haha i hate myself "it always ends the same way" edition

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Last thread 404'd again and I forget what we were even talking about.

What's for dinner tonight, /possum/?

>>9037336
In what way does it end?

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>>9037758
Not with a bang, but a whimper.

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>>9037803
and with an AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

>>9037967
I can't believe I didn't see that opportunity. ;_;

>>9038042
opportunities are like buses, they have the potential to brutally murder harmless creatures such as raccoons and hedgehogs without slowing down a notch
also theres always another one coming or something like that

>>9038158
Wisdom of /trash/

>>9037425
pizzer

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>>9038158
This is one of those things that's got deeper metaphor than you realize when you first read it.

>>9038260
What kind of peetzer?

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>>9037425
Well right now, breakfast.

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>>9037425
fast food tacos

>>9037425
Potatoes, eggs and refried beans.

Random Topic: What was the last 'dream/goal' you gave up on, that your family still brings up because they think you're just taking a break from [thing]?

I'll start; only fair.
Since I was, I dunno, 15? I've tried to be a writer. As in, legitimately spent hours every day writing, not just 'hey, I could write a story about' and all that. I had notebooks, timelines, sketches of the major and some minor characters, lots of things.

Cue two decades later, along with...a laundry list of issues. Stolen, broken and Brik'd laptops, a flood in the garage turning every notebook into mush, another notebook ending up at the bottom of the Gulf of Aden, and ultimately no fucking time, energy or drive anymore, plus the grim realization that it's just never going to fucking happen, so...yeah. Decided a few years ago that I was done fooling myself, and gave up on trying to be a writer.

Which of course doesn't stop my family -at all- from asking me 'how long until your book is done, Anon?' and 'I saw the best notebook for you to use to write in, Anon,' and 'I heard, saw, read this great piece of writing advice, Anon'...all from the same exact people who would inturrupt me while I WAS writing with 'Why are you wasting time sitting in the corner instead of spending time with your family?'

So yeah. Long and short, gave up being a writer, and now no one will shut up about it. Who's next?

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Is it just a meme or does jacking off burn lots of calories?

>>9040068
If it does it explains how I haven't died yet.

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>>9040068
It depends on what you're doing and how vigorously. Are you stroking slowly or furiously fucking your hand? Are you lying there or using your legs to bounce yourself up and down on a silicone dick? The calorie burn can vary from a leisurely walk to a full jog.

>tfw feeling a feel so specific you're too scared to say it because you're afraid someone will notice it's you

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>>9040394
There's more to this than I first thought

Am I depraved or entitled for being upset that I'm constantly rejected while all my other friends are out getting laid?

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>>9041859
It's totally valid to be upset at the situation, but whether it's fair to be mad at any specific person or group depends on circumstances.

>>9042554
I'm not at my friends. I'm just disheartened. So much so that I can't sleep despite needing to because I have work in nine hours.

>>9037336
I'm pretty sure I know who you are
Stop listening to your dad's warped political ideologies

I just cut my leg with scissors while at work and there's a bit of blood but not enough to feel like I've done anything other than attention whore

>>9044789
That's how it always feels anon. Were the scissors sharp at least? I've never had much luck with them.

>>9039605
I am paranoid of expectations and dont want to be looked down upon for anything, so i never do anything and never tell anyone.

>>9044823
Pretty blunt. Second time around sorta split the skin apart unlike anything I've done before. Feels better now that the panic has subsided, too.

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>>9039605
>>9045273
Kinda this and this. I used to publish poetry and short stories but I moved to cartooning. I don't know how I'm doing in it. It makes me feel really weak and incapable of gauging how I am compared to others.
I know I won't make money in it and that's okay. I'm fine with wage slaving to the most part, but I always see so many better things out there and wonder why my shit should even exist.

Haha

>>9037336
I've had like a two week long existential crisis despite being agnostic and generally cool with the "I dunno" outlook on everything.

I've been trying to get back into religion if only for my sanity but keep leaning towards *tip*lords over any religious Anons, probably because I should take concerns like this to a more educated theological authority. As such, I've wound up substituting religion at the moment with futurology "we wuz cyborgs" Kurzweil-tier shit despite being aware that's the exact same type of blind faith that I could invest in a religion, with the plus side to a religion being I don't have to even worry about staying alive.

I wish that if there were some sort of higher power it'd just be a real nigga and come tell us the deal at least once.

Ded

>>9051744
Ede

>>9038300
nah, i was just drunk and making a horrible attempt at humor

>>9039605

start again, literally no reasons to stop enjoying something.

>>9049606
Buddhism's pretty chill imo, studied it back in high school.

>>9053452
When it stopped being enjoyable, and instead waa simply a burden and a constant reminder to myself of something that I knew I would never complete, never be successful at, and was simply lying to myself about in order not to disappoint everyone else's expectations, then yes, it was time to stop 'enjoying' it.

My feelings on the matter, at least.

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So. Thread's getting low, in multiple ways. Let's bring it up a bit.

Let's talk about something small that we like. Could be a game, a book, a movie, a dish, whatever. What makes you feel good, opossums?

Personally, Ilike the rare times my cat, who's normally very standoffish, comes up out of nowhere for a quick cuddle. Just kind of makes the day a bit better.

>anon, I belittle you to keep your self-confidence from getting too high. If it does, you'll leave us and have enough confidence to find better friends

>>9058646
cute cat anon.
i think the thing that i really like is music. that's not something small, but w/e.

My shitty amd card fizzled out so I took the gtx 260 out that I replaced with it.

The gtx still works, its been sitting in a box that has fallen from dresser height countless times for over 3 years.

>>9058646
A very cute cat.

>>9039605
Every instrument I started playing and then gave up

So, I kinda need to vent.
One of my friends, though, just got convicted of some Serious Shit. 10 year minimum sentence, and I feel guilty as fuck because I was too chicken to reach out more to him during his brief time on bail.
I knew the guy since I was in kindergarten, possums, and while I knew this was coming for a while it still aches. It's like a coffin get nailed shut, you know what's gone down and that it was always gonna be like this, but it still aches.
At least I can talk to my cousin and another friend of mine about this shit, and get some fresh air soon.
>>9058646
Wanna pet that cat. Please pet that cat for me, Anon.
As for me, I'm a sucker for pasta, jazz, and snuggly cats.

>>9058646
I like painkillers, animals and being in pain.

>When you're sick and keep throwing up but a lot of the time you force yourself to throw up after eating anyway

I'm not sure if I'm happy this is using less effort then normal or upset I'm violently ill.

>>9062868
Heh. I'll try, but like I said, she's pretty standoffish. Very much a 'on my terms' sort of cat.

That, and she's more than a bit of an asshole, but hey, she's cute, so that makes up for it.

>>9058646
I absolutely love the smell of sumi ink. After sniffing it a couple times, I noticed the ACMI Caution Label octagon on the side, with the text "May be harmful by breathing vapors." But... but it smells so earthy it's amazing.

>>9058646
I like hot showers, followed up by getting cozy in bed

Does anyone else have a little thing that just always calms them down?

Whenever I'm stressed I find painting my nails helps even though I'm not normally a flaming faggot.

>>9068818
i usually smash something, it's incredibly calming

I just moved out to Monterey last month with my dad. I have a restaurant job with decent hours, but I have no friends here, and I just feel too shitty to go out and make friends. its so lonely.

>>9069630
We're your friends anon. Come around and I'll open a carton of beers.

>>9068818
Don't want to sound like an aspie but doing maths problems lets me focus and block everything out.

>>9068818
Heh. Yes, yes I do.
Sorry - diagnosed with a mild case of obsessive-compulsive, along with high-functioning anxiety, so there's a fucking laundry list I go through depending on the situation.

Walking helps, sometimes. Walking a particular pattern, at a calm pace, touching things with my right hand - chairs, walls, posts, doorways, things like that. I know, can it be more cliché, but fuck it, it works.

If I'm sitting down, and there's paper and a pen, I'll start figuring out maths. Specifically, patterns. Some of my favorites are calculating geometric shapes - area, circumference, density, things like that - or financial budgets, based on what numbers I've seen recently.

Reading is nice too. Discovering sites like fanfiction.com were a godsend - need something to read, right now? Spend a few hours wading through shit until you find something, and not only have you potentially located an interesting story, but you've successfully distracted yourself from whatever made you need to disconnect in the first place.

>>9068818
Scratching some random shit in my sketchbook. One day I'm actually gonna make some of it in Blender.

Goodnight thread. Love you and everyone in you.

>>9071836
goodnight man, i love you

dont die... i must die first

Now im at that point were my bf leaving me has left me feeling nothing, im so numb and im not sad or mad. Im kinda feeling better because my anxiety is gone so there is that.

But sleep tight possums

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Any of you excited for a new game coming up?

>rejects you
>says he's straight
>immediately fucks two of your male friends
If I could take a pill that destroys all my longing for intimacy or sex or anything

>>9074444
nice quads, try to get so depressed fapping feels like a chore.

>>9074036
I'm hoping either Lord of Rigel or Endless Space 2 doesn't disappoint, given how many other 4X turn-based games have.

>>9068818
A few times I've thrown a few bucks at a puzzle game on Steam to occupy my mind while I ride through whatever. Also I paint my toenails sometimes and that helps too.

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>>9068818
walking to places and chatting with people on discord calms me down the most.

>>9077834
I bought Endless Space 2 a while ago (early access) and in my opinion, it's very good and each update only makes it better.

I've woken up and can't tell whether or not I'm hungry.

What's something easy to make with no money and basic household food?

>>9081110
egg and bread

>>9081110
a sandwich

>>9081142
How should I cook the egg? I never really cook so I don't know much about... egg.

>>9081155
If eggs are too hard this will be my back up.

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>>9081167
just crack it on a pan, and poke the yellow part with a spatula so it doesn't pop and get all over you when you try to eat it

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>>9081207
Alright, wish me luck boys.

>>9081228
remember butter

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>>9081242
Don't worry, apparently I can't leave my room without being called a cunt so I'll just stay in here and starve to death. Haha I hate myself.

>>9081550
damn that sucks, shitty housemate/s?

>>9081690
Family, normally they're out around this time but my step-father and brother have the day off work and my mother did the shopping yesterday.

>>9081738
god that really sucks, is it possible for you to move out?

>>9081766
I have $240 AUD a fortnight from welfare and live in an expensive place.

Right now I pay $200 rent a fortnight so I've got about $20 a week. The amount I'd need to save for a bond just isn't reasonable.

In 10 days I've got another meeting with my social worker and I'm going to look at courses and jobs I could apply for.

>>9081834
damn, good luck man

>>9081550
just eat a little more later, drink water and im sure it will go fine bud. focus on something else.

>>9081878
I actually might just fast for a while, already done with a hard first part.

>tfw abandoning your shitty friends and disappearing forever is infinitely easier said than done

>>9085028
Hello Owl.

>>9085116
Name doesn't ring a bell, sorry.

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I guess we'll see how understanding my professor is that I've been too fucking depressed and preoccupied with talking myself back from the edge to even manage a small amount of work. An extension on a couple assignments would be nice. Apparently she has a degree in counseling as well, so maybe?

I'm fresh out of possum, so have a bat. They're cute creatures that get shit on a lot, too.

>>9081550
I'd cook for you, Anon. I like to sautee random veggies for a few minutes, add spinach for a couple more, and then pour egg over it all and cook until it's all opaque.

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>>9079587
That's good to hear. Have you had any trouble with the game slowing to a crawl or stalling out like I've heard some people have? My system's not bad, but it's not the best and it's 5 years old now (3570K processor, 8GB RAM, 550 Ti card), so that's my other worry.

Am I the only one that just comes to these threads for opossum pics and ignores all the whining?

>>9087157
yes, thanks for sharing

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>>9087157
Considering how many of the same pics appear time and again, and how much easier searching a dozen other places would be, probably.

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Well it is official. I am a wizard. Boohoo whatever.

I wish I was gay. Or at least bi.

>>9087325
Would it help if I dressed like a girl and gave you a blowjob?

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lustylamb/lazybutts

>>9088652
That is hot and I am a piece of trash for spending my life looking at porn and starving myself to death.

post songs that make you feel like absolute shit

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y-Qu_Fk23T4

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So how are you sad sacks doing?

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>urge for self-mutilation, suicide and homicide intensifies
>can only sit powerlessly at home
>they took my gun
>i am nothing
>i have nothing
I dont know i dont know i dont know

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>>9089253
You sound like the new version of Yosemite Sam

>>9089253
I feel you man, if you're into it cutting helps.

>>9089214
>>9089268
Avatarfags begone REEEEEEEE

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>>9089278

>>9089214
>>9089268
>>9089289
please stop avatarfagging for this thread, it's not hard man

>>9089289
This thread is our last respite from dealing with real people. Though I loath to use the term, it's pretty much a glorified safe space. Please stop?

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>>9089297
I have a name too but you can't see it.

>>9089317
just pretend I'm not a real person

>>9089329
dude stop avatarfagging or please just fuck off

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You guys already have named fags the are all like "hurr its something something guy here" so you might aswell use names or avatar.

>>9089347
fuck off

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>>9089366
Why are you so upset about this?

>>9070084
That's a good thing to do.

>>9089268
>>9089289
>>9089329
>>9089347
I don't think you really get it. It's a mental thing were I personally can't be in a chat with people I recognise because if they have prior knowledge about me it feels like they're judging me. I'm physically unable to speak in front of real people and have a stutter when I try.

I have no job, no school and nothing to do. I spend 16+ hours a day with this thread open doing nothing but sitting in a chair. My life's a glorified waiting room.

Please stop, without this thread I have nothing. You have hundreds of threads where people avartarfag that are much more enjoyable then this place, so why do you have to disturb us?

>>9089382
why can't you stop avatarfagging?

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>>9089390
We have a guy like that in the other thread, I'm bothering you guys because it's neat to see people on the very edge. I hope to use your guys experience in the case of if I have fall near the same place.

>>9089390
I'll keep to maybe once or so a week mostly on the weekends

>>9089443
just go away

>>9089443
>I hope to use your guys experience in the case of if I have fall near the same place.

If you're ever at this point? Fucking kill yourself. It's not worth living in constant agony of knowing you fucked up everything you tried. It never gets better.

So please leave so we can sit in our misery. Go trade porn or go to a HG thread or something.

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>>9089457
Nah but thanks for asking/telling.

>but for real going to bed soon

>>9089475

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>>9089268
Go back to /b/ and tell Snivy to bring back the archive.
>>9089268
Quasi-psychotic tics arent fun
>>9089278
Prefer burning. Have a brand thats fading and needs touching up to keep the memories fresh. Doesnt really help tension. Fitting self-punishment.

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>>9089488

>>9089497
>>9089488
Is it that hard to go anywhere else? I know it sounds faggy as hell but without this thread I'm at the point where I'll have no reason not to just kill myself. Please, please just stop.

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>>9089513
>>9089497
was one of those a misquote?

>>9089488
>>9089497
you guys have places to do this, why do you shit up our thread?

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>>9089539

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>>9089534
>>9089553
>Implying I can't multitask avataring over many boards and threads

>>9089556

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>>9089539
I guess.
>>9089553
>>9089534
>implying
I keep my avatarring to seperate threads, keep bitching at the other guy though.

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>>9089575

>>9089575
dude please just stop or fuck off.
why is this so hard for you to grasp?
we don't want you here, but if you were to stop fucking avatarfagging it'd be fine.
please just stop

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>>9089580
I wonder....

>>9089614
It truly doesn't matter if you want me to be here, I want to be here and that's all that matters.

Also if you have access to a device that takes photos you should take some pics of your posting station and yourself.

>>9089641
>>9089580
Please man, like seriously. This is all I've got. I can't lose this.

>>9089641
if you want to be here then fine, but stop avatarfagging.
why can't you stop? you have to select a picture every time you post, it's not like it's a hassle to stop.

please just stop avatarfagging.

>>9089657
just ignore him, don't respond to his posts.
if everyone else in the thread could ignore him too that'd be nice.

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>>9089657
You won't lose it, it's that me and a hundred other lurkers will always be watch and judging your every post whether I happen to be posting pics with my post or not.

>>9089641
Whatever you're thinking its wrong.
>>9089657
Take responsibility for yourself and get over your pathology.

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You guys even ignored the anon that wanted to post songs that make you feel like absolute shit.

>>9089692
This, I mean I'm fine with him being here and talking. But if I wanted to bitch about my life with avatars I'd go to any other thread on trash.

>songs that make you feel like shit
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=o3fVwa-iTjU

>>9089739
>this video is not available
damn

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>>9089754
this comment makes it even better

>>9089754
Beach Boys, My only Sunshine

>>9089871
thanks

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https://youtu.be/MJUuDoRZpyU

help me name my zine

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>>9089050
I listen to this album when I'm in a bad mood.
It gives off negative vibes, but I can still dig it.

>>9090355
i've been meaning to listen through skinny puppys discography, should i?

>>9086272
I haven't experienced any major slowdowns, though my computer is a little newer than yours. I'd recommend giving ES2 a shot and playing on smaller maps if you have performance issues.

Anyone have any tips on dealing with anger? I've been getting pissed off at stupid little things a lot lately, and I can't find an outlet. I've tried reading, painting, vidya, taking walks, etc but none of it helps and just seems to make me even more pissed.

>>9090369
I've not been through their entire discography yet, but I'm really liking them so far.
My personal favorite would be Bites, followed by CFM.

I'm baking cakes at 10pm at night. My family was laughing and saying I couldn't bake a cake. So I'm baking two.

Bitches will learn that I can and will bake cakes whenever I want.

>>9090899
Show em who's boss, anon. Stay awesome.

>>9090899
aww shit, it's muthafuckin' cake time

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>>9090899
Make yourself a real nice cake anon

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>>9091040
>>9091054
>>9091105
I made cupcakes with green icing, still a bit wet but tastes good.

The big cake had not enough milk and was like a rock so I threw it out.

>>9037425
a little late, but half a pack of smokes for breakfast

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>>9091218
that looks good, i want cake now

Why do i even bother coming to these threads anymore? Just a giant edgy self loathing circlejerk. I hope you people get help, or at least try and find a way to help yourselves. Im so tired of this depression and sadness in my life.

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>>9092130
Why wouldn't one be with people that are like themselves, people try to help and be nice and people like that.

>>9088395

We can try anything.

>>9075354
Heh. Heh heh.

Not that anon, but I'll meet that, and go one further: depression plus fucked-up, unpredictable nervous system equals sex feeling like a goddamn waste of time. Not helped by my partner trying so hard to be cute, sexy and amorous, which means I'll be a piece of shit if I don't at least try and fake like I'm enjoying it - or even like I'm feeling anything at all.

Ever dip your hand in wax, then touch something? You know that weird, blunted, not-quite-numb lack of sense of touch? Imagine that on your dick - or hell, in your vagina, I'll bet we might have a few female opossums here - while someone else is trying their damnedest to pleasure you. That is pretty much exactly what it's like.

>>9092433
Well that sucks mega dick, i hope having worsened sex life doesn't screw things over for you.

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>>9085922
Bats are cute, yus. I approve of this.

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>>9058646
>What makes you feel good, opossums?
Watching old commercials. Something about the way the recordings sound and the old products give me weird pangs of nostalgia that feel good in the back of my brain. Especially if I'm drinking.

https://www.youtube.com/user/80sCommercialVault

This channel has a ton if you want to indulge yourself.

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>>9092480

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>>9093507
Posting pictures with my posts makes me feel good.

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Going to the gas station for some munchies, anyone want anything?

>>9096507
cherry coke and a pack of cigs

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>>9096507
Arizona ice tea and painkillers would be nice rn.

>>9092130
If you actually read the threads rather than just shitposting and projecting your own insecurities you would see that a bunch of people in these threads are on the up and up.

>>9096507
Pack of Marlboro Reds in the 20s and a Pepsi Max.

hehe

I love myself

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>>9101085
I love you too!

>>9096507
Watermelon Venom, if they have it. Long night ahead. Cheese danish would be nice, too. Spot me this time, I'll getcha when it's my turn to fly.

My slippers are too big and make it hard to walk in. It's either these or nothing and it's fucking freezing here.

>>9103329
Socks? Three layers or so, work great as insulation. Unless you're going outside, then just use 'em to fill your slippers until they fit.

>>9103392
...Fuck that's a good idea. I'll do that thanks. I got my slippers as a gift and for some reason everyone thinks my feet are much bigger then they are.

I'm like a size 13 and sometimes 14 in US but people always buy me 15's.

>>9103440
I'm in that boat, anon.
Wear a 13, people always buy 15's

What do you guys think of creating a dicord for this?

>>9105210
There already is one, I personally hate the idea and it's not for me but I've heard good things about this one.

Hopefully someone links you.

>>9105210
I think there is one, if I knew what the link was I'd be in it.

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hehe

I just stole some old anti-depressants from the cupboard, let's see if they help. They're Lovan if anyone's curious.

>>9105210
https://discord.gg/6AnMh
Here anon

>>9037336
haha fuck me
been working a job for 3 years now and i just got a 10k/year paycut because the alternative was to get fired

>>9107471
it takes fluoxetine 2+ weeks to start working so i hope you have enough pills

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I don't know why I'm alive.

I don't get enough hours. But even then I still feel terrible after work.

I don't make a lot of money, I know plenty of people who make less so I shouldn't bitch.

Student loans and credit seem conceptually identical to what I would describe as a scam. I don't know how people manage to go through school with debt hanging over their heads.

If I saved everything I earned outside of paying my dad a portion for rent, (and he's charging me less then anything else I can find in my area), it would take me over forty years to have enough money for college.

I can barely even handle my job, and it's making me feel even more nervous and scared of interacting with people. On top of that I don't have many relevant skills.

I can type 90 words a minute and have virtually no other skills which I have any real confidence in. I know stuff about computers, but any time I'm confronted or questioned about it I immediately crack under pressure and deliver an incorrect or otherwise very shaky and insecure answer.

Iunno what to do other then stop caring about anything and just waste all my free time on bullshit.

I just feel like I'm becoming numb to the presence of other people. I always try my best to help and be nice, but people respond more to my monotone voice and emotionless attitude then my actions and gestures of good will.

I just... Can't put myself in a position that's overly complex without feeling I will fail miserably and ruin things for the next person who has to deal with it.

I don't want to make a lot of money in life, I just want to do the things I enjoy for a living, graphic design, animations, all that old bullshit that so many other people want to do. But it's so competitive that I can't take it. Not just because I'm incompetent, but because I don't want to "compete" with anybody. To me that's like trying to take someone else's dreams out of their hands because "I deserve them" more than they do, which I don't.

haha i hate myself

>>9109519
and sorry for the blog post. It didn't make me feel any better but I guess this is what the thread is for.

>>9109344
that sounds like a shitty fucking situation, what the hell happened?

>>9103440
yay, size 13 party!!! wonder if there's a correlation between shoe size and hating ourselves.

for some reason, knowing I can check in on you guys every night before bed makes me feel a little less lonely in this world. thanks everyone.

>>9109708
I don't know but I have a feeling my shoe size is linked to my [sadnospoiler]foot fetish[/sadnospoiler]

Right now I've got cookies I rode to the shop for and some chocolate milk, probably nearly time for me to sleep as well.

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>>9097188
>>9097236
>>9099762
>>9103276
Hey sorry guys, ended up gettin kinda tipsy and forgot to drop these off here. Stuff might be a little warm.

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>>9111410
Thank you anon, love you.

haha lads

>>9111410
Thanks anon

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>>9111453
haha indeed

>>9096507
>>9113672
The only creatures who "Beautiful at any size" applies for are possums. Possums deserve lots of food and cuddles and love even if they're chubby.

>>9109529
major contract change lowered the available funds for all employees

>>9109519
>Student loans and credit seem conceptually identical to what I would describe as a scam. I don't know how people manage to go through school with debt hanging over their heads.
I'm in the same boat, hence why I'm dropping out of uni. I had enough in grants and savings to get through this past year debt free, but I couldn't handle graduating with over 60k of debt. It's smarter for me to try to get an apprenticeship with a local union.

>>9116261
That's fucking bollocks. Sounds like an unreliable job. Sorry mate.

>>9117376
An apprenticeship sounds like the best route through and through. I hope you can find one.

Haha

>>9037336
Are these self-loathing threads? I guess I'll post here since I currently hate myself. I drove home tipsy from my downtown area. It was 10 at night and was about a 25 mile drive. Since I could have been arrested I was technically driving drunk. I put other peoples lives at risk. I'm trash.

>>9120151
>Are these self-loathing threads
they are nowadays

>>9120151
It was a really, really stupid thing to do, but you're not trying to justify or minimize it, and that's admirable. A lot fo people would.

>>9120200
They're basically threads about either self loathing or people moaning about how the threads were better in the good ol' days.

I've seen some other content every once and a while, and this is also how I found out about the comic update.

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>>9124364
whatcha snickerin about

Good morning halfway though the afternoon thread.

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Say hi to the marmosa

>it will never be as easy as it sounds to abandon all your shitty friends (or, all of my friends)

>>9127219
if you can, just move away without saying anything

haha I landed a summer position even though I blew the application deadline by two months

Gonna bury this depression in work, fuck 'em

Is this possums only, or are other types of vermin welcome?

>>9127780
all vermin are welcome friend

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>>9127780
Well I know I would personally have sex with any type of anthro vermin. So let's say all.

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>>9127791
>>9127830
Sick. I brought a 2L of grape soda. It was a buck cheaper than the Crush and has mountains on the label, so I figure it's probably sweet enough that you won't notice the cancer.

>>9127859
Grape softdrink is the best. Though anything with vanilla in it's also pretty good.

>>9128643
Nilly ice cream's the shit too. Sorely underrated.

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Goya makes some really spicy ginger beer. I love it.

>>9127462
It sucks, though. It really sucks. I'm down to having zero friends in the state, and it just sucks. I used to at least get out of the house a couple times a week, even if I was just getting drunk and being made the butt of jokes. Now I just sit around and wait for shit to happen. I drive to therapy twice a month and then just come back home because I'm broke.

Haha cant even sleep without stuffing my face with painkillers.

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>>9129817
Are there enough to share? I could really use some to calm me down but I'm all out.

>>9129817
I know that feel. I had a week where I couldn't calm down enough to sleep without smoking a bowl. It was like I was just halfway into a panic attack all the fucking time.

>>9129837
Got like 4 left, you can get two.

>>9129886
Thank you. Want a pet? I can get a lot of animals

hello

>>9129941
'sup.

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>>9129941
Hi, want to cuddle?

>>9129896
Sure man, i want something to pet and sleep with.

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>>9130012
I've got 2 dogs, 2 kangaroos and I used to have a cat. None of them are good for sleeping with though.

>>9129951
You're kind of a slut, aren't you, anon?

>>9130043
That implies I have people in real life to be a slut to. I'm a cyber-slut.

>>9129678
that sucks man.
i really don't know what to say. if i were you i'd probably try to make new friends.

>>9130035
A dog is better than nothing.

>>9130052
Well, you know, that's cool. I am too.
Though I'll chomp a cock in meatspace, too.

>>9130074
Great, now I'm thinking about chomping cock and have to fap. Thanks anon.

>>9130089
Would you like some help~?

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>>9129951
>>9130043
>>9130052
>>9130055
>>9130063
>>9130074
>>9130089
>>9130113

>>9130113
...But I've got a boyfriend.

>>9130188
He doesn't have to know. After all, I'm just a cyber-slut; for all you know, I'm just a kinky little chatbot.

>>9130188
gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay

>>9130198
What kinda things are you into?

>>9130202
I prefer faggot.

>>9130035
>really_makes_you_think_opossum_edition.jpg

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god im in so much pain

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Hah haa.

Good morning, opossums. Checking in to say hello. Hoping everything is going well.

Been feeling strange, lately. In a good, or good-ish way, I suppose. Moderately positive. To the point that I've actually been working up the attempt at a drive to write something. Maybe some greentext for some thread or something. Hah. Why not, right?

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>>9131538
Good morning anon.
I feel proud of myself, this is the first time I've been able to wake up in the morning in a while.
I feel really lonely right now though, not mentally lonely, but like physically lonely. I really need a hug or something along those lines.

>>9132552
I know, right? It's like "Yay! I'm up! Now what?"

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whats your motivation in life?
since about last week the things i enjoyed are still somewhat fun, but thats not enough for me to be a will to live i guess.How can i counteract that? it just doensnt feel worthwile for me, nothing i want to achieve, just things to do along the way.

>>9134273
The only thing that has ever really "helped" me with that is distraction. Either playing games with friends or just consuming media. (as if those aren't both the same thing)

What is the point of these threads

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>>9136029
Place to vent/be depressed/chat with other nerds about life. Occasionally people ask for advice about whatever.

>>9132552
I can understand this, actually. We as a species actually need physical contact, in some way or another; hugs are actually something of a physical requirement for us. Without physical interaction, it's been shown our mental, emotional and even physiological health starts to suffer.

On the other hand, speaking from a purely personal point of view, I have reasons why hugging - any contact, really - is a very difficult thing for me. Otherwise, were it possible (and feasible), I'd offer you a hug, anon. Because you seem nice.

i'm not really sure what i'm thinking of but someone should make a simplified maslow's hierarchy. like "maybe x is why you don't feel good! check up on yr body's needs/yrself"

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>>9137001
fill your daily social needs by talking to peeps on discord, feels great man.

>>9137914
On the one hand, this sounds like a very good idea. Basic solutions for basic problems would be very helpful. Things like drinking more water when you feel tired all the time, and things like that.

Problem I can see is, a lot of the issues we here seem to have are ones that appear to stem from lack of connection, and lack of positive connections. Kind of hard to tell someone 'get a hug' or 'go visit a friend' to raise their oxytocin levels when social anxiety or horrible family/friend conditions limit those options.

Hmm. Something to think about, I think.

>>9138109
Hmm. Not currently on the discord. Might consider checking it out, just to see what all the fuss is about.

Morning thread, another soul crushing day in the life of me.

>>9139843
Morning Anon, maybe today will be better

>>9138370
isn't that like the upper levels or w/e, like personal security, having a real support structure with people who aren't demons, internal esteem and confidence

idk my brief idea sounded good before it left my brain. like i feel like it's easier to think about "are my acquaintances poisonous or is it my mental block or inability to feel good about myself" rather than "do i have people i can talk to on a basis, am i ruining my body, am i on top of my own shit"
idk idk i'm just thinking about this for myself maybe.

>>9140204
It's easy to say that this should be your last sort of steps to being happy, but keep in mind that safety is right there on that bottom level and human brains treat social and psychological threats as physical threats. You can live a cushy life, but if you can't get food without the possibility of interacting with someone that makes you feel like shit, that bottom level has been broken.
And that's what a lot of people here deal with. Living with people who shame us or belittle us with no one to turn to who can make us feel safe again.

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>>9140204
Right, this thing.

>>9140848
Heh. Hadn't seen that particular edit before. Nice to know porn is more important than my self-esteem, though. Guess that means it's okay for me to go back to writing kobold smut and hating myself for it.

>>9141036
If people like it, you're doing good shit. I know it's easier said than done, but you shouldn't hate yourself for delivering quality product.

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Goodnight opossums

>>9141417
Good night, don't let the bedbugs bite. Or do, I can't tell you what to do.

>>9141417
Sleep tight, no bedbugs, all that.

what's it called when you secretly feel like any sincerity or affection shown towards you is feigned or some sort of ploy so now you can't relate to people in reality because you're constantly in a mind game with yourself about intentions and how you're supposed to react

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>>9143525
I don't know but I sincerely like you anon.

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>>9141211
I...know I should be okay with my writing.
I know it's all in my head, or rather, -not- in my head. Or something.

Fuck, I don't know.

and after rewriting this post six times, I still don't know. Fucking hell, I hate myself, and I hate hating myself.

Fuck it. Enough lurking tonight. And as expected, did fuck-all writing. Night, opossums. Be better.

>>9141036
Dude. I made the edit as a joke, but it does apply.
Like >>9141211 said, let the fact you do something you enjoy doing and others enjoy consuming be a basis for the higher level: esteem. We could nitpick details all we want as to what qualifies as a 'valid' thing to feel proud of or enjoy doing, but that's a dreadful game that completely misses the point.

>>9143525
It's called paranoia. Specifically, this sounds like paranoia rooted in believing yourself unworthy of any sort of praise.

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>>9143634
Goodnight man, try not to be so hard on yourself.

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Daily reminder to stay awesome, /trash/cats.

>>9143525
Fuck, man, I know how that is. Doesn't help that I know for sure that a couple of people in my life are doing it.

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>>9143625
that's not how this workss

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>>9144098
I love you anon. Marry me.

i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i want to die.

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>>9144118

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>>9144175
What american states allow gay marriage?

Do you want to wear the dress?

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>>9129837
Haha I hate myself

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>>9144240
Nigga, they all do

>>9144240
mine and sure

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>>9144330
Huh, didn't know that. My country still doesn't have it anywhere.

>>9144344
[spoiler]Can we both wear a dress?[/spoiler]

>>9144366
You should both wear kilts instead

>>9144366
Everyone attending should wear a dress.

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>>9144391
Traditionally I think you aren't allowed to wear anything under a kilt, I wouldn't want anyone to see my husband indecent.

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>>9144434
This is an idea I can support, guess I won't invite my family to the wedding though.

>>9144500
good call, ditto. i can fake my death beforehand.

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>>9144654
Will we live in a little cabin in the woods happily ever after?

Also everyone in this thread's invited to the wedding.

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I needed to hear this today. It didn't really make me feel like much less of a fuck up, but it made me a little more forgiving of myself for it.
https://youtu.be/eqhUHyVpAwE

>>9145872
I really found this interesting. Thanks, anon.

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>>9144391
Fellow Scotfag?

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>>9148179
Is your country as depressing and boring as I think it is?

Do you throw wood around?

Can you play bagpipes?

I have so many questions.

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>>9144686
Nice, will there be an open bar?

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I farted and it smelled like roasted carrots.

haha i'm actually pretty impressed with myself

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>>9148801
No, but there will be a ritual mass suicide at midnight for anyone interested.

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>>9149465
Are we going to the comet?

>>9149465
Where do i register?

>>9148179
Only by way of clan affiliation. I've never actually been on that side of the Atlantic.

>>9149465
Can we have a sad cuddle pile instead?
I'm afraid I'll mess it up and just end up with brain damage and condescending sympathy...

>>9149547
>>9149883

Sorry guys, think >>9150030 idea might be better. Plus human contact would be nice.

>>9150034
this desu, i haven't had a hug in years

>>9150034
Cant we do both?
All of us combined together would probably amount to one decent person, so i think it would work out.

>>9150085
Are we basing that on combining good traits or just hoping that the percentage of good person adds up to not shit?

trash festival
everyone's drunk
no one's happy

Had a nice dream that i found a bunch of cartridges of painkillers, how pleasant.

>>9150202
Percentages would be more realistic.
Also what about a powerrangers-esque show where everyone has one special (normal human being's) ability and their leader is a tardwrangler.

>>9150403
I was actually thinking about a Megazord but the individual zords are all trash animals.

>>9150519
Heh. This is making the fa/tg/uy in me start to have ideas.

Also, g'morning, thread. How the fuck is everyone doing today?

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First 10 people to join this discord and PM @drgu with the game you want gets a free game.

Can't be more than $60 and must be on steam.,./

https://discord.gg/qMV8CzQ

>>9150712
Not interested in the Steam game, and the name of the group is kind of throwing me a bit.

Is this supposed to be the thread's group, or just something put up on its own?
Hell, do we even have a Discord, and is it worth bothering with?

>>9150842
We have one, I don't personally use it because I hate being recognised but I've heard decent things.

I don't know if that's it, could likely be a guy just posting it everywhere because being willing to spend up to $600 on a whim seems unlikely for people here.

>>9150923
Heh. Small and simple heists are often some of the most entertaining and enjoyable. Especially when they're just kind of 'fuck it, why not' sort of things.

>>9150634
>>9150923
Huh, interesting to know there's other fa/tg/uys here. Maybe something about longing for social contact makes one attracted to the most social games possible.

Though I'm more of into the card side of things because all the times I played ttrpgs were with people who no longer talk to me.

>>9150956
I'm not much of an elegan/tg/eltleman myself but I do play a couple CCGs and Everyone Is John...
You're probably right about the social contact thing.

>>9150978
Personally I'm an pretty big MtG player, couple of board games and only played ttrpgs a handful of times but I enjoy running simulations of combat, making characters and reading about new systems.

The sad part is I spend 4+ hours a day talking about systems I've never played but memorised the rules for.

Also the only person I've got to play MtG with anymore is my 11 y/o sister. There's a game store kinda nearby but I don't think I could actually go to one.

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I've got a question for any gay possums.

Do you ever feel sad that you won't be able to have a kid? Part of me wishes I could have one but I know I won't ever be able to and it makes me kind of sad.

I already spent years telling my mother that I wasn't ever going to have any just so she's not to upset about that if she finds out I'm gay, feels bad to lie though even if we're not really close.

Also 100th image in the thread. Check it.

When's that wicked new thread
>>9151294
I personally don't feel too bad about it because I despise children. However, anon, you could always get a surrogate mother or adopt.

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>>9151294
I dont really like children anyways, so its fine by me.

>>9151472
But it wouldn't be mine and my lovers kid. Wouldn't feel the same.

>>9151514
I don't think I like kids, but I want my own. I guess.

Also because I know no one else will.
>>9151532