has your gaming addiction had a negative impact on your life

>>383381202
No, because everyone I know plays games too. I guess im lucky

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>>383381202
>gaming """addiction"""
Im not addicted, I just dont have anything better to do

>>383381202
The problem is that there's such a huge fun gap between videogames and what I SHOULD do that whenever I'm supposed to do my duty I end up wishing I was dead instead.

>>383381513
Sadly this

>>383381202
My family acts like I'm a lazy piece of shit for choosing my PC over sitting there doing nothing or watching TV. It's shit.

>>383382909
IKR. Old people annoy the fuck out of me when it comes to understanding modern technology.

No because I know when it´s time to pause and study hard for a time to pass critical tests. Friends are also nerds so no problem.

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>>383381202
no
porn did though

>>383381202
>having an addiction to literally anything
How does it feel knowing your mind is weak and you have no willpower?

No. Had some amazing experiences with amazing friends, some great memories and it's a wonderful way to relax. I really don't enjoy books or movies that much, so games are my best option for entertainment, besides music and drinking.

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I don't think I have a videogame addiction. I do spend unreasonably large amount of time on a computer (though sadly, more here than playing games). I did waste a lot of time on some game occasionally (played about 500 hours of factorio in couple of months, for an example).

But I can also go on without playing anything (or without going here) for months on and never feeling bad about it or having urges to go back to it: IF there is some other thing that is involving for me enough.

My problem is not addiction, but pathological evasiveness. It does not matter if it's a game, 4chan, shitty procrastination youtube videos, or (on the rare occasions) even some kind of intense work: ANYTHING that allows me to escape from my own thoughts, from my own state of existence, from self-reflection and having to establish my own future.

My life is in ruins. And even though it's partially because I played videogames at times when I should have been doing something else and more important: I can't blame games, or addiction for it.

And that is worse than anything else I can imagine.

>>383381202
It got me highly in debt

>>383386768
Did you take a loan to spend money on fucking games, or did you just ignore your financial responsibilities because you wanted to play games more and ended up mismanaging your finances.

Because I can understand the latter, but I will never in my life understand the former.

>>383386927
Yes mismanagement.

>>383381202
it's the only thing that keeps me entertained,life is not a movie so it's really boring.
at least i'm not a NEET.

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>>383386751
>And that is worse than anything else I can imagine.
Owwwhh come on nigga. There's dudes in africa shitting themsevles to death who I am SURE would much rather some existential torment over organ failure. I know it doesn't mae you feel BETTER necessarily, but perspective bud. You're healthy and sane enough to still play games, so you're doin fine. And whatever is falling apart on you, it will pass. And if it can't pass, you can fix it. And if it can't be fixed, you can make peace with it in time. Don't worry. You're doing fine anon.

>>383387127
free will is an illusion so life is like a movie

I've made it a point to go out with friends nearly every weekend now. Now I feel no remorse playing for 5-7 hours after work or all day on a Sunday.

>>383381202
No. I don't regard pleasurable moments in my life as having a negative impact on it.

>>383386983
As this guy >>383386751 OK, I can entirely understand that. So far I was lucky that my escapist desperation did not cost me THAT much money, though I absolutely sure that if I eventually don't get a handle on my life, that is unavoidably going to happen one day.

However, people who actively go and spend money they don't have on shit like games (especially shit like microtransactions) can go fuck a tree. I have no understanding of this. I understand that people fuck up because they DON'T do something.
But I can't understand how people can fuck up something requires the extra actual will to DO something.

>>383387201
I know a lot about perspective, actually. And not only because I had experienced insane actual fucking health issues.
I'm not healthy. I happen to suffer arthritis. I had three joins replaced between the age of 14 and 17.

If I could cure one of the two conditions: my personality disorder or the artritis:
I'll chose personality disorder EVERY. TIME.

That is the problem: I actually am fairly privy to what is going on with me. It will not pass, I don't know if I will fix it - most likely I won't, there is no way of finding peace with it.

I don't think there is anything worse than knowing that the SOLE source of your own suffering - sufficient enough to make you wish for death is you yourself. If you grow resentful of the world: you'll be miserable and probably dangerous to others, but you might find catharis.

If all you are left with is a pure, undilluted resentment towards yourself: and the source of that resentment is the sheer fact that you can't find a way out of it: that is a trap like you would not believe.
I'd give all four of my limbs away in an INSTANCE for a glimmer of fucking hope. The problem is: the only thing that can change this is me myself. The only thing I can't change - is myself. Catch 22 situation, And so utterly absurd and inexplicable and stupid that it is beyond any belief.
OK I'll stop now.

>>383387906
I'm sorry, I didn't know all of that. I won't pretend simple encouragement can solve all or any of that, and I can tell how trapped you feel. I don't want to just say it will magically be better... because it might not be. But on hope, you said a glimmer? Maybe this is too faint for even that, but I care about you. And I bet a lot of other anons here do too, even if they might show it in funny ways. I swear to you, you are not alone. You're not, I promise. And while it all might not pass, try to smile when you can. It won't stop the bad times from coming, but it will make the better times brighter when you do. You have all the love from me, and I hope every day you live is a brighter one than last.

>>383388816
thank you reddit

>>383387906
KEK NIGGER

>>383388816
cool story reddit
i hope you both get AIDS from a pack of pavement apes

>>383388816
That is unexpected. I was really expecting to hear the much more sensible advice to kill myself. Thanks, I guess.

But the fact that I know I'm not alone is not much of a solace. Makes me regret I'm not religious so I could at least curse someone for the incredibly poor design of human beings. There are more people like I am and that is just a genuinely painful prospect: it's just more pointless misery.

Maybe it will pass. Being aware of the issue of perspective, I'm also entirely aware that I myself did not see the world like this most of my life. I have a very vivid memories of times where I could consider what I'm saying now unfanthomable - or dumb and dishonest. But again: that just tells me that my state is unnecessary, but gives me NO pointer as to how to solve it. And if I won't solve it, nothing else will ever matter again.

But again: thanks, I guess. I do appreciate it, though frankly replies like this:
>>383389348
>>383389463
Actually make me more comfortable. I think those are pretty much the natural and proper responses for shitposts like the ones I'm making. I honestly have no fucking clue why I'm typing all of this. But that is par the course for me these days.

>>383386751
The problem here is: you only think about yourself

everyone experiment the exact same toughts

you are just shit and keep focusing on shit

your problem is easy peasy

>>383389685
thanks for the (you)s and heil hitler you nigger

>>383386751
i was in a dark place and similar to what you went through
still trying to work my way out of it but its hard to not lapse into that escapist mindset (marche was right)

>>383381513
>playing video games is better than working
What is wrong with you?

>>383381202
Yes, but I don't give a fuck. I truly love video games.

>>383389703
>The problem here is: you only think about yourself
That is very true. You could very easily make a list of shit I'm doing wrong - I could make that list myself. I do know exactly what I am doing wrong. I also know EXACTLY how that can be solved - and there is only one solution and it's very simple. I'm aware of all that. I've figured it out myself, and I've heard it a thousand times: and there is absolutely no way to argue with it.

I heard it all, I know it all, it all makes perfect sense, it's undeniable, objective truth.

And yet here I still am. For years. Almost a decade now, even. Something... here does not make sense. If all that people like you say is true (and undeniably it IS, the evidence is overwhelming, and the logic is perfectly solid), then I should be able to solve it. And if I should be able to solve it, I would have solved it.
Yet I haven't.
So that means that I don't want to solve it: it's the only logical explanation.
But I do not want to remain where I am. I know that everything, literally everything possible is preferable.

And that is where all my reasoning and capacity to comprehend just ends. And there is nothing else left.

I don't really expect anyone to understand this shit, and I don't actually expect feel sorry for my or pitty me, mostly because I fucking don't. This is clearly all my fault. And that is not self-pity, that is just a simple stating of facts: it's a key realization that is literally the only way that people with my kind of issue can actually help themselves. And really it's what I would say to anyone who complained of similar problem: it's you. You can snap out of it: If you realize that it's you.
I had came to that realization myself. But something is STILL missing here. And it's sadly not serotonin or dopamine, which would seem like the most likely explanation.