I want to kill myself, my life sucks now

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dont leave senpai

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u won't

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Its gets better. One day at a time.

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>>1952209
It doesn't

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>>1952029
hey faggot
i love you

don't give up on life man, yo family be sad if u ded.

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>>1952029
Don't die. Not yet anyway.

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Later gator.

live for life, anon

pilot the goddamn eva

>>1952257
if i were depressed and about to kill myself and someone said this to me on the internet, i'd kill myself even faster

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don't do it anon contact a suicide prevention line

you're not alone

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keep going, but keep an open mind

you'll find something worth looking for

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>>1952029
Stop being a fag and just do it

>>1952029
See you tomorrow, chuckles.

>>1952029
Weither or not you're telling the truth or not, I can not say. Hell, I don't even know if you have moved on because you are a troll, have contacted a suicide prevention line, or if you've already done it and are gone. But if you aren't and you're still here, then take the time to listen to my words.

This thought has also crossed my mind in my life for various reasons. Feeling inaedequite, feeling ugly, thinking I'm too weird, feeling like there's no one in the world that possibly know what I'm going through or that can help me. What I've learned is none of that matters. Looks, success, etc. None of it's worth it in the long run. I think that the only thing that's kept me going is that I have a family, a mother, a father, two brothers. You get the picture. If you don't have those, there is always other options. There are always people that will care, even if most don't. God put those people on this earth to save those souls that are in disarray. If you're worried no one will love you, that's false because there's always someone. Always. He/she may not be a super model, but the important thing is that they love you and will hear your cries. If you're worried that you'll never achieve your goals, keep failing until you do. That's the only way they will happen, trying. Nothing will change ubless you make it happen. Every single man on this earth has the power to change the whole thing, it just takes enough willpower to do it. So put whatever it is you're using down and stand with your head held high. This is from one person, to another.

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Your life sucks now so that you can enjoy it when it gets better. In the future you won't realize how happier and fulfilled you'll be if it wasn't for the shitty times you've lived through. Contrast is everything man.

Consider the possibility of religion.
Killing yourself might not cure your state of mind.
It might make it permanent, for eternity.

Take refuge in sleep. Use sedatives. Let your brain work untroubled by emotion.

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My Waifu

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Don't kill yourself just in case they adapt JoJo part 7 into an anime.

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>>1952029
This should help you feel better

>>1952029
Season 3 of Strike Witches is comming hang in there.

>>1952029
Did you end yourself already? Just wanted to ask why your life sucks?

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>>1952029
I've been there very very recently. The way I pushed thoughts of killing myself away was:

The realization that I only wanted to die because I wanted my life to end. I wanted my life to end because my life was so hard and shitty, and there was no hope. So really, I didn't want it to end - I wanted the shittiness to end: I actually just wanted to have a better life. Killing myself wasn't going to improve my life, so it was a really weird solution. I wasn't going to start over, I wasn't going to reincarnate in a new life.

I realized that I wanted to kill myself - ending my one and only chance at life - because I wanted my life to get better. That's a real nonsense solution. I didn't have a good solution, but I knew that wasn't it. By using that logic, I understood how absolutely terrible my depression (and depressed brain) was. That's depression's trick: convincing you that stupid nonsense things make sense.

Dying wouldn't let me see what happened after. It wouldn't be happier for me; I wouldn't even be able to feel the relief of no longer suffering. If there's no afterlife, there's absolutely nothing at all. No feelings, no existence, no watching the world after you're gone. That might sound appealing to a brain under so much horror and pain. But there is no relief. There is no getting better. There is no improvement or enjoyment or fulfillment after you cease to exist.

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Your life may be shit, and you hate it so much that you want it to end. You really just want the shit to end so you can live the life you want or at least one where you're content.

Please keep us updated. You can always reach out.

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>>1952029

Time.

Time is the best medicine you can have now.

This is not the end my friend...

You still have a long road ahead, and who knows where will it lead you.

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>>1952029
Don't do it OP, Evangelion 4.0 is not out yet.
(Rebuilds aren't that bad)

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>>1955233
Shit resolution sorry
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lCfYrxx_hBE

>>1953047
Fuck off imbecile.

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I won't tell you to do it or not do it. I don't believe the lie that life always gets better. Just look at some peoples lives even in first world countries. So many people have their lives ended violently, so many have lives that do not get better but rather get worse and worse until they are eventually killed by themselves or others. Life may be good for some, but there is NO rule in the universe that all lives will get better. Some lives end when they are in a bad place, and there's no knowing that your life will get better before it's end comes. If you think you have some hope, carry on and don't look back, but if you really are at a point where no hope exists at all and nothing is worth it to you, which could be any number of situations depending on what you want out of life, then there's no need to suffer further simply to satisfy someone's shitty anecdotes about "life always getting better. If life is out of things that make it work it to you, then let yourself rest. Death in itself is not good or bad, it is merely an ending to life. For some it is not desirable and for others it is. Just make sure it's what you want, because there's no going back.

>>1952029
If you don't kill yourself, within 6 months you'll probably have a GREAT time doing something. you might even get laid, if you have more luck than i do.
Might as well see this shitty ride through, anon

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Can you have "friends" and still feel lonely? Because I hurt.

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>>1952029
Don't give up man, the pain of living makes that release of death that much greater. The longer you live, the better dying becomes.

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>>1955800
Yes you can. I feel the same way.

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Hey guys what is your reason for staying alive?? What is it that keeps u going and alive???

>>1955985
instict of survival?

>>1952029
Same, I don't know why I haven't killed myself yet.

Be happy OP.
You dont have taste as bad as this person.
>>1953452

>>1955985
Well when I was severely depressed it was my fear of non-existence. The thought of the world, and all the life and movement going on while I ceased to exist scared the shit out of me.
And I suppose I was also curious about what the future would bring technology wise.

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You need to find a hobby, or a passion, or a dream and just pursue it.

You are depressed. A lot of people are depressed and I used to be one of them myself. which is why it's so easy to recognize.

I've noticed it usually happens somewhere from later teens to late 20's.
I'll walk down the street, or go into a store and I can just see it in peoples eyes, their lack of energy, that they've given up.

In reality its our current society that's causing this shit. We're left without a purpose, just mindlessly going to school, getting a job. working day in and out. Majority of people have no passion nor motivation because their life is empty.

Happiness is a byproduct of success. Your mind rewards you when you DO something you recognize that you've made progress towards SOMETHING.

Find purpose in your life OP. it doesn't have to be one thing, it can be multiple things you try at different times. it can be small goals or large dreams, it doesn't matter. What matters is that you do it.

>>1955990
Yea theres that but ill rephrase myself...
What is keeping u from killing yourself?

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>>1956027
My "problem" is that i am just 1 more person no1 cares about... im expandeble... why shloud i keep going if i cant do anything and mean nothing to any1... sure u might say your family cares about u... and the other guy also said find a hobbie u love.... i have it its awsome.... but thats just not what im looking for...

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>>1955985
Enjoying vidyas i have, wathcing animu, driving my car...

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>>1955985

My friends, and my drive to master as many skills as i possibly can

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>>1952029
Your body just makes you feel pain fear hate in other words your body is an obstacle kill yourself and discover that awaits on the other side don't be afraid i'll be waiting for you.

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>>1952029
Its ok OP everyone goes through stuff like this. You just need to stay positive and try to think of the good things in life even thought it may be hard.

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>>1955800 yes is 100% possible im he same have many good friends and i stay with a few is not the people u hang with that make you want to or not want to kill urself its something u want to live for. maybe u dont know it yet but everyone has something. even if u think it to be impossible.

and op jus hang in there every day gets better. im going to tell u my situation and maybe u will come to a decision.
ive been in love with the same girl for just about 8 years ive never once old her how i feel exept for o day when i finally came clean i felt much better even know i got shot down. i may not have the only person i may ever love but i will always srive to make myself a better person even if others hate me in the process jus remember that it is your life u have to live dont think about what other may want think about u. is there nothing u want to do with ur life?

>>1955985
As much as I would be content with never waking up tomorrow, I can't bare to hurt my friends - who are my real family. And also, my survival is my own personal "fuck you" to every asshole out there and every shit hand I've ever been dealt.

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>>1958318
What is making your life suck?

One day, someday, something will come along that will give you a purpose.

It just takes the willpower to keep pushing on.

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>>1953116
relevant

>>1955985
not making my mom and my sis sad if I kill myself

>>1952029
I've been going through the same thing.
Can't do it because I know what it would do, my brother would start taking oxy again, my mom might off herself, my twin brother would probably turn into a husk of a person since he already has minor depression. My father would be left to suffer, and he's too good for that he worked too damn hard for a good life and I refuse to take that away from him.
If you aren't going to live for yourself live for the ones others have gotten themselves, and you might get a life worth living someday.

>>1960278
*live for others who have gotten themselves a live worth living
too damn tired

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Not op but I needed this thread. Thanks
/w/

>>1956043
The simple fact that I exist.

>>1960920
What do you have from the fact that you exsist??

>>1952257
Not op, but anon, I love you for being considerate

>>1960907
shit this is gorgeous

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>>1955985
"what will i miss while i'm gone forever?"
"what if it's good?"
"only one way to find out"

>>1956454
Ay you got a higher res image?

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>>1953087
Man, thanks anon. I'm not OP but your words helped. Nice to meet someone who genuinely cares.

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>>1952029
Somehow, I like this feel.
Think my life sucks, or I'm done.
But everyday is a new discovery for who wants to see. Sometimes, you need to do just one thing to be have a nice day. For example, if you have got a job , or you are moving, just the fact to smile to someone during your movements, could be a nice thing. Not obligatory for you, but for this person, it could be nice.
Living isn't easy. But, this is exactly why, a little thing could change a bad day in a nice day.
I haven't translate all my feelings, 'cause my english isn't really good, but I'm with you OP.
Life could be really funny. But sometimes, you just need to push you a little bit for see that.
I wish you are still alive OP

>>1955135
OMFGGG U FUCKING RUINED THE PERFECT WALLPAPER, WITH THAT FUCKING EDGY TEXT ON THE RIGHT

>>1962766
Actually, I made this wallpaper (not the guy you're yelling at). I was trying out photoshop and had fun making edgy stuffs.
I'm sorry, there is no version of this one without the text on the right. You can still try making it yourself though, it shouldn't be that hard.

Bye.

>>1953087
faith in humanity restored (not OP)

>>1956031
Love your words, Anon ^^

>>1955135
Is there a version without the text?

>>1955800
im pretty much alone all the time, but i feel less lonely than i did before.

What a lot of you are saying is that something cool might happen and you don’t want to miss it.
I don’t think a lot of people who are suffering care about the cool thing that’s going to happen because they wont be able to enjoy due to their circumstance which might even cause more suffering.

At least thats how it was for me.

The point when I wanted to kill myself was when I gave up hope of my circumstance ever changing.
Especially when I had so much hope of it changing for so long.

Anyways, theres always hope. A new hope. Fuck star wars

>>1958000
This hurt to read. Sweet Jesus, all the grammatical and spelling errors.

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>>1962531
Would've posted it if i had one anon. Have you found one?

>>1963701
How did you get out of that slump then anon?

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>>1963684
>>1962766

I called a suicide hotline once. The person's reaction to my story was "...and?" I gained perspective that my thoughts were to a large part my own perception.

OP, whatever's going on in your life that's bothering you, no matter what it is, I can promise you one thing: It's temporary.

No matter how bad things are now, eventually things will change. They might get worse before they get better, but I've learned through my own experiences of being trapped in hopeless situations and not having an adequate support system of loved ones that it's always a temporary situation. One day your life will change, it just takes time. Time you'll never have if you end it all now.

>>1955985
not hurting the ones that love me

>tfw I'll probably end up hurting them in other way when they'll see what a failure I am

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Really guys, this is what we're going to do with our time? Instead of posting wallpapers we're gonna sit down and circlejerk everyone's bad feelings away? Please find another board where this kind of activity is welcome and go cry over there until you feel better. And if you insist on posting here, at least include a wallpaper worthy image in proper size and quality so you can at least pretend to be on topic. Barely half of the posts have anything attached (Which is unfortunately common even out of this thread), its an image board and that should be doubly important here on w. Heres a relaxing 1920x1080 wallpaper, now calm down, reflect, and decide what you're going to do.

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>>1967875
Oops, that wasn't the 1920x1080 version. Oh well, it should be easy enough for you guys to use paint.net to change an images dimensions (another unfortunately uncommon skill here on w).

>>1953087
Gets me everytime

>>1952029
i do right now as well.. but i didn't 3 hours ago.. and i probably won't feel the same in the morning, you know you'll hold out

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>>1953087
God bless you, Anon

>>1953087
>god
fuck off

>>1955985
I'm an optimist and even in the darkest, most painful times a little bit of that shines through and I hang on to that sliver of hope that I might one day be happy.

>>1953087
>god
stoped reading

>>1952678
DID YOU JUST ASSUME MY GENDER AS "SOMEONE"
FUCKING
TRIGGERED
YOU WHITE MALE

>>1955985
Escapism and shtiposting. Not much else to live for at this point.

>>1952029
Not gonna tell you some bullshit like live for other people.
Just try to find some shit that makes you happy, like experiencing a new story. When you feel like you've heard it all, there some asshat that come along and proves you wrong. just keep living to fins some shit that makes you happy.

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>>1952209
so far away...

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TONS of shared feels in this thread... This and the 9 month old Holo thread are the reasone i lovle /w/. will bump will one of my favourite wallpapers/memes. As a wise anon once said
>this is a good meme

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>>1955985
my family

i'm awful to them in an attempt to distance myself from them so they might not feel as bad when i finally grow a set and put one between the eyes, but they've not relented in loving me and it hurts because i really just want to die and my life is a continuing cycle of meaningless work and the occasional video game but despite all this they still love me and i love them which is why i haven't killed myself but i don't want them to feel awful when i die since i'm their only child and i know how they'd look at my old room or old pictures of me and i know what that does to a person and i know suicide is selfish but the only thing that's kept me going is the thought that thing might get better and all i do is sit and watch it go by and nothing is changing and it feels awful

sometimes i hate myself for talking about how i feel too much because i know how it gets on the nerves of people and i hate myself when people listen because it feels like theyre just wasting their breath and it's this awful fucking duality in my life that i can't handle and nothing is changing

i hope life is just a prologue to something bigger

>>1955985
My anime backlog. Maybe that sounds pathetic, but I really don't have anything else. I'd an hero at this point if I didn't have a huge backlog of anime to finish. I'm not expected to pass 50 so I might never actually finish my backlog, with my slow watching pace.

>>1969092
I know anon's intentions were positive, but I wholeheartedly agree.

>>1955985
Inertia

>>1955985
Don't really have one, there's just sometimes stuff that makes the suffering worth putting up with, I can't enjoy anything if I'm dead, so might as well suffer and get the little enjoyment I do

>>1952029
We all have ups and downs. I believe in you anon.

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>>1952029
welcome to the party.
I'm just waiting for the password to kill myself, which is "get a job or get out of my house" from my parents. and I will hang myself just like my waifu, except there will be no one to stop me.

>>1955985
There's too many anime and video games I haven't finished yet.

>>1970466
This

I still have to play Persona 5, I can't die yet.

>>1953619

If they did it would look like diarrhea, in which case you'd kill yourself then.

>>1952029
Just do it

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>>1952029
I always feel the same way OP.

>>1954868
As this person said OP, I realized that a lot of my thoughts were completely irrational and contrary to what was the reality of the situation. I tend to always think that no one cares about how I feel and no one will ever care. That I'm useless and not good for anything. That I will never accomplish anything of significance. That I will be a failure. That I will always be lonely and die alone.

However, I also realized a lot of the way I was feeling was partially my fault. I wouldn't want to reach out to people or ask for help. I know I shouldn't do this and I try not to but, it's still really hard. Depression is an uphill battle.

I like to write notes to myself on sticky notes and put them everywhere I can see them. It's really cheesy but, it works. It's always stuff like "Ganbatte!" and "Daijoubu!" or pictures of people I find inspirational.

I used to see a therapist and she once wrote down on a piece of paper "You are loved." and told me to keep it. I wish I still had it.

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>>1955985
family, anime, cars and vidya

>>1953087
>>1968747
>>1969092
>TRIGGERED

>>1960907
>CAT-12ee

Is this from the future..?

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>>1952029
Life can suck, it does pretty often, but life is never really all that simple. After living with pretty severe MDD for nearly ten years, one thing I learned is that a lot of how we perceive our life is so subjective and arbitrary, that letting it get you down and fully buying into the 'everything sucks' bullshit, is just that, bullshit. We tend to only see narrow slices of our existence and ourselves at a time, and often in a distorted ways, as we're limited and human. I get suicidal, and buy into the bullshit myself, but in the back of my head I keep in mind, that regardless of how overwhelming it may be, it's still just a tiny slice of life that's just too easy to fixate on, especially if how you grew up or the shit you've had to deal with kept putting you back there again and again till it just becomes way too ingrained in your head. I guess all I'm saying is life is what you make it, as there's so much more of it than we think, enough to shape it into something better. It's not easy to make it better, but it sure as hell is possible.

If you have any bit of desire to do anything, find a good game, show, or movie, or something else, find something that takes you out of that slice of life and makes it easier to work it out or just wait it out, whatever works for you. There's sometimes worthwhile experiences where you'd least expect them.

You can also kill yourself, if you really want to. You have every right to your life, but also the consequences that come with taking it. I would advise voluntary dehydration as it would take about a week, and require you to reaffirm that this is actually the best decision for you for that entire week, and wouldn't lead you to making an irrational decision based on a couple of really bad days. I still think you have some life left in you, even if it's just for a couple of sweet wallpapers.

You'll be alright. All bad things tend to work themselves out by the end, just don't cut things short before you see it through.

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>>1967875
Eh, it it's not breaking the rules, not ruining anyone's day. Just as long as they post wallpapers, dammit.

Thanks for the nice resolution and lossless format. Though I tend to post max quality JPEGs as Windows tends to convert and heavily compress any other format other than JPEG when you set it as a wallpaper, and I don't expect anyone on here to do the conversion from PNG to a high quality JPEG themselves.

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>>1967875
The genius that originally provided the image took a jpeg and saved it as a png...

I ran it through a filter to cull some of the noise and artifacts, so you don't embarrass yourself. Merry Christmas.

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>>1955985
the hope that it'll be worth it in the end. that sticking around will and having faith in things getting better will show it's worth someday.

for without that faith and hope. I'd surely have been gone long ago.

>>1955985
The goals I have set for myself. I will complete them with vigilance and find new goals in their stead, if not then I will be dead.

>>1955985
my boyfriend

>>1962537
You are gonna make it.

We all are.

One foot on the grave, another on the banana peel.

>>1970927
Whoever you are, stay wonderful you magnificent bastard.

The demons in our head are often the hardest to overcome but dont get overwhelmed afterall, you are in charge of them afterall. They exist because you allow them to.

In the words of this really sassy fat lady I met in line at walmart "Aint nobody cant make you mad but you."

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>>1955985
fear of death(nonexistence)/potential afterlife full of suffering regardless of my character during life

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>>1952029
yeah but anon... how do you download papes if you are dead?

>>1971866
a more terrifying pospect is that there is no afterlife. No consciousness at all. The fact that we exist at all is a fluke and its probably better that we just enjoy every ounce of bullshit we can because in 45 years we will have no other chance at seeing the beauty in the breakdown.

Pls just try anon.

>>1952029
past 12 years "want to be ded", but can't allow such an bliss to myself :(

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>>1955985
I made a promise to myself when my mom died, that I would live, and I just won't give up on live. It may not be the life I want, nor a easy live, but I'll just keep living.

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>>1953116
God the morals, art, and storytelling of OPP were fucking sublime. Will we ever get another story like it anon's?

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>>1955985
I continue to live because there is just so much more in life to experience. There is so much to do in life. You just got to muster the willpower to do it. There are places I still wish to go, food yet to taste, people yet to meet, knowledge yet gained, love yet to solidify. I take each day as it hits me. We all have our issues anon, personally I'm addicted to sex and porn. However I'm taking steps to rectify myself. If you want to find a purpose start with clarifying what your end game is. Maybe pick up some philosophy books in line with what your end goal of being alive is about.

>>1973712
Probably not. Weeaboos and Nips only care about moeshit and shounen so it's hard to get stuff like Punpun made.

>>1952029
#woah #wow

>>1975271
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2mxitw5DjwE&

My all time favorite anime

>>1952209
>>1952029

You believe that, man I hope the weed you smoke is good.

Let me tell you something. I've been around, all over Asia, Australia, the South Pacific and North America. I've seen truly dirt poor people who have no more to their name than the shirt they are wearing. I've seen women lined up like cattle to be bought for sex. I've seen children paid to fight each other for the amusement of adults. Life, doesn't get better for most people. Most people aren't wealthy, pretty, intelligent and/or talented. Most people don't have the creativity to make a great work of art or beautiful music. Most people aren't born to wealthy parents or born so beautiful that people are willing to do anything just to make them happy. Most people will never design the next iPhone or discover a grand unifying theory of physics. Most people are hopelessly average to below average. You are as ugly as you think you are, you aren't that bright, and most everything you will do will be at best satisfactory. If you do manage to find someone, they will be just as boring and useless as you are. Your kids, if you choose to have them, will be just as useless and ugly. That's just the way of the world 6+ Billion people and 99.99999999999% are just boring, ugly, useless masses going through life. The reason you're depressed, the reason people are so unhappy is that they know this truth. They know that with their death, in the end, no one will care. The universe will keep going forward, expanding towards entropy. Life doesn't get better, just accept that if you died tomorrow or 70 years from now the end result is the same. You will have no impact on humanity as a whole. No impact on the universe and your life is totally insignificant. Kill yourself or not just understand no one cares. So your choice is to either find things you enjoy and do them or die.

>>1975310
Well you certainly scream "Happy Pill"

>>1952029
If it sucks now, suck it up until it stops sucking. You can do it, anyone can do it. Time moves on and once you realize that you're not tied to bad things - so do you. Don't give up on the chance of betterment. It's never worth giving up.

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>>1967875
>>1971015

>>1975340

It's just the truth. We like to place meaning in our lives but the truth is that it is all kinda pointless. If op kills him/her self do you think anyone will really care for long? Maybe the person mom for a while, a friend maybe but after a year or so everyone will move on, the sun will rise and he/she will be forgotten.

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>>1955985
some love like this, its what keeps me alive

>>1975340
It's not fair to tell other people not to die. At the very least, don't I deserve to bring my life to an end if I really want to? For some people, life will not get better. It'd cruel to force them to keep on living in the hopes of some imaginary future that doesn't suck. Guess what, it doesn't always get better. Sometimes, life just stays shit, and then it kills you anyway. It's a mercy to allow people to free themselves from this pain, they don't deserve to be forced to live. And life isn't that great, either. You're just being born into a task, the task of not dying. Once you exist as a human, you have to expend constant effort until the day you die. You're born into the slavery of life, because your body also makes your mind too scared to die. It instills a want to not die, and a want to live, yet living is shit and does not make you any happier than death. To force people to carry that burden is incredibly selfish, you may like it here but for some people living is hell. You're arrogant and selfish to force them to stay here. So they should slave away in unhappiness just because a few people might be in a bad mood if they die? That's bullshit, no one deserves your life. Unless that person can actually make life worth living for you, they have no right to ask that you maintain it.

>>1975860

To kill yourself is selfish. Someone gave birth to you. Someone cared for you, fed you, trained you, taught you to walk and speak. Someone gave you the computer you're writing on. Someone made the clothes you are wearing.

Killing yourself is giving a big ol' middle finger to all those people.

And this is besides the fact that killing yourself won't solve anything.

>>1975866
It is selfish of our parents that gave birth to us without our approval.

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>>1955800
yeah.... it really does suck
atleast ive got Neko rem

>>1975866
Someone else can selfishly keep me alive because they might feel sad or guilty if I killed myself, but I don't even have the right to be selfish about my own life? That's fucking bullshit, if life is a living hell for someone than at the very least they deserve the right to free themselves from it. Life is not some fucking fairy tail where everyone will have a happy ending if they stay alive, for some people it isn't fucking right to demand they stay alive. Fuck you and fuck everyone else who prolong a persons pain because they don't want their shitty just world delusions being shattered. Some people deserve at the very least the right to choose to die, do not take that away from them. You're extremely selfish and cruel for demanding someone prolong their own torture. Just fuck off with your bullshit, the way other people might feel about my or someone elses death doesn't even compare to the importance my own feelings on the matter.

Buck up and become a comedian. The greatest minds are always the most bitter people

Do you have a camera?
Do it live

>>1975310
This is actually some good advice.

>>1976116
That's terrible advice.

>>1955985
Knowing that death brings absolutely nothing, while no matter what, I have a chance to be happy in life.

>>1976423
This. I don't know about you guys but i'd stump my toe every god damned day if it also meant i get a wank once a day.

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>>1955985
>Hey guys what is your reason for staying alive??
>Coffee
>Junk food
>Tobacco
>Painkillers
>Weed
>Comfy bed
>2D Grills
>Fun-posting
>Warm sunny days / Cool breezy days
>Star-gazing
>Nationalism
>Anime forums / Channels
>The idea of wasting all the work I've done over the years
>Finding a soulmate
>Finding out what it all means and where my role is in all of it.
>To finish mastering various arts, languages, instruments, skill sets etc.
>To bring various ideas and dreams to fruition.
>To teach others and potentially strive for a higher cause.
>To reciprocate love and joy with others.
>To see and do all the things.
>To help guide the multiverse through time and across timelines.
>To add to the entropy of the universe.

>What is it that keeps u going?
>Dedicated unconscious procrastination and escapism.

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>>1968747
>>1969092
You do realize that, "God" doesn't necessarily refer to the judeo christian god "Yahweh" right?
In referring to "God" Anon may well be referring to the universe as a singular, conscious, all connected supper being for instance. (Pantheism)

>Q.E.D. You can be spiritual and look for a higher cause in life without being religious.

>>1955985
My complete inability to find anything interesting is balanced by my insatiable desire to know everything. I don't know how to have fun, I only crave to know everything there is to know and then some, more than a starving man for food. But, I also would like to die. Just, it seems relaxing to not exist.

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>>1976533
This describes almost perfectly how I feel about life, I honestly never thought I'd see it put in to words so well.

>>1976533
Are you Faust?

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After seeing this thread I have gained so much respect for this board. Most of the others would just tell OP to off himself but you guys actually gave him uplifting advice and supported him.

>>1955985
I stay alive because I want to experience the full thing. Just opting out and leaving after I got this far doesn't appeal to me. I might get a girlfriend tomorrow, but I also might get raped by a black man named Donovan. Who knows. I just want to see it to the end.

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>>1955985
The trauma my baby sisters would undoubtedly go through if I died. That and my meds.

>>1952029

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>>1952029
Do it

>>1977403
>ifunny image

take your own advice

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I think every person should have the right to end their lives, this is why it's hard to me to understand why eg. eutanasia is forbidden/taboo in some countries. Usually there would be someone who's going to be sad of your choice, but you didn't choose to come here, right? No one ever told you that you should live a long life, no matter how shit it's going to be. And considering how overpopulated this planet is right now, nature would be grateful if there's even one human less.

Still, I'm not going to encourage OP to kill him/herself. I personally struggled years with the same thoughts because of my overscaled sense of duty or the expectations of my family/friends/society. The moment I started to give rat's ass about it all, I gradually started to find some sort of peace. I also thought that while I'm here [alive], why not just try different ways to live out of curiosity and do stuff just for kicks? This way I founded eg. drawing, music and photography which has been a really good way to channel out all the thoughts that gave me a shitload of stress. Useless stress.

I know that I'm not too gifted with writing or convincing people through words, but I'd like to encourage you to find the source of your destructive thoughts. If your case is the same as mine, try above mentioned ways to deal with it. If not, I unfortunately give you any foolproof advices. Just don't do the same mistake that I was about to do: throwing away my life just because I didn't meet everyone's expectations. No matter what's your choice, do it for yourself.

Best regards
Fellow anon and a faggot

>>1955985
I guess I never really found a reason to live, but I also never found a reason to die. I like existing in between happiness and sadness.So what keeps me going? Life is random. everyday is different than yesterday, sometimes it sucks, sometimes its great, but its always, ALWAYS different. It may be similar, but its not the same. So I look forward to what each day will bring, kind of how you look forward to what new episode of your favorite anime will bring, or new sequel to a movie you absolutely love. The surprise is what keeps me going.

>>1977403
>ifunny
please neck yourself, shithandle

>>1955985
Evangelion 4.0

Anywhere can be paradise as long as you have the will to live. After all, you are alive, so you will always have the chance to be happy. As long as the Sun, the Moon, and the Earth exist, everything will be all right.

>>1978940
This really. Unreleased animu shit

>>1970466
>>1970659
So this is the only thing you cling unto?

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>>1955985
Scared of death

>>1976341
You think so? Pro tip from someone who's not depressed. It's not. The way he types makes me believe he's depressed too. I was seriously depressed when I was 18. Thought I knew everything about the world. Nothing gave me joy because I thought like this guy. Every activity I did or set out to do was pointless, because all I could see was the end goal of every activity in life. Then I took LSD. Long story short we know nothing of our existence. And life is a literal blessing.

>>1956014
Don't insult Kurumi-chan
Anyway, OP, if you're still with us, know that we are with you

>>1952029
Do it faggot, and be sure to stream it.

>>1956044
You say that as if its a bad thing, you a free absolutely free to do whatever makes you happy, that is the whole point of this world.
If that isn't your thing have a kid or two then you will have a more grounded purpose if that's what you are looking for.

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>>1952029
STOP BEING A LITTLE BITCH AND DRINK BEER AND DO DRUGS ALSO I BET YOURE A VIRGIN

OP IS A FAGGOT

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>>1955985
I have dreams I want to accomplish, beautiful new vistas to discover, people I want to smile with, feelings to understand and share. Sometimes life has been scary or overbearing, but every one of those golden moments makes it all infinitely worth it.

>>1980043
This post is golden.
Godspeed, my friend.

>>1976533
I like this explanation.

>>1978885
This right here. I can relate.

>>1955985
Curiosity, and not having a particularly terrible life. I want to see things, experience things. I want to live the rest of my life, even if that means going through hard times sometimes. I just can't stand the thought of not having those experiences.

>>1952682
You do you'll get dragged away in a van and stuck in some shithole hospital, have fun with that.

If you are sad, turn toward Jesus. He saved my life and He will save yours. Attack me if you want but the only reason in day this is because i know how low i was and how high i am today and i want everyone to feel like this. First step is to have a nice long pray for Him to reveal Himself to you. Good luck !

Because you haven't watched all anime and there is more all the time

>>1952029
No one could have changed your fate. Take solace in the fact that life is predestined. You are not at fault. If you truly want to kill yourself the world has forfeited you, no man can hold that against you.

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>>1960154
Same. Precisely this.

>>1980540
That only happens if you say that you are currently attempting suicide or are about to attempt it. If you simply discuss your thoughts, feelings, and anxieties, then thy won't do anything of the sort. Instead, they'll simply try and talk you down from those thoughts and probably suggest counseling.

You are not alone

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>>1955985
I'm hoping to find a girl to invest my time into someday. In the meantime I have anime and pokemon

>>1955985
Nothing, i just want money and il try to gain it without risking nor my life nor my freedom.
Il save the rest of my reson because it's edgy.

>>1982039
Same, but I have a dad and brother.

>>1955985
I simply want to experience things while this body of mine is still capable of doing so

>>1956014
kek

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>>1952029
Film It?

>>1952029
Can I get your stuff when you die?

Suicide is not worth anons
The world is still beautiful
There's good people outta there
You are not chained to studies/work, you can just quit and do anything you want

If you have no goals in life, then i think that your goal should become simply enjoying life, doing whatever you fucking want

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>>1952029
I used to want to kill myself. I still don't want to be alive, but I don't want to kill myself anymore. Whether or not you realize it now, there's someone out there who would be devastated if you died. If you can't find a reason to live for yourself, find a reason to live for them. Even if their care for you seems artificial, making them happy is worth it. It's more than you could do if you were dead, which you will be eventually, so you might as well make something out of what you have now because you'll never get another chance.

>>1955985
I don't trust another human on this planet to give my spoiled cats the love they deserve. In the mean time, I might as well try to find someone or something worth living for.

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>>1955985
Without sounding too cliche, my girlfriend. I want to see her live her life and see her happy, she knows about my depression and anxiety and worries about me far too much so I just want to see her enjoying her life and achieving her goals which I cant really do if im fucking dead

>>1958000
fuckin 12year olds giving out life lessons

>>1970463
Gonna wait for password too thanks Anon.

>>1976525
I love you so fucking much.

>>1976525
I feel a lot better now

>>1952209
It doesn't.

>>1975310
So if what you do doesn't have cosmic importance then it's meaningless? Here's a tip for you. Nothing is of provably objective importance, so your qualification doesn't even make sense. You just created an arbitrary (And non-provable) category and filtered everything through it.

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i know im late to the party here, but dont do it, OP. i used to want to off myself 24/7 because i thought nobody would give a damn, until last year my mom shot herself because she was bitter and thought that nobody would care. she was sick and tired of having a shitty life and thought her solution was at the end of a gun. the people she thought hated her were devistated, the friends she'd thought she'd lost years ago screamed and sobbed when they found out. even if you feel alone, like nobody cares if you live or die, its not true. yeah, life is shitty and the world we live in is garbage, but believe it or not, youre loved.

>>1952232
Go eat a cock faggot

test

>>1984359
>IM SO EDGY XDDDDD X-DDD
fuck off

>>1989306
this , its devastating, Ive been there, then I saw it happen. people shut down, its sad it sounds cliche but keep on trying