Still hangin in there bros?

>>86923261
I don't care anymore. Just chillin

>>86923261
Nah, just too much of a pussy to end it. I'm honestly just hoping I get hit by a truck or something.

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>>86923261
nope. going insane.

girl i crushed on hard got back with her ex very recently, probably because i was too beta to do anything.
i've already gotten over it, only because if she's dumb enough to return to the guy who cheated on her constantly, i don't want her.

>>86924271
Well at least you're man enough to get over it. Work on your self confidence first. Change yourself. lift, get /fa/, grt haircut etc

>>86924371
yeah i am ,thanks.
i've already improved my self image and confidence a fuckton over the last two years.
this girl in particular was honestly just a mental block for me and i'm kinda relieved she's given me a reason to purge her away from my thoughts.

>>86923261
I'm thinkin' I'm back.

Not that anyone notices.

Not really I gave up pot and now my depression is hitting me harder than ever I can't sleep I just want to cry most of the time and im not interested in doing anything
>don't want to watch movies
>don't want to play games
>don't even want to masturbate
>just want to lie on the floor hoping for a YOU on one of my posts so I can feel something

>>86924732
Well here's a (You) but next time work for it you fag

>>86924779
It didn't really help anyway but thanks

Nope, gonna off myself once Twin Peaks ends.

>>86924803
Hey man the only one that can help you is yourself. Depression won't go away unless you man up. Go /out/ing helped me a lot

We /r9k/ now

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>>86923261
>Have had several extremely vivid dreams lately of having a qt loving GF, a well paying job and being respected by my family
>tfw I wake up and the truth hits me

>>86924854
Since when did /r9k/ lost its original purpose. Did they bring the filter back yet?

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>>86923261
Just waiting for the Hey Arnold Jungle movie, then i'm off to kill myself.

Sneed

there, this is now a /tv/ thread

>>86924895
You can have it all through discipline.


Jocko podcast

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>>86923261

barely

>>86924261
you deserve it nazi scum

The best thing about life is that it's temporary

>>86925302
>v22
anon i...

>>86923261
>tfw 3 hours away from unemployment

What the fuck am I gonna do with my life?

>>86924732
hang in there anon. sleep problems and other shit is quite normal when you stop smoking, goes away usually when you give it time. i used to smoke and drink a lot, also did speed, psychedelics, benzos etc. i've been sober for 18months now and quitting drugs was one of the best decisions i've ever made.

>>86925339
>not being slightly religious/spiritual

>>86923261
My knee hurts and my shit is yellow colour, other than that am fine

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>>86925364

It used to be relatively better.

>>86925318
How'd you get out of the oven?

>>86925406
Living for eternity sounds like torture

I've been getting /fit/ for the last few months and going to the gym is the only highlight of my day. Still no gf, still no friends, and still hate most everything I watch on tv.

>>86925406
Only normies are comfortable with heaven or rebirth. Just endless torture.

>>86925515
You're not giving up and that's what matters

>>86925511
>>86925572
What if you got to live in pleasure?

What if you could decide when you wanted to die.

>>86925813
In Bhudism, to not exists is the ultimate pleasure.

Only Bhuddha managed to escape the cycle.

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don't sleep anymore..
just dream

>>86925876
bhuddism is stupid lol

>>86925958
Everything is stupid lel

I almost want to become a documentary film-maker. The amount of untapped potential still in the genre is insane.

>>86925978
youeur stuid LOL

>>86925813
The human mind is way too nuanced and complex to just simply "live in pleasure", with our everchanging memories, ego, insecurities, pride, jealousy, envy, curiosity, etc. If I were to be able to exist in that state (I'm guessing the most supreme spritual heroin high or similar) in some life after death, then I'd need a different brain or consciousness. At that point, am I even "me" anymore? Haven't I essentially ceased to exist?

I've managed to turn from an antisocial loser in a full blown normie chad. So yeah things are good.

>>86925997
Maybe all of the negative aspects of humanity are removed and the positive ones remain.

>>86926018
How did you change, and what kind of normie chad things do you do

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>>86923261
i'm still here, aren't I?
am I?

>>86923261
My ex cockblocked me tonight. It's ok though, I laid some groundwork, the other girl was feeling it. It's a matter of time.

>>86924895
>get tires on my car fixed
>could afford it, but couldn't afford to pay for it again
>next night of sleep is full of things popping and deflating
>wake up to the visualisation of my tires exploding

I know how you feel anon

>>86923261
Yeah but I'm plagued with horrible migraines and the only medication that helps has almost as bad side effects. I also lost 3.5 kg and I have no idea why

>>86926087
I started seeing a shrink to fix my social anxiety and low self-worth, then I joined a fraternity (second year college student now. I go on parties once or twice a week, drink copious amounts of beer and banter with hot girls. Haven't gotten laid yet but I'll get there.

>>86926018
Well I've managed to turn from a normie chad into an antisocial loser...

>>86926044
Our brains can be such shitheads that even if it was only pleasurable experiences, our brains will instinctively start rating and categorizing the different pleasures. "This wasn't as good as that" or "I've had a lot of these kinds of pleasures but not as many as those". Just a simple example.

If everything was perfectly equally pleasurable and we are happy with it equally as with all the rest then what kind of afterlife is that lol. Like we're in a coma simulation or something.

>>86926216
If you want to change I highly recommend seeing a therapist. You've likely built up so much shit and accumulated a lot of toxic thoughts by being on 4chan all day.

>>86926204
>I started seeing a shrink
I think I need to do this. I notice bad thinking and emotional habits and "control" them briefly but it doesn't last and I probably only just shift that stress into physical tension or some shit

>>86926227
I liked Buffy's depiction of Heaven
>white
>warm
>could feel your family
>happy

A friend of mine sent me screenshots of some super Christian he knows, and she reckons that she knows God is real because she can feel His warmth in her soul. Must be nice to believe these things, I wish I was religious sometimes but I was raised against it and it's hard to swallow if you're not indoctrinated

>>86926251
Been considering doing this myself, I'm not even unhappy but I do want to improve on what I am currently. I always feel let down at my own imperfections

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How is this thread so civil

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>>86923261

escapism doens't work anymore

what now? ;___:

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>>86923261

sort of,
I'm just drifting/living day-to-day with no direction or long term plans.

porn and chinese cartoons don't fill the void anymore, am I finally dead inside?

>>86923261
Yea man thanks for asking. My gf and I got engaged and im getting /fit/ as fug.

>>86926321
You have to learn to let the emotion in and feel shit for a while, then deal with it using reason.

>>86926331
Good idea, you'll feel better. Nobody is perfect, but most people are good enough to begin with.

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>>86924732
Masturbation is unhealthy anyway. Avoid it and you will feel great. Not even meming.

>>86923261
anxiety, depression, and OCD
i'm extremely self-aware and find life devoid of any real meaning whatsoever since our way of life is entirely arbitrary and the result of human constructs

everything we see are just images being registered in the brain
feelings, relationships, etc - nothing is real
our physical world is just the way we see it and for all we know, could've been entirely different

nothing is certain
everything is arbitrary
we exist for no reason

>>86926227
I never said all pleasures would be equal.
They would all be very different and nice in their own way.

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>>86923261
no my bed has fleas and my room has bed bugs
im losing my mind
cant sleep because of these cocksuckers
i want to die

>>86926507
this is absolutely retarded

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Just want it to end already no goals no plans for anything, pretty much Larping as water or wind waiting wherever it takes me

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Was borderline suicidal a few weeks ago but I'm bouncing back

>>86926542
Get one of those sticky lint roller things, it'll cut down the worst of them.

>>86926582
What gave you light, anon

>>86926411
Start drinking, it's like an escapism enhancer.

> t.drunk every day for the last two months

>>86926543
people lash out emotionally when you tell them things they don't want to hear

maybe you'll have kids, a wife, and a house one day and think that's enough

>>86925515
Keep at it anon.

>>86926507
thanks Rick and Morty

>>86924854
Newfag detected

>>86926595
Alcohol mostly. Plus, time heals all wounds. Idk.

School is starting shortly so my "get your shit together asap" spidey sense is slowly activating.

>>86926518
I know. I didn't mean to slight you. I just posed a problem the afterlife might have and laughed at my simplified solution. Interesting stuff to think through

>>86926507
this

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I'm basically on the edge of becoming a loser for the rest of my life and I lack the motivation or drive to fix.
>19
>no car
>no driver's license
>never had a job
>applied to every available position in my city and either never heard back or got rejected
>no friends
>haven't had a gf in nearly 6 years
>virgin
>want to be a writer, but lack the motivation to do that too

How do I fix my motivation/drive problem?

>>86926628
no, your entire theory makes no sense

it's just your depression and mental disorders make you think this way

>>86926690
Maybe you aren't motivated because you don't really enjoy doing them?

>>86926507
Asses and Elbows, amirite?

>>86926690
luuk?

>>86926488
Enjoy your prostate cancer my Bushido friend

>>86926690
You're barely more than a child you dumb fuck.

>>86926690

>19

you don't know what it means to suffer yet.

I need to start forcing myself to attend classes or they'll kick me out for low attendance.

>>86926482
I feel like I'm one of those "most people," I have friends and ambitions and all that fun normie stuff, but I am also pretty aware that I'm very emotionally avoidant and it keeps a lot of my relationships at surface level, but there's an underlying guilt or something that makes me feel like I'm a scummy person because a lot of my feelings don't run deep enough or something.

Probably mommy issues desu, she had depression all through my childhood and I think it fugged me up a bit more than I want to admit

>>86926507
t. Rick Sanchez

>>86926542
Gas the whole house anon. I realised after a few days in this place, when my legs got all itchy and when I stared at my socks and noticed all the black dots on them, that this house was fucking infested. The previous owners were druggies or something but it's cheap as fuck rent, so yeah I set off about 12 cans over two days and locked the hose up, then used a paint roller with water and disinfectant on the carpets, I don't know if that helped but it got most of the cat piss smell out and I can close the house up for a day or two without it reeking like it used to.

>>86926746
>on the edge of becoming a loser for the rest of my life
>one the edge
Learn to read. I know I'm young, but if I don't change shit now, I'll be like this forever.

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>>86923261
yep, the struggle is worth it

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>>86926690

you're still young as fuck anon,
come back when your 35 and you're still in the same situation.

>>86926690
Im 19, no car, no license, and I ride my ass on my bike to work everyday. Dont be a faggot, quit jerking off, get out of bed, and start calling in to places where you applied. Keep calling them until they arrange an interview. You dont just not hear back from them, YOU need to call them. Then, go to the interview and get yourself a job. Trust me, once you have a job, you'll become much more active and motivated. I was a NEET for like a year after HS, and during the last few months, I started to hate it. No motivation, no objectives, nothing. Now, I was a steady job, im going to school, im engaged, and I have a lot more motivation to get things done.

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>>86925318
you say that like it matters.

>>86926619
How much do you drink everyday? I used to binge drink hard but scaled it back a little over the last year or so after I started worrying about my long term health. I count every single shot now but I've drank more than I'd like over the last month (49 equivalent shots in 31 days). I know the CDC considers 5 drinks in a single occasion as binge drinking, and 15+ drinks per week as heavy drinking (both stats for males), so I'm not even averaging 2 drinks a day, which apparently would be fine, but it feels like a lot and I feel like shit. Trying to go one month sober for a start...

>inb4 TMI

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>>86926690
More or less the same but 20, i don't think is getting better.

>Waiting til a show or movie comes out before committing suicide
Do people actually do this?

>>86926843
See >>86926825, stop being a lazy faggot. Get off 4chan and start changing things.

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I want to end it all because I'm bored of life. anyone else has these feels?

>>86926251
>If you want to change I highly recommend seeing a therapist.

I know. 4chan might be a final nail in my coffin, but the true is depression runs deep in my family, and my genes kicked in when I hit 30.
Nothing makes me happy anymore, I lost all the interest in sex. I keep buying myself all those expensive toys, audio systems, tvs etc yet the only thing I feel is emptiness.

>>86923261
After a party, just made out with a woman on a couch for 20 minutes. She took her top off, I took my shirt off. She was soaking and we were ready to go, but when I told her it was my first time she grew reluctant, wanted it to be something special. I kind of felt the same and eventually I retired to my room. Its a weird conflicted feeling lying in bed now. My body tells me I messed up, but my mind tells me I made the right choice.

Now I'm lying in bed rethinking my decisions in life.

>>86926777
>I feel like I'm one of those "most people," I have friends and ambitions and all that fun normie stuff, but I am also pretty aware that I'm very emotionally avoidant and it keeps a lot of my relationships at surface level, but there's an underlying guilt or something that makes me feel like I'm a scummy person because a lot of my feelings don't run deep enough or something.
Probably mommy issues desu, she had depression all through my childhood and I think it fugged me up a bit more than I want to admit

Literally me a few years ago. You'll get there

>>86926893
The important thing is you could have had sex. Focus on that instead of ruining it. There will be more opportunities if you don't give up.

>>86926869
What exactly are you bored of?

>>86926841
*I definitely met the binge drinking threshold a number of times during that span, maybe that's why it feels bad

>>86926869
I have some strange allergies and they're getting worse by the time, so I wish I was dead. My hair is starting to fall.
I don't like to talk about it.

>>86926916
Don't know if I'm replying to who I replied to or not; did you go to therapy and if so is that what helped you?

My brother is thinking of going too, for anxiety. He cares too much about what people think. It was a weird conversation to have him tell me that he's like the opposite of me but it's fucking up his connections to people too

>>86927065
Yeah, best decision in your life. I've learnt a lot about myself and other people. Basically you develop a set of beliefs about reality in your childhood which you use in adulthood. When you had a fucked up childhood your beliefs are wrong as well and you get a lot of bad thoughts often. The bad beliefs keep themselves alive using a lot of cognitive biases.

>>86926787
Shut the fuck up you little moron. If you were 29 and in the same situstion you might have something to complain about. As it is you're just a retarded youngfag.

>>86927047
50-150 strings of hair fall on daily basis for average men. I'm sure you can save your hair with treatments

>>86927116
I'm not even complaining you, pathetic fuck. I simply explained my situation and wanted some advice.

>>86926705
it isn't a theory; they're facts
there is no meaning or purpose to life
we're just the result of millions of years of evolution on an arbitrary planet from what we deem now as being suitable for life
our socioeconomic system in how we distribute our finite resources is entirely a human construct
the technologies we use everyday and improve upon were created solely because we deemed it necessary
we invented religions just so we could attempt to explain to ourselves how we ought to live and what would happen to us after we die; we needed a higher power to give us justification, reassurance, and ease our troubled consciences
we can't know anything for certain is real because we're limited to observing things through our physical bodies - every image we see, is in essence, virtual. For all we know we could be living in a matrix.
Also search for the uncertainty principle, you can't know something definitively for both time and space because they're linked; it extends beyond physics and is a philosophical principle in itself.

Perhaps it's my incessant need to find a reason or purpose for everything but I can't control my thoughts. I envy those that take life at face value and question nothing. Despite my mental illnesses, I am fairly functional (I'm an engineer).

I like Rust's quote about human consciousness being a tragic misstep in evolution. The ability to think is almost sadist.

Life is so fucking hard in a 1st world country amirite
Even people in 3rd world countries have girlfriends

>>86926555
>who feels the feelmen?

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>>86927233
>this entire fucking angsty delusional teenager post
holy shit lol

>>86927303
>rather than try to rationally debate that content of said person's post i'm going to resort to an emotionally-driven insult
bravo

Some days I'll fantasize off and on about hugging an actress. Like, meeting her at some event where I get into her unofficial hug line. Imagining the brief conversation and what her smile would be like. It would make my day, week, etc. But in reality I'm bad with people so I avoid them.

>>86923261
not really mate

>>86927363
even if life has no meaning(you don't know this and can not prove it), it doesn't mean you can't create meaning on your own

also you are certainly a fedora fag for actually liking that rust quote lmao

>>86927233
>we're just the result of millions of years of evolution
That makes us amazing

>on an arbitrary planet from what we deem now as being suitable for life
Wrong.

>the technologies we use everyday and improve upon were created solely because we deemed it necessary
That's awesome though

>that whole rest of the post
Holy shit you're a prime target for a cult anon. You literally need to develop a sense of purpose, don't sook because the universe might not exist or whatever, even if it doesn't, you're experiencing it, which makes it real in it's own way. Religion helps some, but plenty of people just decide that their perception is the most important aspect of their experience of life, and cope fine.

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>>86923261
Im on the verge of killing myself. But thats apparently a great sin, so im in a pickle.

Dudes I'm chillin in a bougie photo studio with attractive 20-somethings with my gf. I don't even know what I want anymore. I have a lot of "friends" but all I wanna do is play vidya and stay in all night.

Life fuckin sucks. You get a full time job and try to make something work with a girl you don't really care about and go out every weekend trying to comfirm your existence. Someday I'll join you bros.

Seriously wasting your time with bitches you don't care about will drain your soul. I'm over it.

>>86927564
Maybe find a woman you do care about? If you don't like your girlfriend and you don't have anything in common with her it's pretty normal not to want to be with her.

Background:
>aged 26
>no friends or social life since 18
>no female attention ever
>went through university with zero social experiences
>became the loner nobody talks to within two days of my current job
>never been to pub, club, or party
>missed out on all the 16 - 22 formative social experiences that people look back on fondly (teen crushes, school prom, school dances, university fresher's week, any sort of relationships at all)
>know that women all have 5000 tinder matches and think the average male is ugly

>>86927564
full-time jobs, christian-past-time societal relationships, money - all our human constructs meant to keep you busy so you don't steal shit from your neighbor and create instability in the overarching political system we've conditioned ourselves into believing is best for humanity

>>86927553
>sin

heh

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I had a date cancelled at the last minute, dunno why I bother trying.

>>86927586
Pretty much this. I was in a relationship with a girl for three years and I was constantly miserable and I couldn't figure out why. Finally when we broke up I started playing vidya, watching movies and drinking beer with my friends. She was fucking boring. I wanted to have fun and she wanted to sit at home and bring other couples over and talk about dumb shit.

>>86927621
>know that women have 5000 tinder matches
Do you though? Do you know, and you're not just guessing? Maybe you're right, maybe you're not. But, where are these 5000 men? Have you seen them? Do they even exist? It seems like you're tormenting yourself by comparing yourself to Chad - a mere idea, a concept, a fictional character. Yeah, maybe Chad is real, but rely on what you know to be true, and not what might possibly be true.

>>86927586

Things get complicated when you get into your mid-20s and your friends start getting engaged and married. I've been with my gf for 3 years and have only recently started to feel like she isn't the one. So many people think we're going to get married.

>>86927724
I have over 200 matches and had conversation with like only 4

Being descent looking won't help if you're socially austistic

>>86923261
I want to kill myself because I got a shit job. I need to find another. Wanted to be in law enforcement, but entire family hates police because most are assholes here. Should I find a job + go back to school for another career? Software engineer or some shit? I like computers is all I know.

>>86923261
I just hit 19 like 3 days ago, i haven't had a real job just small ones, i don't know how to drive but that's me mainly, and my parents told me that they're not going to pay my college because i failed a class, now i don't feel too bad but i need to work and i don't have any idea on where to get it or how, can anyone help me or give me motivation?

>>86926746
>>86927116
>WAAAH MY PROBLEMS ARE BIGGER
fuck off man, he asked for help and you just went full asshole

>>86927955
>26
>slogging through an AA degree
>no drivers license
>living off my mom

enough motivation for you pal?

>>86926087
Not him but start smoking.
Trust me, just do it.
>removes food anxiety and makes you lose weight
>gives you something to do with your hands in conversations so you don't instantly come off as an insecure person because of your body language
>people will treat you automatically with more respect boosting your self confidence

>>86927917
Well hey, I have no matches; I don't even have a Tinder because of social autism

>>86927917
It doesn't help that men have to "dance monkey dance!" for women. Like, why the fuck are pickup lines and witty presentations even a thing. If you're talking about having a normal conversation, then yeah that's something to def figure out.

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>>86923261
. . .

>>86928051
most women aren't capable of deep thought so i wouldn't worry about it

>>86927955
>>86928020
This.
>18
>NEET
>Live off parents
>Everyone in family knows you're a loser
>Have a don't give a fuck personality
>Do that til 24
>Was about to kill myself
>Got a shit job
>Want to kill myself slightly less
>Need to find new job and need AA degree
>Still living off parents
>Everyone you know already married
>You're still alone
>I'm still alone

>>86928051
>>86928072
I went "fuck it" and made a tinder account. Got myself a little in shape and took pictures. Still too beta to ask any of the matches out tho. I don't think I can love anyone ever again. My highschool love broke me

>>86928020
Alright dude, i get it, my life doesn't suck as much as yours and i should feel better, but can you give me advice on how to get a job?

>>86923261
I am ok, but my girlfriend is losing it. She doesn't love her job and because of how she's been raised she thinks if she quits it she;s useless. I have tried to convince her otherwise, but then I just quit my job because it was dead end. they love her there but she isn't loving herself at the moment so she's not having a good time.

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>>86923261
I'm slowly going blind and wish I would just die in my sleep. I can't enjoy tv/films/vidya like I use to anymore. Can hardly drive anywhere. Shit sucks. Honestly just waiting for WW3.

>>86928101
when they're getting cuck'd and divorced you'll be glad you aren't married.

>>86928072
>It doesn't help that men have to "dance monkey dance!" for women
Maybe you're looking at the wrong women anon. Tinder women are useless, and I feel like the app is a great way to crash your self-esteem, but if you go out and socialise there are gonna be girls that are less about wanting to be directly and immediately impressed.

>tfw I want to genuinely believe I can be reincarnated as a cute girl

pls tell me I'm not the only one who's tired of being a fat hairy slob

>>86923261
my descent into madness is slow but certain

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>>86928154
>tfw ywn just magically wake up as a 10/10 qt white girl and have life handed to you on super ultra easy mode

>29
>no job
>only just learning to drive
>feel retarded as fuck

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>>86928174
>just learning to drive at 30
wew lad how did this come about?

>>86928046
You know, I really feel smoking will help me but I've had a weird history with it. Barely smoked over the last 8-9 years (maybe 20 times?). In the beginning it was fine. I would get fuzzy and giggly and comfy. But then it started fucking me up. I feel stuck in my head and think I'm going retarded. Time gets nutty, like, things happen super slow and then bam I time jump 30 mins and have no idea where it went. I was told to not fight it and maybe it's because I have subconscious things going on. Or maybe I need low THC.

>>86925318
Modern Society would be objectively better if the Reich won and you know but you are too afraid and shallow to admit it.

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>>86928197
>mfw weed help me became less socially awkward
>mfw my uncle who smokes every day says its all in your head
>mfw I'm just autistic

>>86926204
>full blown normie Chad
>haven't gotten laid yet
It's better than me, but come on now, let's not blow things out of proportion.

>>86928190
approaching 30 is scary so I got a bit of a kick up the ass to sort myself out this year. also I hate taking the bus everywhere.

I can relate to merely everything in this thread. I am incredibly unhappy and want to die. But as I read this thread I laugh so hard that I become short of breath. Am I masking my pain through laughter?

>>86928154
If you are reincarnated as a cute girl, you wouldn't have any lasting memory of this life. Maybe you were a cute girl in a previous life and will cycle into it again? Regardless, you'll never know so don't worry about it. If it makes you feel better, just believe that it will be

>>86928322
Yes anon. I used to do that a lot when I was a NEET. Shit became depressing when time flew by quickly.

>>86928341
What do you think really happens when we die? Like a giant boulder lands on you and smashes your brain into fucking jelly. Dude, we just begin nothing. It's black. Nothing happens. You are aware of yourself like you were in the 1300's.

>>86928254
Nah I believe that. I was uptight and put up a wall for way too long but then alcohol happened and I got better.

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>>86928171
>>86928341
pls anything is better than now
>>86928363
comfy blackness, an end to the misery at least

>>86928363
Dude I know lol, I'm just trying to make anon feel better (if it even was a genuine feeling of their's)

>>86928363
you literally do not know if this is true or not

>>86928363
heaven and hell were always about current life, not some life after death. when you die nothing happens.

>>86928403
>Dude I know lol
But you actually do not know.

>>86928363
meh who cares

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>>86928174
Literally me

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Okay I think this is the right thread to ask

So I've been an outcast at school and uni, then worked dead-end jobs till 26, then I found a literal dream job (I still think it was thanks to providence of God, or luck, I don't know)

Now I have developed panic attacks when eating out just because I don't know how to act when everyone treats you as a normal human being, I'm just not used to experience positive emotions (at someone's birthday party or whatever). So I literally can't shove anything into my stomach, nausea kicks in immediately.

This summer I was at a bachelor's party for the first time in my life (I'm 28 now), I was lucky to get drunk enough to keep things in control and remember everything and lose my social anxiety at the same time, and then I got approached by a girl at a bar for the first time in my life, I bought her a drink, then we danced, she literally grabbed my phone to type her number in, then I got distracted by my buddies and lost her in the crowd

Next morning I got sick, not beacuse of hangover, just because I thought about what happened to me, it seemed so alien and horrifying. Later I watched picrel and I felt nauseous everytime I imagined myself taking part in any scene.

I went to shrink several times but it didn't help. I really need to come up with a way to mitigate this because I can't keep just drinking tea whenever I need to have a dinner with my boss or business partners at some fancy place.

Having decent discussion in this thread makes me feel a little better. Thanks bros

>>86928454
Most people that experience this are highly intelligent and are hyper mega critical thinkers. The trick is to smash your head a few times with a hammer to lower your intelligence to that of a common simpleton so that you can co-exist with them.

>>86928144
women want harmless fun for free, especially once they get bored with their current provider in daily life

>>86928521
though the higher iq, the more damage your brain can take before it affects you.

Got made fun of by the marketing chick at work on Friday for being an autist, but I think it was all in good fun.

Boss semi-stood up for me, so it's not all bad.

>>86927621
Uni parties aren't all they're cracked up to be by yank media mate. No different to high school parties.

>>86928105
im literally unemployed senpai

anyway just get a resume worked up and go apply, a lot of places you can do it online.

places like Target are always hiring

>>86928454
You need to learn how to recognize and manage your stress and anxiety. It can be happening without you even knowing it. Cognitive behavior therapy plus maybe some meds might help you. CBT for sure, to get your thought flowcharts sorted out.

>>86928611
but then you have to integrate in to the world of mexicans and blacks and their stupid hook up history and music and nonsense. I seriously hate that world.

>>86923261
>tfw that meme image inspired the Wick movies

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>>86923261
While you're all stuck here feeling sorry for yourselves
He probably became an actual normie, has a real gf that wont cheat on him or isn't his cousin.

Goes out to those bistro restaurants where they have tables next to the sidewalk. He orders wine with his wife and her parents, they're all talking in a low voice where nobody can hear what they're saying.
Goes to parks where girls have bouncy ponytails and jogs every morning. Drives a european car with a bicycle rack on the roof, goes to bouji fests every month, to parties held on rooftops of buildings etc..

Damn, he's no longer the same guy anymore. He's changed.
Meanwhile you stayed the same..

>>86926808
Why is this girl doing a nigger hairstyle? Am I missing something here?

>>86928749
>works for the Google
Yah no thanks. Good on him for everything else though.

>>86927233
Mate, even the hardest scientist would tell you that the stuff you postulated is not a list of "facts". You're struggling to make sense of higher-order questions and are defaulting to nihilistic views because you can't seem to muster some beliefs. Trust me, I have been there. You need to dig deeper.

why is r9k in /tv

also, >>86926825
this is normal

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>>86923261
I finally realized I needed help to get back on track and I feel better than ever. I'm probably even going to quit 4chan when the /got/ season is over (except for /sp/ shitposting during tourneys of course). For the first time in my life I don't even want to waste my life playing vidya anymore.
Seriously I'm in a better place now, I finally feel like I'm myself again

>>86928867
I just wanted to get shit off my chest and r9k is cancer

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Nope, just got phychwarded yesterday after I got caught tried to kill myself, just couldn't go through with it. Literally no idea how I'm gonna end my life now ;_;

>>86927621
>>86927621
Also 26. This is basically my life word for word. Except I had girls interested and I fucked everything up, spaghetti and all. None of the HS dances and college parties. Total loner at college.

My only hope is my interest and passion in philosophy, the big questions, the "whys" etc.

>>86928898
Wow
If that's the place they send you after a suicide attempt then it seems a bit redundant

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>>86928894
you can't leave 4chan
you can try
but this place will suck you back in

>>86928986
It's all suicide proof
Even the door handles are bent so you can't hang yourself on them

>>86928894
What did you do anon

>>86928611
Sorry anon, i live in Mexico and online applys aren't really here yet, just some places but thanks, i hope you find a new job and a get better things, keep it up anon, also you're a faggot.

>>86929022
>can beat your head on that bedside table
>can stuff your throat with those air fresheners and a plastic cup, the plastic bag from trash can, toilet paper and a whole bunch of other shit I can see
>can try to rip out the metal cover of that whiteboard and slash yourself with that and submerge hands into toilet perhaps

wow nice """"""""""""suicide-proof"""""""""""" rooms they got there

t. suicide pro

>>86926841
>binge drink

How much did you at your peak? At my worst I drank a bottle of scotch a day, for nearly a month

>>86929022
Can you drown yourself in the toilet?

>>86929132
Not that anon, but I drank 90 beers a week for at least 5 years. Then I switched to hard liquor and drank 4 bottles of vodka a week.

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>>86923261
I'm a <5'3" manlet and I've just accepted my fate of being a permanent khv
Is suicide the way forward

>>86926488
>>86926732
You don't need to avoid it altogether, just have some discipline and don't do it every single day. If you wait a couple days it feels better too so there's some incentive.

>>86929192
Are you Asian?

>>86929250
Not him but I'm 5,6 asian with face of a 14 years old

I was diagnosed with growth hormone disorder.

>>86929010
Yeah probably but I can live with that

>>86929083
I asked my parents for help and accepted that I needed help in the fist place

>>86929250
No I'm white

>>86929326
You have a caring parents, anon. Good for you.

>>86929132
Damn, my peak was nothing compared to yours. I'd do a bottle at a time as well, but every couple of days. (I wouldn't drink in between binges.) Still bad but not at your level. Hope you get better anon

>>86929132
>>86929376
*I did that for 2 years though, so I guess bad in a different way

>>86929363
I know man, thanks. But there are always other people you can ask of course

>>86929285
5'6 isn't bad. As long as you don't have a piggu nose you might look okay too.

>>86929730
I don't anon but i sure dont look like someone who's 22

>>86929673
but i literally have no one

>>86924604

Try to join some kind of sports league, playing sports on a team is great for confidence.

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I feel fucking useless since I finished a prevoc course in electricity, but I cannot find an apprenticeship or work as an electrician since my math marks from 3 years ago were shit.
I've Improved a bit but the family suggests doing a math course through TAFE (or community college for you Americans) but I don't have enough time since I'll be unemployable when I turn 20 in October

I'm fucking terrified
I don't want to be on /r9k/ or the welfare line for the rest of my life

I'm halfway through my arts degree but I'm not really feeling it. There's a few people I chat to in tutorials but nothing where we're hanging out frequently outside of class. There was one bro I hung out with a few times in first semester but he's lost interest in me. Feels like every single person I meet is boring and I'll never make a good friend (let alone gf) again.

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>>86931070
>I'm halfway through my arts degree
I didn't even get halfway through your post before I figured out you're a fool

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