how to into depression again?

>>83195624
Anon, I'm serious when I say go find something else to do. Art and creatives are shitty, inconsistent careers and the small chance of making it big isn't worth sacrificing your own enjoyment in life. Just trust me when I say: don't.

read confessions of a mask from yukio mishima

>>83195795
read it a few weeks ago actually. really like it but it didnt make me any more depressed.
>>83195755
far too late and already off to a great career. Its fashion design by the way.

Fap to CP for an entire week
You will feel like shit forever if you are not a pedo.

>>83195909
thats disgusting but thanks for the tip, not into it though.

>>83195909
This

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some more info,
My favorite films include (despite how basic or //reddit/// you think they are)
the shining, the spirit of the beehive, american psycho, taxi driver, raging bull, mulholland drive, after hours, blue velvet, trois coleurs bleu, funeral parade of roses, gummo, annie hall, there will be blood.

something like these but more heartwrenching and more self loathing. thank u

>>83195624
if you want a real guarantee, take ecstasy(mdma)
you will be burned out and purely miserable for months afterwards

>>83196571
this is bullshit. I do X probably 3 times a month, sometimes more sometimes less and generally just have no appetite in the following days. no depression.

>>83196183
Turin Horse

>>83196647
!!!
i admit i was talking out of my ass

if what you say is true i need to get some asap

>>83195909
this or cuck blacked porn

>>83196707
OP here again, i wrote >>83196647

I live in Berlin and the x is ver much part of the clubscene here. It's usually also very good stuff


tip i'll give you for taking x is just start with a quarter / half a pill just to feel the effects

You can take more after about 30-45 minutes when you feel it, or maybe don't feel it.

Worst thing you can do is pop an entire pill that you have no idea what contains.

speaking as a person who havent done heroin; ecstacy is probably the greatest feeling i've ever encountered.
happy clubbing'

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>>83195624
I 100% identify with you, OP.

When I'm at my low point is when I do my best work.

What do you do, draw or music? I mainly do music.

https://soundcloud.com/user-314426561/d-12-main-menu-theme-maybe

last thing i was able to make.

>>83195624
>>83197260


I'm also going to suggest binge-drinking for a few days while exploring Nobodytm.com.

Specifically the Nobody TV section.

it'll get you there.

>>83195624
this is such total bullshit, if it was genuine depression you wouldn't be able to do ANYTHING you'd just wanna sit around and lie in bed all day, you wouldn't even wanna play vidya or watch a movie.

It's even more far-fetched to claim you get BETTER at creating when you're depressed. I don't believe it, at all. The 'depressed van gogh-like artist who is at his best when depressed' meme in art is absolute bullshit.

>>83197260
>>83197531
thanks, yeah thats how I feel

I work in fashion design.

I'll check it out and guess I'm buying a bottle of jameson tomorrow

>>83197650
that is how I used to feel. I'd just lie in bed, i wouldnt play video games or watch films, but I did have a lot of music on.

In that state i always had an urge to express myself, create something etc. And I did, and it would be great. It would be so much more real.

You seem to not get it.

>>83197738
>In that state i always had an urge to express myself, create something etc. And I did, and it would be great. It would be so much more real.

you're not depressed then.

>>83197778
t. """"depressed"""" tumblr snowflake

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>>83195624

A bunch of young pseuds being overly fetishistic.

Fuck all of you idiot clowns.

>>83195624
If you think depression helps you create you've never really been depressed.

Try waking up and staring at a spot on the wall for several hours because you can't bring yourself to move - that's depressed. You're just an angsty faggot.

>>83197805
no, that's you, that's what im trying to explain to you.

>>83195624

an easy way to induce emotional states in yourself is just to expose yourself to other people in those states, unless you're literally autistic

so you should LITERALLY browse /r9k/ all day and you will get into the mindset of a hopeless loser

>>83198125

>If you think depression helps you create you've never really been depressed.

This. OP and others who agreed with him ITT are the kind of frauds who treat all of this with starry-eyed romanticism.

If you were a genuine depressive who managed to finally get out of it you would NEVER UNDER ANY PRETEXT ever want to go back. The fact that you treat all of this like it's a fuckin on/off switch that you can affect when you need to "create" proves how disingenuous you are and how little you were truly subject to it.

Get fucked you fuckin pseud cunts.

>>83197805
absolute faggot