haha i hate myself

How long can you go with not talking to anyone before you go crazy

>>7926342
i wouldn't want to find out

>>7926282

perhaps depression is just a form of some kind of, enhanced awareness

everything sucks, you'll die and wither away, you won't be on the timeline anymore, you never mattered. so why continue?

>>7926282
Get to work
Fix yourself

>>7926504
dont think its gonna happen

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>>7926504
It's hard finding a job and I'm fucking lazy.

>>7926549
You can't say it's impossible though

>>7926569
Nah it's not. That's why I'm working on it, putting out resumes, job interviews and everything.

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>>7926504

>>7926285
>haha back from work just in time to start yet another thread

l a d

>>7926577

refresh my mind on why finding a stable job is so hard these days

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>>7926597
I don't know really. For me it's because I have zero qualifications.

>>7926606

hm, for me it's because my town is fairly small, not many places are hiring, and that's about it i guess

good luck finding yourself a job though, you'll find one eventually, just remember that

>>7926549
same here famalam
I've sent around 20 applications but only 3 companies have interviewed me but they were all searching for someone with experience.
If I don't get a job by Friday, I'll apply to uni again.

how do i stop biting my nails
i dont stress over anything, its just a thing i cant quit doing

>>7928314
Develop another habit, like smoking

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>>7928357
smoking costs monies that i dont have
biting nails is free and gross

>>7928521
When i lost my nailbiting , i instead developed lipbiting. Now my Lip looks like shit.

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Opiates are fun

Someone i like came to visit

My arm still hurts

How are you people

>>7928615
Doing good. Any idea how long until your arm will be better man?

>>7926282
Haha I hate myself.
I can't figure out how to be happy or what I want to do with my life. I want to kill myself every morning.

Also I've accepted that love will not be an option in my life but I still get covetous of relationships.

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>>7928687
Doc said at least half a year if i can't get a skin transplant, and another half year till i can feel something again

>>7928718
Oh my god. I'm so sorry to hear that. I guess this is a good lesson for people though. Shame you had to be the example.

>>7928754
Shit happens mate, i'm getting used to it

The best thing about this is the painkillers

I can't feel my arm anyways so i'm just stashing them

>>7928848
Sneaky and fun. Do be careful though because I know a lot of people who ended up hooked on them, opiate addiction's not an easy thing to get over.

How much longer are they going to keep you in the hospital?

>>7928869
I'll be careful

I dunno, they said they'll keep me there till i can move it again

Also the op is on satirday
I'm kinda nervous

>>7928889
all the best, anon. your arm is in my heart. or something

>>7930553
Awe thank you

What are my possums up to

>>7926342
Depends on what you mean by talking to someone. The longest I've gone with no communication with anyone has been like 2 weeks, and the longest I've gone text-only has been around a month, maybe a month and a half.

>>7928615
I missed a few threads. How did you arm get fucked up?

Question for all the gay guys that show up in these threads:

How do I find a boyfriend?

>>7930781
hospitalanon lost consciousness while working in a lathe and his arm ended up getting flayed a bit by it

they also found a pretty big (but from what i gleaned, thankfully benign) stomach tumor on him which caused him to go unconscious due to malnutrition

>>7930781
>>7930904
Basically this^

The thing on my stomach is a cyst that filled itself with food scraps and water, which then stopped me from getting hungry which then lead to me passing out at my lathe

I had a visit from a girl today

Hah haa. Hey opossums.

So, I had a fun day today. Went to see a neurologist a while back about my nerves, as in the weird numbness and tingling I keep getting all the time at random unpredictable intervals. He scheduled me for what's called an EMG, which I had today.

Basically, I just got back from being zapped by electrodes and stabbed by needles. That were also electrified.

Hah haa. Fffuck I hurt. But apparently, I don't actually have neuropathy, which is a good thing? Instead, I've got..? Well, they don't know. Could be migraine related, could be early onset arthritis, could be stress induced, could be all three. They don't know. Hah haa.

Did you know that a needle inserted in your lower spine and then run through with a low current of electricity can be felt all the way to your shoulders and toes, and can trigger a migraine spike? Haa hah. Interesting fact, isn't it.

Work is going to be fun tonight, I can already tell. Nine hours of patrolling an uneven casino floor, with who knows what sorts of shenanigans those loveable meth addicts can get themselves into tonight. Hah haa.

Son of a bitch.

>>7931116
Jesus fucking christ, man. I really shouldn't complain about anything compared to you. Get some painkillers, try to do shit when you get home that will relax yourself. Seriously, try meditating. Disregarding everything woo woo about it, it's good to relax yourself and clear your head.

>>7931116
>meth addicts

damn i forgot to mention there was this guy who got fugged by fentanyl laced heroin in my store

man people here need to fucking pick a better substance to abuse

I got a medical pacifier prescribed for my stress related teeth grinding a while back. That's something.
Starting to show signs on depression again, but it might just be an excuse for me being a lazy faggot.

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Stress keeps giving me these chest pains and un-explainable nausea and crazy shakes. How does anyone deal with real problems, I can't even deal with just myself.

>>7931116
So is it true that cheap Casinos are the most depressing businesses in the world?

>>7931208
Most druggies i see around here are usually high on heroin. They used to sleep on benches near a pond not far away from my apartment but the city "tidied" it up.

>>7931211
Hey, it's way better using that than substances to make you sleep at least.

>>7931628
Not sure if I'd call it the MOST depressing in the world...hell, I can imagine a few more that are probably worse. Geriatric cancer insurance assessor? Pediatric hospice worker? Those scientists studying that one whale whose song is inaudible to other whales, so lives completely alone?

But yeah, ir's pretty depressing to watch these poor pieces of shit self-destruct like this. Especially when they actually hit big - like, five, six thousand dollars, and out it all back in over the next six hours, and walk out broke.

haha

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posted it in scaly, but here you all go. Punk Kobold I commished.

>>7934656
I love Kobolds and punk. You have good taste.

>>7934656
>>7934694
Agreed. Very nice.

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Fuck, I found out I blacked out last time I got drunk and was really mean to a good friend of mine.
I didn't even know I blacked out, I thought I only saw him for like 10 seconds before walking away, I didn't know I was there for several minutes. I thought that the blacking out started when I first began vomiting from the gin.
I feel really bad about this, I don't have a ton of friends and he's been staying a bit away from me recently. I need to apologize to him.
I'm never drinking gin again, something bad always happens when I drink gin.

>>7935748
Why don't you drink some gin to make yourself feel better :^)

ha ha I hate myself

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>discussing thing in a Habits thread
>remember something about that I created that took a lot of work
>put it together in a nice text wall
>make a thread in one board, post it in the relevant thread in another
>hope someone likes and notices
>thread 1 dies without a single reply
>thread 2 goes on without my posts being noticed
I just wanted to give back something to the inerwebz
pic related.

>>7938867
The thing about this website is sometimes you say something so well nobody has anything else to add or discuss.

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>second semester of fifth year at university
>don't usually check email frequently because anything important should be announced in advance
>have to do 2 group activities to pass this half-semester course I'm in
>first one is at an exactly scheduled time and place that we know from the first day of the semester and goes off without a hitch
>second one is entirely up to us to arrange with a faculty member at a time that has to work for them
>they finally email us last Tuesday, a week and a half before the course ends, telling us who we have to work with and where we have to go
>tell us to pick a time to meet in the following week by Friday at midnight
>see the email at 11:59 Friday night, respond with my schedule at 12:05, feel a little bad but that's probably good enough for them to figure out a solution on Saturday
>check email again Saturday, Sunday, and Monday morning; no responses from them
>check again this evening after I get home
>Monday evening they announced we'd meet today at 4:00

>>7941203
>not checking at least every morning

At least it's only a half-semester class, right? You still have the credits to graduate?

C'mon thread. Don't die yet.

>>7928357
>>7928521
>going from a pack every two weeks when i started two months ago to a pack every three days
expensive af - maybe i'll start buying rollies

>>7944465
Rollies are much cheaper and taste better. It's a pretty good idea but actually rolling them's a bitch.

I was smoking for a bit over a year but I stopped about a week ago. Swear I never had a craving for it even though I enjoy it.

>>7932550
Mother. Fucker.

Guess who forgot it was gonna be the first of the month tonight? Hah haa.

If you don't get why that's something to laugh about, remember what gets sent out every first and fifteenth. These fucking tweakers got themselves some money on them tonight. Hah. Haa. So they're ALL in here tonight. Every last one of them. Hah. Haa.

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>>7944527
the only problem with the switch is i generally only smoke really early in the morning or at night during walks since my uni is entirely no smoking and i cant smoke on the train there neither so rolling a whole bunch and keeping them in my pocket while i walk would suck

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>when all the NCOs on shift are gone and 7 aircraft need to be prepped for launch/inspections
spoiler alert: 7 aircraft didn't fly that day

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>Itt angsty teenagers and 20-somethings feeling sorry for themselves and blaming the world for their own fuck ups who haven't grown up yet and expect everything handed out to them
Even Clem, an imaginary comic character, does better than all of you and she doesn't constantly bitch and moan. You guys must be fun to hang around with... Oh wait.

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>>7945838

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Fuck it, i'm gonna work out now. They say that your body can create more seratonin and equal out the chemical balance which should help against being angsty and depressed. Also figured that if i am tired at night, i will fall asleep better.
Going for the work out routine by Single Hit Guy. And no, i will not do the whole thing and not every day, but i will try until i am able to actually do 100 situps, 100 squats, 100 pushups and run 10km. My skinny faggot ass can barely do 20 of them so i will set a realistic goal of managing to do the whole routine at some point.
/fit/ blogging, out. Let's fucking do this.

>>7943239
I think so? Even then, I'd still prefer not to have 2 months of individual work thrown out over something like this.

If I don't, I might as well kill myself.

>>7945963
Managed almost half of the routine. It felt great, you should try it.

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>>7946938
Can't
I'm stuck to a hospital bed

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>>7945963
That's great, go for it, and rest of you in here also should try some workout - it really can make you overall feel better and less depressed.

But if your 'faggot ass' can already do 20 push ups in a row, you might be doing them wrong.
Also maybe take a look at some of the 'Hundred Pushups' challenges websites for routine

>>7947636
Got you covered. Used to go to the gym 4-5 days a week at one point. But the metabolism of a greek and god and depressed for two years made me look like a skellyman.
I've had enough and must better myself. No more excuses.

hey
someone likes me and i like them back but i have the social ability of a well cooked lobster
what do

>>7948165
If they already like you then they won't care about you being a bit socially awkward.

Gay?

>>7948218
bifag i guess
idk man they keep giving me their discord and im way too awkward like
how the fuck do you talk to people

>>7948732
>discord
Who the fuck gives people discords? The only people I've ever seen use discords, or hell, even mention them in a non-disparaging manner are tripfags.

>>7948762
its fucking the pokemon rp thread man
discord is their main communication shit
kill me

>>7949097
Why would you want to talk to someone that autistic anyways?

Not worth it, will only end in a horrible storm of autism.

>>7949131
idk they just linked it here in the thread
time to kms

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>>7949131
Hey.
It's actually really nice in there, and the main reason I've stopped lurking these threads and feeling like a worthless piece of shit.

Even though I am, haha hate self etc.

>>7949195
Honestly just hop in and lurk, check everyone out, maybe say something after a while.
Worked for me, and I hadn't spoken to anyone but two people I'd known for half my life till that point.
Now after a couple months I'm at least fairly comfortable talking to everyone in there.

>>7949322
>It's actually really nice in there,
>pokemon rp discord

That's pure autism and you know it.

>>7926342

The rule of 3 seems applicable here.

3 seconds without hope or the will to survive.
3 minutes without air, or in freezing water
3 hours without shelter or clothing
3 days without without water
3 weeks without food
3 months without any human contact.

>>7949552
What's the matter, can't handle autism?
>Drinks autism by the gallon
>Gets an Autism IV
>"I can leave it any time" he says as he takes another hit of the most autistic RP on /trash/

>>7949552
I mean yeah there's a couple autismos in there, but most of them are actually pretty decent folk.
Which is surprising, considering this is 4chan.

>>7938952
Thanks, dood.

>>7949612
I honestly keked -hard.

>>7949322
thanks bones
being stalked really helps my anxiety

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>>7949677
Rando anon sent me over, sorry dude.
Just trying to help a little.

>>7949734
well look at it this way
im getting good at the anon guessing game
5 points to me

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>>7949863
I'll give you a solid 10 points for that, considering we haven't really spoken.
But yeah, sorry bout coming over and shit.
Figured I could at least not totally shit things up.

>>7949976
i was gonna say you were either jirachi or bones
but ive seen jirachi talk ooc so i figured id take a shot in the dark
anyway im gonna stop shitting this thread up and go rp
so like
cya tell jirachi i said hes gay or something

>>7950004
>Shots fired

>>7950004
The deed has been done.
Have fun yo.

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sleep tight, thread. have a bump

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>>7952016
Good night anon.
Sleep well.

>>7930793
Find a friend

Fuck that friend

Do this regularly and you are boyfriends.

>>7952491
>Find a friend

How do I do that? I am a bad worthless person that no one would ever be friends with.

>>7949322
>>7952030
>someone reposts my shitscribbles
feels good man
make a request so I have something draw
but now it's europoor bedtime now so I won't be starting until tomorrow

>>7952802
Draw Douglas. He's a qt.

>>7952802
Seconding >>7953015

Draw him marrying Kyle. They're meant to be together.

>>7954539
This got me thinking. I don't know if I could ever actually get married to a guy, I like the idea of it but it seems very. I don't know, binding? Like even if it went to hell I'd be stuck.

>>7954619
Marriage isn't for everyone. You have to commit to, answer to, and think on the other person before you do anything stupid.

t. marriedfag

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>>7954619
I would love to marry a guy.

Too bad I'm terrible person that nobody could ever love.

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greetings, possums. Did some terrible sketches yesterday. Which one do you think I should ink? Sorry for the shitty resolution

>>7957300
Meme party or the one with Douglas.

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haha i hate OC

>>7926504
Having a job will only depress you more, and even a job on something you "like" will eventually turn into a chore.

>>7947636
can confirm it helps. Also much easier to get into with the right music.

shouldn't do just pushups though, mix it up with planks and stuff

>>7957300
this is decent art

>>7957300
I'm hetero for that Clem

>>7958703
Why are these threads so gay?

>>7958728
Cuz we like 10th page

>>7958728
more like
why are you so gay

>>7958728
2 reasons
homosexuality is much more common among the less desirable males
theres also something about gayness being a solution to loneliness because all men are dtf

>>7960603
>less desirable males
Dispose of me daddy uwu :^)

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>>7945838
jonasgoonface is rad af.

>>7957300
Sexualize the Clem.

Yo how does one rid o' stress? Like the stress gained over irl shit and Rp shit?
I'm try'en 2 manage multiple things at once and it's just fuckin me right up

>>7962071
>Being so happy
Disgusting.

>>7962796
why not be happy?
everyone is headed for death might as well enjoy the insane adventures of life

>>7954619
marriage is too much of a commitment for me. i feel that i cant trust anyone enough to spend the rest of my life with them, no matter how rich or hot they may be

>>7962747
Every day at the same time, reserve a short period of time just to meditate/pray/relax. It doesn't matter what you do, but absolutely do it consistently.

As for the stuff? Write out and prioritize tasks, then do some easy ones first before chipping away at hard ones.

>>7963484
>marriage
>caring about how rich or hot they may be
>thinking that how rich or hot they may be affects how much you can trust them

Well you certainly don't deserve to be loved by anyone.

>>7957300
douglas and alan look fucking brilliant, amazing job
>>7962747
define "rp shit", im genuinely curious

>>7963515
y'know, seeing my best friend almost get hit by a truck, my parents house being broken into and them being robbed, makes me feel a lot better knowing i can come home, feel like killing myself because i want a day that doesnt make me feel guilty to be alive and just put my thoughts forward to someone who believes i dont deserve to be happy
i genuinely thank you, i need more honest people in my life

ha

>>7963696
Seriously, why would how attractive your spouse is affect how much you trust them?

Also, would they be male or female?

>>7963748
it doesnt matter
it doesnt fucking matter

its gotten to the point where im scared to even think about myself
i dont want to hate myself, i dont want everyone i speak to telling me that my emotions make me a monster, i dont want to be scared of speaking my mind, i dont want to shift away from groups of friends for being myself
i dont want to have to buy my way out of depression and keep myself distracted for another week, another month, i dont want everything i do to make people angry
i dont want to think
i dont want to be myself

>>7963696
Less whining, more "doing something about it", be it rethinking your life choices or actually offing yourself.

>>7963851
Maybe if you made some effort to change or took their advice into consideration people wouldn't shit on you so much?

Then again, maybe you're just being a stupid autist by considering anything that doesn't 100% praise your stupid ideas as "telling me that my emotions make me a monster"

If everyone around you is telling you that what you're thinking or feeling is wrong, then maybe they're right and should take their advice.

>>7963897
>>7963946
its so easy isnt it

fine, ill leave, nobody wanted me here anyhow
this is what i get for trying to understand i guess

>>7964011
Well, I suppose
>>7963946
>maybe you're just being a stupid autist by considering anything that doesn't 100% praise your stupid ideas as "telling me that my emotions make me a monster"

was right.

Good riddance to bad rubbish.

>>7964011
>this is what i get for trying to understand i guess

No, we're telling you that the behavior you're displaying is what's wrong.

Instead of thinking that we hate you, consider the possibility that we don't hate you, we just want you to change the way you think about things.

We're all fucked up in here. Be introspective, think about your self with an honest, critical perspective and figure out why you feel what you feel and how to change things for the better.

>>7963946 was constructive criticism. Not criticism meant to hurt your feelings or to tell you to go away.

>>7963525
Events, characters, plots, etc. Real stressful when you got irl gettin in the way

>>7963489
I'll try thi, it's just really hard to organize stuff when real life just won't stop biting my ass

>>7957500
doing meme party right now, good sir
>>7958165
o you make me blush safadgfkuj
>>7958703
thanks, brah
>>7963484
saadly, agree with you in my minimun experience. When I broke up with my first gf, I just could stop thinking wheter or not is possible to get to know 100% to another person or trust them. still bug me till today

sorry for the broken ingrish u-U

>>7964433
>When I broke up with my first gf, I just could stop thinking wheter or not is possible to get to know 100% to another person or trust them. still bug me till today
>gf
>female

Well there's your problem.

Men > Women.

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>>7966078
me too man me too

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>>7964645
Is not true in all cases

The girl i've been talking to slept in the hospital waiting room because the docs told her she couldn't come see me yet

I like her i really do

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>>7966736
You've got a good one, anon.

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>>7967324
Every big accident has its silver lining i guess

I'm nervous because of the operation soon

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Parents refuse to leave me in the house alone around my younger siblings because I'm a bad influence. So I get locked out of the fucking thing while they're out of town.

>>7967745
They're right.

You post here. That's all the evidence needed.

i don't fit in anywhere

>>7967745
that sucks, do you have anywhere to go when you're locked out?

>>7968704
Nope, of course not. So I'm sitting out the front for 4-5 hours. At least I can connect to the internet.

>>7963851
Autism is a scary drug
Might as well off yourself or stop being an insufferable cunt

>>7964645
>Knowing that faggots are the worst type of women
>Get caught up in unnecessary drama
>Being a fucking attention whore because of dipshits like you giving them so much attention
Yeah, no. Men are just as bad as women, even worse sometimes.

>>7969500
Sorry that a guy broke your heart.

Not all us gay guys are like the guy who hurt you.

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>>7953015
one upon a time Douglas heard the saying "know a man by the company he keeps"
After one quick look at Clem, Kyle and Bennett he knew what had to be done

>>7970077
>After one quick look at Kylet he knew he was in love

Fixed.

I should have slept last night. Haha I hate my self.

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>>7972959
Ditto. Went to bed at 7 a.m., woke up at 9:30, been in a deathlike state all day long.

>>7973165
Pretty much same times for me. Only woke up because my family woke me up, doesn't help that I've got a cold right now. I always forget how not sleeping puts me in a comatose state for the next day.

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>>7958703
always hetero for her

Videogames were supposed to be an escape, but all they cause me is pain. Drawing and writing make me feel the same.
How did I fall so deep into my own self loathing I scrutinize myself over my recreational activities?

Thinking about it makes my head hurt so much.

hahaha

>>7976010
Go to "work" everyday. Treat a 9-5 schedule as a period of mandatory self-improvement, even if you're not employed. Total 24h escapism leads to very bad times, at least in my experience.

>>7978293
Actually this isn't a bad idea. I'd try it but I'm lazy

heh

>>7967745
breakout, dude. What's the worst thing could happen?

ha

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I should be doing something with all of the shit I have pending.
Learning to type, translating the motherfucking novel of whose 49k words I have translated but 3,500, either draw/finish/color the sprites for my OELVN or code some more into it, and I can't force myself to move my lazy ass. I just want to sleep, hopefully forever.
haha you know the drill

>>7981789
Link to that test, please?

>>7981971
I did them aeons ago and I can't find the links, sorry.

>>7982017
It's cool, turns out it's pretty easy to find with help of Google®©

http://www.depressedtest.com/

>>7981971
>>7982017

I thought I recognized it! They've changed it a bit since last time I took it, which must have been almost a decade ago. It at least does the stuff on the right.

http://www.4degreez.com/misc/personality_disorder_test.mv

>>7981789
online tests are borked
everyone thinks they're depressed, paranoid etc
don't give in to the fear

i hate living

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>>7983439
Me too.

>>7983710
Hah. Haa.

Hey opossums. How's everything today.

Not doing all that hot on my end, to be honest. I'm about seventy, eighty percent sure the depression is kicking back into high gear again like it loves to do sometimes. Doesn't actually help that much to realize exactly what's going on. 'Oh, hey, yeah, this is just a chemical imbalance due to side-effects of yadda yadda'. Great, so now I KNOW that I'm fucked up, and feel like shit and hate myself BECAUSE I'm fucked up. Great.

So anyway. Let me tell you a little story. Just for funsies.

So there's this man, let's call him Bossman, because he's the Boss and all. He drives into work on a regular basis, like anyone with a 9-to-5 would do. One night, he's pulling into the parking lot at work, like normal, and like normal around this time of year, it's getting to be cold as balls in the wee hours of the night when he hits asphalt.

Now, when he pulls in on this particular night, he happens to glance at the truck parked right in front of him, and sees two small heads duck down behind the driver's and passenger's seats. This, this is not good. Because small heads are attached to small bodies. A four year old and nine year old small body, in fact. Who are both very cold and very scared, because Momma and Papa Shitbag are inside the casino gambling away the rent and grocery money, and have been for the past few hours.

Long and short of it, Momma and Papa Shitbag went to County in cuffs, Grandpa came to collect the kids, and the Boss didn't start his night off all that well. Which meant the rest of us were not very happy either with these...people that we deal with.

Fucking. Breeders.
There is a difference, a major and important one, between a parent and a breeder. This place, this city, at least the parts I keep seeing on a daily basis in and out of work...has very few parents.
As a married anon who...cannot have children, and whose situation makes adopting difficult, this bothers me. A lot.

Anyway. Rant over.

>>7984399
Gay?

I am too. At least you've got a spouse.

>>7985198
Bi, actually. And married to a woman. Just...not able to have children. Because why the fuck should someone who loves kids and has strong family values actually have the opportunity to pass on his lineage, right.

why am I so tired all the time

>>7985534
Symptom of depression

>>7985534
How much water do you drink?

Serious question. Dehydration can have a major effect on both exhaustion and depression levels. It's definitely not a miracle fix-all, but it might go a surprising way towards helping you feel a little less tired.

Other than that, well...naturally, stress and anxiety wear us out too, as does sadness, depression and general malaise, and if you're in this thread, well.

Increasing your daily dose of sunlight might help too. Personally, I hate being out in the sun for too long, but I've also found that I do actually feel a little better on the days when I go outside for a while.

>>7985994
thanks for the advice, water does help

>>7985534
Do you get exercise

>>7985994
>"Depression doesn't exist, drink more water"
>"Gee, dad, you're the worst parent ever and the cause of all my psychological issues, but you give the best advice"
> drink a fuck ton of water
> overhydrate
> almost same symptoms of dehydration
> still "depressed"
> quote marks because depression isn't real, dad's a nurse with a college degree, he surely knows best

>>7988159
Never fucking said depression isn-- wait. You're quoting someone else, aren't you. Right, ne'er mind, rant cancelled.

But yeah. Proper hydration isn't a miracle cure. It's just good for you, and helps with keeping an already shitty situation from being even shittier because of additional issues that come with dehydration.

It's like how everyone says to get a proper amount of sleep. It won't make you stop hurting or feel better, but being exhausted will make you feel worse. Or that's howit is for me, at least. I still generally fucking hate myself on the bad days no matter how much or how little sleep I get, or how much or little water, food, sunlight, exercise I get. I just feel even shittier the less of these things I force myself to get, because my body's physically hurting while my mind's mentally shitting the floor and lighting the mattress on fire again.

Huh. Guess I ranted anyway. Sorry, I suppose.

>>7988352
Thanks for the advice

>>7984868
<3

>picked the easiest possible class i can take in uni
>still failing because i don't understand elementary algebra
>friends and roommates think i'm in calculus
haah

>>7990070
its ok anon math isnt important anyway

>>7990984
>math
>unimportant
how dare you

Every once in a while I think about how none of my fantasies or fetishes are really things that can exist in reality, and that gets me a little bummed out.

Then I think about the fact that I have those fantasies at all and realize there's probably a real good reason why I'm gonna die alone.

>>7992789
Give an example of some. I've got a lot of fantasies that can't work out but I still day dream about and all my fetishes are possible and I even talk with a guy with pretty much all the same ones.

>>7985534
Maybe get your bloodlevels checked, if you can. Sleepyness and apathy are also symptons of a misfunctioning thyroid.

>>7992789
>Inb4 it's vore

>>7992789
iktf

at least it's not too uncommon that there isn't a decently sized amount of porn pertaining to it though

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>>7992789
>inb4 it's gore

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Tummy operation today

Wish me luck boys

>>7993841
Good luck man. Should all go smooth.

>>7993841
REMOVE TUMOR

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>>7993856
I surely hope so

>>7993876
I hope i can remove kebab

Heh

Fucking weebs, REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
I wonder when mandarin bro will wake up.

these threads are hot trash
t. Regular in a Discord server you're in

i am slowly becoming more and more depressed with this new job. and people will bitch at me for not being friendly enough to customers.

>>7998458
i left my main discord recently
weebs were too elitist and also weebs for me

Sigh

I just had a shower and cut my taint shaving. Haha I wish I was dead.

>>8006320
why do you shave there? Do you at least have someone to appreciate it

>>8010133
I prefer no hair to any hair. Also I don't really have anyone to appreciate it yet, but it does make it feel cleaner.

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>>7946348
Small update, I think I passed. At least, I told them to contact me if there was any problem with my assignment submission and haven't heard back.

>>7998453
Am awake

I have more painkillers and a hueg scar on my tum

>>8013296
Is it a cool scar? You can say it was a crocodile.

>>8013329
Oo good idea

It's more like one cut of abou 10cm long and now it is closed with smal metal clamps

I wish i could take pics

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>>8013527
Yooo, you should, like, open yourself up maaaan, to the doctors, nurses, and people, ya know what i'm sayin' maaaaan

>>8015653
How bout noo

>When you wake up and have to piss really bad but a relative is visiting and sleeping in the room nearest the bathroom and you can't find your pants at 2am because you usually sleep naked
>So you piss in a 3/4 empty coke bottle and go back to sleep
>Then they come in your room the next morning and inquire wtf is in that bottle

>>8017173
I mean it was 2am, right? Why not just walk to the bathroom? They can't see you're not wearing clothing if they're not awake.

tfw your friend asks you if you're feeling alright and you say yes even though you both know it's bullshit

>>8018379
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F1xlVoMPTXg

sleep is overrated

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>>8022249
>>8022665
Stop. I'm haven't eaten in a while and this made me hungry.

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>>8022687
OM NOM NOM NOM NOM NOM NOM NOM NOM NOM NOM NOM NOM NOM NOM NOM NOM NOM NOM NOM NOM NOM NOM NOM NOM NOM NOM NOM NOM NOM NOM NOM NOM

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>>8022829
Please stop.

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>Got back from hospital a bit ago
>Reason
>I'm a fucking retard that why
>Shitty bipolar acts up and meds don't work for some reason
>Thing happens
>Next thing I know I fucked myself up badly
>Had to go to hospital to get it fixed
>Cause unnecessary drama
>Want to say that I'm alright and that I have returned
>Don't want to feel like an attention whore for it especially cause of earlier
>It hasn't been that long but I miss them
>I'm conflicted beyond belief
>Genuinely feel like an attention where for writing this
>That group is full of dense mother fuckers
>They'll find this and call me out for it
>I feel like shit for it
>one part of me wants them to find this
>The other doesn't
Tl; Dr
>I fucked up and want to fix a thing
>Don't want to be an attention whore about it
>I don't want them to worry either

Honestly I don't know what to do

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>>8025332
Get drunk? I'd get drunk.

>>8025748
alcohol and psych meds don't mix well

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i'm living comfortably trashy?

I worked a job for several years, and quit several months ago. I've been living off my savings, staying inside and smoking weed and playing video games. I sleep during the daytime and am up all night. It's fukken great. I can keep this up for another two months or so before I'll need another real job.

This is all my habits merch, from back when i had disposable income

>>8021421
Not at all sleep is the best

>>8028472
hey I'm living off savings too

>>8029891
no

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>>8028472
Cool stuff man.
I'm wondering, where do you live? Do you maybe keep somewhere spare keys to front or back doors, or maybe keep some windows open? Do you have a burglary insurance?

>Feel like absolute shit from yesterday
>What to talk about it with group that I know
>Promised to not bring up stuff like that again anywhere
>I don't want to Private/Directly message them about it, but I feel like I'll just cause more drama
>can't bring it up at all without being a problem
>tfw I'm just a problem to them

I should just off myself to keep them from going through the trouble? Cause I don't know what to do

>>8032757
You can always rely on the anonimity this hugbox of a thread provides.

>>8028472
I'm doing the same.

Except for the working prior and having savings.

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>>7981789

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>>8034631
Well that really lightened up my day.

hey haha so a good thing finally fucking happened

>>8035234
tell us more

>>8035279
so like a month ago I came in here because I was starting to fall in love with my friend, I'm such a fucking introvert that I'd never even talk about it with him though

anyway he ended up breaking up with his previous partner, I picked him up from downtown after they broke up and we just sat and watched movies in my room and what not.

so fast-forward like a month..

we went camping for a week, he ended up asking me if I was in love with him etc etc

tl;dr: I was sad because I was in love with my friend and his s/o was a fucking piece of shit but I'm dating him now and everything is ok

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>>8035452
camping sounds like fun. shame all my friends are shutin assholes like me
good on you and whatnot, hope you stay pals

haha

I am trash and my arm still hurts really bad

How are you people

>>8035518
Yeah I hate camping for some reason. Every time I go it's relaxing for like an hour or two. Then it's just boring for the rest of the time.
>>8036427
You're the dude who got fucked up by the lathe right? are you still in the hospital? Shit sounds horrible.

I'm okay, I've had a sort of productive day writing chiptune music and animation.

>>8037120
I'm pretty okay now i guess
Also yes i'm still inna hospital since i had an operation on my tummy on saturday

It coulda gone worse

Can i hear some music? :3

>>8037157
http://vocaroo.com/i/s1rbO7hnJLnz

It's a little long so vocaroo compressed the audio.
I don't know of a better site for uploading audio that doesn't need an account though.

>>8037157
have some uplifting garbage. get well soon
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=ZwOOxEHUDjo

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>>8037268
Ozzy a great, thankies :3
>>8037249
Ohh i like this

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Anyone missing childhood, even tho it somehow sucked more than what we have now?

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>>8038800
Nice dubs, and no.
My childhood is a dark, lonely and horrifying plae and I'd rather walk a haunted asylum ad mignight than turn my mind's eye to it.

lately i've been thinking of all the stupid shit i've said or done in the past few months how do i make it stop because every blunder makes me want to reach for my gun

>>8039188
Wish I had answers for that. Memories of my countless fuckups -and the consequences they had- still haunt me to this day. I just live with these flashbacks as I live with the flashbacks of past abuse.

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At first I was like "life's unfair and this land has no opportunities", but then i was like pic related.

When did you realize the problem was you, /trash/?

>>8039907
About this morning when I failed my last chance to get a job. I guess I'll keep going and just hope I die soon.

Though I had some doorknockers today and got a pamphlet, joining their crazy cult could be fun.

>>8039907
Once I realized the problem was me, I also found that the direct result of this was that I was the solution.

>>8039907
i'm relatively smart and have a decent job i'm just depressed and unable to feel any positive emotion.

Heh

Anyone else here have trouble keeping food down? If I eat more then once per day I can't seem to help vomiting.

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>>8039965
>realize a defective fuse is ruining the whole thing
>replace the fuse with a good one
>everything works A-OK
>apply this to your social circle and/or surroundings
>realize you are ruining the whole thing
>...

>>8039946
Eh, there's some really sketchy self-improvement groups and charities that are ultimately Multi-Level Marketing scams, so be careful with that.

>>8043014
Nah I'll leave as soon as they ask for money. I just want to go see some people.

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>>8043014
>tfw you drank the kool-aid during your early years
>tfw their bullshit is still embedded in your psyche

>>8043529
>>8043014
cults r bad

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>>7945187
what base yo?

Davis Monthan checking in
Also busy flightline

>>8042389
i sometimes can't distinguish hunger from nausea. I usually force myself to eat something every day, but I pretty much always wake up feeling nauseous, and food sounds like the least appealing thing.

For some reason whenever I drink just plain water I have a lot of trouble with that. Like I can't drink just water on it's own, might just be tap water but I've had the same issue with various different bottled water brands.

>>8042389
No but if I eat more than usual I get violent diarrhea immediately

>>8038800
yes. even with all the shit that it came with, id rather be able to not worry about bills, work and depression. I miss building forts in the woods behind my house and having no obligations beyond being home before dark.

>>8038800
The only thing I really miss are the few brief periods where I hung out in the woods with other kids. Highschool in particular was a solid block of academic stress, sleep deprivation, and a slow realization that no one likes me and I will be alone forever.

At least now I know what I am and I'm not ashamed of it.

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haha

Hehe

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Habits/Night in the Woods/Drop-Out unified thread when?

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Shit.

>>8050884
this is what i need

>>8050884
>Drop-Out

No thanks. This comic is shitty Tumblr tranny garbage.

>Boohoo I want to kill myself because people won't treat my crazy tranny ass like a pretty princess

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Sounds about right.

>>8039907
I was like that in middle school when I started doing much worse in tests.

Now here I am a decade later after losing my way on life, my confidence, failing at everything I've tried and gone from bad occupation to worse. I'm convinced if I didn't had my parents I'd be living under a bridge.

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I finally got a new therapist and was on his first individual sessions today, and boy was it a wild ride from start to finish

Apparently I'm too philosophical with some things (apparently quoting self-deprecation memes makes you sound philosophical?) and at one point he had to grab a vocabulary from a bookshelf so that he could understand what the fuck I just said. Then thanks to my borderline masochism he couldn't figure out if I want to get help and or if I actually enjoy suffering from depression.

After this I have pretty huge doubt that he will be able to help me, but I'm going to group therapy session in 2 days and I'm being sent for a bunch of tests to specialized psychologists.

Did I fuck up with my selection of a therapist?

>>8055327
Group therapy sounds like the single worst experience you could have, I wish you luck.

haha stop playing dead thread

These fucking CIA niggers won't leave me alone. They're even watching my shitposts on here.

>>8059299
No we don't.

i went for a bike ride today and realized i'm a stupid impaired degenerate too socially inept to even do what i want to do. my confidence died in school and today i remembered the mentality i had kept. it kinda felt like solace realizing why i stay inside my room all the time and what the allure of nighttime really means.

also i was really high before i left. but i don't think it really led me to any exaggeration.

how do i learn to talk to people, where do i find people who want to talk to me? i don't know how to do it

>>8060933
like my friends make me want to kill myself and i either hate them or they hate me but i still hang around because i don't know who else to fake feeling like garbage around.

it's just constant lies and mind games centered around getting high. i just want to kill myself.

This has been a hell of thread. Glad that this was the first self-hate thread I got involved in. Thanks for tha ride, possums

>>8062594
The ride never ends unless you jump onto the highway.

>>8061191
it just happened. i did the thing i was talking about. fucking fuck them why do i do that.

shit. what the fuck happened, why did everything nosedive so fast. i feel like escapism is becoming a larger thing for me.

These are comfy threads, I gotta say. It's good to have a place to vent about how shitty things are, and get/give feedback to/from people in similar places.

Even if things are fucked up, threads like this are a nice little distraction.
So thanks, guys.

hey if any of you guys here are trash mammals into punk or folkpunk, we got a discord channel we just started up when we realized how many of us there are here on /trash/ .. come join us if you wanna talk shit about the genre and be garbage together. https://discord.gg/QPA2C5u

>>8064131
Damn I am into it but not good in a group chat. I might save the link in case I ever get around to it though.

>>8064193
just idle if you want even bro, we're just talking in chat about life and music and all that good shit.

>>8064217
Gave it a looksi and it seems pretty chill. I might get into it one day.

>>8064514
if youre that aether dragon dude who keeps dipping in and out come hang bro. youre welcome.

do you guys remember pictures for sad children

>>8064807
Those small comic strips that hit close to home? I remember.

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>>8064674
I figure I might as well tell you I won't be able to join. Sorry, but I really can't do stuff like that.

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>>8065077
thanks for trying at least bro. it counts.

>>8064968
i used to print out good one-offs on sticker paper and put them around town. i downloaded the archive and stuck it on an old usb drive i found behind a couch in a different country. i wanna leave it somewhere but i dunno if whoever finds it will even like the humor.

>>8065466
Could you upload all of them to mega or something? I don't have any saved and can't find them all.

Heh...

>>8069336
can they really do that?
huh, thats awesome

>>8069936
Clearly you didn't watch Ice Age 7.

>>8070138
sorry, but ice age possums are shit.

>>8065487
they're all on some mega already, maybe two. lemme find the link...
http://archive.is/AC5Mg (from the deprecating page on john campbell by encyclopedia dramatica)

>>8071363
btw did anyone keep up with his kickstarter blog posts / mental breakdown surrounding faking faking faking depression or something? his website slowly crumbled from just movie clips of clouds to "My name is Basic Income Please" to literally nothing now. desu i feel for the guy.

i calmed myself down. turns out i was really high. still feel like garbage though.

>>8069936
Use their prehensile tails to hang from things?
Yes. But as they grow older they get too heavy to support themselves with their tail alone.
Grab onto their own hand-feet with their hands when trying to grab a branch?
You bet. They're incredibly stupid creatures.

Hahaa bump limit reached

I hope my mandarin tree is fine

>>8073958
relatable

single most hateful, desperate, misanthropic
it will hit you like a fucking shrapnel burst to the throat
sick, twisted shit going on
grind, crust, and sludge

really lets you see inside
still with us
most pained and bizarre
stereotypical death grunt

mankind's collective disregard for the environment
self-professed "Love Earth / Hate People" philosophy
various suicides
repeating
"I can no longer endure the pain,"
fear of life

murder, or maybe drug abuse
pretty hideous
gutwrenching feedback
men talking about why they abused and murdered
"I never hit her. I killed her, but I never hit her."
sadistic irony

Embittered
even worse
purely nonessential

images of societal decay
humanity's destruction of the planet
some almost-illegible writing

deserves to be heard
you don't want your parents to know you own
sickening, painful, brutal
"emotional safety valve."
if you feel like beatin' the shit out of everyone you see

>>8075010
Attempted to make a new thread. As the failure I am, I had to do it twice.

someone please archive this thread. I got serious feelings on this one

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>>8074092
Yeah, about that - if you gonna try to die, then remember you still didn't show us pic of that tree 3:

>>8075167
I always do, and there's that 4archive.org too

>>8075192
Kindly post the link in the next thread.

>>8075289
Haha, nope, I'm a /mischief/ trash!

https://desuarchive.org/trash/thread/7926282/