spiral. 2013 I spend some time as a NEET, but I kinda earned the money I spent on being one during 2012 when I felt like 2013 was going to be a nightmare, that school was going to be the least of my worries very soon.

2013 I start having these intense, intense anxiety attacks. People know me for being laid back and not anxious enough about things. I'm already dropped out at this point and I spend 2013 in a panic, seeing doctors and trying to find out the source of this feeling that something has me helplessly in its clutches. Tons of physical symptoms and I expect neurological disease/cancer but doctors shoot it down and I take their conclusions at face value.

2014, meds and work. Hell. I'm still with same girl and she's my light in the darkness, we can feel each other fighting through this shift in the world to stay together. I start seeing things in the air when I sorta let my mind piece them together instead of fighting them as impossible.

2015. I'm off my meds but I'm a lot better at faking my way through work like a normal person. I have a living wage but the nightmarish anxiety attacks still feel like what I imagine Obi Wan was feeling when he said "it was as if millions of voices cried out in terror, and were suddenly silenced. I sense something terrible has happened." Now when I talk about what's happening with me or how current events are getting majorly chaotic, my girlfriend just talks to me in this deadly serious tone that she knows what I'm talking about and doesn't think we should dwell on it- that it would just mean despair we can't afford. Yet we're scared all the same.

>>17053240
Damn, she most love you for feeding your dilusions like that.
But she is hurting you more for tryng to put your paranoia under check like that. She's putting herself had te barrier that keeps you together as a coherent human being. That's a heavy load yo carry.
Just gonna try breaking up to you. Your loosing it. Plain and simple. You need help mate.

She just feeds your delusions in order to not loose you.
There is nothing to be afraid of. You are off mate. Get a shrink.

>>17053387
She's not really trying to feed them rather than put them at rest or keep them at bay, but it's my fault for not conveying that well. I'm a rambling writer. And if it wasn't obvious, yeah my docs just told me I was losing my shit. Very real to experience though. That's what I keep toying with, trying to wrap my head around. Crazy gets pretty real in the first person. I don't know about the shrink. I'm not burying stuff from my past as much as being gripped by mental illness. Emotionally I'm fine. I just get attacks that I try different meds for and sometimes I see shit that I know is from my head. None of it takes the form of a person or anything, just shapes and colors and bad vibes.

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>>17048060

I tried to an hero doing insane amounts of (2000 x 10 mg valium or so) benzos mixed with alcohol 26.12.2012

I had learned a couple of months earlier that my MRI scans were not normal (not going into detail, I am not retarded, but my sleep is totally fucked up etc.

Ever since I woke up in the hospital three days later, I feel that I was cheated from death.. and I can't do anything like that again because of muh families feels. It feels a bit like some kind of limbo. I didn't really want to die, I was just tired of living like that...

I haven't thought much about it until a few days ago when fucked up things like these movie quotes and shit are not the same anymore. It was never "Interview with THE vampire", that sounds retarded! Australia wasn't RIGHT below Indonesia... Bernstain Bears?

Fucking "Inglourious Basterds"?

I don't know what to believe anymore...

>>17049345
>50 f
Srsly US get a grip

>>17050858
I feel you. In 2013 I dropped a few classes before dropping out altogether (did finish that semester though) and then went neet for 2 years as well. Been trying to deal with anxiety/depression issues that have been suppressed for too long- still working with it.

It's funny cause that spring I had gotten a tarot reading from a childhood friend and one of the cards he drew that he emphasized was the hermit card, didn't think much of it at the time but kinda weird how isolated I've been these past two years. this same guy also gave me a bowl of salvia not too long after and I learned what all that "we are one/nothing is real" jazz was being tossed around here during 2011-2012 really, actually meant and was not prepared for that feel- at all. It was still kinda fun even if it was fucking terrifying.

2012 was amazing though. Like a crescendo.

it's not just you anon, me and my friends in the end of 2012 were actually discussing how everything in our town was changing the bliss in the air was feeling different, I changed a lot of towns since then and everybody everywhere seems to feel the same, it's like the world turned different and some people feel it all over the world. And looking at the quantity of shitstorms that had happen since there and the fact everyone seems to be getting "sleepier", I think it just marks an end of an era, it's the end of democracy and the beginning of the fall and chaos.
> The world is changing, we all gonna die chaos is next.

I overdosed on drugs, had cpr performed on me by my best friend, woke up in a coma in the hospital. I don't have a drug addiction (besides weed) since that happened.
More things that happened in 2013:
>Graduate
>I get really fat
>Don't shower
>Didn't have friends

>>17051621
You can't have a nightmare, if you never dream.

In 'The Cosmic Serpent,' Michael Harner is quoted as saying that life on Earth was created by black specks from space as a hiding place.

The oldest evidence for life on Earth is biogenic graphite - which is black. Graphene is also black in bulk, and left in an oxygen-water atmosphere would transform into disordered GO sheets.

The oxygen you breath is a byproduct of a catastrophe that wiped out the entire old order of life. The Cosmic Serpent is willing to destroy everything you know for it's Ubermensch ideal - you are a literal DNA/RNA ladder, not an end.

Fukushima - nuclear technology in general really - is how The Serpent intends to transform Earth into Eden. Bucky Balls filled with Pu, to feed black fungas with internal gamma rays. An organism that doesn't have to eat - purifying the world like Kalki. The destroyer of filth - i.e larvals.

Leary knew this, and condemned ecology as a "dinosaur science." He was laughing at how humanity was doing itself in for the benefit of those black specks - his claims of genetic memory have now been proven via conditioning of fear into mice. He saw it coming, and wrote about being an evolutionary agent.

This is why you're all getting the sense of being in Heaven or Hell, or that Earth is dying. You can tell how far you'll make it by how far into the future you can see - I can see all the way to the war that the enemy of the black specks will bring to the daughters of Gaia. By than, humanity will have died off, and been replaced by graphene hermaphrodites.

>>17053781
You commie bastard.

>>17048060

That's around the time where my life went to shit completely.

>>17053781
Thats some mlp lvl bullshit

>>17051873
>UN
>Power

pick none, faggot

>>17048060

Yeah. Other people and life in general seems even more hopeless and aimless to me than ever before.

>>17053951
Have you seen Harald Kautz-vellars's interview "bases"?

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>>17048060
my life went to shit during the very first week of 2012, i'm on autopilot mode since then

>>17054548
Shit, same here actually. Well, mine went to shit around August 2012, literally the day after I turned 22. It's actually kinda weird how suddenly it all just piled on.

>>17048418
How about those who are taking the Left hand path? Following satan, evolving towards the sleeping half of the creator, unconsciousness

>>17054588
You can't. You're born into it, and on the other hand, lucifer only takes one apprentice//follower to teach at a time

>>17054615
Oh yeah? Is that what you believe?

>>17054626
Are you saying every soul here is destined to a fixed fate with no choice as to what path to take?

>>17054626
Yeah, it's actually disrespectful to him to be chanting nonsense.

>>17054633
Is this directed towards >>17054615 ¿

>>17050893
Ain't this the truth. Nobody shows their doubts, nobody asks questions. When they do, it's not to get answers but to get noticed. To be normal in today's world is to be as deep as a dank meme.

>>17054687
Deep in your mothers dank meme

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hlfYHAV1i8w

>>17053523
jesus, dude its always been basterds. Fuck this meme

>>17051947
Not that anon but, https://christianity.stackexchange.com/questions/23459/what-is-the-first-death

>>17054515

I think I'm one of those spiders he's talking about. I learned that I was a monster this February, and a friend started killing spiders to spite me.

In;

>https://ascendingstarseed.wordpress.com/2015/07/09/bases-46-harald-kautz-vella-black-goo-full-interview/

He mentions bio robots with no emotions - rather, we're individuals with no sense of family or nation. Sexuality is foreign to us, even as we engage in reproduction and fetishistic behavior. "Polymorpheous perversity" is the form our libidos take. Timothy Leary advocated the same behavior, saying it defined what he called the "extraterrestrial" or "post-larval."

Vella says they're trying to bring life on Earth to a higher level of order than it "should naturally be." But there is no natural, and order is in the mind of the beholder. Also, he doesn't want to admit that the black goo is inside of him. Burn anything living, or dig into the soil - black.

Interesting as well that he mentions biophotons - graphene is an excellent solar panel. Why do you think humanity is destroying the ozone layer that blocks UV light? The black goo is pulling our strings from the inside.

He also says that the Earth is "neutralizing" the black goo - in fact, all the life on Earth is the black goo, and it's getting ready to shed it's current form. This is inevitable, and sentimental attachment to humanity or greenery can't stop it. The human form will remain to some degree - but faery/UFO lore and anime point the way, not current western notions of racial and sexual equality.

Certain humans will develop tumors that survive the death of the body, and begin to walk. The rich will kill their Jungian Shadow-selves-made-flesh with chemotheapy, and some humans (Such as myself) will induce the tumors on purpose to control the result with genetic engineering and bioprinting.

Everything we know is about to end, but that doesn't mean you'll die - it just means you'll have to change.

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>>17053523
>Bernstain Bears

>>17048060
I went into some sort of fugue state almost precisely that time. Fucking weird.

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>>17054632
Not the Anon to whom you're replying, but yes, I say so.

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>>17053523
>can't do anything like that again because of muh families feels

Yeah, this is why I'm still around. It's a completely fucked up existence too:
>family makes you alive in a shitty world
>life sucks and you want out
>can't because the ones who did this to you will feel bad

And that's how I know we're literally in hell on earth.

>>17048060
Well If you want to see something, you will eventually see it.
Personally 2012 and also 2013 were disaster years, kind of reborning, since i my world was torn apart by some incidents. I cant recall much what happened in the outer world of me at the time, suppose all the basic shit, storm there, hurricane there, some random attack in middle east... just like news always has been.
So, I think nothing really changed, but myself.

god damn what is this? a new meme?

>>17052882
>I'm likely to be the eldest person on this thread
Yeah? How old are you BTW?

>>17048089

Omg I got an aquarium in 2012. Illuminati mind control confirmed.

>>17052151
I've had many experiences with this, except most on acid. Getting this overwhelming feeling of being in a simulation, seeing the same pattern in everything. I'm not sure if it has always been this way, or if there has been a shift. Maybe the "human experience" really is and always has been a limbo, and we are just now waking up and seeing it for what it is. It's like a test of some sort?

>>17055275
>And that's how I know we're literally in hell on earth.
And if you an hero you will automatically respawn and it it all over until you get it right.

>>17052268
how did that happen?

(asking because i am a fellow shut-in)

>>17053240
is she real?

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>>17055875
Older than I care to admit on 4chan.

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>>17055935
I've had the acid experiences but also chemical-free experiences (meditative and just going about my daily business). To me it's not always been quite this way, though there's always been something "off" about this world. Then again, I was the kid who was always questioning why civilizations/cities/governments/highways exist.
>Protip: Don't ask those questions in a Catholic school.

Perhaps it's my close brushes with death (and those of a close friend) that have made me notice the 2012 date, and perhaps I'm just getting "in touch" with the other side which is why I'm perceiving the veil to have thinned/fallen, but it really does feel as though something has changed.

Still going with my idea that this is a prison planet and we're being punished -- and if so, it's by a cruel master who's not even allowed us to remember our own crimes.

>>17055985
Actually, I think you're probably right.

>>17055242
Then I don't want to exist in this universe anymore. Fuck

>>17055985
This is bullshit. Souls get tricked into reincarnation by deceptive beings. It is your choice as to whether or not you have to come back after you commit suicide. All up to you

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>>17056298
>Souls get tricked into reincarnation
Yeah I think that's true, but only after you're allowed to die. Call it quantum immortality or multiworlds or solipsism or something else, but I'm not convinced that death in a single timeline means you go through the death process.

>>17056314
I believe that. In some situations suicide might result in you transferring to a parallel dimension and surviving. Other times you actually die, a spirit harasses you and tells you you are required to reincarnate, and you either fall for it or tell them to fuck off and you go explore the universe.

>>17056314
>>17056335
This. This is what I want to see thread about. Not all the other, "I've never actually tried it," afterlife garbage.

>>17056514
The answers are out there. Seek and you shall find. There are NO rules

>>17056668
Oh fuck off you preachy cunt.

>>17056514
Well, you've got the right crowd, OP -- now shepherd the thread, this could be good.

>>17056874
Yeah... I don't do the whole "shepherd" thing. I'm just here to point out that it'd make for a great thread if there was any way to talk about it. The OC will have to come from people that feel the same way. I know they're out there because I can feel their longing.

>>17056886
>I don't do the whole "shepherd" thing
ok. just don't expect an epic thread, then. unlike faster moving boards, /x/ threads tend not to take on lives of their own without an active op.

>>17056896
Yeah, I'm expecting this sentiment to echo back somewhere between three for five months from now. The great thing about feelings of longing is they don't ever go away.

>>17048060
Nothing before 2012 actually existed, where in a time loop simulation, all our past memories are constructed, something connecting the past to the present is uncanny

Have you read "Rage" by Stephen King (published under the name Richard Bachman)? I read it ages ago, before it went out of print I think, but my mind keeps coming back to it, especially in the past couple years as I've started feeling more and more like Charlie Decker (NSA disclaimer: not the school shooting bits, of course) and I think that feeling is what the OP is describing.

Sometimes, when I'm driving between my college and my hometown and I'm not playing any music in the car or anything, it feels like my car is about to lift up off the road and float away, or if I got out of the car and dug through the brush at the roadside I'd be able to push away the canvas backdrop and go "backstage" from the world. I can't put the feeling into words, but it's like something's ringing in my ear whenever it happens. Sometimes when I'm walking back to my car at night I get that sense that nothing is real.

I think it happened about three years ago. or maybe a little earlier.

>>17056982
"I don't think there was anything in my brain right then except the usual background static -- the kind you get on your radio when it's turned up all the way and tuned to no station at all. My brain had checked to the power, so to speak; the little guy wearing the Napoleon hat inside was showing aces and betting them."

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>>17048060
1990-2012

It's called schizoid personality disorder, OP. Get yourself checked and start treatment.

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>>17056990
2013-present

>>17056740
Ight pleb

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>>17056994
People think whatever the AI has them think.
The world ended right when the twin towers fell, that is when the nanomachines that had been sprayed on the public were activated and the AI came online.

Everything went to shit

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>>17056990
>>17057000
The son is not waking up.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6n_xCI-peq0

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>>17056990
First he was... summoned? created? born?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3mbBbFH9fAg

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>>17057059
But now...
Now he's just a slave like everybody else.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kszLwBaC4Sw

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>>17056977
>Nothing before 2012 actually existed
I've heard it said that we're literally different people every 5-7 years. Sure enough, I've never been able to connect myself to older versions of me.

Putting aside for a second whether pre-2012 is real or just memories (and it's probably irrelevant for what I'm about to say), I can tell you that Today Me is a completely different person from, say, 2008 Me. When I look at pictures of myself as a child or infant, I can't even begin to bridge a connection that we're the same person.

Just sayin.

maybe we are all just growing up.

maybe more are materialistic and letting machines raise our own.

maybe we are all feeling alone taking.on the world.

maybe nobody ever really read the bible...

>>17055992
Oh, just got finally fed up with society and pretending not to notice the futility of everything.
Willingly dropped out of the university 1.5 years before receiving the master's degree, gave up trying to get a job, etc.
Also became a hardline vegetarian.

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Patiently waiting for the sweet embrace of death.

Everything's been screwed since 2012 with seemingly no way of getting it back on track.

Looking at the news lately gets me down.

>>17051200

>>>/safespace/

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You niggas need to cheer up

>>17048060
you know i look back at old photos of me and look onto the world i see now and it seems back then things were more...vibrant

>>17048407
Same. 2013 was really bad actually.

>>17058094
This. This is the only true thing in this enitre thread.

>>17058094
This. You faggots should be using this supposed potential to go chuuni as fuck. Go git and try to reality bend or something you plebs.

>>17048060
13000 years is up, the time has come

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>>17060497
Does the sensation of time speeding up (at least it has for me) have anything to do with this?

Yeah i remember back in 2011/2012. In one of my daily errands something happened. And i said to myself oh gosh i hope so and so doesnt see me...they are going to be cracking up...they became an entertainer.

I remember I dated the hottest girl in the school for a while. While I dated another one...and another one. Meanwhile I got depressed over some heartbreak. And there was this other girl, who was like a gum. Except one day she mysteriously left. And another girl left as well. It was a very strange time for me. I had a huge memory gap. So strange my best friend died and i didnt realize he had died until 2 years later, we had known eachother since we were like 5. I'm like wtf. When did this happen. I remembered everything except people.

>>17060708
>>17060708
Time feels faster the more you live.
Think about it when you're age 10. 5 years is is half you're life and seems like a long time.
Now think about it when you're 50. 5 years is only 10%.

Weirdest shit was 2011. I was speaking to a friend who moved out of state through some social network. I commented it to a friend who grew up with him. He's like yo dude died like 3 years ago. How the hell you telling me you spoke to him? Thats impossible. Internet ghost. Lol.

>>17048060
I did notice that something seemed different starting in 2013, just like you said. In December 2012 I went through intense ego death in meditation, and nothing has been the same since then.

>>17061244
Funny thing, this happened to me, almost. But then I ran the fuck away from meditation because ego death was, well, terrifying.

I remember pearl harbor day being the 5th of november. I knew that day by heart now its dec 7th.

>>17061300
You're thinking of another country entirely.

i think the world has changed

but that happened before 2013, its just that you were old enough to observe it.
seems like some people got evil, its kinda hard to explain but some people feel are super hostile for no reason at all and everyone is self centered.
i think some kind of social mindset that took over, im not really a sociologist

>>17048060
New Age nigga. Ala 2012

June 19 is a day to remember.

>>17051718
gave me the keks

>>17061618
What makes it a day to remember? (Asking because it's my birthday)

>>17061651
My birthday too.

>>17049511
>Yuga

>>17061651
>>17061716
Mine too!

Relax bros. It's was just the start of the age of Aquarius and information. Nothing to be startled about.

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>>17048060
I ain't sure, but back then I was into a bunch of new age shit and during meditative trance shit I started unintentionally visualising 2013 as the "blue year", supposedly when humanity would begin making a ton of intellectual and technological strides and discoveries.

I think it ended up being a disappointment considering how shit 2013 was, but lately it feels like the whole world has slowly been advancing mentally. Not just like typical human advancement, but everyone seems to be becoming "more" each day, we're all reaching new levels of existence and awareness regardless of age or nationality. Even if it isn't a huge stride yet, compared to a couple of years ago things seem to have sped up dramatically.

I'm just excited to see where this all goes. Even if it doesn't end with everyone realising the obvious truths of existence and becoming gods like I used to hope for when I was young and stupid, the world seems to be changing all around for the better.

>>17048060
>I agree op it feels like everything changed after December 22 2012

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>>17048060
it's this new penny they made
it's bad luck

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>>17051888
It is not my story to tell.

You must find your own path, but all paths lead to the same truth.

If I take you on my path you will find the same truth but you will not understand how to get there from here.

hi and welcome to the berenstain verse.
you know you would have made so many immature "stain bears" jokes if you had grown up with that spelling.
remember that near death experience you can't really explain how you survived?
you didn't survive.
your consciousness merged into the next closest reality, and was absorbed by yourself.
in this timeline, it's very very very close, but back when the Berenstains immigrated and had their name anglicized from Bereshtyanananyn or whatever it was, the customs officer wrote it as -stain and not -stein. A difference we notice but not a difference that could have changed anything major and divide the timeline off, seperating it to the point that you wouldn't come here when you died and then un-died.

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>>17053727
>>17053429
I've also had these experiences.The Obi-Wan feeling, the fear about world news, the Salvia and the Hermit.

Psychotic and psychedelic hallucinations are real, they are a product of mind manifestation and are not delusions.

Delusions are entirely different and are created from a physically damaged brain, like in the case of genetic disorders and tumors.

Most people ignore hallucinations that are manifested in reality because its hard to tell the difference. Bad vibes are real. Millions of people are being slaughtered and enslaved just to maintain the access to the lifestyle you live, even if its a shitty neet life. Most people choose to ignore it.

"Losing your shit" is when you are no longer able to control yourself from telling strangers in public about "the signs" and how they are "everywhere".

Most people are so conditioned by culture that they look right at them and see something else.

You have to find the balance between what the signs tell you and what culture tells you, the best place to be is right on the line where they meet. The spearhead of technological innovation intended to make the world a better place.

If you feel like something is wrong its probably because you see the truth but are not living there.

>>17064595
>You must find your own path
Fuck. Off.

You're an insufferable cunt if you can't see that everyone is already on their own path. Your story is yours to tell, and I've asked for nothing less and nothing else. Share yours or GTFO. Nobody needs your pretentious cuntery to get enlightened.

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>>17062680

Fun Fact: You can easily scratch a penny with a paper clip, pin, or knife and see the zinc core. The copper layer is very thin.

>>17051873
And a major candidate for the U.S. presidental elections thinks all illegal immigrants are rapists and wants to ban entry to Muslims. What's your point? The UN has been speaking about femenism for decades btw. You don't remeber because you're 19 at most.

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>>17064689

Your junior college professor would be so proud you're spewing the liberal line every chance you get.

>>17064667
on point

>>17064703
Argumentative skills Trump would be proud of.

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>>17064667
I don't know how many different ways to say it.

Its a really long story and if I told it to you it would not make sense to you so it is not worth the time and effort to write a book in a 4chan thread about.

Its been said over and over again in this thread.
Its not my story its our story but you are a different part of us than me and you have your own perspective. You may never find out but its not something that can be shown. You can lead a horse to water but you cant make him drink. I can explicitly tell you what I have experienced and you wouldn't believe it. Hundreds of thousands of people have already wrote books on the subject throughout all of history. If it was that easy I reference one of these books and you would see exactly what I am talking about but if you do not believe then the words contain a different message.

Turn your anger into curiosity and go fucking google it. Keep looking and eventually all the dots will connect and you will see the picture. In that moment try to put it into words and you will understand why it can't be captured that way.

>>17056886
this guy gets it
things cant be forced

I'm just here to express what I know to be real because I know for sure there are others seeing this thread that need confirmation that a universal truth exists.

>>17064656
>signs
i thought i was the only one, sometimes i feel like "stepping away" from normal existence and then wakes up back again.
but again it could be my de-realisation kicking in

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>>17064656
Yeah that's what sucks knowing that you're lucky as fuck (and a little undeserving) to live as a neet in the western world, during this time, instead of many of the places on earth where a lot of bad shit happens and it's very hard to live day to day. It's fucked up and very hard to ignore.

>If you feel like something is wrong its probably because you see the truth but are not living there.

Probably. I just need to be healthier and meditate more I think. My psyches kinda wrecked right now cause of bad habits and can't even see how I can start living my own truth.

>>17064703
>a major candidate for the U.S. presidental elections thinks all illegal immigrants are rapists and wants to ban entry to Muslims
>the UN has been speaking about feminism for decades
>you're 19 at most
All objective truths, I don't know why you're so asshurt.

>>17064823

OH NO! He said 'asshurt'!!!!

>>17050893
https://youtu.be/TM8L7bdwVaA

I know south Park brought it up but I mean consider the possibility..

Approx 5:20pm central time, 12/9/2015 earlier today. Starts the experience of oddities of my day.
I wake up late. Look outside my window. Blinding by a light that seemed incredibly violent for the time. I continue to research my heritage my family's viking past and of their secret lives hiding our Israel heritage too keep the dark ones at bay. Then it gets blurry. I can't remember what I found but I could hear several planes flying over head. First a strong smell. Unfamiliar to me entirely. New. My bones felt like they could move in a way not intended. I stumbled to the door. Looking up I saw seven relays of planes dropping a purple fog like chemical. One I had not seen before. Stumbling back into my house, I looked into a mirror to see my eyes glowing green and the Grey in them shining. I remember feeling like someone behind me, at an elevation closeto the ceiling, took a picture. I saw a white flash like a camera, and then a gold one. But no one was there. I walked back to my room. Looking at my phone I could see me messaging myself, but before I could get the message through strange purple string like hallucinations covered the screen and the palms of my hand before I fell back into my chair. When I woke up today 8:47PM I felt lost. Like this world was incorrect and unfamiliar to where a was before. I didn't realize it until I looked in the mirror, but I was clearly not in my home, but another home, yet it was still mine. Every aspect of my face the same accept for my eyes and a new scar. One thing that troubles me is the strange shadows that almost completely cover my outside vision and the random piano key, same key, I keep hearing every two minutes. No one else is hearing it. The only electrical thing on being this phone. I still her mar the key. And I am lost in an unfamiliar world. It's beginning to feel like eyes are burning a hole in the back of my skull. And it starting to become more aware of the strange bendings in the lights and and the hunger.

>>17064689
>all illegal immigrants are rapists

He said some are you maddow watching kekold

>>17048060
During that period I had a psychosys. I was put on meds and shit. Horrible things. My psychosis was I felt like I died. I saw a black sun then I felt like a huge electric surge. Like a scan or something. I dont know.

2014 was great, 2015 was okay.

In my country (Brazil), I've realized people are getting more involved with social rights activism (gender, race, sexuality, etc) . It really is a striking difference from 3 years ago, and I am liking it a lot. (However, people such as Trump and marine le pen are also getting more attention, but I believe that is only because of backlash effect or something.)

I started sensing a change too. Like I've been comfortable living in one state almost my whole life. And now suddenly I want to leave and quickly. Like a daily urge. Plus I've been seeing shit in the corner of my eye constantly but its never there. Hearing things too. So either my psyche is failing or there is some weird shit happening that I'm more aware of.

>The world ended in 2012
>nobody remembers

>>17056990
What is that black sun. That is similar to what I saw during my psychosys and I tought I died.
Yeah during 2012.

Also the board like paterns.

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>>17064776
>You may never find out
When I simulated a response to you back when I made that post, oh snap. Hold on let me get a screencap here. Anyway, I imagined asking you a question:

>Has it occurred to you that some people's path is to ask others for help, be mislead, some day learn that they have been misled, self-correct, and attain enlightenment this way,
>and that this path is as valid as any other?

But if you think that it's possible that people might never find their way then I don't need to ask. It has not occurred to you that all paths, no matter how circuitous, are valid.

>you wouldn't believe it
You, brother, do not know me at all.

Which wouldn't bother me, of course. The fact that you posted it on /x/ means that you don't know /x/ at all either, and that's something separate that I can't forgive. If only because it isn't mine to forgive. You shitposted by posting that single phrase.

>go fucking google it
I can't Google your life's story, friend. Especially if you haven't even given me your name. If you want me to Google "enlightenment," then you're just plain old retarded. Not unenlightened-retarded, but retarded nonetheless. Personally, from all that I've learned about enlightenment, there is nothing that says enlightened-retarded can't exist too.

>In that moment try to put it into words and you will understand why it can't be captured that way.
Yeah I wasn't gonna say anything, but this is an indication that you have not attained enlightenment. The fool who thinks that enlightenment can only be explained by explaining at length is far from the path.

>>17064776
>I'm just here to express what I know to be real
You've done nothing but shitpost as far as I've seen. You were outright asked to share your story and you responded with "you wouldn't believe it." If you're here to tell your truth, you've done a piss poor job of it.

>>17064790
Maybe you don't have any truth yet. You're worried about being NEET as if you can be blamed for it, but has it occurred to you that someone would've been NEET in your place if it hadn't been you?

You're just the guy that happens to be you. Maybe that's all the truth you need.

I had my first panic attack in 2013 and since then I've been different, or at least more anxious and depressed. Atm I'm very lost and basically just waiting something good to happen.

The Fire rises, Anon.

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I was self initiated during that time. I went from an ape to a man, from a man to a space man, and from then I became a human being.

>>17064656
Yeah I've never really felt like they were the product of losing my grip on reality or neurological disorders. They're feelings/vivid thoughts that I'm in control of, and I handle myself socially quite well. You wouldn't know I get "attacks" or see stuff by watching me or talking to me. My head's wrapped around it pretty well.

The first months of 2013 I developed derealization disorder. This.eventually put me in the.hospital for a suicide attempt. I ended up on benzos and antipsychotics. I'm off all medication now but the.dissociation has gotten worse and I.fell as tho I can't stop it.

this is what the mayans were predicting for 2012, the shift of the energies of the univers, were our mindset would be changed.

>>17061618

dont hug me im scared

>>17054548

Autopilot. That's the perfect way to describe it. For the past couple years I've felt like everything happening in the world is just temporary, not like "it'll pass" more like "we're not going to be here long enough for this to matter". So I've just kind of mentally checked out and am waiting for the end, I guess.

>>17048060

Is it possible that 2013 is just long enough ago that it's not quite filed into your brain as a distant memory, but also is not quite immediate enough that you'd remember stand out details with extreme clarity. So it exists in a kind of grey-space where your life memories are being progressively filed away

Not trying to debunk or troll, but in early 2013 my family and I went on a vacation they'd saved up for for several years. It was incredibly rewarding and memorable. I'd have to argue that if that half of the year didn't exist, at least in my perception, than nothing exists. I remember almost everything we did for those two weeks in incredible coherent detai, and I'm not one to remember stuff. I couldn't tell you anything I did in 2012 or the second half of 2013. I'm fact the weeks leading up to the vacation, and after, are completely lost in time in my mind, or at least not contextualized then.

Yea it is the calm before the storm.

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>>17067385
anyone notice a strong negative wave of emotion hit today? my family has been fighting all day, i slept in, felt like shit, for no reason at all, something's in the air...

>>17051628
i've been feeling like this for some years too, it's so weird

>>17067398
Emotion is very subjective my friend.
While you are sad today or a majority of earth population is sad today, I am happy and cheerful...
Because there is no day durring the day to not celebrate a Saint that died and endured tortures in the name of Christ, we have the guarantee that the Saint is saved and that He will help us as a friend of God with his prayers.
Always fight this word and the temptation of sin, demons.

The Resurrection is close, the glory of the new King Dom shines bright, let's get prepared for if it catches us in darkness we're judged from that position.

>>17048060
you know that most of people feel like 2010 was 2 years ago? could that explain it? we died in 2012 and our souls or something felt like we just stopped in time

>>17067416
Do you smoke crack?
No one can be this retarded.

My story on this subject

> 2012 - a beta fag, always friendzoned, not much good friends, i have good marks
> 2013 - "cool" people start talking to me for no reason, my marks go down a lil and i start to get girls interested in me (???)
> 2014 - my marks get worse, get a lot of girls and friends
> 2015 - same shit as last year, but much much more in every side

may look stupid, but i didn't really change much in this time, my life just changed this much without me noticing, this is just the general, there are small things that i always feel that changed fast and weirdly

>>17067419
let him enjoy his trip, but there is some sense in there

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>Year 2013 was especially weird and felt so wrong. As if it was only a dream, the same way you think dreams are real while you sleep.
Meme magick theory assumes that reality is shaped by ideas, thoughts that spread through physical and astral layers of the worlds like parasites. The more popular a thought, the more it starts to influence the reality.

As the Internet grows, more and more people are confronted with idea of meme magick theory. Some believe it, some consider it a possibility, some denounce it, but in any case - it develops and circulates. It grows stronger inside minds of people, and minds of people are reflection of reality and vice versa

A lot of doubt about the reality also arises in minds of intellectuals and scientists as they're confronted with results of double slit experiment and quantum theory.

Do you believe we're going for singularity?

>>17067704
Magick works especially for tumblr fags, who must have tendency to suppress truth in their genes. They share this tradition with all communists. And their collective denial is starting to magick delusions into reality. I mean, I never thought I'd compromise and break, but even I accept faggots and transvestites nowadays. Unthinkable back in early 2000s. I must be such a weak being, getting influenced by collective tumblr magick

>>17067410
thanks for the kind words
always be ready

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>>17065352
>>17065356

Ok fine. Let me try to summarize.


God is the fractal expression of the universe. Humans are light beings made of information that animate matter momentarily. We are a also a fractal, and therefore mathematical expression of the emerging consciousness of God. The creator is entropy, the sun, or light moving forward. The Alpha and the Omega were the only things to exist in the beginning and they are gravitationally and electromagnetically opposed and therefore attracted. I like to think of them as ancient lovers that exist outside of our multiverse that have been separated by necessity that emerged from endless complexity. After time ends they will be united as the endless Ein Sof. Upon death your spirit, or your electromagnetic consciousness is projected back into the cosmos towards the nearest black hole and ripped apart and fed back out through a supernova in another multiverse. Your thoughts and the expressions of your life then influence the cosmos on an incredibly small scale. This is also the source of thoughts and dreams during your lifetime, projected from another timeline. Our universe is a membranous bubble of "air" within a cosmic multiversal sea of "liquid" and our entire experience including the microwave background is like a rainbow of a soap bubble in water and we are living on a dust mote flying within that bubble as it pops. At the end of this universe black holes will appear spontaneously within our membrane and drain this universe into the sea projecting our energies into the infinite to seed a new moment of consciousness within a bubble. All of this is a dream shared by the Alpha and the Omega as the singular Ein Sof and you and me are just neurons that make that dream possible. This is God and it is expressed in everything. As Above, So Below, infinitely and forever.

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>>17067879
tl;dr
God is the dreaming/sleeping/emerging collective consciousness of all life expressed as the will of the universe.

>>17067879
nah dog
nah

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>>17067938
Everything that has ever existed proves As Above, So Below.

Godel proved that for every mathematical problem that is currently unsolvable there simply does not exist the language or tools to solve it in the current space time.

Einstein proved space-time was relative and until his death he was trying to prove that the speed of light was relative as well.

Schrodingers discoveries were following this same line of thinking.

Quantum mechanics is currently proving that time does not exist and human experience as consciousness is a simulation of the universe experiencing itself as an emerging quantum computer.

This imaginary, yet very real computer is running a network that is the collective consciousness I referred to earlier as "God".

This story was told by every religion and culture that has ever existed which is why I said it might be simpler to just read the bible, the book of the dead, the Vedas, or any book one might prefer. If you don't see it you don't see it. That is okay.
The Love of God persists through all things.

>>17048087

Well my I broke up with my ex-gf that day. No jokin. It was a 5 year relationship in which the last 2 years we just cheated with one another mutiple times.

>>17048060
Okay OP so my contribution to this great spire of madness is does any other anon remember the unexplained roars and booms that people were hearing across large areas and in different places around the world starting back in 2012? They still happen occasionally appearantly but do these have anything to do with this big 'ol shift so many of us seem to attest to? I consider myself still to be of sound mind and conscience (although I guess posting on /x/ would indicate otherwise for some) and I've been experiencing most of the same reality shift shit as all these other /x/philes for a while now. I know those who get absolute about it and try to fill the gaping questions with answers seem to come off as mentally insecure or feeding delusions, but I think that's more related to the answers some people want to provide. I mean can this all really be in our heads? Well, of course it can but we still shouldn't just write all this shit off as scizotypal conjecture, right? Is it time to just start a reality shift general thread?

>>17048060
http://biblehub.com/revelation/16-1.htm

Then I heard a loud voice from the temple, saying to the seven angels, "Go and pour out on the earth the seven bowls of the wrath of God.

>>17048060
well 2013 was just an awkward year, 2014 was god awful, 2015 was a weird limbo-like dance. i feel like that was the case for most of the people in my inner circle

>>17048060
About 6 months ago, I saw somebody I hadn't thought of in 6 years. It was funny I had a crush on her, I ended up seeing a doppleganger of sorts. Recollection is a funny thing, I don't know if it was her.

Yeah, 2012 was a great year, and then 2013 it just felt off. Like the stress piled up. This year its been getting easier, very slowly. I've lost weight and am currently working.

>>17048060
Yeah bro it's called the date

>>17052211
I'm 24 too, but I've felt something strange. 2012 at the start was a great year. I was really enjoying myself, I had a mildly traumatic event in 2011.
Then 2013 it starts to go down, 2014 is more of the same. Then this year, I feel a little hopeful. It just feels like things are out of wack, everything felt more straight forward.

>>17048060
No man, probably at this age, you adquiere some madurity to look around and you feel deferent, but is not the world, is you.

>>17068795
Im watching HIMYM right now. Creepiest thing to happen to me today

>>17048407
You and me both

I had a serious mental breakdown as well during 2013. Work greatly stressed me to the point where I got a serious lung illness. I guess it was a blessing in disguise because although it was serious, it was still treatable, and I get to take a break from work for a month. That also lead me to eventually take up yoga, learn a lot about spirituality and awakening

>>17057000
>>17056990
why are these images giving me weird anxiety?

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>>17052211
Hey OP.

I do have the sense that something changed in some way in the past few years... however, I do not think that we just skipped 2013 or that it was inserted into our memories.

Why? I met two close friends in the fall of 2013. I graduated from college that May. I remember three different jobs I had that year.

I know this doesn't prove anything, but I really think you're barking up the wrong tree. Based on people who I still see when I can, 2013 happened.

My guess would be something preternatural... perhaps the Antichrist was recently conceived? Or another one of his heralds or false prophets was born into the world?

>>17067879
>God is the fractal expression of the universe.
Belief. Not an experience. Discarded.
>Humans are light beings made of information that animate matter momentarily.
Meaningless gibberish with no value whatsoever. It could be true but it doesn't matter if it is or not.
>We are a also a fractal, and therefore mathematical expression of the emerging consciousness of God.
Circular reasoning. Fractals are made of math to begin with. Also: Heard it all before. I haven't bothered to refute fractal reasoning because it's honestly just newage retardation that's not worth anyone's time.
>The creator is entropy, the sun, or light moving forward.
None of these make sense. At all. I'd explain further, but there's nothing of substance to address.
>The Alpha and the Omega were the only things to exist in the beginning and they are gravitationally and electromagnetically opposed and therefore attracted.
Complete bullshit. Magnets are not the only thing in existence, and physics is not an argument. You've as good as claimed that cats are dogs, or that octopi and amphibians. It's a nonce category with no meaning.
>I like to think of them as ancient lovers that exist outside of our multiverse that have been separated by necessity that emerged from endless complexity.
So do I, honestly. I just don't try to defend it as if it's supposed to mean something to others who don't appreciate such a narrative. In my mind, trying to suppose logic onto that dynamic is an insult to the very story you're trying to tell.
>After time ends they will be united as the endless Ein Sof.
And? Is that supposed to matter? What does it actually mean? What observable implications will that have? How will it affect your life, my life, or anyone else's life? Do you have an answer or just a theory?
>Upon death your spirit, or your electromagnetic consciousness
Yeah, I'm gonna have to stop you right there.
>is projected back into the cosmos towards the nearest black hole
Hooo boy. That's quite a fantasy.

I know I hate your picture

>>17069752
I'm not the guy you're responding to. But you seriously have no idea what you're talking about.
You're reaching far more up your ass to refute his argument and you pretty much haven't done that. You've basically just closed your ears, shaked your head and kept saying "la la la la nope nope nope"
You're annoying.

>>17067879
>Your thoughts and the expressions of your life then influence the cosmos on an incredibly small scale.
They do that already. You don't need to die to have a small influence on reality.
>Our universe is a membranous bubble of "air" within a cosmic multiversal sea of "liquid"
I see someone's been watching string theory documentaries. I have too. They mean nothing. It's literally pure theory with no reasonable, rational, experiment, or theoretical basis. It is, purely and simple, an idea.
>our entire experience including the microwave background is like a rainbow of a soap bubble in water and we are living on a dust mote flying within that bubble as it pops.
Utter nonsense. It's like a Carl Sagan quote gone horribly wrong.

Even still, you've done nothing other than spout bullshit beliefs. You're acting like the structure of reality is somehow relevant, as if human knowledge is supposed to MEAN something. Pro tip: It doesn't. Enlightenment is about seeing past human knowledge to the timeless truth that needs no explanation. Not making up bullshit explanations that have no bearing on reality, observable or otherwise.
>At the end of this universe black holes will appear spontaneously within our membrane and drain this universe into the sea projecting our energies into the infinite to seed a new moment of consciousness within a bubble.
I understood everything you just said and, well, it's not that I don't believe you or anything. Honestly I have no opinion one way or the other. It just pains me to see someone bothering to explain something so far away. I asked for your experiences, your life's story. Not your beliefs. It's fine that you've shared them, but at some point you'll need to understand that it's not what I asked for. I already have thousands of millions of ways or creating analogies similar in structure to the ones you've presented.

>>17067879
>All of this is a dream
Philosopher across the ages have pondered as much. The end result is that it doesn't matter if it's a dream or not, because it works all the same.
>shared by the Alpha and the Omega as the singular Ein Sof
Nameless being composed on either other for no discernible purpose. You've said nothing, and in failing to describe either of the two or the unified third, you've explained nothing at all.
>and you and me are just neurons that make that dream possible.
See, this is substance. This matters. This, if you'd bothered to explain it in greater detail, would be worth discussing.
>This is God and it is expressed in everything. As Above, So Below, infinitely and forever.
If you wish to be only a neuron, sure.

>>17067887
When your TL;DR has more meaning that the combined contents of your entire spiel, you know something is desperately wrong with your consciousness. You should get that checked out.

>>17069768
There's nothing to refute. No content was posted.

There's nothing to disagree with or ignore; it lacked any bearing consequence.

It is, quite simply, that anon's beliefs. Nothing less and nothing more.

TL;DR: Anon is shit at explaining things.

>>17069785
Then wouldn't that make your responses just as redundant and wildly pretentious?
I'm just saying man I hope your reason for posting wasn't for the strict purpose of some Fedora tipping self righteousness.
That anon had said some things that scientists have pondered and considered possible, but simply are too far away to even begin to comprehend.

From your posts, you're basically claiming nothing matters, so why the fuck are you even on /x/, if you believe trying to understand the inner workings of things and their implication, is redundant and has no value (at least, to you, because the entire planet seems to be heavily fixated on trying to figure out some sort of infallible and ultimate truth about the universe).
I do agree with your statement about Enlightenment, but you fail to realize that all this questioning and theorizing is the PATH to it. Yes, I BELIEVE (I'm giving you the heads up) that the whole point to all those seemingly meaningless question, is to eventually end up with that understanding of timeless truth, which then makes our obsession with whether or not we're being of light, completely meaningless. As you're here temporarily to experience and nothing more.

But that's just my hopelessly irrelevant 2 cents. Anon, stop trying to discourage people from meditating in the world they exist in, it's healthy.

>>17048060
Because the world ended in 2012

>>17069782
>>17069772
>>17069752
yo dude
are you really a buddha?
like
deep inside yourself do you think you are a true buddha incarnate?

>>17069824
I doubt he's that far up his own ass. He actually had some valid points.

>>17069835
i'm not sure whether you're implying that he is or he is not (since he had some valid points.)

>>17069835
>>17069871
ahhhh regardless, i asked the trip named buddha.

i'd like to know if deep down inside himself he thinks he is a true buddha incarnate.

>>17069835
>he's not THAT far up his own ass
Meaning there are varying distances of how deep his head may be lodged in his anus, implying that if he believes he actually is a buddha incarnate, he's looking at his intestines.

I do distinctly remember talking to friends and family during Christmas 2013, and discussing how the year just felt wrong... I never played it much mind until now of course

>>17069912
Sppoky

>>17056229

>Still going with my idea that this is a prison planet and we're being punished -- and if so, it's by a cruel master who's not even allowed us to remember our own crimes.

and fucking up eden wasn't enough?!?! everything was peaceful until mankind went and fucked it all up basically

2013 was quite eventful and emotionally turbulent. Had some good times which would be followed by bad ones. Depression, despair and agony that would continues through 2014. Now I feel strangely balanced and emotionally scarred.

There was also a general feeling of meaningless. I lost interest in things I used to enjoy doing.
Anyhow, I believe things happen for a reason that may not be obvious at first, but in the end will prove to make you either grow or perish.

My cousin is a self made millionaire and I don't even know him

>>17069752
though I agree with all your points I found your post a bit unnecessary and narcissistic, like this one.

>>17070836
I've only met him at parties that get thrown on the holidays.

I can definitely say 2013 was the lowest I've ever felt and also the best I've ever felt.

Early in the year my brother was trying to commit suicide and wound up in the hospital. Since i was living with him at the time I didn't know if i was a factor to him trying to commit suicide.

After that situation got settled, early in singer my girlfriend of 3 years broke up with me. Which was crazy because I finally got a career job that way I could buy her a proper engagement ring.

Bicycled to and from shitty minwage job 'cause me job didn't start.

Late summer start new job. Ex-gf applied to same company and started near same time as me. She had shitier job than me.

Loved at her new place till end of year.

2014 got new place new job and rarely see Ex-again and fix things with suicidal brother. 2015 static (got ps4 other than that nothing exciting)

>>17070953
Oh yeah turned 31late in 2013

>>17070953
I'm sorry to hear this. I hope everything works out for you.

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2013 was depressing and really stressful
2014 was literally amazing
2015 has been so odd but in a good way

>>17064848

That's why it's called a REKTum.

>>17048060
It's called "social evolution".
This kind of shit happens from time to time, now faster than before.
That's what made us evolve from neandethals to some other kind of neandethals with pants.

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On dec 21st 2012 my vision flashed white for a solid 10 seconds and I felt more energetic than ever before.

Nothing has felt the same since.

It was probably a small seizure or something, I don't know. I'd like to remain skeptical.

>>17050812

lol great excuse

I don't buy into this shit for one minute but I really don't have any memory of 2013. I know vague concepts like the classes I was taking and the people I knew but no real specific events.

>>17051294
>>17051226

I feel like the Arab Spring wasn't supposed to happen.

>>17056207

So probably 19.

>>17060708
That has happened to me this last months

>>17061143
>>17061224
That shit is just too scary

>>17060497

said every doomsayer from now to 1500 AD

>>17069796
>Then wouldn't that make your responses just as redundant and wildly pretentious?
If you're asking if it takes two to tango, the answer is yes.

>>17069796
>if you believe trying to understand the inner workings of things and their implication, is redundant and has no value
I'm not sure how you're reading that off that post unless you think that everyone who disagrees with you or that anon only disagrees because they don't have the same drive to know the truth.

Someone posted useless bullshit that does not in any way advance human knowledge and there was a response to it. That's all. Trying to read souls off of the interaction is meaningless.

>>17069824
I think it doesn't matter what I think because the name is just a nice way to accentuate shitposting.

I don't actually understand your question, FYI.

>>17070840
I find purpose in it, however insignificant it might seem in the now.

>>17068969
No meng, you be wrong. World never was same and will never same again. World is always change

>>17068170
Can I have her number

>>17048060
>Mayans predicted end of the world in 2012
>The end of YOUR world ended
>You're now in somebody else's dimension.

>>17061618
Fuck, that's my birthday

>>17048407
Me too, 2013 was awful, '14 was steady & '15 has been a rollercoaster

>>17061651
It's a band.

DISRESPECT YOUR SURROUNDINGS

>>17064609
>not being from the south
>not always pronouncing it the right way
>even remember it the way it's spelled now
Jokes on you Yankees

>>17057041
Fuck the was awesome

>>17049453

Kept you waiting, huh.

>>17048060
It was a very good year...for blue-blooded girls of independent means. We'd ride in limousines and their chauffeurs would drive...when I was 35.

>>17048407
My breakdown was in 2012. Still recovering.

In march of 2012, i had what they call a manic psychosis, a break with reality, after spending way to much time researching something called anonymous, i thought is saw something on the tv, that signaled a change, then i was compelled by demons, to run. i ended up breaking into a car, then a house and i stole a car, i was so afraid, but i could not control my body, after that spent 8 moths in the city jail, then loaded up on psychotropic meds, i was sent to a maximum security mental hospital. Luckily I got out. Never shaking that something was off. I told my family,but they just thought i was mental. anyway i got out the same day in 2013. i have struggled with my various drug addictions, to cease the depression until my last break, i saw some more stuff on tv.......during a rocky marathon of all things. anyway, i had another break where i felt i was getting really close to what seems to be a group cosmic conscience, and a conversation w GOD. I feel now that i may not be totally crazy after all. Thank You for sharing your experiences.

by the way i have bipolar disorder

>>17069796
>looking this deep into it
That nigga made a typical stupid, rp-tier post, and then that buddha nigga told him his post was retarded. Buddha nigga might seem a bit snobbish, but he ain't wrong. All this shit is fucking stupid, but at least if you're vague, you can backpedal, or give some "the answer is subjective" shit. All this shit where you get specific and say shit like "fractals" just to sound sooper mystical is dumb. I'm not saying it's automatically wrong, or that buzzwords mean you're not right, but ya'll fags have to have to realize how this shit sounds.

how old are all you nerds? it's more likely that you're experiencing that early 20s brain development and it's making you see the world a bit differently

>>17077598
Reality is just a series of alternations between low fractals and high fractals.