Still hanging in there /tv/ros?

>>85280501
I wish i was fucking dead

>>85280501
I'm debating on drinking booze for breakfast

Not really. Lost 2 of my remaining 4 friends yesterday. I almost want to screw the last ones up too just so I can have a perfect score.

>>85280501
I'm probably going to shoot myself this weekend.

>>85280501
I wonder if he would trade all his fame and fortune to bring his girlfriend and child back

Things have taken a likely temporary but welcome turn for the better. Life is good.

>>85281799
Good luck man. I keep telling myself the same thing and keep chickening out. Hope things work out for you.

Starting to hate my friends because all they wanna do is drink and be cynical, narcissistic fucks. Everything and everyone is stupid to them, they hardly can take constructive critiscm. What sucks is I've spent times with these retards when I've could have had better people to hang out with.

>>85281772
ohmy, what did you do?

>>85281772
dude........

>>85280501
Im probably killing myself tomorrow

>>85281999
They have a 4 year old and I said that reviewers for Valerian were saying that it might be better if you were tripping, so I might try it. They said they don't want me talking about drugs around their kid. I don't think 4 year olds know what "tripping" is and I got into an argument with them about it.

wish i could think of a better way to say it but

no

Not really. I'm in pain, physical and emotional. I have felt alone for so long I'm used to it. The one thing that used to give me relief, heroin, isn't working for me anymore, making me worse. I feel so empty. Emptiness.

I feel like screaming but just can't do it. Suicide would be an option but it just seems so dreadful. I don't know how to cope sometimes. My mom and dad don't even talk to me. I begged them for help and they don't know what to do or care enough to help. I missed so many chances at relationships. I have intense anxiety at moments in the day, I think I'm stupid. I cut my last two friends out after they did something mildly offensive. I am hoping to become totally numb soon, even number than I am now. Maybe I will find redemption through that.

>>85282275
I am finished with friends after I realized they wouldn't do half for me what id do for them. They got tired of waiting for me when I was running late and took off for a hike I helped plan and after that I just ended it. It's sad because they are decent dudes, I just need more I guess. I don't see a point in being friends with ppl that wouldn't die for me because I would for them. I'm not having this one sided bullshit anymore, I also feel like if I ever get with a girl I won't be wanted as much as I want her. I am so full of anger and repressed rage, I think I'm jus gonna joint the military and focus on becoming an operator. I guess I'll just kill terrorists, and maybe find some brotherhood in that. If that doesn't work out its heroin suicide.

definitely killing myself today

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just started lifting two months ago

>>85282551
If military is a legit option for you go for it, my cousin went in a mess and came back knowing who he was. You get a lot of $ benefit and you'll be in good physical shape as well.

>>85280501
i need a little room to breathe cause i'm step closer to the edge and i'm about to break.

>>85281772
Fuck off normalfag

>>85281579
This

>>85281579
Me too anon.

>>85282610
kill it

Don't neck yourselves anons. Stay alive and shitpost with your /tv/ bros. The world will get better once the God Emperor returns with Avatar 2.

>>85283341
Its not going to get better ever you stupid fuck.

>>85282472
i know what you're feeling man
i'm so confused, my mind is chaos everyday all the time, it's painful, i just can't tell what my problems are for sure, i keep trying to put myself back together and it just confuses me more, i'm so tired sometimes i feel like i don't have the energy to talk

>>85283341
I can only wish anon

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>tfw waiting on the good times

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>>85284300
>tfw you realize the good old days left and they will never return

I wonder if I should pickup an outdoors hobby, all my hobbies involve making shekels indoors (adertising, programming, investing)
What do you guys think? I'm thinking of hiking

>>85284300
>>85284387
I realised 2 years ago my life is pointless and it not going to get any better. Im only here because im a coward.

>>85284414
Still better than fap and banepost all day anon, do it

>>85281750
I was boozed up at work the last 3 days

Actually had a good time and my popularity increased a lot

Shits getting worse. My grandad has lots of cash and my dad will give it to me. So I shouldn't be in the shot for long.

>>85281772
having no friends sucks, but having ones that don't give a shit about you sucks even more so fuck em
t. haven't been out in 5 years

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>>85284387
>tfw good old days are behind you to never return
>tfw there were no good old days they are just better than now
>tfw future is only bleak and will be worser than the good old days
why live

>>85282551
that feeling of sharing misery with someone is the best

>>85280501
looking for ways to end myself desu.

>>85284675
Americans got it easy with guns being readily available

>>85282661
Too soon anon.

>>85284725
yea. for me its either hanging myself with my belt (which might break and leave me brain damaged forever). Or jumping from a building which is terrifying.

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Pretty much just been lying in bed doing nothing for three days. At first it was because I was hungover, then I just decided not to get up at all. Why exist.

Bout to go to work

>>85282551
OP go military will turn your life around. But don't disillusion yourself with "kill terrorist" and "be operator". The military will give you propose and drive. If you a fatty start jogging now

It's been a tough one man but I think I'm finally coming out of the psychological hell I've been thrown in the past six months after attempting suicide by jumping 30ft onto a railway line and breaking my ankle. This was during a hellish acid trip that gave fire to my self hatred and suicidal thoughts. I basically went delusional- it wasn't pretty. The worst was the first month out of hospital where Oxycodone's numb bliss started to fade and the ramifications of what I'd done really started to sink in. This was followed by manic visualising of the incident, self pity and wishing it never happened to me. Fortunately I'm walking pretty normal again, although my ankle is pretty much on a downwards slope to arthritis (let's hope medicine catches up). But man the whole thing just capulted me into this brewing existential anxiety (and at times awe) that pops its head up now and then, why the fuck am I alive? What if I landed on my neck? What the hell am I even for? The worst has definitely been the emotional pain it has caused my mother, and seeing her cry for the first time in forever really left a mark, my seventeen year old brother doesn't know a thing and I don't intend to tell until the far future, I love him too much and I just think something like this would scar him. The one thing being in that hospital for two weeks taught me was appreciation, one guy next to me broke both his legs savagely after falling from a roof, another was like 50 ran a business had beaten cancer and had a motorcycle accident, and I'd just broken my ankle, albeit badly.

I don't really have much great advice to anyone out there feeling sucidal and it sounds trite but when you're with your family really look at them, and be happy if you have a good family who cares for you cause the thought of causing them the grief of losing a loved one hurts enough to force me to keep my head up. Sorry for blogging but I've only told two friends, and I really wanted to get it all out.

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Everything was going ok in the sense I had a good paying job, good friends, awesome bike and car but everything changed when I accidentally got together with my oneitis back in 2015 but she dumped after like 4 months.

I've quit my job in Aug 2015 and now living in parents house off the money I saved, drinking myself to sleep.

Even though I'm a miserable fuck, I'm planning to change all this and be who I was back in 2014 and never trust whores ever again in my life. Wish me luck anons..

Start my new job Monday and I'm fucking excited but fucking hell trying to finish out these few days at my current job are fucking hard. I hate the job so fucking much

>>85285068
How old?

>>85285081
What's the new job anon?

>>85280501
I tried so hard and got so far. But in the end it didn't even matter

>>85285025
Wow a whole 6 months! Fuck off normalfag

>>85285118
I'll be a personal assistant/videographer for this real estate company. I am starting off as personal assistant but will soon be pushed to videographer and marketing. Paid weekly, set schedule and ability to set equipment cost for shoots

>>85285186
Once was enough

>>85285190
Fair play it was a contained thing but being immobile for that long did just made the isolation and anxiety I normally feel magnify ten fold, alongside the highs and lows of flirting with Oxycodone when you don't really need it as a pacifier for your problems, only for it to vanish after an hour and you're left with the same old you.

I really wanna fug my coworker who's a single mother. I think I'll try next week to ask her out

>>85282610
looking good miss

>>85284725
I've got a gun handy but I'd hate for someone to have to clean up my brain matter yknow. I don't wanna traumatize anyone, especially not family.

>>85285093
25 years.

thinking about kms a lot but I'm pretty sure I'm not even depressed I'm just in a rut and I'm actually too fucking lazy and scared to get out of it and kms just sounds easier. Would connecting a hose from my exhaust pipe to my window work? I feel like that'd be the least messy way to go. Plus I could drive off somewhere remote meaning it wouldn't be my family that finds me.

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>>85285320
I wanna fuck all my female coworkers plus the tranny.

>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_AWIqXzvX-U
Thread theme.

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>>85285068
Are you me? We're all gonna make it anon

>>85285550
wow that's really sad/comfy

>>85285563
I'm really glad I'm young and haven't lost anyone in life because reading this definitely would have destroyed me if I had.

I'm a 24 year old neet virgin and the only way I cope is by pumping iron for 2 hours

years feel like months. seasons change in the blink of an eye. I go around an endless circle of false hope and then complete hopelessness

>>85285550
buried a dead cat to this song once.
my favorite aphex twin song.

>>85285563
Whats your story anon?

>>85285762
I'll just add that I'm going to try quit 4chan and porn for good.

>>85285481
why neck yourself?
helium tank is WAY more peaceful

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I wish I was smart or attractive
I know if I was good in math or not ugly I wouldn't necessarily be happier but it doesn't stop me from fantasizing about it all day

>>85285481
I dont think that works with modern cars

>>85285821
oh yeah I forgot about the exit bag method.

>>85285869
Yeah I wasn't sure about that, I know it probably doesn't work with newer cars but I wasn't sure if my car (2001 SUV) was "too new".

>>85285894
I think it is

>>85285843
yep

I'm a 5/10 and my is iq is 115

too dumb for smart people and too ugly for popular people. even worse when you know a lot of people that are better in both departments

I'm destined for misery. just a dumb video game playing neet

>>85285666
>>85285782
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dQEmaj9C6ko

>>85285930
shit lol. well death, uh, finds a way

>>85280501
Feel a lot better since I quit video games and /v/, actually.

>>85285203
Damn that sounds nice

>>85285818
see you tomorrow

>>85280501
Sort of. I jump from one bad situation to the next. Goddamn fucking magnet for shit.

>>85285398
go to a walmart bathroom and do it there.

>>85281961
And yet you're hanging out on 4chan.

Be careful spending tons of time here, like 4+ hours daily. You'll end up expressing your opinions in a polemic, coarse, and personal way without even knowing it. You will become the fuck.

>>85282610
Top fucking kek

>>85284414
Buy a bicycle and just ride it to explore. Plus spending an hour or so on a bike every day is going to undo some of the damage sitting on the computer all day has done.

None of you bitches are going to do it.

>>85285563
Where's that from?

>>85286865
I wish I lived somewhere I could ride a bike. It's all ugly buildings, polluted air and traffic here.

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just watched Man of Tai Chi. i'm laying in my bed, stomach hurts from last night's drinking.

tonight again. gonna have a hangover tomorrow and some regrets.

life sucks

>>85284602
How do you know the future is bleak. Don't expect that everything will change in a day.

>>85285550
Adding an other one.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NJHsT8kEyzs

>>85287336
Shut the fuck up

>>85284466
My dad used to say "They day I have to do my job sober is the day I turn in my badge and my gun."
-but not the other one-

>>85287464
neck yourself than mate

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I drink literally every day and I cant remember the last day I didnt drink. My car got repossessed a month ago, but I still have a job and friends. I guess I dont really feel anything right now. Time moves so fast these days. I just go to work, shitpost and play video games. Going to hang out with a cute girl from work today and play Pokemon GO, so thats cool I guess

>>85287506
>than mate

I just want a qt gf who loves weed and kino but who isn't a complete degenerate, i know its nearlt impossible but thats my goal bros

>>85281750
I'm doing this now.

>>85281579
I'm close

>>85287622
How do you counter the side effects of drinking? I used to be like this too, but I had to quit my job because it was getting so hard balancing both.

>>85287741
Me three

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I had a dream about Felicity Jones the other night. It felt so goddamn real.

>>85287890
Well anon thats because it was. Dreams pull from everything you've ever experienced but change how it looks. Walking down some creepy hallway? You've actually walked down it before, it just looks different. Got shot in the chest by a gun? Actually you're mind is just remembering the most pain you've ever felt in that area, and using that to make you feel like you were shot. The more you know!

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>>85288015
But I'm a khv, what you're saying doesn't make sense in the context of the dream.

>tfw social retard
>want to make new friends
>current friends never speak to me individually
>never invite me out individually
>only ever see them at group events where it feels like I'm invited out of pity

>>85282580
cya

>>85282661
took me a second. jolly good

You all seem very sad and seem like losers. Don't worry. You'll get better if you try.

>>85288931
kill yourself chad "DUDE YOU CAN LOSE WEIGHT EASY LMAO" thundercunt

>>85288931
but it's hard to try

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>>85287855
beer?

Im talking to a few girls, liking my new job but Im still in love with my ex who left me in January...before I thought nothing but ending my life just so I can finally be over her but now I cant do it.

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>>85289010
>heineken

Last girl who I went out with (3 years ago) has changed her gender on fb to 'Male'.

>>85284602
U are me

>>85285550
Why isn't this on spotify?

>>85288142
Fucking this man
>tfw the only way to get a friend to come chill is to mention others coming along too

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My "friends" never ask me to do anything. When we are together (doing community work) I make them laugh a lot and they and girls say I'm hilarious. Making people laugh is the only thing that makes me happy yet I'm always alone.

>>85284414

Fly fishing. Do it.

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I'm going to kill myself tomorrow

>>85285068
good luck famalanio.

no matter how good the puss present itself, never forget. whores are not to be trusted until they have proven themselves again and again.

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Literally me right now

Getting drunk alone 3rd day in a row. Getting beer is the only time I go outside the house.

I'm not depressed tough, even tough I should be

>>85280501
the only time i can be happy is when i physically alter my bodies chemical levels with cocaine or booze or both. strangely enough with eating right my body is still good so i can still have sex about once a month if im not too sad. my friends only come over if i have something for them to drink or smoke. i know im being used but sometimes its nice to have people over.

>>85284602
exactly my thoughts

>>85287675
i hear Gen Z is the most conservative generation, find a gf from that age group (over the legal age obviously)

>>85293674
that had better be a shitpost

>>85291777
same here pham
i realised they pretend to be my friends though, until i found out they met together at some bar without even inviting me
its like they have hated me all the time and even though i liked them.. such a shitty disappoint and heartbreaking feeling
i guess ill never fit in a group of friends, its like were doomed to be outcasts

How do normies ignore existential anxiety? Are they just dumb enough to be oblivious?

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>Hey anon let's go for a ride just the two of us , that's what I do when I'm down , dive until we get lost maybe stop for a bite if you want , whatever my treat let's just go we'll hang hop in

>>85294255
i have this same thought. i was just telling a friend i wish i were stupid, or more stupid than i already am. because i think truly dumb people are truly happy. i dont think certain people are capable of existential thought or perception.

>>85282610
>if I get my tits cut off I'll be a real man!
ftms are hilarious

>>85294420
This. I remember whenever i brought up the thought, my ex was like "anon but we can't do anything about it right? So why not just live life and not care about what happens next or about the countless unanswered questions"
I wish I could do that but now I have come into terms that I'll always be miserable no matter how successful I am.

>>85294265
only if we can listen to Chromatics while we feel.

I wish I had friends that felt like real brothers, Brothers that could kill and diefor each other. I'm tired of being used by scums all the time. And in the end I become the horrible friend when I no longer let them use me and cut ties. This one bitch told me if I were a true friend I would love them unconditionally, even if they didn't return the love back and let them suck out my money.

You're all a bunch of fucking losers.

>>85295957
t. loser

>>85295376
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Mgv88ZLi6LY
>sure anon whatever you like

>>85282472

Can you at least masturbate?

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>>85280501
I was the OP of that /tv accomplishments thread yesterday. It didnt get off the ground like this thread for whatever reason but Im glad a similar thread did becuase I like to vent

if the OP who posted his script in my thread is still here, sorry it 404'd before I could answer but I fell asleep. I legit liked your writing, its still childish in some ways with the dialogue but if youre going for more of a PG rating it could work. Ive certainly read worse

>>85291777
>always been the class clown of the group
>always treated as such
>desperately want to be taken seriously and treated like an adult
>every time I do, I feel like im coming off as an asshole and go back to being a goof in a knee jerk reaction
>really fucking hate myself sometimes
>probably going to OD like chris farely or something one day

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>>85280501
I don't know how long I can keep going.
I don't feel happy nor sad anymore. Just empty.
As if something was sucking out life from me.
I'm friendless 25yo virgin. I spend most of my time shitposting.
I wish I had balls to kys myself. Shame I'm not an Amerifat. At least I could've bought a shotgun at Walmart and have an easy way out.

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>>85299877
well, at least you can tell yourself that you're not alone. I'm a 23yo virgin as well, only have one friend who's recently got his first gf and is spending less and less time with me. One day i'll get the courage to buy that rope...

Existential crisis. Spend all my time thinking about the nature of consciousness, the meaning of life, the absurdity of existance, being monkeys, abstraction, how we exist, why we exist, the permanence of death, the release from existential hell that death is. I've been this way since I had an anxiety attack in October. It's not pleasant.

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All i want to do is go war and die doing something important, there's just no fucking purpose in life besides partying, drugs and sex, all things I've never had the chance to get involved in. recently my co-workers are starting to mock me for it and how generally timid i am generally, and I'm stuck listening to them every day bragging about all the fun they're having all weekend while i'm rotting at my computer.

Been watching alot of WWII kino to distract myself and fantasise about being there.

>>85300602
death might not be permanent, the only way to perceive the universe is to be alive. i kinda think the moment i die I'll be born as someone/something else. i mean, what do we perceive "us" to be? the same clump of atoms? all the atoms in our bodies every few years anyway, we aren't the same person we were years ago. so in a way we've already died several times already.

>>85292864
Don't do it

>>85292864
Link the video

>>85292963
I'm jealous man - I've had to get up to go to work at 5/6am every day for my job I don't give a fuck about.
Tomorrow is my day off so I'm getting smashed on rum, made the mistake of telling someone I was looking forward to a drink tonight and had to pretend I had friends I was going out with.

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=DI3u7g8PPEA

Me right now

>>85295957
And here you are.

>>85294420
You might be on to something. One of my "dumbest" friends literally laughs at me when I bring up anything existential because he's like "lol I don't give a shit". He's not even a nihilist or anything he's just really simple, he doesn't really see life beyond his immediate day-to-day problems. I don't want to sound pretentious I genuinely don't consider myself that smart but I don't know how to NOT have existential anxiety crises.

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>>85302029
Why did he do it?

I've felt alone and lonely for the last 8 years of my life; I have acquaintances at work I talk to, I go to school full time, but nothing makes me happy. Never had a gf and I'm so fucking ugly that I want to kill myself.

>>85281961
Wait, are your friends literally /tv/?

Who's /drinking alone/ tonight? It's Saturday, why not?
What are you watching? I have to listen to music when I'm drunk - any recommendations for good pissed music?

>>85294627
>>85302443
I used to feel this way, but then I had a thought that gave me a bit if perspective. Every person, even thos with severe mental disabilities, have some form of thought process leading to existential questions like "why am I here?". I now believe that it would be far worse to have these thoughts, or at least the outline of these thoughts, and not be able to articulate or construct the processes around them. I guess what I'm saying is that it could be worse, keep going brothers.

>Went on a date with a girl
>We both get pretty tipsy at the bar
>Shes leaning close, leg rubbing on mine, super receptive
>Having a genuinely great time with her
>Walk her to her train back home later in the night
>She goes for a hug while I slightly leaned in to kiss her
>Awkwardly hug her
>Stumble over my goodbyes
>Walk back to my apartment wanting to die

why cant i just win one bros whys there always some bullshit bringing me down fucking christ

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>>85280501
No need to hang when you are at the bottom

>>85302992
You're probably not a kpop fag, but this song is really sad if you listen to the lyrics: https://youtu.be/RKhsHGfrFmY
Also listen to "black" by GD if you actually like that. His music is literally one of the only things that keeps me going

>>85303100
You did win you had a great time, didn't you? That's worth celebrating.

>>85303100
>go on a date

you're already doing better than 90% of /tv/ anon. She probably had just as great a time, don't over think it and ask her out again.

>>85290690
Selected Ambient Works Vol. 2: #3

Doing pretty bad at the moment. Back too NEETdom for now. Gotta stop pretending I'm Sam Hyde at the workplace. Oh well.

>>85304104
I lived the NEET life for a mere 6 months and it was the most depressing thing I've ever done.
I did nothing but watch films and play games until it got to the point where I didn't enjoy either and spent days doing nothing but essentially just refreshing theads on /tv/ I didn't even care about.
It was only when I got my shit job that I was able to start enjoying them again.
How do fulltime NEETS do it? how do they distract themselves from the fact that life is pointless without working a pointless shitty job to make them enjoy their free time?

>>85285843
Trust me, I love math and hate my life just like the rest of us.

Especially since no one else likes math.

>>85303100
Just take her out again, if she says no then it's the same result as you doing nothing. It's hard because you'll be pissed at yourself if she says no, but nothing actually changed; you'd be in the same state if you did nothing anyway.

>>85304347
Wow that's literally me right now. I've been living the NEET for just over 4 months and I feel like absolute shit every day. I need a job. I could probably find one if I tried I've just gotten too comfortable. My parents are saints for putting up with me.

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>only one beer left

Fuck.

>>85304347
I agree with this completely. Lived the NEET life for about half a year (though I did actively look for jobs) and now that I finally got a job again everything feels so much better. Finally appreciating my freetime in stead of just sitting on my couch masturbating.

>>85304996
>tfw bought an extra bottle of rum instead of beer

Recommend this to you anon - a full bottle of something is guaranteed to get you drunk before you run out. Beer is a fickle mistress, sometimes they'll get me where I need to go but others they leave you wanting more

>>85303100
>they actually go to dates in his country

Glad I dont have to do this shit. In my country we just get drunk and fuck, or you get together with someone you've known for a time. Dates seems very artificial.

>>85305140
Yeah, I usually I got an extra bottle in my cupboard for just such an occation but I drank it all after getting home from a bender on town a few days ago. Should have just listened to my instincts and stacked up, but I thought a sixpack would be fine.

I started crying while watching To The Bone earlier desu

>>85285289


I have extensive experience with opioids and have been addicted to them on and off for years. I finally figured out how to use a low dose of oxy or morphine etc near daily without becoming horrifically addicted, and still experience the ethereal euphoria every time. It took much misery and pain to get here but I feel like I finally can feel normal again.


I remember being a couple months clean off dope and then caving and snorting heroin in my truck with a young hooker. The first thing I said was "oh my god I finally feel normal again"


Regular life is too raw. I have suffered great trauma in my life and society damning me for wanting to be normal is fcked. Nothing would make me happier than a nice fat oxy script.

>>85305194
>tfw work as a bakeri n a supermarket
>buy my rum as I finish work
>fairly certain people at work are noticing how often I buy
>too lazy to go somehwere else

I have to get out of work like Sam Fisher now - I roll down aisles and wait for the cameras to pass using my magic goggles. I've even got a pocket full of coins to distract the till managers.

Unfortunatley I still have to deal with the random on the self-service tills to remove my security tags.

>>85305362
>work at hotel as receptionist a few days ago
>evening shifts
>after shifts sometimes go straight to the hotel bar to get a few

I might have done this a few too many times. I didnt get too drunk since I knew the people behind the bar but still a little awkward.

>>85305420
>*years ago

Not days ago..

>>85304716

I'm just worried she's seeing them as "friend dates" and not actual dates. I don't have any reason to really believe this but she sort of held back from a kiss, which is a pretty simple and customary thing to do to show mutual interest.

You have to get a job and find friends, normalfags have it figured out

>>85305454
I'm disappointed anon, I found days ago to be far more relatable.
How is it now, can you enjoy your drinking without worrying about other people calling AA for you?

>>85281750
Sounds pretty good desu

>>85281579
this but it would destroy my parent's hearts

>>85280501
I woke up at 4:30 pm

>>85305547
It's super rare to meet truly good people.

>>85305550
Yeah all my buddies dont care, and my gf drinks a lot as well. My current work friends probably goes to different pubs, never seem them around except for work related parties.

killed myself 3 weeks ago, this is a bot that is designed to respond to depressing threads. remember me.

>>85305508
It's more likely she wasn't expecting it or that she's just a little more careful than other girls. Just take her out again, I don't know if you should try to lean in for a kiss this time but still. I think she got the impression that you don't think it's a "friend date" or whatever that's supposed to mean when you tried to kiss her. She'll probably completely ignore it even happened if you ask her out again. Also you have nothing to lose except what you choose to lose.

>>85280501
I've moved back to my hometown. All my uni friends are effectively gone now. All my high-school friends have moved to the city.
I can't find actors because the local theatre groups are all concerned with upcoming shows and breaking in as an outsider is a long, arduous process. My summer's wasting away as I just try to get something off the ground.

I think it's safe to say that I'm a little depressed

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>>85305244
dude don't just post that kind of talk without spilling your secret.

HOW do you manage such a feat ?

vis a vie some weird bullshit happened and now I can't get drunk anymore . I mean I drank a pint of vodka and just felt a bit off like only some negative effects but none of the good times

STILL got hungover anyway

Worried I broke my shit don't know what the frig

>>85280501
Im a total fucking loser and im retarded but im happy. i just pulled myself to some random girl on the internet who recorded herself for the very purpose.

>>85305829
Might move back to my hometown in a year or so. Havent decided yet. Almost all my old friends from my hometown has moved back so I'm thinking to do the same. But I've really rooted in the big city, so I'm not really feeling it. I cant decide.

>>85305867
Sounds like liver damage, my friend. Probably not permanent but try to lay off the memejuice for a few weeks.

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>>85288015
>remember having dreams where I got laid before I lost my virginity
>remember dreams of being kissed before I had my first kiss
>sexually repressed
>realise there's a whole part of my childhood where I have no memories and other *hints*
heheh wouldn't that be funny! haha, good joke anon

>>85305508
Then be clear in your intentions
>Hey, do you want to go out on like a "date" date?
Can't promise she'll say yes, but it'll get you out of the friend-zone

>>85305957
Wouldn't liver or brain damage lower one's tolerance, not the other way around?

>>85305508
I don't wanna be that guy but the friendzone doesn't exist. She's either attracted to you or she isn't. If she is then you should pick up on it as long as you're not completely autistic.

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>>85305957
>>85306171
>liver or brain damage
yeah I thought the same for liver it would f your tolerance

Whelp I guess it's the other one good bye f a m

I'm really glad I'm under the legal drinking age (I'm a 19-yr-old burger) because alcoholism runs in my family very strongly and I'm in a bad place right now and would be getting fucked up regularly if I could. Silver lining of not having any friends -- no one to buy me booze.

>>85306320
It's honestly more likely to be liver damage - my local's misses used to do lock ins for us and she'd easily drink a bottle of vodka and you'd barely notice becuase she drank pretty much every waking second.

>>85306483
Do most Americans really only start drinking once they hit 21? Or do you guys start earlier?

As a Britbong me and most people I know started destroying our livers around 13/14. As a Cornish Britbong we could get fucked up after our 7 cans of cider on a beach and never get bothered by anyone

>>85305631
They fucked up raising you.

>>85306597
Oh I knew lots of people who started drinking when they were like 13 but we're definitely more uptight about it over here and drink in private. We aren't allowed to drink in public at all -- you often see restaurants with outdoor seating with bold chalk lines bordering the tables to represent where you can and can't legally drink. It's pretty ridiculous to see lol.

>>85305867
Of all the people in this thread you should kill yourself you embarrassing fuck.

>>85304034
Thanks, pal.

>>85305867
Low dose naltrexone

It is not easy to use and makes you very sick if you don't know what you are doing. It does the opposite of what opiates do. You take it before you sleep and it forces your body to up regulate its opiod receptor production while opioids do the opposite. It's not perfect but it's the best solution modern pharmacology has to offer.


Alcohol doesn't feel good to me either, and still gives me all the downsides. Very rarely will I enjoy a drink. Usually regret it.

>>85281772
EARTH ROCKER

>>85306799
That is insane man, especially given you guys can drive at like 16 - do you guys have nothing like pubs then or it more just bars and clubs?
I can't imagine a weekend without 70% of the population binging off their faces

>>85306259
Shut up youngfag

>>85306320
It's just tolerance senpai, welcome to the big leagues.

>>85307011
fucking normalfags

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>>85307011
We do have pubs but the pub culture is definitely not the same and bars are more common, pic related is a pub I used to pass all the time at uni. You can see the chalk lines on the ground. Basically if you step outside that line with a drink in-hand you're breaking the law lmao.

>>85301806
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0Y-hfG-6OFA

>>85307238
also idk why I keep calling them chalk lines, they're paint

>>85307238
I used to want to visit America once - are they strict about it though or is it just laughed at?
Surely nobody can take that seriously?
When I was at uni me and my friends had a couple of pints inbetween lectures and our previous lecturer walked in for a pint having finsihed for the day

>>85307238
What state do you live in? cause in Oregon it's way more relaxed. the whole PNW is basicly the beer capitol of the USA so i guess that isn't really saying much.

>>85307341
I went traveling around America when I was 19 (britbong here). I got wasted pretty much every night with relative ease

>>85307501
How much did it cost and was it worth it?

At the moment I'm saving up but I think I'm swaying more towards New Zealand for a month and then after Canada and the Rockies and all that good stuff

>>85307483
Oregon actually ha. That pic is McMenamins, which is an Oregon/Washington establishment. This pub is right outside Oregon State University.

>>85307670
So why do Americans hate the social lubricant so much?

>>85307636
like... 3 grand maybe? I can't remember, it was years ago
I did it again afterwards and it was one of the greatest experiences of my life so bear that in mind I suppose

>>85281579
I thought about making a noose because of Chester but I decided I couldn't do it. I need a sudden death, gunshot or long fall, the long 8min choke sounds like shit and then I thought about it and both other paths leave you cripped for life if they fail so I decided I am not suicidal enough and will continue life on.

>>85307670
OSU is fucking dank, I think its got that real university atmosphere whereas Eugene is more of a circus but still can be pretty fun with better thots admittedly.

>>85305209
Is it good? Been thinking of watching it as inspiration for losing weight

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>>85301115
First time I truly identify with someone here.

>>85307731
Why do normalfags shit up feels threads?

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Everything is great here, on my end of things.

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>>85285320
>a single mother

>>85284602
Same
I wish there was a way to revisit your memories.

>>85307828
>he doesn't get drunk alone and browse fucking 4chan on a saturday fucking night
>accuses said person of being a normalfag

>>85307904
not him, but I'm too depressed to get drunk alone now
living with my mum, getting drunk by myself just seems sad and will lead to a rut that might become hard to break out of

>>85307968
I live with my parents but theyve fucked off to bed so im sitting pissed on tv at 1am saturday getting called a normie

Im pretty fucking depressed too

>>85307904
>social lubricant
>saturday night on 4chan
Pick one

>>85308192
>implying 4chan isn't my social life

>>85307799
Yeah I dropped out because I was miserable but the campus and atmosphere were really nice.

>>85307968
>>85308013
Fucking normalfags, you two should just fuck each other

>>85308223
Are you so intimidated by 4chan you need to be drunk to post?

>>85308308
with replies like this it doens't hurt to have a drink

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>>85307968
who's the fucking norman now

>not drinking alone
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lpzqQst-Sg8

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ISmgOrhELXs

>>85280501

My father might be dead within the year so I'm barely hanging by a thread, all movies about father son relationship is triggering me like a damn woman.

>>85308248
the last girl I had sex with was supposed to meet me a few weeks back after I moved away
she flaked on me and said she was really busy

feels pretty bad desu

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>>85308440
>want my dad to die , keeps living to spite me

>>85308476
the last girl I had sex with is dead because I had to make sure she didn't tell my mum,

mother wouldnt like that

>>85305688
Then settle for Meeting half decent Folks, like everyone else. Jesus.

>>85305867
>vis a vie

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
(inhales)
AAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

>>85308440
90s born queers pretty much are women.