Show me life is worth living!!!

Just do it!

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go to your nearest forest take a deep breath.

30 is pretty young, you have time to see wonderful things.

The reason you're having conflicting feelings about suicide is because you know that there's an alternative to death. You don't have to love your job, or have even a few select friends or a significant other to be worth something. You've already affected people throughout your life and you're here for a reason- likely a handful of reasons, actually.

Nevermind the douchebag who charged for the opportunity to tell you to do it, chances are they pop out of their poop chute with the immediate desire to ridicule someone else to lift themself up.

Meanwhile you're not alone. It's actually much more common than you might think that someone just starts putting their life together around 30. There's no rule book or guidelines on how to do life anyway, and that you're feeling like you haven't accomplished something means that you *want* to. Go for that instead. Just make a plan and tackle things one step at a time, and remember that any progress counts.

You're okay. Everything's going to be okay. Just hang in there.

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i fucking feel you man, so much....

>>6619024
I feel your feels man.
28yo
I hate my fucking job
I have 1-2 friends that I speak to
I have a gf but unsure if it'll work out
I have no idea what the fuck I want to do with my life

Even though shit looks bleak everything usually works itself out. Try getting into a hobby that involves other people so you can meet some new ones and get some fresh input in your life

>>6619073
Also, get out and get some fresh air. Stay active. Go for walks, lift weights etc. Best anti-depressant ever

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>>6619073
>>6619032
Yes, go out hiking or take a walk!
There is so much nature that you probably haven't explored yet! Walk, run do whatever you want and enjoy the calmth and nature!

You can do this alone, you can get lost in the beauty of the nature (not literally thoughj!) and the summer is coming which means you can just roam around extra long!

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>>6619076

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I've enjoyed living, seen a lot of beautiful things.

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>>6619076
>>6619032
for some people this works. but for others, like me and OP, it just doesn't help

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>>6619024
There is always something ti live for. Don't be an hero.

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I felt the same way several months ago. I took baby steps towards improving my outlook and my self confidence. It's slow progress but it helped me and could help you too. Open up your mind and heart to new things. It sounds so cliche but it's true. It can really change your life in good ways. 30 is just a number. Same as 29 or 31. Age is not a limit. Life can suck, but if you show strength and courage, even a little at first, you would be amazed at how you can turn things around. Do whatever you can to improve your life in any way and keep improving. I hope you find what you want.

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>>6619082
Ah, I'm sorry for that anon
I hope you find something that does work though.

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I was extremely depressed for months and anxiety riddled for years so I saw a counselor and was diagnosed with OCD. I am doing really well now and feel really great so I would highly recommend you talk to someone OP if you haven't already. The thing that kept me going before I got help was reminding myself how big the world was, I could leave and just disappear if things got too unbearable which I almost did. Traveling doesn't work for everyone but it really kept me going for some reason.

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>>6619024
Get in your car and drive far away. Don't stop driving until you want to go back. It could be a minutes, it could be hours, it could be days. You might not want to go back, and that's okay.

>>6619102
To me 30 is not just a number. It's a turning point in life. A second stage of adulthood. The point in life when you've gotta stop playing and become a real adult.

I've always had trouble seeing myself get old. The responsability of adulthood, of life. Paying bills, mortgage, car, ... whatever.

"Growing old is mandatory, growing up is optional."
I've always liked this quote. But my surroundings don't appreciate it. They always push me down when i wanna be myself. Especially my sister. When i wanna make fun, or say the stuff i want or do whatever i want. She's alway holding me back, "behave yourself" and stuff.

All i see are beautiful picture of nature. But it's not there for me, nor am i there for it. It's not somewhere i can make a difference.
Nature will still be here when i'm dead.

And the bigger problem is in my head. I'm too afraid to take risks. I can't get away from the safety of having a job and a house.
I can't just get out and leave everything behind to travel the world or see stuff.
That is not me, my mind won't let me do that.

>>6619188
While not exactly the same, i tried going on vacation alone twice last year, and after a day i got bored.
So just driving away is not an option.

Lots of us been there. Stay here. I am happy that you exist at the same time that I do, and I hope you stay.

We are probably made of stardust, and that makes you a rock star. Don't give up now, you already beat out a million other sperms to get here, and me too. The lights have been off for a while now and it's time to start glowing, white hot like the sun that shines back at you.

Take off that yoke, the burden on your shoulder and throw it to the ground. Take it from the dorkiest of the dorks, epic lives have come from the darkest places. You are us and we are you, stick around.

You are stardust, that is conscious of itself, so am I, so are we, thats amazing. Has to be the only thing all the crazies can agree on.

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boy u gonna die anyways everything does in the end so why not stick around and see what the fuck happens? stop being sad and go out and do some shit my nigga. Smoke weed meet new people enjoy what life has to offer.

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>>6619024
Use your life savings to go on an awesome trip around the world! Especially science you have nothing to lose.

Pic related is where I would go.

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>>6619024
Decide to do something big with your life. There is still time. Go out there and do something you love, try to make the world a better place or whatever.

And never give up on trying to find the right girl!

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Happiness takes a lot of work but the ideas behind it are easy. You need to go out and let your body do what it's built to do every day. Stretch, ache, get your blood boiling. Find friends. People meet up in all kinds of places, you just have to learn to be vulnerable. Learn how to cook good food. Get good sleep. Your bed is strictly for sleeping now. Commit to each of these things for at least two weeks so that it becomes a habit. Give yourself a reason to live.

Hey, if you're going to kill yourself give me your shit. I need a new car and free money is always nice.

On a side note you can always just walk across country. You should probably see something new

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Pack your stuff and go explore the world ! There is a lot to do here before you go !

>>6619024
Practice meditation, it will help clear your mind of negativity. Life is utterly meaningless, it's essentially a sandbox game with no premade story mode, you are the creator.

It sounds to me like you are suffering from feeling like you don't meet society's standards. Understand that these are just another list of things other people want you to do, not following what they tell you doesn't make you any less of a human being. You say you have achieved nothing in life, you still have so much more to go, also, if you didn't achieve anything but instead only lead a content life, would it all still be a waste?

Honestly it would be such a waste if you took your life now, suicide is selling all your time in return for nothing, this is a temporary struggle which can be overcame

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Why everybody "miss" no having friends? I can understand the fera of lossing them (I have it) but I know I will be better lot of times without them.

You can't miss what you don't know.

Yeah....everyone always tell don't do it. But the fact is, this world social structure is shitty. People are assholes. Everybody lies and cheat.

But, find a reason if for anything, just to rise above. Life itself is not worth.....but the fight is.

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>>6619024

I think you're already beyond a point when you're going to listen to the simple "don't do it" or "life is beautiful" ... I've been there too, was much younger than you. I have no idea if this will help, but I didn't do it because I was simply curious how much shit life can throw at you, and since you can't really change it, you can just laugh at it. That's probably the worst advice ever, but in my case it worked, kept me alive long enough for some things to change. I still think of hurting myself in some ways, but I definitely want to live, just out of the simple curiosity

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>>6619024
big fat anime ass keeps reminds me that life is good ( >>>/w/ )

But aside, everything in this thread might sound like a pithy aphorisim.

But that's okay because it's enough to show that we care about you, because maybe we know somebody like you or we are a person like you.

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>>6619196
I've always loved this Frank Zappa quote:
“If you end up with a boring miserable life because you listened to your mom, your dad, your teacher, your priest, or some guy on television telling you how to do your shit, then you deserve it.”

Live your life exactly how you like and ignore your sister's bullshit. I'm the exact same way as you when it comes to taking risks and leaving my job/family etc. but I see that a lot of my friends and other people I grew up with are doing it and seem to be much better off.

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>>6619111
>>6619032

going to need some more of these papes anon

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>>6619024
some people don't even get the chance to experience the sensation of walking... so selfish

Work
Keep money
Go in wonderful place to visit
Meet people who live here and speak with them about life
Repeat

>>6619111
That looks like the road to tofino..

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This is my best friend. If it wasn't for him I would be six feet under already. I've been in a nasty depression since 2013. For nearly two years I went off the grid and shut myself from the outside world, not wanting to talk to friends or family. My only companions were 4chan and this cheeky little guy who didn't judge me except when I couldn't take him out for walks.

There was a time last year when I just felt so lost and sick of myself, and he found me sitting on the floor with a knife in my hand, crying like the pathetic piece of shit that I am. He licked the tears off my face and lay his head on my lap. It made me think: who will take care of you like I do? Who can calm you down when I have to take you to the vet? Who will let you sleep on the bed every night?

I stood up, put the knife away, and a few days later I went to see a counselor. It wasn't smooth sailing, but my relationship with my family is better now, I got a job, made new friends and mended fences with old ones. I still have bouts of depression at times but I can deal with it better now thanks to my buddy.

Do you like animals, anon? Get a pet. Adopt from a shelter. You have the chance to give that creature a better life, and give yourself a reason to live, because someone now depends on you and will love you unconditionally if you let it. And maybe, just maybe, someday your life will get better too.

>>6619861
i'm going through a rough reclusive period in my life and your post made me smile! all the best to you and your four-legged friend.

>>6619024

Look for a reason. And if the reason does not satisfy you in the long run, it was a bad reason. Keep looking till you find it.

Or like the Word of God said: Search, and you will find. For whosoever asketh, shall receive. For when a son asks his father for a piece of bread, will he give him a stone? God forbid.

>>6619024
A couple in Berlin selled everything they have to buy a small Plane. They travel around the world now. theyre in Brazil right now try something like this

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You need weed friend

philosophy has always helped me during my times of struggle, even if it isn't reality to my problems.
i dont know if this little post will help but id be happy to recommend some stuff to check out, just to keep your mind off things.

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>>6619024
Don't do it anon just don't and remember no matter how dark the present gets tommorow will always be brighter with more experiences and more opportunities many of us have been where you are hell i was and im only 20, but i learned that suicide was never worth it and if i can learn and move foward so can you, never give up please never give up

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>>6619024
i've given up on real life too

every free time i have i write/draw stories
when i close my eyes i make up stories
i keep on thinking my life is just a bad dream

it's actually scary how much more "real" my imagination feels like.

>>6619024
>No job, trashy 3rd world country collapsing brazil.jpeg
>Friends are getting upset and start to treat me different every time
>31 yo
>Highschooled only
>Fat
>My only girlfriend cheated on me after months of relationshop (5 years ago) never dated since then
>Live with parents
Still the same situation I guess, but these days I decide to do something in my life: in 5 years get graduated and move in to another place (maybe Canada or Portugal), do lift and maybe get married.
It's the only life I have and I will battle for something more, if everything faills I will die anyway someday... Become a wanderer

Take a time op, make your mind and do your best FOR YOU and FOR YOU only

>>6619024
P R A Y T O G O D ! < 3
God will direct you, friend. :)

Good bye.

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I can feel u man, but...

Actually u don't have to do anything. Just get used to it, like we say in Poland. I think my live is shitty - i have everything average people would need, but in fact i feel like i do not have anything, even myself.

But common, everything is just a culture product - ur mind, u and every ur desire, ur failure. Just get used to it that live is shitty, there is no universal point in live and everything u can do for urself is to enjoy think that makes u calm and well with urself. I like scrolling /wg/ coz i love watching digital art - and i live for those small things. And i am enjoying watching people, trying to understand them. I am enjoying giving up and being happy, that i can spend my day watching my stuff.

What more can u do in live? U can try to make someone life better or try to be famous, but there is no point at all.

Live is there to waste it.
That is my philosophy of live.

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>>6619024
Fool that you are, you would trust the chemicals in your brain to tell them that they are chemicals. All knowledge is ultimately based on that which we cannot prove. Will you fight? Or will you perish like a dog?

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>>6620024
but seriously, if I can recover from a vidya addiction of 16 years, lose all my irl friends, push through the depression and anxiety to find a gf, you sure as hell can recover from this and move on with your life. Just remember that anyone who says they know what they're doing in life is lying, nobody has a fucking clue m8

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>>6620026

>>6619036
This guy is a liar. People die alone and sad all the time. Everything doesn't always turn out alright. If you are going to do this go knowing that this is what you actually want. Go knowing that you have no fear of death. God bless brother.

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Like some anons said: Travel. Go see the world, man. Get into nature, that's what I always do. Get a camera and take photographs. Post them on Flickr, loads of uplifting people there. You'll be amazed how much awesome stuff is out there. Visit other countries, talk to people.
Keep your head up anon, life can be amazing but only if you want it to be.

>>6619861
thank you for this post, anon :) i wish you and your buddy all the very best in life <3

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>>6619024
I got pretty close to killing myself once. When your brain finally clicks that you're going to die you get a massive rush of adrenaline and endorphins and all of a sudden you want to live again. Luckily I was too much of a pussy and managed to save myself. 6 years later I still think about suicide often but never with any real wish to do so, probably just because I obsessed over it for so long. I'm kinda happy now.

Go outside and do exercise. Get sunlight. Get a pet doggo. Force yourself to join a casual sports team. Think about something that would be cool to learn and learn it.
I play casual badminton once a week, I suck at it but so does everyone else who plays. I torrented Ableton Live and started making beats. I'll never be very good but its neat to muck around with and sometimes people like my tracks on soundcloud. Maybe if you're on /wg/ you could save up for an okay camera and start taking photos to post here as wallpapers. I've never done it but it could be fun, plus it'll get you outside.

Save up like $20,000 and move to an Asian country like Thailand or Indonesia. If you're not silly with money you can live off nothing over there. Use Tinder to meet someone or just go talk to people, they're pretty nice over there. If you can't talk to any locals then there's places that expats usually hang out together.

Heaps of shit you could do to turn your life around. Suicide is so difficult and if you fail everyone's gonna be a real cunt about it, calling you selfish etc. It should always be a last resort.
Might as well try do something else before you end it all.

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>>6619024
Please travel if you are able. It helps me.

I live in a shithole and this is only a 20 min drive away. Even if it's not the greatest it's still unique

These are all great advices. Where it not that i know all of them already.

The hardest part is getting out of my protective bubble (security) and do them.
1. Quit my job.
2. Travel the world.
3. Meet new people.
4. ???
5. PROFIT

But my mind won't let me.
Only 1 is a viable option, and it probably won't take long if my current work remains as boring as it is.

But traveling around costs money. And if i were to really travel around the world, it would probably cost me so much that it eats enough of my savings that i won't be able to buy an appartement on my own.

security & safety vs dreams & fulfilment

and more excuses ...

>>6619024
What do you do for a living that's so bad?
>be me
>18 = no work experience
>currently only enrolled in community college
>work stocking shelves
>kill me now

>>6619024
>Show me life is worth living
But it's really not

Most of the anons here tell you to travel, but that's not always possible. Money, family, time, etc. My humble advice is this: create something. I used to do origami, and it filled me with tremendous joy. Maybe start drawing, or reading, or writing, you name it. But the creative mind is a mind of happines and hope. Also, you can try reading philosophy. Buddhism helped me a lot back then.

>>6620430
IT servicedesk.

Which by itself is not _that_ bad.

I have very good colleagues there, and plenty more in the rest of the company.

But my ambition is going the sysadmin route. And that is where the first problem lies.
The people working there are pure poison. From before i worked there, there were always struggles between "them" and "us".

Now even that wouldn't be such a big issues if my boss didn't started with yearly evaluation. Promising "things will change", " new work will be assigned", and other false promises.

And it's those promises of my boss that hurt me the most. Especially since i'm kinda stubborn and don't take his attitude towards us, which is to let us take care of ourselves.

At no point has he ever bothered about our work, nor has he interfered in it. On almost all accounts we had to take care of everything ourselves.
But a couple weeks ago i had to do overtime for a customer of us. I decided to recup those hours the next monday.
And that's when he decided to <can't find the right word>. In the end his opinion was that i wasn't entitled to retake those hours because we already get paid for on-call time (which i don't do, i traded them with a colleague who does them for me, and get's paid for it). I should have "sacrificed" them. Which i didn't, and won't since i'm legaly entitled to them.
Not to mention that i worked more than the legal maximum of 10-hours that day.

Now to make matters worse, is that he only sent me 2 mails about this.
No personal talk, no formal reprimand or whatever.

Which infuriates me more, and proves that he barely cares about us and what we do.

(FYI: i'm from Belgium, and our employment laws are very protective towards the employee, thanks to the union <3)

>>6620451

And it get's even worse.

A couple months before the overtime debacle 2 colleagues put me forward as the central and technical contact person of an application we bought a couple years ago.
But after the debacle he decided to give that to another colleague.

This goes straight against his promise of getting "new and different work".

At my "orientation" talk december last year i straight up told them i found my work boring, lacking any challenge.
And this application thing would have been a small step up, and then he screws me over like this!

I feel you, it would be good for me too to listen to some of the tips, but travelling is not much of an option for me either...
But there might be another almost-like-travelling opion:

- Take a map and write down all the places (big cities, old & beautiful cities, national parks, the sea, etc.) that are in reachable distance of 2 hours or less. There will be MANY places in that range, even if you think that they are probably unspectacular. Does not matter. Think of beautiful sights as a bonus to the place itself. Just write them all down.

- On the weekend (or whenever you have a free day) take your car or public transport (if money is a problem, there are these cheap bus lines in Belgium, right?) and make a day trip to one of the places.

- Decide a few days ahead, which place you want to go to if you take public transport so that you can buy the tickets. If you take your car, still decide at least the day before, so that you get up early the next day and don't chicken out because it might rain a little bit on that day.

Sounds easy? I know it's not. I fail at that too often. But you have to keep trying.

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Bro, I was in a similar frame of mind when I was 30, but I just turned 39, I've been married to an amazing lady for 5 years, and I now have a job I enjoy, I don't have "friends", I have "family".

30 is young, if you're not happy with your life, then change it, remembrt everything comes from within.

Life is ment to be hard, because nothing valuable comes easy.

I hope you choose to say with us, because the world need you in it.

>>6619027
You're an idiot.

>>6620705

I think i'll have a cup of everything please.

>>6619024
My advice is start joggin it is always good to do exercise and its great way to clear your head.If you are so lonely get a pet, at least you will always have someone waiting for you at home. After clearing your head you will start to make the right decisions.

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ignore these normies op.
i actually know what you're going through
and unlike what these retards are telling you, it won't magically get better.
i too have been in your position where there is actually no reason for me to live:
all family are dead except for dad
no social life to speak of
only people who would realise i have died are my landlord, my boss and that is literally it.
so i'm not gonna sit here and jizzcoat it unlike these fucking normies who weathered their oh so awful existential crisis and now think by posting some uplifting comments they can bestow ultimate enlightenment to you.
i'm not going to do that because false hope is hilariously cruel.
this is just one of those things which you have to battle yourself and you either come out on top (like my dad who now owns a business and earns about £600 a day and is very happy) or you end up like me - a suicidal antisocial fuckwit with a p.h.d., decent job and nothing else.
everyone's situation is different so again, don't ask for help on the internet as everyone wants you to keep on suffering. ask yourself do you want to keep on going.
sorry for rant it just pisses me off when people think that with a nice comment they can make your life perfect
>inb4 edgy

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my pape

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>>6620772
*current

#6619024 well, I am only 16 and I have felt my worst for the past 3-4 years or so and had some close calls when I planned on taking my own life. Just last year I met a girl we started dating a week after we met and she helped me feel betterish, but still get my shit days. I started smoking weed last year, and I found it will change my mood completely for a week or so, but when I try staying sober eventually I feel like shit 24/7 and hate everything around me and myself. I know that my situation is completely different but I have suffered from depression and contemplated suicide. I saw professional help, my first therapist didn't help me, because I didn't tell her all I was going through in my mind, but I believe it could've helped tremendously. I used to go to a gym in my town, I would just workout with my friends there, but it helped my mood a bit. Exercise helps a lot with the state of your mind. Maybe you should see if you find something that interests you as a hobby or a group that you think is interesting.
I'm unsure how much I can actually help you and I see you're in a difficult situation, if it's very serious then maybe try phycadelic mushrooms, because it has properties in treating depression. For your job, try looking into something else that you'd be able to do, I currently hate my job b/c it's all labor work, and I keep trying to snag another job at a better place. Just keep looking for something that may interest you. I hope this helps.

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>>6620423
Looks cool anon, where is it?

And OP, I'm in the exact same boat as you. I don't know how you feel, but I take some comfort in knowing that I'm not alone in such a situation because other's who haven't been there sure as hell don't know what it's like.
We'll make it, it won't be easy or quick but we'll make it bro.

have you considered substance abuse op? works for me

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>>6619024

Why the fuck were you going to kill yourself before even quitting your job? If you hate your job then quit. There are many ways to make a living that don't involve working for someone.

If you're really on the verge of suicide then you should be living your life as if you have nothing to lose. Try psychedelics, many people say a single psychedelic experience can change your entire perspective on life. Try traveling, you don't need money, as long as you have a cheap vehicle to sleep in and a gym membership for a place to shower every day, you can go anywhere you want.

No one else can give you a reason to stay alive, that's up to you to figure out.

>>6619024
Go out, have an ice cream / a drink / a cappuccino, take a walk in a park with music in your ears, go watch a movie you might like, strike up a conversation with someone you find interesting, blast a tune while cleaning around the house and dance/sing along to it, immerse yourself in a book, start jogging, go to the pool and relax in a hot tub, just fucking get out of your head and do something you like or will find you like to enjoy life, then you can go back into your head and you won't feel like ending it that much. Newer things, including people, will ensue.

>>6620878

Because if i were to quit my job first, my ex-colleagues wouldn't know about it, and my boss wouldn't feel guilty about it.
If i do it, i want people to feel bad about how they treated me. I wanna go out with a bang.

The biggest reason that i don't do it, is because i can't arrange my own funeral. I can't stand at the door and just smack the people in the face that are most responsible for my work-depression.
I'm too curious. I wanna know what people would say about me. Would they be kind, or would they say they didn't like me anyway? Because in the end, nobody would be straight in your face, but when you turn around they stab you in the back.

If i'm honest with myself, i'm probably not deep enough for suicide. It's only at very sad moments that the urge comes up. But after a better weekend like now it fades away in the background, until another shitty day at work, and then i think about it, lie awake about it.

The biggest decision now is money: do i choose for security (house), or for peace of mind (travel around).

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>>6621001
you sound like a turd to be quite honest

Hey, my birthday is in 24 days, I've tried suicide after a motorcycle accident. I wanted to badly when I lost my father. I'm about to be 30 myself, I worked offshore and lost everything once it collapsed. I work for a funeral home. I'm around death all the time, I see people my age, younger. People older who died of natural causes, suicides, overdoses, drinking and driving. Please don't do it. I don't want to be the one to pick up someones body because they thought they had no where to go. This isn't the end.

>>6619024
Tuff shit, neither did we.
Keep on trying and you may one day succeed - if you kill yourself you will be forgotten.

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>>6619024
Bud , Im 32 , Life sucks , I am not going to tell you it magically gets better, it takes some work. Dont go around thinking the world owes you anything , sad truth is if you off yourself this world will keep on spinning. Few people will care and what really sucks is it will hit them hard and their world will stop turning. Its best if you don't do it. In my personal experience volunteer at an animal shelter it does wonders for mental health

>>6619908
THIS!

>>6620705
this is really good , I laughing like mad over here

>>6621001

You won't get anywhere by blaming other people for your problems, whether they deserve the blame or not. Trust me, just quit your fucking job. I've quit many shitty jobs and it feels great every time.

>>6621032
What kind of work do you do at the funeral home?

>>6621354
Well, I pick do first call pick ups, after the ME/Police have done their job (pictures, family, etc) I come in and pick up the deceased. This is anything from Suicide, Homicide, natural causes, drunk driving, overdose.

>>6620017
>That is my philosophy of live
Please be real.

>>6619102
unrelated to this thread but i visited torres del paine last february and it's as majestic as the pictures make it look, fucking amazing scenery

definitely bucket list worthy

>>6619861
pets (especially dogs for me) are one if not the best companion you can have in your life, seriously nigga they constantly show that unconditional loyalty rarely seen on people

doggos are the best

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>>6619024
Hey, look, you are an amazing person, you might not see it but you are. And we all have ruts. Just don't give up in them, once the wheels sink in the mud its alot harder to get going again. You have a conflict about killing yourself, that's good, that means there must be a touch of hope in you, whether apparent or not. Now I'm going to try and give you advice, we don't know alot about your situation, but if you can do anything anyone here suggests please try it. Here's my two cent, on your off days explore hobbies, find anything you enjoy, once you find a thing or two, explore deeper into those, now find a way to work with those, whether it be in a shop selling stuff or trying to work behind the seines. Once you got an idea, try and go to school for what could help if there's classes related, if not try and get friendly with shop owners who sell thing things and maybe try and work there. Now if there are classes, that will work better, you will be in a group of people that are like-interested, study groups, group projects and shit are great for meeting folks. Just try and get to know them. If taking classes isn't a option go to local events, talk to people there, ask them about local groups and such, then go to the groups and meet more locals. The point I'm getting at is if you hate your job, find something you have interest in that can pay enough to live, and/or you can meet people through those interests. If you love games try programming or 3d modeling, music trying recording or mixing, tv take a broad casting class, there is options in every field. Just don't abandon hope, look at this day and age, people can make money off of YouTube, there's bound to be something you can do that you'll love. Just hang in there, I promise it'll get better. Just remember we all have dark times, but that's so we can enjoy the good times when they come.

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>>6619024
Life is your creation thought your perception, do what you want to, remember is all about what you enjoy, I've live in my car by choice just so I could for my dreams, while nite everyone will subject themselves to that, you just have to find your own way in life, and enjoy it. Peace be with you brother, make your life one you enjoy remembering, it's not for anyone else but you.

>>6621678
Not*
Damn swipe text

>>6619254
i like you

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>>6619063

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Nigga, suicide is a permanent solution to temporary problems.

Just go out and talk to people. Ask to hang out. Ask that girl if she wants to get lunch some time. Apply to new jobs.

I used to have weird social interaction problems where I was scared of doing these things, but one day you realize it's sink or swim, and nobody can tell you how to do it. People can give advice, but you need to force yourself into situations and learn from them by being brave enough to do it.

If I could do it, you could do it.

>>6619024
m8 suicide is the easy way out. Just take baby steps and one day you'll wake up and laugh at how much progress you've made. Literaly just go outside and start talking to random people and see if they like you. Self esteem ain't shit. Find something you wanna do like build a rocket and fill it with macaroni and send it into space. Just do some shit that you like and stick with it. What the bloody fuck do you have to lose? you're already considering suicide, the worst that could happen is death. but since you're already considering that, why don't you die after having fun?

A lot of nice tips about making new friends and shit already so I'm gonna focus on something else :

Just find things you like (movie genres, things to build, a new sport or whatever), try to learn a lot about it, join clubs or whatever the fuck so that you can connect to people that are into it.

Also, ask yourself why the hell don't you have friends ? (gf is optional, of course life is better with one but you can still be 100% happy without one)
But friends are, for most people, essential. Not talking about 200 fake-ass facebook friends, but even 2 or 3 good friends is good.

And don't you ever say that you "achieved nothing in life" because guess what, unless you're a surgeon saving lives or working on a new technoligical big thing, you don't really "achieve" things. And most people don't as well. You don't live to achieve things, you live to find happinness. Stop giving a damn fuck about "hrrr I want to achieve shit =( ", focus on what could make you happy.

tl;dr find a fucking hobby

>>6619024
>>6622751
1 more thing OP, if you do make it. It'll be a kick ass story and I wanna hear all about it.

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>>6619024
I have friends in my head and it's been that way since I have had memories. Life was rough growing up for me with an abusive father and a mother who used me as an object to fill her insecurities. I tried 3 times and I'm still here, of course I was a kid and I didn't know how to but... how I got through my fourth depressive episode was by sheer will and hoping that I will deserve death and not beg for it. Two months later after 8 months of moderate to severe depression, And without an attempt. I consider it a personal victory.

Walks or exercise in the sun help, so does doing stuff with consistency. I don't know how much socializing would help since I'm a loner and any amount of intimate socializing I did set me two steps back. I moved out and away from the cause of my stress, my parents, and now I hope to never see that monster, depression, again. Try figuring out what causes stress in your life and then start with what is the most immediate.

>>6619036
also this guy is a liar,
You are NOT okay if you are suffering from depression.
Everything will NOT be okay, you have to make it right your self.
and "Just hang in there" is a poor choice of words.

>>6619024
>I'm having a quarter-life crisis and contemplating suicide
>i need help

>i know, i'll ask /wg/, that's the perfect board for this kind of thing


uwotm8

Join the army, that'll prove if your ready to die or not

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Sounds like your in a small dark place feeling guilty all the time, and looking around and all the stuff you don't have.

Learning to live a life well is a skill that can take a lifetime to master. The people you are comparing yourself to make it look quite easy but its all a positive filter bubble on facebook and society in the end anyways.

You may have to rewrite your own thinking, beliefs and the very core of yourself in order to put depression in its place. I know I did. If you have people and thoughts making you feel like shit all the time, don't be afraid to dump them.

If you need to start somewhere, practice mindfulness, stoicism and critical thinking to have a basis of self to build on. Use pot edibles for instantaneous feelings of joy if you lack any in your life.

Enjoy the journey, and good luck OP.

>>6622776
well there is much less hostality here than on most boards.

>>6622934
*hostility

man, my english needs some work

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"Don’t be disgusted, don’t give up, don;t be impatient if you do not carry out entirely conduct based in every detail upon right principles; but after a fall return again, and rejoice if most of your actions are worthier of human character."

>>6620454
So, it sounds like work is a major source of discontent, and is unhealthy for your spirit. It's killing you.
You're out of the home for what - 9, 10 hours per day? Sleep 8? Need 2 over the day to eat? That leaves 4 or 5 to worship the TV from the sofa or whine on /b/ for a while, and do some online training for some new career, too. Or go out and socialize - do something really square, like ballroom dancing or joining Toastmasters, or sign up for a pottery class, or volunteer at a soup kitchen or just go to an art gallery or learn to cook. There are almost an infinite number of ways to learn to advance yourself, some of them socially. At 30 you should be active. You think you're unhappy now? Just wait til you haven't exercised for a while and your muscles begin to atrophy. Get off your ass and pump some blood through your system! Quit looking for friends. Just work on yourself, and they will come.

>>6619024
start smoking weed, go for long walks, idk find something you enjoy.

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Nearly everything is bad in excess. Too much desire can drive people to suicide if those desires aren't met. Just stop desiring in excess. Keep your desires as mild motivators, but never become so attached to them as to go down with them should they fall. Be prepared to shed your desires if they start to bring you down. Sure, some have become very successful from focusing on their desires to the point of madness, but I'm willing to bet that far more have committed suicide due to the desires that enthrall them.

Get some sun. Fast for a week. Randomly exercise. Clean your home. Practice a martial art. Read anything that seems interesting. Do simple things. Stop focusing on desires that take too much without immediate reward. Let them be background to the desires that give you something. If it is to be, then the long term desires will come. If not, let them go.

>>6619024
The mystery of tomorrow is what keeps me going dear Anon.
Maybe it can keep you going too?
You never know what's going to happen..
Stop by the /x] board every now and then for some strange inspiration.
The busier you keep your mind the less likely you are to an hero.
If life wasn't worth living - i wouldn't still be alive, friendo.

>>6619024
try living for someone else and think little of yourself

>>6620017
Beautiful post.

>>6621001
Fake your death (e.g. burning) and visit your funeral in disguise. Problem solved.

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>>6619024

Try.

>I'll fail.

Then try and fail again.

>But it's hard.

Read some Robert Frost, then come back here and read what I wrote again.

You are the guy in my wallpaper. Yeah, ultimately you are out of luck. So what?

Fight.

>>6619024

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=32GaowQnGRw

The best and most important speech I've ever heard.

If you tl;dw, your own fault.

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>>6619024
OP just watch some motivation videos:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qd4SRACGdrg

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZmAFMNmSKus

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g-jwWYX7Jlo

Also start lifting. Find what you want to do with your life by doing as many hobbies as you can find.

>>6619024
If you have nothing to live for you also having nothing to lose by changing your life.
Quit your job. Move on. Decide what you would like to do and do it. If you don't know travel.

>>6620017
for some reason your monologue reminds me of S.T.A.L.K.E.R. Good points though. I tend to have a hedonistic approach to life myself.

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You know, have you ever asked yourself why you are in here?

All of you depressed people that I see post in here must understand one thing.

You are not a part of society like "normal people" One of the main reason is that you are far more intelligent than the average individual. That is why you are in here.

Creative and intelligent people will suffer and be depressed because we see the world in a whole different way than most people.

That is why you are 30 years old and list all the things you listed, and feel what you feel.

Smart people will never be able to love an average job, simply because it is to dull for you.
You are single without a girlfriend because its harder for you to function normal with a normal individual (that goes for the rest of you also btw)

Einstein was very depressed. The biggest artists ever existed are and have been depressed. Suicide, drugs etc etc.
If they feel they belong, they would never feel the way they feel and do the things they do.

Listn bro.
Im soon 33, and I have felt this way in over 25 years, but I am still here.
I too have a job I hate, but I dont care. I do it well, and it provides for my living.
Life becomes when I am done with the normal routine. And that is OK
I go on adventures all the time. Either in my mind, outside, or world wide trips.

Think about what you really would love to achive in your life and what your ultimate life would look like.
Just remember, be careful what you wish for, you just might get it ;)

Happy B day anon - You are not in the same bubble as everyone else. (Same goes for the rest of you anons in here also)

Its a much bigger chance for you getting a date with Selena Gomez, than the ones that never have heard of 4chan but are very familiar with the loving Facebook. Just saying ;)

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>>6619024
I know that feel. It has been almost a month since my gf sucked me off and we haven't had sex in almost a week. I feel lonely and don't get around doing the stuff I need to do. I sit in front of fucking 4chan instead of just writing the papers I need to write. The things people say to me don't mean anything anymore because I think about her all the time. What the fuck, she isn't even perfect, I'm a grown up person, why am I feeling that way? It's like I am pretending she's the one, maybe I should just end it or kill myself. Sorry for the blog post.

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Get politically active and join a protest. If you live in the states theres plenty of them to join. You would meet alot of people with the same political standpoint as you and they make great friends.
Take part in something great like that and you will feel less meaningless.

>>6619254
You sound like a wigger but I do agree, stick around see what happens.

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>>6627113
Alternative

we love you man come on put that face up you can do the best things in life yet because youre not death ! cheer up

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>>6626357
Not OP but i have been lurking this thread. This really opened my eyes. I have a girlfriend and she is depressed more often than my other friends.
What you say is right, and i never thought about it in that way before but now i see it. We fit so well together, me and her. We both understand each other and dont have many other friends because of other reasons but we see each other better than anyone else because we both have an interesting and depressing past.
Blah blah blah i know but now that i have read this post my eyes are open to a whole new idea of my problems and why i cant function 100% with society.
Thank you anon.

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>>6619024
get a passport, go to an airport with only a backpack with the bare essentials. Look at a destination board, and pick somewhere.
and for your troubles

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>>6619024
I wish i could tell you everything will be perfect Anon.
But life sucks sometimes and it beats the shit out of you. You're the only one that can stand yourself up and put yourself back on the right path. Sure there might be people around you that help you but you are the one that makes enough effort to completely fix yourself. They can help by showing you where the right path to take it, but you're the one that chooses it.
You're the one that has to try. But you have to keep your head up, because life never stops moving you, and if your head is down you are going to run into so many more walls and barriers than you would have if you kept your head up.
Don't give up Anon. Every market crashes, but it also always rebuilds to how it was.

>>6619032
thank you, ill be thirty by the time i graduate with a bachelors so i can be in forestry and make good money
>the true forest
>nothing else like it

>>6619024
there is no meaning to life

do what you want

doesn't mean drown in substances,

it'll be alright,

you'll be happier for it

>>6619024
traveling is my recommendation
it helped me find what i wanted out of my life
>work in forestry
>continue traveling
>i don't need many friends. 3 is enough
>a dog helps a lot with major depression in my case

of course i'm only 25.
still working on getting my first bachelors degree

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You have a job. You might hate it, but there's money in it. And that means you at least have a life at all.

The fact that you fear death means you still love life at least some. I heard this when I wanted to kill myself and so I think it's worth saying to you: life can always get better. You can meet someone new and stay up all night with them. You can hear great music and love it. You can watch an overdramatized documentary with a bowl of ice cream and a bunch of cheap chocolate. Go out and be nice to someone, just hearing their story and offering encouragement. Little things.

And sometimes? Life will suck. But you're capable. You've survived thirty years now. You can get through it. Ask for help if you need it. You're not going to go down without a fight. Your weapons are happiness and the ability to just embrace the suck.

Death will happen eventually. You might get hit by a car. If it happens, it happens, right? No need to speed it up. Which sounds morbid but hey, you were going to die today. You didn't. You can make it buddy.